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#please just ignore my ranting but i literally want to fucking scream rn#like#my mom literally just told me if my brother got back with his ex she would essentially kick him out and no longer consider him family#like i get it she's a shitty fucking parasite who brings literally no good things to my brother's life#but for fucks sake#HE'S YOUR SON#YOU FUCKING BIRTHED HIM#will you throw out everything for one shitty fucking girl#i want to fucking die#i hate this fucking family#i wonder what it would take for me to do for her to kick me out as well#i cant even live by myself#i can't even leave#i have no money no job#I'd have to quit med school and find a low wage job and find a way to support myself#bc if she kicks out my brother i am not staying here#I refuse to#maybe I'd actually go and do it then#I'd have to throw my entire life away anyway#what's the difference#a life of fear and abuse and emotional manipulation or a life of having to quit on my dreams#I'd rather not live#who knows#i don't think i can ever look at my mom the same way#im scared of being here#how many messups will it take for me to be thrown out like garbage too
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The tac net crash chapter is one of my favorites so far~
Ah and. Guess what. I just discovered that including this post, I made 50 pieces of fanart for Mistakes on mistakes until.. Iâm so sane and normal about this story can you tellđ

#maccadam#transformers#fic fanart#momu fanart#jazz#prowl#jazzprowl#considering the speed and the amount of fanart#âŚ.yeah I can see why tumblr thought I was a bot lmao#also#I mostly read during night and then drawing from memory during day so uhhhhh the accuracy is questionable haha#mainly I feel like half of the time I donât know how tf Jazz looks. The guy switching between his looks so often jdjfjfj#IM. SO GLAD THEY RESOLVED THEIR DRAMA EHEHBJGJ#The scene in medbay was so damn cute#oh my goddddd#the scene of the tac net crash#muah#loved it~#you know the thing is - I'm a biiiig fan of mutual feelings and actions#the scene of the kiss was absolutely great but it was a bit one sided#Jazz cared about Prowl but Prowl was far more concerned about information safety and strategy and stuff#but this?? mmmm~ Them caring for each other#Prowl using his last moments of consciousness to ask Jazz if he is mad at him#Prowl actually deeply caring of what Jazz thinks about him now when he knows Prowl killed his friends#i don't know how to explain#kisses are great but this (points) this is my favorite five star meal right here#also there is something so funny about Prowl slowly discovering fow fucked up Jazz is and just accepting it#but being so scared when Jazz discover how fucked up he is. Only for Jazz to be like âboo I knew about your fuckedupness from the startâ
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Couldnât stop thinking about Dust being able to pass as Classic. So I had an idea where Dust replaces Classic in a timeline and steals(?) his partner.
He gets conflicted when he starts actually caring about you⌠But denial is an easy road to take when thereâs seemingly no consequences to your actions.

The reveal i guess. Most normal reaction to learning your partners been replaced for god knows how long and you have no clue where he is.

Now that I think about it I mightâve gotten some inspiration from that one chapter of IJAG by @htsan (iykyk) only a lil bit tho
(Full rambling of the idea + extra sketch cuz i liked the expression) ââ


I originally wanted y/n to notice the differences instantly but i think it would be angstier if they didnât and only noticed like months later >:3
#hoodies are hard#i need to practice more#hrmmm#also i guess the new sona is staying#lol#theres much more to this but basically dust gets attached#he was not prepared to get attached (dumbass lmao)#you may ask âoh he can just kill them why does he look so scared?â#hes scared of losing them#hes selfish#theres so much angst potential here hehehoo#the idea of sans just being trapped in a basement unable to teleport out for whatever reason⌠help himâŚ#dust trying to get information out of him about y/n while taunting him about how easy he is to replace#but theres also a funny side to it cuz like. âhey whats your favorite movie again?â âVery funny sans#You know what my favorite movie isâŚâ#Dust who has no fucking clue: âehehe yeah i know im just jokingâ *hes actually freaking out a bit on the inside*#sans#dust sans#my beloved#my beloathed#sans x self insert#sans x reader#sans x you#undertale au#fic idea#prolly a oneshot#leafs art#replaced au
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@mcyt-yuri-week Day 5, Rose/Thorns I never stop thinking about SL episode 8 never ever
