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poetryforventing · 6 months ago
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The Language
You ask me how I am and I tell you I’m fine. It’s a front well practiced, one hammered and honed in the flames of a mind that has burned up and on and on and out so many times that it has forged an entire armory of defences.
But you ask me how I am and I tell you I’m fine and you think me plain, dull, awkward, unkind. Alright. But I don’t know that I have a better answer. The world is dying, and I have no hope left. I don’t believe that there is good in all of us. As we speak we’re spilling blood: foreign blood, poor blood, queer blood, girl blood, black blood, native blood in a genocidal fervour that has persisted millenia. And our violence leaves a gouging slash across our collective chest, staining the human consciousness with ever more eternal, immovable shame. I don’t believe everything will work out just fine in the end. I don’t believe we will all be okay.
I’m uncommunicative. It’s true, I’m sorry. But I don’t care about your sex life. I don’t care about your opinions on influencers. I don’t care about your shitty inherited politics. I don’t care what they said on Insta, or Reddit, or X, or Facebook, or TikTok. I don’t care what the hot topic is. Fuck your hot takes. There is blood flowing in the streets, native bones buried beneath the buildings of white settlers, there are generational stains on our souls and yet we work only to sear more grief into the essence of our very beings. Good god, colonialism really taught us nothing. We are killing every last ‘other’ until we are all that’s left, just so that when we kill our world too and go down with it we can claim that it was ours. In the ash of all that is left, perhaps, finally, earth will be as white as we wanted it to be.
You ask me how I am and I tell you I’m fine. You think me cold but I am an inferno inside. I have carved my life into a shell to surround these lashing flames of thought. I don't act how I feel–my whole existence is an energy shield–but, god, I feel hate like you won’t believe. I dream of ripping out throats with my teeth. Capital rules the world and has us kiss its feet, but even that is a lie. The mechanics of power subjugate us in entirety. Capital is just the tool of choice, the selected construct. It is nothing more than a rotten, violent euphemism that cradles us in its maw, waiting for the order to bite.
You wish I would speak more but I have so little to say if we’re not planning the deaths of the bourgeoisie, the policy-makers, the bigots and the land-lords the world over. Every throat I want to taste. Every drop of blood I want to spill in the sort of ritualistic vengeance we absolutely don’t need. Just, please, let me at them. When I'm done I will jump into the sea and it will all be over. Finally.
I can barely even bring myself to get worked up over our changing climate–though I know it’s another active tragedy and, in the moments I stop to think, it makes me sick–when apocalyptic radioactive annihilation is one bad day away, when women’s rights are those of livestock and POC are institutionalised into modern slaves, when we’re living in a world where autonomy and identity are dangerous things. It’s too much grief to contain in one life. It’s too much pain to even attempt to bear. I hope you are starting to see: it’s not any one of these things, it’s everything.
There’s nowhere even to run away. I flew to North America where Pride is sponsored by Target and they build Wendy’s on sacred native land. I returned to England where we practice monarchy and xenophobia as a matter of course, pine for the British empire and laugh openly at the murder of trans girls. Next I go East, where I am ignorant, but things are every bit as twisted, I just won’t put their particularities in my white words, I refuse to appropriate any more into my British Museum of atrocity. In the end I go to bed, where sadness makes sense.
If you’re not angry, you should be. If you’re like me, I’m sorry.
You ask me how I am and I tell you I’m fine. But really I don’t have the words. Even all of this despair and rage is nothing but the bubbling skin of the witch’s brew. The essence of the thing is a wicked magic, not communicable in words, it is violent and immediate and spanning and intrinsic and awful and consuming.
You ask me how I am and I tell you I’m fine. But the truth is I don’t have the language.
