#insane person rambling over. for now
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anyway i stand by the idea that the reason why future leo looks Way too much like his teen self was to make the point that the bad future leo is still the same person he was when he was 16 because he never had the chance to grow to his full potential due to the apocalypse turning his focus entirely to just Surviving, and the new future leo will actually look quite a Lot different than he did in the bad future
#i mean like. aside from the arm. that’s a given that he won’t have raphs arm LMAO#(i still like the idea that future leo will always only have one arm tho bc there’s something wrong w me i think)#BUT ANYWAY#you might go ‘talon he just looks similar bc it’s the same guy’#and i see ur point However#do u know how much someone changes from 16 to 40 something ?#so fucken much.#<- i’ll be honest i don’t remember the age he’s supposed to be in future. it was 40 something i Think#also like. look at future mikey compared to teen mikey#obviously it’s the same person. but they do look very different#at least to me#i might just be losing my mind#ANYWAY#insane person rambling over. for now#rottmnt#leo#future leo#rottmnt leo#🐀
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i... wrote a smol fic (っ´▽`*)っ
also!!!!! If you haven't seen it - shoutout to first ever published fic in Ninja Showdown/My Immortal Soul tags - Lustrous Red by @missadmyre !!!
#ninja showdown#my immortal soul#first ninja x chase young#rc9gn first ninja#first ninja#rc9gn#chase young#xiaolin showdown#randy cunningham 9th grade ninja#rc9gn plop plop#well i say smol fic.... but those 4k words felt very long.#i did say i was going to direct my energy into writing >.> and now look at me ive gone insane#no actually dont look at me im just gonna go cry over my 20k words of rough drafts for like dozen ideas that are now going#to haunt my every waking moment like JESUS i woke up today and literally wrote out 1k words of an idea for a modern au for those two TToTT#its literally an au where its a meet cute turned meet violent and first is randy's sorta dad and chase wants to adopt omi#not to mention a different AU where its an epic mystery adventure AAAAAAA someone heeeelppppp meeeee#also. its been a month but im still staring so intently at missadmyre's fic hoping for another crumb. like thank you sm for the food!!!!#ive literally been rereading it several times after i went insane about it on my main blog and im still slurping at it like a starved perso#Ive been collecting my ideas like a dragon but after reading that fic i was like: I WANT TO READ MORE FICS ABOUT THEM#but i dont wanna be a whiny baby&beg others and be annoying about it. So i put on my big person pants and was like f it WE R WRITINg NOW#so i dont care how bad my writing will be. we gonna be balling on those ideas and YES it doesnt make sense im just v rambly rn
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Hello hello!!! Guess what. Yokai art dump below the cut!! So cool and shiny wow
Its true, I do >u<
I'll try and section these and give the usual explanations below! Image ID for more drawing specific inksplanation.
Click for full image! Since a lotta these are weirdly shaped they were cut off....augh...
McKraken and Maddiman related doodlesssss they're some of my faves <3 i will always love them even if they're not my focus characters atm (well. McKraken kinda is rn but also Babblong so YAY)
Misc. Yokai and ocs! The frog is Kerosque, the guy w the swirly pompadour thing is Swiss, and the monkey is Romono (although he's a Regretevator OC from FOREVER ago, he's still my son <33)
SWISS STUFF RAUGHHHH ! inconsistent style will be APPARENT here try not to notice shuhhhhhgh
Height for main yokai in my AU/on Casp's team! (In the anime it's just primary summons then wwwww)
Some yokai practice/design hcs bc my friend asked!! I was so happy to share 🤭 LOVE YOU CHERCHERRRR
Some of my little guys once more! Rawry' prob one of my faves yokai to draw, easy and fun to do show-accurate or stylized.
OCSSSSSS. AND BADDINYAN. MY EVIL CAT <3333 the guy next to the frog in the middle is an oc idea but idk for what yet =▽=
AUGH. THERES AN IMAGE LIMIT? Well in case you're wondering it's 30....post the rest after I get tomorrow's doodles. See you then and thank you for looking at and reading about my arts!
