#i get it money is tight and stuff but its just. general interest tbh. i dont know

[the-kipsabian]

i feel like the only things i ever sell are the orange cassidy bracelets. they go like immediately and thats pretty much it. like im not complaining that they sell, but its also kinda demoralizing when they are the *only* ones that ever go anywhere...

are my prices too high? is it the shipping costs? are my bracelets just ugly? should i just make orange cassidys and give up on the rest?? is it bad im trying to sell friendship bracelets when they have that spirit in them that they should just be handed out so its just frowned upon???

idk. my brain is very tired but i just feel like i try to put a lot of effort into these for nothing when all the people want seems to be orange cassidy and i dont want to just make oc bracelets....

[sunnisurrealism]

Hi Timmy,

im sorry for my brash previous post. i did not intend to direct the salty energy towards you, i guess towards the universe in general. the fact that the package with the first usb was not delivered was a tremendous blow to me today. i wouldn't say it was karma because i dont think you deserve this but it does seem like some sort of divine irony. when you were waiting around this was probably slowly occurring to you. literally what a fucking troll. i really hope the next one actually sends! i kept the tracking receipt this time.

im also sad today because the smoke from the forest fires might prevent us from going to Assinaboine. if we dont go i'll be hella disappointed. but its been multiple years now that i couldn't go because of the smoke... which only seems to be getting worse... .... this town Jasper in the northern rockies caught fire today. shit is getting more scary :( Alberta and BC is very susceptible to climate impacts.

i dont really know what else i have to say until the package arrives. i guess i thought the cake scene was a confirmation. in general we all faces problems being too hot to the gun, probably. gotta keep the long distance one way interesting somehow with some trolling. i think the Bad Ass Shitey Donk Shitlords sent the package back, only explanation to me.

anyways the most important part of the current package on the way is the new plot stuff. tbh tho i did already explain all the main points in a post a few days back, i just forgot the part about the flute from your spirit dad somehow after you see the snake and bull. therefore there really isnt anything new intellectually. i reread my meanest messages to you breaking down why it wasnt okay and how conditional things do make sense as an apology and to emphasize that i am truly really sorry :( it also includes the og notes / out take drawings of the TFBD (to be passed along to Grimes), some gifts for grimes, some geschenken for MB ^uwu^, and some gifts / a USB for elon. i know this is inconvenient for you to pass along gifts but tbh with the way it went down i knew i had to send you the notes and the usb i was planning on using for you was the one i used for elon but then i found an extra so tbh i just feel like i didnt have the capacity or money to send multiple packages so im kindly asking you to pass gifts along assuming you wont be up tight about it. i did include some voices notes on elon's USB just for him, but i included the one i originally recorded for him about Das Booble Zwei to catch him up on lore on your usb as well. if you are curious of the shit i said to him it's mostly me emphasizing that our strengths compliment one another, and the worst i said was that sometimes i have a hard time imagining timmy and i having sex together. that was like a month ago tho and i've been healing. so if you're curious that's the worst is said.

now that we are just waiting to see if the package sends idk what else i can do. i am really done and tired. im really happy to be in calgary where my mom can cook for me and i have a bathroom close to my bed. my relationship with my family is 100% good.

i dearly miss you, i dearly love the trailer so much and congratulations! i wish more than anything we could cuddle and kiss to heal from all this shit. hopefully *again* in the dreamworld.

*edit “why conditional things do not make sense” jesus*

klara

[ruffboijuliaburnsides]

have you ever dressed up for halloween or for like a costume party? what's your favorite thing you've worn? do you like wearing jewelry? do you listen to podcasts?what's an interesting historical event you know a little about? when do you feel the most comfortable? do you have any piercings or tattoos? Are there any you'd like to get? what's one thing you're proud of?

Wow, All in huh??? SO MANY QUESTIONS.

1) Have I ever dressed up for halloween or for a costume party? NNNNNNNNOT REALLY. I wasn’t allowed to do Halloween after the age of like. Five? Because my parents got MORE religious than they��d already been and they decided halloween was evil. And then as an adult I didn’t have a lot of local friends or money so... not really most of the time. BUT! There was ONE YEAR when I was in my mid-20s, that my wife and I went to a Halloween party with some local friends. She was Death of the Endless, we dyed her hair black, I did her eye makeup, there was a cardboard-covered-in-tinfoil ankh necklace and everything. I that year dressed up as Delirium to go with her. I bought fishnets that I tore a couple holes in, had some clompy boots, bought a skirt and shirt at the thrift store, and dyed my hair... like Half of it was red, half of it was just random spots of bleached, blue, and green. (I actually went to a job interview the next day and frantically reassured the interviewer that I was bleaching my hair and dying it a more natural color later that week) It was very fun as a costume tho. OH tho last year for halloween I loaned my wife a purple dress I sewed for myself and we got her some white tights and a white scarf, and I dug out my purple henley and and jeans some bandaids for my face and fingers, and we went as Hawkeye for Halloween. She was Kate Bishop and I was Clint Barton. That was probably my favorite even tho it was so low-effort. 1.5) On its own line, I think this “what’s the fave you’ve worn” was meant to be about the costumes, which I answered above, but IN GENERAL the thing I’ve worn that’s my favorite has been

Do I like wearing jewelry? I do like wearing jewelry! I need to get new earrings bc the ones I had got lost, but I used to always wear like, small gauge horseshoe earrings with the balls that screw onto the ends? I just lost the balls on the ends. I also wear a necklace every day. And I used to have a wedding band but I don’t have one that fits currently and it drives me NUTS bc even years without it I feel  like I should have a ring on that finger.

Do I listen to podcasts? I listen to podcasts off and on! Mostly MBMBAM, The Magnus Archives, The Penumbra Podcast, and Faculty of Horror. We relisten to early WtNV to sleep sometimes, and I keep meaning to catch up on TAZ, but that’s not active yet.

What’s an interesting historical event I know something about? ...Gosh that’s hard. Like, I know some stuff about historical eras or cultures but EVENTS??? Hmmm... I. Fuck. I abruptly cannot think of ANY HISTORICAL EVENT AT ALL. I’m a fucking History Major this is embarrassing. Uh okay so... I can’t think of anything. I’m so sorry. XD

When do I feel most comfortable? When I’m curled up in bed and have Birdie pressed against my back with her arm around my waist. Bonus points for literally any of our other partners in bed as well, but that happens so rarely. :(

Do I have any piercings or tattoos? I DO! Piercings are easiest. I have my left lobe pierced 3 times (though all but the first might be closed) and my right 2 times (tho ditto), and the upper shell of my left ear once (but again, closed). TATTOOS gosh, ok I have, in chronological order: a) a sort of cross between a cross and a peace sign on the inside of my left ankle. I got it when I was 18 and still a Good Christian Girl, my church bff designed it, it stood for peace in Christ, and the only thing stopping me from trying to get a coverup is the fact that it’s REALLY heavy/thick black work, and the location which was really painful. b) the kanji 天使 (which translates to “angel”) on my right inner forearm, over self harm scars specifically. I got this when I was 19 and back living with my bigoted conservative family and suicidal and trying to remind myself that I was loved. I also picked it out of a book and was lucky that book had the right kanji tbh, but I picked it bc my parents wouldn’t be able to read it, and it meant “angel” which was Birdie’s pet name for me at the time, and she was living across the country from me. If I could go back, I would get a different angel-themed tattoo in the same place, but at least I have the proper kanji for it if I’m going to have an ill-advised Japanese tattoo. c) a little curled ivy tramp stamp I picked out of a book in a little tattoo shop on St. Mark’s Place in NYC at like 2am, do NOT ask, it was dumb. Thankfully easier to work into a larger piece if I ever have the money for a back piece. d) text that is now near-illegible (due to the delicate nature of the script and the time since I got it) on the back of my left shoulder. It says “the universe has been waiting for me” in Birdie’s handwriting. It’s a line from Donna Noble’s last episode of Doctor Who, and I had FEELINGS. e) text on the inside of my left wrist that says “alive or dead, the truth won’t rest.” specifically in courier new. It’s a quote from @seananmcguire​‘s book FEED, and Birdie has a matching tattoo on her wrist as well. f) A tattoo of Coyote and the Sun, with color, on the outer side of my right calf. It’s the only colored Tattoo I have. I plan to get a semi-matching tattoo on my left calf that is El-Ahrairah and the Black Rabbit of Inle doing sort of a yin-yang esque circle chasing each other. it’s a Trickster thing, tying animals commonly considered  to be Tricksters with stuff that is meaningful to me. Coyotes have always been important to me, I grew up in Arizona there were always coyotes about and I always loved them, and then Watership Down was a surprise true love of a book when I was a teen.

