#imagine being neurodivergent

[aq2003]

twelfth night main plot: haha bisexual love triangle that is gay in both directions! haha mistaken identity and gender fuckery haha

malvolio side plot:

[roomba-mangga]

Curry pt. i // Curry pt. ii

yeah alright okay. fine. cool. alright. yeah

[peachyfuck18]

And I’m fascinated at how you can still play the victim when all you’ve done to me and my friend @scionofthehellpriest who has ADHD is continue to cry you’re white woman tears at the fact that when people try to tell you that’s harmful and show you actual proof you go “nuh uh now let me suck my daddy unwle cowonizer apowogist dick”

And you did say the opposite right fucking here:

“It's fantasy, fiction, after all.”

Meaning you’re playing dumb to the fact that when called out you do nothing but bitch and change your shit multiple times to make me look like the bad guy when I tell you how this can affect people with these disabilities can feel hurt or made fun of but you know you do and piss on other ND people because you’re nothing but a pick me for neurotypicals. And I gave you fucking examples that obviously ignored but hey you know what if you wanna turn a blind eye to it just now you’re helping the worst things ever go down and be an accomplice to it. Since a Zionist apologist like you will never understand why marginalized groups hate people like you

And you ignoring my points of how fiction can affect reality ok what about propaganda movies? Tv shows? Books? That shit affects reality as we’ve seen MULTIPLE FUCKING TIMES and I should’ve known you we’re probably British or some type of European given the fact you’re a colonizer apologist so why don’t you read a history book as it has better shit in there than your favorite appropriated ableist mythology fanfiction written by a Zionist.

Yeah and guess what? Those interpretations can be fucking harmful not only to people who that series misrepresents multiple times over and over again but also shit like your little fanfiction has done more good than harm to people like me so fuck off and no I won’t let it go til I go Ghostface on R*ordans ass so he’ll never write another book so you can choke on my clit while I do that

Also real life ADHD symptoms were never brought up as I showed you when I first replied to you so you’re definitely downplaying our experiences which makes sense as people like YOU make shit harder for your own community as you’re nothing but a pick me for a neurotypical Zionist

Yeah and it’s people like R*CK R*ORDAN a rich straight cis neurotypical white man who literally has the world catered to him and his books are just a reflection of how out of touch he really is with marginalized groups like me someone who’s autistic, bisexual and a she/they

And no I’m allowed to be as fucking angry as I want at R*ordan while you lick the shit off his shoes cause he told you too and of course responding me doesn’t seem like “a healthy way to cope” does it

And you saying you have critical thinking skills while you ignore the marginalized people he’s hurt cause you’re nothing but a pick me for neurotypicals who if they tell you to eat the shit from their shoes you’ll do it no questions asked as you continue to support an author who’s supporting genocide at this moment and ignore the evidence and my experiences cause it’s too much of an inconvenience to YOU

And also as a little fuck you

I would like to thank the Percy Jackson fandom for the reason that neurodivergent people are infantilized on a daily basis as well as R*ck R*ordans shitty rewrite on ADHD and Dyslexia and making it like superpowers not actual disorders people suffer from on a daily basis while most of the characters act like neurotypicals.

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

I always thought that handcuffs were kinda stupid. As a little kid I would watch movies where the bad guys were hauled away in cuffs and I'd always think "alright, I guess that's inconvenient for them?" but I never really understood why they didn't just... take them off and escape

This curiosity heightened when I saw that my aunt had real metal handcuffs that locked with a real key and I quickly, before any adult could see what I was doing, shackled both my wrists with the cuffs as tight as they could go.

And when I say tight, I mean tight. I had reaaaaal skinny wrists and I was a child wearing adult handcuffs, so you'd think the cuffs would be loose but nope. Those things weren't circular anymore, they'd folded in so much that they looked more like the shape a cat's pupils turn when they're mad.

And what they don't tell you about real handcuffs? Those suckers are sharp. The inside edges are almost bladed, I guess to discourage exactly what I was trying to do but that certainly didn't stop my curious lil neurodivergent brain, oh no no.