#gempearl#pearlgem#shinyduo#shiny duo#trafficshipping#I tried to word it a few different ways but I feel like its still so easy to interpret this as negative but noo its positive#because the thorns here are referencing the scarlet persona that Pearl's embraced. being left with nothing but it - the thorns#But it's not that Gem likes her just for her scarlet persona. She likes her for her. Pearl's not just thorns#Gem doesnt really care about the âthornsâ or the petalless rose stem. she cares about Pearl. She thinks Pearl's cool (thumbs up emoji)#Pearl changes into her scarlet fit like she has many times before with the purpose of scaring people & leaning into her feared witch thing#but Gem's just like âomg slayyyâ and its the best. And to Pearl it's like whoag#Gem never saw how she changed. Never saw her be ostracized and the aftermath#But she thought that the Pearl she did see in SL was cool and so easily accepted her when Pearl herself though herself so unacceptable#she got love from the Mounders and BigB and that warms my heart but Gem being a newcomer immediately embracing Pearl is just#it hits different#whoa jimbo way too many tags hghghgh#mcytyuriweekvalentines#at first I thought about smth like âwhere the others saw thorns you saw a roseâ but I thought it was more fitting this way#I guess you guys be the judge of that haha idk what Im saying#tubby art
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I don't have a silly cheeky comment for this one besides it leans heavily on my headcanons and stuff on Grujaja. (that's how you know ur in the tranches for a character.)
^face of a guy that keeps hurtin his bonds w anyone close to him. Bonus doodles i made while drawing this that are semi related due to being tied to my Gr headcanons unda the cut lol:
#great god grove#ggg spoilers#ggg capochin#ggg grujaja#ggg gr#ggg hector#<- in the readmore lol#Capo is so used to my Grujaja just quietly doing what he asks even after the bizzyboys dissolve it throws him through a loop when told no#<- this is a fact ive drawn in past images. i did that on purpose. Grujaja doing what he's told no hesitation or input#spent 3/4s of his life following these guys and not having his own personal hobbies. or having many personal items. it was his life#devoted to a cause and what it stood for because to him it saved his life meanwhile its just another festering wound.#capo is also drunk and girlrotting#capo lashing out at things and going too far fans where are u im right here#also please note the use of âkidâ to a 40 year old man.#Capo still seeing gr as a small scared kid despite it being 33 years later#and getting the smack in the face this guy is a more mature adult than he is#because capo straight up broke the one thing Gruja wore on him he really cared about and instead on attacking that man he just gets up#and walks away#i cope with my evil images by drawing tiny gr because he brings me joy lol. little animal.#anyeay sorry guys for the insanity sometimes it controls me like a puppet to commit crimes and heavy headcanoning
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"I've got you, I've got you... I've got you."
Really wanted to do a redraw of this scene, this and the scene in episode 9 (you know the one) broke me, man. Expect more LMK art in the future đ
#goopi art#my art#lego monkie kid#lmk sun wukong#screenshot redraw#lmk season 5 spoilers#lmk season five#yayyyyyyyyyy#sorry i dont upload more#im scared of being perceived#but my friend has been yelling at me to post my art#so here we are#teehee
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Welcome to the launch day! Take a look and if you have any questions just let me know! <3
Everything is available separately, but there are also three, hopefully convenient, bundles. Take note of the currency change! and pick whichever seems more convenient. Can't wait to share all the pieces' backstories <3
There will be also stretch goals - they will apply only to the bundles or groups of items on pre-order that could create one (at least 5 items) - so stay tuned <3'
mmezzy.bigcartel.com linktr.ee/mezzy
#klance#omg....being the one man orchestra person#shipping prices#weight measuring#excel sheets (i have two for this one :') with 5 different pages)#making infographics descriptions summaries#market research#manu emailing#im always scared i will f orget something#but when i lose hope i look at the reviews people left#bro if this gotta be the cost of our emotional support merch so be it#ANYWAY#very random no context okay#but drop me advice of being a good friend to someone in a toxic relationship if u have any#except the basic ignoring the dude and saying im here#2025 is fucking wild for me af