Are there any piercings/tattoos I’d like to get? Piercings not so much. Maybe an eyebrow one day idk. Tattoos tho, goddamn, I’ve got SO MANY PLANS. I want to get text tattoos - either part of a larger text-heavy design or separately - of “It’s chaos, be kind”, “You are not obligated to complete the work, neither are you free to abandon it”, and “Do good recklessly”. Other quotes I’m sure but those three specifically. Obviously the Watership Down/Rabbit the Trickster tattoo I mentioned. Also a design from one of the tattoos on one of the guards of the Pazyriyk ice maiden. Also ngl I kinda want to get the sigils for witcher signs on the backs of my fingers. Some people get “THUG LYFE” or “FUCK YOU”, I get “I WILL FUCK YOU UP (in symbolic form)” XD

What’s one thing I’m proud of? The fact that I’m alive. ...Seriously, I’m quite proud of that, I’ve had some shit years in my life, and I’ve nearly not made it more than once. I’m proud as HELL that I’m here. I’m proud that I’m in college. I’m proud that I’m writing again.

Thank you for all these questions! So many, lmao, but I loved it, thank you. ^_^

[andoqin]

K-Dramas of 2020

Well, like the general mood of 2020, the dramas this year were uh, certainly an adventure. I was going to put all the dramas I watched this year here, but uh. This turned out longer than expected so I’ll guess I’ll separate K-dramas at the very least.

Putting this behind a cut because Long.

Completed:

365: Repeat the year: I barely remember this one, but I gave it 8/10 on MDL, maybe I should lower that, because honestly all I remember are the time-travel meet up set and the main actors.

CHIP-IN: A short who-dunnit, which has interesting characters, although the show was very wise to be capped at 8 Episodes, because the “mystery” was pretty predictable and also starting to wear thin. Still, the younger cast was stellar and I hope we get to see them in more.

Diary of a Prosecutor: The cases in this drama were actually legit interesting to me and I found the politicking surprisingly not bad. People were flawed in very human ways, but the drama gave us enough time with our main characters to enjoy getting to know all of them.

Do you like Brahms: Contender for worst drama of the year for me, good lord I hated the way this tanked its story line, its characters and the romance. Is it believable that the main characters might act this way? ... Debatable. Is it entertaining to watch? Hell fucking no. Don’t watch this one, unless you like stupid misunderstandings and non communication. 

Extracurricular: Short action-y show on Netflix that makes me hopeful for what Sweet Home might be. 

Flower of Evil: Lee Jun Ki gets to suffer prettily. That is All. Okay Moon Chae Won and LJK were great together, but it got almost makjang-y by the end. 

Hospital Playlist: Delightful Slice of Life Medical show, that despite its delightfulness never quite got me. Very enjoyable and at 12 episodes it doesn’t overstay its welcome, but it didn’t stay with me either. 

Hot Stove League: Pretty entertaining and as a drama about sports management seems reasonably accurate? (Not that I’d know of course). 

Hyena: Flawed as heck in some aspects (the lawyer-plotting got lulzy and boring at the same time), but oh my god some of the HOTTEST chemistry this way from sunday. Joo Ji Hoon and Kim Hye Soo just crackled anytime they were on screen together and Joo Ji Hoon as the high powered lawyer who falls head over heels in love with KHS’s character who is more reluctant to act on those feelings is just *chefs kiss*. Also didn’t suffer the Dreaded Plot Denuement of 2020 (DPD2020). Sure the latter half wasn’t as tight as the beginning, but it stuck the landing and that’s all that matters. 

Into the Ring: Weird camera angles and sometimes overly sharp edited shots aside, this had a solid romance, great characters, great romance and almost made me want to get into community politics lmao. 

It’s Okay Not To Be Okay (Psycho But It’s Okay): The first half of this show is just *amazing*, the way the scenes transition is pretty much film-like and the main character trio is stunningly well acted. Sadly the story with the mom is resolved in the weirdest fucking way, but the drama decides to do the smart thing and just forget about it once that’s done and the finale made me cry ;_;. 

Itaewon Class: Sadly also suffered the DPD2020. I was really into the first half, loved the way the characters found support in each other, plus: a main trans character! Handled really well! Also iconic OST. I was one of the few people who was into the romance of the main couple, but the way the latter half of the plot developed was just completely nonsensical and felt like the writer was just trying to tie off the lose ends as much as possible. 

Kingdom Season 2: The first season was stellar and this continues the trend! Although it doesn’t quite reach the highs of the first season I am still so looking forward to season 3! More Joseon zombies please!

Money Game: I... apparently watched this, and looking at the logo there is some vague feeling of “Yeah this is familiar”. But nothing else...

Mr. Heart: Okay-ish BL drama that has it’s cute moments but nothing that made me go “Ooooh”. I am glad SK is getting in on this trend though!

My Holo Love: So all of those Robot/AI shows that came before that I’ve seen and had the premise of “Oh no, I’ve fallen for a ROBOT” when it either turned out their object of affection was either human or actually a robot, but their human counterpart was so shitty that no sane person would like them worked pretty well for me. This one didn’t. From what I remember the heroine does very much fall for the holographic version of this guy, but the human version is *different* and yet whoops the main couple is still human/human. Granted you can’t really do romantic kiss scenes between a girl and nothing, but the switch-over felt abrupt and the way our main lady just transfers her affections to the dude never sat right to me. 

Mystic Pop Up Bar: Quite a few dramas this year went with 12 eps, and were all the better for it. Hwang Jung Eum is incredibly hit or miss with me (mostly it’s miss honestly), but in this one she’s used really well and I liked the way the premise was used!

Private Lives: I recently wrote a longer post about this, but honestly another victim of terrible writing and maybe DPD2020. 

Stranger 2: Love! Not as much as Season 1, but man this writer is *so* good at writing smart and interesting plots and looking at things from many different angles!

Tale of the Nine Tailed: Flawed but man do I ever love the OTP. Like really really love it. Plus it stuck the landing for me in a way few dramas did in recent months.

The School Nurse Files: So weird. So fucking weird. And yet, so very entertaining. Thanks to its short length ( I think) some plot threads felt very much unceremoniously dropped, but it has a canon lesbian couple!

The World of the Married: Makjang to the Nth degree, got kind of exhausting by the end, but Kim Hee Ae is so good. 

Train: Yoon Shi Yoon gets to suffer prettily! 

When the Weather is Fine: Kinda mellow and sweet and I wish I could live like the main character does (just have a bookshop in the middle of nowhere and still no money issues??? The Dream) but for that also not super memorable. 

Where Your Eyes Linger: SK’s first major Webdrama I believe? Cute and as a foray into this genre not bad, but I hope this is just a taste of things to come.

Dropped:

Hi Bye, Mama: So many people loved this, I couldn’t get over the basic premise and the way my brain tried to tie the logic in this together made my head hurt.  The King: Eternal Monarch: Maybe KES dramas just aren’t for me, I didn’t like the plot or the main couple. Woo Do Hwan and Kim Kyung Nam were amazing though and please please I beg both of you do more stuff. 

18 Again: Nope. Lee Do Hyun is pretty, but the setup drove me bonkers and I pretty much liked no one. 

Zombie Detective: Yikes no thank you. Complete mismatch of tones I wanted and the drama gave me. 

Romantic Teacher Dr. Kim 2: Zzzzzzzzz. I found the first one mildly entertaining at least but this one just made me fall asleep immediately. 

Black Dog: Yeah I watched like 2 Episodes of this and lost interest. 

Search: I’ve watched like 6 eps and I know there’s zombies, but I couldn’t tell you much more tbh.

Start-Up: I watched 2 episodes in the beginning, didn’t think I’d want to live watch this and then just popcorned the tag until it got insufferable with the ship wars and this dropped out of my watch list pretty immediately.

Record of Youth: Pretty much the same deal as with Start-Up only in this case there wasn’t so much a shipwar as the tag showing me that this drama would *not* be my bag at all. 

Still Watching: 

Kairos: Hmmmm timey-wimey stuff. The FL is this close to losing me though. The fact I thought it plausible that she would murder someone just based on a TEXT from someone else says it all. (She didn’t, thank god, and seems to have found a few of her lost braincells, but by god she was frustrating). 

Birthcare Center: I like what it’s trying to say and the main character and her husband are very cute, but a lot of the side characters don’t really interest me. It’s only an 8 ep drama, so I might finish this.