#Also this is me just rambling now but like where would I be without commas and parenthesis? I love using them#...as I'm sure you've noticed. But that jusy proves my point!!!#I've been so insane about drawing recently like I will sit down and fill a page or so withing like 30 minutes bc I get bored#(Idk how much that I'd in retrospect but per my usual rate that's a Lot!!)#I've been using Swiss bc I wanna decide what to do with him in the AU after Event...#I also project onto him a lot bc some of his personality really reflects my younger self#Although very traditional my mother raised me rather androgynous in terms of typical child stuff. I got to hang with boy and girl stuff so#Swiss has a few aspects of when i hadent (and admittedly still havent) really gotten past my pride or fear in favor of#Oh i don't know#Making friends??? Not being unintentionally or intentionally a jerk?#Fun little fact; it's not really that Swiss is a picky eater#But rather he has some Problems.....#Like that he's really puntable/j#Caspian has tried to have him answer. Anything without lying but unfortunately he just Does That Sometimes#Sometimes it's not even on purpose. Odd but it happens!#Anyways. I could go on and on but it's almost midnight over here....I really am.like Babblong jajaja ○u○#□ yolo watch 2!#yokai watch#●posts from yomakai#yo kai watch#I'll just tag those with at least 3 appearances methinks#Aswell as ocs bc I flatter myself!!#Caspian ykw#Swiss ykw#Kerosque#Fuwhirl#McKraken#Dr Maddiman#Baddinyan#Casanuva
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Mini Silverborn Countdown
If you’ve been around for a few years, you’ve seen me vaguely mention a “Silverborn Countdown Challenge” several times. It’s been delayed and changed as many times as the book itself, lol.
If anyone wants sort of a low-stakes, very chill and spaced out version of this ye olde never tackled challenge to complete in the next year before Silverborn, I propose what I’m doing:
Every 3 months leading up to the initial release, I am creating one thing based on each of the books.
January — Nevermoor
April — Wundersmith
July — Hollowpox
#nevermoor#nevermoor fanart#nevermoor fanfic#silverborn#silverborn countdown challenge#thank you theo for reminding me to post abt this on here. I am stealing the “mini” moniker (?) in return. lol.#this was in my drafts and I forgot to post it. happens a lot lol.#anyways if you’re reading this happy new years !#nine masterpost ver 1.0 dropping tomorrow evening prob bc I have had a headache all day and that’s the next time I’m free#now time to sleep. zzzzzz. perhaps I’ll have a prophetic silverborn dream. who knows.#I love giving myself set times to draw nevermoor things or just think about the series bc otherwise I go insane#literally thinking abt this stuff 24/7 it’s all I want to draw. But then I have to hold myself back + then end up never drawing anything lol#I have three big things planned for this like big pieces to work on over awhile and get myself out of my comfort zone#but idk what to draw for this first one. aahhhhh. excited for wundersmith and hollowpox though.#also I want to do a little animation for nevermoorian new years. which is on a leap day this year! how fun!!#I have an eternal nevermoor to-draw list that only gets bigger#sorry to the person that requested some Christmas stuff last year. I missed out and was gonna do it this year. then no time. so next year? 😅#also 🏆 to anyone that ever reads my ramblings in my tags. I am so insane about nevermoor especially. <333
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Hello I'm randomly thinking about Healin Good PreCure for the first time in years and looking back at how wildly people misunderstood the point and expected every other season to follow a plot point that's very specific to it
#very jarring change of pace from talking about Jewish issues i know but like LISTEN#yes everyone loves Nodoka and the conclusion to her arc obviously. i love it too#but people saw her refuse help for an insanely specific reason and immediately jumped to 'every cure should now kill their villains!'#NO#THAT'S MISSING THE POINT#IT'S NOT ABOUT PACIFISM OR REDEMPTION IT'S ABOUT PERSONAL AUTONOMY#Nodoka might have forgiven or helped Daruizen if he wasn't going to take her over. make her sick and on the verge of death again#this isn't about forgiving him for being a villain but about him wanting to violate Nodoka's body#it's a very personal matter that literally only applies to her because no other cure was in this situation#none of them had to deal with a literal virus that wanted to crawl back and literally destroy their life#screaming again NODOKA ISN'T A COOL EDGY BADASS SHE'S A GIRL RECLAIMING HER BODY!!!!#SHE'S NOT A COLD BLOODED KILLER SHE'S A KIND GIRL WHO ALSO REALIZED SHE DOESN'T HAVE TO SACRIFICE HER HEALTH!!!#the expectation that every other cure after her should be violent ignores that A:#SHE WASN'T VIOLENT#SHE ONLY TOOK HIM DOWN AFTER HE LEFT HER NO CHOICE#and B: ignores. again THE EXTREMELY SPECIFIC SITUATION SHE WAS IN#yes Nodoka is a queen you go girl#but she's not a hashtag violent villain killer#the other cures aren't wrong for being forgiving#the desire for violence shouldn't be forced on a series all about compassion!!!!#anyways. um. as you can see I'm normal about PreCure#mango rambles#PreCure#healin' good precure#healin good precure#forgot how i tag it#nodoka hanadera#Cure grace#anyways um. time to watch Wonderful PreCure I guess!
