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I'm working on "Blood & Bats" and that includes surnames and characters races and Ethnical backgrounds.
Send me your Race & Ethnicity hcs as well as surname ideas for the MD characters please? (This includes side characters like Uzis class & Ron!! Please send those!!!)
Disclaimer: the story doesn't take place on earth. The generation of the parents & grandparents are moved to Copper-9 due to overpopulation. In this AU C-9 never had an exploded core and is still inhabited by organic life. This is for their families backgrounds from when they moved from earth & to add some details like cultural foods in the narrative
So far in the AU I settled on the following;
Doorman Family:
Uzi - Blasian (see parents for specifics, you can't talk me out of making her Blasian bc I love that common hc)
Nori - Filipino, Japanese
Khan - Black or Blasian, undecided (The name Khan is a Turko-Mongol surname [apparently not commonly used as first name], so I might have Turkish and/or Mongolian in there. But it's also commonly found in India, Pakistan, Afghanistan, Bangladesh, and Iran. So I'm unsure what to go for)
Dolls Family stays Russian, needs a Surname
Elliott family:
Tessa, James & Louisa stay Australian
N & Cyn - British
V - Dutch
J - mixed, undecided
Teacher-Family (need Surname):
Thad - Filipino (Teachers Step Son)
Ron - Filipino (Thads maternal uncle)
Lizzy - either fully Filipino or mixed (Thad's half sister)
Teacher - either Filipino or smth else
???, deceased (Thad & Lizzys mom) - Filipino
Need help for pretty much anyone else and anything I listed needing help with here.
#blood & bats#blood & bats au#human au#vampire au#murder drones#md#uzi doorman#khan doorman#serial Designation J#Lizzy md#teacher md#Ron md#sam md#Rebecca md#emily md#darren md#braiden md#doll md#yeva md#doll's dad md#idk if im forgetting anyone#im only tagging who i can think of needing help for#not too bothered by J N V & Cyn birth surnames but#if you want to suggest those go ahead ig#headcanons#send me your headcanons
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shep. i finished xisuma's s8. i am plagued with so many thoughts /silly
Oh my gognfjgmgimfggfmgnmfdnffgh it’s. It’s so much. I have so much to say and so many thoughts they make me so crazy. They make me so crazy THEY MAKE ME SO CRAZY IS THIS THING ON CAN ANYONE HEAR ME
#hermitcraft#ask#artsy-book#hermitcraft season 8#xisumavoid#xisuma#evil x#not tagging this dbhc bc im talking about canon xisuma#not to say there aren’t theme overlaps but#yeah#the way I could write an essay about Xisuma’s mental state at the end of the season. what it must be like#to slowly come out of that state of being literally manipulated and controlled… to slowly like. gain consciousness again only to find#that the moon has gotten so big that it’s like. too late to do anything.#that he had been so distracted and busy with making the evil empire as profitable and helpful to the hermits as possible#that he just… hadn’t noticed#or been manipulated to believe it wasn’t a bug deal#big deal#or that it was just a rumor#and now it’s too late#but also… the moon is the REASON he’s free from EX’s control#isn’t it.#so… isn’t there a part of him that kind of NEEDS the moon to get closer?#so he can be free?#not that I think Xisuma ignoring the moon was an entirely conscious choice#anyway I’m fine about xisuma finally being free only to realize hermitcraft (and his hermits) are doomed#could he have done anything to stop it had he known about it earlier? who knows#I’m sure xisuma will say for a long time that he could have#but he didn’t in the end#and it wasn’t really his fault but i’m sure he’ll say it was#I need to stop talking before I’m dragged away
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HWAT DO YOU MEAN THREE ENTIRE MILGRAM CHARACTERS ARE DEAD AND IN THE GROUND??? HELLO???? IT ISN'T EVEN SEASON THREE??????
AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU AMANE WHEN I GET YOU
#milgram#im gonna be fr idgaf about haruka#but SHIDOU???? MAHIRU???? THEY DID NOTTTT DESERVE THIS#AMAN IDGAF IF YOU'RE A LITERAL CHILD YOU SHOULD BE BEHIND BARS !!!!!!#THIS IS NOT OK!!!!!!!!!!#well at least i know yuno and kazui are alive and well! my blorbos <3#i know their ass is leaving with three innocent wins !! they should NOT be on the same level as the rest of the prisoners in there#the crimes being the right to choose and homosexuality...... like damn bitch sure#let's throw you in with brainwashed cult child organ harvester manipulative bully and self-proclaimed vigilante#yuno is fully guiltless idgaf she just needs to get through her skull that what she did was a REASONABLE CHOICE for someone her age#kazui should probably not have lied but given the stigma and everything.#trusting someone with your deepest secret only for them to kill themselves over it like let's be real!!!#ms girl could've done literally ANYTHING ELSE !!! 'oh but she just found out her marriage was a sham' DIVORCE?? LISTENING AND COMMUNICATION#but nooo her first choice is LEAPING from her BALCONY like so dramatic for what!!#and i ranted again. anyways who gaf my post my tags my rules#edit tags below#ok so obviously nothing is confirmed. amane might not have been it she might've had help whatever#i still think this is not an environment in which she can heal. sorry. get her OUT and into therapy STAT#here she's only causing a slew of unnecessary problems! let the nine year old LEAVE and get PSYCHOLOGICAL HELP!!#amane is here just for the shock value and the infighting she causes bc nobody in their right mind would put her ass in here#that being said#AMANE WHEN I GET YOU WHEN I GET YOU AMANE
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new game, new wizard!
#my art#wrath of the jo#my ocs#<- yep. that's the tag for now. need come up smth better#described in alt text#he's got a +8 mobility (lvl2) so im probably going to have him multiclass as smth that actually uses that.#he's from the school of illusion to keep with the kistune theme. also a scholar?#originally had him worship nethys but changed it to shelyn instead. only 5h in but i love him <3#i like to think he behave completely differently depending which form he's in#a goofy ass fox that does whatever he feels like. super noisy vs prettiest guy alive who's a bit vain and shy#and who “accidentally” lose his handkerchief right next to your hand.#i know nothing of the game except you can become a lich among other things and thats so cool. i gasped five minutes into actually playing#cause im easy like that. also deskari looks so good i was in awe tbh. mightve helped with the gasp when redacted happened#'OH THIS GUY LOOKS GOOD GOOD 👀 and they're going to fig- *GASP*'#basically
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girl i had huge crush on in school who was a very good friend to me she's so smart and wonderful and kind just told me she's proud of me for inquiring about a breast reduction i literally started crying what the absolute fuck I'm so gay and so deprived of love in my daily life what the fuck kck .?? HELLO??
#yknow when your whole body freezes bc youre struck with the realization people SEE you and CARE about you#my fightflightFREEZE kicked in so hard all i could do was cry and pretend to act chill texting back sowkwowkwl#at one point i thought abt going through gender affirming means for a reduction (vs plastic surgery) but THATS ILLEGAL NOW <33333#😃😃😃😃😃😃😃#THIS IS WHERE I VENT NOW OK PLEASE BLOCK THE NOT TS TAG LMFAO#not ts#me @ myself: girl this is not the time or place#also me: IAOAKQKW 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🫨🫨🫨😭😭😭‼️‼️😭😭🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🫨🫨⁉️⁉️#like I'm proud of myself too :)#i wish I'd done it sooner like everyone told me to. like this has been a reality for me since i was 12 or 13#when ppl talk about me they always mention my boobs. family friends teachers peers#at a funeral for a loved one when im 13 and an elderly relative brings up breast reduction surgery#but i was so scared (i have a surgery phobia and also extreme control issues when it comes to my body/safety) that i put it off#and now i am forced to be stagnant or else i cripple myself. which is a life i dont want to live#i dont want to lie in the floor unable to move bc my sciatic nerve is crushed btwn vertebrae.#crying hysterically bc i think ive paralyzed myself and there's no one to help me#being unable to dance or play volleyball or lift weights again.#i want to run :( for the first time since i was 8 i want to be able to run..#and that's just medical stuff. chronic pain stuff#that's not delving into gender identity or how this has destroyed my mental health in 7 billion ways since puberty#turning 25 this is the 1st time i feel like an adult and a Person. & i realize i need to accommodate myself & my own happiness#if i want to enjoy the life i have.#like i cant keep procrastinating my life#for a long time i've been like “my life just feels like procrastinating suicide” & that's very true. & i dont want to live that way anymore.#it's time i do things for myself. because i'm the only one who can. i can't live for other ppl anymore. it's destroying me.#this went off the rails sorry#i just wanted to make a quirky post abt the gay experience but it's much deeper than that and#i wont un-deep my thoughts and feelings for an internet post :) i am real & messy & multifaceted and#i seek for others to See me :)
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I don’t really talk about it much on here because I’m extremely lucky to be able to understand exactly what’s going on in my body, but it’s scary to live for years as someone who Gets Things Done in a way your peers don’t really understand, be putting effort into so many things you care about, and then suddenly lose the ability to do not only that but also basic tasks overnight after a deadline, and bit by bit after many. it’s scary getting really irritable sometimes to the point of violence, just when you were meant to be celebrating the rewards from your hard work, the only impact of the work you did that you can see is that you overdrafted your ability to do anything. including have a basic conversation without getting grumpy or crying. and your body is going to make you pay it back with interest, you already know that, but you don’t know how to start filling yourself back up. you’ve only ever enjoyed being on the grind, hard at work on exciting things.
