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nauticalfools · 3 months ago

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#the way i would die for somebody to hold me and make me a meal #ive been doing everything by myself for years #and now for the last 7 months i lost any support system i had because i had to move #and i am absolutely dying #im so fucking lonely and tired #not to even mention touch starved #the way i would literally pay somebody to cuddle me if i had the money #its BAD #personal

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noname-404s-blog · 1 year ago

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caffeinatedopossum · 4 months ago

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Istg if we don't get this chronic fatigue under control I'm gonna have to resort to some kind of substance abuse

#its so bad that im frequently just too tired to even sit up and watch a video or play a video game #ive missed so many writing club meetings because of the fatigue #literally only been able to participate in like... 2 events in the past two months. and 1 of them was literally just watching a movie #and i dont even have to go anhwhere or do anything for them. theyre all over discord. but STILL #im too tired for even that! its ridiculous! i need it to stop!!#i cant do anything or start any projects or do anything *new* because it will just immediately wipe me out #its so fucking depressing and lonely

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guardian-angle22 · 2 years ago

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#911 lone star #911lsedit #paul strickland #nancy gillian #tk strand #mateo chavez #its the subtle way that this is hilarious as fuck lmao #paul says 'how dare you think my girlfriend would betray confidential information like that'#then immediately goes 'yeah no i tried to get her to crack SO HARD bro and I got no where wtf'#amaaaazing #also i have never heard the phrase 'tighter than a drum' and i just-- i had to google it cause i thought i misheard #my gifs #tw: food #im too tired for a caption today #episode: s04e16 a house divided #i need more paul in my life and so does everyone else

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janitorpostman · 2 months ago

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I might actually be a little burnt out on Arcane.

When Powder lost Vander and her siblings, it was good. It felt meaningful. When Jinx lost Silco, they were just underscoring a pattern.

This however. This was not good. This is just misery p+rn. You can't have Jinx suffer from the same affliction over and over and still expect me to be invested every time it happens.

#arcane #arcane spoilers #she lost her parents then she lost her adoptive father and siblings and her sister #then she got a new father #met with her sister lost her again #lost her father #got a child #reunited with her dead father #lost that father #lost the child too #met her sister lost her again (2)#ended up back at square one #alone unstable and blaming herself #I'm so fucking tired of this. this is not building up to any kinda satisfying conclusion for her character is it #because league wants her to be a static character #one lonely and unstable crazy terrorist bitch #yeah im not interested.

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buckpaws · 5 months ago

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you know, i have always said, if someone is crying and overwhelmed, you should tell them that what theyre going through isnt a big deal, and then force them to list off positive things about their life/job! even when they beg you to just stop trying to fix everything and listen!

#vent #and then mock them by being like “you just want me to say it sucks and not care??”#NO im asking you TO CARE in a DIFFERENT WAY #you cannot fucking fix my debilitating knee pain or how lonely i am without you #i just want to hear that no matter how hard it is i am strong enough #AND YEAH. HEARING THAT IT SUCKS . JUST THOSE 2 WORDS #ACTUALLY DO HELP THATS WHY I ASKED YOU TO SAY THEM #stop mocking me for giving you the tools you asked for to help me #so fucking tired of my autism being misunderstood and misconstrued #sometimes youre just fucking overwhelmed in your head. even when i loved my job

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professionaljester · 2 months ago

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love my bad mental health, love being suicidal all the time

#abc shut it #im tired of fighting it and trying to participate in life when it feels like i dont exist #love being lonely and then being told its due to my bad mental health so i pretend it doesnt affect me and i try and be myself #and no one likes me and i dont exist unless i remind people im a person so its kinda like #at a point where its not just suicidal ideation #its just a situation of /when/ and not if haha #ive been alive for 26 years and 20 of those have been exhausting as hell im ready to be done #exhausting and lonely and isolating im sick of it #i try and i try and my life doesnt get better or anymore worth living #and when i vent abt it i get told i need to try harder and im not trying at all and i need to stop being so depressed #its hard to not be depressed when the universe gives everyone around me a better experiences than me #i feel like im screaming that im here please pay attention #and nothing #i talk and my voice gets ignored or i get talked over #i post online to try and start conversations or make friends and i just get ignored #like do i exist at all to anyone else but myself #im trying to reach out and make friends but none of the ppl i wanna make friends with seem interested in having a conversation with me #i add all these people to discord and message them all the time #but nothing gets passed me sending them messages no one ever fucking messages me first #it feels like no one thinks about me and i dont matter #literally no one gives a fuck what i have to say #or anytime i talked im corrected on SOMETHING i say or i get a belittled in response #i cant do this shit anymore i cant #no one gives a shit about what i have to say and its really coming across that no one likes me #bc if my friends cant text me first or respond to my messages at all #why am i in the wrong feeling like im alone and have no friends when im the only one reaching out ever if i wanna have a conversation #and when i do feel like im allowed to talk i just talk and talk and talk and know the people dont give a shit abt what i have to say #i jsut feel like im here to be talked at and do things for other people and nothing more #that whenever i have an emotion its wrong and i need to bottle it up #and i dont eve get a chance to learn how to manage my emotions bc it feels like im going to get scolded or belittled for feeling things

