#im just wondering if its worth it at this point
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(delusionally self absorbed) i do wonder if when certain middle/upper class communities read and enjoy something i wrote or follow my art and stuff more consistently than one off liking what ive made they know that im just like the million hicks and mean waitresses they hate on day after day... optimistically social media would show everyone how everyone's got an internal world and bad days and favorite foods and childhood crushes and at least a bit of worth, but still all this hatred and separation exists. spent my whole life being told as like. a mixed gay chick living on a farm the city was for me by the middle/upper class liberals and leftists there, and so for years i desperately worked to get there only to find it crueler than the place i came from. so many queer spaces i've found, including the more 'progressive' ones, are ignorant and self serving to the point of viciousness honestly its atrocious
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i feel like the only things i ever sell are the orange cassidy bracelets. they go like immediately and thats pretty much it. like im not complaining that they sell, but its also kinda demoralizing when they are the *only* ones that ever go anywhere...
are my prices too high? is it the shipping costs? are my bracelets just ugly? should i just make orange cassidys and give up on the rest?? is it bad im trying to sell friendship bracelets when they have that spirit in them that they should just be handed out so its just frowned upon???
idk. my brain is very tired but i just feel like i try to put a lot of effort into these for nothing when all the people want seems to be orange cassidy and i dont want to just make oc bracelets....
#i barely make profit from these anyways so i dont wanna drop my prices#im trying my best to keep a varied selection. clearly its just not working#theres so many im so happy with that i thought would move but apparently not. idk#i get it money is tight and stuff but its just. general interest tbh. i dont know#anyways i updated the shop. for what its worth. and i got restock letter beads coming so i can make more#im just wondering if its worth it at this point#night is an absolute mess on main
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Right and his work menaces (Brent and Karen).
I don't remember last I mentioned it but apart from crude nicknames to people (except Chris), he also just puts them in his phone really weird (except Chris, who is literally in his phone as Chris). And I bring this up because in Right's phone, Karen is saved as "Lawful Obligation".
#my characters#oops i fell in love#can you guys tell im stressed and hyperfixating on my own fucked up ocs cause i am#also brents nickname at work and in rights phone is fuckwad#and hes like yeah if im called anything else at this point by right its weird and uncomfortable#and when it is finally approached as if paul is only in rights phone as shitty-ex (answer) now that hes an excoworker#what was he in rights phone BEFORE the transfer#and right is like annoying dickwad ... karen is like oh i see thats why you call him a dick still#thats like a nickname from his phone name#and brent has to ask why fuckwad and dickwad and right looks at him and takes a deep breathe before saying#because i like the word wad and it is very comforting bc like a wad of paper ? you can throw it away#and so if i realize i gotta get rid of attachment i wad it up#also dont tell paul that dickwad was a form of attachment or he will never shut the fuck up about it#karen and brent both swear to never mention it to paul#paul is honestly such a weird anomaly in the plot bc he doesnt directly work at the same police station#but he is CONSTANTLY a topic of gossip or annoyance or updates#hes literally karens best friend! aside from chris he was one of the few right worked with who HAD touch privileges before right banned it#hes also just genuinely well liked but no one can actually tell him or he will become insufferable#which is a crime that rick is guilty of once when he meets paul and karen introduces him#and rick is just OH i know that name! youre her best friend#and she looks so betrayed and paul looks so delighted and stunned and radiant over this fact#and rick makes up for it before the night is over which is why karen forgives him - he made paul back in his place#anyway yeah right has lots of fears and hes my bundle of anxiety and i love him and his atrocious nicknames#i think i would die if i gave someone a rude nickname even affectionately irl#also also final note on this ig#since right is a detective and not always at the station its worth pointing out brent and karen just work taking calls and#doing misc other work at their desks which are nearby so they 100% bond and its wonderful#ok i lied final note on them is#for a very long time karen has to check with right to make sure she isnt annoying brent because he doesnt emote well#and shes scared she wont know if shes annoying him please help youre like the only one who reads his moods accurately
