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so devastating that when i left 1d tumblr in 2019, i was 500% sure that i'd come back for their reunion. now... i think the exact opposite.

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https://www.tumblr.com/eminentzayn/771295006160977920/do-you-think-louis-knew-zayn-was-going-to-leave-a?source=share

Agreed - but I think leaving the band made him sad but the hurt was truly caused when Zayn didn't show up to his solo performance on X Factor following his mother passing, as the others did. That is probably what truly caused the hurt and fracture in their relationship- but hopefully they've chatted now and ready to forgive and move ahead.

i agree. I feel like that was the final straw for Louis. I mean, Zayn was unhappy and left, sure that can be forgiven. Butttt his absence during the X factor performance will forever be one of the things that i can never defend Zayn for, esp bc they'd all been in agreement that they would ALL be there and he just... never showed.

After Liam's passing, i went back on everything that happened post-hiatus and for this one instance, I feel like if I'd been Louis, Zayn's absence would truly marked the end of our friendship. That's arguably one of the worst moments of a friend's life and I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive had it been done to me.

However, we all know that Louis has always had the biggest heart. Thus, my heart believes that they've made amends. They're far too intertwined and have gone through too much to lose the friendship forever.

Dare I say, there's a big chance that Liam's loss was the big bucket of ice water they all needed to fix whatever happened between them.

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Do you think Louis knew Zayn was going to leave a little before he did? Do you think some conversations happened?

ya, for sure. during his last days in the band, zayn had been pretty transparent that he was no longer there. i'm sure he confided in the boys, louis esp knowing they were some of the closest at the time. but i feel like even if louis knew and understood how zayn felt, zayn leaving them in the midst of a tour, etc still hurt him tremendously. thus, even if the conversations did happen and even if louis understood, im pretty damn sure it still hurt him that zayn left the way he did.

in fact, even as a fan then, we could all see that zayn had checked out from 1d way before he ever left. it was staring us right in the face but i feel like we all just loved 1d too much that we refused to acknowledge it. or it could be that we were just too young then to understand. idk

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law student probs: need to argue new points for a memorandum but have already exhausted all legal points in the first. idk what to add anymore rawr

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friendly reminder that it is month 100 of one direction's alleged 18 month hiatus <3

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its gonna be a long time since we'll even have the remote possibility of seeing zayn play stardust live, innit

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Zayn tossing his hat (AND SEEING HIS HAIR!!) at STTST Edinburgh N1

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This gif is the LOVE OF MY LIFE

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via rockparaelfindelmundo's Instagram story - 30/3

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ngl all this talk about a 1d reunion having been in the works prior to liam's passing is making me want to throw up. my heart does not want to believe that bc that would add another fucked up layer in whats been one of the worst periods of my life. losing liam in 2024 has eviscerated my heart. but the added thought that we might've gotten our 1d back in 2025 had things just gone to plan is breathtakingly devastating. it would quite fucking literally break me to the point of no return. the what ifs. i would probably never mend again. not that i feel like i ever would after oct 16 but this?? oh boy.

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reblog with where you think the boys will be right now if 1d never went on a hiatus (aka if they were protected from the start). i wanna see something

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made a lil thing

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https://www.instagram.com/reel/DC9WIlzuV2w/?igsh=MWw0NTRxYWV6eDBydg==

THEY WERE SO WILD?????? I CANNOT 😭😭

Hahahha! I really miss those days.

x

In case it's not clear in that video... it's SUPER clear here.

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Do you remember when there were daffodils in the Harry’s house trailer video? There was even a frame where we saw daffodils but if you played the video they weren’t there. What was that?? Anyways I just remember that and that they’re Lou’s favorite flowers so now I’m 🥺

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“i’m staying silent on this.”

the face i stayed silent with:

@todayisdeadinside

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does it ever drive you crazy

just how fast the night changes