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bones-n-bookles · 3 months ago

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Hey can someone give me a several minute long hug that I may cry into

#im so tired and so lonely and so sad and there are like. two people that i feel close to and secure in our relationship #and theyre both so fucking far away #and i dont want to like. just break down on people. but please somebody give me more than just a brief hug or pat on the back #last night i had a dream about cute boy just. giving me a big long hug. nothing else. so thats where im at i guess #idk ill be fine i always am #im getting by with my cuddly dog and my two coworkers i give greeting hugs and farewell hugs to #i miss my little brother and my mom #i miss having physically close and touchy friendships #i dont know if being touch starved is a real thing or just pop psychology or whatever but #i feel like a stray dog that cant quite figure out how to find my own food after being abandoned #whatever #my eyes hurt im done

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tsnbrainrot · 3 months ago

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#everything is wretched rn #i feel so unbearably lonely atm.#the more i get to know the 17-19 years old i work with the more i deeply dislike them and their values.#i can't even think about the state of the world without falling into crippling despair and existential dread #but at least i have my little story i'm trying to write #and its literally the only thing i'm clinging onto rn bc i feel like im going insane #and idk if my anxiety is just about the world in general rn #or if i actually do hate my new job/the people there....#or if im just tired or what #but everything is bad #everything is so fucking bad. on top of it my sleep has been so awful lately.#and its dark at 4pm #about moi #ignore me im having an existential crisis

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weirdly-specific-but-ok · 1 year ago

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Weirdo Seeking Friend

hello fabulous stranger i am lonesome and isolated due to Life so here's my reach out for friends

I have a lil doggo sister.

he/him but gender is a wibble wobble fluid jelly

I like musicals, Hamilton, SIX, Legally Blonde, In the Heights, 21 Chump Street... and screaming the lyrics while intensely emoting.

I love stickers gimme all the stickers.

I am an artist, musician and writer. I wanna dance but I don't know how. Money earning to fund the stickers wise, I am a designer.

I'm slightly obsessed with fanon Draco Malfoy. And drarry fanfiction. And am a fan of Ginny. But not JK Rowling. Nope. Trans rights are human rights.

I want to see italy's art and architecture.

I love the Bronte sisters and their writing as well as family history. To visit Haworth village omg would be a dream.

Taylor Swift, Lana del Rey, Lin Manuel Miranda.

Chomp chomp I like food and sleeping Im not in education rn so I sleep through life I have three naps a day. Why am I making this post, I am so sleepy.

I like bullet journaling and internet aesthetics and crack videos.

wheeeeeeeeeeeee

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rttingd0ll · 4 months ago

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I hate whenever my parents tell me I'm annoying, it makes me want to cry

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ohheyitsjustbear · 4 months ago

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I think im cursed, every person I've said "I love you" to in a romantic sense of the phrase, has left me

#currently five for fucking five #im so tired and lonely and sad and depressed and i dont want to be anymore #i dont wanna feel like this for whatever is left of my life #yall can ignore this

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the-vibing-ghoul · 4 months ago

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some people will be all about mental health awareness and leftist ideals of at least tolerating the mentally ill who show ''ugly'' symptoms until it's someone they know and ''care'' about having a bad day and acting like it in a way they don't find appealing

#[temporary text post tag]#vagueing about irls #everybodys your friend until one time youre too tired to act right after getting yelled at first thing in the morning #worst thing is i trusted her enough to tell her shit none of my other friends know about #liek i genuinely believed we were friends and i wasnt just an accessory so she wouldnt feel lonely and could vent to someone about whatever #now im really wondering if all the shit she told me about other people was real or if she just ditched them as well after they-#- acted emotionally in a way she didnt like #like im sorry people have bad days and sometimes act in none cutesy ways #at this point idk if the few times i did tell her im feelin like shit she took it seriously or just thought i was joking #im kinda assuming the second one #like she did feel and act fairly progressive - she'd often talk about acceptance and understanding #i don't even think she sees this situation as dropping a 'freind'#she's prolly gonna find a way to justify it somehow idk #point is im hurt and need a drink #she even vaguely texted me like 'if someone you knew hurt someone you care about would you try to fix it with them or just block them?'#like not even confront me and say 'you hurt someone i care about so now im ending things'#or just tell me to fuck off or call me a piece of shit #i feel after a year and all of the 'youre a good friend' shit that maybe i was at least entitled to a 'fuck off kys' text and then a block #i shouldve dropped her first - save us both some time #honestly i dont even think she thinks about this at all #im probably just sulking like a kicked dog while she does whatever the fuck it is she does #she probably didnt even care about my side of the story #why would she #honestly she always did most of the talking #i was just there to listen and sometimes make a joke for her to laugh at i guess #like i didnt know i was signing up for a '1 strike and youre out' type deal lmao