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a week's worth of work ive been tediously putting into a project on my puter just deleted itself... for no reason 🥲 what if i cry
#jk i wont cry but. i put so many hours of work into this and seeing it all Gone just killed a part of my soul 😭💔#im going to redo it all but its going to take so long im wondering if its even worth it at this point 😭#how fitting that slipknot's ''the dying song'' came up right as i noticed my files were gone#yea im dying for sure! and so are my files!! god!! 😭😭#pls send me good energy i deserve it 🥺😭
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yuffie has many interesting elements to her but people refuse to move past "i find energetic kids annoying" and it makes me sad
#first of all...... treat kids with the grace + patience you wish you had been given when you were one. just. in general#second.....#god forbid a 16 year old have flaws...! especially when part of the boisterous energy is because she is masking#she has a very strong love for her home to the point she's gone into unknown territory#entirely in over her head! but she refuses to give up#it's an interesting way to look at how patriotism can affect a person when you look at the differing views of protecting wutai that her and#godo have. i'm so interested to see how 'a miserable daughter's homecoming' is gonna go in remake pt 3#given that we know they want to expand on wutai more than they could in the OG#remake intermission as well has been rolling around in my head bc i think its interesting that sonon still wants godo to be respected but#yuffie very much is like. nah fuck that old drunkard idgaf. at least thats how it comes across#i've always felt like the kleptomania was allowed to bloom because she didn't receive enough care or support on top of the patriotism from#young age... so the intermission dialogue makes me wonder if we'll delve into that potentially being the truth in part 3#anyway... rebirth gave such good yuffie + party sibling moments im excited to get more in part 3#especially with vincent because they're one of the funniest not-quite uncle and niece combos#yuffie ringing vincent post-AC and then he goes to cloud like 'tell her that's illegal' instead of just replying to her normally 💀funny af#pettiness off the charts. i adore their 'i do care about you greatly but i'd also sell you to satan for one (1) corn chip' dynamic#ultimately you like and dislike whatever characters#but its always worth looking past the surface level. you may discover that the layers have a unique charm to them#and if the charms don't appeal after that? well at least you now have a better understanding of the character. win/win#god knows i've tried to like characters and came out of diving into their facets -still- not liking them. but more often than not it#gives me some new appreciation of the character. because the depth is there you just have to put the effort in to connect the dots#(this was spurred on by brainless takes i saw in general chat of a public discord. yes i know. my own fault for looking in a godless place)#these tags are 2 short to add proper nuance to my thoughts but you get the idea. this has been my once in a blue moon ramble post o7#might delete later i just wanted the thoughts expelled teehee <3
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Ive batch-processed 15 Sonic SpeedSim models over the past 5 hours I swear I can smell colors
#its way too goddamn early in my timezone I need to Sleep#since the game just updated gotta process and compile my rips in preparation. so I can rip This Week’s. heselp#I should probably be keeping spreadsheets at this point. years of logging my animal crossing catalogs finally being put to good use at leas#summer wave’s outfit is the exact same as her tidal wave fit in sfsb Im wondering if its worth having both ag this point#I guess I did keep both of amy’s popstar outfits then again#would be easier if I knew which rips are incomplete generally I delete them and do a new one if theres less than 400ish items from th batch#cause sometimes itll rip all the textures for a model but not the meshes and vice versa which can be deceiving when I see all the#textures I need there only to then load all the meshes and find out it didnt get all the model pieces for the corresponding character#all the sss characters have at minimum 4 meshes to them and 3 texture maps (and thats just diffuses)#combined with ripping things hundreds at a time it leads to a Lot of sifting through per each batch rip#bc of the aforementioned incomplete rips that happen sometimes always do multiple rips of the same scene just in case to minimize my losses#which unsurprisingly adds up to thousands of meshes and textures but storage isnt an issue for me I have multiple terabyte drives#and I have the Autism where I like doing repetitive tedioud tasks so no problem! but it still is So Much for only 2 people#I should stop talking its past 5 am. goobye#hydro.txt