The Spies Who Loved Me: Honestly I’m this close to dropping it. Only my intense love for Yoo In Na and fondness for Eric are keeping me going. But she might not end up with Eric and I’m gonna be mad. Honestly if they just went OT3 I’d be really cool with this, but despite the small advancements in dramaland, they aint ready for that yet. 

Lies of Lies: I watched 2 eps and I might continue (the premise seems hilariously makjang and sometimes I’m into that, but it’s *very* much on the backburner)

The Uncanny Counter: Delightful Webtoon vibe, with some great visuals and actually nice action. I’ve only seen 2 eps so far but at least they don’t want to make me poke my eyes out or make me fall asleep. Let’s hope it avoids the DPD2020 plague. 

[mahou-queen]

♡52 Weeks of Lolita Questionnaire♡

In a recent Lovely Lor video, Lor answered questions from Loliprompts’ questionnaire “52 weeks of lolita”. It seems like a fun list of questions and I thought I would answer them too~ ♡

1. What is your favorite brand, and why? What’s its history? ♡  I guess my favorite brand would have to be Angelic Pretty. I love a lot of other brands, but the majority of dresses in my wish list right now are Angelic Pretty. As for their history? I don’t really know haha, I guess I should research that a bit.

2. How would you describe lolita fashion to a curious person you met in passing? ♡ I always just say I am apart of a fashion club? People don’t generally require more than that but if they did I would probably tell them that it’s an alternative fashion based on Victorian fashion and we have a fashion club and we get dressed up and meet for tea and stuff.

3. What style do you think is the most underrated, and why? ♡ qi and wa lolita. I almost never see them, or see interest in them which is a shame because there are some really beautiful dresses out there that are suited for these styles.

4. What does the phrase “lolita lifestyle” mean to you, and do you, or would you like to, adhere to it? ♡ lolita lifestyle is when you try to bring lolita or lolita-esque aesthetics into every aspect of your life. Maybe wearing lolita every or most days, and having a very “loliable” home/room. I could never be a lifestyler because I have other fashion interests. Also lolita is not appropriate at my workplace.

5. What do you think constitutes lolita etiquette or good manners? ♡ I don’t believe there is any “lolita etiquette” I think you should just be yourself. Good manner are good manners, don’t be rude to your comm members, don’t dance on the tables at a tea party. But that’s just commonsense I don’t think there is a way to behave that is lolita.

6. Does your style change with the seasons, or do you dress the same and try to bear the cold/heat? ♡ I try, but admittedly I am awful at it. I try to keep berets in the cooler months, as well as long sleeves. BUT I’m a sucker for ankle socks and I wear them all year despite the cold and I do freeze my legs off at winter meets. 

7. Do you have a fashion role-model? What do you admire most about them? ♡ I actually have several! I will list them and their instagrams here: sleepyriri  - Her coords are so dreamy looking, very light floaty aesthetic which I love. She also has her own lolita brand! Le_verger_sucre - Her coords are so pink and princess-y. I find myself sharing her photos a lot. Fannyrosie - the classic lolita queen. Need I say more? Tokimeki.bunny - I love the cuteness of her coords. They always have a lot of extra elements and are so well balanced. She’s also really good at coordinating printed tights which I am awful at. Tsumikko - Lavender QUEEN! I love her use of aprons, layering, and color balancing. Very light, floaty vibes.  Milkcircus - Print QUEEN. Her use of prints and patterns absolutely inspires me. Coords are always very multi-dimensional  Cursed.Kaiser - They’re coords are honestly so cool, there’s a kind of drama in them that I really like. Darkxdelirium - She almost made me want honey cake with her impeccable coording skills. 

8. What are the top 10 things you love most about lolita? Can you also compile a list of things you hate? ♡ I don’t think I can come up with 10 but I’ll do my best. ♡ Loves: The community aspect, the ability to reclaim my femininity through lolita, the creativity that goes into building coords, crafting to make one of a kind pieces, being able to feel beautiful without being “sexy”, having a hobby to focus on when I need something to escape to.

♡ Hates: Second-hand market price fluctuation, brands still releasing dresses with a max 96cm bust, buying petticoats, storing my stuff (especially purses), brands who charge astronomical prices for low quality materials (AP purses, Q-pot jewelry, etc).

9. How strict are you in applying the rules to yourself? To others? ♡  I am pretty strict on myself. For a long time I was terrified to be seen as ita. I was even afraid to wear bodyline for fear of being ”ita” even though my coord was good. These days I am less strict on myself and worry much less about these things, but I still struggle to get out of the strict mindset from time to time. others? I love experimentation even if I am afraid to do so so I am really not too strict on others, if it works, it works, and I am not going to criticize anyone. 

10. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever incorporated into a coord, or the weirdest material you’ve ever worn? ♡ The weirdest thing I think I have ever worn in a coord were a pair of korilakkuma bell earrings. As you can imagine, bells on your ears? not great.

11. What’s the story behind your discovery of lolita fashion? ♡ When I was a senior in high school, a new girl started attending my school. She wore fairy kei and sweet lolita to school. We became friends through art class and eventually she ended up teaching me about the fashion. She sold me my first dress, and later my first brand piece. I am really glad to have met her and to have been exposed to lolita. You can follow her on instagram here

12. What is the one item that you’ve owned the longest? ♡ I still own my very first dress I got in 2012. Bodyline Squirrel Party. However, I am planning to sell it since I’ve worn it in everyway I can think of.

13. Do you think lolita is only about clothes, or does it also encompass a certain attitude or mindset? ♡ Lolita is about the fashion. All kinds of people are lolitas and they like it or wear it for different reasons. 

14. Have you ever decorated a room or other space (car?) with lolita aesthetics in mind? ♡ My old bedroom used to be very “kawaii”. I love pink so my car stuff, my desk, as much as I can get away with, is pink. 

15. Is it possible to be too obsessed with lolita? ♡ If lolita is interfering with your ability to pay your bills, or to be happy, or to focus on school or work or family then you should probably pull back. Some people do get very absorbed by things and in those cases it can become too much.

16. What are you favorite and least favorite trends? Do you think it’s important to follow them, or to do as you like regardless of them? ♡ My favorite trend ever is the chiffon half blouse. So comfortable, affordable, light, cute, and much more size inclusive. Least favorite trend? mis-matched shoes from the 2010 era. I like my shoes to get equal wear. I think these days more than ever, you can really just do whatever you want. Wear the fashion is right now is like anything goes which I think is great,

17. How do you define “lolita cosplay” and how do you feel about it? ♡ Lolita cosplay is stupid. sorry

18. Are there other fashions that you wear regularly, or are you an everyday lolita? ♡ I don't wear other street fashions anymore. I used to wear fairy kei and himekaji but these days I just dress regular outside of lolita.

19. Do you look for bargains to save as much money as possible, or are you willing to make sacrifices for high-quality products? ♡ I try to find the best prices when applicable but if I am in love with something I’ll do what I have to do.

20. When was the last time you wore lolita, and what did you do that day? If you wear it daily, when was the last time you went OTT or extra-fancy? ♡ The last time I wore lolita was in April lmao. For a virtual meet-up with my comm.

21. If you were to combine lolita fashion with an unrelated style or theme, what would your new creation be? ♡uhhhh I honestly have no idea at all. 

22. What is your favorite accessory, and why is it your favorite? ♡ I have 2, 2-way bow clips from back when bodyline had a massive “sundries” section. They're no longer available and haven't been for a long time. I am really glad I got them, I wish I had bought more sundries when that section was still there.

23. What’s your favorite online lolita community or forum? Are there any that you avoid?  ♡ I don’t have a favorite tbh. I have never been on 4chan and I never will be.

24. What is your favorite theme (e.g. school loli, pirate loli, nurse loli) or motif (e.g. deer, music notes, stars/constellations)? ♡ black and gold stars! Valentines day! fruits! gingham!

25. Is there any music that you associate with lolita? ♡ orange caramel lol

26. Will you ever be too old for lolita? ♡  never

27. Do you enjoy sewing? Why or why not? ♡ I don’t know how to sew :(

28. How does your location affect your involvement in the local lolita community? Would you like to move elsewhere to be closer, or perhaps farther away? ♡ I drive about 1.5 hours for meetups because that’s the closest active comm. I do not mind so much. I’d like to maybe be closer.

29. Does your sleepwear resemble lolita at all? ♡  not at all. I sleep in oversized t-shirts

30. Can you admit to any unpopular opinions regarding lolita? ♡ I hate peeking bloomers. I’m sorry :(

31. How do you feel about Visual kei or Jrock, and do you feel it’s related to lolita, or not? ♡ Love it, and absolutely. Visual Kei is like lolitas relative. 