I don’t know how many of you have been through the kind of burnout that’s years of needing 12hrs of sleep a night but with terrible insomnia, waking up to what feels like a hangover for weeks on end with little relief then rinse and repeat without having a single drink, feeling too sick to eat and needing to exercise to emotionally regulate but being unable to, anxiety that doesn’t come from worry but you’ll pick that up too at some point, dissociating every time you try to do mentally taxing tasks that you’re PAID for so it takes an hour of grounding yourself just to get five minutes worth of productive concentration, falling asleep the minute you feel a little safe by being in the presence of loved ones. but I suspect I’m not the only one.
I’ve had songs for the energetic and angsty times leading up to this. for the exasperated times and the brain fog and the times where all my limited energy is tied up in feeling things. that I need to, need to acknowledge, but it’s overwhelming and I live in a haze for weeks as a result of. songs telling of the kind of youth I wish I had, even when I was sold something else. songs for the months spent as a teenager trying to be there for my friends, worrying for them, distracting me from worrying for myself, trying to cling on to positivity and hope amongst it when I had to choose to make a discipline of always seeing that. I’ve had songs for healing and when healing is harder than expected and songs that have the right level of musical complexity to capture the layers of everything that’s happening in my head, making it sound good, telling me it’s gonna be okay.
I don’t know how I could ever say thank you for this. but I do know that I see parts of myself in the people behind these songs, of course I do, and I worry for them as a result and ache for them because it’s hard enough to feel this way when no one knows me or feels the need to control me or mould me into what they think I should be. I’d do anything to keep them all healthy and happy and all of their loved ones too and I don’t think it’s strange as a fan to take that seriously. I hope we can understand the need to treat them gently, and to while not questioning their privacy and the fact that they’re never going to tell us everything they go through, listen to our intuition when we catch something we relate to and treat what they’ve shared with us or hinted at with the dignity we would if someone we love told us something vulnerable. be kind in our expectations and be intentional in the fan culture we create because it does make its way back to them.
and the same goes with all of you. we’re bonding over the same things. I know a lot of this fandom is in the stage where interpersonal relationships are hard. we don’t mean to be grumpy of frustrated but we are. and I’m sending love to all of you. we can get through this together. it’s what they’ve always longed for isn’t it?
