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eminentzayn · 3 months ago

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just wanna say that it hurts me seeing these pictures of happy 1d bc i just know that it will take a while before we see them truly smile again. yes, they'll move forward, go on with their lives, perform, etc... but it truly won't be the same again. those boys lost a fucking brother, an anchor, a ride or die. and no matter what happens in their life after this (fuck, "after liam") there will always be taint whisper of sadness that liam won't be there to witness it all. all the big events, liam will no longer be there to witness it all.

fuck, liam won't be there to cheer them on as they all reach their dreams. fuck. that. this reality is jarring.

#im sorry #im sad all the time now #whenever im not its just because my mind's busy #but my heart is fucking broken #i love you #liam payne #i truly hope you're happier now #i miss you #liam #of #one direction #your brothers truly love you #im sure they're yearning for you #like we all are #zayn malik #louis tomlinson #harry styles #niall horan

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 22 days ago

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real talk having the 2nd worst new years eve yet 🤢🤢🤢 (throat infection, twisted neck, banged-about-foot, ego AND the rest o' me all bruised like misjuggled peaches 🍑🍑🍑)

im bent outa shape and suspectin the universe owes me 8 buck if anyone wannsa chip in

#yes the 🍑🍑🍑was just an excuse to shove ass emojis in your face i'm only (occasionally. allegedly) human #now ask me about my FIRST worst new year eve. it involves wizards and portals and elaborate lies i make up on the spot #SAD REAL TALK <STARTS>:#also made the mistake of reaching out to my mom post-xmas #like what kind of c-ptsd NOOB does that. what kinda chronic holiday trauma survivor NOVICE??? embarrassing #THE SEDUCTIVE FALSE HOPE OF NOSTALGIA WILL LURE YOU IN EVERY TIME #'oh but maybe they won't disappoint me. but maybe they won't rip my heart out this time'#sweetheart that's your dear sweet inner child's yearning for what never was or will be. BEAT IT BACK WITH A STICK!#SAD REAL TALK <ENDS>#....back to that part where i talked about being bent out of shape #if anyone w/ metalwork skills wants ta take a blowtorch & hammer & tongs & have at... I'm open to experimentation is all im sayin #in lieu of that i would also welcome someone buying me a sandwich. i am. so sore.#(metaphysically sore but also the other more urgent im-at-my-daily-NSAIDs-limit kinda sore)#(hence: sanwimch)#...i got so sleepy writing this i started imagining the astonishing hedonism #of stroking a freshly grilled cheese-dripping sandwhich across my body like a loofah #the soothingness of the gooey warm near liquid cheese. the vaguely spongelike quality of toasted sourdough slice.#look i didn't imagine it on PURPOSE it just came to me like a vision like a threat #like one of those weird mens locker room ads where the sportsball is watermelon??? u know the one #where there's nudity & food & homoerotica & hot steaming showers in the background and STILL the overall effect is more offputting than sex #look i have a throat infection. i can barely swallow. i'm sipping chocolate milk to survive and i'm NOT EVEN ENJOYING IT. each drop is agon #(opposite side of the Tantalus spectrum but i'm suffering more than he has in 3.5 thousand years)#i'm dehydrated. barely conscious. electrolytes are circling down the drain. doctors should be incubating me w/ capri sun straws right now.#I GET A PASS ON THESE TAGS #i don't know what i wrote! and i don't stand by it! and you can't make me read em!!!

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kitamars · 23 days ago

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#i loooove drawing otasune when they’re being shitheads to each other its always the best flavour of partnerships yayyyy #so sad they dont include snake laughing at otacon when you call him from inside a locker in mgs2 and they talk about how they first met #im drawing. somewhat i swear ive just had a hellish trip and im tired all the time so i dont feel like colouring anything ever #i would dump sketches but hhhhh idk if yall would want that #but whatever #otasune love forever #say it with me now:#partners (affectionately derogatory)#solid snake #snavid #otacon #hal emmerich #mgs #metal gear solid #ok bye

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lucabyte · 10 months ago

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Taking pride in One's own appearance.

