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— from coping with ocd: practical strategies for living well with obsessive-compulsive disorder by bruce m. hyman and troy dufrene
#actually ocd#ocd#mental health education#ocd awareness#pure ocd#mental disorders#mental illness#I am anti psychiatry but this is useful info idk#I am learning to navigating those contradictions#like recognizing mental compulsions can be really useful for understand how your brain is coping with the anxiety#and try to work to do less compulsions as they actually increase anxiety#I need a break from my brain#and revolution#words words words#fountain pen
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i wonder what it feels like to be medicated. like i shift so hard between nuclear depression and insane mania and y'know the second thing is at least somewhat useful, i can do crazy amounts of work really really quickly, but like. man. i think it'd be cool if i could feel like . Regular
#.jtxt#don't get it twisted btw mania sucks A Lot#sure i can sit here and do work for like 9 hours straight without even noticing but also That's Bad#plus also it makes us extremely impulsive and bad at regulating our emotions#among other things (increased paranoia. ocd symptoms go cwazy. etc)#idk i would just like to maybe someday be able to feel normaler at least a tiny bit. just a smidge perhaps
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i got offered the promotion at work.... why am i every business owners wettest dream damn....
#yapping#yes my ocd is horrible for my mental health but boy is it good for my wallet !!!!#its not OFFICIAL yet#but it was offered to me and i accepted so theyre seeing how they want to proceed now#cause its not just about me theres a shit ton of changes they want to make that include switching like 5 peoples schedules around#but my team leader said that most of those changes being possible depended on whether i would accept this or not#so well see#id be a team leader myself now#the feminine urge to become a power hungry dictator control freak at work.......#id be switching from my current early morning shifts to late night shifts which is much less healthy on paper#but my body is made for sleeping late i physically can not go to bed before 3am even now when i wake up at 5:30#i might have the money to renovate my apartment now cause i think this comes with a 20% pay increase which is a lotttt#i basically will be earning two incomes myself now 😭#dani said he fully believes Ace Of Spades exists at this point cause everything always ends up going my way in the end#i know it may seem like im flexing but please be aware when i started this job a year and a half ago i was borderline homeless 😐#so its a huge deal for me 😭 and really quickly done as well which is why its so insane#like. in a year and a half only i went from borderline homeless and my parents keeping me on constant phonecalls#cause they were worried id off myself if i hung up#to being a homeowner that earns two incomes by herself while working from home#i feel like in most companies hard work doesnt rly pay off tbh i was just lucky to get into one of the few companies where they do value it#the literal CEO is my biggest dickrider 😭 but i do appreciate him giving me raises randomly cause he feels like i deserve it#but yeah !!!! apparently life altering anxiety that forces you to compulsively do perfect work at any job you ever do#because making mistakes and not giving it your 110% feels like a moral failure so you feel sick at the very thought of it#is apparently what makes the dream worker#if only they knew i dont actually care about this in any capacity.... i am just fucked in the head in a way that works im their favour 😭#this is why all of my ex bosses begged me to stay when i quit teehee#im yapping too much but yeah !! heall yeah money !!
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I think another goal I have for 2025 is. Well this is kind of generic but I want to keep working on myself and my mental health
#cookie.txt#i want to try seeking counseling for my OCD specifically because that in particular's been a real thorn in my ass#i've been seeing a therapist for years and she's helped me a lot with auDHD-related issues and my social anxiety#but i got to try seeing help for my OCD in particular too man. even with an increased prozac dosage (which has been helping!!!)#it's still kicking my ass
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During ComicCon I really like talking to folks that come buy at my table. I play my character Sudsy, and I have a costume for her. It's a medieval short blouse, my flat cap, hair in plaits, a sparkly necklace, long fluffy pink skirt and a green corset that gives me mad curves, with a belt of tools.
I am well endowed in the chest department. I am aware I give Jessica Rabbit vibes like this. I am not dressing this way to look sexy, I am dressing this way because I really love how it looks, and it makes me happy.
During the con, one of the men at my table saw me flex, and called me Muscle Mummy.
... I told him stop but kept smiling cuz it took me a minute to process how gross it made me feel.
