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— from coping with ocd: practical strategies for living well with obsessive-compulsive disorder by bruce m. hyman and troy dufrene
#actually ocd#ocd#mental health education#ocd awareness#pure ocd#mental disorders#mental illness#I am anti psychiatry but this is useful info idk#I am learning to navigating those contradictions#like recognizing mental compulsions can be really useful for understand how your brain is coping with the anxiety#and try to work to do less compulsions as they actually increase anxiety#I need a break from my brain#and revolution#words words words#fountain pen
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The urge I have to write a cathartic angst fic to vent is so tempting...yet the tired self doubt brain rears its head once again 😭
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End of the Hall // Generation Loss: The Social Experiments.
#generation loss#generation loss fanart#genloss#generation loss the social experiments#genloss tse#genloss fanart#ranboo fanart#digital art#here it is!#it took from January 1st to June 12th#BUT ITS FINALLY DONE AND I GET TO SHARE IT!!#wheww now my brain and hand need a break from this project before I do anything else#Happy Founders Cut day :]
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Wearing your boyfriend's jacket
#for the anon asking who would wear it#any one of my characters WOULD wear it#its just a matter of how...#you dont understand my passion for fashion and what this means ok#it means an article of clothing is not about the clothing at all#its about how it fits and what it goes with and how you choose to wear it#a shirt is not just a shirt its a part of a whole...#I'm so passionate about this... it doesnt really show in my comics but thats mostly cause. there is only so much time I can devote to thing#anyways#adam is able to make anything look good#and steve is able to make anything seem like hes owned it for 10 years#they can both wear anything but in extremely different ways...#anyways this was a nice little break#its been hard HAHAHAHHA not gonna lie having an extremely rough time#I so so so do not want to return working for webtoon#I need you to know I am ONLY doing this for my readers#because I could use more time. I could use forever away from webtoon#but. I want to see the comic through! and so I will.#I'm so tired of them...#and also still frustrated by people being like 'is this ever coming back' and all that#but its fine. its coming back I'm working on it...#and its good.. its gonna be so good......#time and time again#ttawebcomic#adam and steve#sketch#I JUST REALIZED I SAID ANON...#I MEANT ASK#my brain just calls all asks anon
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#narureno#narumi gen#ichikawa reno#my art#kn8#I HAVENT FINISHED ART OF THEM IN SOOO LONG#omg i missed them i am also crying about how much i missed them ;;#when will i stop drawing them in the damn suits is the real question though why am i not giving myself a break from this ksjdfhs#my brain is so soft and squishy over the thought of narumi needing a moment and reno knowing this#and pulling him in close to hide him from everyone else ueueue#ANYWAYS THEY'RE IN LOVE#but also my vacation is ending so i'll be back to full time work next week :c#so my art output will probably slow down considerably ;;;;#BUT I WILL KEEP WORKING HARD WHENEVER I CAN FOR THEM !!!#i know only like 3 people out there care but still#i care for all 3 people who agree with my ship choices
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Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.
His grey hairs are so earned
#Chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#analysis#HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY#You know what yeah understandable have a good day#Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm#I’m def editing in the second page into that post that “I’ve got three people to think of here” sounds sooo much like that’s#how he’d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them 🥺#I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. I’m planning so many#compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol#He’s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!!#I’m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesn’t sound disjointed or insane to average readers#He’s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesn’t help#Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ‘dying doing something you love. Like drinking’#is nice in his opinion#This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what cost…#OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level.#‘I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)’ etc etc#Can’t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you 😏💡#Laws are important to him bc he knows how bad punishment is if you break them and how they’re the key to getting better rights
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Throw wood on the fire
Pairing: Tim Drake/Red Robin x YN AFAB Warning: yandere fic, toxic relationaship, he's possessive, you're stubborn, obsessive, emotional manipulation, nswf (pt 2) Summary: You and Tim have always been soulmates, but it's so suffocating that you've reached your limit. It's time to break up with Tim. Note: Reader is described and represented as YN or as "You" because, grammarly, I'm trying to adapt the text so that it is more harmonious! Eng is not my mother language, so often the way I write does not relate to the translator and I have to translate most of my works manually. Therefore, thank you for understanding!
After a great night spent with your friends, having fun and bringing lightness to life, without even worrying about the time. But as the night is young, you have an annoying alarm telling you that it's time to go back to bed: Tim. You enter yours a luxurious apartment in the city center. Your shoulders immediately tensed when you heard his voice demanding answers.
"YN where were you??" He immediately grabs your arm and demands to know where you've been and why you were so late getting back
"Relax Tim, I just went out with my friends" you say taking off your red high heels, sighing heavily as you have this same conversation…for the fifth time.
Tim's expression remains stern as he crosses his arms across his chest. "I don't care if you were out with your friends," he retorts.
"I told you to be back by 10 PM. It's midnight." mentally you ignore him as you take off your fancy suit and place your bag on a couch in the living room.
Tim follows after you, his annoyance growing with every step. "That's not an excuse," he snaps, his voice sharp. "You knew what time you were supposed to be home, and you didn't even try to keep track of the time."
He watches as you start walking to your room, and he grabs your hand to stop you. "We're not done talking about this." he says firmly. "You need to understand how worried I was about you being out so late."
