#im not gonna stop being anxious about it
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Look at this and tell me this isnt absolutely exhilarating.
My babies are growing up!
#espy talks#its so satisfying#cause you check on something every day and make sure its ok#pluck weeds out and give it fertilizer#and its months and months and then out of nowhere#this thing you put into the ground as a seed#is now a full grown tomato plant#and i just. really enjoy having practical things that i made#i still use my crochet blanket inmade years ago#i enjoy cooking cause i like seeing other people enjoy what i make and i love trying new things#the time i spend doing all this is worth it cause all my passion comes back though by the end of it#and also its been making the quick passage of time at least feel a bit productive#im not gonna stop being anxious about it#but at least it gives me green beans as it rushes by#espy gardens
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i literally need there to stop being situations circumstances events developments complications and happenstances. for the fucking love of god
#purrs#but there will never stop being any of those things so actually what i literally need is to learn HARD AND FAST how to stop getting so#fucking triggered over a situation i know is NOTHING so bad that im anxious for the entire rest of the day and can’t even get any work done.#like (jade from tesco voice) girls… im not gonna lie to you. i think therapy is not working. i think i am not mentally or emotionally strong#enough to work in this job and i think i am never going to get mentally or emotionally stronger. ive been stuck in the quicksand too long#and now im atrophying. i cannot develop the situational awareness and motor skills or awakeness (and i mean AWAKEness.) to safely and#consistently drive a car. i cannot develop the intellect and drive and courage to get an advanced degree or be in a leadership position that#everyone actually sees as a leadership position lmfao. and i cannot develop the emotional intelligence and inner peace to not get triggered#out of my fucking mind at work to the point where im having anxiety heart palpitations and fighting back tears. i am just stuck as i am#forever. and you know how i know that? BECAUSE IVE WORKED AT THE NATIONALLY RENOWNED CENTER FOR YOU-ARE-NOT-STUCK-AS-YOU-ARE-FOREVER FOR#FIVE FUCKING YEARS SINCE ITS LITERAL FOUNDING AND HELPED TO FOUND IT AND IM STILL LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! i go back to square one EVERY#FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!! how am i supposed to tell other people who they are is what they bring and the world can change and whatever when i am#the fucking antithesis of that. when i don’t even believe my own words. like the way i want to punch out every window in this building rn i#HATE BEING LIKe this i hate being in the psychic prison of scared little girl mode all the time forever no matter what and being beyond help#and disappointing and burdening the people around me because i can’t be fucking normal about like. hierarchy and institutional politics LOL#delete later
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once again i have experienced medical malpractice at the hands of a male doctor 😔
#girl im sorry for reverse sexism or whatever but i have chronic pain and a bunch of shit and ive seen a lot of doctors#i dont know why every single male doctor ive had lacks empathy to a dangerous degree and is a power-abusing narcissist but here we are#i had to go to one for chest pain bc my usual GP was out and he fucking scolded me about my medication; unprescribed half my pain meds#ignored all my medical history and sign-offs and told me to basically 'stop being anxious' LMAO#then refused a nurse for a physical and didn't let me have my blood pressure/blood work checked even though its required bc of my meds#and listen i started like crying in his office bc i was so caught off guard and overwhelmed#and he was like 'this is what you NEED to remember your counseling for' like AHHHHHH#anyway going back to my actual GP in two weeks and its hard but im gonna put in complaint bc i WONT be fucked over by malpractice ever agai#like him cutting off half of my active meds (for no reason) the way he did would 100% put me into withdrawal like HUHH???!? AHHH
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i'm just gonna say it. on the app that could reasonably be called Misinformation: The Website, where you have no good reason to believe almost anything that anyone says, where people are known to play genuine fucked up long cons where they go so far as to fake a disability, or stage scenes of verbal/emotional abuse with their partners, or make some other incredibly serious claim only to eventually come out and admit that they lied or faked it to be *interesting* or whatever... i think it's wise to take the anecdote of a single random person with a grain of salt