#you people are becoming my guinea pigs for my finally learning how to communicate information via comics. a thing ive needed to practice at #also BLEGH. YUCK. andrew hussie was right candy makes you sick. this is a little too saccharine for me. yeesh. let me get back to the meat.#isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #in stars and time spoilers #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #doodlebyte #'let me get back to the meat' i say eyeing something similarly sickly in my sketches. at least it's mildly tormented as a counterbalance...#you people have no idea how much im having to stay my own hand. oh i can draw miserable nudity but the most basic of fluff? visceral #anyway i dont know the logistics of picking up a glass eye or where loop got money (besides pilfering from siffrin) & ive previously drawn #sif with a vague blank middle-grey eye as either being scarred over or a blank occular prosthesis put in quickly at the nearest town #i dont know that they'd have a glass eye during the game but considering prosthesis are reccomended to keep the skull etc from deforming #id imagine it would probably come up postgame as something to do now theyre not on a time limit trying to save the country #plus i assume that having it gouged at by a sadness wasnt exactly a clean wound by any measure #all this to say. idk i just wanted to get some information across in comic form to Test my Abilities #and we're far enough down now to say my absolute most wretchingly sweet fluff headcanon that actually inspired this #which is that i think siffrin gets into the habit of not wearing the eyepatch around loop so they kinda match.#and as a signifier to the other that they're letting their guard down around them. vulnerability etc.#just kinda wearing it around their neck so they don't lose it

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red-moon-at-night · 3 months ago

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okay the whole vase is great but something about Helen sitting on Aphrodite's lap as she wraps one arm around her shoulder and brushes her leg with her hand, staring into her eyes like that... as she is persuading Helen to go with Paris (while Peitho aka persuasion stands behind them) is so incredibly iconic.

and gay. toxic yuri, if you will.

#helen of sparta #aphrodite #greek mythology #greek vase #not pictured is nemesis pointing at them in outrage #(which is the only time so far i've found helen + nemesis together on a vase... I think about that all the time ToT its all so SAD)#anyway. I consider aphrodite labelling helen as 'the most beautiful woman in the world' to be her opinion. of course she's-#- the goddess of beauty/love so that's sounds obvious but. also consider... it's *her* opinion. aka her choice who she finds hot.#aka sapphic gay lesbian yuri whatever you want to call it helen x aphrodite is real and alive and there's nothing you can do to stop it #none of this 'they were really good friends' helen's sitting in a goddess' lap ffs. have you even read the iliad book 3?? read it again.#it's actually called the yuriliad. bet you didn't know that huh /j #i'll stop rambling (for now)#edit: im looking at these tags a day later and wow i really went for it huh. anyway i'm keeping them it's all true 🧡🤍🩷

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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 months ago

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chair + helmet for funsies

#xmen #xmen comics #xmen tas #xmen 92 #krakoa #charles xavier #professor x #snap sketches #need to practice drawing this helmets 3/4ths angle hi #gotta make this post quick cause i told my bro we'd carve pumpkins before i left for the week #BUUUUTTTT ANYWAY yeah while i was browsing my comic shop the first time i ran across this story and thought it was cute #it was the tas/92 adaption of krakoa but i only skimmed it #i thought of picking it up at some point but as for now it lives as a memory in my brain. i do wanna look at it closer tho #tbh at some point i think i wanna try to do a design for charles that features his actual krakoa design but with a chair/hover chair #i think itd be fun cause ngl i always like drawing his chair and not getting to with krakoa stuff makes me sad #if i get to that i dont think it'll be like. a staple with my krakoa art but just somethin to do for fun #ok i think thats all for now. i think im gonna do a movie charles doodle page later cause I Am Once Again Working Out His Face #so fingers crossed ith that plan !!!! for now its pumpkin time BYE

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heynhay · 6 months ago

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scene from where the apple falls by @jupiters-junipers :-) wholeheartedly recommend any and all of her work