#thoughts after how worried I’ve been recently. since june I think#I’d love to start a conversation in this fandom about the connection im newly discovering between burnout and mental illness and fatigue#in a way we can be positive about these things and be there for each other without calling anyone to confirm if we interpret some songs#to represent experiences that may or may not be theirs because it doesn’t matter in the end. we have these songs and if you get it you get#we’ve all been clocked as ‘not feeling very well’ recently anyway so. it doesn’t need to be specific. but we do need to be kind#like hey. artist. I don’t know exactly what you’re going through to have written these songs that mean this to me. but I’m here for you#fill in the blanks. all we’ve got are our stories to share. I hope mine helps us understand and be a little kinder to those who need it#without thinking we can judge who we think needs it. but rather default to kindness and in the case of musicians etc that means patience#it means we learn together. what it means to connect and have boundaries and the boundaries they might like to have#anyway I’ve not said who these songs are by so if you reblog and wanna tag another artist that’s g I’ve got a few by several others as well#but I know this fandom. I know this band and I know exactly why I worry for each band member though I’m not gonna say here. just. take care#5 seconds of summer#5sos#luke hemmings#ashton irwin#calum hood#michael clifford#exact experience of burnout I have talked about is that of someone with adhd and a pda profile and some form of bipolar#which may be a product of pda profile things or not. these aren’t the only diagnoses I’d likely fit but they are the ones that explain the#story and have guided me to understand how to recover and I’m doing that bit by bit. and if you want me to tell you how please ask#but I’m not advertising it cause that’s weird I’d sound like a scammer if I did. even if when I’m hypomanic I think I can heal everyone
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a friend who'd wait :)
#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol#finn's ocs#finn's art#i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me#and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun#i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past#he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it#he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned#which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them#they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore#but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird#and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place#though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library#and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together#since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door#eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement#barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate#but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd#he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself#but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov#sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3#but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh
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procastinating at work but here's my philosophy for today: it's okay to hate a behavior in someone else but also understand that this behavior does not make them a bad person. like i HATE when i'm venting or talking about a serious problem i have and then the person i'm talking to starts trying to relate by talking about a similar experience they've had. like absolutely hate it. make me feel like the focus is being taken off me and it genuinely is in some ways, regardless of your intent. yeah, i understand that's your way of trying to comfort me -- but that's not the way i need or want to be comforted, and that's what matters in a situation where i'm coming to you to be helped.
and that's okay! like. no one is in the wrong here unless i have explicitly asked you to support me in a different way and you're intentionally refusing, or if i lash out at you when i could just disengage. it just means you're not a person i should go to for help when talking about my problems. we can still be friends, you and i can probably support each other in different ways, but we're just incompatible in this regard. and that's like....okay. it's okay to be incompatible with people.
#i need to stop going on instagram sooooo many hot takes on there piss me the fuck off#ok going on a rant here but like.#soooo many 'neurodivergent' posters on there are like 'neurotypicals suck bc they dont realize im being comforting when i talk abt myself#when they're upset!!!' and its like my friend i can understand your plight but like#1. this is an easily changable behavior#that tbh does not require much change on your part aside from just like. not talking.#2. the so-called neurotypicals in ur life are allowed to have boundaries and accomodations to their needs and ur currently not doing that#3. not every neurodivergent person does that. and some also hate it like the so called neurotypicals.#4. why are you prioritizing your emotions when a loved one comes to you for help or comfort. are u just a dick.#this has nothing to do with you being neurodivergent i think you're just self centered lol#like genuinely if you do this you are not a bad person. it's not a bad thing. i thinnk im just mad at the people who insist#that it's the only way they can ever try to comfort someone and they act like asking them to change this behavior is ableist#and if they genuinely can't change this behavior then fine!! like they i wont go to you with my problems#and that's also fine#but yeah anyways these tags are so different from the message of the post lol but anyways just needed to rant
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i could draw anything but i decided to draw this. carlo and rocco in 1932 aka my headache