32. Whether or not you wear them (looking at you, Ouji), do you prefer the look of skirts, JSKs, and OPs with or without prints? ♡ I like both, but these days I am appreciating non-printed items more.

33. How has your style evolved over time? ♡ It hasn't really, just gotten more refined. 

34. If applicable, what other communities do you belong to? What other identities do you adopt? ♡ I’m queer, so the LGBTQ community is important to me.

35. What are your favorite shoes to wear with your style, or what’s your dream pair? ♡ I love heels. I do not like flat shoes because I like to elongate my legs. I don’t have a dream pair.

36. Would you, or have you ever, dressed your pets in lolita? ♡ lol I’d try but I don't think it would work.

37. How do you feel about people who wear lolita for Halloween? Does it depend on whether that person is already a lolita? ♡ Wearing lolita for Halloween as a lolita is fine, but wearing it as a costume is kind of meh.

38. Excluding fashion shows, what’s the most amount of outfits you’ve ever worn in a day? ♡ just 1 haha

39. What’s your worst lolita horror story? ♡  I don’t really have any. I one time went with some of my college friends to a con and I left my dorm building in full sweet early in the morning. I was afraid my dormmates would see me cause I did not want to explain but luckily no one was awake and I made it to the van unscathed. 

40. Do you like sweets? If so, what’s your favorite dessert? ♡ I love angel food cake 

41. Do you have any beauty products, health routines, or special diet to keep you at your best? ♡ I take co-q-10 for my eczema, I like laneige lip sleeping mask, especially in the winter.

42. What were the best and worst meetups you’ve hosted? If you haven’t hosted, would you like to someday? ♡ I wanted to host a garden meet this summer but covid ruined that. Maybe next year.

43. Who is your favorite artist? If not famous for lolita art, do you think they have lolita appeal? ♡ I love a lot of artists, some of them I think are lolita-adjacent because their style is kawaii. I’ll list some here: jisaaaa!  ubokhee MISOART_ meowwniz gojio_ hanavbara Fancy Surprise Arcade Healer Yurie Sekiya and many many more. Go stalk my following on instagram for lots of kawaii artists.

44. How do you feel about wigs? Do you wear any, or style your natural hair? ♡ I used to wear wigs, but my hair is too long now so I use my natural hair with fake bangs.

45. What’s your favorite animal motif? ♡ bears?

46. Have you ever visited a brand’s shop/boutique? If so, what was your reaction? If not, what shop would you most like to visit? ♡ I want to visit AP San Francisco 

47. Do you think posting photos of your coord online is a crucial part of belonging to the community? ♡ YES, it’s how we all stay connected and inspired 

48. How has the lolita community changed since you became a part of it? Where do you see lolita heading in the future in terms of community and networking? ♡ I think it’s become way more accepting and accessible. When I got into lolita there were virtually no legit resellers, the community was entirely on livejournal, buying second hand was a nightmare. Buying anything! was a nightmare. There was so much stress around looking “ita”, and the superiority of brand. These days its just not like that. So much amazing taobao brands have really helped even the field for lolita. We have so much more access to the clothes, the community, everything. It’s great. I only see it getting better as years go on.

49. What advice would you give someone who is nervous about starting lolita? Or do you think they should learn their own lessons? ♡ I think too many lolitas today rely on seasoned lolitas to tell them everything. I would say, go watch lovely lor, read @lolita-tips and look at other peoples coordinates. Lolita Tips tumblr taught me basically everything I know back in the day and it a wealth of info and concrit. Part of what makes the lolita journey so great is the research, the learning, the mistakes. You don’t wanna be like someone else, you wanna be you. So you really need to do the work yourself so you can put your personal flair into the fashion. That’s when it’s at its best. 

50. What’s your dream dress/garment? Is it a faraway goal or have you obtained it? ♡ My dream dress was AP sweetie violet jsk in lavender. Which I got in 2019. My new dream dress is AP rose tea garden jsk in navy. It’ll probably be a while before I can afford to buy one.

51. How do you feel about the stereotype that lolitas are full of drama? What’s the worst drama you’ve ever witnessed or been involved in? ♡ I think any and all groups of people are bound to have drama. I don’t believe that’s specific to lolita at all. I personally have not been involved in any lolita drama.

52. Are you loyal to any particular makeup brands? ♡ I am very particular about my makeup because I do not like to use certain ingredients. I really like Pacifica. But I also like some Korean brands like The Saem, MISSHA, and TonyMoly.

This was super long but I had fun answering all the questions. Have you done this questionnaire? I’d love to see your answers~

[foegold]

people be wanting to know about a lil blue bastard. this ones long as hell so its under the cut jsdhfg

Your character wasn’t an adventurer, what livelihood would they lead?

farmer! he’d just keep living the way he’d been living. it’s the sort of life he imagines he’ll return to one day, after he’s seen and done enough. ‘enough’ is a really arbitrary end goal though

Who in the party would your character trust the most with their life?

who in the party wouldn’t he trust with his life tbh. in the most literal sense he’d trust Eli with it just because he knows Eli can bring him back from dying in some stupid and ill-advised way

What are your character’s core moral beliefs?

frogs are good, try to be nice to people but if they’re mean to you first then at least a few bets are off, the rich should probably be eaten. killing is sometimes necessary but maybe try some other stuff first

What relationship does your character have with their parents and siblings?

he doesn’t have any siblings, and his relationship with his mom and recently present dad is. a little weird, and not all the way comfortable, and not like really bad, but just confusing? it’s confusing. at least he’s had more transparency from his mom recently than just about any other time. it’s a start

Does your character have any biases for or against certain races?

he trusts other tieflings a little quicker than other races but its not really saying much because he’s not smart and if you’re good at talking and sound like you know what you’re talking about he’ll just believe you. he doesn’t have the good sense to second think it without prompting

What is your character’s opinion on nobility? On authority?

so far just about every interaction with nobility has been messy or bad or scary or all three so right now the opinion is “not great”. also thats just too much money. whaddahell would you do with that much money.  he’s generally uneasy with authority figures at best, and flat out paralyzed by them at worst. he’s easy to bully when he doesn’t have anyone backing him up and he knows and hates it

Describe your character’s current appearance: clothes, armor, scars they’ve picked up along the journey, etc.

he cycles through an assortment of sweaters but the one he wears the most is the heart sweater he got in Wunjo that’s been altered a few times in the last few months. he do keep collecting those scars tho, before starting adventuring he had a handful of minor scars just from working around the farm with the animals and the equipment and from romping around in the country. now he’s got all sorts, but the most prominent ones are: the thin scar on the left side of his face, starting just below the eyebrow and curving gently below his eye (the last time Leo would leave a mark on him); the twisted angry scars across his torso from being mauled by a giant undead horse(?); and the fluid, patterned necromancy scars slowly spreading across his back, creeping along inch by inch

What location encountered in the campaign has your character felt the most “at home” in, or just generally liked the most?

besides his own house, Roman’s house has been the nicest! its warm and theres soup and friends there. there was a run down little ranch house somewhere at some point, but he’s not so sure anymore that he didn’t just dream about fixing the place up with his best friend

What deity, if any, does your character worship? What’s their opinion on other people’s worship?

he doesn’t have a god he actively worships, but he’s peripherally aware of the god in the mountains that’s responsible for some of the most brutal storms in the region. he doesn’t care much about religion but hes got the same amount of concern most people would have about evil deities and what their followers do

If your character had time to pick up any artisan’s tools, game set, instrument, etc., what would it be?

probably woodworking! its handy, it’s useful for living out in the country where you have to either make the tools or furniture or fun items to put on a shelf you want, or go out of your way and also spend money to get them. maybe an actual alchemy set and/or poison kit but 1) playing with poison just a fun hobby for him and Xan to get into when they have the time and the plants for it, and 2) man he wouldnt follow the instruction manual anyway so whats the point

What aspect of your character’s future are they most curious about? (If they could know one thing about the future, what would it be?)

will his friends be okay? will he be okay? is there an FAQ for tieflings learning that they’re much closer to fiend lineage than they originally thought? that would be convenient and helpful. is john gonna figure out more about the little men named ‘adam’ that’re allegedly everywhere?  if he could know one thing about the future, he’d like to know if everything will end out okay. if things will turn out as nice as he’d like them to.