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You know what disco elysium place I want to know more about? Ubi Sunt?, the only geographical location in elysium with a punctuation mark in it's name. Fond of socialism and sheep. Facing crushing poverty and total entroponetic collapse. It is literally being eaten by the pale. Named after a latin phrase from the vulgate bible commonly used to mean nostalgia, translating to "Where are those that came before us?"
#Where are the princes of the nations#and those who rule over the beasts on earth;#those who mock the birds of the air#and who hoard up silver and gold#in which men trust#and there is no end to their getting; those who scheme to get silver#and are anxious#whose labours are beyond measure?#They have vanished and gone below#and others have arisen in their place.#<- the passage in question#disco elysium#it isn't referenced in pjol so i assume it's a later addition to canon or alternatively it's fully gone by the time pjol is set#the transience of life the appeal to the past#it's making me a little insane#was researching for fic purposes and went down a rabbit hole and now i'm just#i want to know so much more#personal#DE rambling
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Congratulations on figuring out there are multiple people in your brain btw. I saw a while ago you posting about it being unsure so, YAY YOU FIGURED IT OUT!! LETSGOOOO!!! HELLO CHARLIE AND OTHER CODECICLE ALTERS!!!! YAAAYYYY!!!!!
FIGURED IT OUT!!! It really is crazy I didn't figure it out sooner, but I just assumed I was weird and didn't talk to anybody about it. Made a joke about it after multiple years of hiding it from everyone (and myself) and got told by multiple people "Hey yeah you're not normal go research stop feeling scared" and I did and now I'm friends with the people in my brain 🔥🔥 huge wins all around! LETSGOOO WOOOOOOOO CHEERING YAAAY!! Everyone rattling around up here says hi back!!!
#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#we have mail :]#actually insane i didnt figure it out earlier.#[guy with a disorder he doesnt know about voice] yeah man idk i feel like my body is being controlled by other people a lot of the time#and i talk to completely real people in my head everyday and others think im entirely insane because of it so i have to hide it#and i have memory issues and feel like going by multiple names#and my personality keeps changing and my likes and wants flip flop around#and im ALWAYS dissociated. wonder what all thats about !#surely not something ive been well aware of for years . SURELY not#IT COULDNT BE!#<- i may be stupid#it didnt help that they could subconsciously mess with me too. i didnt know why i felt scared of people finding out i was multiple#BEFORE i figured it out myself#then i sat down with charlie and had a conversation and quickly figured out ah. its your fault#motherfucker#anyway rambling over#its just really funny to me just how long i lived like this without thinking twice about it#and im really happy to slowly accept it and learn to live in harmony now ^_^
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True enjoyment of interests™ means subtly wearing something in a way that someone might kinda go "🤨? - that's kinda familiar" but not be confident enough to actually call you out on it for each one
(Source: ME, who owns zip-at-the-front boots like Cloud Strife/buster sword earrings & keychain/Kirby earrings/Legend of Zelda earrings/white gloves that give off the strongest Sonic vibes ever/anklets for Cove/green & gold nail polish for Lloyd etc)
#im actually a walking advertisement for most of my interests#you just have to look close enough#'I don't talk about the things I enjoy/hide any enjoyment of them' - ??#no??#you're just not cool and in-the-know and can see all my cool references actually#get with the programme smh /j#although when someone DOES recognise one of them I kinda wish they didn't because im terrified that they'll start quizzing me or something#OR im now nervous bc now I have to talk about my interests and not seem INSANE to the other person who's probably a casual enjoyer#something something that one post about someone explaining the difference between the 2 using doughnuts as the object of interest#the casual fan just enjoys/eats them while the 'insane one' built their house out of doughnuts#i have built so many houses#ANYWAY - also hello im alive :3#sorry for falling off the face of the earth for like a good week or 2 i think - id say id been busy but thats not true LMAO#just rotting away👍#(FFVII remake sucked me in - im so sorry... it got me😔 it got me GOOD - i am NOT the strongest soldier it has taken me over)#hmiae rambles#hmiae personal#ninjago#lloyd garmadon#ffvii#ffvii remake#cloud strife#kirby#the legend of zelda#our life beginning and always#our life cove#cove holden#sonic