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im about to have such a potent opportunity to disappear into the woods forever it itches
#i wonder how long it would take anyone to figure it out lol#youre welcome future coldcase vloggers#but for the record if i do mysteriously vanish no its not because of my job#must be said because thats the easiest explanation people come up with yeah it would be convenient right#if i could just get a new job and suddenly everything in my life will be fixed and all of the other blatant issues clearly coming from other#sources will cease to exist#also therapy and meds will do the same thing. i might as well walk up to a stranger and ask them to snap their fingers and cure me#just as long as the hand i turn to for help points in another direction technically im being ‘helped’ right#life is just a fight and you have to keep fighting for yourself and others and hope one day someone is going to fight for you#and when people dont fight for you when you need them to it becomes clear that you dont even need to fight. it would be easier to lose#you already upset them by not fighting for yourself and instead of fighting for you now theyre fighting againt you. do you really want to#fight harder. do you really want to fight people you love. no one wants that#ive been so emotionally destroyed these past years and idk if i will ever recover or find worth in myself again#and if i got a new job tomorrow at the most comfortable high paying company in the world with a one day work week and unlimited pto#i would still feel worthless because of the experiences ive had and the way everyobe has brushed over them as if i cant feel emotion#i have been carrying so much hurt#now im going home to say goodbye to the remains of a stranger who wouldve disowned me had we ever spoken on even ground#but sure i will enjoy my trip
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i wish i was as good as you in being feral in tags. i truly try, but it just doesn't come. you, on the other hand, make growling and barking in the notes seem so effortless, i'm in awe
HELLPP IM FUCKING CRYING THIS MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD
the fact that this could have been spurred by SO many posts ive reblogged the past 24 hrs. or like, ever 😭
but see
that's my secret, lissu
im always feral (lol)
and i just live in the tags so that's where it comes out more often than not LMAOO thank u for the compliment im glad my brand of mental illness is enjoyable HAHAHAH
#HAR DE HAR MARVEL REFERENCE sorry i couldnt help myself but ITS TRUE#the way i am in the tags is LITERALLY JUST HOW I ACT ALL THE TIME ONLINE THATS JUST WHAT IM LIKE#also being like very autistic and severely mentally ill and having very little dignity to speak of on this platform helps#AND i convinced myself like years ago that i can say whatever in the tags and maybe 2 other people will see it. this is my safe space#(obviously i know thats not true theres too many ppl here 4 only 2 a time to see me b crazy in the tags but we dont need to talk abt that)#also also if youre wondering how i think of the words i say in the tags. the answer is i dont!!#thank u again bcz i am STILL laughing over this#i went and looked bcz i was like 'what the fuck did i say in the tags that couldve spurred this ask'#now I scrolled like back a days worth but i really didnt need to. i definitely see your point LMAOO#DONT ASK ME ABOUT THAT JOSH HUTCHERSON POST I WILL NOT STAND RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT TEKI OF YESTERDAY SAID#NOR THAT ARTHUR MORGAN ART THAT WAS A VERY REASONABLE RESPONSE IMHO#ALSO NOT THAT WOLFSTAR ART THAT WAS ABSOLUTELY WITHIN THE PARAMATERS FOR THAT POST!!!!!#jesus christ. im doing it again#im---#teki talks#asks
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im glad to be friends with one person who at least gets me and is so very patient with me even tho we dont talk much bc of timezones because if not i wouldve been worst off. recently been reaffirmed again and again that the world will keep blaming me for things i never did and will nitpick me of my mistakes because i forgot left something a mess after my routine of cleaning consistently or something like that.