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Something thatâs always missing whenever people talk about Lyanna and the Kingsguard at the Tower of Joy is that these things should always circle back to Jon Snow. Heâs our main character here. Rhaegar and Lyanna, as well as the Kingsguard, are all dead. They were dead before this story began. This tiny section of text is meant to give color to Jon â who is alive, and whose story is currently unfolding. The events at the Tower of Joy, told entirely through Nedâs fever dream for a reason, essentially serve as one thing: fantasy protagonist myth building 101. Three wise men, a legendary magical sword, some of the greatest knights of an era, a dying queen lady, the end of an age, a dead prince, a dead king, and then here comes a soon to be completely orphaned prince whose life hangs on the balance and whose survival depends on the compassion of one lord and his wizard friend. GRRM is literally retelling King Arthurâs backstory through Jon. This whole thing is one giant literary allusion to Uther and Igraine and the boy king Arthur, to Lancelot and his Joyous Guard, to Guinevere, and to tragic romances. It reads as an ode to Arthurian fantasy and is meant to backdrop the main protagonistâs fantastical origins. The Kingsguard are there to play into that. Their presence at the Tower, in that moment, was never about Lyanna; not solely, anyway. Their presence is tied to Rhaegarâs last surviving male child, and the language used suggests that they had chosen their king, for better or worse. Any discussion surrounding the Kingsguardâs presence at the Tower that focuses on anyone but Jon completely misses the point imo.
#idk yall im just a lil annoyed rn lmaooo#I feel like there are a lot of readings and arguments that have nothing to do with the actual purpose of the text#just people straight up ignoring whatâs already in the text and then imposing their own reading#like nedâs fever dream speaks to his trauma fr but like a big main takeaway is:#oh the kg literally have a million other places to be and a million other things to do so why are they here in particular?#why have they remained here of all places??#oh they are doing their duty as they see itâŚ.which is to guard the kingâŚ..who is now baby jon like?????#itâs almost spelled out for us in the text why do yall have to create new cannon about evil kingsguard following evil rhaegar??#asoiaf#jon snow#lyanna stark#the tower of joy#valyrianscrolls#âthe kingsguard were evil for keeping lya from her brother!111â#hmmmm neddard i agot â lyanna was scared shitless until ned made his promises#I wonder why sheâd be scared? I wonder if anything happened recently to rhaegarâs children to make her scared?#no she was definitely scared of the kingsguard there đ#I do want to say too that this is a world where brother and sister go to war (dance of the dragons)#or brother vs brother (stannis vs renly) among other examples of familial conflicts#ned fought and won a war for robert whose rule was solidified in the targ heirsâ blood#him being lyaâs brother at that moment doesnât mean shit
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she likes the fish (from a distance)
#interceptor aria#pokemon rejuvenation#i post about her on here like anyone knows what im talking about. i swear one day uguys Will Know#my art#my daughter......đđđđđđshes so scared of the sea but shes being so brave#experimenting with the big canvas again ... dont love it
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my turn making my friends watch smth and it was wakfu (said sounding scared to death), so heres a yugo ig
#for context my friends are not judging me- im just scared theyre not gonna care abt it ig. this show is so important to me but its also#not for like two people in their twenties#âwhy didnt yugo being proficient in cooking show up more?â my friend asks#THATS WHAT THE HCS ARE FOR!! PLS UNDERSTAND!!!#but also ankama What#also ankama WHY#core of wakfu? awesome. some aspects of it are um. they exist#anyways heres yugo#wakfu#wakfu yugo#wakfu spoilers#wakfu season 2#wakfu season 1#believe it or not im STILL mad they didnt make his wings as expressive as his hat made them out to be
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some birds
#phantom of the paradise#potp#winslow leach#teah the first one is from june dotn @ me#ane-ways as seen in thje last photo i went to the majestic showing LOL and not to reveal my youthfulness but i was most def the youngest#person there which was highkey intimidating especially when accompanied with my dad who was mistaken for the true fan multiple times#like no girl hes never seen this fucking movie and doesnt want to be here !!!!!!! im the true fan im the real one#my permanently prepubescent 5â7 looks didnt help either ;-/ HAHAHA#the crowd and actual event was fucking AWESOME thjough of course with it being a very queer and alternative audience and the showing being#special (if you get what i meanâŚâŚ) and of course mr. williams was an absolute delight and a fantastic speakerâŚ.. i laughed and teared up a#tonâŚ. also shout- out to all the winslows swans phoenixes and ESPECIALLY the beefs in the crowd⌠if you guys are reading this then just know#that redhead boy with fried hair and an aquabats shirt wouldve loved to compliment you but he was too scareds#and forgot 2 mention but my dad ended up loving it and thanked me for introducing him to the film when we got home :-)
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Mym........