#^ this isnt real ofc but its what happening inside their heads (well in carlo's at least)#mfs when their old friend doesn't break under manipulation#“Lift up the receiver I'll make you a believer” punching the wall with fist#rocco was the underboss not eddie can u hear me!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO!!!!!!!!! (capo henry situation in terms of complexity)#no m2 did smth to my brain and now im incapable of writing normal relationship between people#anyway. things that makes sense only to me rn unfortunately:#“AND YET ALAS I WELCOME YOU KNOWING ABOUT YOU” its carlo @ rocco but works both ways i think. RAHHHHHHHHH#YET YOU THINK WE'RE THE SAME RAHHHHHHHHH#youre not who u are to anyone these days im not who i am to anyone no not me at all these days not at all RAHHHHHHHHH#carlo who was afraid of rocco (for a reason) when he started to run the family rahhhhhhhhh#“That son of a bitch!.. I fuckin’ knew it!” <-watch me put a lot more meaning into a phrase that shouldn't make so much sense#2kczech need to pay me for developing rocco's character btw if u even care . and for writing this fucking falcone family backstory#“Холодный и острый осколок гранита; Смерть Голиафа в руке Давида”#<- “A cold and sharp shard of granite; Goliath's death in David's hand”#i've listened to this song too much it became certifed rocco song to me#let's say rocco helped carlo a lot w preparing moretti family for a new don. just bc i don't think it was this simple#“your capo killed your don lets all pretend that its cool and normal and it doesn't matter that he ran the family for 23 years😋😘”#avart#m2#i wont tag this w fandom tags dear god this shit is so delusional#dear god rocco been a gap and a blank spot in this story for so long but now i genuinely like him#tho i'm still not done with his character yet but there's enough for me to like him#sorry. not normal bout them. not at all .#rocco & carlo
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i love seeing how much paratext i can fit into the tags. read my footnotes boy
#violet originals#postposting#like that's its own statement right#and then i come down here and tell u everything i was thinking about it#like i just made a post where i put some non organization tags on it for fun as a fun reference#but also it helps clarify the original statement in a less committal jokey way i can have a little fun with#so i start thinking about all that and i get the hilarious original idea for this post and i think abt those tags#but it's only available to those first people who see my original post as it was made#not reblogged#someone can screenshot those tags but they aren't necessary to understand#but they don't add to the post itself just elaboration that isn't really needed#and they aren't all visible at first bc u have to hit the button to see the rest#so my extra little thoughts are there for anyone to see but ull probably wanna see them more if u know me a little through online#but mostly i thought it'd be funny to make this kind of post and then just let the tags run wild bc that's what the post is about see?#do u like all this extra clarification or would u rather i have just posted the post#or nothing at all#or put these tags in the post#bc that could make sense but the original text of the post is to be shared around and 'related to' by other Tumblr users who do the same#so it can't be too long but i need to say all my thoughts about the subject or ill explode and make another post or reblog a comment#so it's all down here instead where it's optional and i can just kinda say what im feeling without feeling like i have to funny it up#i should probably read house of leaves#idk is that related i only have a tiny idea of what that book is but it seems related somewhat#umm#hi :3#kisses u with tongue#adds tags to this later bc im silly :3#hi char hi io#the two people who will probably read this far now lmao
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being in fandoms where the ship names are derivative of character traits put together is so fucking confusing. Yallre playing little alchemy with the fucking ship names and it's confusing!!!!!! just mush the names together like normal people and be done with it!!!!!!!!!!
#what yhe hell is freenoodles. who are you talking about. techno??? like the mcyt????? what????? what??!??!?!?!?!?! since when was technoblad#in lego ninjago like really. i know this fandom has been here since like 2014 but jesus fucking christ yall#like some of them make sense. right. like lava for cole and kai. makes sense. rock guy and fire guy. lava. BBUT TECHNO?!?!?!?#/j on the last sentence i think its cute how fandoms have their own niches for their ship names BUT OH MYY GODDDDDDD ITS CONFUSING#its worse with ninjago bcs u have things like lava. WHICH MAKES SENSE BTW. and then you have things like bruise and techno. BUT THEN YOU HAV#JAYA. JUST JAYA. WHICH IS NORMAL SHIPPING CONVENTIOND IM SO FUCKING DONE WITH THESE LEGOS GODDAMMIT#AAHADGIEYWSVSJSFSJWVWGSKAHXNEVWHSUZV#like. can we please decide what the hell we're doing here. can i please get a four page (min) essay and why the fuck yall do this#cause it doesnt make sense. do we only do the basic ship name thingy for m/f ships? bcs its like that w llorumi too????#like genuinely? i just wanna know. i do think its interesting and cute. but it also makes my time navigating these tumblr tags a living hell#anyways. this is about lmk and lego ninjago . god. i need help
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you know what i think i need? for zwg motivation? i need an Empassioned Discussion about some aspect of The 45 Years. i need someone who is passionate and excited about the timeloop that Sigma gets trapped in—that he traps himself in, and honestly, isn’t the whole thing a fucking bootstrap paradox?—i need someone who is excited about the three years he spends with Diana and how that’s apparently impactful enough that he builds a gynoid in her image and then programs her to love him? SigDi is bad and so are its consequences and implications, the only good thing that comes out of SigDi is Luna, who is Best Girl.
but like. i need to talk to someone about those 45 years. i need an outside opinion on the decades Sigma spends in total isolation, his only point of contact being Akane, who is Very Busy with earthbound Brother stuff and also maybe stalking Junpei? was that hc of mine based in any sort of fact or do i just like writing the most toxic junepei possible
i wanna talk to someone about some fuckin logistics. like, CLEARLY Sigma learned Biomed first in the three years he has with Diana, but what comes after that? does he start studying terraforming and agriculture so he can make a garden so beautiful Diana could enjoy it from the afterlife? does ztd show us that Diana is similarly enthralled with plant life as Luna? is Luna’s love for the B Garden organic or a result of how Sigma thinks Diana would react to his efforts?