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bioethicists · 3 months ago
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when i moved to new england i had multiple providers try to convince me that my psych abuse experiences were a byproduct of the south having shitty services but that inpatient/institionalized care in new england is ~so much better~ + now that i'm witnessing secondhand how fucked they are in new england, as well, i almost feel vindicated but mostly feel pissed off.
new englanders love to pretend that the south is more 'backwards' than them in every respect rather than examine their own systems or consider that a more progressive ideology does not inherently produce more just or less abusive outcomes
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hiiragi7 · 8 months ago
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Over the years, I have noticed a troubling conflict in the way people speak about disorders and disabilities which are different from their own.
"You don't have tics, you have Munchausen's"
"You don't have DID, you have schizophrenia"
"You're not chronically ill, you're just a narcissist"
This sentiment that you cannot have xyz disorder, are lying or "insane", and must truly have this other disorder instead.
It is as if there are the Good Disorders; those which are Morally Correct to have; those which you are subjected to; those which make your life harder, and the Bad Disorders; those which are Morally Wrong to have; those which you deserve to have; those which make other peoples' lives harder. And so, there is this idea that those with the Bad Disorders attempt to trick others into believing they actually have the Good Disorders, and that this must be called out and these people shamed and exorcised so as to not taint the purity of those with the Good Disorders.
It is what is behind this common demand of "You must acknowledge you have The Bad Disorder and seperate yourself from those of us with The Good Disorder, or else you will further our oppression, harm us, steal our resources, and spread lies about our disorder."
And then I realized, it is that a lot of people believe that Good People have Good Disorders and Bad People have Bad Disorders.
Good People have disorders such as PTSD, anxiety, depression; Bad People have disorders such as personality disorders, bipolar, schizophrenia.
And so, Bad People cannot have Good Disorders. I feel that this also ties into ideas of what "victims of disability/abuse" look like, and the idea of the Good Victim; this idea that in order to be truly victimized, you must be entirely and wholly pure behaviorally, emotionally, physically, racially, and sexually, or else you are considered to be deceitful and deserving of abuse and disability. Those who are "truly" victims are those who are deemed to fully reject their abuse and disability, and who are also deemed to be wholly pure and good.
For those who are held up as Good Victims [of disability/abuse], it is said that they deserve support, justice, and healing. For those who are decided to be Bad Victims [of disability/abuse], it is said they deserve isolation, institionalization, violence, and perhaps even death.
Even within communities for specific disorders, there are the Good Symptoms and the Bad Symptoms, and it is a common sentiment that those with the Bad Symptoms must not truly have the disorder; to imply otherwise would risk the purity of the disorder (or, if it is a "Bad Disorder", it damages the possibility of the disorder someday moving into a Good Disorder status).
This entire structure relies on deeply ingrained ableist ideals and concepts of morality, purity, and dis/ability. It keeps us divided from each other and damages attempts at community.
Dismantling ableism requires supporting each other; when we perpetuate the idea that other disabled people are lying about their disability, that they are not who or what they claim to be, and that they require immediate curative interventions in order to not harm others, we reinforce ableist ideas and stereotypes about disabled people within our communities.
