#intrusions

[littledeathpriestess]

I get a lot of suicidal intrusive thoughts that have little to no weight to them, they're just leftover from the bad days

I worried looking too hard at snuff kink stuff would exacerbate the thoughts or bring the feelings back

But it's actually giving me something to disarm the thoughts with

Because I can meet "I'm going to fucking kms" with "that would be a waste, save your death for someone who would savour it"

(save it for @bubblegumgothglados . Save it for @growlingven . Save it for something really funny. Something terrible. Something I couldn't pull off impulsively or alone.)

And then my brain's just like "...fair point" and I get to carry on about my day

[loathsome-forgotten-tbd]

i am a kind person

i’m afraid to be anything else

i am calm, patient

anger runs underneath every thought in my mind, for myself, for others, for nothing but itself, burning its way through my veins because i refuse to let it out, eating me from the inside

i won’t cross the line

-on my own, on my own. but i fantasize of the day someone pushes me over it and i can let go, go too far, when i have an excuse

it’s alright, i can take it, your pain, your anger

you never gave me a choice, i showed myself capable and you gave and gave and gave and pushed it all onto my shoulders, confident i wouldn’t stumble if it meant release everything i hold dear into the abyss below

i smile, i don’t cry, don’t scream

i keep that all on the inside until my mind rips itself into pieces in an attempt to let it out and i name them and love them for the brief moments they no longer give me the choice to hide

i won’t burden you with my pain

i can’t, i don’t know how, it hurts more than the things you did to me to see that i caused you pain with your own actions

i am agreeable, palatable even, few people dislike me when i speak with them

i fear the day they see into me, that they find the places i relax even an ounce of control, the dark hidden spaces where i speak the truth. i think they sense the distance i have to keep.

i try and try and try to rip the mask off before it suffocates me but it is stuck to my skin, my muscles, drilled into bone. how much will i lose if i get it off? how much? is it worth it? i just want to be seen, to be free. i am covered in my own blood and it burns like acid

i’m fine.

i will get this thing off me if it kills me

[random-xpressions]

I often do a thorough x-ray scan for almost every thought of mine but somehow there is one mystery which still remains unraveled as to how you manage to creep into my head because often your entry is quite invisible and often goes unnoticed as through which gate did you enter or should I be drawing the conclusion that you have always been there, in a quiet unknown corner of my mind...

Random Xpressions

[chetungwan]

I've been real busy lately because it's December and I work at the post office, so of course I am

But that doesn't mean I can't show up with an unprompted PSA

Hey! Have you ever mailed a letter to Santa Claus? Have you ever wondered what exactly happened to that letter? Well wonder no longer! If it had a stamp and a return address, then odds are that it ended up on the USPS's Operation Santa page!

Every year, the USPS collects letters to Santa Claus, and processes them to black out any identifying information. Last names, addresses, things like that. Then, the letters are posted on the Operation Santa webpage and people can adopt the letters.

Once you adopt a letter, you can buy gifts for them, wrap them up, and package them. Then you get a barcode from the website, and bring them to a post office. The clerk there will scan the barcode, which prints out a label with the address on it, and sends out the gift.

It's anonymous on both ends, and is generally just. A really nice thing to do.

I highly recommend it if you have some money to spare this year and want to give a kid a moment of magic this year

It's one of those things that the post office just happened to be positioned to do, and ended up knocking it out of the park. Unfortunately, I don't think they advertise this nearly well enough, and most letters end up going unanswered

Hopefully, a few more will be answered this year

[johniac]

Attention-Worthy Links for December 4th, 2024

[beenovel]

Ok I’m having a slight mental breakdown about the sun the last couple days (idk what’s happening but every time the sun touches me I get these horrible intrusive thoughts like “I’m not wearing sunscreen, my skin is going to peel off my body, I’m going to get melanoma and die of sun cancer”) so to reassure myself and spread awareness here are the signs of melanoma and when to get it checked by a doctor:

[accessibleaesthetics]

I don’t know who needs to hear this today, but intrusive thoughts are basically your brain’s (sometimes very upsetting) way of saying “If there were two guys on the moon and one of them killed the other with a rock would that be fucked up or what?”

I’ve personally found that adding the “would that be fucked or what?” part in myself really helps put the more disturbing thoughts we sometimes get into perspective. Helps me say “yeah thar sure would be fucked up” and move on with my day.

It’s not a secret desire, it’s not something that only occurs to you because you’re a bad person. It’s just your brain deciding to process the fact that it knows an uncomfortable thing exists in the world by feeding it to you in an absurd “what if” with you as the main character.

[vexwerewolf]

I think the most fucked up thing about intrusive thoughts is it's really difficult to discuss them without discussing their content, because without a discussion of their content it's impossible to get across just how distressing and debilitating they are. "Oh, you have unpleasant thoughts sometimes? Yeah we all have that, I guess."

But if you discuss their content there's this huge risk of people just pulling away in disgust. "Oh god, you have THOSE sorts of thoughts? They should lock freaks like you the fuck up!" As if they think people act on every single thought they have.

[kookydoodleky]

Pomni is having the best moment of her digital life

She’s also about to faint

[underwhelmingalchemist]

*mom voice* You can get these words back when you know what they mean

[illusioncanthurtme--art]

Just a man and his muse :)

A shameless plug for something I drew last night!

(I think I'll do a separate post for a proper Patreon update, cuz I've gotten so much support, and I've been doing a lot with it this past week and having a really good time!)

[lolapath]

Ahhh my favourite drink 🍷 the og post (Ig?)

[oddarette]

Lemurdurd 🍋

[syn4k]

[hurristuff]

For this Disability Pride Month, I saw a post that was shittybad and it made me angry. So have this