YOU KNOW WHAT
SPEAKING OF LUNA
I Need To Talk To Someone About How Luna Is Diana-Model-Number-Sixteen.
i’m still reeling from that realization and i DMed Miss Beta with this exact same thought
uh. checking. — on July Eleventh.
and i am STILL REELING. a MONTH AND A HALF LATER.
so yeah, i’m a Vibes Vampire, i feed off of other people’s excitement and use that to fuel my imagination and thus my motivation for creative pieces.
i need to feed off of someone’s love for vlr. i need a Sigma Enjoyer.
#zero escape#virtue’s last reward#vlr spoilers#sigma klim#sigma zero escape#sigma vlr#sigma ztd#luna vlr#diana ztd#diana vlr#diana vlr is not a tag but i only care about ztd diana peripherally#kay rambles#you know what else i need? sleep.#guess who’s been suffering from pill-related anxiety! guess who has terrible insomnia that can only be helped through pills!#i’ll give you a hint: it’s the same person#i think my body is beginning to adapt to my tendency to stay awake for 50+ hours at a time#which is. not good.#you know what i really need? someone to hold me to help me sleep#oh no. we’re entering the ‘fuck im so lonely’ portion of the insomnia attack.#weh.
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Was in the shower thinking bout jokid and their cute lil theater antics and going: Haha, Kaito is prince coded and Akiren is knight coded-- And then getting hit with the realization that the majority of pairings I like all has a flavour of "one that is loyal and devoted to the other," with a sprinkle of "royalty flair x unwavering knightly trust."
#aria rants#i have alec and ray... alec thats So loyal and trusting to ray that no matter what happens he'd always choose him#I HAVE CAIOWE!!! caiowe is literally That. its literally all i ever like and didnt know i needed#ofc theres jokid and oooohhhmygood theres jokid. akiren being protective of kaito ououoyoghhghjg#and im slowly getting pulled into SIFLOOP!!! but gooood... sifloop aint even a royalty/knight#its a royalty/jester dynamic and loop is the jester and do you-- even know-- what enters my mind#when i think of a jester falling for royalty? its the manwha tears of a jester that i still need to read#and in that manwha-- filled with nothing but pain and angst-- the jester couldnt even get tgt with the princess#cuz of the VASTLY different worlds theyre in. he isnt even a knight that could be somewhat relevant#to the whole of the kingdom. no. hes just a jester. and like-- i can apply that to sifloop...#vibrates in place with the power of a thousand suns... loop that isnt relevant in the Whole of isat#loop who could only watch on a siff continues to have eyes for another-- loop who isnt a part of the ''family''#and is just a stranger who's helping siff with the timeloops-- unrequited love with sifloop#im not one for unrequited love rlly but goooood its somehow so good with sifloop???#wai i couldve worded that other tag better. cant edit it so anyway like yea loop IS relevant#as one that helps siff and everything but in their eyes. they dont think they actually are#not when siff's entire attention is towards the family members. theyre so important yet not at the same time
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ok read all of the tags before coming at me
#i just wanted to talk in the tags#but like part of me hates that theres so much positivity for cluster b disorders#no no no hear me out#like i dont have empathy and im better than everybody because of it like i dont give a fuck if im “still a good person”#like no bitch im the best at being the worst and everybody should hate me because im better at being worse than they are#anyways i think i have npd#also all the positivity helps me sometimes like when i feel like im destined to be nothing but a shit person#but rn i am better than everybody else and if you agree with that then im hoing to tell you to gtfo#cuz i have to be the only one who is right in thinking im the best#and if you tell me im not better than everybody that will just fuel my ego because that proves that im right and youre wrong#i should not be allowed in public lmao#usually its not this extreme but like im a little fucked up rn#i keep trying to save people who dont think they need to be saved and it makes me angry as shit#like IK hes 28 and can handle shit himself but i need to fucking save him because he wont help himself damnit#if you want things done right you have to do them yourself#and so ill march my ass all the way ovwr thwre and save him myself#i wanna go tf to bed now#anyways i am on a damn high rn just from my own ego and i love it <3#anyways imma go to bed now#good night queers and peers