What colors are associated with your character?

looks at the camera like im on the office

blue, white, and black are the big ones but im trying to pepper in a few other colors. reds and yellows are a close second

Who in the party would your character prioritize rescuing, in dire circumstances?

everyone sits squarely in the #1 spot on the rescue list

that aside john and roman are extremely high priority, they’re not the sturdiest and if something looked at them too hard they might keel over. baster and xan come next, he knows baster’s a shit brick house but he keeps seeing bad things happen to her and really hes just had Enough of it. eli’s a little lower priority because they can heal themselves if they’re in a tight spot, and then blu considers himself least concern. he knows he can get thrashed around some and still survive, he’d rather take a beating and know he’ll walk out of it than let someone else take it and wind up dead

Is your character the most swayed by ethos, pathos, or logos?

pathos, it’s easy to make him feel for u. legit any of them work though as long as you talk it up good enough he’ll believe you and if there aren’t any glaring conflicts between what you’re selling him and his base morals then it’s relatively easy to get him on board

If your character was granted a single use of Wish, what would they use it for?

idk probably something really simple that he put all of .5 of a second of thought into. hes not smart and doesnt have good foresight so he’d probably ask for a frog or smth unless there was something very much more pressing and present

What is your character’s favorite spell? If they don’t use spells: what is their favorite personal weapon/combat maneuver/skill/etc.?

favorite(?) spell is life transference. it hurts a bit but it keeps his friends safe so it’s worth it. invisibility is up there too, its fun and easy to steal from stores when ur not visible

How does your character feel about keeping secrets from the rest of the party?

he doesn’t like lying and also lies really poorly. he’s usually just honest from the get-go, its easier and feels better. if he has to lie its through omission, bold faced lies really just dont work

What type of creature in the world is your character the most intrigued by?

all sorts....bro the world is full of animals and lots of them like to be pet

When they were a child, what did your character want to be, or think they were going to be, when they grew up?

he thought he’d grow up and be a farmer like his mom, the adventuring thing was extremely unplanned and impromptu. he hoped he could be a kind and brave person though, the way Canna described his dad.

The player character to your left admits that they’re passionately in love with your character. How would your character respond?

random roll says it’s Roman, he’d probably laugh because the only reason that would happen is because the party is fooling around with potions again. Roman’s very married and very in love with his husband and makes sure everyone knows it all the time

If somebody (an NPC, someone from their backstory, etc.) your character trusts/loves asked your character to do something against the party’s best interest, who would they side with?

that doesn’t seem like a very viable circumstance, the only npc thats important enough that he’d listen to for something like that is his mom and she actively encourages him to take care of himself and his friends, and lets him make his own decisions about what he’s doing with his life, so

What unusual talents does your character possess?

idk if its all that unusual of a talent but he got really good at stealing and pickpocketing and he can do a sick flip. also does some black magic sometimes

What does your character’s name represent to them? (Or: why as a player did you choose your character’s name?)

it’s his name, u kno. bluebell is his middle name, but Canna called him bluebell growing up and he latched onto it a lot more than arden, and he thinks its a nice name, and a nice flower, and it sure would be nice if people would stop laughing when he introduces himself as “Blu”,

(blu was originally a stand-in name until i named him something else but it really grew on me and it fit him so! it didnt change, he just got other names too)

What major arcana tarot card best represents your character?

The Moon. 👀

What is your character’s relationship with magic? Are they scared of it, wish to know more about it, indifferent to it?

he’s def scared of magic sometimes, especially his own. he also really wants to understand it better though, and be less scared, or at least control it better. imo it’s a healthy fear, theres been lots of magic mishaps 

How did your character learn the languages that they speak?

he learned common and infernal from mom! and he’s learning draconic from xan. it’s a nice downtime activity, sit down with ur best friend and homie and learn a new language just for fun

[likeabulletyoucanhurtme]

So here’s some more questions you didn’t want answered by someone you don’t care about :) 

Have you ever hit yourself in the head with a cabinet door? Yeah, hasnt everyone?

Are you currently talking to someone that you don’t like? No. Why would I talk to someone if I didn't like them?

Your best friend gets arrested for shoplifting. Are you shocked? Yeah, whats she shoplifting for she has a child and responsibilities lol

Last time you caught up with an old friend? Saw some at a gig last month but none of my friends ever wanna meet me

Do you say things just to hear yourself talk? Nope. wordsareveryunnecessarytheycanonlydoharm

Does your printer have a USB port on it? I don't have a printer

Have you ever said you were going to go to bed early but never did? Consistently

Have you ever seen an accident so horrific that it scarred you for life? Nope

Do you love to ‘rain on people’s parades’ (figuratively speaking)? No. If people are happy then that's good for them :) socomerainonmyparadecauseiwannafeelit

Does it annoy you when people don’t say ‘brb?’ No because it's not MSN, but also because the one person that does has more likely fell asleep if they're not responding thisisntgoodbyeitsbrb

Does it annoy you when people don’t say bye before they leave? No, I mean I do but it doesn't annoy me when other people don't

Ever worn a top that was so tight that you could barely even breathe? Never

Would you wear uncomfortable clothes just because they were stylish? Why or why not? All my clothes are comfortable, however I will continue to wear converse or new rocks even though my ankles were bleeding, and I will always wear hoodies even when it's far too hot for them

Have you ever made fun of someone’s name? Yeah but nothing serious like only with people I know irl and only to annoy them or take the piss, nothing they'd cry about

Do you feel like watching a certain movie right now? If so, which movie would that be? Nah I've got over 200 on my list to watch right now though should probably be doing that instead of this lol Next one is The Wailing

Last time you found a writing utensil on the ground? idk it's not really a thing that happens consistently in my life tbh

How much money do you usually get from digging in the sofa cushions? None because I don't sit on the couch with money in my pockets

Have you said sorry and meant it, but denied that you apologized later on? No, I do not believe I have

Are you the peace destroyer or the peace maker? I don't start fights if that's what you mean, however my singing destroys the peace constantly

Do you truly believe that miracles exist? No. I believe that there's some things we just can't explain with science yet but there will be an answer there somewhere

Is apologizing one of the hardest things for you to do? Yeah. I've only really had to do it twice this year after I realise I fucked up and it hurts me how hurtful I was to both of those undeserving peoples

Is revenge your specialty? Nope, I'll just be petty and hold grudges but won't actually plot revenge....and after a while I'll probably forget about it tbh threecheersforsweetrevenge

What do you think of good descriptive writing? I'm jealous of people who can do it

Is there someone you are trying to be friends with all over again? Nah, you can't force friendship, it's either there or its not.

Do you often set yourself up for unintentional heartbreaks? Nah all heartbreaks are intentional and I set myself up for them all the time

Is heartbroken as bad as it sounds or worse than it sounds? Well yeah its not all rainbows and kittens lol or it would be called something else by now

Do you think it is sweet when an elderly woman kisses you on the cheek? I'd think it was a gross invasion of privacy, and sexual assault

Are you kind of uneasy with letting people buy stuff for you? Idk no one buys stuff for me so idk how I'd feel. I do buy people drinks if theyve bought me them

You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone. Do you agree? Yes theypavedparadiseandputupaparkinglotoohbababaoohbababa

Have you ever thought about how you were gonna kill someone? If so, why? What made you so angry? Yes, because they were a nazi cunt

Are you good at remaining neutral? I stay out of most things tbh and don't find out half of what happened until at least waaaay later.

Would you investigate the paranormal if you had the opportunity? Nope

Do crop circles fascinate you? no

Are you familiar with the ‘Emo Kid Song?’ Excuse me I think you'll find it's called I Must Be Emo and its been on my playlist since 2k6+1 imanemokidnonconformingascanbeyoudbenonconformingtooifyoulookedjustlikeme

Does the inside of your ear ever itch? Yeah

Do you respect other people’s opinions? I respect their right to have opinions, but also reserve the right to take the piss out of them if they are silly

If you don’t like someone’s opinion, do you make it known to them? Well yeah I mean you can believe what you believe and if I think you're an idiot I will say so

If you had to treat everyone the same, would that be hard? Well I'm not gonna treat some idiot at work the same way I would a family member lol but on a wider sense people should be treated the same by governments and businesses and have the same rights etc

Ever met a baseball player? If so, did you get his autograph? No. And tbh I think its a bit self-important to call something a world series if it's only played in one country.

Do you like to scare away the sales people? No one comes to my door to sell stuff so I never have to

Have you joined a site just because your friend joined? Well I was kinda lateish getting a facebook but that was more boredom and because all friends had joined not just one specific friend

Would you find being a secretary boring? I'd probably find it difficult because I do not have the required skill set for the job, but yeah I'd probably get bored just because I don't find work interesting in general.