#if it was in any other format on any other website yknow#but it's just not even framed like an 'i'm coming out to talk about this' type video#tiktok is genuinely a platform of ANY attention being good attention to the point that 'always believe victims'. as awful as it seems#has to stop applying. because ppl fr make the most heinouse lies on there and are PROVEN to have lied#like there simply has to be a layer of suspicion here cmon. i'm worried and anxious too but i'm not gonna take one video as FACT#i'm frankly shocked that the masses are doing just that rather than just saying 'wtf i hope this isn't true'#if there's some other stuff beyond the one video that i just haven't seen yeah please send it to me i guess#but if it really is just the one video i really don't understand why this is happening#ntm how vague the story even is?#its literally 'he wanted to have sex and i said no and i heard he had sex with someone from my hs'#no names no reciepts no anything except proof that they did meet#theres plausible deniability of her even corroborating the story that anything happened to anyone else#bc she didnt even say that she heard FROM the other girl herself or anything#literally all this is rn is a story from someone who wanted to say that nick isnt babygirl#like sorry but im gonna need to hear a bit more before i do anytbing drastic
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#honestly i really... really... REALLY... just wanna beat my dumb perfectionism and intrusive thoughts...#in the next few fucking days im gonna be posting art idk if i think it's horrible but all i care is that i finished them#bc im sick and tired of being anxious about not getting anything done and at the same time anxious at getting SOMETHING done#it's so fucking dumb i wish i could rewire my brain in an instant#ohhhh but it's gotta be a process ooohhh and the process is gonna be painfully gradual and tedious but i have to#if i want to be happy then i should stop being a fucking wuss about everything and just GO!!#tw vent#wyn talks :)
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#ive been having a tough time lately#tonight is particularly bad cause the minute i stop feeding distractions to my brain i start feeling anxious and sad#which means I'm fucking up my sleep schedule and thats not gonna help#but i dont want to sleep because thwt mrans work in the morning and lately work has been a special shade of shit#no crunch or harassment but a special third thing#called im so bored out of my mind I want to scream and every minute lasts an jour#plus the guilt i feel because im not being productive in the way i want to be#its like reverse gaslighting where my coworkers tell me im doing good and being helpful#and my brain is like#okay but these tasks are stupid bullshit i had to drag myself to do in three times what i could have taken if i gave a fucj#and you being happy about my performance makes me lose any respect i have for you or this place hahahahahahahaha#tbd
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Tips for pricing your work, from someone who has no idea what they're doing:
You can look at what other people are charging to get an idea where to start off
Adjust the prices to something that feels reasonable for you but isn't undercharging (You deserve the money!)
Make sure you charge a percentage upfront so people can't run off without paying you
If I think of anything else I'll let you know
Thanks for the tips! I'll keep them in mind!
#once i figure it all out and stop being so anxious about it I'll start doing commissions#FOR REAL THIS TIME. I SWEAR#IM GONNA DO IT#asks#anon
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can't believe two and a half years ago I said to my mom "it's safe enough to transition in the US now so I think I'm going to go through with it" and now I might have to flee my state if we lose our democratic governor in 2024 i am eating my own words
#this is about kentucky this shit is moving way too fast and im getting scared#idk what to do at this point and im panicking bc they're not gonna stop with kids#i don't have the money to attend protests or donate to campaigns so I'm just anxious as shit#they shouldn't be going after kids to fucking start with idk what to do#i hate being disabled i feel so useless rn but idk I'm just gonna talk to my therapist about my options next week#see if i can find some kind of community to get involved in with Raleigh or something idk#nothing too terrible has happened here yet but the second roy cooper is gone i know they're coming for us this is so scary#transphobia cw#uspol
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oh yea i was also so late in leaving for my lab today that there was NO way i'd be biking in time. but i managed to catch the bus bc there was a spot for my bike so i got there on time after all <3