"We just talked about it. I came back late by accident, it already happened there's no way back. I said I'm sorry. I won't do it again. Happy now?" Irritated, you release your hand from his grip and return to your route.
Tim's jaw clenches tightly as he listens to your response. He clearly isn’t satisfied with your dismissive attitude.
"No, I'm not happy," he replies with a mix of irritation and frustration in his voice. "You don't seem to understand how big of a deal this is for me. You're supposed to be mine, and I need to know where you are, what you're doing, who you're with. It's for your own safety."
"When did such a healthy relationship become so suffocating? Where is the Tim I knew? Why is it getting more and more tiring to continue this?" YN thinks, searching the timeline for where and when the red flags started to appear… and when she started ignoring them.
"I'm your girlfriend, I'm not an object to possess Tim." I look at him seriously "We've talked about this before, I'm going to sleep now. You can't control me 24 hours." Tim's expression hardens even more as you challenge him. He's not used to being contradicted or questioned, especially when it comes to you.
Your therapist said that in moments like this it was ideal to remain calm and that counting to 10 would help to calm down and not explode at others.
1....2....3.......
"You're my girlfriend, and that means you're mine," he insists firmly. "I'm not trying to control you, I'm trying to protect you. Can't you see that?"
He takes another step closer, closing the distance between you. "I care about you, more than anything else. I can't stand the thought of something happening to you. It drives me crazy when I can't keep an eye on you."
4......
You increase the distance and turn your back to Tim, ignoring his words while you change your clothes and put on satin pajamas. He looks at you irritated as you lie down on the big bed, covering me with the soft linen blankets. Tim’s eyes follow you as you changed into your pjamas and climbed into bed, his irritation growing with every movement you make. He stands there, his fingers clenched tightly into fists as he watches you get comfortable in bed.
“You’re seriously just going to go to sleep now?” He asks, his voice tight with frustration. “We’re not done talking about this.”
"I would love to talk about this with you, but as you can see, I'm already asleep. And good night dear, be careful the bogeyman doesn't get you" you say sarcastically as you cover your head with the sheets, mentally praying that Tim will give up any upset tonight, your patience has been...very little.Tim's jaw clenches even tighter as he listens to your sarcastic retort. He's clearly not amused by your dismissive attitude and attempts to end the discussion.
5....
He takes another step towards the bed, his hands balling into fists at his sides. "You're seriously being a brat right now? I'm trying to talk to you like an adult, but you're just acting like a child, YN."
He stops at the edge of the bed, looking down at you with a mixture of irritation and frustration in his eyes. "You can't just shut me out and expect this conversation to go away," he continues, his voice firm. "We need to talk about what happened tonight. You can't just pretend it didn't happen!"
"Tim." you look at him seriously "I don't want to talk about it now, I'm tired and sleepy. We'll talk about it tomorrow."Tim's expression softens slightly as he meets your gaze, but his stubbornness remains. He sighs heavily before replying.
"I don't want to wait until tomorrow," he says, his voice still firm but slightly calmer. "I need to know what happened tonight. Where were you? Who were you with? What were you doing?"
6.....
"If you keep insisting, I'm going to go out in my pajamas and sleep at a friend's house." You threaten him as you run your hand through your hair, for a moment, Tim's gaze turns dark, he knows you have the audacity to do this.
"You're really going to leave in the middle of the night and go sleep at one of your friends' houses? Over this?" he asks, his voice filled with a mix of irritation and disbelief.
7.....
"Goodnight darling." You get up irritated and give him a kiss as you get out of bed. Still in your pajamas, you take your car keys and I go out to the garage where my beloved car awaits me. Tim follows hot on your heels, his expression a mix of alarm and determination.
"Wait, what are you doing?" he calls out, his voice tinged with worry.
He can't believe you're actually leaving in the middle of the night. He catches up to you just as you're about to get in your car.
Tim grabs your arm, trying to stop you from getting into the car. "You can't just leave like this," he says urgently. "We need to talk about what happened tonight. I need to know that you're safe."
You take his hand off your arm and say dryly "I'm fine and safe as you can see, see you tomorrow. I'm not going to talk to you irritated!" YN say, getting into the car and turning on the ignition, pressing the control to open the gate.
8.....
Tim's expression turns to one of frustration and helplessness as he watches you get into the car. He knows he can't stop you from leaving, but it kills him to see you so upset and willing to walk out in the middle of the night.
"Damnit, don't do this," he says, his voice pleading. "Please don't drive off in anger. Just come back inside and we can talk about this like adults."
He takes a step closer to the car, leaning down to look at you through the open window. His expression is a mix of concern and desperation.
9....
"Please, just don't drive off like this. It's the middle of the night, and I'm worried about you being out alone. Just come back inside, and we can talk this out."
"I don't want to talk right now." you start the car and start walking when he stops irritated, and almost crying, in front of the car "Excuse me, I need to pass if you don't mind" you say disguising the anger and frustration, honking the horn calmly. Tim takes a step back, his arms falling to his sides in frustration. He watches with a mix of anger and helplessness as you start to drive away.