Is your computer mouse an optical one? My laptop has a trackpad - no mouse

Have you tried to stay in contact with someone, but they ignored you? Not really, I'm normally the one that forgets to reply and ends up ignoring the other person

Would you rather be a psychic or a mind reader? What did you choose and why? I'd rather be a mind reader, but only if I can choose when to use it I don't wanna just hear everyones thoughts all the time, and because psycics are a load of shit and prey on the weak

Do you remember saying ‘I hate you’ to someone when you were a kid? No. I mean I'm sure I did but I don't remember it

Would you be afraid to sleep in your backyard? I don't have one

Does the idea of camping just scare you for some reason? No. I've been camping before - Scottish style which was basically bored teenagers, a tent and alcohol :)

Have you ever seen a coyote in real life? No. True Men Don't Kill Coyotes ridingwildonapaisleydragonthroughthehollywoodhills

Have you ever heard footsteps on your roof in the middle of the night? No

Is there a person you love more than life itself? Yes

Do you have a possession (that isn’t a person) that you protect constantly? Yeah phone

Do you have anything locked up in a vault? Nah the only thing locked up is my emotions

Do you have a hard time controlling your temper? Or do you just not have a bad temper? I work in customer service, of course I have a bad temper. The mute button is my friend <3

If you had to choose one way to die, which would it be? Brain aneurysm maybe? Unknowingly, quick and possibly painless

Would you rather die saving someone or fighting for your own life? I'd rather die saving someone but I don't know if I'm that brave. I'd probably volunteer to trade myself for them but as soon as I've said it ill be like "WTF dude??"

Have you ever gone into a public bathroom just to call someone? No, thats just weird? I don't want to smell shit when I'm on the phone.

[anxietywriter]

Literary Nerd on Peaky Blinders

Little bit of a literary nerd reference (hello, writing blog) and i've recently been watching clips of Peaky Blinders (looks interesting might watch it? idk i have a thing about watching long things)

Feel free to scroll past! (i don't blame u i'd rather be watching edits too ngl) and tbh this might've already been noticed, it's also probably entirely unintentional but a great coincidence!

ANYWAYS so I personally found THIS clip to be particularly interesting (warning- dead animal): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2iikafjdaYI

(It's from Series 5 Episode 4)

Now the whole drunk husband job thing, not super similar, like not even the type of bird is the same, but strangling a bird (cause of death)? Now THAT sounds familiar. Granted, in the story I'm thinking of the wife just straight up murders her husband, but I just thought it was a fun little similarity that reminded me of this story: A Jury of Her Peers - Susan Glaspell (1917)

I'm putting a keep reading here because there's spoilers for the story and y'know if you want to read the whole story i don't want to spoil the *intrigue* for you. Fair warning though: mentioned animal death and murder

If you do decide to take peek (story) CONTENT WARNING: animal death, past animal cruelty (not joking, it gets a little intense with the death&cruelty of animals), murder(strangulation; mentioned only in reference to the case), time-period sexism(also not kidding there are like 3 men in the story and they're all condescending).

Essentially, the husband is very miserly, keeps a tight fist on all his money right? And in the 1900's, women's jobs was to manage the house, which meant that generally they would cooks, clean, decorate, etc. The stove is so busted, it's very difficult to work it and as a farm wife there's a lot of stuff to clean, things get dirty easy. And she can't even decorate her home because guess what? no money for decor.

To make it worse poor girl spent a lot of her time isolated, with her husband gone to work and having neighbors that were fairly far away and didn't come to visit because the house was too sad. And no phone bc guess what? no money for the lines. So she was MISERABLE.

Then, a merchant comes buy selling canaries for cheap. She buys one. And boy, it sings like how she sang when she was younger, when she was HAPPY y'all. Then the husband gets ANGRY and takes away that last piece of happiness in her life, he wrenches the poor thing's neck.

Girl LOSES it dude. Poetic justice at its finest, she strangles the man in his sleep.

[norsesuggestions]

Actally as an Italian I am curious about northener traditional foods? I mean you don't see traditional, say, Swedish restaurants around. What would you say are the traditional dishes? :)

well sweden and food is a fascinating topic so i will try to answer it with some points.

the reason you do not see any traditional swedish food restuarants around is that our traditional food was considered “bad food for peasants and other common - folk ”. our upper - class would eat food inspired by whatever european country was in right then among the swedish powerful.

so italian food during the 16th century, french food during the 18th century etc.

although when i say that, they did just eat “italian inspired” tbh, irl it was still very much…. swedish food.

but my point is this!

in sweden, our own traditional food, is connected to being poor, and “uncultured”. furthermore, this meant that WHEN sweden became like hella rich during the 20th century, the quickly improving living conditions of a majority of the swedish population, meant that we throwed out our own food as… hmmm garbage? well, not entiraly, but we suddenly stopped eating so large parts of our previous traditional cuisine. because those dishes was seen as “poverty food”.

with that, we therefore suddenly sat and ate only the most fancy parts of the cow meat, potato and cream based sauce, because thats what the poor swedes of the past dreamt of eating. if that makes sense? so ANYWAY, this makes swedish cuisine more boring than it really has ponitital to be.

there are lots of fun historical dishes, but we have like….. stopped eating 99% of it.

BUT

it has been trendy the last 10 years about, in sweden to make these super expansive hipster versions of traditional swedish food. but its not like that…. spreads to the majority of the population, because it is so damn expansive.

but ANYWAY, people would say that traditional swedish food is what is served at the christmas/midsommar/easter smörgåsbord (it is basically the same dishes lol), but it has that previously mentioned fallacy, that all that is preserved on that table, is the ideal of party food. it is not the day to day food of our ancestors, because, yeah its the party food!

but on that smörgåsbord is something like this: 

meat, from so many animals, served with almost no spices. just like large chuncks of meat.

butter

fish, raw

fish, salted

fish, gravad

fish, dried

did i mention fish? so much fish.

porridge

sausage. most likely salt.

meatballs

plain boiled potatoes

cabbage. boiled

ham

the dishes are like very. hmmm. like if the meal is ham, you get a ham alright. then you just eat that ham. it is very. 1 flavor per food item. and then you just eat them all. seperatly.THAT BEING SAID

as i mentioned previously this is the party food, so one is showing off all those fancy ingriedens you managed to get. also! many of these meals are actually pretty complicated to creat BEFORE you serve them. like all that fish. it is not cooked, but there are lots of stuff, going on to get it to become all those different types of fish.

but traditionally, we ate like so much animal products, and we ate everything, because we needed too. we also ate plenty of blood dishes. porridge was our version of pasta, and we ate it non - stop. we also ate lots of unyeasted bread. spices were actually very popular, but imported ones was ofcourse expansive. but there are plenty of herbs that grows in sweden, that was used for spices.

there was also lots of organs of the animals eaten. things like. animal lung. as i said, every single thing eaten of the animal!

we also eat things from the cabbage family, and that swede veggie. most of them very… intensely boiled.

berries! so much jam, because jam is a also a way to preserve food.

everything is btw either fermented, strongly salted or strongly sweet, BECAUSE we needed to preserve all our food. they are all preservering methods. anyway, that thing still remain in modern swedish cuisune. that is, we still eat absurdly salt food, because are as a culture used to our food being equally salt as licking a salt cube haha.

ALSO there is as a mentioned some fun traditonal dishes of sweden, that are hardly eaten anymore, but i wished we would try to develop a bit more. but like, most swedes are not interested in these dishes, because as a previously mentioned we considered it “poverty food from poor sweden”, wherehas we like…. look down on our own food traditions?

we often talk about stories like this about historical swedish food:

“in the past they described the food of dalarna like this: the butter had gone bad, the bread was mouldy, the fish was rotten, but still we forced it down”.

like hmmm, as a society narrative, our grandparents generation about, remember traditional swedish food, as something one forced down, while one needed to, but with no joy. i should mention, that sweden historically, had lots of major famines (in particular during the 18th century, but 19th century too. the last big nation-wide famine, in sweden, happenedin 1866–1868. but! starvation remained a major society problem in sweden during the entire 19th century, and also during the early 20th century). food was like….. for those people building the new sweden back in the early 20th century, the food of the common people, was connected with many negative emotions.

but! here are some fun things, i wish would be more popular again in sweden, and with that get new fun variations! note, that i picked these because they are interesting, they do not represent our entire food culture.

like we got kroppkakor, which are kinda the same concept as dumplings

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kåldomar! (our version of cabbage rolls)

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blodpalt (and all other versions of palt too, but thought i would show off blodpalt, which is the version my mother grew up eating. it is palt, with blood in flour).

palt was like, historically super loved meal. and many still love it! i really wish to eat it some day…… the love for palt still lives in the swedish expression “paltkoma” (= palt+koma). an expression which is about the feeling one gets after eating a nice filling meal (and perhaps even too much of that meal, because it was so nice!).