#speculation nation#highlight being that someone else with a bike was also catching the bus at my stop#and as i was trying to get my grip to lift my bike up this dude started putting his bike up#but like. in the front spot (since i was standing closer to the bus & gearing up to put mine on the inner spot)#and the driver legit honked at him & yelled like 'dont put your bike up before theirs! how are they supposed to get it on?!'#& the dude was properly chastised lmfao. & i just plopped my bike on up there.#i have a lot of anxiety about taking the bus with my bike bc of like. if it'll have room in the first place being a big one#but also im allergic to inconveniencing people. so me taking extra time to put my bike up and then to take it down when im getting off#it's Awful. i hate it. so i avoid riding the bus with my bike if i can help it.#but this time went pretty well actually. makes me feel maybe a Little less anxious about possibly doing it again.#i still dont wanna rely on it if i can help it bc if there r already two bikes on there then im FUCKED#but in an emergency. where im gonna be late Anyways. it's tolerable.#like lmao i usually am passed by the bus about halfway thru my biking commute to class.#but i was passing the stop right as the bus was coming up so i was like 'Whelp guess im doing this today'#the reason being. i was gaming in the morning as i ate breakfast and lost track of time a bit lsdkjflsdjf Whoops
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girls who are generally huge fucking flakes to the point where they genuinely do not have Any Idea how or why their friends still want to be friends at all
#im so stupidly fucking grateful that they DO want to be friends still because i love them so much theyre so so wonderful#but dear god if i do not give them Every Fucking Reason to get sick of my shit and drop me#im really really hoping it gets at least a little bit better once i have a car and can invite them out places or go other places#instead of inviting them over <- never knows what to do when people are at their house Ever she is a SHIT host#but also what if thats just an excuse and even once i do have a car im never going anywhere or doing anything with them??#this CANNOT last forever people are gonna get sick of it eventually its an actual miracle they havent yet#and im just. sitting here not changing anything about it always worrying and never DOING anything about it#its not even just offline!! even online its like i can hardly be bothered to actually do things with people sometimes its so.#girl who claims to care so much about people and then doesnt do a damn thing to actually show it ever#and wonders why shes constantly had people in her life tell her that they dont feel like she cares about them#god. need to talk to my therapist about The Food Thing too.#because the thought of changing anything about it is the single most TERRIFYING thing in my fucking life right now#but it stops me from doing So Much and it makes me So Miserable and So Anxious#and no matter how much i dont want to change it i NEED to change it#sorry for being A Downer ive been in a huge episode/relapse the past 5? 6? weeks and its really starting to fuck me up more than-#-it already was#alyalyoxenfree
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ice pick lobotomy me please
#i have spent the past 4 days in a private hell vortex#thinking that i had maybe(?) possibly(?) violated the terms of my immigration status#and was gonna watch my entire life crumble around me#and today i was finally able to visit the international center at my school to tell them about it#and their response was just. this is a non-issue and we don’t care. bye#and I’m STILL ANXIOUS ABOUT IT#no one looked me in the eye and say Hey You Are Completely Fine And Okay#so now my brain is going to continue to remain in survival mode and not let me rest#i have a meeting with my international advisor on Wednesday and I’m literally gonna ask her to do exactly that#just so that i can stop being scared#even though they already said i was fine#im so fucking tired#this is exhausting#this is the worst my anxiety has been in so long#like. for good reason#but still the reason has ENDED now they said i was FINE#why do i still feel like crying why am i still going over everything#over and over again trying to convince myself im safe
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consuming media your mutuals like is so scary bc what if im a misunderstander what if my mutuals think all my takes r wrong and cringe and im not even an understander of the media and im wrong about it thats so scary. what if im wrong abt man from the podcast . even worse what if being worried abt being wrong about man from the podcast means i dont let myself enjoy it and talk with people about it and ruins the whole thing for me bc thats what im more scared abt tbh . agh .
