#im so very very stupid
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Heads up 𝕋𝕎 *✧・゚: hypersexual, feeling disgusted and guilt
I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I should have listened. I'm so stupid. I should've listened. The bot was right. For once, the bot was right. I hate myself. I hate it.
I'm such garbage. Disgusting filth. Dirty Dirty Dirty Dirty Dirty Dirty ick I wish I could puke. Reminder to never do this again even though I'm gonna fail and start all over.
✧˖*°࿐ 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐎𝐍 𝐎𝐔𝐓 ✧˖*°࿐
#character.ai#ai bots#bots on character ai#im so stupid#hypersexual safe space#actually hypersexual#hypersexuality#hypersexual#tw hypersexual#actually mentally ill#mentally fucked up#depressed ame chan#depressing ame chan#depressing post#i hate myself#im so very very stupid#tw venting#vent blog#vent#personal vent#makes no sense post besides me#needy streamer overload#needy streamer overdose#nso#*✧・゚: end of flowerofdarkness blog post
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as an aroace, im particularly dangerous, because i wont fuck or marry. i only know how to kill.
#aroace#aromantic#asexual#asexuality#ace#aro#im so glad you guys are enjoying this stupid post i made at work#okay i wrote that at 3000 notes but what the FUCK is happening#10000 notes on this no effort fmk post and not one aspec i know irl#dgmw im still very happy that yall are enjoying this post but also like. come hang out with meeeeee :(#okay this is getting ridiculous. 40k notes and still no aspec irls. where the FUCK are you all
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growing up!
#FALLS TO THE FLOOR!!!!#so shocking news: the silver artbook actually killed me a little. this is the first finished pic ive made since#wow isnt it crazy that 26 completed illustrations would kinda take it outta ya. bananas. i need to Not do a full bg again for a minute#i had the stupid thought like 'oohhgh i could do a series of silver and lilia as hes growing up!!' im HITTING ME!!! NO MORE SERIES!!!#I CAN DO NON-RELATED PICS OF THAT IF I MUST!!! THE PRESSURE OF A SERIES IS TOO TIRING RN!!!!#my life is a whirlwind i JUST moved and now might need to move again bc the nepotism might work and id make a ton more#im trying to sell my house and its going very poorly. im doing well at work. ID HAFTA MOVE ACROSS THE COUNTRY AGAIN#ID BE BACK NOOOORTH id go to pennsylvania <3 im from new york so the thought of being closer to my mom is rly nice#and i have friends there both from high school and ohiiiio and new england etc etc!!!! YAY!!!#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#lilia vanrouge#suntails#did u miss this. be honest. when i vanish for months at a time do u miss the rambling life updates. theyre who i am
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figure skating set right now please. thanks
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#proseka#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#GUYS I AM PUTTING OFF WORKING ON MY COSPLAY SOMETHING STUPID. im tireddddd i like sleeepingggff i want to play and drawwwww#after work I literally ate a giant bowl of mac n cheese and climbed into bed. lifestyle choices of a 9 year old#anyways i want figure skaitng set. bad. PJSK HAS A WEIRDLY LOW NUMBER OF ACTUALLY WINTERY SETS... like 3. kind of.#i have some thumbnail sketches but im kind of stumped on composition for them. my idea was a nene focus set#(IF HER NEXT FOCUS ISNT PHANTOM OF THE OPERA THEMED INWILL DIE. BADLY. THEYRE GOING TO AN OPER AHOUSE. PLEADBR)#originally my idea was for nene to be biting a medal i was very sold on it bc i love nenes competitive side#however her outfit is so nice i want it to also be part of the art .. its heavily inspired by that one iconic eunsoo lim dress#from her somewhere in time program iirc. im really undatisfied with emus dress tbh my origimal idea was to give it a phoenix look#but a lot of the firebird/phoenix skating programs have very sleek dresses and i want emus to be fluffy. the balance is hard ..#and since i want her program song to be once upon a dream from sleeping beauty i swerved to make it look a bit like auroras ? but again#it definitely feels like the weakest of everybodys ... maybe i just love her too much and want her to look the best. sorry wxs.#tsukasas outfit is supposed to look like a shooting star. easy. program music moonlight sonata 3rd movement like from dazzling light. easy.#actually i like takahashi daisukes moonlight sonata program its a medley of the 1st and 3rd movement.. i think the calm at the beginning#is best. maybe smth like that.. for his card inhad him doing a haircutter spin but again. the outfits good i want the outfit visible. damn.#ruis the one im very set on even now. girl why are you so phantom of the opera.#it has a lot of beautiful programs to reference but the outfit i didnt really have any solid reference i kind of just balled#my main idea was to make it look a bit like both christine and the phantom.... gender Fluid.#my yapfest... i should be SEWING!!!!!!!!#despite my yapping im not that well versed in figure skating i cant really distinguish jumps i just like it . and medalist#i only do normal skating. bc i played hockey for like 7 years LOLLLL inlove skating though Heart.