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whshdfhfjf.,,,
#close up!! because i firstly Did Not render them with such insanity in order for tumblr's lack of general resolution to make it blur#look at all the lines!!! teehee i still really really like this style of digital painting it's super super fun to do!!! and also secondly#because i went back and added a tag ramble and as i seem to often be doing??? lately?? reached the 30 tag limit and went 'hm ok how else..'#anyway the tag essay on that one is now up and talks about the artwork generally and miscellaneous thoughts!! that said. i need a space to#ramble about beatrix at Length because look you don't draw and paint etc a character for like ten hours without having a lot of thoughts#anyways ! i digress terrifically. tag rambles are more like trains of thoughts masquerading as subways and you get on and it's unfortunately#a rollercoaster track. but this is My Blog and i can do Whatever I Want as long as i don't hurt anyone <- affirmations!! also Harm Principle#lately it's been like *kicks up feet* *opens tumblr tags* *treats it as own personal journal* and tbh Good for me!! anyways back to beatrix#fun fact ! the thing that pushed me over the edge to go watch the musical after looking through the tumblr tag was a very specific poll.#and the fact that the winning option was blue hair and pronouns made me double over laughing so hard i had to go see the source material#mm i feel like lately the academic Context has been tossing me essentially into a blender HAHA ;-; so everyone in adamandi is to some extent#a Mood. but bea-specific (haha be specific)(sorry!)(wow this is the same reaction mechanism of my friend who points out innuendos)(...)#i think it's the wanting to prove herself. like from the whole abuela etc thing there's proof here she's got a Stable Support System of sort#and instead what beatrix continues to do is push themselves. 'i guess u could say i'm married to my work? god that's depressing' // no one#here to enforce that // abuela tells me to rest says i'm constantly stressed and i'll just get depressed like before but i still have to try#like. that shred of desperation that pushes you to the brink to neglect yourself (well i guess physically but also your morals..) and like!!#the whole 'lose half your soul thing' proves she's self aware!! like they know what they're doing is super dubious yknow! but they're still#they're still doing it even if it goes into conflict with their morality system in a way and then they justify it to themselves (see pt 1#of ghostwriter) and the whole wanting to achieve at all costs Despite the self awareness. (i think? this aspect also applied to quincy. but#thoughts on him will come later). more beatrix specific also is the fact that they genuinely adore their work.. 'i just love it here where#you know they'll be printing forever and you are just part of it' because that does kind of resonate with me. also the being behind in the#competition is real!!! i'm maybe talking about Art as a subject because that same drive for it exists on my good days i think. even#even when nothing seems to be going right and you've ended up at the back the intent passion inherent in what you do is still there!!!#the genuine. care she has for reporting. is so !!!!! to me... other beatrix thoughts include 'why reveal yourself at the end' aka vincent's#'u should have stayed silent u had a smart plan' like rip to them but i would not // it feels with bea's complex character i can't imagine h#her Not doing that. like the guilt is real i guess. and i am running out of tags but! smth also about her fervent hope or smth that she'll#eventually get to where she wants. and the resilient determination.. 'i won't let their deaths be pointless there's more good i'm gonna do'#they're so so real for that. i'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing; seeing myself reflected in aspects of characters like this.. but it's#it's there regardless. smth smth just make your peace with the person you are ig!! tldr beatrix campbell my beloved. hehe#adamandi
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soooooooo
i was going over my plan for the next arc... and remember when i said this fic would be around 40 chapters until the reveal.
