#im so sick over her

[astrowarr]

i was thinking earlier that pearl was so canary coded this season, and then cleo actually vocalized it. she makes all the mistakes so her teammates don't have to. she learns lessons the hard way to save her friends. every death she's had has directly benefitted her team, and she takes no problem with it. she would give every life she has if it meant her teammates could live longer. she's easily the most selfless character in this entire series and it drives me mad.

even when she expresses frustration at her deaths, it's clear it's not out of concern for herself, but for her teammates. because once she's gone, who will learn these lessons for them? who will protect them? who will die for them? it's such an interesting juxtaposition to jimmy, original canary, haunted by his curse, a victim of it; pearl imposes this upon herself willingly and proudly, because if she can give her friends a better chance, nothing on earth matters to her more.

[bunnyboy-juice]

NO MORE ASSOCIATING THINGS WITH FEMMES ONLY BECAUSE THEY ARE PINK!HYPERFEM FEMMES ARE GREAT AND I LOVE YOU CAMPY FEMMES WHO EMBODY PINK BUT ALSO JESUS CHRIST CAN YOU GUYS NOT GO MORE THAN ONE DAY W/O TRYING TO SHOEHORN FEMMES INTO BEING ONLY PINK UWU BABIES. I AM FEMME AS IN GRASS AS IN DIRT AS IN TREE BARK AS IN WEEDS SPROUTING THROUGH THE SIDEWALK CEMENT. FEMME AS IN GENDER NONCONFORMITY AS IN FUCK YOU MY FEMININITY IS WHAT *I* SAY IT IS. FEMME AS IN DEPTH AND DARKNESS AND WARMTH AND TERROR. FEMME AS IN CAVES. FEMME AS IN LIGHTNING. FEMME AS IN AN AMALGAMATION OF TRAITS THAT I HAVE DECIDED ARE FEMININE REGARDLESS OF WHAT SOCIETY SAYS. FUCK IS IT THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND?!???

[urfavoritemistake]

i'm taking maya fey away from people who say she hates the kurain channeling tradition and would want to "break free" from it

[nyaskitten]

Oh okay, so Doc and Kevin want me dead huh!

[surreal-duck]

Tuesday is chuu day! (x)

[astralzeraphias]

“he was mentally ill. this monster was a- was a sick fantasy. a product of his dementia.”

“…i saw it too. does that make me disturbed? demented? does… that make me sick too?”

[decoyhounds]

CAN WE PLEAAAASE TALK ABOUT THIS

[kaykoko]

What do you mean Vander picked out Vis name. What do you MEAN he was always in his girls lives. How the hell am I gonna cope with this!!!!!

[biblically-accurate-dca]

moon n ballora

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

[notvil]

cw: free use, but in a non/dubcon way. . . idk either pal.

free use with your sweet roommate ochako is like. . . you seeing her folded up and chilling on the couch after a gap in your shared long week of exams, and just needing to touch her to ease your nerves. there’s a furrow in her brows that screams about how pent up she is too. it wouldn’t hurt to touch her, calm her down. poor thing jumps when your hands creep over her shoulders and massage gently. smiles at you so blithely your stomach turns when you think about what you want to do to her. thanks you and all and you just blink real hard because she’s so fucking cute and adorable and soft.

you don’t even realize your hands have slipped down, kneading at her plump breasts over her loose tee, bouncing them in your hands like they’re something to play with. your thumb and finger automatically start pinching at her nipples, rolling them, and tugging it’s not til then that she makes a sound. squirming away with nowhere to go, ending up squished to the back of the couch and further into your hands that follow her. she’s panting, little ‘no, s-stop’s and ‘wait, please’s are leaving plush lips you want to suck and lick and bite at until they hurt. but you can’t stop, not when you see her thighs spasm, see her heel dig in between those thick thighs, see her hips rock. she may say she doesn’t want it but her body can’t deny it likes feeling good. likes being used.

you stop soon after you feel a few tears splatter on your hand, kissing the crown of her head in apology before leaving after a firm squeeze. it’s sad she started crying right before you stuck your hand in her cotton panties, but you’ll both live.

