#corv talks i guess 🐾

[asterianshadows]

Lore Drop / Recent Life / Mental Help update below the cut, we really just needed to get some shit out of our head and into the void.

Okay, thank fuck. We saw a psychiatrist about shit recently because I was really in a not good place for a solid two and a half weeks and was very worried I was having some sort of subclinical episode of psychosis.

Turns out it was probably just a really intense derealization episode, since it’s not that I was perceiving not real things as real, but I was instead perceiving real things as incredibly unreal and distorting what they were, and had decent awareness of symptoms. We’re keeping an eye on it though, and luckily the psychiatrist was nice and took us seriously.

I did not talk to them about being a system or anything, we didn’t want it to distract from the very alarming current issues and we’ve been pretty functional and non-distressed about it for a while now. I also just.. don’t particularly want an on-record diagnosis for it for a lot of reasons, including stigma and such.

It’s enough for me to have it medically recognized and confirmed as plausible by other mental health professionals who we see, which they’ve done. Still, sometimes I wonder if getting properly diagnosed would help with all the doubt.

[asterianshadows]

Kinda fucking sick of shit right now

[asterianshadows]

Feeling kinda down today, so I’m here, and dealing with way too much homework. I am not equipped for reading about French New Wave cinema lmao.

Distractions welcome, but otherwise I’m just kinda shouting into the void to shout. -Corv🐾

[asterianshadows]

Hey, been awhile since any of us have really kept up with this blog, hoping to fix that. In the mean time, hope all our followers and the mutuals we never talk to are doing well.