uhhhh
that will definitely not be the case :/
ALSO
i just ranted in the tags. APPARENTLY THERES A LIMIT TO THE NO OF TAGS!?
ive never done that before lol
#might make it to 50 honestly#i need to make sure i pace this righf#dont wanna let you guys get action fatigue#because damn#this final battle will go hard#im also struggling with mapping out Kendras whole personality#i dint want her to just be a shallow villian#but i also want her to be insane#and like#it's difficult#finding the balance between the two#because i want her to be insane with a purpose#also i changed some plot things about and her motivation now doenst sit right with me#so i need to work shop that too#sorry this is a bit of a ramble#i just went over my plans and got immediately bamboozled by the characters#i want them to do what i want#so i need to find ways that would make them take the decisions i want them too#i dont want them to be too ooc#i want it to be within reason#also i have some cool scenes whichbi dint think fit in properly anymore#but i desperately want them too#so#yeah im working on it#my notes file is so long now lol#this fic will be the death of me#/pos#but one things for sure#yall're in for a ride#open your shell to find your wings
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i've been obsesing over a tlt twilight au solely because of the silly edit with harrow seeing alecto alla bella seeing edward and.
it's so silly and dumb but gideon being the vampire and ianthe being the werewolf and they both obsessively pin over the weird loner wet rat harrow that just moved into town. i wanna say camilla, palamedes, dulcinea (the real one), protesilaus, jeannemary and isaac are part of the same family, all vampires, with abigail and magnus being the parental figures (basically the cullens). the third and second houses i'm thinking are all the werewolves, maybe the eight too. i just love the idea of ianthe and coronabeth being raised to maybe one day both take over the pack until they find out coronabeth is in fact not a werewolf. john and all the remaining of the first would be the volturi ofc but all the cavaliers would actually be alive? i haven't thought that far.
#the locked tomb#the locked tomb twilight au#nevermind me and my silly ramblings i have just been thinking about this too hard lmao#i just want harrow being like ugh i hate you griddle but the moment she and the rest of her family leaves she is miserable for months#seeing gideon at every chance she gets but instead of adrenaline induced it's just her being delusional#ianthe looking at this girl that's talking to herself thinking she is seeing her girlfriend that's like maybe on the other side of the worl#and being like “i'd tap that”#actually what's making me more insane is thinking about ianthe and corona and their relationship its making me insane#the moment ianthe transforms for the first time but corona doesn't and corona doesn't know how to deal with not being an equal to her siste#they've both been raised their whole life to take over the pack but corona is going throuhg an identity crisis right now#meanwhile ianthe is drowning in power and thinking she can do whatever the fuck she wants#babs is just there#judith and marta are both part of the pack#i like the idea of judith seeing how this whole mess is afecting corona and bonding with her and corona getting so attached#the only other person corona ever befriended was ianthe and now that ianthe has pushed her to the side she is so lost
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I’m not rooting for Candace Owens just because she spoke out about israel and Zionists, man.
#fuck that bitch#spent over a decade dancing like a monkey for white people but now she’s trying to low key rebrand because she can’t make money off of#brain dead white people anymore#the funny thing is wp don’t stand on shit like#I wouldn’t be surprised if I saw liberals trying to stand by her side and accept her now#nvm i actually did see some 🤪#like just as long as she says things that they personally believe in then they’re fine despite the antiblackness and other shenanigans lol#it’s crazy#rambling#she’s trying to pull a Stacey dash from what it seems#twitter liberals are lifting her up just because she said that she refuses to spread islamphobic rhetoric but… um#what about all of the shit shes been saying about black people for years 🧍🏾♀️?#wp and nb liberals are so unserious bro#she was an obvious grifter#grifters don’t believe every little thing they say. they just have to say it though#and make it sound as convincing as possible so that gullible people will continue to throw their money at them#just as long as the grifters are reaffirming these stupid people beliefs the money will continue to roll in regardless of how insane they#might sound#as for that nigga Alex jones… yeahhhh. He 100% believes all of that shit 😭
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i’m just going to quickly dissect the moments that made me so normal about the scene with sanji and zoro in episode 1057:
- they decided to focus on zoro getting hit because he got distracted picking up the transponder snail. this just before he tells sanji to not bother him. but as soon as he hears what he has to say, he gasps. he’s shocked. it’s like his synapses just stop for a moment. and his reaction to the request “you must kill me” is to burst back, full force, and shout. which reflects how he feels about the request i think
- this is actually such an intense response that sanji has to call him back to reality right after
- zoro’s delivery of the line “you better not die till then” is not shouted as it appears to be in manga, but a lot softer yet still determined. which i think changes the tone of the scene and overall makes it a lot more intimate
- as someone probably already pointed out, what sanji says at the end of the scene is not your typical “thanks” as it was subbed, but in japanese that specific expressions means “sorry to burden you”. which reflects sanji’s personality a lot and his awareness that he’s not asking just anything out of zoro
- finally the parallel transition showing both of them with their back towards the viewer, hinting at the fact that they’re both looking at the future ahead of them and how they both know they will be facing it all together no matter what happens
#one piece#GG rambles#zoro#sanji#i am SO normal about this i am NOT insane i am OF SOUND MIND and i am NOT rewatching this scene for the 5th time now#oh and the soundtrack of course. it was so emotional#this scene. they really made it justice. they executed it so well#and my brainrot does not help with over analysis and. shit. you know#but hey i'm so normal and i'm happy to be a normal person talking about an anime so normally all the time
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Welcome to Melodia Fun Facts, where we do, in fact, share fun facts about HarmoKnight! From stuff that's easily overlooked, to things you need to search the game files for, we have it all! And we're accepting submissions for things that even I might have looked over! Expect fun facts every now and then!
Stuff to know!!!
This blog is run by @phioneplatinum! If you want to see what I do outside talking about HarmoKnight facts, then feel free to see!
I go with She/Her pronouns!
These facts are all either in game, or mentioned by Game Freak themselves! [mostly in-game facts though, but do expect some outside of the game!]
This blog is not affiliated with Game Freak or All Possible Futures. This is a blog for fun!!
Want to submit a fact? Send it via the submissions box or send it in my Discord DMs! (phioneplatinum)
I have some understanding of Japanese, so expect some language difference facts too!
Fact Submission Rules! [don't worry, it's not too strict!]
All fact submissions must be things either official or seen in game.
Fact submissions must be mentioned as a fact. [ex: Fun HarmoKnight fact! (insert fact here)] If it's not a fact, please specify so I don't get confused!
Actually yeah that's it, if there's more, I'll update it.
With all that said, please enjoy the facts! :D
#not a fact#and so it begins.#the showcasing of how insane i am over this silly little eshop exclusive game.#facts may be posted randomly. theres a chance i might not post a fact. but theres also the chance i post five in one day! yes! im insane!#also i have a lot of facts in the back#like. maybe more than 20 facts are in my notes right now as we speak.#we're gonna be here for a while chat!#so sit back relax and watch the insanity occur#mod speaking#this is my first time running a side blog so hopefully things go well!#unrelated fun fact! this actually used to be an ask blog for my ocs#namely mamiko#and her silly little friends!#but personally idk if i have it to really commit to an ask blog so#plus i looked at the banner. and oh my god did it REEK of 2019. help. it was so old...#i didn't even knew it had a banner personally#but yeah that's enough rambling from me. we have fun facts to get to!!!#- mod phione
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I saw from a post about how many asks you have and I was wondering why not just answer one ask then use that as your daily post? (I'm pretty sure you post daily from my memory)
I'm not a writer so apologies if I sound a bit rude or oblivious. But I think you don't do that because it might get tiring to write an in-character response each day.
I'm actually an Insane Person and ideally would be posting hourly/bi-hourly, if only I ever found enough content to queue up in such a manner,,
But, basically the delays can be summed up in three parts: tired or busy (lumping these together as one problem), no idea how to respond just yet (or respond in a way that satisfies me,) or I have ideas but they're art based and take more time.
I do have some wips for some art answers saved I think, but I've got, like, a single commission remaining on my docket and I refuse to let myself do other art until it's finished (barring one sketch I did for the sake of my sanity.... I cannot stress enough how much of a fight it is to get myself to do full shading and backgrounds 💀 mistakes were made.)