distantly, your brain screams at you. you want to get off, need to after that power rush, but you know she needs to first. you want to give her the peace to do so alone. though you’ve heard her gasp your name in the shower with an incessant buzz, and seen her washing your shirts and hoodies with hers. but half the power is held in knowing she’ll grope herself just like you did, grinding her pretty pussy on your decorative pillow that you never wash. probably cry a little more about it, beg her version of you to fuck her, touch her, make her cum. it doesn’t feel the same with her hands. it’s yours she craves for, that’s violating touch that she can’t recreate, gripping herself tightly like it would make a difference. it doesn’t compare.

and when you get back, she’ll be shy again, simpering under your casual affections because you make it seem so blasé. she doesn’t have the courage to bring it up, and argue and refute. she can’t without her head getting cloudy; as far as you’re both concerned, nothing should change about your routine. it works just fine.

the only problem is toga, her girlfriend that went to that private girl’s school with her before college, a menace in her own right. pretty too, never afraid of how what comes out of her mouth with be perceived. . .

yeah. . . you want to touch the cute, little girlfriend of your sweet, too responsive roommate ochako.

[sunnydregs]

WHAT. WHAT. WHAT. WHAT IS GOING ON

[ra-vio]

this blog is 11 years old now 🎉

I drew the siblings ever to celebrate as usual

[quietwingsinthesky]

was writing this down for an ask but realized i was quickly getting off topic for that ask lmao. let’s talk about Dean’s handprint, the wild misinterpretations of it, and how those have affected how people read Anna covering it during her sex scene with Dean.

We have to establish the obvious first: the number one way the handprint is misinterpreted is to establish a romantic connection between Dean and Castiel from their very first meeting. Because of how popular the ship is, we’re now left with the unfortunate aftermath of people knowing the ship first and the show second, and therefore being more inclined to interpret the show through the lens of the ship. Needless to say, while looking at season 4 through that lens for hints of destiel is fun, it doesn’t lead to a thematically cohesive reading. The handprint is the best way we can demonstrate this. If we take the handprint to indicate that Castiel has been romantically interested in Dean since minute one, or even that he sees Dean as a person rather than an instrument of Heaven’s will at first (put a pin in that), then the rest of his character arc for the season is incoherent and meaningless. To assert that this is what the handprint is about takes the conclusion Castiel needs the entirety of season 4 to reach and transplants it onto him at the very beginning in order to make it easier to find evidence for the ship.

There’s a lot of media out there where interpreting it through the lens of a ship, even one unintended by the author, can enhance the original text. (Lest we all forget our Winter Soldier roots.) Supernatural does not have that relationship to interpreting it to be about destiel. A season 4 where the handprint means Castiel is in love with Dean is a weaker story and does a huge disservice to Castiel’s actual character arc.

So, now that we’ve established what the handprint isn’t, can we talk about what it is? Yes. It’s pretty simple, actually.

Think of it this way: To Heaven, Dean is livestock, and the handprint is the brand telling everyone (but especially Dean) what ranch he belongs to.

Let’s start with the obvious: it isn’t a metaphorical brand at all. It’s literal. It’s burned into his skin permanently (or at least, when the makeup department wants to put it there.) I’d argue that from the nature of it being notable as the only scar Dean has from being raised from Hell and later showing up during his sex scene with Anna that even if we don’t see the handprint, we’re meant to interpret it as continuing to be there for… well. The rest of his life, most likely. And that’s horrifying. The handprint is telling us two things when it shows up: one, letting us know that Dean’s resurrection was intentional and through a manner we as the audience don’t have the information to guess at yet. Anyone who watched the show airing, or watches it now without knowing about angels would have assumed demonic deal intervention as being the cause of Dean’s new lease on life, and this. handily. discards that theory. But secondly, it tells us that this resurrection was violating. All resurrections on Supernatural are.

We assume from Castiel’s line, you know the one, we all know the one, Mr. Gripped-You-Tight, that he’s the one who put it there. However, to then make a further leap that it was Castiel’s personal decision to do so is, I think, a misunderstanding of his role. Take that pin out now. Dean is not a person to Castiel at this point. They’re not friends. Dean is a tool for Heaven to use, a tool that should be honored and grateful to be picked up at all. Make no mistake: Castiel branded him for Heaven, not for himself. Castiel’s a ranchhand. They aren’t in the business of letting the cows run free if they look a little sad to be slaughtered later.

