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This is probably how my father felt about my mother. I believe that by the time he realized that she wasn't going to change, he had two kids, a mortgage, a job, and a very codependent wife to take care of.
I used to be mad at him for not getting his ass up and leaving but now I know it's very to do that. I don't understand by huge means, but I know he couldn't have gone.
Abusers don’t come with warning labels. Abusers don’t hit you on the first date. They don’t write “I will humiliate and belittle you” on their Tinder profiles. They don’t wear “I break things to intimidate my partner” t-shirts. People don’t get trapped in damaging relationships because they saw an abuser coming from 20 yards away and decided “I’m going to date that person anyway”. That’s not how any of this works. In the beginning, abusers can be some of the most thoughtful, attentive people you’ll ever meet. They’re obsessed with you; that’s what makes them so toxic and deadly as time goes on. Abusers buy you flowers. They remember your birthday. They remember to text you “good morning” and “good night”. They listen to your problems, confide in you and share silly inside jokes. They can keep that “loving, doting partner and best friend” mask in place for months or years if they have to. So the first time they scream at you or hit you, you don’t see an abuser. You see your best friend, your confidante, the person who brought you soup when you were sick and always laughs at your stories about your nutty coworker. You tell yourself they just had a bad day. Maybe they were tired, sick, hungry, or under a lot of stress. You know them. You’ve made a life with them. And they’re so sorry and so ashamed of what they did. This isn’t who they are. And so things go back to back to normal for a while. Wonderful, even. This is still one of the best relationships you’ve ever been in, even counting that one incident. You go back to date nights, cozy nights in and 5-hour-long conversations that feel effortless. And then it happens again. And you still don’t see an abuser. You see the person who means the most to you in the whole world. You decide that maybe they’re just struggling. Maybe they have mental health issues. They’ve told you every horrible thing that’s ever happened to them as a child, and maybe it has something to do with that. But either way, they’re not an abuser. Not yet. They’re just a person who needs you more than ever. Then things are good for a while. Then something bad happens. Then it’s good again. Then it’s bad. Good. Bad. Good. Bad. And every time it happens, it gets a little harder to get out. The time you’ve invested in the relationship goes up, and your self-esteem goes down. By the time you realize that, yes, the person you thought you knew is an Abuser with a capital A, you’re in deep. You’re a frog that stood in a pot of water so long it turned you into soup before you even noticed it was getting a little warm. But you didn’t ask for this. And you certainly didn’t know it was coming. We have this image in our heads of what abusers must look like. We picture brawny men with low foreheads and stained white tank tops, screaming at their wives while they drink beer in front of the TV. We think they’re like wildlife, as if we could spot them with the help of a guidebook and know to stay far away from them. But they’re not. Abusers can be anyone. They can be female. They can be accomplished. They can be well-groomed. Queer. Politically far-left. Politically far-right. Artists. Athletic. Charitable. Intelligent. They can come from any walk of life, any spot on the gender spectrum, any religion, any background. It’s not the abused person’s fault for not spotting them - they can’t always be spotted. It’s the abuser’s fault for abusing.