#i may or may not be in crisis mode#ive unfortunately broke my streak of blunt SH#no cuts. but ive been hitting myself again and i hate it.#thank fucking god for my system but also god im so guilty.#just a goddamn burden because i cant get any help#im supposed to help myself but woof woof bark bitch i dont have the resources to.#my art isnt good enough for people. they all think its worth 12 dollars tops and the rest is overspending.#like im sorry i have needs and the world is expensive.#i wonder where it started. my overall negativity. what if i werent alive anymore would that ease my parent's burdens? haha.#that theory hasnt been proven yet on yes or no.#kasalanan ko nanaman lahat. bakit kung naging engineer ba ako mas madali buhay? parang di rin.#parang at that point nagpakamatay na sana ako nung pandemic for real.#vent#im on my period and its so. fucking heavy and it hurts for once again btw so maybe thats why im emotional but fucking hell i wanna perish.#i feel insane right now i feel like . well. nothing.
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im so exhausted and bored of everything rn
#social media is dull. my art has been subpar again. i cant sleep well enough#genuinely wondering why im alive#honestly idek if this is living#im just trapped in a stagnant loop and i cant get out#and i dont have energy to claw myself out anymorw because its not proven to be worth it#im just numbly floating along but im also angry with myself for letting myself get this pathetic#idk man just. whats the point anymore#ignore me idk what im saying nobody worry or anything#ghoul groans
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i don't know if i could EVER part HIM I mean, Just thinking about it tears through my brain like PAPER IN A SHREDDER I'm stone cold at a memorial thing 4 my late uncle but I think about losing HIM & tears start coming because he just fucking. Like how the fuck am I gonna do this i just wanna start ripping at my flesh & muscle because thinking about leaving him gives me the feeling that something is writhing under my skin I just wanna tear it out & make it stop ^^^^^^^^^ I imagine a world without both of my darlings & i think i would just k#(*%(^ll myself!!!!!!!!!!
#cw sui#]]H0K0#QUEUE#08/02/23#GL00MY . . .#struggling 2 front cuz im just messing it up so bad !!!!#but a lot of us HIM!! its not just me so im not the problem!!!!!!!#trust me if it was just that id have myself skewered by now#the whole point was HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME#I CANT LEAVE HIM#THATS THE WHOLE POINT I CANT DEAL WITH PEOPLE LEAVING ME ANYMORE#its hwy i have this stupid fucking illness bpd i hate it I HATE IT I HATE IT#cuz it just makes everything WORSE#i claw at people wanting them to stay but it scares them away or i HURT them enough to make them go away#it fuck ing sucks i wanna crack my head open like an egg & slice my brain in half like a loaf of bread#im genuinely wondering if i should continue. like. idk if its worth it#whatrver i wont go too in depth in that#but im sort of obsessed with having a goodbye letter but i think thats primarily a me (hoko) thing#i also really care about the date but idk if i could wait for our anniv or his bday
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yeah zach yknow my main para - he cant do improv (ish he has his moments but ONLY WHEN HE BELIEVES HIMSELF)
is this bc i cant do improv or do anything on the spot
yes
#i have slwly realsied zachs gone form best signer in the gorup to is an okay actor who cannot dance at all And can like passably sing he#is an everyman now#i mena the actor hting is alos a confidence and a more environmental thing#WHICH IS WHY IM GIVING HIM A ANOTHER CHARACTER ARC#it is hard going i keep bouncing back to - hes probabky just mediocre who am i kid and then i have to mentally hold myself by the shoulder#and yell DO NOT IMRPINT YOUR OWN INSECURITES ON THIS WONDERFUL MAN HE DESERVES SO MUCH#YOU DESEERVE SO MUCH YOU GET BENEFITS LIKE THINKING ABOUT THE MOST SOUL SHATTERING ACTING PERFORMANCE ON ALL TIME AAND ITS JUST FOR YOU#BUT ALSO LIke (POINTS AT MENTAL IMAGE OF ZACH) LOOOK AT HIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM#he deserves to feel happy and secure abotu himself#no more destroying his self worth no more self flangellation#on both ENDS OKAY#ANYWAY#ahoys thoughts#alhaven#ALHAVEN
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I identify as a Christ follower/believer but I don’t hate or fear anyone who identifies as gay! 😩 I’m sorry if that’s been a lot of what you have seen! Only love from me 🫶🏼
um. ok?