#dragalia lost#mym#she is so pretty........... i love mym....#someone kindly donated some money to me - a broke individual - and i offered art in return but as like. slow payback#so there will be a few more dl doodles here and there ! and most likely more mym bc i do love her and this#was kinda like a test run since i love her but never drew her cause i was too busy drawing idiot sons of mine in dl#also i wanna draw for a game i played recently but im so scared ? so if i end up drawing for it i may close my askbox in anxiety#even though i just wanna draw stupid lil guys being stupid lil guys and i think its expected of me to draw stupid lil guys#(at least not shocking when i draw them) i still kinda feel iffy on it bc im a coward with some games i like#but until then here is some cute lady dragon mym bc shes so lovely and i love her
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I find I'm still stuck in place after so long.
#great god grove#ggg grujaja#bizzyboy gr#ggg bizzyboys#booooo booo Aotuurle made another image relating to song lyrics BOOOOOOOOOOO BOOOOOOOO#BOO THEM OFF THE STAGE#fun fact i have a whole brain amv for the song the lyrics are from for this guy. oops#anyway yeah.#gr feeling stuck in place because of anxiety and circumstance and not having anywhere else to go#and relying on a coping mechanism for over 20 years at least in my headcanons#feeling bad about himself that this is *all* he is after so long. someone afraid to break out of his comfort and perceived safety from fear#scared that this will be all there is. but more scared to change n stop seeing almost nothing and muffling himself from the outside world#so he stays in the cone blindly devoted to every word#i have so many thoughts about this guy its horrible in here#giving this guy a huge smoothie and wrapping him in hello kitty blankets. im sorry i fucked u up dude. i cant fix this one#what being my favorite does to you. sorry
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yayyy more watchdog oc shenanigans
bert belongs to @joeyprotozoa
freddy and teddy belong to @ariel-s-awesome / @watchdogfanclub
+ bonus angst comic feat. Larry and Norman



#i really gotta post more of my watchdog oc stuff here now that i think about it lol#and a lot more frequently too đ the freddy and teddy one is over a month old#i usually don't though because im scared of being too annoying abt my art for the most part. Frowning#buuut since its been over 10 days since my last post. I kinda have to post *something* at the very least#wander over yonder#woy#watchdogs#woy watchdogs#watchdogs woy#watchdog oc#woy oc#mylas art
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normal animals
#the rat running into the sewer isnt mad rat btw mspaint just has a limited starting pallete#he is currently busy being very chronically ill#ANYWAY im not going to be coming here often cause any and all fandoms scare me but.#i am not used to drawing cats and im happy how these guys turned out#mrd#mad rat dead#mrd spoilers#mad rat dead spoilers#heart mrd#jack mrd#the cat mrd#whatever other things people call that thing#mad rat mrd#he only shows up in the first drawing but still#i was going to also tag this as rat god for the funny since she is technically in the picture but im not going to be that mean#my art
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dewdrop leaves
> this was written for day 3: immortality/corruption! and of course i could not pass up the opportunity to write a corrupted venti, and bardâs reaction to it <3
Though Venti does not necessarily feel the sensations such as âwarmthâ or âcold,â the sheer thickness of Dragonspineâs chill tries its hardest to threaten that motion. It clings to him, weaving around and through the fabrics of his clothing, wrapping his limbs. Frost dapples at the tip of his nose, extending to his cheeks. It coats his clothing, too, the material starting to crinkle, turn firmer, and rigid.
(During his flight to here, his hat had been tossed off, and his capeâs bow had been torn unevenlyâŚ.. how he quite liked thoseâŚ.)