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postsforposting · 4 months ago
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weird that people can be hardcore prison abolitionists and so against things like racism/bigotry,
and then you bring up institionalization, and leftism leaves their bodies because "some people are just born trash and if we don't put them in concentration camps and abuse them to maintain our superiority, they'll kill us all"
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eatmangoesnekkid · 1 year ago
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Most traditional western allopathic doctors just do not know what they are doing. It's not intentional or their fault but it is how they have been trained and groomed in a corrupted institionalized medical system that runs off capitalism. I have been really polite around this issue and not being true to my channeling because I didn't want anyone who may be in the care of the western medicine to be afraid or worried. That is not why I share the following. What I heard from spirit is that most western doctors' solutions and answers for any ailment will usually be in the frequency of x-raying and testing, more x-raying and testing, then drugs (poisoning and numbing the body) and some kind of surgery. They will never tell us that our bodies are naturally regenerative and the solutions to most dis-eases and illnesses are rest/sleep, de-stressing the body and life, fasting (detoxifying the body and managing addictions-social media (dopamine), blue light (electromagnetic, computer, and phone use) food, and other addictions, sunlight, building harmonious relationships and intimacies (platonic, familial, and romantic), exercise (which basically means simple movements that warm up the tissues in the body to support healthy circulation), and devotion to some kind of creative/spiritual/energy practice. Basically when we recalibrate ourselves (our actual cells), live a simple regenerative life that takes care of our mental, emotional, spiritual, sensuous, and physical needs, and rework our psyche (repressed shadows and unconscious energy), our biology naturally shifts into greater harmony. The solutions and answers from Western allopathic medicine generally manipulate, weaken, and ultimately drain the divine-given magical (regenerative powers) of human beings and cause us to overconsume on materialism in order to cope with living so distant from the truth of ourselves (our cells) is what I also heard. We have to learn to be more responsible for ourselves (our cells) and come back into union without mind, body, and spirit. One of the greatest core collective woundings is that most people do not want to be responsible for themselves, but every experience that shows up in our reality is an opportunity for us to get to know our real true selves (cells). -India Ame'ye, Author #themelodyoflove
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respocked · 3 months ago
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The worst TOS episode - a trans perspective
I'm making my own post because I don't want to litter the polls with my ventpost/discourse.
There is a TOS best episode bracket poll going on and currently Turnabout Intruder is winning to Paradise Syndrome. Seeing which, has put me in a not very good mental space last night.
I have loved Star Trek for a few years now and engaged with the fandom, I feel very passionate about it - but the absolutely rabid misogyny in the source material makes it sometimes very, very difficult to be in fandom spaces. Seeing episodes with such rotten, dehumanizing view of people born as women being discussed in positive light is very difficult to me.
To make it clear - I'm not calling out anyone for voting for it, or saying it is inherently misogynistic to do so! (it's possible that people just hate The Paradise Syndrome more lmao). It is also possible to enjoy the works of fiction that are flawed, I mean, I AM a fan of Star Trek. In this post I will simply explain why I don't like this episode and why I don't like seeing it praised.
I wish that I could enjoy a sci-fi "utopia" in peace, without being reminded of heterosexism and violence. It upsets me to see misogyny not because I want things I am a fan of to be perfect, but because heterosexism and cis supremacy already affects my everyday life greatly and hurts me deeply. And seeing it in fiction rubs the salt in the wound.
I wanted to channel the way I feel into productivity and make a post abt Turnabout Intruder with some feminist analysis, but I genuinely don't think I can watch it again, and I would need to do so - so this is going to be a quick one.
If you haven't seen it/have seen it a log time ago: the plot of the episode is that Kirk's body is stolen by his ex, a woman. She is jealous of the oppurtunities he got as a man, so she impersonates him, wants to become him. However, the crew of the Enterprise realizes something is wrong, based of the woman's behaviour in Kirk's body - it is not like Jim Kirk to act the way she does.
The way she does, of course, is overemotional and illogical. The idea of a woman succesfully doing a man's job, assuming his place in society, is discounted immediately. The episode doesn't sympathize with her desires and wants. She is villainized and called insane. Gender cannot be transcanded, and not only that, but people who attempt are to be punished. A woman should know her place, and accept it. Submission is a woman's natural state - you are not supposed to want more out of your life.
The label of "insane", that features even (if I recall correctly) in the episode's synopsis is one that is to me especially violent. Psychiatry was (and still is!) weaponized against the gender-nonconforming. In my country people born as women who didn't agree with roles prescribed to them were for years forcibly institionalized, drugged, raped. "Conversion therapy" is still not banned in my country. Hate groups are trying to pass a bill which would ban autistic and mentally ill people from transitioning - weaponizing mental health care to beat people into conformity, into submission.
I read Turnabout Intruder as a transgender metaphor. The way the woman desiring to have a man's body is portrayed reflects the strategies of real life violence against people who do not conform to gender roles.
