#increased ocd

[waldenstationed]

was discussing with my friends last night that i have felt really good for the past two months, like mentally and emotionally i have a grasp on my mental health again and it feels so nice, and it's due to the fact that i didn't only double my medicine, but rather triple it (to combat my newly discovered ocd that i have) so some good life updates there <3

[crayonurchin]

During ComicCon I really like talking to folks that come buy at my table. I play my character Sudsy, and I have a costume for her. It's a medieval short blouse, my flat cap, hair in plaits, a sparkly necklace, long fluffy pink skirt and a green corset that gives me mad curves, with a belt of tools.

I am well endowed in the chest department. I am aware I give Jessica Rabbit vibes like this. I am not dressing this way to look sexy, I am dressing this way because I really love how it looks, and it makes me happy.

During the con, one of the men at my table saw me flex, and called me Muscle Mummy.

... I told him stop but kept smiling cuz it took me a minute to process how gross it made me feel.

And I started to think- well what did you expect? You're wearing a super curvy corset that makes your boobs pop up and you were flexing your biceps- of course people are going to sexualise you, you can't be upset if you're making it happen.

Then I remembered when I was 12 I had a group of men shout at me to give them a blowjob, because I was already 5'7 with double D cups, and I know damn well I wasn't asking to be sexualised at that point with my body or my clothes.

ANYWAY the point of this is even if someone is dressed in a way you find incredibly erotic, you still ask before saying any kind of shit like that to them.

And I am not at fault for wanting to dress for myself

[cosmicsnufkin]

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[lesbiangiratina]

Cant stand this post why do you hate my formerly unmedicated ocd pussy so much

[mobiused]

Wait

If you've been suspecting it remember that OCD comes in many shapes such as scrupulous/morality ocd, sexuality ocd, pedophilia ocd, phobia ocd, "pure obsession" ocd, and isnt just cleaning/germaphobe OCD tho that is equally valid... and u can always talk w me about it tho i am no expert

[chaoticbuggybitchboy]

Really wacky how my symptoms have worsened over time but my coping and masking abilities have improved concurrently and so to anyone else it looks like I’ve just been at a stable level of Meh for my whole existence when in reality everything is gradually getting worse but I’m getting better at living with it

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[latelyimanervouswreck]

Im losing interest in everything again

[grungekitty-77]

OCD behavior

loudly going "YOU'RE GOOD YOU'RE GOOD" to myself to ward off the memory of every embarrassing thing i've ever done

[scientia-rex]

A lot of younger people have no idea what aging actually looks and feels like, and the reasons behind it. That ignorance is so dangerous. If you don’t want to “be old,” you aren’t talking about a number of years. I have patients in their late 80s who could still handily beat me in a race—one couple still runs marathons together, in their late 80s—and I lost someone who was in her early 60s to COPD last year. What you want is not youth, it is health.

If you want to still be able to enjoy doing things in your 60s and 70s and 80s and even 90s, what you want to do, right now, is quit smoking, get some activity on a regular basis (a couple of walks a week is WAY better for you than nothing; increasing from 1 hour a day of cardio to 1.5 will buy you very little), and eat some plants. That’s it. No magic to it. No secret weird tricks. Don’t poison yourself, move around so your body doesn’t forget how, and eat plants.

If you have trouble moving around now because of mobility limitations, bad news: you still need to move around, not because it’s immoral not to, but because that’s still the best advice we have. I highly recommend looking up the Sit and Be Fit series; it is freely available and has exercises that can be done in a chair, which are suitable for people with limited mobility or poor balance. POTS sufferers, I’m looking at you.

If you have trouble eating plants because of dietary issues (they cause gas, etc.) or just because they’re bitter (super taster with texture issues here!), bad news. You still want to find a way to get some plants into your body on a regular basis. I know. It sucks. The only way I can do it is restaurants—they can make salads taste like food. I can also tolerate some bagged salads. On bad weeks, the OCD with contamination focus gets so bad I just can’t. However, canned beans always seem “safe,” and they taste a bit like candy, so they’re a good fallback.

If you smoke and you have tried quitting a million times and you’re just not ready to, bad news. You still need to quit. Your body needs you to try and keep trying. Your brain needs it, too. Damaging small blood vessels racks up cumulative damage over time that your body can start trying to reverse as soon as you quit. I know it’s insanely, absurdly addictive. You still need to.

You cannot rules lawyer your way past your body’s basic needs. It needs food, sleep, activity, and the absence of poison. Those are both small things and big asks. You cannot sustain a routine based on punishment, so don’t punish your body. Find ways to include these things that are enjoyable and rewarding instead. Experiment. There is no reason not to experiment—you don’t have to know instantly what’s going to work for you and what won’t, you just need to be willing to try things and make changes when things aren’t working for you.

You will still age. Your body will stop making collagen and elastin. Tissues you can see and tissues you can’t see will both sag. Cushioning tissues under your skin will get thinner. You’ll bruise more easily. Skin will tear more easily. Accumulated sun damage will start to show more and more. Joints will begin to show arthritis. Tendons and ligaments will get weaker and get injured more easily, as will muscles. Bones will lose mass and get easier to break. You’ll get tired more easily.

But you know what makes the difference between being dead, or as good as, in your 60s vs your 90s? Activity, plants, and quitting smoking. And don’t do meth. Saw a 58-year-old guy this week who is going to have a heart attack if he doesn’t quit whatever stimulant he’s on. I pretended to believe it was just the cigarettes, and maybe it is, but meth and cocaine will kill you quicker. Stop poisoning yourself.

Baby steps; take it one step at a time; you don’t need to have everything figured out right now. But you do need to be working on figuring things out.