But just as you're about to pass him, he steps in front of the car, blocking your path.
“TIM!”
Fuck counting to 10...
"What the hell are you doing?" he blurts out, his voice tight with irritation and worry. "You're really going to drive off like this in the middle of the night? It's not safe!"
He stands in front of the car, his eyes locked on yours through the windshield. "God Damnit, just stop and talk to me," he pleads, his voice filled with a mix of frustration and desperation. "We can't just leave things this way. You can't just walk out and leave in the middle of the night without talking to me about what happened tonight."
"I'll text one of your robots to read." you respond sarcastically while rolling your eyes, but after taking a deep breath, you try to negotiate with him "If you stay quiet, I'll come back and sleep on the couch. If you keep insisting like this, I'll leave now and only come back in the morning" I turn on the car and make the engine make a loud noise.Tim listens to your response, his expression growing more frustrated by the second. He clenches his fists at his sides, clearly fighting the urge to argue further.
Tim considers your offer for a moment, his mind racing with frustration and worry. But he knows he doesn't really have a choice right now.
"Fine," he finally says, his voice tight. "But we are going to talk about this in the morning. And you better not try to sneak out again tonight."
He takes a step back, allowing you to drive off, but his expression is still filled with irritation and worry. He watches as you drive off, his mind racing with frustration and insecurity.
"Damnit," he mutters to himself as he watches you drive away. "Why does she always have to be so damn stubborn."
The powefull Red Robin, stands there for a moment, his arms crossed tightly across his chest. he's torn between the need to go after you and the knowledge that you won't listen right now.
His mind races with conflicting thoughts. he's worried about your safety, but he's also irritated by your stubbornness. He knows he should just let you go for the night, but the thought of not knowing where you are or what you're doing is driving him insane.Tim takes a deep breath, trying to calm himself down. he knows he can't just follow your car and chase you down. That would only make things worse. But the thought of you driving off in anger and irritation, alone in the middle of the night, is eating him alive.
At that point, it was like throwing wood on the fire, fueling anger and rebellion.
As time passed, YN saw the love she felt for Tim gradually turning into a prison. Like a perfect fairy tale it lost its color, slowly turning into a horror film where she would be the only victim.
“Baby, we need to talk…”
The constant need to be together and Tim's obsession with protecting her created a web of possession that left her increasingly suffocated. Constant calls, constant paranoia, constant accusations… it was all getting too much. As heiress to her father's company, YN always tried to be at the height of the company and it was very difficult with a boyfriend demanding to know who she was with all the time, why she cared about all that and why… that man was shaking her hand .
Each day was a desperate effort to maintain some of his autonomy, while Tim became more controlling and domineering. The feeling of being constantly surrounded by a hyperprotective guard was oppressive, depriving her of space to breathe.
“How will I know she’s really your friend? !What if she wants to poison your head about our relationship?!”
YN tried to rebel against the prison that had become her relationship, her stubbornness and her independence at stake. She began to become more indifferent towards Tim's possessive efforts, trying to create the distance needed to have more control over her life. Increasing and rebuilding the walls that were previously knocked down with sarcastic, poisonous comments, trying to get back to having a busy and festive life like before. However, each attempt to regain her autonomy was met with resistance from Tim, who desperately clung to the illusion of being her protector. With every step she took toward freedom, he strived to hold her back, increasing his possessiveness and desperation to keep her by her side.
“Why do you want to go to this event alone? We're a couple, aren't we? What are you going to do there that you won’t need me?”
Little by little, the web was made by Tim's efforts and undone by YN's stubbornness, it was a tiring, exhausting process and honestly YN was already at the limit of it all.
Like a butterfly that turns and convulses its way out of its web, so YN was determined to fly free again.
The plan to sleep over at a friend Daisy's house failed, leaving only one friend on the other side of the city. YN breathes a sigh of relief as she turn off location, cell phone, and any other service that has anything that connects to it. While at his house, you took advantage of the time away from Tim and focused on your training, finally a full workout without Tim hacking the gym. You posted some photos and videos on social media, recording your workout and the breakfast you were having with your friend you met the other day.
Meanwhile, Tim was anxious and worried, unable to focus on anything other than his absence. He became even angrier when he saw your posts on social media. He knew that you were making these posts on purpose to irritate him, which only increased his anger and frustration. he tried to control himself, but he couldn't help the feeling of helplessness and anxiety that overwhelmed him. He wanted to know where you were, what you were doing, who was with you.
It was noon when you called Tim, giving him the air of your presence "Tim, are you home now? Do you want me to bring you lunch?" YN say hoping he would forget the conversation as she gets into the car, reapplying lipstick and putting on sunglasses.
Tim answers the phone, trying to control the frustration and anxiety in his voice. He was in the apartment, busy with work, when you called.
"Yes, I'm home," he replies, trying to remain calm. "But there's no need to bring lunch, I'll order something." He tries to keep the conversation casual, but he can't forget the argument from the night before.
"I'll order… Your favorite" You say trying to lighten the mood, the calm before the storm. Tim hesitates for a moment, his frustration with the situation still present. But his favorite's offer makes him relent.
"Okay, fine," he says, trying not to show how much he was looking forward to your return. "But you'll be here soon, right?"