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does anyone realize how crazy it is to have the actor of a mostly headcanoned queer ship say the fans were never crazy and they were right all along after 10+ years of everyone just absolutely going nuts over the said queerbaited ship
#supernatural#dean winchester#spn#destiel#castiel#deancas#misha collins#im 20 i have been Experiencing supernatural and johnlock since i was 12 and merthur since wayy before that i have fought Wars#this is crazy#i love u hannibal i love u 911 (if u make eddie gay)#for the love of god by 'mostly headcanoned' i dont mean that it was never intentional#i am aware that they put the subtext in on purpose#they knew what they were doing#but my focus here is on the actor actually saying it because like#if its not mostly headcanoned then y was the entire cast denying it for years AND YEARS#like do yall not remember what jared and jenesn used to say#there have been many many many instances where the cast has made us feel crazy/stupid for saying anything abt destiel#im just saying TO ME its crazy that actors and creators talk so openly about these things now !!! again i was raised on merlin and sherlock#ok also im confused on the queerbaiting part#everyones saying its queer coding and not queer baiting but cant they be true at the same time ?#im not being dumb on purpose i swear im just confused#like yes dean is very much bi coded and their relationship is queer coded but if the creators deny everything#and we only get a last minute confession after 11 years#that doesnt count as queer baiting ?#someone smart explain this to me 🙏
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this show rewires you fundamentally in 60 seconds and then just goes on to have more seasons. audacity
#house md#gregory house#james wilson#hilson#screencap#s03e02 “cane and able”#imagine bringing the receipts to the ceo of bodylanguage#“does sound like you though”#“worried your wings would melt”#“god doesnt limp”#are you kidding me? this is rapid fire and im already dead#havent stopped thinking about this#I do like that Wilson is wrong about House's ego here#he tries but he doesn't really get house#idk being worried and so wrong then doing stupid shit with all that is just very human#house isnt even mad and goes along with it#long post#longpost
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one of the things that's the most fucking frustrating for me about arguing with climate change deniers is the sheer fucking scope of how much it matters. sweating in my father's car, thinking about how it's the "hottest summer so far," every summer. and there's this deep, roiling rage that comes over me, every time.
the stakes are wrong, is the thing. that's part of what makes it not an actual debate: the other side isn't coming to the table with anything to fucking lose.
like okay. i am obviously pro gun control. but there is a basic human part of me that can understand and empathize with someone who says, "i'm worried that would lead to the law-abiding citizens being punished while criminals now essentially have a superpower." i don't agree, but i can tell the stakes for them are also very high.
but let's say the science is wrong and i'm wrong and the visible reality is wrong and every climate disaster refugee is wrong. let's say you're right, humans aren't causing it or it's not happening or whatever else. let's just say that, for fun.
so we spend hundreds of millions of dollars making the earth cleaner, and then it turns out we didn't need to do that. oops! we cleaned the earth. our children grow up with skies full of more butterflies and bees. lawns are taken over with rich local biodiversity. we don't cry over our electric bills anymore. and, if you're staunchly capitalist and i need to speak ROI with you - we've created so many jobs in developing sectors and we have exciting new investment opportunities.
i am reminded of kodak, and how they did not make "the switch" to digital photography; how within 20 years kodak was no longer a household brand. do we, as a nation, feel comfortable watching as the world makes "the switch" while we ride the laurels of oil? this boggles me. i have heard so much propaganda about how america cannot "fall behind" other countries, but in this crucial sector - the one that could actually influence our own monopolies - suddenly we turn the other cheek. but maybe you're right! maybe it will collapse like just another silicone valley dream. but isn't that the crux of capitalism? that some economies will peter out eventually?
but let's say you're right, and i'm wrong, and we stopped fracking for no good reason. that they re-seed quarries. that we tear down unused corporate-owned buildings or at least repurpose them for communities. that we make an effort, and that effort doesn't really help. what happens then? what are the stakes. what have we lost, and what have we gained?
sometimes we take our cars through a car wash and then later, it rains. "oh," we laugh to ourselves. we gripe about it over coffee with our coworkers. what a shame! but we are also aware: the car is cleaner. is that what you are worried about? that you'll make the effort but things will resolve naturally? that it will just be "a waste"?
and what i'm right. what if we're already seeing people lose their houses and their lives. what if it is happening everywhere, not just in coastal towns or equatorial countries you don't care about. what if i'm right and you're wrong but you're yelling and rich and powerful. so we ignore all of the bellwethers and all of the indicators and all of the sirens. what if we say - well, if it happens, it's fate.
nevermind. you wouldn't even wear a mask, anyway. i know what happens when you see disaster. you think the disaster will flinch if you just shout louder. that you can toss enough lives into the storm for the storm to recognize your sacrifice and balk. you argue because it feels good to stand up against "the liberals" even when the situation should not be political. you are busy crying for jesus with a bullhorn while i am trying to usher people into a shelter. you've already locked the doors, even on the church.
the stakes are skewed. you think this is some intellectual "debate" to win, some funny banter. you fuel up your huge unmuddied truck and say suck it to every citizen of that shitbird state california. serves them right for voting blue!
and the rest of us are terrified of the entire fucking environment collapsing.