#klance #voltron #vld #ok now time to freak it in the tags #to be honest i saw colleen blogging her read of New and the two of us went back and forth in dms for like 20 mins straight #abt all the things we like abt europas work #and i was like okay i have to assert my membership in the europa fan club too hang on #ive had 'draw europa report scene' in my art to-do file for months but thbeyre all so good #i couldnt choose!#due west is obviously The One the flagship #but they all deserve love....#i tell you to be honest im a coward i usually avoid any unfinished fics cause i like to binge but for europas work its simply worth it #anyway i envy you if you dont know who im talking abt bc that means u get to read her work for the first time...sighs dreamily #art #my art #ANYWAY THIS ONE IS SAD. EUROPA UNDERSCORE REPORT YOU ARE A TWISTED INDIVUDAL (affectionate)#im putting my life in ur hands with those happy ending tags.... save me help me..... auuughghh...

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lightbulb-warning · 7 months ago

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today i offer you prompts 11-20 for isat month!! ignore your calendar THANKYUUUU <3

#isatmonth #isat #isat siffrin #in stars and time #isat loop #isat mirabelle #isat isabeau #isat sadness #isat change god #isat spoilers #two hats spoilers #technically #is-at all the tags????? idk im tired!!#id in alt hope it makes sense im sorry in advanced!!#eyestrain #potentially #*looking at horizon DRAMATICALLY* i am no longer the person i was before i started this piece... (i hurty my hand </3)#maiora draws #today on: drawings that made my graphic design buddy really mad at me <3 #i have developed so much beef with the favor tree while drawing this #i would fight the shit out of this fictional tree #and i would LOSE but whatever <3<3<3 #i have so many nitpicks over this image but its OKAY its FINISHED now im FREE!! IM RUNNING AWAY #BUHbye have a nice day or night or whatever your hair looks amazing ok ciaociaoOOOOOO!!!!!!!

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bitegore · 1 year ago

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Zionists want you to conflate Judaism and Zionism. Zionists want you to believe that Judaism cannot exist without Zionism and that all Jews are Zionists. Zionism would have Jews believe that a Jewish state is the only way that they can be safe from antisemitism and will point to any instance of antisemitism as proof that Zionism is the solution- so Zionism wants gentiles to be antisemitic in their support of Palestine. They want you to conflate all Jews with Zionism and the state of Israel, and they want you to treat all Jews regardless of political affiliation as the face of Israel. Antizionist Jews exist, and incidences of antisemitism ostensibly acting against Zionism will not help dismantle the forces propping Zionism up.

Don't do their work for them.

#red rambles #viva palestina #antizionism #i haven't actually seen a lot of antisemitism personally. not recently anyway. but that's more a feature of me not following antisemites #i DO however see a lot of people talking about the people they're seeing throw their support behind antisemites using palestine #as an excuse to conflate all jews with israel #and i cannot stress enough that that is literally what israel and zionist forces abroad WANT.#i am jewish. my entire family is jewish. i want to see palestine free. and i have SEEN how the jewish community gets conflated with israel #both from the inside and out #and i am dead serious when i say that every time someone is antisemitic it strengthens the conviction from people abroad #that it's a terrible sad situation but there's 'no other choice'#if you're being antisemitic you are doing the enemy's work for them. Stop it.#like... look. i am putting this in the tags bc im talking in the tags but i mean this. I do not give a single flying fuck if you personally #are a giant raging antisemite at the moment. Your personal beliefs are your problem and not mine. I do not fucking care. But if you are #being openly and loudly antisemitic *in your support of palestine* you are absolutely not fucking helping. I am so dead serious right now #if you want to raise awareness and you're being antisemitic because of deep held beliefs or whatever i want you to look around and read the #fucking room. Do you understand how much of Israel's international support comes from the idea that they are the only country where jews ar #safe from antisemitism? do you see how every time palestine comes up people point at incidences of antisemitism in anti-genocide actions to #discredit the entire movement? do you not understand how your actions are cutting the movement down at the knees?#i'm jewish and proud of it. i don't like antisemitism. but there's a genocide on and i'd rather work against it than quibble over who i #work alongside. i dont fucking care. you can be as antisemitic as you like in private. stop fucking the movement up.#there are bigger things to worry about here. if i can put aside my own concerns as to who i'm talking to you can hold your tongue #and fight the good fight instead of handing weapons to the people who are trying to fucking flatten gaza.