"If I say I'm going to help the chef, will you let me take my time?" I try to bargain with him. Tim is holding back.
Tim takes a deep breath, his possessive and controlling side taking over for a moment. He really wanted you home where he could keep an eye on you and make sure you were safe. But he also knew that you wouldn’t give in that easily. He tries to remain calm as he responds.
But he also knew that you wouldn’t give in that easily. He tries to remain calm as he responds.
"For how long?" he asks, irritated. "And why do you need to help the chef?"
"I'm going to make the special recipe with him" you say without even realizing it, a little evil in the intonation, but soon swallow it to be a decent person, , as if she hadn't thrown wood on the fire.
Tim raises his eyebrows when you mention "the special recipe." What the hell were you doing? The “Special Recipe” was a dish that only the two of you made. Period. It was a couple thing and not a delivery from a fancy restaurant. It wasn't a different seasoning or something exotic, the fun of the “special recipe” was making the YN and Tim recipe, a pasta where the two make romantically in the kitchen, an illusion of domesticity and togetherness.
"The special recipe?" he repeats, irritation and suspicion evident in his voice. "Why the special recipe? You didn't mention anything like that before."
"Isn't it your favorite, love? I'll be there in 20 minutes"
"Okay, cool," he replies, his voice tense. "I'll be waiting for you."
Tim notices the sarcastic tone in her voice, but he tries to ignore it, his irritation still present. He knows you're joking, but he can't help but wonder what's really going on. He was sitting in his office, trying to stay calm and work while he waited for you. But his irritation and frustration were quickly growing as the minutes passed.
YN arrived at the shared apartment within 40 minutes, ready to talk. "Good morning Einstein" she takes off her heels and goes to the living room, placing the delivery in the kitchen watching the fuming man leave the office
When you finally arrived, he quickly got up from the office and left to meet you in the living room. His look was serious and full of anger.
"Six hours" was the first word he spoke, without even greeting you. His tone was cold and controlled, but the irritation was evident in his expression and in every word he said.
"Six fucking hours," he repeated, "No news, no messages, nothing. I was on the verge of madness, not knowing if you were okay or not." He approached you, his eyes locked on yours. He wanted to hug you, pull you into his arms, but the feeling of irritation and frustration prevailed at the moment.
"Explain to me," he demanded, his voice firm. "Where were you? What were you doing? Who was with you?"
"I went to celebrate our company's profit with my friends from work" friends that he hated "Then I went to that restaurant that opened now, the Japanese one" That Tim hated "As it was early at night, I was invited to a party at the other city with the girls." girls who hated Tim "As we had a disagreement yesterday, so I slept at Galileo's house" the guy who hit on you
With every word you spoke, Tim's expression changed. He felt his veins pulsing with anger and frustration as you mentioned your friends and the guy who hit on you while you explained in an indifferent way, as if you were talking about the weather and not turning on warning sirens in Tim's head.
He tried to contain his possessive and controlling side, but it was difficult to control his feelings. The thought of you spending the night at another man's house drove him completely insane.
"Did you sleep at another man's house?" he repeated, his anger evident in his voice. "Daisy wasn't home, my closest option was Galileo." "He's gay baby, relax" YN says
Tim snorts when you say Galileo is gay. Even though he knew he wasn't interested in women, the idea of you spending the night at another man's house was irritating to him, especially because Tim saw him hitting on you and was paranoid since from the first time the two of you were introduced. He tries to calm down, but the anger still clings to him like a thorn.
"That doesn't change the fact that you slept at another man's house," he snaps. "Because my man wouldn't let me sleep in peace" I retort with the same intensity
Tim takes a deep breath, his hands clench into fists in anger. He knows you're right, but he doesn't want to admit it. He feels the guilt slowly creeping into him, but the anger still prevails.
"You ran away from me," he responds, his voice firm. "You just left our house without a word and i didn't hear from you for hours." The muscles in Tim's neck tighten as he speaks, anger and frustration mixing in his words.
"I was worried," he continues, "I was desperate not knowing where you were or if you were safe. I tried calling and texting you, but you left me hanging." His voice becomes lower and more intense as he continues to speak.
"And now, I find out that you spent the night at another man's house, the guy I detest, for God's sake."
He moves closer, invading your personal space, chest rising and falling with each hectic breath.
"How do you think I feel, huh?" he asks, his voice tense. "What do you think I was like, not hearing from you, not knowing where you were, what you were doing, who you were with?" He places his hands on both sides of her face, forcing Yn to look directly into his blue eyes. Mentally trying to connect his stormy eyes with your lovely ones. How cute, you might think….
A boyfriend desperate for his girlfriend's well-being, and everything for her protection, hmm?
Apart from the fact that they've had this conversation before.
How a prey follows the natural instincts that the predator will attack, turning on the fight or flight button…..
So YN remains firm and upright, she can notice the gentle changes in Tim's gaze, his worried speech, his dominant touch trying to make her “stay in her place”, but there is not a hint of guilt in her eyes.
YN had seen this film many, many times, the same script with the same characters. It's time to leave the cinema and live real life.