Now, admittedly, it's been a minute since I took a crack at writing out some more thoughtful or lengthy responses for some of the asks I've gotten- so far as I recall, at least- but the dissatisfaction problem is Extremely Real. No joke, I've had an ask sitting in my queue for several months now because I was like "yeah this is good enough," queued it, and then just before it could post I was overcome with an Intense distaste for it. I really liked the question and thought I could do better. (And still clearly have not done better....) Writing Kim honestly comes really naturally to me, and I could never really get tired of it, but sometimes an ask throws a curveball at me in a way that I just really cannot quite wrap my head around responding to. Other times, I get asks that I just can't let myself answer in a subpar manner- either the ask itself or the implications of the answer I concoct end up mattering too much to me, so I get super in my head about finalizing the reply.
And then me being tired is just a skill issue. (I'm joking; this only applies to like the last month or so, but I actually started taking some new medications recently that have been messing with me just a little in this respect. Sometimes I get tired, and when they DO give me the pep to do things, I've admittedly been trying to direct that energy into getting my life together lol)
#i really have just kinda been busy lately. doctors appointments- my roommate moving out- SO. MANY. BIRTHDAYS-#so that's also a factor in things. im kinda floundering over here... drowning in an endless sea of shit I need to do to get my affairs in +#+order...#also i am like. an adult. so i have a life that HAS to be tended to in some respects. just kinda tacking that on bc ik some people forget +#+I'm 24. I'm not busy in the way most people my age are but I DO have things I need to do/be doing. (which unfortunately may eventually +#+lead to me being busy in the same way most people my age are. life's a bitch like that. hopefully it wont be an issue though]#i literally overthink everything and it is a Problem. look at how much rambling you're getting just here. insane#i need to go to bed i think im forcing myself to let this be the answer i have for you 💀 if you have further questions i can answer later#asks#anon#ooc#txt#actually just one more little thing. the kim rp/ask blog aspect of this blog was also very much an outlet for me as i was dealing with +#+some really frustrating things in my personal life. I'm still dealing with those things but on a smaller scale now? and I'm also no +#+longer locked into this being my ONLY coping method for it. lately I've been getting back into playing whatever games i feel like- it's +#+been very freeing. in a single session I've apparently gotten 12% of the way through rdr2's story! something i very much wouldn't have +#+felt like I was ALLOWED to do prior to now#(also if this post contains any contradictions. i am a very conflicted and contradictory person. hope that helps 👍)
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my #analysis or whatever but its really interesting with how much they cut out of the Jon at the banquet 1x01 scene compared to (at least the leaked version online) the original pilot and book. like not to be like yeah grrm put this much detail in there for a reason but a lot of the detail that they removed really hurts jon as a character and its so jarring to see how much they cut to take the chapter down to about 3 minutes of the episode.
#twist rambles#thrones posting#im picking it apart bc im enjoying rewatching and knowing whats coming but it actually drives me insane bc imo jon gets fucked over SO bad#in the show w/o having his internal thoughts. like him and da/ny get fucked over the most w that to ME. and the cutting of the sa/nsa tower#scene in 1x10 also really was a big loss to MEEE personally. like when u have characters that are introspective and dont figure out any way#to incorporate all their thoughts- it hurts them a lot and kind of fucks over their characterization a lot#not saying got has sucked since 1x01 or anything but its been interesting to rewatch it and pour over the text as i do so because the small#changes do end up hurting it a bit the further u get in. like changing cer.sei to have birthed rob.erts child vs abortion i think definitel#does some damage to her character/that reveal. where like a lot of things that they added even in 1x01 are REALLY good changes. like the#addition that they did to the “the things i do for love” line were really good because it does kind of reassure the viewer haha he is askin#questions and let go of his shirt he SURELY wont and then he does. like that is a rly good change and again i think its kind of a mixed bag#w the additions and things they took away (namely i wish the amt of really over the top sex scenes were a bit closer to the book bc it kind#of takes away from a lot of it when its like SO much of an episode. its way more jarring how cruel th.eon is during sex when its very#different to what is surrounding it (which it is in the books) instead of like. it being INSTANTLY followed up w another similar scene they#added in. like i can definitely see the misogyny arguments esp when comparing book 2 show because the books are nowhere near as bad w that.#also forever mad that they didnt make da.ny bald at the start of s2. can we get silly NOW. anyways god. its been interesting to pick it#apart upon rewatch and more familiarity w the source material.
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