#AGGH !!! so stupidd i told myself i was gonna stop carring what toher people thinkkk#its so dumb bc okay. the issue is that this has happened before. getting into smth my friends/mutuals have liked but being so scared#of having the “wrong” take tht i never rly engaged in it outside of just saying whatthey think on it. not that i didnt often agree with the#but like i was scared to say i associated songs with characters bc i was like what if they think its cringe and a bad take onthe character#and like. idk that whole fear messed with the friendship i think and made it very hard for me to enjoy the interest#and even tho i tihnk it was like. idk resolved in a way where its def not a major enough factor in the friendship ending#but i do think like idk. a part of it that was bad (where ithink not to get into it but like. a lot of the time i was worried i wasnt good#enough for her and i thought it was bc of me being anxious bc its someone i rly cared abt but i think part of it was like.her maybe being#not the root root cause of those feelings but perpertuating them in a way i never had in other close friendships . maybe it was smth else#but i do think it was her in some major part. for reasons tht i dont wanna get into rn rly lol)#that i dont want in other friendships yk. like i wanna not be scared to be myslef around people just be myself and not care what they say#bc if they like me they like me if they dont they dont !! but its hard and im scared to care about what people think and be in that place#again of being so worried about it thinking my relationships with people depend on whether or not i say smth they agree with abt a made up#guy yk. and i honestly like. trust most ppl in friends with now to not give a shit i just still have the fear which is so stupidd uhh !!!#the solution is just to grow up and not give a shit. but thats hard. but im gonna try !!!#bc this is literalllyyyy ridiculous okayyy#flappy rambles
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truly nothing makes me feel as insane as family christmas
#first of all theres drama before i even get there#and as soon as i do get there we're playing hide and seek keeping one step-grandparent from the other that cant stand him#making awkward/anxious eye contact with my step-aunts partner as he avoids interacting with step-grandparent#immediately being overwhelmed by the horde of 6-10 y/os#and now lunch is a cheese board and god i love a cheese board but also it sets off my anxiety so bad#the ideal amount of people touching my food before i do is zero#and i cannot make myself eat something that the kids have had their paws all over#and also i just realised i left my fucking headphones at home#so now im in the kitchen on my own with a bunch of cheese i grabbed before everyone else realised the board was out#oh also the stress of trying not to start shit about my whole familys unhealthy relationship to alcohol#this is fine#also i cannot stop thinking about the fact that my friend kissed me and i was not expecting it and we're gonna meet up again tomorrow#anyway this is totally fine
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people are waking up to go to work and im just chilling on the couch still fully conscious oh no
#problem: if i sleep im almost definitely gonna have shit dreams#solution?????? apparently????: dont sleep and just think about the same shit id be dreaming about anyway but with an added dose of#sleep deprivation for flavor#i think i may need to stop going to family events for a while i cant keep doing this every time#i keep thinking oh i want to stay in touch with my cousins so ill go to events even when my dad will be there#and then i spend a solid two weeks getting progressively more anxious about going to the thing#while im there i have my standard masking and mormon filter both at full blast#which effectively nerfs my entire personality but whatever#and then spend five hours listening to half my relatives deadnaming me while i try to pretend my dad isnt in the room#the thing isnt even until friday and im already suffering#i think the highlight of my birthday might just be being able to sleep normally again once this shit is over with#who needs birthday parties i just need a nap#and maybe a weighted blanket or smth idk
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oh my god please make another part of gojo teaching us that was so good holy shit
Gojo teaches you how to touch him<3
Pt. 1 here
contains: fem reader, guided jerking off, experienced gojo, size kink if you squint, so much dirty talk, corruption kink, overstimulation, first time making out, gojo walks you through everything, cum eating
MDNI
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“Wanna learn how to touch a dick?” his question rang in your ears like a flash grenade had gone off. He was referring to himself right? You had to remind yourself how to breathe at how anxious his question made you. Touching yourself had made you embarrassed and self aware enough as it is, so touching someone else? The thought made you feel mortified.
Gojo must’ve picked up on your anxiousness because he used his big hands to rub comfortingly up and down your forearms, “Hey, if you’re not comfortable we can always stop here, you’ve already done so good.” He comforted.
Gojo might be unserious 99% of the time, but when it came to making you feel safe, he really nailed it. You came to the right person in asking for help with this kind of thing.