"Sorry, it won't happen again." you press your hand against his for a few seconds and then remove it from your face, looking at him seriously, your eyes as steady as a mountain weathering the storm. Tim's smile widened, but it closed realizing something was going to happen. Tim looks at you, his face showing a brief expression of relief and happiness as you rest your hand against his. But that feeling quickly fades when she realizes something isn't right.
He tries to stay calm, waiting for you to say something.
"What it was?" he asks, the anger and irritation still evident in her voice. "I know that expression. What are you going to do?"
The silence lasts for a few seconds as you remain quiet, your gaze serious and determined. Tim feels the atmosphere getting tense, he knows something is happening but he doesn't know what, and he hates every second of not knowing what goes on in Yn's head.
He crosses his arms, his gaze fixed on you, waiting for you to speak. His patience is starting to run out.
"Come on," he scolds, his voice brusque. "Speak quickly."
"I think we better break up." In the same way I speak abruptly, and I see his world turning upside down. Tim's expression changes immediately, as if he's been punched in the stomach. He stays frozen in place, his mind trying to process what you just said.
What? No… it can't be….. No…..it's not real. She must just be mad….
He babbles for a few seconds, unable to form words.
"I-I didn't hear you right," he finally says, his voice shaking slightly. "Repeat please."
"I think its better if we better break up, Tim. It's not working out, sorry." The words fall like a hammer on Tim's heart. He remains still, his mind trying desperately to find the words to argue, to change your mind.
He opens and closes his mouth several times, his hands shaking slightly. Finally, he manages to speak, his voice fragile and shaky.
"But…but why?" he asks, his words coming out almost like a whisper. ' "You know why."
Tim remains silent, his gaze fixed on his. He knows exactly what you're saying, but he still doesn't want to accept it. Millions of conversations about the relationship, the opinion of friends and family, the indirect ones, the distance… he knows he's being too much, that he's trying to imprison you, that he's pushing you away with all his obsession and paraoic… but he He can't stop, you're his drug. Slowly killing and addicting him until he can no longer live without you.
He runs a shaky hand through his black hair, trying to control himself but failing miserably.
"I…" he tries to say, but his voice trails off. He takes a deep breath, trying to muster the courage to speak. "I can change."
He won't change. Yn thinks, already knowing where this story would end.
"You don't need to change, Tim. I'm the problem here." I put my hand on his shoulder, "I'm sure someone out there will appreciate and value all your concern and your temper. But we've been hurting each other a lot lately."
Tim holds your hand, his fingers intertwining with yours. He knows you're right, that things weren't working between you. But he can't accept it.
"I-i don't want it to end," he murmurs, his voice lowering. "I love you. I want to make it work."
“Listen Tim… I-” your sentence is cut off when Tim hugs you tightly, his head resting on your shoulder as he starts to cry. He tries to control himself, but emotion takes over him.
He squeezes you tighter, like he's desperately trying to keep you from leaving. Trying to bring you close, inhaling your scent, feeling your heat, trying to mold your body to his.
"Piplease," he whispers, voice shaking from crying. "Please don't leave. Please stay with me."
Tim continues to hold you, his body shaking with the emotions he's trying to keep under control. He doesn’t want to let you go, desperate to keep you by his side.
Anything other than us breaking up…
I don't accept it… I don't want it!
How will I exist without you by my side?
Why don't you want to try again?
He lifts his head, looking at you with red, teary eyes.
"I'll change," he promises, his voice husky. "I promise I'll change. Just don't leave. Please don't leave me."
He holds your face and looks at you, with hearts in his eyes, knowing that you won't give in anytime soon. He uses emotional blackmail to make Yn stay, after all, she always liked beautiful words, covered in honey.
Don't you love him anymore? Why do you want to hurt him so much?
Tim desperately tries to find a way to change your mind. He knows words aren't working, so he takes desperate action...
He holds your face tightly, looking directly and deeply into your eyes.
"If you leave…," he murmurs, voice shaking. "I won't be able to live. I'll go crazy without you. Please don't leave me. I won't survive."
"You're Red Robin, you've survived worse things." YN says trying to free herself from him which makes him increase the emotional blackmail, holding you against him, she tries to cut off his line of reasoning, the blackmail, the depraved words but it seems like it only makes everything increase more…. Tim remains holding you, his grip becoming firmer as YN tries to break free. He can see that you are not giving in easily and desperately grasps at any means possible to make you stay.
He presses his face against your neck, his voice shaky as he murmurs.
"It's not just a matter of physical survival," he says, voice muffled by the contact of his face against her skin. "I won't be able to live without you. You are my reason for living."
"I'm going to die without you…..I'll kill myself if I don't have you by my side…" He threatens, increasingly serious and desperate, for a moment, in the name of all the love in your relationship, you fear for his life.
Tim continues to murmur against your delicate neck, his embrace becoming almost painful. He seems desperate to keep you by his side, whatever the cost. He puts one hand on your back, the other wrapping around your waist. He pulls you against him, as if he's afraid he'll let you escape.
"I love you," he whispers, his voice rough with emotions. "I love you so much. Please don't leave. Please stay with me." Tim continues to beg the same words, his embrace becoming more and more desperate as he tries to stop you from leaving.