Castiel needs to start here for his arc to be as impactful as it is. He can’t begin rebellious. He has to learn how to doubt. He has to develop a personal friendship with Dean that threatens his allegiance to Heaven. He has to see Anna having chosen to fall rather than obey Heaven and to be betrayed by Uriel being so desperate that he’s turned to killing their brothers and sisters trying to find a way out from under Heaven’s control.

There’s another line I think gets misinterpreted a lot in this initial meeting. “You don’t think you deserve to be saved?” On its face, easy bait for someone looking for shipping fodder, but that misses the actual point of the line. It’s a powerplay. We don’t learn until later why Dean wouldn’t think he deserves to be saved (aside from his general Winchester levels of self-esteem, but knowing that trait about him actually serves as a pretty good red herring to mask real reason Dean is thinking about himself as irredeemable now until the reveal. It’s not that Dean had a low opinion about himself in general, but that he tortured people in Hell and can never forgive himself for that.) , but Castiel does know. All of Heaven knows what Dean’s sin in Hell was. Without saying it, Castiel can remind Dean of it here. This line isn’t about Dean being so inherently good that Castiel had to rescue him. It’s about making sure Dean knows that the only way he can be ‘redeemed’ is through obedience to the heavenly powers who own his ass now. This is how he deserves to be saved. Because God commanded it. Because they have work for him.

And if he doesn’t bow? Then, as Castiel puts it in the very next episode, “I dragged you out of Hell. I can throw you back in.” This threat hanging over Dean’s head won’t go away for the rest of the season, not from Heaven. The only shift is that Castiel’s continued doubt and disobedience levels the playing field between them. They’ll both be punished, rather than Castiel taking on the role of disciplinarian. (It’s a really clever way of dealing with that power gap between them, actually. There’s always a bigger fish.)

The handprint and Castiel’s early conversations with Dean serve as a reminder of the precarious position he’s in. We shouldn’t take him ‘being saved’ at face value, no more than we should take Heaven being good just because they’re the angels in this equation as a given. Dean hasn’t been saved. He’s being used, just as much (if not arguably more) than Ruby is using Sam. (Because at least Ruby truly believes this is for Sam’s benefit, in the end.) And the worst part is how aware of it Dean is. How could he not be? His entire stint in Hell is defined by how Alistair used him. He’s just been handed off to a different owner, one that will still happily push him into the thing they ‘saved’ him from the minute it proves useful. Dean needing to torture Alistair reminds us just how little his circumstances have actually changed. He’s not allowed to say no to this.

So. The handprint is Heaven’s mark of ownership. It’s Dean’s status as their tool, their victim, burned into his flesh and inescapable. What does it mean when Anna places her hand over it?

I’ll lay my cards on the table. I’ve been thinking about this for so long because the aforementioned tendency to assume that the handprint is evidence for destiel means that the scene between Anna & Dean also gets lumped into being interpreted as more evidence for destiel. For over a decade, I have endured people joking about Anna being jealous of Cas for getting to leave a mark on their boytoy. And that’s one of the nicer things the Supernatural fandom will say about a woman who they perceive as a threat to their ship.

So, not to be rude or anything, but fuck Castiel. This ain’t about him.

This scene—It’s a lovely scene, a fantastic continuation of Dean and Anna’s previous conversation into the language of a sex scene—is about two people who have both been used and threatened by Heaven connecting over that shared trauma. Before, Anna gives space for Dean to open up about Hell, but he can’t, not yet, and though she knows what he’s gone through, she hasn’t been there herself. But when it comes to what Heaven has made of them, she does understand. It’s an incredibly vulnerable moment.

You make the handprint about Dean and Cas, and you erase what that scene is about entirely: the way Heaven’s abuse has tangled itself deep into Dean and Anna’s lives, into their bodies, and how they can resist it, if only for a few moments together.

The handprint was never about Castiel at all. It was about Heaven and its dehumanization of Dean.

[mschismosa]

cunt dykeula or whatever

[sickfreaksirkay]

I JUST FUCKING MET DAVID TENNANT