When he lands, sprawled out onto all fours, sinking into the snow and feeling how it gives in, the beginnings of ice fall from him in clumps, sloughing. He extends his wings, fluttering them, and watches as even more are flicked off from the action.
Going to stand, a sharp pain pulls at his chest, seeming to bounce off of the space where a rib-cage would be, before it spreads throughout the rest of him, pinpricks of blazing flares. He doubles over from it, his forehead and bangs pressing into sparkly white (his braids choosing to sprawl across them instead.)
Making the decision to fully lay his upper half onto the snow, and partly burrow there, wings folding to slide more onto his form, itâfor a moment, upon the first touchâfeels almost soothing. Rubs at the itchiness lying beneath this imitation flesh, one that strikes and tears and shrieks at him every passing minute that goes by. Each louder, more vicious, than the last.
Venti grimaces.
With a tremble, he pushes himself up, crawling forward to fresher snowâareas where he did not mess with. Raises his hand, watching as the deep blue (nearly a shade close to the night sky, dotted with small magentas) covering his fingers and palm reaches up, up, up, a little past his wrist, in splotches. Racing alongside the blue, is deep, fracturing golden lines and cracks, painted across in random strokes. He flexes his hand, wincing, and noting he has his talons, as well.
(There is a prickle on his back, too, where feathers begin to sprout, beneath the pair of wings he already has out.)
He huffs a breath and continues to stand, shaking off the snow when completely upright. Crouches slightly, one foot forward, stancing for a flight into the sky once moreâfor as much as he would like to, Venti cannot stay here, it is too close to Mondstadt still, and there is a concerning pressure building within him, one that he fears may blast away everything here.
Wings flap, he leans. Snow then scatters and sprays in various directions, from his take-off.
The corruption worsens as his journey continuesâthat accursed statue, but its situation was becoming harrowingâsending shocks so severe that it has his wings beating harshly to keep himself righted. Even more terribly is when the ruins of Old Mondstadt come into view, and the extra wings find this the perfect time to sprout in full, snapping out, and colliding against the ones above them.
That has him stumbling into one of the many strong currents dotted around; where he allows them to spin him in a lift, and he dips towards the ground when they let go, upon where he forces his wings to untangle, opening and catching wind. He twists, pivoting, aiming towards the ground, his surroundings a blurâand lands onto a patch in a cloud of dust. Once it has cleared, he remains in his position, sitting on his knees, hands pressed to the sides of them as he leans slightly forward.
(Belatedly, he realizes he has lost his cape, and shoes.)
Venti heaves. The pressure from before is unbearable now. The blue-gold has creeped up his arm, the splotches trailing off in fading dots when it reaches where his archon formâs gloves would end, and he presumes it is the same for his legsâthough, he can feel a weight at the back of his head, half-formed, in what could only be a halo. Go and break him down to his more divine forms, why donât they!!
Bubbling. Too much of it, his grasp on everything fraying, thinning, even as he scrambles in an attempt to keep it locked shut, fingers twisting and flailingâthe threads of wind, patches of time, the weather, it slips, becoming fuzzy. A gratitude undercuts it, a vague thankfulness that the ruins have sunken enough to fit the wrath of a thrashing God, a vague thankfulness that Dvalin had been sent away beforehand, before it is overrun by the thoughtsâwhat if this is not enough? Will they fall, to his hands, just as the tyrant had done to them? Will he lose what he has fought to protect, what he has set everything to prevail for?
He cannot lose anyone againâ
His imitation heart splinters and spills, the corruption truly sinking in. His vision blurs around the edges, flashes of gold tracing them, his breaths coming out labored..
(He knew, when Dvalin had been corrupted by the Abyss, that he was hurtingâif it was to this extent, he wishes he could have soothed away everything.)