And I started to think- well what did you expect? You're wearing a super curvy corset that makes your boobs pop up and you were flexing your biceps- of course people are going to sexualise you, you can't be upset if you're making it happen.
Then I remembered when I was 12 I had a group of men shout at me to give them a blowjob, because I was already 5'7 with double D cups, and I know damn well I wasn't asking to be sexualised at that point with my body or my clothes.
ANYWAY the point of this is even if someone is dressed in a way you find incredibly erotic, you still ask before saying any kind of shit like that to them.
And I am not at fault for wanting to dress for myself
#the con was great and it was not the worst 'experience' like that I've ever had#but yeah like- I am not the one responsible here just like how little baby me wasn't responsible back then#My looks are not for you- my looks are for me and whoever I decide they're for#by all means you're allowed to think whatever you want but those thoughts are supposed to stay inside#don't call random people Muscle Mummy even if they're dressed in leathers and yolked to death#unless you're literally in an environment where that is all consented#anyway Ima keep increasing my weight lifts and dressed in a way that makes me happy#(god damn I'm so happy my gender OCD has calmed down lately cuz if I was struggling with it and heard that I'd be dead on the floor agonise
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Cant stand this post why do you hate my formerly unmedicated ocd pussy so much
#genuinely it bothered me beyond just annoyance and Well it got better as my dose increased and i dont block people anymore.#i dont think i grew as a person i believe it was drugs.#im not trying to pathologize me just being an asshole. but like. it got better with other blatant ocd symptoms lol#im being a little silly btw i dont think this post is the devil Maybe just a little annoying.#and high horsey about. something that does not matter. but like yeah#also for the record im talking like. a hundred notes from Some Random Guy thats what used to set me off#if youre reading this then youre not Some Random Guy so like do whatever. im normal now#the kat goes meow
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If you've been suspecting it remember that OCD comes in many shapes such as scrupulous/morality ocd, sexuality ocd, pedophilia ocd, phobia ocd, "pure obsession" ocd, and isnt just cleaning/germaphobe OCD tho that is equally valid... and u can always talk w me about it tho i am no expert
#followers only so dont rb i know i can turn it off but cba#I've been thinking about the strep throat -> ocd thing and wondering if theres been an increase in ocd lately#mysterious how it works#i think there might be more conditions than pandas that can trigger ocd#i would be fascinated to look into how long covid has affected ocd rates too
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Really wacky how my symptoms have worsened over time but my coping and masking abilities have improved concurrently and so to anyone else it looks like I’ve just been at a stable level of Meh for my whole existence when in reality everything is gradually getting worse but I’m getting better at living with it
#this goes for both mental and physical issues#my mental illnesses have increased exponentially since middle school as has my disability#but I’ve also just gotten better at dealing with it as it comes up#so I function at a similar level with lvl 7 pain as I would have at age eleven under lvl 3 pain#also mental health wise it’s so More now like younger me had hella audhd nd trauma happening#and then woah middle school guess what that’s bipolar disorder and psychosis!! have fun dealing with the trauma disorders!#middle school was such a Time omfg#if I’m ever sad I just remember at least I never have to be a middle schooler again#chaoticbuggybitchboy#text post#mentally ill#actually bipolar#actually ocd#actually mentally ill#disabled#actually disabled#chronic illness#chronic pain
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#hmmm. was just looking at the results of my bloodtest from earlier this week and im all normal apparently#so my thyroid isnt fucked and the hypomanic episodes r in fact just coming from my brain as expected#and the doctor did slap me with a bipolar II diagnosis. which is still find dubious. but also he would have to i guess in order to#prescribe me an antipsychotic but like. sounds like a thing that would increase my insurance rates lol#whatever. i just find the idea of me being bipolar to be so wild. i mean like yes. i guess technically if u look at the word bipolar#unipolar would b a depressed and normal mood range. and bipolar would b depressed and elevated mood#and yes ive spent a lot of my life being rather depressed. sometimes treding near the point of not being able to function#but like usually its not that bad and im so anxious i cant just not function. the ocd keeps me afloat lmao#and yes i have these infrequent little peaks of high energy and even more infrequent instances of elevated mood#so i guess yes that does count as a bipolar mood profile. but is the underlying cause bipolar disorder or is it that i make myself so#miserable with my compulsive