"N-no, I think I want to its just.. I dont know what im doing." You confess, even though he already knew. Gojo giggled, making the weight on your shoulders lift a bit at the sound, "Baby, I know, thats why Im gonna teach you, if you’ll let me." He smiles, leaning his body forward so you could see his face-- the visual of him smiling eased your nerves slightly.
"Right.. but what if I'm still not any good?" You say, shyly. "I almost came in my pants just watching you cum so.. I'm pretty sure you will do juuust fine." He confessed, making you huff out a laugh. "O-okay, what should I do?" You asked, turning your body so you were facing him, reaching over to grab your previously discarded panties while you waited for him to answer.
"The first thing you can do is forget about these," Gojo took your soaked panties from your hand, making you scoff as he twirled them around his finger before pocketing the fabric as quick as he snatched them, "The view of your little pussy is so cute, don't want these to get in the way of this eye candy." He praised, making you blush and look away from his intimidating gaze.
He brought his hand up to your face after pulling his hand out of his pocket-- caressing the side of your cheek comfortingly, "Come here." He instructed, sliding down on the headboard so he was propped comfortingly against the pillows, "On my lap," He adds when you hesitate to move twords him.
You situated yourself comfortably on his thighs, right under his crotch, you placed your hands on his lower stomach, staring at his intimidating bulge while you waited for his words to come. "You wanna start by touching it over his pants, just like you did for yourself." He instructs, speaking generally.
You picked your hands up from his stomach, hovering them a couple inches over his crotch before taking a deep breath and biting your lip. "How should I.. touch it?" you ask uncertainty laced in your words. "Wrap your hand around it the best you can and rub," He tells you, placing his hands on your thighs and rubbing his thumb on your skin for comfort.
You held your breath before you made contact with him, making him hiss air into his lungs through his teeth at the feeling of properly being touched after so much tension. You softly rubbed him up and down, gulping at how big he felt in your hand. "You can rub a little harder, it's not gonna break," He laughed, making you blush and whisper out a quiet 'sorry' as you briefly made eye contact with him, quickly averting your gaze back down to his crotch.
You gripped him through his pants, stroking him rougher now but still slowly, up and down. You took a peek at his face from under your lashes, watching him lick his lips and blink rapidly, his eyes focused on your hand at work on him.
"Yeah, yeah, just like that." He praised, keeping his eyes glued down between the two of you. You felt your face heat up when his cock jumped against your hand, it felt so hot even through his pants. The thought of seeing a real dick, unobstructed by fabric was making your head spin.
The man underneath you truly thought he would've came the second you touched him, it was a miracle from the heavens that he had managed to hold back and not bust in his pants at the first contact.
Your inexperience turned him on to no extent. He just loved the idea of corrupting you, showing you all of the amazing things you could feel, everything that you've been missing out on. He swore he would ruin you for anyone else—make you addicted to him so you never even thought about doing this with anyone else.
"D-does this feel good?" You ask genuinely, you had noticed his expressions and reactions to your touch—and they seemed like good ones—but you had no idea how someone was supposed to react when you touched them like this, hence why you asked for his confirmation.
"Feels better than you know." He grinned, his body running warmer the longer you stroked him over his pants. "It feels so big." You confessed, unaware of how your words went straight to his head and dick.
"Yeah?" his smirk grew as he felt his own ego inflate at your words, not like he needed that. "Yeah.." You meekly replied, "It keeps twitching too," you told him like he was unaware. "I know baby, means you're doing a good job." He praised once more, making you pull your bottom lip between your teeth.
"Wanna see it?" He asked after he deemed that you had been touching him outside his pants for an adequate amount of time. You swallowed hard, stilling your hand on his cock as it continued to jump under the weight of your palm. "Yes, please." You answered, sliding your hands up his shirt and feeling his hard abs before you slid them back down to hold onto the hem of his pants. "Should I take your boxers off too, or?" You question, hesitating.
He smiled at you, giving you a short nod. You grabbed his pants and boxers alike, beginning to pull them down his body— gojo lifted his hips up to aid your efforts, jaw dropping in an open-mouthed smile when his hard cock sprung up and slapped against his abdomen.