Around him, the wind races, becoming erratic, kicking at any surface it can find, zipping across in uneven lines. He leans further, wings curling, and the distant sounds of this place are doused, muffled, becoming white noiseâa consistent ringing, overlapping
Underneath his hands and legs, the ground shrivels. The wind grows harsher, rocks being scraped across, propelling into the air and torn asunder, the glowing crystals diminishing to mere crumbles of rock. Both the dirt and grass are dragged from the ground, plucked and ripped. The intensity continues to ramp, the noises becoming overwhelming, ringing in his ears pitching, finding that his hands have raised to grip at hair, that his wings seem to wrap around him completely as heâ
As rapidly as it had seemed to start, it feels as though something grabs hold of him and yanks to a halt. Venti gasps, cut hair strands falling around him.
The winds stutter, and the ringing fades. He jerks up, hands still embedded into his hair, and finds that⌠the place he landed in was not so deserted. Their tree stands, swaying, waving hello.
And, that everything had truly come to a messy standstill; threads of teals dipped in a bleeding mixture of a blue-gold suspended in a whirling vortex, a few parts of the wreckage they had caused gently floating besides in its grasps. The threads are not all the same, some of them cutting in dotted lines as they zoom, some of them having their lines wavering to point it threatens dispersing, some of them are thoroughly solid, some of them are splitting into branches, teal twisting and curling, andâ
Andâ
AndâŚ
Blue eyes blink, fluttering as if just awoken.
He rubs a hand at the right one, brows furrowing at his surroundings the more aware he becomes of them. Pure raven-black braids sway, as he swivels his head, and Venti notes with a whirlwind in his mind, that the locks have stray strands flicking out from not only the braids, but the bangs, and hair that frames the face. Windswept. The clothes, as well, are missing the tear in the bottoms of the shorts, the tops of his boots, and his right sleeve. If he were to turn, there would certainly be holes in his cloak, too.
Butâif he does not have those, then how is heâŚ?
A gale is thrown into the cliff, repeatedly, tearing apart the ground, as they respond to Ventiâs dread.
His eyes widen, then narrow.
No, no, no, no, no. Stop looking at him like that.
Venti hunches into himself, talons clenching and shredding more strands of hair. The gale intensifies, lashing behind him, carving out chunks and causing the ground to rumble in its fury. He bares his teethâwanting to shriek, to grab at his head and!!!!
Stop looking at him like that!
(Why wouldn't he?
A wind out of control? A wind that slices, destruction in every path? Why would he not back away from it?)
He tilts his head, starting to stand, and his expression shifts at Venti flinching away from his approach, the wind whipping to a higher degree with the flinch. He goes to take a step forward, the grass he steps upon having a simmering, bubbling line of a thread hovering thereâand there is a quiet screeching as the threads are forced away, unraveling in spools and flinging out towards the cliffs; it has him jolting away from it, one step taken back, boots hitting the ground and kicking up dust.
His gaze snaps up to Ventiâs.
(He has a fleeting thought, a moment where the minuscule inch of himself that the corruption has not touched speaks; that he should fix everything, that this mess has gotten severely out of hand, to fly off deeper into the ruins before he does something truly regretful.
But it is just thatâfleeting.
Because at the attempt to follow through with the ideas laid out, the corruption rushes to overtake that last final inch, smothering and snuffing it out without regard. It halts Ventiâs hands when he tries to wave them, refusing to let them budge the Bard in front of him, dark blue and gold chaining them to remain where they currently are. You do not truly want that, do you? It whispers, false care and comfort in its voice. You wish for him to stay, so here he will stay.)
That gaze of his shifts once more, briefly scrutinizing, then the ever so slightest of widened eyes, before reaching a blankness. It seems that something has clicked. He tries again, purposefully angling his path to the swirling threads, and Venti grits his teeth as he moves them away, hooking a finger round them and pulling, so that no interactions happen between them and him.
(And, how during this, he seesâfor a momentâa glimmer of something magenta across his form.)
And blast it allâ
Venti raises himself and situates his legs into a crouch, his wings flaring unraveling from around his form. And bounds.
He crosses the distance between the two of them in seconds. Nose mere centimeters away from his, Venti grits his teeth, watches as the other blinks owlishly at him, as if not expecting to be approached so suddenly, especially not like this, Venti poised in a manner similar to that of a cat pouncing still.
âKeep off from those,â he nearly growls, âCan you not see that theyââ
Hands shoot out, to place themselves on his cheeks. Venti falters, words dying in his throat.