behavior that it sends me into spirals of depression or overheats my brain into fits of hypomania#i suppose it doesnt really matter if the presentation is still on thr spectrum#idk i guess i just find it annoying not to fit cleanly into a box. im more a: the spectrum of human experience type person#i guess its better to struggle a lil bit with a number of things than b all consumed by one single thing#i mean. im a lil all consumed by the compulsive behavior. but again its not exactly thr classic presentation of ocd. which i find#frustrating bc i like to characterize and understand things. ugh#well see what the psychologist has to say when i show her my insane mood tracking figures#lol last time she told me to track my anxiety but not make a chart abt it. and i was like god dammit shes onto me#listen. i do research. i like data 🙄#unrelated#also the docor i saw was like yea its joy normal to get 3hrs of sleep and not b tired#how abt a week of 5-6hrs of sleep and not being tired??? how bout that?#also not good fyi. i csn feel my brain fraying#me: shut up im normal. also me not sleeping and getting increasingly unhinged#ive got 1tachi levek eye bags 😭#also i kno its a thing they have to ask but everytime i start describing how i would charactize my intrusive thoughts doctors go:#hm. do u even hear voices telling u do do these thing? and its like no theyre my thoughts but also they feel like they come from outside#of my body. which when i say it sounds crazy but like idk how else to say it. its like theyre projected into my head but i kno it comes#from me. ya kno?
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Im losing interest in everything again
#sh#actuallymentallyill#why are even the increased meds not helping#sewerslidal#depression#actually depression#ocd#actually ocd#mental illness#i miss sh#im sad and tired#i cant seem to reach out to anyone#this is all completely my fault
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OCD behavior
loudly going "YOU'RE GOOD YOU'RE GOOD" to myself to ward off the memory of every embarrassing thing i've ever done
#literally though#OCD#Most my physical compulsions are to stop my mental ones#rn I've been yelling “K!” at my brain until it stops looping#been trying to nurture that cause it's better than my last one#“kill me” was not exactly the best thing to say out loud with no external explanation#“K!” in increasing volume is better
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A lot of younger people have no idea what aging actually looks and feels like, and the reasons behind it. That ignorance is so dangerous. If you don’t want to “be old,” you aren’t talking about a number of years. I have patients in their late 80s who could still handily beat me in a race—one couple still runs marathons together, in their late 80s—and I lost someone who was in her early 60s to COPD last year. What you want is not youth, it is health.
If you want to still be able to enjoy doing things in your 60s and 70s and 80s and even 90s, what you want to do, right now, is quit smoking, get some activity on a regular basis (a couple of walks a week is WAY better for you than nothing; increasing from 1 hour a day of cardio to 1.5 will buy you very little), and eat some plants. That’s it. No magic to it. No secret weird tricks. Don’t poison yourself, move around so your body doesn’t forget how, and eat plants.
If you have trouble moving around now because of mobility limitations, bad news: you still need to move around, not because it’s immoral not to, but because that’s still the best advice we have. I highly recommend looking up the Sit and Be Fit series; it is freely available and has exercises that can be done in a chair, which are suitable for people with limited mobility or poor balance. POTS sufferers, I’m looking at you.
If you have trouble eating plants because of dietary issues (they cause gas, etc.) or just because they’re bitter (super taster with texture issues here!), bad news. You still want to find a way to get some plants into your body on a regular basis. I know. It sucks. The only way I can do it is restaurants—they can make salads taste like food. I can also tolerate some bagged salads. On bad weeks, the OCD with contamination focus gets so bad I just can’t. However, canned beans always seem “safe,” and they taste a bit like candy, so they’re a good fallback.
If you smoke and you have tried quitting a million times and you’re just not ready to, bad news. You still need to quit. Your body needs you to try and keep trying. Your brain needs it, too. Damaging small blood vessels racks up cumulative damage over time that your body can start trying to reverse as soon as you quit. I know it’s insanely, absurdly addictive. You still need to.
You cannot rules lawyer your way past your body’s basic needs. It needs food, sleep, activity, and the absence of poison. Those are both small things and big asks. You cannot sustain a routine based on punishment, so don’t punish your body. Find ways to include these things that are enjoyable and rewarding instead. Experiment. There is no reason not to experiment—you don’t have to know instantly what’s going to work for you and what won’t, you just need to be willing to try things and make changes when things aren’t working for you.