Your mouth opened in a small o shape, running dry at the sheer size of his now unobstructed cock. There was a string of pre that had already dropped down against his abdomen, connecting the two.
It looked as thick as it felt, a nice upwards curve to it, and the tip was flushed a pretty pink color. It was the prettiest and only dick you’d ever seen.
“You like what you see, cutie?” he teased, making his cock jump as you stared between the appendage and his penetrating gaze. “Fuck.. y-yeah.” you confessed, feeling yourself start to throb between your legs at the new visual.
“Go ahead an touch it, the same as you did before.” Gojo instructed. You slowly reached out, wrapping your hand around his length, noticing that your fingers couldn’t wrap all the way around his girth.
The man underneath you couldn’t resist as he thrusted his hips up into your hand, biting his lip at the direct contact. “Your hand is so fucking soft” He praised, “Go ahead and spit on it for me, it doesn’t feel very good when it’s dry.” he told you.
The gears in your head were still turning at what you were actually doing right now. Without saying anything, you leaned down a bit, collecting the saliva in your mouth before you spit right onto his cockhead, making him gasp.
You brought your hand to his tip, rubbing it around in circles before sliding your hand down the length of his cock and coating it in your spit, easing the slide. “Fuuuck, just like that, shit-“ Gojo cursed, tipping his head back against the pillows and squeezing his eyes shut.
“S-squeeze harder at the tip,” he instructed, remembering he was supposed to be teaching you, so staying silent and moaning probably wouldn’t do you much good. “T-the tip is more sensitive than the rest of the cock, so make sure to pay more attention to it.” he tells you.
“Is it kinda like the clit?” You ask, which makes him giggle before he responds, “Sorta..” he answeres, staring at the ceiling in thought before he continues, “Yeah actually, pretty similar, but if you spend too much time on just the tip it can get a little too sensitive.” He explains.
“Sensitive how?” you ask, continuing your slow but heavy strokes on his cock, using the knowledge he just told you in squeezing harder against his tip. “Why don’t I show you?” he says.
“Take one hand and keep stroking me just like you’re doing, with the other, lay your palm flat- yeah just like that- then curl your hand over the entirety of my tip, and rotate your wrist in circles.” Gojo instructed, digging his nails into your thighs prematurely as he braced himself for the intense overstimulating pleasure that was about to come.
“This won’t hurt you right?” you ask, getting your hands into place but keeping them still as you awaited his answer. “You’re so sweet~” he cooed, “I’ll stop you if it’s too much.”
With that, you started, quickly jerking the length of his cock while rotating your wrist over his dick in quick circles. Immediately his body started reacting, back arching and abs clenching uncontrollably as he bit his lip and dug his nails deeper into your skin to keep himself grounded.
“K- haaah- keep g-going-“ he moaned out, his legs jerking and twitching underneath you as you kept up your antics. “Fuck! f-fuck-“ The white haired man squeezed his eyes shut as his body spasmed without his permission.
Your cunt was throbbing at how you were able to bring a man as strong as Gojo to this state. “Ngh~” he was whining and moaning against the sheets, head thrashing back and forth as he tried to keep his voice down.
You never wanted this to end, you finally understood what he meant when he said he was worked up from just watching you play with yourself, as you felt your cunt clench, slick dripping down your leg from your tight hole.
His large hand came down to stop your wrist, panting heavily he spoke, “O-okay, okay- fuck, that’s enough.” He groaned when the pleasure quickly became too much. "S-sorry, are you okay?" you choked, once again making him smile at how sweet you were. "I'm just fine baby, it's just a little overwhelming," He said, releasing your wrist and placing his hand back on your thighs.
"Did so fucking good though, listened just like I told you to." He smirked, gripping your thighs and making you look up at him through your lashes. You pouted out your bottom lip a bit in embarrassment, trying your best to not look away from his intimidating gaze. "Alright, class is back in session, go ahead and pick up where you left off." He continued.