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thecedarchronicle · 6 months ago

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#VENT #VENT TAGS AHEAD !!#so the job is...awful.#i applied for 20-25 hours #they asked if i could do 30 #and now theyre pushing me into 40.#i didn't realize that when i agreed to 30 that was NOT binding (i should have known because it wasn't in my job offer. but i am 19 and--#ive never had a job offer letter before. even tho this is just retail)#and i can't adjust my availability for 90 days.#and since i put full availability expecting 25 hours max #now i have FULL 24/7 AVAILABILITY ON FILE for three months at least #and i have no idea what to do because this means i cant commit to any classes coming up for college #but ive been job hubting for months and barely got anything #and if i lose the job i have to move back in with my dad which is almost worse #whats wirse is my leader/boss is so mean. im not saying this lightly #i dont want to get into it but im barely a week in and he's made disrespectful and pushy comments towards me #has basically told me to stay late (which theoretically i cluld say no; but im still on my three months of 'we will fire you if we want to'#and like i said. need the job.#so he told me to stay late knowing i cant really say no #he's given me a frankly absurd amount of work (instock and i get carts filled woth 2-3x their max capacity unorganized and dangerously--#overloaded) and then he pushes me and snaps at me to get it done in an absurdly short timeframe while im still in TRAINING #im afab and present femme as i haven't transitioned irl and he is so ragingly sexist #he often just refers to me and the other girl being trained as 'girl' or 'that girl #and to top it all off #i took this job over a second interview at a place i really liked #because i thought the hours at this olace would be more consistent #nope! full time! surprise!!#and now im kicking myself so fucking hard over it. i feel like i fucked up so hard #and my friend i moved here with has been home for two months and will be this month so im just. alone. and i don't really have anyone to #turn to. im just so very stressed and tired and lonely

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acetheta · 2 days ago

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forever wondering if people actually like talking to me or theyre just bored

#i know at least some ppl in my life have thought this abt me #i was in mental health treatment for a few yrs #this one girl literally only ever talked to me when she felt left out and or had no one else / was bored #like ok thanks!!!#she was weird anyway but like.#lol treatment fucked me up soso bad ahahhah #anyway my point rn is like #like ok #OBVIOUSLY my friends are allowed to have other friends #but rn my brain is just like #like a few ppl dm me first but at the same time #ok besides juli heh !#do those ppl even want to talk to me or do they just need a therapist or r bored and shit!!!#smth smth i am not the type of person someone falls in love with #not even romantically #again!!!! do most of my friends even like me or r they just bored n lonely!!!#im so fucking tired of being a therapist for everyone #im not just a fucking book you can read when u dont want ur thoughts to get loud #thats all ill ever be lmfao #vent

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tovarishch-dyke · 1 year ago

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I’m like Johnny Truant in the tags of every goddamn post I make or reblog on this site and I’m not apologizing. If you want me to apologize come over to my house and you can talk to the minotaur about it

#House of leaves #im literally going insane these days I should go back to journaling but I’m also afraid of how far off the deep end I’ll go #Literally I am losing it and I’m being serious #I’m so fucking tired of being lonely and being left out and not being able to make connections #Sometimes I feel as if im doing things without realizing and no one is telling me about it #Other times it feels like I must have something incredibly wrong with my face or body and no one will say anything #People make plans and don’t bother to ask me if I want to join and then when I find out there’s a group chat that all my friends are in #Except me and when I asked if I could join I was given a bunch of reasons that were frankly bullshit why I couldn’t join #Are they talking shit about me? I know everybody there it’s not like I am a stranger #Am I just a stranger in this world as I unllikeable? I try my best to be nice and charitable but what am I missing?#Do I black out and say things and do things? Am I more mentally ill than I know?#The only reason (or one of the very few) why I stay alive is because of my horses because I know they would miss me and I already feel bad #Not seeing them everyday #I’m tired of being the odd one out I’m tired of being entertaining when necessary #I don’t want my only friends to be horses because it further alienates me from the rest of society and I just want to be accepted I’m not #Looking to fit in I just want connection and friendship and I can barely seem to manage that #Maybe I’m just not worth it.

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