#where did this come from what is it referencing???#i have actually had a pretty good experience with religion#i grew up in a very progressive version of catholicism#and although it did make me repressed as hell sexually i eventually figured it out#i am lapsed but thats more because im too much of a philosopher than anything#my personal view of religion is that if god is as good and wonderful as he should be then he wont care if i dont follow a religion as long#as i do my best to be good and kind#and if hes not that good and wonderful and is mad that im not catholic or *insert other religion here*#then i say he's not a god worth following#like i said#im very much a philosopher about it#no hard feelings with catholicism (or generally christianity) though!#obviously some people abuse it and its become kind of a reference point for conservatives about why conservatism is good#but theyre wrong and theyre doing religion wrong#anyways#not sure where this ask came from#kinda just used it as an excuse to ramble in the tags about my life and personal philosophy yet again#because thats what we do here#cloudy rambles
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#i thought i was going into new years with being proud of how much ive written#almost 200k since late August#but now#i just feel like maybe im writing to no one#like im just throwing my work out here to be kicked to the side#im also 95% sure im partially blacklisted in the writers part of the fandom#and now im just sitting here wondering if its my writing people dont like or if it's just me they dont like#I wanted to write joel today#but i just feel like theres no point#it feels like im the only person who cares about it anymore and im just like#taking up space on the dashboard or in the specifc tags with shit no one wants#maybe im just being a whiny crybaby idk i just know im really starting to question the worth of anything i put out recently
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I DONT KNOW HOW SLICK SUNDAYS WORK I JUST SEE THESE AND USUALLY LOVE THEM PLEASE IGNORE THIS IF ITS WRONG IM SORRY
Steve who thinks he’s a beta because the upside down shit started around the time he was supposed to present so it’s not until five years AFTER they defeat vecna that Steve presents as an omega, but instead of being able to be excited about his presentation he’s absolutely horrified because he’s been dating Eddie since they cleared him of the murder charges five years ago and Eddie, an alpha, ever since highschool has been very strictly a beta only man.
Steve spends the little of his heat that he’s lucid losing his goddamn mind, crying and sobbing until he passed out, throwing up multiple times, because Steve has always felt like he was unloved and never enough and he had only just gotten to the point where he felt like Eddie truly cared about him, but Eddie is very passionate about only dating betas, giving lists upon lists of reasons why he wouldn’t be able to date an omega.
and now Steve is an omega, which means he’s going to lose Eddie.
Steve, who’s always felt like he is not enough, can’t even be enough to keep the man he’s been mutually courting for five years who he’s been working up the courage to ask to mate with him. That’s how serious they are. Eddie is all Steve has left.
All the kids are in college or working on their careers out of state, Robin’s been in Italy for two years and those calls are expensive so he hasn’t been able to talk to his platonic soulmate and he can’t afford to call at this time of the month, his parents haven’t contacted him in over three years, all the Adults are off retiring in California living off their government hush money, all Steve has left is Eddie and now he doesn’t even have him because Eddie always says he could never love an omega. And Steve starts to wonder if Eddie ever loved him, seeing how strongly he was against dating exactly what Steve was, what if Eddie knew all along deep in his subconscious and never actually loved him the way Steve loved him?
Stricken with grief and early onset isolation sickness, Steve finishes his miserable first heat, and in the middle of a drop, packs all his things, and leaves Hawkins in the dead of night.
Cue a frantic Eddie trying to contact everyone in the party because his beloved boyfriend has mysteriously gone missing with no note and the police won’t do anything because all Steve’s things are gone too,
Eddie who’s only ever had a crush on one person, and it’s Steve Harrington, who’s always been a beta, so Eddie’s never even been able to imagine being with any other designation.
Eddie, who might be a little too passionate about wanting to be with a beta because he keeps getting comments about how an alpha should ‘never settle’ for a beta and Eddie wants Steve to know Eddie is not settling for him, but actually wouldn’t give a shit what Steve’s designation is as long as it’s Steve.
