#im scared of being here
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#please just ignore my ranting but i literally want to fucking scream rn#like#my mom literally just told me if my brother got back with his ex she would essentially kick him out and no longer consider him family#like i get it she's a shitty fucking parasite who brings literally no good things to my brother's life#but for fucks sake#HE'S YOUR SON#YOU FUCKING BIRTHED HIM#will you throw out everything for one shitty fucking girl#i want to fucking die#i hate this fucking family#i wonder what it would take for me to do for her to kick me out as well#i cant even live by myself#i can't even leave#i have no money no job#I'd have to quit med school and find a low wage job and find a way to support myself#bc if she kicks out my brother i am not staying here#I refuse to#maybe I'd actually go and do it then#I'd have to throw my entire life away anyway#what's the difference#a life of fear and abuse and emotional manipulation or a life of having to quit on my dreams#I'd rather not live#who knows#i don't think i can ever look at my mom the same way#im scared of being here#how many messups will it take for me to be thrown out like garbage too
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The tac net crash chapter is one of my favorites so far~
Ah and. Guess what. I just discovered that including this post, I made 50 pieces of fanart for Mistakes on mistakes until.. I’m so sane and normal about this story can you tell👍
#maccadam#transformers#fic fanart#momu fanart#jazz#prowl#jazzprowl#considering the speed and the amount of fanart#….yeah I can see why tumblr thought I was a bot lmao#also#I mostly read during night and then drawing from memory during day so uhhhhh the accuracy is questionable haha#mainly I feel like half of the time I don’t know how tf Jazz looks. The guy switching between his looks so often jdjfjfj#IM. SO GLAD THEY RESOLVED THEIR DRAMA EHEHBJGJ#The scene in medbay was so damn cute#oh my goddddd#the scene of the tac net crash#muah#loved it~#you know the thing is - I'm a biiiig fan of mutual feelings and actions#the scene of the kiss was absolutely great but it was a bit one sided#Jazz cared about Prowl but Prowl was far more concerned about information safety and strategy and stuff#but this?? mmmm~ Them caring for each other#Prowl using his last moments of consciousness to ask Jazz if he is mad at him#Prowl actually deeply caring of what Jazz thinks about him now when he knows Prowl killed his friends#i don't know how to explain#kisses are great but this (points) this is my favorite five star meal right here#also there is something so funny about Prowl slowly discovering fow fucked up Jazz is and just accepting it#but being so scared when Jazz discover how fucked up he is. Only for Jazz to be like “boo I knew about your fuckedupness from the start”
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Couldn’t stop thinking about Dust being able to pass as Classic. So I had an idea where Dust replaces Classic in a timeline and steals(?) his partner.
He gets conflicted when he starts actually caring about you… But denial is an easy road to take when there’s seemingly no consequences to your actions.
The reveal i guess. Most normal reaction to learning your partners been replaced for god knows how long and you have no clue where he is.
Now that I think about it I might’ve gotten some inspiration from that one chapter of IJAG by @htsan (iykyk) only a lil bit tho
(Full rambling of the idea + extra sketch cuz i liked the expression) ↓↓
I originally wanted y/n to notice the differences instantly but i think it would be angstier if they didn’t and only noticed like months later >:3
#hoodies are hard#i need to practice more#hrmmm#also i guess the new sona is staying#lol#theres much more to this but basically dust gets attached#he was not prepared to get attached (dumbass lmao)#you may ask ‘oh he can just kill them why does he look so scared?’#hes scared of losing them#hes selfish#theres so much angst potential here hehehoo#the idea of sans just being trapped in a basement unable to teleport out for whatever reason… help him…#dust trying to get information out of him about y/n while taunting him about how easy he is to replace#but theres also a funny side to it cuz like. ‘hey whats your favorite movie again?’ ‘Very funny sans#You know what my favorite movie is…’#Dust who has no fucking clue: ‘ehehe yeah i know im just joking’ *hes actually freaking out a bit on the inside*#sans#dust sans#my beloved#my beloathed#sans x self insert#sans x reader#sans x you#undertale au#fic idea#prolly a oneshot#leafs art#replaced au
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@mcyt-yuri-week Day 5, Rose/Thorns I never stop thinking about SL episode 8 never ever
#gempearl#pearlgem#shinyduo#shiny duo#trafficshipping#I tried to word it a few different ways but I feel like its still so easy to interpret this as negative but noo its positive#because the thorns here are referencing the scarlet persona that Pearl's embraced. being left with nothing but it - the thorns#But it's not that Gem likes her just for her scarlet persona. She likes her for her. Pearl's not just thorns#Gem doesnt really care about the “thorns” or the petalless rose stem. she cares about Pearl. She thinks Pearl's cool (thumbs up emoji)#Pearl changes into her scarlet fit like she has many times before with the purpose of scaring people & leaning into her feared witch thing#but Gem's just like “omg slayyy” and its the best. And to Pearl it's like whoag#Gem never saw how she changed. Never saw her be ostracized and the aftermath#But she thought that the Pearl she did see in SL was cool and so easily accepted her when Pearl herself though herself so unacceptable#she got love from the Mounders and BigB and that warms my heart but Gem being a newcomer immediately embracing Pearl is just#it hits different#whoa jimbo way too many tags hghghgh#mcytyuriweekvalentines#at first I thought about smth like “where the others saw thorns you saw a rose” but I thought it was more fitting this way#I guess you guys be the judge of that haha idk what Im saying#tubby art
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"I've got you, I've got you... I've got you."
