#posted by dmitri

[loathsome-forgotten-tbd]

i am a kind person

i’m afraid to be anything else

i am calm, patient

anger runs underneath every thought in my mind, for myself, for others, for nothing but itself, burning its way through my veins because i refuse to let it out, eating me from the inside

i won’t cross the line

-on my own, on my own. but i fantasize of the day someone pushes me over it and i can let go, go too far, when i have an excuse

it’s alright, i can take it, your pain, your anger

you never gave me a choice, i showed myself capable and you gave and gave and gave and pushed it all onto my shoulders, confident i wouldn’t stumble if it meant release everything i hold dear into the abyss below

i smile, i don’t cry, don’t scream

i keep that all on the inside until my mind rips itself into pieces in an attempt to let it out and i name them and love them for the brief moments they no longer give me the choice to hide

i won’t burden you with my pain

i can’t, i don’t know how, it hurts more than the things you did to me to see that i caused you pain with your own actions

i am agreeable, palatable even, few people dislike me when i speak with them

i fear the day they see into me, that they find the places i relax even an ounce of control, the dark hidden spaces where i speak the truth. i think they sense the distance i have to keep.

i try and try and try to rip the mask off before it suffocates me but it is stuck to my skin, my muscles, drilled into bone. how much will i lose if i get it off? how much? is it worth it? i just want to be seen, to be free. i am covered in my own blood and it burns like acid

i’m fine.

i will get this thing off me if it kills me

[nopanamaman]

Fresh BTS about character writing + new illustration + new comic pages are now up you know where🏄

[ydotome]

Spy × Family Code: White - Dir. Takashi Katagiri - April 19, 2024

[meepingpenguins]

so sad dima died here (@nopanamaman)

version without image under cut ^_^

[zimnayya]

DIMA'S HERE💥💥💥

Thanks @nopanamaman for the whole PAFL existense, I love it so much. As soon as I've seen Comfort Zone on yt I needed to cosplay Dima AND my friend agreed to cosplay Dr. Temnova I was literally CRYING

Моя мечт�� - пафл становится популярнее и все хорошо..

[luciferiangirrl]

Handsome ✅

Charisma ✅

Sexy ✅

Attractive ✅

Elegant ✅

Powerful ✅

Protector of his woman and his squad ✅

Could kill you ✅

But at the same time marshmallow ✅

Knows how to love and care about his woman, and take/give her breath ✅❤️❤️❤️

If you're close he's ready to open up and be vulnerable with you and vise versa ✅❤️

He's our fine man Dmitry ❤️

[possessedbydevils]

How asking for 3k roubles got mfs feelin

[lanesrequiem]

hsr characters as @inanotherunivrse posts

[sirin-solitude]

Lane's Lookbook: Resident Evil ☢

[gegengestalt]

I finally finished the Mitya as the "Tom Hardy with the angel tiara" pic!

Ref

[dysfunctionalcreature]

a little headcanon that I have is that while Hilbert's medical file about Eiffel is almost entirely just terrifying sounding ramblings about the Decima Virus and detailed descriptions of all of Eiffel's many near death experiences, there is one small asterisked note that says something like "*would greatly benefit from Adderall or a similar medication, will suggest Officer Eiffel pursues a prescription if he makes it back to Earth alive"

[littleoddwriter]

can't stop thinking about Dmitri choosing what Sergei wears for the birthday dinner; especially because he does it in a manner that is so indescribably hot to me. (the way he looks him up and down, smiles almost condescendingly, but is clearly excited, tells him off for wearing what he does and wanting to stay in, almost whining about how it's his birthday and so obviously Sergei has to comply, already having a fitting suit ready at hand, etc.)

and so I'm just over here and absolutely running with that because nobody can tell me that Dmitri wouldn't do that with his partner, as well.

just- Dmitri choosing your outfit when he's going out with you (or for other occasions, or even generally), and you're both loving it because it's casual yet intimate, and it's also a great act of love and affection because in order to dress somebody in a way that makes them comfortable and happy you have to know them so deeply that it's transcending.

[dostoyevskyuri]

[90494]

[orangeno]

dooble dump

I have literally drawn nothing but doodles so far this summer

(except for a my little pony oc that I'm too embarrassed to share)

[theohapi0]

i hc him as being scared of cameras fsr

@nopanamaman