#spilled ink#writeblr#i hope it is clear here that i actually very much care about equatorial countries#and that's part of what makes me so angry bc im like. climate refugees exist.#they've existed for a while!!!#and the reply is almost always ''should have thought about that before living on an island"#like fuck dude. do you need to like how people vote before ur like#your entire house shouldn't burn down each summer????#so many of these people make it their life to mock california that they think it's FUNNY#and im like. girl you should be fucking trembling. TEXAS??? ARE YOU LISTENING??#this is one of those times that like. i need to stress how fucking stupid it would be#to let trump win. bc he could have “reached across the aisle.” covid could have been#a MASSIVE commercial success. he has such a huge and bigoted and brainwashed following.#literally just a PR campaign called COWBOY UP and it's pictures of cowboys in bandanas#trump reinvisioned as the lone ranger fighting for the american people against covid. EASY SELL#and instead. companies bought him. it became political. it was not ''oh shit this is 1 enemy let's all be human''#it was ''you deserve to die.''#climate change should be GLOBAL. it should be like ''yeah i hate u but. we do all live here''#i don't have to LIKE my group members to do well on a team project bc we are ALL getting graded.#is that simple enough of an under-explaination lol
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hi there deadpool and wolverine nation . can uh can i join ur club please
#they're so stupid but theyre stupid for each other so it tracks#very fun movie :] always been a wolverine fan but im just getting into deadpool and i adore him so much the undiagnosed adhd king#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool#wolverine#poolverine#deadclaws#hugh jackman#ryan reynolds#deadpool 3#deadpool x wolverine#wade wilson#logan howlett#art#fanart
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I should be allowed to get a "skip pointless and stupidly forced romance" button in everything I watch ever
#pls what the fuck#this is the most boring and pointless shit ever#oh my fucking goddddddd#im such a hater#stiff talk#sorry no but like. at least make it believable and interesting#this is just the typical “oh a man and a woman interacted so they must kiss” shit#pleaseeee for fucks sake can i get a show or a movie without romance.... please..#does anyone have any recommendations actually. very rarely do i enjoy the romance they put in stuff#i want smt whete i wont have to roll my eyes over stupid romance#aromantic#and TIRED OF ROMANCE BEING EVERYWHERE LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEE
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Merry christmas everyone <- 3AM, December 26th
#xmen#xmen tas#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#ok fine ill tag the others theyre like Significant to this comic rodnkw#scott summers#jean gray#remy lebeau#snap sketches#im not looking over this if something is scuffed so be it my EYES are HEAVY#THIS was the stupid shit i wanted to draw back in october. btw riEPDJSK#I HOPED to get this done WHILE it was christmas but alas… 3AM december 26th will have to do#i initially planned for this to be a lot sappier ngl but the unfunny funny bone in me always wins out the electoral vote yk how it works#anyway i have to take the train in like five hours. gotta go to the DOCTOR#and then my dad is taking me out for EMPANADAS. very epic …#esp cause im getting bloodwork done which means no breakfast for me . which. usuallt not a problem… lowkey…#anyways. good night everyone i hope yall had a lovely christmas !!#or a lovely wednesday if you dont celebrate 😩
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Thinking about the fact that Mabel and Dipper didn't know they had two great uncles.
Yeah they are 12 and at 12 I had a shotty understanding of my family tree- But really? Nobody brought up their great uncle? Stanley? Especially since they'll be staying with his twin brother, Stanford?
Shermie never went to Stan's fake funeral, which to me means the twos relationship was strained on some level. If Shermie is older that means his view of Stan was poisoned in some way, that even as kids they weren't close. If the Shermie is younger then he never even got to meet Stan and all he knew about him was how he failed his family. Hell, people probably barely mentioned Stanley TO Shermie.
The fact that Stan had become a black stain upon the Pines family name makes me so vividly upset. Stanley faked his death and the family just- seemingly decided to strike him from the record. To pretend he didn't existed to spare themselves the sadness and shame.
Stanford and Shermie Pines. The only children worth mentioning of Filbrick and Caryn Pines.