#dysfunctional family#emotional abuse#tw#mental health#father#im sorry for being mad at him#and im sorry this shit happened to him because he didnt deserve to have to spend his life waiting on her every beck and call#he deserved to be happy and have a long life away from toxicity
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yknow i dont go here but sometimes i gotta go: seriously respect clowns. they have the worst pop culture representation in the world and also the best most thorough honor code. they're just here to be silly little guys who bring joy and are very conscientious about doing so responsibly. let them to their merriment in peace you dont hafta take potshots. i dont go here but like maybe i should, you all seem super chill
#my posts#im mad bc i saw a clown knight adoptable which fascinated me as a concept and then someone bought him and made him evil :(#thats so. boring. its SO BORING IM SORRY THERES A COOL CONCEPT IN THERE BUT THATS THE BORING WAY#maybe ill make my OWN oath of clowning paladin someday#...wait that's actually GOTTA be a dnd subclass somebody's made at some point#anyway also the occasional YouTuber taking potshots and being mean like you dont need to do that theyre just minding their own business :(#we should all strive to be sillier and weirder and more kind forever
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apocalypse doodlings aka We Couldve Had Grey Hair Erik And Charles Is There Too I Guess
#mcu#xmen#xmen movies#xmen apocalypse#erik lehnsherr#magneto#charles xavier#professor x#cherik#not really but sssshh theyre in the same post#snap sketches#anyway Be Surprised If You Will i just intended to do practice drawings of charles tonight#charles doodle is a vague redraw of the first charles doodle i made so thats fun i GUESS#its been a hot minute and james' face still eludes me but we're getting somewhere Probably. i hope.#but then i remembered micheal said originally they were going to make erik's hair go white in apocalypse and i crumbled#and i was JUST gonna leave it at the first erik drawing but then i was like 'can i draw him chilling for once' so. pseudo screencap redraw#it was so funny drawing the first two back-to-back on the same canvas cause i had Charming Charles in one folder#and i open the second one and its. Rage. Anger. and then to round it off He Got Better :) vjealkeajvLK#sorry i made the charles drawing look like a dating sim screenshot i was gonna leave the bg blank but i got mad at it being blank#so i cobbled that together. i cobble a dating sim appropriate bg together vjelkjea#its so funny a lot of times ill be like 'i wont draw a bg' and then ill make a quick one anyway i cant resist i apologize#ok im so sleepy so goodnight team my head hurt
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Hearing news that he’s confirmed romanceable (and described as intimate and sensual) got me so giddy I might just expire.
#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#DAtV#emmrich volkarin#my art#this guy is so targeted at me just from design and what little we know of him in the written works#and I’m so mad cos I need him now#ahdidbd#lemme indulge im sorry it’s so rarely I ever get a romance with an older character who’s part of the main cast#it’s so damn rare#so I get stupidly hyper when it happens#my tastes are always stuck being npcs or unattainable cos they’re not usually conventionally attractive#so I’m so so glad for how unique they’re letting us strive for in this#grrrrr#it’s 1am in the morning how am I to sleep with this info#wtf BioWare
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North and Simon: (shaking hands on killing Simon potentially)
#detroit become human#north wr400#simon pl600#markus rk200#josh pj500#jericho is just... so funny to me as like. how they function (or dont)#like im v glad that i did a Good Job my first run and no one hated me but i also felt like a very distraught parent#in regards to how markus is just able to either hurt them (by suggestions OF THE OTHERS IN THE GROUP)#or help them because hey what the fuck i just dragged simon to safety and now north wants me to kill him#and then simon like oh no north got shot you should leave her BUT ! i saved her and made simon happy#so its like you know what they have to have some animosity but also respect#i feel like i wanna see more of north and simon being buddies ... and i might have to do that myself#but i also apologize if this is ooc for them because i really did only just play through once and got a not good end#i probably missed a lot of lore and stuff so im v sorry if im Messing Them Up#its currently just me liking their designs and vibes and hoping im not ruining other fans lives by being wrong#and i honestly dont know when north would kill simon but hes on her possible victims list#so since both of their victim lists include themselves for suicide it just reminded me of the meme#with im so mad im gonna (remembers suicide jokes are bad for my mental health)#and it was like yeah watch north be like im gonna (well if i cant kill myself because markus said no suicide) murder someone
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Papyrus sketches from my book the other day!
I like to think papyrus is serious and can become angry when he wants to be, but he’s such a nice and genuine sweet character he wouldn’t want to show that to the character or others.
#Like he’s just so kind he wants to see the best in people always even when they’re bad and he holds back his own pain in hopes they come#thru to it. That’s how I saw it with undyne and frisk at least and how protective he became of them after you become his friend#He has the potential obviously. He gets mad at sans JDKFJr but he’s just really sweet and I love him;;;#I’m rambling sorry I love papyrus sm#he’s like the sun of undertale and IM BRAVE ENOUGH TO SAY IT#me being silly n cringe on main LMAo#art#my art#sketches#undertale#papyrus#undertale art#I almost spelled papyrus wrong and a mutt papyrus tag came OUT WTF DOES THAT MEAN#MAYBE I DONT WANNA KNOW DKDKGN
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“You took everything from me-!”