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Blodpudding.

it is pig blood. and flour. perhaps so herbs. thats it. it has a boring taste. it is also, like the most cheap thing ever in swedish supermarkets. which is why, i ate this alot as a child, when my parents had tight with money. this one is pretty dull flavour wise, but i do wish people would popularize more fun too eat than just chewing down the blood bread, which is tbh what it is haha.

because damn is it cheap!

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tunnbröd.

ok i admit, this one is still very popular. but i wanted to mention it, because it those unyeasted breads. and also, i love eating it!

final words

oh also! in sweden we call our traditional food “husmanskost”. that translates roughly to like, “the food of the everyday household”. there is no fine dining traditon that is considered to be swedish as such. allthough, if one comes to sweden and eat italian food served here, it is not the same as in italy, so there is also a fine dining traditons, but we do not talk much about them.

also, we sold olive oil in sweden in tiny bottles at the pharmacy to the 1970s. furthermore, in the 1970s swedes in general met international food. it was a…. special time. there are so many amusing reciptes invented back then, by swedes seeing a fruit for the first time in their lives.

special mention to “Gino”, a dish invented at a swedish restuarant but sold as a “italian dessert”.

it is canned fruit with melted choclate on. choclate melted in the oven, which also heat up the fruit. thats it. thats the entire dessert haha.

[nbsilvally]

getting some thoughts because it’s getting closer to my birthday, about myself, about my birthday, and the past few years in my current developments

it’s a... really long post so please if you’re reading it, like it or just take the time to read it.

cw serious depression? maybe suicide talk

it’s another holiday season approaching me and last year i managed to have a birthday i could enjoy with friends.  but this year, i really don’t have anyone here in person to celebrate with and it sucks a bit.  I have my mom and I could go to the game shop for a bit, but rly i don’t have any friends i could just call up and say “hey, let’s hang” at this moment.  a lot of folks are going out of town for my birthday or with family and it leaves me in a point where i’ve also had my birthday forgotten by everyone in a near sixteen candles experience on my 21st and been told to shut up about it and how it’s not that special when i was 19 and excited about it (yes, i remember it.)

i’ve always been feeling outcast and i don’t know if it’s me or majority of people just act cautiously around me because like i feel like no one knew how to really talk to me without treating me like i’m inexperienced or stupid and it just, i get it.  At times, i’m hard to talk or i can make things feel forced but it’s not like i mean to (i still apologize if i ever put you in a position like that and please understand if i message you that you can just get back to me whenever).  It’s hard to feel included in friend groups or circles and i guess i always been sort of a group hopper w/ a set of friends who i just stick to between groups or interests.  I don’t feel comfortable sticking my foot in just one circle i guess.  It’s hard to describe,

It’s just weird because 23 is my first real adult birthday i feel.  I’m out of school, i’m out of a job temporarily, all i’m doing is stressing over bills and work, i’m still planning how i’m gonna start saving money with the new job, and there’s a lot incoming in the next few weeks that I don’t know how i’ll handle tbh.  I’ve been forced to be on my own working w/ Walmart (well until i got fired). So I realized how cut off from people in person I’ve become.

This year is also closing too so I guess 2017 + 22 has been... an experience of itself.  There’s a lot I wanna say to specific people and I can’t fully express my emotions right now because my head is a jumble but i also had no background noise.  

Let’s start with just myself.  Self discovery was a huge thing.  I’ve really neglected my own health and old habits really kept me in spots along with struggling w/ depression and i guess separation anxiety. There’s another thing I’ve always wondered if I had but I can’t say until I check w/ a professional.   However, let’s focus on the positives....?  I’ve learned to finally cope with being alone, sort of.  It’s been a couple of years where Zan finally been focusing on school and I haven’t fully had a chance to just grow on my own when he and I constantly talked.  So when he’s been busy, I’ve been forced to let go of Codependency.  I had to learn to take care of myself and stop pitpatting my feet around and buckle down.  The issue was when I was school, I feel like there was a level of things I could focus and buckle down on, while now on my own, I couldn’t really not focus.  Now I’m focusing trying to break out of doing things dependent on others.  It’s not easy but I was talking with Ven and I’m half considering taking long walks/jogs every now and then up to Walmart and back (~3 hours just walking).  I’m unfortunately really picky but I... really need to work on eating better.  I just haven’t been able to escape these mindsets but I will get to it when I build the courage the take the step.

I still have a lot to work on but I’m going to be 23.  I have time.  I will work on my goals and buckle down this year and hopefully by next year this time, I’ll be out of South Carolina.

Now, to people who just helped me through it out.

Zan, my boyfriend and my love and light, you’ve done a lot, just working hard on your own.  We haven’t had time to do many dates because you’re busy with school or with Addy and your life outside the computer, but it’s okay.  I know you’re working hard and we’re trying to find little things to do together and talk about again recently.  I’ve missed moments where we could call and sleep together, whispering sweet things to each other and just say I love you, but it’s good we’re independent because if we’re as dependent as we were on another, it’d fall me back into codependency and I can’t afford to just live based off what you’re doing.  I’m going to grow and when we see each other again, I will show you I’m doing my best, and I can’t wait to see you again.

Ven, 2017 was the year we really did become best friends.  I met you vaguely 2 years ago and really, I couldn’t ask for anyone better.  Meeting you in person?  It really showed me good things do happen to those who wait in a year of disasters and messes.  I couldn’t be prouder of you too.  You’ve grown stronger, even through the hardships and struggles you’ve been through yourself.  We’ve talked about my feelings a lot and you’ve always been so considerate and even if you thought you said something that sounded wrong with problems, it wasn’t a problem because I knew you wouldn’t mean it in a bad way.  There’s just a level of even if I’m constantly apologizing or freaking out, I feel like I can do it comfortably around you because you’re just really comfortable to be around.  You’ve also helped me out in tight money spots and I wish I could pay you back in triple.  When you visited, I just got too excited to do everything, even if we couldn’t and if you happen to swing by again or whenever I’m there, I hope you know I’m going to be excited to travel around and explore, and that’s mainly because it’s with you.  I really appreciate you Ven and you’re one of most trusted, caring, and real friends I could ever ask for, and you honestly just... really taught me what a friend really feels like.

Seren, PokeRP on twitter was fun and you as Silvally and me as Lusamine crack rping was one of the best things i’ve had for a while we laughed and got together.  There was a level of my anxiety after discord’s stuff and i fled after the bot incident but I really do enjoy talking with you and learning your opinion on stuff, even if i might not agree (but YOU WAS RIGHT ABOUT USUM!!!!).  Your cosplay and art are really good and I admire your hardwork and effort a lot. I’m glad I decided to do pokerp, cause i met you.

Mix, you’re a pretty fantastic person to just talk with about visual novels and anime and learning a LOT about all the general topics you know.  Sure, you speak a lot and it can be hard to keep up sometimes, but I still try because you do provide a lot of helpful/interesting stuff and if there’s anything I can do too, I can go to you and you can be real.  Even if we clash heads a bit.  However, we have to just clash a bit to meet an understanding.  You’ve been through a long journey of learning and growing yourself and I can say you’ve changed from the Mix I’ve knew in 2011-2012.  

Emma, between meeting you w/ Total Drama and having similar interests, I think Tanboards is where I got to know you best honestly and between learning more about you and you tbh helping me learn about topics in general, it really has helped me grow.  I really appreciate you helping me out too a lot where I’ve been in tight spots, between signal boosting and money.  You’ve been a good friend and you really do deserve the best (so does all of Tanboards).

Appmon community, I never really got to know you until part 2 honestly, but I really felt welcomed into a fandom that was small but easy to talk with about the show.  We all really connected and it was amazing to watch w/ you guys weekly and experience the show, theorizing, talking, gushing over it.  Appmon movie when?

Fei, we don’t get to talk often but I appreciate you.  Really.  Sorry I don’t have much to say but I just really enjoy talking with you and getting to know you over the past few years has been one of the best friendships i’ve had. I really love your art too.

Free, same thing about not having been rly talking recently but your friendship means a lot to me and I really hope I can see you again.  I miss hanging w/ you in person. 