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theythemmer · 3 months ago

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phinktober day 11: ur fav AU

i dont rlly do AUs so i just drew them how i wish they would dress xo

(dan’s tats r carnations and snowdrops and phil’s r roses and honeysuckle. for no reason 🤗)

ALSO bonus version w makeup bc i couldn’t pick <3

#soz copied caption from twt i have been drawing for 7 hours straight i need to drink water eat something take a piss and a shower and sleep #no braincell rn #goodbye it is wine time #hope yall like this idfk what people what these days other than ship art but im not doing that so sorry no knights fucking for you #just me making them look like me bc i’m a narcissist etc #god i am way too tired to be yapping rn i have no filter whatever ABYWAY HASHTAG DANIPHIW #art2 and craft2 #dnp #phanart #dan and phil #daniel howell #amazingphil #dan howell #phil lester #phinktober #punk edits irl come back to me please #i’m missing a fkn hashtag i just know it whatever i don’t CARE im TIRED i have eaten nothing but half a jar of picked today i feel so goblin #idk why i tunnelvisioned w this piece it’s not even that good or detailed LMFAO #actually the tattoos were a BITCH and also made me sad bc of my whole failed tattooing career etc #OH MY GOD WHY AM I YAPPING SO MUCH SOMEONE EUTHANISE ME #good NIGHT !!!!!!#pickles not picked btw but i’m not retyping all of that #now i’m sad bc i’m out of pickles and it’s 10pm and everything is shut:( hate my stupid gay life

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stiffyck · 2 months ago

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I WISH ARO HEADCANONS WERE MORE POPULAR IN FANDOMS

#THERES LIKE. BARELY ANY.#IF I GET LUCKY ILL SEE AN ACE HEADCANON #BUT VERY RARELY DO I SEE ARO HEADCANONS #SOBBING #stiff talk #my favorite thing is thinking about how many characters i see as aromantic but then i go to the fandom tag or to that characters tag and #everyone is shipping them and theres like 2 posts total about that character being ace and 1 post about them being aroace #man im just a bit sad about all this dont mind me #yea yea i know the whole “if you wanna see something make it yourself” thing but see heres the thing: im tired #i just wanna be able to go through a tag and see people share similar ideas and headcanons without me having to make all the work myself #and i bet theres plenty other people who feel the same #and even if there is a character thats like. somewhat aroace coded in some way people still find a way to go “but then they fall in love��#and like yea have fun or whatever but i just idk it just feels very lonely sometimes yknow #miss the times when i didnt think about this so much #cuz now that im older and know that IM aspec its like. oh. i wanna see more characters like me! but theres like basically none #SORRY FOR THE RANT LMFAO #ignore this im just feeling silly

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kana7o · 2 years ago

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[I used to know my place was the spot next to you]

#obikin #sw #yeah ive been listening to speak now (Taylors version) all day can you tell #this ones my favourite from the album its so *chefs kiss #anyways i like thinking of force ghost obiwan hanging out with vader and watching him with sad eyes #but maybe also a little happy? bc he can finally be close to anakin agan after all this time?#or i shouldnt say happy but im not sure what that feeling is #anyway im glad i finally drew this bc its been pingponging in my head for probably a month now

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pepperpixel · 5 months ago

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Initial drawings of that old man… I literally, I haven’t finished reading the book of bill yet!!! I had to stop and take a break for a week to feverishly draw fanart of myself petting fords floofy hair and giving him attention and shit…!!!! The urge was too great….!! I’ve literally. I had a crush on this guy the instant he was first REVEALED in the show, but I did not have the artistic prowess to draw good looking old men back then… but I do now… thank god… thank fucking god