#pokemon#kieran#rival kieran#trainer kieran#candyappleshipping#trainer florian#sghr#pokemon sv#tealmaskshipping#art#indigo disk#pokemon scarlet and violet#most average 14 year old drama#IM ILL#if any of u expect cute fluffy sghr from me#actually my ideal sghr is them at each other's throats 👍I’m not immune to toxic yaoi#in fact I am highly susceptible to it#THEYRE MY EVERYTHING 🫶🫶🫶#the rivalry the jealousy the admiration turned obsession of that person who you look up to so much who’s the ideal version of yourself#that person who’s everything you’ve ever wanted to be. who’s so amazing and shines so brightly and#for him to turn around and extend a hand to you. see you as his friend. his equal#maybe you think. you think you can be saved like this. maybe you can be like him too. maybe there’s hope for you yet#if the greatest person in the world thinks you’re worth something. then-#but then- your trust gets shattered .it was hopeless after all.so your love turns to hate and admiration turns to envy and#instead of being a figure to chase after and run side by side with it becomes a goal. an objective. to defeat that person. to prove to him#and prove to yourself too. that you’re not weak not useless .look. I can change too. see? I can be strong too.#I’m so sorry they make me sooo fucking ill and sick and nauseous .icant take it#talk to me abt sghr 💙please pls pls plsplspls#it’s actually. kinda therapeutic to draw kieran getting mad at flor. lol
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my god i don't think i have ever seen a ratio this terrible. i am so proud of this community
#paper mario#paper mario the thousand year door#paper mario ttyd#vivian ttyd#I LOVE YOU VIVIAN!!!! BEST GIRL IN THE WORLD!!!!#anways this guy apparently had a meltdown about the new mario voice actor#because he had he/him in his twitter bio or something#which is a#that is something he did#imagine making a three minute video crying about a guy having prounouns in his bio and thinking “yeah this is gonna do numbers”#like sir im sorry but woke mario is forever#“woke mario” literally just got mad at a guy having he/him in his bio#anyways i love you vivian thousand year door congrats being canonically trans in all languages
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Can you please not tag your anti-aziraphale art as aziracrow? It's your blog to post what you want, but it would be nice not to see hate in the tag
it's not anti Aziraphale what the fuck wkbgnfh
sorry I'm being rude but wngnmebbemlvemvg
#istg you dont see crowley fans say stuff like this#they laugh at his trauma and dont give a damn#all the Fall jokes wkbdnnfnng#i cant man i cant#i know youre sensitive bc people genuinely started hating the angel after the s2 finale but#lemme assure you i dont hate him#im mad at him and will joke about it but i dont hate him anfbwnng#sorry again#this is the second time this week#genuinely considering not interacting w the fandom again bc of this#its so annoying#lord forbid crowley stops being the butt of the joke for one second
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Sorry ab the shitty English translations/localizations, it's bc they think that Americans won't get it otherwise (bc when we act stupid, we act REALLY stupid), our bad 💀
#ganondoodles answers#ganondoodles talks#for the record- this is mostly a joke#i have .. alot of gripes with alot of it#but i know localization isnt easy this isnt supposed to hate on the people doing it#.............. i can still dislike it though#the most annoying part is that the largest .. or most accessible part of the fandom is english only and i have to deal with all the english#-versions which are always so darn different .. and sometimes stupid .. im sorry ....#one of the wildest things was watching a non english stream and the guy puzzling over a riddle in a shrine quest#and people posting him the english text of the quest that just ... spells out the solution#AND then complaining about how bad the german one is bc he and others seemed to assume english is the center language of everything#ITS A RIDDLE#ITS NOT A RIDDLE OF YOU DONT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT#not plainly telling you the solution to a (not even that hard) puzzle isnt a sign of bad translation !!!!!!!!!! TOT#im not beyond being dumb btw#a few shrines in totk i left bc i freakign forgot the stupid abilities#but thats ok!!!! i went back at some point and thought man was i stupid#and thats not a bad thing!! maybe thats why all the shrines where so piss easy in general#so as few people as possible can get stuck on some .. whichs is so ... pls .. i want to think#let me get mad for a minute even if im not in a good mood and then return and see my own stupidity#....but also the shrines in totk just werent fun (to me to meeeee to meeeeee)#nigh all of it was just fiddling around with ultrahand ... and not even building anything fun- glue wheel to platform- shrine done yippiiie#make bridge- yippiiii- ...nevermind how you can pretty much skip everything all the time so easily (which i didnt do .. still wasnt that fu