âWhat has happened to you?â He murmurs, gently tipping Ventiâs head up, to the side, checking the dark-blue that has climbed up to his face, âYour teal⌠where has it gone? Have you always had gold?â
He swallows. A twitch goes throughout him, one that does not go unnoticed by him.
And, oh. That was what had clicked.
The words build, his tongue bubbling, bitterness and sweetness coating it. A name he has not said for centuries, a name he has kept clutched close to him, hidden in the palms of his hands, in the place where a heart would be beat.
Ventiâs mouth opens, and croaks: âCecilâŚ.?â
He pauses, meeting Ventiâs eyes.
âHello, little bird,â Cecil replies, softness in every feature of his. âAhâI suppose you would be an angel now, hm? How much you have grownâŚâ
The softness does not last long, his brows knitting as he thinks, a frown replacing that wondrous smile of his. His fingers trace the edges of the colors, outlining them, almost, a silent fury and puzzlement to the actions. âBut, my friendâwhy are these⌠like veins? Why do you hurt? Did someone else do this to you?â
(I will hurt you, I will hurt you, you need to get away from meâ)
âNo one. This is my own doing, you see,â he says, offering a reassuring look, âI am not hurting at all.â
Andâthat is true, if partly. There is no stabbing prodding at him any more, attempting to wrench him towards the ground so he stays there. It aches most certainly, however, the wind underneath his skin thrumming as it races incessantly.
Cecilâs brows scrunch.
He steps forward to pull Venti closer, his right hand falling down to his waist, tracing a tear in his clothing, and⌠ah. Ah. He revokes everything he had said about snow and their so-called âsoothing effectsâ beforehand, this is so much better than it, he curses them and nearly purrs at the feeling of his friend being a breath away from him, his touch curling into his bare skin so softly, lovingly.
Venti chases it.
All but lunging into him, Venti dives his head into Cecilâs chest, careful of the halo behind his hairâdo not want to slam it against him. The rest of his body follows suit, his arms encircling around Cecilâs torso (with his hands carefully closed, knuckles pressing into the fabric of the green vest), knocking their legs together so that he can hook it around one of his dearâs, and his wings complete it all by flaring out to then snake around and envelop them both. Feathers brushing against skin and cloth with every other breath.
(The wind has gone still.)
âOh,â Cecil gasps, startling at something, âyou have six wings? I only saw four⌠have your limbs been multiplied, too??â
Does he? Venti thinks dazedly. It must have happened when the pain was ramping up, he could not distinguish it under all the other sensations attacking him. He had wondered how far the transformation would goâhis most divine form has much more than four wings and a halo.
He does not give Cecil a response. Choosing to nuzzle into his clavicle instead, head going even fuzzier, thoughts narrowing to Safe safe safe, stay stay stay, love love love, here here here.
Andâwhat an idea.
Cecilâs chest expands, as he inhales, exhales. It takes a moment, but he begins to reciprocate, an arm going around Ventiâs back, between the middle wings and bottom ones. The other arm lifts to the space above Ventiâs shoulders, near his nape, pulling him further into himself. He rubs at those places, in small, circle-like motions, and it has the God wholly melting in his arms.
âIs this alright?â He asks, âIs this helping?â
âMmmmmhmmmmâŚ..â
Gradually, the threads dissipate, dropping closer to the ground, and having the wreckages they carry collapse against the water around the tree, the dirt and rocks. Twist higher into the air at the end, then wobbling, and falling apart. He watches it all, a steady thrumming sounding in the air the longer he holds onto Venti. For one of them, he tests, to see; what would happen if he nuzzled into Ventiâs cheek, patting at his back? The answer: it causes the threads to speed up, swooshing so swiftly, that he hardly has time to blink before the teal is fading.
Eyes wandering, they slide toâ
Ah! Cannot have that, can we? Venti blocks his view with his right most top wing, fluttering the appendage to truly catch his attention, making his dear jolt in surprise. See, if Cecil is to stay by Ventiâs side, then it should be away from hereâthe safest spot is the Tower, but he would not like that very much. Perhaps they should cross to the Dandelion Sea?