Anyway, after about five minutes of pulling, straining, huffing and puffing, I finally went to find the adult with the key.

I was so disappointed.

And so, so hopelessly confused.

Course, no one questioned why I had locked my aunt's handcuffs and why I needed them unlocked. And, of course, I didn't communicate my confusion in any way.

So it wasn't until way later in life, when I had quickly shimmied out of one of those indestructible water park wristbands and saw the horrified eyes of my friends watching me with morbid glee, that I discovered that, apparently, most people can't dislocate their thumbs at will.

The moral of the story here is that neurodivergent children have no concept of typical versus atypical and that I cannot be contained by your petty mortal means.

[prettyinpinkhair]

because leah looks closer to book annabeth than alexandria daddario

because book annabeth has a deep tan

because mixed families exist

because you don’t have to be biologically related to someone to be their cousin

because annabeth is never explicitly called white

because melanesian people exist

because there’s this one scene in tbol where percy is obsessing over how good annabeths curls look and it would be sooo cute if leah wore her natural hair in that season

BECAUSE LEAH IS A DAMN GOOD ACTRESS AND I WOULDNT WANT ANYONE ELSE PLAYING ANNABETH

[gorelesbian]

was discussing children with my friends and one friend goes "we'd probably adopt cause with our genes we'd 100% pass down adhd or autism to the poor kid" and another friend goes "and? that's not so bad is it?" queen you have no fucking clue. i'd rather shoot myself in the head right now than doom an innocent child with my disordered genes

[k1ngrav]

pointing to myself in the mirror: you're normal you're normal you're normal you're normal you're normal you're normal you're normal you're nor-

[deusluxuria]

( content notes: self-harm, self-harm stigma and shaming -- seriously this part of the anime was so damn triggering to me the first couple times i watched it )

( spoilers: part 3 / stardust crusaders )

i get that society didn't understand shit about self-harm in the 80s (not that it's gotten much better since lol). but when joseph and polnareff start viewing kakyoin in kind of a harsh light after they see what they think is mental health self-harm (as opposed to the real reason kakyoin cut himself), i like to think it means something that jotaro wasn't nearly as harsh. like he gets it.

[hasellia]

Watching Jenny's video on the Star Wars hotel made me realise why I hate theme parks so fucking much.

She talks about how this experiance has a very heavy emphasis on having a "LARP-like" lens of the adventure. But, as far I could tell and remember, most theme parks already have an heavy empahis on the role play aspect. But at least if you're LARPing with friends, if you mess up, everyone can just laugh it off with you and tell you it's alright. My anxiety driven autistic arse is waaaaay to scared of "not getting it" or "failing to read the room" in theme parks.

ESPECIALLY around character actors. Like, I can't expect every actor to know the fan lore between Hercules and Ariel or be able to do a shit tonne of push-ups in a Gaston costume. No matter how much training or money they're paid, that just seems unreasonable to me. So I'm mortified of unintentionally saying or doing something that calls to attention that the experience is fake and "ruining the magic" for someone, worse if it's a child.

When people ask me to imagine something, I freak out with performance anxiety. It's not that I lack creativity. But it's that I don't know the specifics of what exactly they want me to think of. There are so many ways an objectively real thing can be experienced and so many varying characteristics they can have. You want me to think of a rose? Are you after the smell? I don't know what they smell like. Is it the symbolism you're after? Which one, love or death? Or is it something else? Taste? Have you ever tasted rose petals? Did you know you can do that? Colour? Why? Do you like the colour of the rose? WHICH FUCKING ONE THERE'S BEEN ENTIRE WARS WHERE PEOPLE WERE MURDERED OVER DIFFERENT ROSE COLOURS?

This is why guided meditations are either hit or miss so bad it has the opposite effect on me. At least when you fail to perform with physical task, you know when you fucked up. How are you meant to know if you've failed a mental task, the labour of "thinking creatively" correctly or not? @patricia-taxxon has a good video on this:

Green is NOT a creative colour.