He looks completely vulnerable, as if his life depended on it. His voice is low and full of emotion as he repeats as a pray:
"I love you. I love you. I'll get better, I promise. Just don't leave me. Please don't leave me."
When he hears your silence, his voice rises as if to prove he is telling the truth, almost shouting in your ear as he shakes and sobs in fear. Tim raises his voice as he desperately tries to convince you to stay, his words increasing in intensity as he sobs and shakes in fear.
He clings to you as if you were his anchor, his body shaking with emotion.
"I'll do anything for our relationship," he repeats, his voice almost desperate. "I'll get better for you. I'll change. I'll do whatever it takes. Just… please… don't leave me."
Tim's sobs grow stronger as he tries to hold back the tears. He's clearly desperate, his hug growing tighter and tighter as he desperately tries to keep you by his side.
With pity, YN runs an involuntary hand through Tim's hair, making him hope. "Are you really going to change?" I know he won't change, but maybe I can push the breakup further, in a month or two when he gets used to the idea.
Yn makes a mental note of the idea, without knowing that Tim himself already had plans for the two of them stay toguether forever.
Tim seems to perk up slightly when he feels your hand running through his hair, feeling you give in a little. He lifts his head, looking at you with a hopeful look.
He nods, his eyes still red from tears, but a little calmer.
"I'll change," he promises, voice firmer. "I'll be better for you. Just…give me another chance. Please."
"Okay…. the last one" with that he kisses you and cries more, relieved that you changed your mind. Tim takes the opportunity to kiss you, his tongue penetrating your mouth in a desperate and needy way. He cries as he kisses you, the relief evident in his gesture.
You still haven't said you love him too….. You do not love me anymore?
However, he is not satisfied with just the kiss, the insecurities and the countless scenarios running wild in his mind. He uses everything he can, pressing your body against his as he murmurs low, desperate words.
Will you still leave me? No, please no! You still love me?
"I won't survive without you!" he whispers, arms squeezing you against him. "You are everything to me. Just give me one more chance, please."
Tim repeats the same words, his hands roaming her body as he presses YN against him. He's desperate to keep you close, his embrace becoming almost possessive. He brings his mouth to her neck, kissing and biting the skin gently.
"I'm a dead man without you," he whispers, voice hoarse with emotion. "I won't survive without you. Just give me one more chance, please. Just one more, Yn. I love you so much..."
"…..I love you, Tim. Let's get better okay?" I confirm it when I hug him back
Tim takes a moment to process the words, his hands shaking with relief and hope. He hugs you tighter, his facial expression softening slightly. He closes his eyes, taking a deep breath as he tries to contain the tangle of emotions inside him.
"I'll make you happy," he promises, voice hoarse. "I'm going to be the best man I can be. Just… have a little more patience with me."
Tim remains hugging you for a few minutes, trying to calm down as his mind seems to spin with all the emotions. He takes a deep breath, trying to control his heart that feels like it's about to come out of his chest and YN is the only thing keeping him sane, stable, preventing him from becoming another Gotham madman.
He lifts his head again, looking at you with an almost vulnerable look.
"I'll get better," he whispers, his voice firm but soft. "I'm going to do everything differently. Just… don't leave me. Please." He continued to hold your face in his shaking hands, trying to hold you against him. Trying to breathe your air. Trying to get into your heart.
YN kisses him on the mouth, catching him off guard "I know you're going to do it differently, my love. It's going to be okay."
YN feels so exhausted by this argument, fed up and patiently reaching the end, realizing that he won't let them end that easily. So, YN changes her mind, mentally changing her strategy before Tim arrests her and chains her in the apartment.
you tuck a strand of his hair behind his ear. "Let's watch a movie, hmm?" She suggests he calm down, cutting off any obsessive or paranoid trains of thought with a gentle smile.
Tim seems almost surprised by the unexpected gesture of the kiss, but he quickly recovers. His hands lightly squeeze her waist as he returns the gesture.
He nodded, his voice a little calmer.
"Yes, a film." He responds, his facial expression less tense. "That sounds good. Like we did before."
Tim moves away from you a little, but he doesn't let go of you completely. As he takes you to the couch, he remains close, with one hand on your waist, melting into Yn's warmth, the familiar scent bringing him a sense of comfort and security that only she can bring.
It looks like the film will repeat itself again.
The beautiful butterfly is caught in the spider's suffocating webs.
(っ◔◡◔)っ ♥ Every like, repost and comment is very welcome and appreciated. ♥
#for Tim's birthday#sorry my twst followers#but Batfam has invaded my brain and is cooking a lot of things#I'll be back soon with your asks and requests#Yuu!Howl who wants it? it's almost there#Honestly#this idea from Tim disappeared on my tumblr page#but it was one of the main things I picked up from him since I arrived in this new fandom#It's one of his differences#the need to always be watching and almost desperate for it#I wanted to see a yandere break a little honestly#pat 2 there's fire in the playground#dc x reader#dc comics#batman#tim drake#dc universe#batfam#bruce wayne#jason todd#yandere boy#clingy yandere#yandere boyfriend#yandere tim drake#red robin#batfamily#red hood#dc robin#tim drake robin#robin iii
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what if the next art fight theme waas earthbound vs mother3 adn instead of drawing eachothers characters we drew the game characters adn all my attascks got 1Billion points because mu artfight username. Is @/mother3 causing team mothrr3 to winby a landslide wouldnt that be cool guys
#mother 3#claus#masked man#mother 3 spoilers#(fleur follows me)#izzy art#i needed a break from attacks it was making my brain melt so i drew claus#i initially wanted to draw this all creepy and studf but theres a mental block i have that if the drawing isnt 'cute' i dont like it :( so#sorry hes cute instead#stream apple by charli xcx
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You think things have to be possible? Things have to be true!