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Unfortunately I don't play Genshin anymore due to storage problems BUT IM ALSO A WANDERER MAIN LMAO AND OMFG THANK YOY VERY MUCH FOR THE COMPLIMENT COMING FROM SOMEONE WHO'S ONE OF MY FAV AUTHORS AND YES FARUZAN SUPREMACY AAAAAAAAAAA ILY SM<333
I'm literally going crazy bc you replied to my crazed fan ask HAHAHAHAHA
\(//∇//)\ i am definitely not responding late!! i perceive time like a normal human would.. and that’s so crazy!! ♡
i have loved wanderer since maybe my first time hearing his existence?? i’m not a day-one-er but quite close! so glad he did not get signora’d. if you play on mobile you can try deleting the app and redownloading because the clear old files option doesn’t actually clear everything, and sometimes a redownload may be able to fit within your storage! i absolutely adore faruzan though!! peak character design even if she is genshin’s hatsune miku, not complaining though i think her glass looking dress-skirt is amazing. (*´∀`)♪
i’m happy to be able to talk and respond to people!! getting asks just talking to me or people sending things like how they think my writing style is pretty makes me super happy!! so i’m equally as fanboy-ing when you and others talk to me!! ╰(*´︶`*)╯
#you can ignore the tags they are just random thoughts but there’s also like a responsible crewel brainrot at the bottom!!#i seriously cannot respond in a mandated time because my concept of time is warped?? what do you mean 2015 was 8 years ago what do you mean#also does not help i get so distracted with my own fic like legs twiddling thinking of my yuu that no one will see with his dorm and their#lore that i need to write down but then i get distracted trying to draw my characters and oh dear where did time go#im normal about my characters (fake) but everyone probably has that one oc they have like a story kit on the ready to drop on friends#another genshin rant but i got thundering pulse!! so far no weapon banner loss- 1 lost 50/50 but to tighnari so no loss#considering he would be hardest to get on a bows only acc with no guarantee on ever having the boy#i actually barely started the event because i did not feel like getting to inazuma legit. would rather speed run or glitch to inazuma#but now my yoimiya banner is like 20 pity at least but now that’s also a problem because?? i want her c1 actually but need to save stop bad#i also get distracted by fun ideas!! like father figure crewel or a reader that is like his unofficial assistant please let me brainrot for#the class. so reader is not in a club unlike grim who canonically is one but in this fic reader is crewels unofficial student assistant and#helps him at his club bc iirc he’s the science club advisor and they spend time after school grading exam papers with#him and he has cookies and talks to you for hours and you can come early to clean the classroom and can just rant about the boys or rmshckle#he basically is the one you go to because crowley will not do anything!!#in my universe (ehe) my yuu and his dormmate crewels nephew have a uniform designed by nephew+crewel so id like to think in this brainrot#that crewel gifted you a uniform he designed. also ALSO!! he makes sure you eat#and that you are not bullied. he also took it upon himself to give you challenging material so he can prepare you to live within a foreign#environment. considering how you are almost not guaranteed to do so well on your own so he teaches you things not school related like basic#sew life skills or tidbits he knows from being an adult that’s all#questions of styx.
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my supervisor texted me back! but now im a bartender..
#LMFAOOOO I DONT KNOW HOW TO MAKE DRINKS!#so. heres hoping we're dead or at least Not Slammed bc im Scared!!!!#at least she finally got back w me. ig shes had a helluva time getting to [redacted] but like.. now what 😭😭#and its me and one (ONE) other kid tonight. literal child hes still in hs i think#so legally im the only one who can bartend 😭😭 at least tmrw we'll have another kid to help serve but like.. im so scared bri#and like. its literally my third day. hopefully nobody new comes in and its all regulars bc i cannot be the face of the company tonight :))#talk tag#its been like 20 min and she hasnt responded to my Yes I Need Instructions text.. girl 😭😭😭😭
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