[sullina]

i think part of what makes so many people just flock to dungeon meshi as well is that it's also a story involving an autistic main character, who actually IS the main character

Because many stories will have an autistic character in them and then the story is more about how all the neurotypical people AROUND the autistic character deal with the characters autism, and the autistic character ends up as a side-character in a story that's supposed to be ABOUT them.

But in dungeon meshi, Laios especially is so much the main character! And i know he's not the only one, and not the only autistic character obv, and i know the story isn't about just him alone OR his autism...

But we get Laios' perspective. On just about everything. The story is, in the roughest terms, about the party venturing into the dungeon in order to save Falin, who got eaten by the red dragon. They're on a time constraint and have no money or equipment except what they literally have on their backs. That's the story.

Another author, a worse author, probably wouldn't have made Laios the party leader. A worse author would've relegated Laios to the "weird, awkward newbie who's excited about monsters but doesn't have the slightest clue or experience with them" who's job would've been to cite fun facts about whatever monster they encounter from some book he carries around, and the main interactions between him and the party would've been them yelling at him or calling him weird, to the point where you're wondering what this characters purpose even is in the story beyond comic relief.

And I'm so glad we didn't get this.

Instead of a story that emphasizes how "weird and unlikable" this weird character is, we get Laios being the partys leader, who, yes, is weird, but also competent and knowledgable and skilled and also is still a full character, with thoughts and feelings of his own, who actually speaks his mind and interacts with others on equal footing, who defends himself when he KNOWS he isn't in the wrong.

Laios and Shuros confrontation is both shocking, and also a huge breath of fresh air.

(Also, i know that "Shuro" isn't his real name but i can't remember his real name and I can't be bothered to look it up rn)

Shuro tells Laios to learn to read the room. A worse author would've had Laios apologize to Shuro for his own incompetence, but instead of meekly accepting that accusation, Laios throws it back in Shuros own face. That Shuro should've just been direct and honest with Laios when he KNEW that Laios wasn't getting it, instead of just playing along and letting that resentment fester.

And Laios is not only shouting it out, speaking his mind, and refusing to be treated as lesser than anyone else just because he can't "read the room", but he's also portrayed as RIGHT! Shuro would've have had to put up with Laios, whom he didn't like, but whom he let believe that they were friends, if he had just TOLD Laios he didn't like him DIRECTLY.

and look, i know that there's some hints or pages or whatever you wanna call them, that Shuro is also autistic, but comes with a different background, which basically just makes him and Laios incompatible in a certain sense.

But even with all that, Shuro still had no right to fault Laios for his shortcomings, when his own shortcomings played just as much of a role in their eventual confrontation. And the difference? Shuro KNEW how he himself AND Laios felt, but Laios only knew how he himself felt. Shuro was at an advantage in their situation, and he still faulted Laios and made him out to be this villain, who was purposely trying to make Shuro miserable, when Shuro himself NEVER opened his mouth to correct Laios!

And the thing is, Shuro isn't in the wrong for not liking Laios. Shuro is in the wrong for blowing up at Laios without EVER even giving him the chance to correct his behaviour!

And Laios KNOWS this, and he REFUSES to just apologize for something that wasn't even his fault! How could he possibly have known Shuro didn't like him, when Shuro never gave him any kind of indication of that fact?

And that's just it, isn't it?

Because I know I've experienced this kind of situation, even if exact memories don't come to mind, and I know other autistic or otherwise neurodivergent people have experienced this kind of thing. Of someone whom they were just having a normal conversation with or whom they considered a friend, just randomly blowing up at them for no conceivable reason. From our perspective, the other person just randomly decided they didn't like us anymore, didn't care about us anymore and wanted to be rid of us, or decided we were suddenly just evil, and they got mad at us, yelled at us, called us names, and then just left. And we're left confused and sad and, having no other information to go off of, because none was given to us, are bound to come to the conclusion that there's something wrong with us. We're just not likeable and any kindness from other people coming our way is just them being too polite to say anything until they've decided they had enough of us and abandon us. Because they never liked us. They were just too polite to say anything until they couldn't take us anymore.

