#im mentally exhausted

[medicinebyhs]

normal picnoormmaall piiccc I JJSSUUUST WANTED A NORMAL PIC

[inthepoemsandthesands]

when taylor swift said "i was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere" and when liana flores said "i could do better if i had energy" and when hayley kiyoko said "i can't be alone, i need some help" and when maisie peters said "i was good, just wasn't good enough" and when phoebe bridgers said "how long will it be cute, all this crying in my room?"

[gildeddlily]

I didn't wait a week just to see my heart being ripped in little pieces and stepped on by those damned producers who clearly don't know what they should do

featuring me doing more low quality screenshots of them being (rightfully) protective dads and an adorable family

HOW HOW CAN THIS HAPPEN HOW WE ALL LOVED THE FOUND FAMILY TROPE, THE WAY THEY WERE ADJUSTING THEMSELVES TO THAT ADORABLE ROUTINE, AND MIRI'S MOTHER IS LIKE "you remember me, the woman who admitted to have the urge to slap her daughter's face only because the literal child was happy and she was miserable? Yeah me, I want Miri back cause I'm dying, and I'm sorry if you love her but I have little time and she should spend time with her mother. Hand her to me now ty"

NO AMANDA OR WHAT THE FUCK YOUR NAME IS, YOU CAN'T DO FUCKED UP SHIT LIKE THAT actually I found really admirable the way she wants to change for her, but she said some fucked up things and was a shitty mother, and now that her daughter has two beautiful fathers she wants her back "to spend her last moments with her"? Like, if she had the littlest bit of decency she's ask for idk, shared custody. But no, instead she, a woman who wanted to physically harm her child (and abandoned her) says to Rei and Kuzuki that "their work is dangerous for Miri, and she can't let them harm her" AT LEAST THEY WOULDN'T TOUCH HER WITH A FINGER AND KILL WHOEVER TRIED TO

and I know that her situation was difficult, abusive relationship, single mother, not many money, but you can't act like nothing happened only because you're sick. at least try a little to deserve Miri's love, no?

the final problem is the fucking organization, hope they all die fr and let my babies be together (not much hate on kazuki, he's doing what he thinks it's best for all of them (what actually is best for them, being alive yk))

[semiotomatics]

finally managed to send a couple emails i've needed to send for like. weeks now. need to go lay down for another 16 hours methinks.

[yeahwhatsorrywhat]

WHY DOES THIS ONE PHOTO HAVE ME IN A CHOKEHOLD WHAT THE FUCK SOMEONE HELP ME IM UNSTABLE MY BRAIN IS SOMEWHERE DEEP AND DARK AND WET AND HONESTLY I LIKE IT BUT NO I SHOULDNT WHAT JEHWHSHAJQ-

[hxllokxttylvr]

I'm insane<3

Lol why am I like this $h is so weird and I'm insane Like one minute I'll be crying and then go to cvvt!ng myself then I'll be laughing so hard because I c@4v3d a smiley face on my leg....

[justmoonie-chan]

This mf is the only one keeping me sane right now !!

[justmeinadaze]

Not a man threating your job!!! That fucking asshole! We fucking riot on site!

[abasketofnothing]

Fulfilling my dreams of being a 2012 youtube cosplayer by sewing on my floor

[eeveelotions]

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girlfriend and I broke up today. I didn't really want it, but I'm the one who brought it up bc she didn't seem fully committed, so. that's on me, I guess. I'm tired. so much shit has gone on in my life the past few months, I'm over it. two cats died, several stupid things that happened with friends that made us no longer friends, I discovered (or realized) I experience rejection sensitive dysphoria, and my love language is words of affirmation.

gonna try and be selfish this year. if someone needs me, if someone wants to be in my life, or wants me in theirs, they need to start reaching out first. I love everyone I meet automatically, some more than others. but I can't keep extending myself. I'm brittle, I'm weak, I'm miserable.

I'm the strong friend. I'm the put together friend. the dad friend, the one that makes plans.

I'm tired. 2023, your strong friends are tired of being the strong friends. help give us a break. please.

[de8dly]

they should invent a form of self harm where no one notices or gives a fuck

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

i don’t want to live like this. i only exist at this point. all i do is distract my mind so i don’t kill myself

[canyouseeme13]

My introverted ass has been people-ing for 5 days in a row. I need a break 😫😫

[jeeppu]

I feel like I'm having a burnout 🙃🙃🙃

[starry-bi-sky]

on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

[thornysort]

not a human, not a machine / print