When I first watched this episode, I was in high school. I knew TOS was sexist, because I watched all the other episodes before. But it still deeply hurt me.
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onereallygoodlambonastick · 7 months ago
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Clearly somebody has retained their naivete in adulthood and it's not the institionalized terminally online social media
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welcome-to-oslov · 11 months ago
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Alright, sorry to be your ask box penpal this week, but I'm just such an Oslov superfan & binge reading so I have too many thoughts to share 😂.
Last ones: I'm Brazilian but have lived in America half my life (15 years). Just got home to visit São Paulo and it's helping me understand Gersha and the other not-evil-but-complicit characters better. As you may know, we have extreme inequality in Brazilian society. São Paulo's an amazing city with tons of upper social class & rich powerful people. However our lifestyle as upper class people is dependent on there being a huge class of poor people locked out of opportunity with no choice but to learn deference and work as low-paid servants. For example, a live-in nanny who cares for children of well-off families like a second mother, while her own children go without mothering far away. Young people from the impoverished northeast brought to the big cities for "opportunity" that are really just exploitative domestic labor.
Many of us know this feels wrong... yet so many of my class hate politicians whose policies haved lifted many out of poverty - and suddenly the price of maids double and poor kids can get into the excellent universities only WE'd been able to attend. This felt like a threat to our very existence. Many of us performatively talk about social justice & how it's wrong that only WE have power & opportunity, but the few of our peers who actually do something about it do feel threatening.
Of course thankfully we don't have this institionalized crazy kettle boy system, and mistreated maids drivers etc can easily quit & find another shitty job no problem. But, those who are really trapped are a mistreated son or daughter children of an upper class family. Every well-off family has someone who holds all the money & power: a father, uncle, or grandfather. As upper class kids we are supported by our families till ~25 because even it's not possible to launch your young adult life without family money; due to social divisions, you can't go out & get a teen/college kid job like in America, your friends all live at home too you can't really go move with them, the best university is going to be in your home city, and even good entry-level grad jobs at corporations don't really start paying enough till you're older since they figure you're paying your dues while your family patriarch supports you. If that patriarch is or was abusing you, you wouldn't have many clear ways out.
So how does a guy or girl in a bad situation get out? You get married young (20, 21, 22, etc.). Once you're married you're considered an adult: your wealthy family buys you two a starter condo, jobs might give you a raise, etc. You can divorce later, but getting that spouse gives you protection & distance & resources. Ofc easier for a girl to take this route, but a guy too could get a rich daddy's girl he knows at their nice school to marry him & insist her father set them up with young married life if his family drags their feet (though generally even an abusive patriarch would play ball here & realize he's been beat, otherwise he looks bad socially). I've seen this scenario play out with a couple of friends.
Which... basically is Tilrey's escape. He realizes he has an opportunity in Gersha & he goes for it, out of desperation to escape, genuine relief at finding someone nice he can live with & be his ally as he breaks free, etc 😢🙏
(Speaking of Tilrey & Brazil, what do you think of my casting suggestion post?! Hahahaha :) I have such a crush, but c'mon, he's gorgeous!)
I'm here for your thoughts any time! And I know very little about Brazil, so that's a fascinating comparison! Especially the parts about family structure and how young upper-class people might need to marry to establish their independence. That reminds me of 18th- and 19th-century Europe, which was a big influence on Oslov because I've read a ton of novels from that period. Extreme inequality was a factor there, too, and patronage was the main way of advancing in society, which increases both corruption and the power of family elders. There are a lot of stories about people (always women) being trafficked and forced into sex work, but then turning that into a source of power because of their sheer beauty. Of course we have widening inequality in the U.S. too, and connections seem more and more important, and many people are resistant to any form of redistribution. So I wonder if we're headed in the same direction, which scares me. Especially since there are tech billionaires who would definitely justify that as "meritocracy."