[sapphicvamperism]

Driving into a major city has made me more confident in my driving but has also made me worse. Not at driving just in general.

[narutomaki]

not to be obtuse but like. why would I want to want things if me wanting them won't change the fact that I can't/don't have them?

like yeah sure I WANT to have sex and date someone but if I can't go out and make new friends and meet people AND no one I already know is interested why would I bother actually wanting it? like.

legitimately? completely seriously. why should I want activities and events and people if I know for a fact they're unobtainable?

[fenrichaita]

"Although the study’s results provide a “positive sign” for the long-term effects of psychostimulant medications, it is too early to recommend them without further clinical testing, especially when weighing the added cardiovascular risks in older adults, Levine said.

“If there is a potential for psychostimulant medication to mitigate the risk of dementia in individuals with ADHD, then we need to provide resources for further research to confirm that possibility,” Levine said."

Please tell me where on Earth in the study does it actually mention beyond the vague "potential" that stimulant medications mitigate the chance of dementia in ADHD adults?

Edit: And, I have to also mention, the study was literally conducted on older adults and the article cites no increased risk for younger people diagnosed with ADHD to develop dementia

reminder that adhd medication isn't a luxury or preference, but a lifesaving medication. a 10 year long study in the usa showed that, when properly medicated, the rate of car crashes people with adhd get into goes down significantly--men's rate drops by 38%, and women's by 42%. the med shortage, denial of meds by doctors, rising prices, and war on drugs has killed--with such a car dependent society, not driving frequently isn't an option, which means we need better healthcare and need it now.

https://shorturl.at/8VD8B

edit because i forgot to explain: short link is to an article by the washington post, it should be free to read

[discountdyke]

like in the span of a year ive been like okay so i have a personality disorder, this is the worst thing in the world. wait what i have 3.5 others? thats impossible, that doesnt happen to anyone except ppl who had REAL trauma bc my trauma can only justify 2 at the most. and then i find out i have ocd after ive spent many months saying “well i have a few PDs i guess but im so glad i dont have ocd bc that seems SO much worse that what i have going on” then after i finally feel settled knowing that i am dealing with so much more than depression anxiety and ocd im sitting there thinking, at least i dont have DID bc those ppl must really be suffering. and then my therapist says. yeah that sounds exactly like what my other DID client describes. and then we start fucking working on treating my DID. that, i cannot express enough, i do not fucking have 

[avinox]

I've been bombarded by intrusive thoughts about death and existentialism since summer began. A few days ago a friend of my parents passed away too young and aside for feeling incredibly bad for them and their family, the thoughts have gotten so much worse.

[gray-gray-gray-gray]

Let's Talk About The Overlap Between Autism, ADHD, and Schizophrenia

I've been wanting to make a graph like this for awhile, about the overlap between these three disorders. Tagging @auschizm because it's highly related to that blog :D

Text transcribed below the cut because it's long!

Title: Can We Talk About The Overlap Between... AUTISM, ADHD, AND SCHIZOPHRENIA?

Description: You always hear people talking about AuDHD, but schizophrenia has the same if not more overlap with these disorders, and it's not talked about!

Let's start boosting schizophrenic people's voices. There's more to the disorder than just psychosis!

Graph based on my personal experience with schizophrenia, my experiences with autistic and ADHD communities, and the words of people with AuDHD themselves.

Made by @gray-gray-gray-gray on tumblr.

Schizophrenia Only

Typical age of onset between 15 and 54 years old

Before the onset/ first psychotic break, there is a "prodrome" where you have a drop in functioning

Reoccuring episodes of psychosis (Hallucinations, delusions, paranoia, etc)

Likely had less noticeable or covert symptoms pre-onset

Often daydreaming, 'in their own world', hyper-self-reflective, 'space cadet'

Autism Only

Need for familiarty & routine

Sudden disruptions to routine are highly distressing

ADHD Only

Craves new experiences & novelty

Autism & ADHD (AuDHD)

Interest-based nervous system (meaning attention & focus is activated based on personal interest, not how important something is)

Onset in very early childhood -- before age 12

Autism & Schizophrenia (Auschizm)

Self-soothing via repetitive behavior

Higher rates of catatonic symptoms

Social withdrawal or exclusion

Difficulties filtering speech

Flat affect

Alogia

Concrete and/or literal thinking

Higher rates of personality disorders, dissociative disorders, and trauma

Internally oriented behavior

Difficulties wording what they

want to say correctly & disorganized speech

Difficulties with insight into what is part of the disorder and what is neurotypial

ADHD & Schizophrenia (SchizoDHD)

Impulsivity & hard to sit still

Difficulties regulating attention & focus, also causing social cue difficulties

Difficulty keeping a daily routine

Jumping around or out of sequence speech

Forgetfulness

Failing to reach a clear end goal or point in speech

Less coherent progression from start to finish in stories

General difficulties with thinking clearly

Drawing blanks / losing train of thought often

Difficulties finding motivation to do things

Lots of energy some days, no energy other days

Troubles multitasking

Planning poorly or not at all

All Three

Stimming

Echolalia, echopraxia

Executive dysfunction

Sensory issues & overload

Emotional dysregulation

Interconnected/webbed thought

ND communication (infodumping, connecting ideas, shared interest bonding)

Increased risk of victimization

Hyperfixations

Higher rates of depression, anxiety, OCD, BFRBS, bipolar, suicidality, sleep issues, eating disorders, and substance abuse

Eye contact differences

Difficulties switching tasks

Masking

Hyperfocusing

Restlessness

Prone to boredom

Memory issues

Social situation difficulties

Time blindness

Difficulties with school, learning, and following tasks

Chronic disorder

RSD

Anhedonia

Alexithymia

Interoceptive difficulties