You will still age. Your body will stop making collagen and elastin. Tissues you can see and tissues you can’t see will both sag. Cushioning tissues under your skin will get thinner. You’ll bruise more easily. Skin will tear more easily. Accumulated sun damage will start to show more and more. Joints will begin to show arthritis. Tendons and ligaments will get weaker and get injured more easily, as will muscles. Bones will lose mass and get easier to break. You’ll get tired more easily.
But you know what makes the difference between being dead, or as good as, in your 60s vs your 90s? Activity, plants, and quitting smoking. And don’t do meth. Saw a 58-year-old guy this week who is going to have a heart attack if he doesn’t quit whatever stimulant he’s on. I pretended to believe it was just the cigarettes, and maybe it is, but meth and cocaine will kill you quicker. Stop poisoning yourself.
Baby steps; take it one step at a time; you don’t need to have everything figured out right now. But you do need to be working on figuring things out.
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being a hypochondriac sucks but when u find out something u thought was an indication of a health issue actually is abnormal feels so good. just got validated on smth I thought was weird when it happened like 6-7 years ago. can’t go to the doctor about it because it happened that long ago but I’m glad there’s finally an explanation!!
#i say hypochondriac but it’s probably ocd#anyway I learned a new term today.#chronotropic incompetence#term for when ur heart rate doesn’t increase enough when exercising#one time in gym in middle school#we were given these heart rate monitor bracelets#and told we had to get them up to a certain number#and I had a really hard time getting mine to go up#even though I was trying really hard#I thought it was odd but didn’t say anything#and now I know… it’s apparently an indicator of heart problems#I really need to see a cardiologist man#kfnflxkcm#insert that post about missing the Vitamin#but the vitamin is Heart Function#heart issues run in my family#I wouldn’t be surprised
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i can’t fathom how some people have a slew of mental illness diagnoses and are perfectly fine on one psych med—and at the lowest clincal dose possible. I’m on 4 fucking medications and half the time life is still a nightmare
#vent#like my bf is bipolar and ocd and has struggled his entire life#but now he’s on a low dose of seroquel and he’s like a new man#i guess that’s what happens when you try your first psych med#bc that happened to me when i first got on lithium#the difference is i had to increase relatively quickly
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"Although the study’s results provide a “positive sign” for the long-term effects of psychostimulant medications, it is too early to recommend them without further clinical testing, especially when weighing the added cardiovascular risks in older adults, Levine said.
“If there is a potential for psychostimulant medication to mitigate the risk of dementia in individuals with ADHD, then we need to provide resources for further research to confirm that possibility,” Levine said."
Please tell me where on Earth in the study does it actually mention beyond the vague "potential" that stimulant medications mitigate the chance of dementia in ADHD adults?
Edit: And, I have to also mention, the study was literally conducted on older adults and the article cites no increased risk for younger people diagnosed with ADHD to develop dementia
reminder that adhd medication isn't a luxury or preference, but a lifesaving medication. a 10 year long study in the usa showed that, when properly medicated, the rate of car crashes people with adhd get into goes down significantly--men's rate drops by 38%, and women's by 42%. the med shortage, denial of meds by doctors, rising prices, and war on drugs has killed--with such a car dependent society, not driving frequently isn't an option, which means we need better healthcare and need it now.
https://shorturl.at/8VD8B
edit because i forgot to explain: short link is to an article by the washington post, it should be free to read
#more psychiatric fearmongering and making statements that are never actually confirmed in the article they cite#as a person with unmedicated ADHD and OCD whose obsession is related to cognition#this was not something I needed to see. so thanks for that#to be noted: the increased cardiovascular strain (which stim meds would increase) with ADHD are one of the things implicated in the dimenti#risk for adhd adults because of the decreased amount of oxygen reaching the brain#cannot debunk the idea that adhd causes dementia yet but like. fuck this post#text#my stuff#antipsychiatry
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Driving into a major city has made me more confident in my driving but has also made me worse. Not at driving just in general.
#the ocd induced impulse to check if I hit someone with my car made worse by the city traffic and substantial increase in pedestrians#lisyaps
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