Really wanted to do a redraw of this scene, this and the scene in episode 9 (you know the one) broke me, man. Expect more LMK art in the future 🐒
#goopi art#my art#lego monkie kid#lmk sun wukong#screenshot redraw#lmk season 5 spoilers#lmk season five#yayyyyyyyyyy#sorry i dont upload more#im scared of being perceived#but my friend has been yelling at me to post my art#so here we are#teehee
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Call me crazy for reading so much into a show like House MD but I think the main theme of House is that despite doing everything perfectly and being a good person, shit happens.
Sickness and pain will be inflicted on you and your loved ones and there's nothing you can do about it, but to persevere, to fight for your life, to keep living despite it all - to love is a part of the human condition; our capability of love is what makes life worth living, despite all the pain that you will inevitably experience.
This show exemplifies the pain of living and the needs and desires of human beings to keep going despite it all
And idk... There's something beautiful about how a show with so many stupid whimsical dumb scenes can impart something so profound in my stupid little brain
#im crying btw#ugly crying thinking about how much i love this show#shit happens and its normal and itll be okay#heph is being sappy again#this show giving house 1000 bad omens and giving him happiness only to rip it away and im just sitting here#house md#malpractice md#hatecrimes md#it is of course not the only theme of this show#but its the main one#theres also everybody lies#and theres also YOU CANT! ALWAYS GET! WHAT YOU WA AAAANT#anyways the yaoi is great but i love the interpersonal relationships between the doctors in my doctor drama show the most#its easy to obsess over hilson but like#its not just about hilson for me#heph.txt#btw im still on s4e13#im scared of the season finale everyone keeps telling me to brace myself#also even from the start this show is very much about pain (house and his physical pain and also his emotional scarring#and every season and episode we watch him cope with his pains with drugs and destroy himself and it hurts so much :[#houseypie
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i saw someone point out something that frustrates me so much. and that’s how wikipedia refuses to call someone jewish unless they don’t like them. ben shapiro? “he is ashkenazi jewish” and so many other examples that i dont want to pull up
but when i research, lets say, fucking daniel radcliffe? he’s literally called himself jewish and theres a quote and section IN THE WIKIPEDIA ARTICLE but in the early life part it says “his jewish mother, born in south africa, traces her heritage to ashkenazi jewish immigrants”. thats a LOT of words to say he’s jewish. and yeah this isn’t a one time case. there are so many occurrences of wikipedia refusing to call people jewish. (where they say the controversial figures are) or stephen sondheim, who had an abusive mother but no, HE’s not jewish! his family is!!
just. why? why are you afraid of calling people jewish unless you don’t like them?
why do people you think are bad get to be jewish, but beloved people are “born into jewish families” or “have jewish heritage”
fucking hell.
#vent#antisemitism#sorry to keep talking about antisemitism on here#but im tired of being scared to talk about jt#being jewish fucking sucks sometimes#tw antisemitism
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some birds
#phantom of the paradise#potp#winslow leach#teah the first one is from june dotn @ me#ane-ways as seen in thje last photo i went to the majestic showing LOL and not to reveal my youthfulness but i was most def the youngest#person there which was highkey intimidating especially when accompanied with my dad who was mistaken for the true fan multiple times#like no girl hes never seen this fucking movie and doesnt want to be here !!!!!!! im the true fan im the real one#my permanently prepubescent 5’7 looks didnt help either ;-/ HAHAHA#the crowd and actual event was fucking AWESOME thjough of course with it being a very queer and alternative audience and the showing being#special (if you get what i mean……) and of course mr. williams was an absolute delight and a fantastic speaker….. i laughed and teared up a#ton…. also shout- out to all the winslows swans phoenixes and ESPECIALLY the beefs in the crowd… if you guys are reading this then just know#that redhead boy with fried hair and an aquabats shirt wouldve loved to compliment you but he was too scareds#and forgot 2 mention but my dad ended up loving it and thanked me for introducing him to the film when we got home :-)
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Mym........