Steve ends up moving to some city in Colorado and working at a youth center, who only gets the job because most omegas won’t work there, so many of the teens are violent, especially towards omegas, but Steve was raised to be an alpha, then turned beta, and then fought monsters during his formative years, so after three scraps with angry teen alphas who don’t want an omega supervising them, where Steve clearly wins and shows dominance, all other teens respect him and start respecting omegas as a whole.
it kind of goes around town that Steve is a safe space, and Steve adopts a new band of kids and it doesn’t stop the chronic rejection sickness he got diagnosed with but it curbs the isolation sickness (he has to take hormonal medication to trick his body into thinking he wasnt rejected but it only kind of helps) , and at first Steve wants to reject his omega ness because he associated it with losing Eddie but the kids need a positive omega influence and Steve only sees his worth in his ability to sacrifice his comfort for others so all Steve does is take suppressants for his heat because he’s traumatized from how painful the first one is. He doesn’t think he’ll ever get to experience the joys of a heat he always heard about. He swears off of dating and rejects every alpha and beta who asks him out, though he does get with one omega briefly in a moment of weakness, mainly because he had long curly brown hair and he ranted to Steve about metallica for a full twenty minutes behind an omega-only bar.
Back in Hawkins Eddie has more then half the gang in his trailer as Eleven, fresh off a flight from the Himalayas, desperately tries to use her powers to find Steve, but she’s looking for a beta energy so when she briefly passes by an omega one she ignores it,
So the party knows Steve is missing and they’re all collectively losing their shit, Dustin ends up calling Suzie on the cerebro but she’s looking through beta documents so she never finds him either, it ends up taking an entire year and a half for them to exhaust all their options and for Owens to get back to them, Robin’s convinced the Russians took him, and Owens starts a manhunt in Russia that remains futile.
Almost two years in, Owens is finally able to track Steve down and tells the party that it wouldn’t have taken that long if they hadn’t lied about Steve’s designation, and that’s how the party finds out Steve’s an omega.
and Eddie, who knows Steve’s insecurities very well, realizes very very quickly just why Steve has left, and his stomach drops to the floor and Eddie himself goes into an alpha drop because of how terribly he feels, knowing that Steve in his most vulnerable moments was so convinced Eddie wouldn’t love him as an omega that he left his home, and hashes a plan with Robin to fly out to Steve and try to win him back.
LA dee da apparently some of the alpha teens Steve semi adopted are super protective of him bc theres a REASON they spend all their time at the center and not home, and they know vaguely that Steve was courting someone who wouldn't want him as an omega so when Eddie finds Steve he has to win the kids over before they even let him see Steve, and Steve freaks out the first time, locks himself in the janitors closet, and has a breakdown so the teens kick Eddie out and it takes like four weeks for Steve to be able to look at Eddie long enough for him to explain that he loves Steve no matter what and then they get mated THAT NIGHT because like fuck is posessive eddie going to let steve out of his sight again, it takes a few years for steve to feel comfortable allowing himself to have heats and the first few are too trauma riddled to be comfortable but then eventually he works through it
you did Slick Sunday exactly right!!
(slick Sunday is just a celebration every week where I post/repost a bunch of omegaverse stuff and reply to asks that people submit. steddie ficlets like this are more than welcome as submissions!)
ahhhh the angst here is delicious😭😭😭
#slick sunday#steddie#steddie omegaverse#omega steve harrington#alpha eddie munson#steve x eddie#a/b/o#omegaverse#my asks#anon asks
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Ghostface killer pt.2
Jungkook x fem reader
Kinktober
Ghost face killer pt.1 here
Word count: 759
Genre: smut drabble - minors DNI
Summary: Everyone has a Scream movie marathon in the living room totally oblivious to Jungkook who sneakily fucks you on the sofa
Warnings: Fluff, smut, explicit language, unprotected sex, sneaky sex, public sex, taboo, orgasm
Notes: I wanted to upload this before October ends, enjoy ;) (I LITERALLY CANT STOP WRITING ABOUT JUNGKOOK!!! LIKE HELP ME PLS IM BEGGING!!!! IM TRYING TO WRITE FOR OTHER MEMBERS BUT I KEEP ON HAVING IDEAS FOR HIM FUCKKK!!! *rips off shirt and transforms into a wolf *)
Jungkook. The man that’s full of surprises and pent up sexual frustration has found his way to sneakily fuck you while everyone else is in the living room in the middle of a scream marathon.