He is totally gorgeous! :)
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drdamiang · 9 months ago
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MONSTERS
MONSTERS
we expect
better of
our monsters
more
from them
we demand that
they be
fully
institionalized
but there again,
demand is perhaps
too strong
a word
we wake
but we
do not see
unfortunately
and thus cannot
but fail to notice
that we
fail
to notice
that in the mirror
everything is
reversed
not upside down, as
radical theory Zizeks
would have
us overthink it
just simply reversed
take a quick squizz
on your way
into the world
and you could be forgiven
for not thinking
the monster is there
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anxsity · 1 year ago
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writing a poem to prevent asking a reddit forum and getting institionalized
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dmnsqrl · 1 year ago
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the morbid hilarity of realizing that were I actually in a "institutionalized by disability/age AND disability" situation
that "de-gendered by abelism/ageism AND abelism"
is actually closer to what my gender IS
than the box society wants to file a non-institionalized me
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creekfiend · 1 year ago
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oh I just realized that one of the major stumbling blocks for many people being introduced to antipsych is that people are unclear about what we mean by "psych"
antipsych is about Psychiatry As An Institution. it is not about the concept generally of therapy or counseling (although it is often *critical* of those things as being adjacent to Psychiatry As An Institution as things are currently.)
when we talk about antipsych we mean that medicalization of brain differences *right now* results in people having their human rights violated. forcibly medicating and institionalizing people is legal and acceptable due to the existence of Psychiatry. that's bad.
Hey pip, I apologize deeply if this is a question you get often. But can you explain the "Antipsych" tag? This is not meant as a gotcha or trying to invite discourse and I understand if you're not comfortable explaining to a stranger (or in this case, millions of strangers) your personal views on your belief or lack thereof in therapy, im just genuninly interested as i've never seen someone hold a genuine "intelectual" aversion to the practice. Thank you, have a good day and kiss Glimmer on her dumb little head.
if you read the contents of the posts in the antipsych tag it should be pretty obvious
scroll back far enough and there's plenty of manifestos
tl;dr is that psychiatry is an arm of the carceral state.
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Didn't think I could hate lovaas anymore than I already did but neurotribes has proven me wrong many times over and I JUST started reading the chapter that focuses on him
This man's fuckin EGO
I want to strangle him and he's been dead for 10 years
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AHHHHHHHHHHH
Physical contact doesn't specifically cause me pain but it does cause me a great deal of discomfort. However I know it does cause other autistics pain. So. Suuuuuure let's just train kids to ignore their own pain because some people don't like that they won't hug them. Great plan /s
Anyways I had to stop reading for tonight cuz 1, this chapter is VERY long and I wanna go to bed
And 2,
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Theres only so much egotistical bullshit I can handle
Oh, and
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Imma just go scream into a pillow until I pass out
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hicholasnemmick · 4 years ago
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i like oikawa because i too feel like i won’t be anything useful until i leave my country
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dougiedisarray · 4 years ago
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Sometimes I just want to throw my textbooks into my professors stupid head. One day I’m going to have the time and resources to expose the bogus corruption that runs this entire industry.
Why does your textbook cost $100+? Oh and coincidentally it’s written by your close personal friend? And we’re all required to buy the newest version?
Bullshit.
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ambientblackmetal033 · 3 years ago
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I’m only here at this shelter for three days cause i rolled dice and I literally couldn’t make a choice and I have nothing left to loose at this point and this was option 4 to go to another shelter and bet On my dominatrix social worker to come through to a better accommodation then going from shelter to shelter then I can start again
for those who are curious other options were prison , runaway to Toronto , go with biker dad , institionalize myself and option 6 which was go home (kill self)
I guess do it better this time go through an agency maybe become a travelling sugar baby because if theres anything I can say I enjoy
about being homeless is never having somewhere I need to return to be stuck at I can come and go as I please there’s a freedom I’m that I never truly had before maybe ill become a dominatrix this time around either way I want to up my game again no attachments to anyone anything or any place just Ike now just me and my independence
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