You released your hand that was caressing his tip, going back to jerking him off steadily with the one hand. "Don't forget about the balls either, you just wanna massage them softly," he instructs after a couple seconds of your continued ministrations. You nod, acknowledging his words before you spit on your other hand, and bring it down to his warm balls.
"Oh shit- haha- didn't even have to tell you to spit." He says, amazement laced in his words, "You had n-nothing to worry about, you're doing so fucking good." He reassured when you started to expertly roll and massage his sack in your hand, timing your motions perfectly with the jerking of his cock.
"Cmere baby," He asked, growing needier and needier at the more stimulation you provided him with. You tilted your head at him, confused, making him laugh. "Come give me a kiss, pretty thing." He clarifies. You hesitate slightly, You've kissed one or two people before, but you've never made out with anyone per se, which is what you were assuming Gojo wanted right now.
"Follow my lead, I'll show you how to make kissing feel as good as sex." He boldly said, making you blush. You released your hold on his balls, opting to place your hand against his hard chest for stability as you leaned forward, not stopping your ministrations on his cock. He gave you a toothy grin, his big hands coming up to grab your waist before he opened his mouth, huffing out a small laugh before he pressed your lips together.
He immediately took the lead, moving his lips against your own, massaging his soft lips with his. He groaned into the kiss, which made you reciprocate the sound, whining into his mouth. Where you normally would've pulled away by now, Gojo instead opened his mouth against you and pressed another kiss to your lips, repeating the action, and continuing the kiss.
You unawarely squeezed his cock harder at the stimulation, you had no idea that kissing could feel so erotic. When Gojo felt your fist tighten up around him, he pulled back half an inch from the kiss, panting slightly against your lips before he spoke needily, "Faster baby, give it to me faster." He rushed before conjoining your lips once more, rougher this time.
You felt him poke his tongue out and lick against your lips, "Open your mouth for me, baby," He said to you between kisses, to which you complied. He took this new opportunity to lick his tongue into your mouth. You thought French kissing would feel gross and unpleasant, but this was nothing of the sort, it really felt like he was fucking your mouth. He expertly massaged the inside of your mouth with his warm appendage, making you throb between your legs.
You remembered his words; which had told you to follow his lead; as you reciprocated, darting your tongue out and intertwining it with his, and it felt even better. "Mmmmm" Gojo hummed against your lips when he felt your tongue join the fun. Hips lips suddenly attached to your bottom one, slowing down the kiss briefly as he sucked it into his mouth and bit it between his teeth, smirking before he let it go, chasing your lip as it bounced back to your face.
You had switched up your technique on his cock just seconds ago, rotating your wrist over his entire cock, and pulsing your grip to imitate your pussy walls, giving him harder strokes when you slid your hand down him; you were having fun with it, and it must've been working.
Gojo pulled away from the kiss, allowing you to sit back up as he panted heavily, his cock was steadily dripping more and more pre onto your fingers, easing the slide against his cock while you jerked him off. "Did you like that?" He asked, referring to the kiss. "Y-yeah, I didn't know kissing could feel so good," you replied honestly, making him smile.
"I know~ made your pussy feel all needy again, huh?" he said, having noticed the wetness that was coating your inner thighs, his words sending a wave of sudden awareness through you, making you want to cower away. "Aww, don't get shy on me baby, look at me," He started, "I'm the one getting my cock jerked off, about to fucking burst," The man giggled, "If anyone should be embarrassed it's me~"
"You're about to cum?" You asked, those words being the only ones that made it into your dizzy head. "Yeah, and it's all cos' of you, didn't even have to give you that much i-instruction, you're a pro." he praised, making you look away from his gaze and instead focus on his cock in your smaller hand. "You wanna make me cum?" He asked.
"Wanna watch you cum.." You replied, making him laugh breathlessly as he felt your words go straight to his balls, "Oh don't worry, you will," He informed you, tipping his head back once more against the pillows, and letting himself really feel as you stroked your fingertips along his lower abs, while keeping the steady and mind numbing pace on his cock.