âVenti?â
âHmm..?â
Cecil raises his hand up, to tap to the back of his head, his knuckles briefly brushing against the halo. He lets it stay there, for long enough that he can weave strands of hair around his fingers, to light tug at themâa non-serious scolding, for the blocking he did. They drop to rubbing circles on his nape after. âHow are you feeling?â
Right, rightâconversation happening.
He shuffles backwards, only a few inches, so that his dear is not forced to let go of his graspsâskin still tingling and fizzing with that loveliness. Tilts his head, then, to where Cecil gazes at him, a quiet concern and pure curiosity to his eyes, now.
Another wave of winds zip by them, these ones far lighter, livelier, and peppy than the others from earlier wereâhowever, still the same mix of colors, if slightly more solid, slightly lukewarm in temperature. They swirl around them, teasing at hair and cloth, dancing in chiming sweeps and dives; that of which distracts Cecil for a moment, his hair blowing into his face, a muffled sound of a âwuhâ escaping from him when it has strays loosing from the braids he wears. He shakes his head to rid of them, glaring halfheartedly.
A beaming grin tugs at him, at the sight. One that lifts the bottoms of his into soft crescents, slowly revealing how his teeth have grown sharper canines. His pupilâstill a lovely teal, though, now captured around blue-goldâshines, constricting to a thin slit, as a glittering gleam dances across his gaze. He hums, unclenching his hands from fists to press the palms of them more firmly into Cecil, scraping the talons across his vest.
âMuch better,â he says, a lilting, distorted pitch to it. Extends his rightâs hand index finger, while he talks, to prod at his backâtracing a symbol there, one that causes Cecil to minutely shiver from it, unexpecting the action. âThank you.â
And perhaps it is that, that has Cecil truly understand what has happened; that Venti is really not so much hurt as he is a far, far worse thing, that there is something gripping at him. Or perhaps it is the way he looks upon him, as though he were the sun, a gleeful, thrilled and eager gleam to his gaze. Or perhaps it is the way his wings gradually tighten around his form, not constricting him, yet he suddenly feels the reason they continue to be folded (and twitching, fluttering, so often) is not that Venti just wishes to hold him with everything he has.
Whichever it is, whether it be a combination of all of them, it has him widening his eyes, a near whisper of âOh,â trailing into the winds. Winds that take the words greedily into their hands, rolling them overâwinds that tell him murmurs, almost frantically, a gentle urging in the way the threads crowd further around them both, hushed jingling of bells accompanying it: stay, stay, stay, stay?
Oh.
#genshin impact#venti#nameless bard#bardven#bardvenweek2025#YAHOOOO okay tag talking time#this will go on ao3 too im gonna add a link in a reblog bc i dont think? tumblr likes when you put links in posts and i dont want to risk i#tried not to cross over into the time travel prompt so i thought it would be fun if bard was more of an illusion/manifestation of sorts#>> its really fun to toy with the corruption bc. feel like. the beginnings of ventis would be rough for both sides đ#theyâre constantly pushing the other out of the seat#so the corruption is just like frantically flipping through a book like uhhh okay you seem to like this guy a lot . here you go#(throws a vaguely shaped bard in his direction)#BUT it would be fun if it was the real one so . i tried to keep it ambiguous a bit#anyways thatâs the reason why bard isnât reacting a lot to the sky. mostly bc he has a lot of other things to deal w first ZDBDJ#and tbh venti keeps trying to keep bard from being upset đđ like oops !! too many negative connotations with that rn âŚ. lets go !!!!!#going off of dvalin it seems the corruption makes uâŚ. feel ur emotions a lot more intensely ??? and . well .#given that venti is the king of Not Talking About Himself his are kinda going rapid fire#before kinda settling on overbearing protection. he is Scared. and this is an oddness heâs walking into#like !!! bard is free !!! despite the ending venti wonât be trapping him or caging him. but his presence is going to be very ⌠well know#THE CORRUPTION IS FIGHTING FOR ITS LIFE. ALSO đđ#BARD GUY . KEEP HIM PREOCCUPIED !!! and preferably causing damage. make him sad again thanks#A WIN FOR MEEEE <- the corruption is Unaware#lanternâs writing corner#if there are any mistakes from this one to the ao3 version itâs because tumblr hates me
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