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[to the tune of where is the justice's first lines] this world is rotting from the surface to the core / am i the only one whose life feels like a chore / this whole society needs someone for repairs every day's a little worse and i don't think anyone cares
#someone has to rewrite witj to actually be a light song it makes me so actively mad#it's such a GOOD SONG#but it's for MIKAMI#(well the classmates would be disagreeing with mikami but w/e)#the japanese version of hurricane fixes hurricane but the japanese version of witj does not fix witj. alas. Alas.#anyway 1) i also kind of get mad about 腐ってる being translated to rotten instead of rotting so im fixing it#2) i stole the first rhyme from primadonna#3) this is staged as an internal monologue. hes either in the classroom or watching the news idk#4) ideally these lyrics make you want to punch him#anyway this was a great usage of the last first-half hour of 2024#maybe writing yuri will make me feel better#okay adding more tags because apparently the brain is demanding tumblr posting:#in my head this is his i want song#the interaction with his teacher is just the teacher telling him to pay attention in class because hes the star student#the interaction with the students is all them being like wow light youre so smart hey light can you teach me homework#um light do you want to go to a cafe with me sometime maybe#and light is like :) thanks! sure! sorry im kinda busy (respectively)#and then continues singing I HATE MY LIFE AND WISH THERE WAS LITERALLY ANYTHING OF VALUE IN IT#while people circle him and he gets lifted upward slightly (not too much) on a pedestal in the center of the stage#oh and the song is titled rot
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hey we all agree that ed gets nightmares about ling absorbing the philosophers stone right
#his new bestie (and maybe boyfriend if ur into that) just got done walking through literal hell with him and now hes screaming in agony#body contorting into unnatural shapes bones breaking and reforming as he vomits blood#like god damn. chill dude. ur freaking everyone out. please#and then he gets possessed and is not seen again for like a month and eds gotta be worried sick (on top of everything else)#anyway this is all to say during the camping trip he gets one of those nightmares and bam edling hurt comfort#could even go for greed ed angst with ed freaking out if lings okay and greed trying to reassure him lings FINE hes just ASLEEP please stop#HITTING ME (and why do i feel so weird about seeing you in distress) (why does the thought of ling not being there also put me on edge ;-;)#alright okay phew i got that out of my system#sorry im a sucker for bad dreams and also forced emotional vulnerability#(bc lbr how else are any of these dorks gonna admit they care unless under duress by fanfic authors (except maybe ling. hes pretty fine))#edward elric#ling yao#greedling#edling#fmab#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#moss' madness
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Everytime I look at Tumblr and see the tl I remember why I hate endgame with a passion you couldn't understand.
They fucked up Steve and Bucky so bad (yes, Bucky too bc suddenly he doesn't matter/isn't even a secondary character that deserves to be near Steve)
It's so funny to me (not) bc they talked about gay characters being in the movie at panels and interviews and even talked about Stucky at some point (basically queerbaiting) for then... Steve not even acknowledging Bucky. An awkward and impersonal hug doesn't cut it.
And Steve suddenly yearning and talking about Peggy? When he didn't even mourned her that bad and already had let her go ages ago? They knew they fucked up in CATWS with Steve and Buckys relationship, so they tried to distance them and then inserted Peggy bc ofc
(they possibly didn't have the time for a new character and they already had fucked up pairing Nat and Bruce and Wanda and Vision). Steve didn't have anyone else he cared about so they couldn't give him a new girlfriend. So they used Peggy AGAIN.
I'm not mad bc "Stucky not canon grr"
No.
I'm fucking pissed off because they did the worst character assassination and friendship assassination possible. Every movie of Cap America revolved around Steve saving Bucky at some point and him caring about him above all else, and you want me to believe that Steven Grant Rogers didn't care about him when Bucky died in front of his eyes? AGAIN? That Peggy's death was more important and impactful for him? If that was the case then why the fuck did he crash the plane then? If he cared so much about Peggy since forever?