[blue-jayyy8657]

every time i see something remotely shiny on the ground - bottle caps, pull tabs, shiny pebbles - my Creature Brain takes over and i just have have have to take it home

animals i have been called because of this: gremlin, crow, raccoon, goblin, pigeon, and my personal favorite “why the fuck do you keep stopping to pick things up?? like you’re just a creature dude i don’t understand you in the slightest” and that made me happy

my brother also does this which leads me to believe it is some sort of neurodivergent thing? or maybe we’re both “just a creature dude”

[lowcallyfruity]

OH MY GOODNESS I HATE AUTISTIC PEOPLE!!!! GRAHHHH!!!! I H8 THEM!!!!!!!! GRAHHHHH!!!!! (lie I love them sm these characters mean the world to me)

MY DUMBASSES OH EM GEE!!!!

(This is all said lovingly and endearingly)

[isurrendertoclones]

Jurassic World: Chaos Theory spoilers:

(This is relevant to Star Wars I promise lol)

The ending of this season just makes Tech’s death that much more frustrating!!!

Like we, the audience, knew Brooklyn was alive, because that’s the way the story was set up. That’s the story we, as humans, like and understand and crave. We didn’t know when or how she was coming back, so it was still a surprise! And she lost an arm in the attack, so there were consequences! None of the tension or emotion was lost because she’s actually alive.

It just parallels Tech’s death so perfectly…except that in Chaos Theory they actually went with the story that both made narrative sense and satisfied the audience. There was still genuine pain and grief for her through the whole season, making her ‘death’ impactful (haha we didn’t even get that for Tech, so it was pretty much meaningless 🙃), but they’re still bringing her back into the story. It doesn’t feel forced or juvenile—it feels like the way the story is supposed to go.

It just feels like a kick in the teeth coming right on the heels of the end of TBB (mixing my metaphors a little lol) because yeah. This. This is exactly what I wanted: we get Tech back. He’s changed, irrevocably, but he’s back.

There just doesn’t feel like there was any point to Tech’s death except to hurt the audience—and it barely has any impact on the in-world story at all!!! A couple of almost throw-away lines over the whole third season. We don’t even see Crosshair finding out what happened.

TL;DR

The ending of the first season of Chaos Theory is exactly what I wanted to happen with Tech, and there’s no reason we shouldn’t have gotten him back.

[brightlotusmoon]

The Ghost and Molly McGee Season 2 Finale Full Episode | The End | S2 E2...

Oh, hey, the episode where love and friendship literally are superpowers and Maya Angelou is quoted by a Jewish girl, the main character is multiracial, several characters are autistic and ADHD, there's at least one prominent gay couple, lessons are learned with kindness, and adults learn things too.

[citrine-elephant]

there is nothing strictly heterosexual about the way leon looks at other men, i swear

[edge-oftheworld]

one thing I love about following celebrities/artists who are honest and proactive about their mental health struggles etc is I can’t count the number of times someone I know is going through something and I’m like ‘I’ve got a song for u’ and how much of my life involves telling myself ‘if [redacted] can do something/get better/etc then so can i’ (and having actual real evidence of it in front of me) and I can’t understate how much I appreciate these things.

but at the same time it involves a whole lot of watching people I care about suffer and you learn to read the signs and infer between the lines in songs and interviews, and yes we can never fully know what they don’t share with us, but when they do share things it’s not a big stretch to be like ‘this seems like it’s what life is like for you and I have taken encouragement from it but you deserve so much better’. and it’s easy to find ways to get angry at a predatory industry and realise things that could be hurtful if you’re already fragile.

and we can advocate for some things and help ourselves and the people around us feel better but it’s hard to meaningfully reach your faves as an individual. and there are things we can’t say on the internet in too much detail, speculation becomes the harmful kind of gossip, and so sometimes it’s a whole lot of internally saying ‘you’re doing incredibly well to have gotten to where you are but I wish for your sake things would get better faster’