Amir Wilson as WILL PARRY HIS DARK MATERIALS 2.07 | Æsahættr —The Subtle Knife: Chapter 15
#hdmedit#his dark materials#hdm#hisdarkmaterialsedit#the subtle knife#will parry#amir wilson#hdmsource#userzhr#userstarminster#userplatinum#userpegs#usernik#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#taking a break from my regularly scheduled obsession over newest fav character to lament over beloved fav character of all time#i finished my reread of the subtle knife and uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#will parry you are everything to me.#where is amir's award for this episode truly#caption = book quotes that live in my brain rent free so i NEEDED to see it next to his face
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unsurprising but my henryverse christmas fic is getting away from me lmao, here’s another peak at my lil family just being cute
Buck couldn’t help but laugh as he watched Tommy chase a giggling Henry around the Christmas Tree before scooping him up, lifting him over his head and placing him on his shoulders. He pulled out his polaroid camera and took a picture of the pair, before jogging over to join them.
The day was just as magic as Buck could have hoped for. After an hour of looking, Henry did in fact find the biggest and bestest tree; well the biggest that Tommy would allow in the house. Once the tree was secured in the truck, they headed to the small cafe located on the farm for some lunch. Henry took a sip of his very first hot chocolate, which left the cutest whipped cream mustache on his top lip. With a laugh, Buck took a picture of him and sent it into the group chat.
Buck: He pulls it off better than his uncle Eddie.
Hen: Oh look at that sweet face!
Chimney: Just showed Maddie and she immediately started to cry.
Bobby: That has to be your Christmas card picture this year.
Eddie: You are lucky he is cute, otherwise I would be highly offended.
tagging some peeps 🫡
@nydoorin-lionett @louisferrignojr @swagmaster9k @bidisasterevankinard @merrylou-mas @loucifersbitch @music-is-the-voice-of-the-soul @911-is-my-emergency
#let’s take a break from the smut and appreciate some fluffy hehehe#bucktommy#my wips#henryverse#also anyone wanna talk henryverse i need to make my brain work so i can write some more 🫡
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Me every time I draw Moon being hella scary and ruthless👉👈
#i needed to take a break from drawing him just because my brain went “WOOO MAMA OUGHHH GRGGRGR” 😭😭#HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE SCARY#simp brain thinks differently 😔#xit shh
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sorry sometimes i think about mako and my heart hurts so much. this kid raised himself and his brother on the streets in homelessness and utter poverty from eight through fifteen, promptly after seeing the violent death of his mother and father. he turned to the triple threats because they couldn't survive as a pair of wretched kids without any adult support, and the environment forced him to turn into the exact character that killed his parents in a terrible twist of irony. and after sheer-fucking-luck hits and they aren't homeless anymore, their livelihood wavers on the outcome of what's a literally game to everyone but them; and after things are finally starting to look up and their team is going places and things just might be okay, his gradually stabilizing world unceremoniously expands and everything goes to shit.
and the city that chewed him up and spat him back out, ruined him as a child and took away his ability to stay afloat in a true sense of normalcy as an adult — when it's on the verge of destruction and falling to pieces before his eyes, he gives himself to save it with the full expectation to die. he went from the kid who didn't and couldn't care about anything outside of himself and his brother, to finding redemption for his younger self in his police work despite its injustice against him, to willingly sacrificing himself to a world that had never loved him.
he's a desperate people pleaser, socially and emotionally stunted for the adult he had to be as a kid, unable to navigate interpersonal relationships easily yet still trying his damned hardest. he's intensely and entirely devoted to the things that matter to him and for so long it was only him, bolin, and ensuring their survival — yet by the end, that devotion has expanded to protecting the rest of the world. he starts out entirely self-reliant and ends in trusting the people he cares about to know their own needs, to be able to take care of themselves, to be okay without him despite having spent so much of his life defined by his role in others' well-being.