No, that was just lazy writing and a way to reinforce Steve's sexuality "He can't be gay and you can't say that bc he LOVES PEGGY"(even tho he only kissed her once, even tho he crashed the plane and didn’t give her the coordinates, he didn't really care that much after all) they could have paired him with Nat in later movies, but they didn't.
That's why I only raise my eyebrows a lil when people say that x character will be gay canonically in a marvel movie/series. Is more than possible they won't. And if they are they're Deadpool, a secondary character no one cares about (obscure in lore too, so they can cut them off) or is plain queerbaiting again (because yes, even if you don’t see Steve and Bucky’s relationship as romantic, they DID QUEERBAIT IT)
Steve and Buckys relationship wasn't even written in a romantic way (you can ship them or not), but they tried so hard to rectify Steve's heterosexuality in endgame, that they fucked up their character arcs on purpose. And now they will always feel hollow and inconclusive. A bad taste in the mouth, a painful reminder of what it was and a what? 11 year long? characterization.
Idk man, I know I've talked about this more than three times, but omfg Tumblr reminds me why I hate that fucking movie!!! It's not my fault!!!
I know I'm going to end up writing something out of spite bc I can't take it shdkdjjcif
"It's been more than 4 years get over it" NEVER
Also the bit with Johnny Storm in Deadpool and Wolverine was also a dig (a fuck you if you will) to the fans bc Deadpool explicitly calls him Cap. And it implies that Steve as a character (not that old Steve nonsense) won't be back.
It's funny they've remade over and over again some movies (Fantastic 4, Spiderman) changed actors for characters (James/war machine, Bruce) and they include them in the multiverse/plot, but they won't do the same to some movies and some characters when they fuck up their stories, because they know if they do, they will have to acknowledge WHY they did it. Like with James/war machine changing actors.
So yeah, that's one of the reasons I don't care about Marvel anymore.
**I mean remake the movies ((Also they Can't remake Cap America bc that would mean they need to remake every important movie. And they don't have the time, the money nor the need. So that's why they decided to fuck their character arcs))
or include some characters in multiverse (they're going to do that with Tony/RDJ/Dr Doom after all, no?) and they also won't remake Cap bc the movies are amazing.
But the point stands. Steve couldn't be in DaW bc that would imply he's an alternative one or that Old!Steve was an alternative one or wasn't even Steve to begin with. But they couldn't do that ofc, no, bc that would give the fans hope in seeing Steve and Bucky together once again. So they did a dig at the fans bc "haha you thought it was Steve, but it's Johnny!"
Idk if I'm making sense at this point I'm tired af, need to sleep.
The thing is that they fucked up Steve Rogers's arc on purpose (Bucky's too, and others charas too tbh) and now they expect the fans to accept everything they give us with open arms. And imho I won't accept shit.
"Deadpool saved the MCU" how? If the other og characters are DEAD or they fucked them up too? Or are the butt of the joke now? Don't make me laugh. Most people don't gaf bout the new charas bc they only are presented in series not everyone watches (only available in one place) or are presented with characters that are dead now or as a replacement for the og characters. They aren't interesting on their own (not really, at least in mcu) and that's why most of the new stuff isn't liked as much. If they wanted to present more characters the opportunity passed already.
Also now if you want to watch and really understand 1 movie (if you don't read the comics too) you need to watch like 20 other movies and 5 shows. it's fucking exhausting.