#dragalia lost#mym#she is so pretty........... i love mym....#someone kindly donated some money to me - a broke individual - and i offered art in return but as like. slow payback#so there will be a few more dl doodles here and there ! and most likely more mym bc i do love her and this#was kinda like a test run since i love her but never drew her cause i was too busy drawing idiot sons of mine in dl#also i wanna draw for a game i played recently but im so scared ? so if i end up drawing for it i may close my askbox in anxiety#even though i just wanna draw stupid lil guys being stupid lil guys and i think its expected of me to draw stupid lil guys#(at least not shocking when i draw them) i still kinda feel iffy on it bc im a coward with some games i like#but until then here is some cute lady dragon mym bc shes so lovely and i love her
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yayyy more watchdog oc shenanigans
bert belongs to @joeyprotozoa
freddy and teddy belong to @ariel-s-awesome / @watchdogfanclub
+ bonus angst comic feat. Larry and Norman
#i really gotta post more of my watchdog oc stuff here now that i think about it lol#and a lot more frequently too 😭 the freddy and teddy one is over a month old#i usually don't though because im scared of being too annoying abt my art for the most part. Frowning#buuut since its been over 10 days since my last post. I kinda have to post *something* at the very least#wander over yonder#woy#watchdogs#woy watchdogs#watchdogs woy#watchdog oc#woy oc#mylas art
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normal animals
#the rat running into the sewer isnt mad rat btw mspaint just has a limited starting pallete#he is currently busy being very chronically ill#ANYWAY im not going to be coming here often cause any and all fandoms scare me but.#i am not used to drawing cats and im happy how these guys turned out#mrd#mad rat dead#mrd spoilers#mad rat dead spoilers#heart mrd#jack mrd#the cat mrd#whatever other things people call that thing#mad rat mrd#he only shows up in the first drawing but still#i was going to also tag this as rat god for the funny since she is technically in the picture but im not going to be that mean#my art
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they should invent a driving a car that isn't scary
#m#i hate driving so much i get so nervous and scared#but i need to in order to be a shovelbum#because i need to#y'knw#get places#i miss charleston i miss college i miss being able to walk places#every time i get behind the wheel im like aaaaaaa#and its genuinely like harming my ability to live life#like i cant bring myself to drive without panicking#but i need to drive to get a job to afford doctors so i can get back on my meds#but i need my meds to be able to bring myself to drive#so you can see the problem here
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Nothing really matters!!
#dhmis#lil' doodle#I understand why people like to draw Coljn w glasses so mucn#this fucken rules💥💥#dhmis teachers#colin the computer#colin dhmis#dhmis colin#dhmis 4#don't hug me i'm scared teachers#dont hug me im scared#computer dhmis#dhmis computer#Hc here. He cares abt absolutely nothing of existence#bro doesn't know about what these flesh being are going 'bout this “meaning of life”
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so inanimate insnaity 16 or whatevrr its called am i right
#bread art#osc#osc fanart#inanimate insanity#inanimate insanity fanart#lightbulb ii#ii lightbulb#ii mephonex#mephonex ii#xbulb#ever since the episode came out ive been thinking of this#i think they could have a very interesting dynamic#ship or no ship#lightbulb is bubbly n stuff and mephonex is Well yk#i picture their friendship being like lightbulb is the only one who can see him wintout dying#no one knows swho shes talking to#this art can be romantic or platonic btw#im scared to post here#i dont use tumblr a lot Sooo uh mb
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for @earliebirb thank you for donating to my kofi 🥹❤️
buy me a coffee? it'd really help me out ☕️ ✨
#i didnt post it here but im in an extremely bad situation right now where i cant afford even food or rent or pet care anymore#so every donation helps me to literally like. survive im not exaggerating#ive been so stressed & sad & scared so genuinely anything helps & i appreciate it so much you have no idea#thank you a million times over if you donate & earl thank you for not only doing that but also just being so kind & supportive generally#avengers doodles#mcu#avengers#marvel#steve rogers#captain america
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Back then space seemed endless. Now it's empty.
a sort of companion piece to my anya one; i just think they share more parallels than people realize
#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#my art#this isnt a defense of curlys inaction im media literate but like#i feel like certain folks paint him as just Male Enabler without giving thought to like...why? idk if im making sense but work w me here#it was just so clear to me while playing the game that jimmy had been abusing curly long before the crash yk#maybe not in the same way as anya but. look at him.#jimmy to me is the exact type to use abuse to create enablers#also people act like curly was blind to jimmys Jimmyness and thought that he was a good man but thats not the read i personally got#points to his first questions to anya when she tells him she told jimmy being “was he angry” and “what did he do”#also the rapid frantic heartbeat as he goes to confront him#thats not the reaction of a guy whos not scared of his friend#idk i could go on but the tags are getting long sdrfegsg#safe to say as someone who spent most of my childhood with a 'friend' like jimmy i have Thoughts about curly
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