"Fuck, wish I was cuming inside your pussy," He suddenly moaned, catching you off guard with his words as he gripped your hips with his large hands. "Would fill you up so fucking full." He babbled, inching closer and closer to his high with every stroke, slightly thrusting up into your warm hand.
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"If I try hard enough, your little hand starts to feel like your perfect fucking cunt," He groaned through his teeth, "but I just know you would be so much warmer and wetter- fuck-." He moaned at his own words, working himself up as he dropped his chin forward to look at your hand on him, his jaw opened in a small o shape.
"You want that? Huh? Want me to split you open on my cock and fill you up with my cum?" His words had gotten so filthy and shameless, and so fast, it was giving you whiplash. You nodded meekly, not trusting your voice right now as his words alone made you feel like you were going to cum. But that wasn't good enough for Gojo. "Gotta hear you say it baby, need you to tell me you need it." He groaned through his teeth, making your body move above him as he thrust his hips upwards, helping you fuck his cock with your hand.
"Y-yes Satoru I want it." You said, meaning every word, "What do you want?" He rushed out, trying to hold back from cumming to hear you say those magic words. His balls and shaft alike were twitching so strongly against your hold, getting ready to release his seed. "W-want you to come inside me, please give it t-to me." You blushed at your own words, the embarrassment worsening when he groaned shamelessly at them. His pretty eyes rolled back in his head as his orgasm crashed down on him. "Fuck- coming-" he warned before you felt his warm seed start to cover your hand.
Long rope after rope of his cum coated your hard, making you moan with him at the erotic sight. His abs were clenching under your hand, body twitching and back arching slightly, similar to how your own did when you had cum, as you fucked him through his high. You kept jerking him off even after the spasms of his body ceased, and his cock started to soften in your hold.
His large hand shot up and gripped your wrist harshly. "C-careful," He laughed, heaving air into his lungs, "It's so fucking sensitive right after we cum." He said.
"Shit s-sorry," You blushed, releasing his dick from your soiled hand as you stared at his seed that covered it, amazed by how much there was. "Don't be sorry baby, I haven't cum that hard in my life, and all just from your hand" He laughed, rubbing his large hands up the length of your torso while he let himself catch his breath, his soft cock resting against his tummy.
An idea popped into your head, remembering how he had sucked off your cum from your own fingers after he made you finish, and it made you wonder what he tasted like too. Absentmindedly you brought your hand up to your mouth, not paying attention to the man below you as he watched your every movement with bated breath, knowing exactly what you were about to do.
You let your tongue poke out from your open mouth, licking up his seed at tasting him on your tongue. It was bitter, but not overwhelmingly so, there was something almost sweet about it, which made you suck your fingers completely into your mouth, swallowing his seed that coated them.
Gojo watched with a slack jaw at the show you were putting on, his cock twitched to life as he watched you eagerly lick up his cum. "Fuuuck." He drew, bringing your attention back to him as you popped your fingers out of your mouth, giving him a small smile that made his brain short-circuit.
"I have so much to teach you." He grinned, caressing the side of your face as you closed your eyes, and leaned your face into his hand.
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#this is so#gojo pls teach me everything you know#jjk smut#jujutsu kaisen smut#jjk x reader#jjk x y/n#jujutsu kaisen x reader#gojo smut#gojo x reader#gojo satoru#gojo satoru smut#gojo satoru x reader#jjk gojo#gojou satoru x reader#gojou x reader#jujutsu gojo#jujustu kaisen#satoru gojo#satoru smut#jujutsu kaisen satoru#jjk satoru#jujutsu satoru#gojo saturo#gojo
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#lowkey now im thinking too hard#i dont even know where i picked up shame about being excited for shit#i used to be so cool and have fun online playing dollhouse with stuff i liked and sharing it#>:T Sometime in my late teens i think i found shame and that's stupid!!#can i return it if i lost the receipt#mleh anyway im gonna try and be engaged more with stuff i enjoy and stop feeling Stupid and Anxious
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