just. what the fuck i'm such a big fan of this fictional guy and i'm unashamed about it at this point. also let him cry please (if you won't i'll do it i'll let him cry)
#lychee's brain trash#mako lok#mako tlok#sorry for the shitpost i don't do a lot of those i realize#how tf did this guy not had a massive break down in canon at any point#nd like;; he never shows resentment for the unfairness of it all#he doesn't ever use his past to excuse any of his choices/actions that are influenced by it#which is pretty intrinsically linked to his relationship fumbles#he just quietly holds himself accountable and probably mildly despises himself haha#as much as i don't care for the love triangle it really does make complete sense in accordance to his backstory#anyway this is just a roundabout way of me expressing my salt at people writing him off as a malicious asshole lol#i literally cannot articulate the intense complex things his conjured up existence makes me feel#this does not even scratch the surface there is SO MUCH#i need to actually write the fifty fics that exist to my brain otherwise all these thoughts will never see the sun#trust that one day the avatar!mako au will emerge from my drafts;;;#and. you know. that one shot i've had in wip for the past 2.5 years#and the four other oneshots that will probably never be converted into actual words
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// JRWI PD S2 36 SPOILERS
tear them apart
#guh dakota cole you did not deserve that at all#but my silly little tokyo ghoul obsessed brain went chaos cole form AND red veins coming from his eyes#and went oh i love that i need to draw this#but my poor boy you deserve a break dear god but i don’t think you will get one#art#my art#artists on tumblr#jrwi#just roll with it#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi spoilers#jrwi art#jrwi pd fanart#jrwi podcast#jrwi pd#dakota cole#just roll with it prime defenders#just roll with it fanart#prime defenders s2#prime defenders#prime defenders spoilers#prime defenders jrwi#prime defenders fanart
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So a fic based in this and this idea (the Mav POV of Bradley and Jake being married and having 4 kids and him not knowing until the special detachment because they haven't talked in years) may be coming along EDIT: It is now on ao3 - here.
He tries not to look. He really does.
Penny raises an eyebrow at him and he tries to focus on the glass in front of him.
He still glances to the side. He can’t see them very well there, with all the people around, but he sees Bradley, with his back turned to him, handing over one of the babies to the woman he saw before — she is familiar, one of the pilots chosen for the mission. Lieutenant Trace, if he remembers correctly.
She coos a little, bouncing the baby — Bradley’s baby — in her arms and over the music, Mav catches her saying, “Where’s your hubby?”
He doesn’t hear Bradley’s reply.
He makes himself look away.
Did you know? he texts Ice. About Bradley?
Yes.
He’s got kids.
I know, Ice replies and Mav tries to bit down on the irrational anger — he’s been telling him for years to not relay to him anything about Bradley, as punishment. They have them as dependents on files.
Mav stares at the words on the screen. They. Bradley has a husband and kids and Mav’s never met them. He didn’t even know they existed before today.
Do they know Mav exists? Has Bradley told his husband about Mav or about Ice? Has he told his kids who taught him to read or who taught him how to ride a bike or who used to read him to sleep or who would hold him when he cried through the nights? Or has he erased them from existence in his life completely?
“Are you going to talk to him?” Penny asks.
#i think i need a bit of a break from my usual fics because I'm stressing over getting them 'perfect' too much#so I'm going to write whatever my brain is in the mood for#which is this fic#the kinky buddie fic for my other account#the omegaverse hangster fic#and the lights off fic for cod#idk#we'll see#hangster#mavdad#tgm#charlie writes#op#q
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━ JULY of Passion | 2021/22/23/24
Looking back at some sets from past July(s) 👁👄👁
Everything was so damn orange in 21 HGHFHGF goddamn My fav from that bunch gotta be the third one 👀 popped off with those colors and that light ouuughhh hhh
#Cyberpunk 2077#Mitch Anderson#Valentin Da Silva#Aldecaldos#OTP: High Voltage#MLM#Screenshot#Virtual Photography#Taking a break from cp77 in general s'doing good for my brain#deep in dragon age rot and can't wait for DAV to drop#but!!!! also still strongly loving the bbs#I just don't feel the strong need to take pics or mods atm#I'll come back soon tho uwu#One thing I noticed tho is that when I'm not actively creating stuff#I have more energy to get invested in others stuff?? I appreciate VP and general OC talks way more#just something I've noticed 👁👄👁
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are you guys fucking for real? are you SERIOUS?
antis have bullied Seunghan in quitting literally 2 days after they announced he would be returning...& FOR WHAT??? WHAT DO THEY GAIN BY BEING EVIL TO A 20 YEAR OLD??? the only crime he's committed is being a living breathing person who has a life outside of his JOB.
I'm actually SO PISSED off.
as a pre debut briize, for these 10 months I have found it difficult to support riize, because in my heart I couldn't stop thinking about that poor kid who was suffering for no reason. I told myself to support the other members, that if Seunghan wasn't immediately kicked out he would return. I thought about how much happier riize & briize would be once we were all reunited. I was so hopeful seeing the outpouring of love & support for him throughout social media. I was SO HAPPY when Seunghan announced his return in November.
riize is 7.
riize was always meant to BE 7.
anyone who is ot6, anyone who participated in the hate, anyone who wasn't ecstatic when Seunghan's return was announced: YOU ARE NOT A BRIIZE & pls block me 🙏
#riize#briize#seunghan#hong seunghan#RIIZE IS 7#its literally pure evil & should be illegal what they're doing#protest trucks & funeral wreaths over a teenage boy having a girlfriend? having a cigarette? for swearing?? BE SO FOR REAL#he's not my bias. he was never my bias. i just have a heart & a brain.#where is the energy for the REALLY disgusting monstrous predatory men in the industry???#im so fucking sick & tired. i think i need a break from riize which fucking KILLS ME because its literally not their fault in any way.#yall are on the WRONG side of history#FIN posts
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