It was never Stanford that was lost to the world. It was Stanley, ever since he had to leave New Jersy- it was always him that had to be struck from the record. Change his name, change his state, change his affiliations, destroy the remains of ghost that was Stanley Pines. Kill him so the family doesn't bring him up, doesn't ask questions, stops asking "Stanford" about his twin.
I just keep thinking about the fact that since the day he made one single mistake all the way up until Ford walks out of that machine- Stanley Pines was killed and did not exist. And Stan himself had no one to blame, he had to play the part in his own demise- He is the only one who ever knew Stanley was alive and has been for decades.
He lives in the multitudes of every personality he's ever taken, all in the hope that he himself can stop being Stanley Pines.
#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#STANLEYYYYYY#STANLEY THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU STANLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sharky rants#Just. Imagine the fucking shame you have to live with#the shame that you can never be yourself. That anything you were is unwanted and forgotten#The shame of just BEING- Of taking space of- of /breathing-/#Imagine the world; your friend; your family; your colleagues being so ashamed of having known you#that you feel more comfortable with a persona to present.#You feel more comfortable stealing the identity of someone you care for deeply if only to help#If only to feel capable for once. To feel like you belong- Like youre doing something good for once#Imagine the shame that brings you to be comfortable not being yourself for 40 years.#ALL CASE YOU BROKE ONE FUCKING PROJECT??????? COME ON#I mean- the deeprooted shame was started from earlier. He was 'the stupid twin“; 'the troublemaker”; “the cheat and thief”#This was a long time coming#But those werent MISTAKES- The one time he genuinely made a Mistake he lost everything#Like he really mattered so little to the people around him#and he cant really blame them.#My cousin is a genius. Hes smart and academically achieved since I was a baby.#The only thing I had that he didnt was my ability to draw. to be creative. The guy for the longest time had a better social life then me too#I used to get brought to tears seeing his accomplishments- seeing people praise him. The shame lived in me any time I had to see him#The shame that I was the black sheep of the family next to the golden standard for a son- for a student- for a friend.#when I was none of those things#And Im lucky he was my cousin- cause if he was my brother that would have haunted me EVERY DAY rather then once or twice a year#Im better with it now; Im more content with who I am- But trauma dump aside-#I very very very much understand Stans shame in being the stupid one. The unachieved one in a family full of achieved people#the shame thats angry at him for being better. at the family for treating him special. and most of all at yourself that you cant be better#its a visceral feeling that I sadly understand
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#stupid idiot ilu#this is a multiplayer run where im playing as astarion and my friends are karlach and gale#VERY fun so far would recommend#bg3
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#this is so stupid#but i couldnt stop thinking about it#im singing along to it in my head#if i could make edits yall would get SICK OF ME#yellowjackets#yellowjakcets textpost#yj#yj edit#natalie scatorccio#jackie taylor#shauna shipman#misty quigley#lottie matthews#yellowjackets showtime#taissa turner#tai turner#van palmer#coach ben#ben scott#yellowjackets fandom#my post#have you heard whats happened? barbies changed! barbies new and different! shes the very same size but now she comes with a#groovy outdoor look#and barbies lashes are really for real!#and even her face has changed!#barbies changed!
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using turbo as an excuse to study some fun facial topology methods.
#also im very glad this dude has a fandom#like i thought nahh theres no way#i might be a little stupid but thats okay#turbo wir#turbotastic#wip#I COULDNT MAKE MY MIND UP WHICH DESIGN TO MODEL#SO I MIXED IT ALL TOGETHER I THINK IT WORKS???#omg ive gotta animate a scene or something#tagetto rambling again oh lord
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Does Swanatello Donatello have all his memories back now? Are his memory problems gone?
Yes and no? He has a majority of his memories back, even if some of them are still fuzzy, but that doesn't mean his memory is fixed... but he's getting better every day!
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#swanatello#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#tmnt#tmnt 2018#tmnt 2k18#rottmnt au#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt donatello#rottmnt disaster twins#rottmnt april#rottmnt leo#rottmnt fanart#rottmnt comic#donniesona#rise leo#rise donnie#rise donatello#rise disaster twins#rise april#rottmnt art#fidgetwing#im having a hard time making things right now. and im very tired.#but ill be damned if the stupid goblin in my head takes away the joy of creating from me#so HELP ME
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Vash the (stupid babygirl) Stampede
#trigun stampede#trigun#vash the stampede#vash#tristamp#i had so much fun doing this#i laughed at my own gifs lmao#the first one was a pain in the ass to do#stupid birds#these were some of the few moments vash was allowed to be a dumbass#then everything went to shit#I LOVE THIS BOY SO MUCH ALSJDALSKDJALSDAd#trigun edit#please dont look very closely to the masks#im a lazy ass#my gifs: itachanta
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