#oh boy here we go again#im once again SCREAMING INTO THE VOID#anti endgame#anti marvel#i wrote this on twt originally#im really pissed off still#and so so tired#steve rogers#I don’t count X men bc the fucking timeline is more complicated than my brain can process rn#also weren’t they dead too?#idk I can’t remember atm#and I haven’t watched the movies in ages#the thing is I feel cheated bc they fucked up Steve and Buckys relationship specifically#and I can’t accept that and I really cant see Sam and Bucky suddenly being buddy buddy with each other either so TFAWS is a NO for me#also a notp noe bc people LOVE to hate on Steve and shit on him while they write stuff#also why I don’t believe anything Marvel says about having gay characters#if they really cared about representation or shit they would have assumed Steve was gay or at least bisexual or Buckysexual#but they queerbaited the shit out of the promos to give us that big fuck you in the end#and THEY KNEW they fucked up with CATWS because they went from theyre best friends to theyre kinda codependent in like an unhealthy amount#I mean assume in the other tag in a shit we fucked up ok well he’s this now kinda way#if you think about it Steve and Bucky are the almostonly characters that could be canonically gay or bi in the MCU (deadpool doesn’t count)#because they don’t have significant relationships with other people and even less with women#maybe Natasha? but they paired her with Bruce… when he has a relationship with Betty#THEY SHOT THEMSELVES IN THE FOOT AND BLAMED US#basically they got mad at us and broke their own toy bc they had a tantrum#so fuck you russo brothers#fuck you mcu#To the Tony isn’t straight crowd… they paired him with women only in MCU if I remember correctly#and yes I cant see Sam and Bucky as a couple#not sorry and if you ship them great! But i wont interact and not going to follow you bc i really can’t tolerate thst ship
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Omg your instagram story is so right! I can’t believe I’ve never even noticed that, probably because in fanon keith and shiro are so close that I’d forgotten that isn’t canon :0
Deserves this awesome quote which I had to dig out of my sideblog reblogs
#for context - i was complaining how under-served we were to listen how much shiro did for keith and how amazing their relationship is#and then were forced to watch him just recruit him for school and be a decent teacher#like any teacher should#i mean....#any.#like he was just showing basic decency for not throwing Keith away for bad behavior#keith acted as if that man hung the moon#as if he was reliable... took a few punches that were meant for Keith ....risked something for him#wanted to give up his liver or something#gave up his last food in the apocalypse to feed him i dont fucking know#Keith acted as if that guy literally saved his life and we got scenes where Shiro is emotionally manipulating him to stay in school#or to become a leader#never really asking how he feels about it or if he needs help#i thought twice before saying Keith attached to a pile of shit because it was warm#but not thrice#i've re-watched season 1 of Arcane and was so mad about it i couldn't hold it in djdjdjd#i do think they could have a good relationship but what we were /shown/ was just not it too many plot holes to fill#love that the fandom can fill the discrepancies and rewrite those relationships though#and also i was really glad people answered to that story agreeing#i was feeling weird reading all those 'keith and shiro are my fav relationship in the show'#...lance was more warm to the mice than Shiro to Keith '#i feel like it owuld make more sense to me if keith did all of this WHILE being pissed at Shiro for leaving him#or if we saw he finds him unreliable - Shiro was only useful to him as long as Keith followed his rules too#Vander doing all he did for his daughters that shit was unconditional fucking love#vi and jinx never being able to off one another had more raw pure love than that#you know what i mean??? sorry im doing it again.... end of ramble#mezzy out 💀
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Armand: toys with Daniel, sasses him, all the horrors him, etc.
Me: Sure. Personal demon and all...
Louis: Humiliates and belittles Daniel.
Me: (makes a call) Hi Blade, I have a target for you.
#j/k#still love louis but that was my son and im sorry if he hit the tender spot about you being hung up on your ex you ass#louis literally is making me mad every episode in at least one spot#do love that it adds so many layers and am fascinated by him as a character#but he came for my could be my father son and he did not ask permission#louis de pointe du lac#on sight de pointe du lac#daniel molloy#the vampire armand#interview with the vampire#iwtv s2#iwtv
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hello everybody, I love Jorge so much, thanks for listening
#everytime someone mentions jorge i just have a sudden cycle of only thinking about him.#madness combat#my favorite guy#madness project nexus#i just saw two post talking about him and I was happy#madcom#madness combat fanart#madcom fanart#mc fanart#madness combat jorge#madness Project Nexus jorge#madcom jorge#mc jorge#jorge is named literally jorge how are u not gonna like him#love my man jorge#(everytime a character shows a light sign of being hispanic im gonna obsess over them for 2 weeks at least and/or just be my fav)#hes just like me fr#sorry for rambling#the silliness
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