#corv talks

[k1ngrav]

i'm starting to think the worms in s1 of TMA was a metaphor for how the worms in my brain are ruining me from this podcast. it was an omen.

[undercover-roomba]

i think i used a yellow pencil on my physics test because i thought it looked like princezam and then i failed the test

[k1ngrav]

it really is tossing the dice yet somehow the dice became darts and now we're playing darts.

I love opening up this website first thing like the morning paper and immediately seeing multiple posts like "how to get rid of the evil clown on the dashboard". like oh is this what we're doing today

[irlbeanieboo]

How do you have both BPD and C-PTSD ???

My therapist told me those were the exact same thing

(not mad or anything just confused)

they’re a little different!! i personally seperate the two, or at least mention both of them here, because being traumatized has not led to just bpd with me and i think when it comes to the reasons i cope it spans to both of them. like some symptoms with c-ptsd i experience without as much correlation to bpd. hope this makes sense i’m honestly half asleep rn lol. but i’ve been meaning to just say less specifically that plushies help with my trauma coping and symptoms, feels odd having both mentioned on my acc yknow? people are odd about bpd. but there are differences between c-ptsd and bpd, while they are similar and can manifest because of similar things, there is a reason why they are different diagnoses! and in different groups too.

[corvidcall]

a few months ago, my manager asked me to take over my coworkers clients so she could get more experience doing (other type of work my team does) and i was excited bc i like doing her work so much more than (other type of work)

today i clocked in and i guess they moved her back to her old work, meaning they suddenly took all my clients away and i guess im supposed to go back to my old work. no one said anything about it to me before it happened (my manager said my coworker was coming back to "help us" but she didnt say "angie will be taking her clients back so corv will be going back to ops 3") and because i messed something up last week, it really feels like im being punished. i worked my ass off getting our queue in a good place and it feels like my reward is getting demoted. also, we recently got a new person on the team, and if we had enough work to need another full time person doing it, why wasnt it me?

and like. i KNOW the actual answers. my coworker was always going to take her clients back over. i know we added a new person not because WE needed one, but because his old team was dissolved and he had to go somewhere. and my manager is not the type to punish me for the mistake i made last week (especially because i dont think im the only one who made it). but it feels so bad. like why do i even try

[likeadog]

Brother your ceausescu jokes live rent free in my head. Theres a specific vent you made like a year ago that ended with smth like "call me ceausescu the way i need to be shot by 120 bullets", i think about it so often when i want to kms

they live in MY head rent free and i had to recurrently stop and explain because ill be like "goddamn call me elena ceausescu the way im cheesing my way through this degree" and all of my coworkers look at me like what are you FUCKING talking about

[k1ngrav]

THIS THIS THIS THIS ‼️

i swear to the gods between this [wanting immediate story satisfaction] and media illiteracy it is so disheartening to see! please stop trying to rush writers in their process! i promise it's worth the build up! it's a part of telling a good story!! let yourself be unsatisfied, let yourself be frustrated or confused, let yourself be upset!

that is a part of art!!

you're supposed to feel!! you're supposed to think! not all media is for immediate satisfaction or spoon feeding you all the information, plot and development! subtext is there for a reason! creative writing tools to drive plot and character arcs are there for a reason!

God the current TV landscape has completely destroyed audiences ability to wait for developments and to accept suspense.

"Why hasn't this couple gotten together yet??" -> it's a slow burn, it takes time

"Why is nothing resolved by the end of the season??" -> sometimes, things have to get worse before they can get better, it takes time.

The best stories take their time because instant satisfaction is not good for storytelling. Rushing things is how you end up with the finale of game of thrones, and no one wants to end up like the finale of game of thrones

[starry-night-monster]

[ * Woah!! I must say, your art is quite lovely! ] [ * Do you ever travel outside of the Omega Timeline? What sort of people have you encountered? :0 ]

[*Thank you! I really appreciate this!]

[*Yup, I am able to travel outside of the Omega Timeline through my own means, usually I do it for inspiration, but I only ever observe. I don't interact with the inhabitants because I find them intimidating and I feel like something's gonna explode if I do.]

[*So... I can't say I have really encountered people, but I have observed some interesting ch- folks from afar during my travels]

[*There's this one time I traveled into a certain timeline and I heard very faint music with somewhat of a robotic voice saying things like "I'm homicidal and I've got a taste" or something like that. Headed out right as the voice said it for my safety. The way that place looked also made me feel uneasy and it was a little dusty so I sneezed a couple of times. Chances are I sneezed some monster's remains.

[cat-soap-opera]

this might be extremely vain but like.... the idea of seeing ppl make actual reviews n analysis type shit abt the cattle of red valley motivates me to work on it quite a bit

[starmonsterrr]

Would be nice to wrap my wings around Ink and cuddle and eep, they're my treasure

[starlit-mansion]

Actually as a "solitaire is the biggest comfort game in the world" millenial bitch, i hate what microsoft did to their default solitaire collection (choked with ads and microtransactions) so i have steam installed on my art laptop exclusively for solitaire expedition and bejeweled (in case i need a break from solitaire)

[k1ngrav]

me n the boys roll up to a vague paranormal institute and be like "omg i cannot WAIT to figure out what flavor of trauma ill become!"

[undercover-roomba]

if i got added to lifesteal i would be silent literally the entire season up until someone was killed right in front of me. i would then say "Egads!! His life... Was stolen!! What is this... Some kind of Life Steal?" and then i would never log on again

[arden-in-the-garden]

I usually just store my comments in the tags but maybe this is my permission for 2023 to the be the year I start commenting on shit publicly. If it's annoying, reblog from someone else lol

Okay reblog if you’re an artist who STRONGLY PREFERS reblogs with commentary

People are apparently under the impression that reblogging someone’s art and adding a comment is frowned upon and that can’t possibly be true, every artist I know of sees a reblog-comment as like the ultimate definitive reward for their hard work.

Obviously don’t feel bad for NOT adding a comment if you’re shy or just don’t know what to say, but if there’s something you would like to say about a drawing you’ve liked enough to reblog, I’m pretty sure most artists crave hearing it.

[princepipper]

I went over my "following" list...

As of now I only follow 25 blogs. 5 of which are mutuals. I tend to unfollow blogs that don't update after about 2-3 months... 1 blog I follow has been inactive for 7 years. It is One's, obviously. 😭

[asterianshadows]

Lore Drop / Recent Life / Mental Help update below the cut, we really just needed to get some shit out of our head and into the void.

Okay, thank fuck. We saw a psychiatrist about shit recently because I was really in a not good place for a solid two and a half weeks and was very worried I was having some sort of subclinical episode of psychosis.

Turns out it was probably just a really intense derealization episode, since it’s not that I was perceiving not real things as real, but I was instead perceiving real things as incredibly unreal and distorting what they were, and had decent awareness of symptoms. We’re keeping an eye on it though, and luckily the psychiatrist was nice and took us seriously.

I did not talk to them about being a system or anything, we didn’t want it to distract from the very alarming current issues and we’ve been pretty functional and non-distressed about it for a while now. I also just.. don’t particularly want an on-record diagnosis for it for a lot of reasons, including stigma and such.

It’s enough for me to have it medically recognized and confirmed as plausible by other mental health professionals who we see, which they’ve done. Still, sometimes I wonder if getting properly diagnosed would help with all the doubt.