Apparently he could care less about the franchise and has more of an interest in fucking you while you sit on his lap softly moving your hips around his cock.
He must have some interest in the film because his ghostface costume had made a return. You could never describe the excitement it brings you when he fucks you in his mask. You never knew you had a mask kink until Jungkook brought it out of you. But now as your pussy stretches for his thick length, you wonder if it’s the mask or just him.
Probably both.
It’s risky fucking In front of other people, but with everyone’s attention on the film, the intoxication in the room, and both of you sitting away from everyone with yours and Jungkooks black cloaks helping hide the movements, it’s pretty worth it. Especially when he fills you up like that, his hands on your waist guiding you around his length. His soft grunts make you lift yourself up a bit and slowly sit back down, still trying not to gain attention from anyone in the room.
Your moans fill the small area as your head tries to adjust to your senses, while he still makes it his point to fuck you recklessly, moving his waist along with your movements. You can feel him all around you and inside you, moving so gracefully with so much precision you’re sure he’s a sex god, or just trying to kill you, or both. You feel him on your body, his hot touch seeping into your skin and through your veins, as he holds your waist and runs his fingers up your spine, his hips working up to meet your movements. You crave for more of him even though he’s as close as he can get. His scent works its way around you and through you, slowly invading your senses and working its way to your head, nothing else makes any sense in this moment, but him and his touch and smell and everything that is him.
You haven’t uttered a single word since he slipped his dick into you, honestly too fucked out to do so. He enters you with so much precision that you’re sure your orgasm is already approaching. The wetness around your cunt and your thighs just proves it. Luckily the large black cloak covers your exposed pussy and his cock.
You lean back against his chest, becoming tired too quickly. His hands hold your hands that are placed on either side of you on the sofa for support. His thumb gently stroking the top of your hand, despite the increasing force of his hips. You bite your bottom lip to suppress any sounds leaving your mouth. When his hands move under your cloak to rub your clit, you’re sure he wants people to find out what you’re doing as you gasp with shock and pleasure.
He rubs your clit, his cock still stuffing you whole as his movements continue. Your legs close as you can feel your orgasm suddenly approach. “I want you to cum for me okay? Make as much noise as you can” he whispers in your ear and you look back at him in shock.
“What? Are you crazy?” And you’re sure he is when he adds pressure to your clit and his hips move at an increasing speed. You can’t do anything but restlessly sit on his lap with his cock inside you as it works in and out of you.
Your thighs are still tightly shut as your orgasm approaches as quick as ever.
It’s like he times it, when you softly squeal due to the orgasm and overstimulation on your clit when ghostface comes on screen and kills one of the characters. Your moans are muffled by the loud music and the slight chatter in the room.
“Mmmh, that’s it let it out baby, good girl”
Your hand covers your mouth as the scene ends and a quieter scene approaches. You shudder, the chills running down your spine at the sensation of your orgasm and him inside of you.
“Good girl, you got it, let it out” his voice is soothing in your ears.
And in that moment you wonder who’s the real killer, the one in the film or him, because he’s really killed you tonight for sure.
#smut#bts#drabble#bts army#bts drabble#bts au fic#bts smut#jeon jungkook#jungkook#bts x reader#jungkook smut#jungkook x reader#jungkook x you#jungkook drabble#jungkook scenarios#jungkook scenario#bts jungkook#jungkook x female reader#bts x fem!reader#bts scenarios#smut drabble#fem reader#bts fic#bts jeon jungkook#ghostface#bts kinktober#kinktober
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