I have a lot more I can say but I’m tired but... If we’ve interacted, no matter how small its been, you’ve made a difference somehow,

even through the near suicide attempts I’ve made and the hard times where nothing seem positive and I’ve just wanted to just die or stop, you all made it an easier year to go through and here’s to 23 years, with every all of you there with me.  Thank you.  

Thank you so much.  I couldn’t get through this without all of you, no matter how much you’ve interacted with me.  It’s because of y’all that I’m still here.  Honestly.

[zoesrhees]

somehow i ended up w six characters again :// i’d love some more plots so under the read more you can learn about zoe, true, ruby, bruno, marisol & rocio come plot w me!! i’m gonna try & work on replies before passing out so if u like this post i will come to u tomorrow!

zoe [arden cho fc] 20, kappa gamma vp, cheerleader, virgo, poli-sci & pre-law major;

flighty and forgetful af sticks her foot in her mouth bunches

ally mcbeal & elle woods are her heroes wants to be just like them; at the very least somewhat like them

is a little ridiculous and over the top sometimes, stupidly dramatic in the most nonsensical of ways, will probably drag herself on the floor and weep if she hasn’t eaten in three hours just a huge idiot that makes a fuss out of the littlest of things

grew up in san antonio, tx and her and her fam moved to pennsylvannia right before she started high school

zoe’s dad is in sports medicine he used to be a trainer for the san antonio spurs & now works for the 76ers so she’s huge into sports especially basketball

she wears short skirts she’s cheer captain & she’s also on the bleachers!!!

no really she really likes short skirts???

very very self conscious and has a lot of self doubt doesn’t think she can be successful worries and stresses over everything wants to make her parents proud

lowkey a hoe but like in the sense that she’s a HUGE hopeless romantic and just hopes that one day she’ll have her hollywood style romance

can be selfish, stubborn and extremely shallow at times

the sort of person that will get roasted and then think of a comeback hours later

will literally RUN AWAY in an uncomfortable situation like g2g :///

just a big giant walking awkward meme honestly

true [ ricky whittle fc] 25, epsilon kappa tau, pres, taurus, pre-med major;

took some time off after high school before coming to college to travel and explore

lived most of the time with his aunt in paris and worked in a little deli could have probably lived and gone to school there

met the love of his life there, had all sorts of adventures and this was probably the most lighthearted and content and blissful he was

stayed in paris and got into a pretty bad accident that really destroyed his left leg, walks with a cane now, hooked on pain pills, some of it is psychosomatic

grumpy old man 999% of the time though he’s gotten a lot better he still makes a lot of deprecating jokes about being a cripple etc etc etc

v fashioned after dr. house tbh

completely out of touch with technology had a flip phone until about six months ago and now all he knows how to do is swipe to unlock

has probably asked siri a bunch of stupid questions

family man through and through though there are some very big shoes to fill in his fam

doesn’t get a lot of the things “the kids” are into honestly

ruby [marie avgeropoulos fc] 20, kappa gamma kappa, gymnastics co-cap, cancer, marine biology major

the definition of that old expression sweet summer child

gentle, sweet, honest, caring, humble

super into gymnastics, could hve made the australian olympic team at some point

super worrisome, self-blaming, self-deprecating, would literally give anyone the shirt off her back, too trusting for her own good

hasn’t had the best experiences though she tries to push that away barely talks about it with anyone but her older brother because he’s seen some horrors himself

loves to snorkel and dive would one hundred percent live off the grid if she could

huGe science dork but admittedly not the best student in the world

obsesses over everything that could go wrong, cries a lot, has a vehement need to be liked and validated

loves openly and fiercely and perhaps a little too easily

kindest little soul v pure

marisol [cierra ramirez fc] 20, omega alpha chi, scorpio, photojournalism major, newspaper & some other stuff i put her in

miami raised, marisol is LOUD as hell, loves good music, good food and having a good time

mexican & columbian aka mexilumbian aka the best of both worlds v v proud of her heritage

EXTRA ™

semi internet famous she has a good following on instagram and twitter and is honestly known for her posts feat other people where she boasts and heart eyes over them

a huge believer in boosting other people’s confidence will go out of her way to compliment another girl just because even if its something as small as i like your top

bi visibility advocate 

she is maya’s half sister maya was adopted out and marisol literally STALKED her on facebook until she found out what university she was going to and lo and behold here she is!!!

she just doesn’t know how to TELL maya she’s her sister so she’s gonna pretend to admire her from a far

bruno [jarod joseph fc] 21, psi delta, pisces, graphic design major

raised between aus & ny he was born in sydney and was taken in by the fairchild fam after his parents died because they were close friends

looks like he could kill you and is actually a cinnamon roll. meme

really really sensitive, wears his heart on his sleeve an open book

always smiling

very passionate about mashed potatoes!!!

friend to all, bruno is super chill and really nice, really supportive, honestly all he wants to do is get high and eat food 

likes graffiti pretty good at it

idenitifies a lot with troy barnes from community

probably has the most adorable and dorkiest laugh ever

video game NERD

family is REALLY important to him and he’s stuck between a rock and a hard place over the forgiveness of his oldest adoptive brother for leaving

bby  has abandoment issues

misses his parents

rocio [diane guerrero] 21, tau alpha zeta, fine arts major, a bunch of clubs and shit i haven’t decided

her parents were basically travelling hippies who worked with a circus and literally went all over the world

she’s lived in all sorts of places most notably, puerto rico, australia and berlin

was going to be a tight rope walker but she changed her mind

changes her mind A LOt very very fleeting and ephemeral interests

but she’s developed a ton of hobbies and talents because of it

good singer, good tap dancer, can juggle, make ballon animals just a general jack of all trades

very chill, very laid back, really silly 

sells homemade jewelry for extra money

and flower crowns

don’t forget about the flower crowns

never sleeps, currently denying rumors that she’s a vampire

she’s a pacifist, doesn’t fight, doesn’t argue, doesn’t get involved in business that isn’t hers 

jokes about being born out of time a lot and thinks she’s should have lived during the summer of love

her name means dewdrops

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1, 2, 3, 6, 8, 12, 14, 16, 17, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 31, 33, 35, 38, 39, 41, 46, 47, 48 hello friend

headcanon. || accepting!

1. what does their bedroom look like?

          he keeps his space clean and organized – he finds it difficult to relax when it’s not.  his side of the dorm is relatively bare and very well-kept.

2. do they have any daily rituals?

          yukio is very much a creature of habit and does basically the same thing in the same way every day as much as possible.  he doesn’t realize it, but he’s painfully predictable in his everyday actions.

3. do they exercise, and if so, what do they do? how often?

          he does exercise (and he also exorcises, am i right?? haha… end me) to keep in shape for his exorcism jobs.  i don’t know jack shit about exercising but he does the usual stuff, doesn’t skip leg day, all that jazz.  he doesn’t actively try to bulk up, but he exercises to maintain his current shape.  which is pretty good, by the way; he’s not a scrawny nerd by any means.  i mean, he is a nerd, but.  whatever.

6. eating habits and sample daily menu.

answered here.

8. favorite indulgence and feelings surrounding indulging

          his favorite indulgence is probably reading for pleasure, because he’s a giant nerd like that.  but his feelings surrounding indulgence are rather depressing – often he feels as though he doesn’t deserve to, and generally only rewards himself with these small indulgences after a job done especially well.  he’s like… too disciplined tbh.

12. favorite book genre?

answered here.

14. physical abnormalities? (both visible and not, including injuries/disabilities, long-term illnesses, food-intolerances, etc.)

             his moles technically count here – they bother the shit out of him, by the way.  he also has a few scars here and there from his work and training as an exorcist.  hard to come away from that completely unscathed, you know?

16. biggest and smallest long term goal?

            biggest is probably to keep his brother safe so they both live to be happy, healthy adults.  smallest is… i don’t know?  what even is a small long-term goal, like – aren’t long-term goals generally long-term because they’re big goals that can’t be accomplished overnight?

            idk, maybe to read every book in the true cross academy library.  or at least everything that interests him.

17. preferred mode of dress and rituals surrounding dress

            he’s usually in uniform (school or exorcist), but even outside of this he tends to look casually professional: button up shirts, sweaters, sweater-vests, vests, nice trousers, intact jeans, etc.  he usually wears loafers on his days off/for school but tends to stick with more sensible footwear for missions and exorcist duties (hiking/work boots).  the most casual thing you’ll see him in is a hoodie/t-shirt and sweatpants, usually only worn for sleep and workouts or runs.  though you will find him with more adventurous things than you’d expect in his closet – he has black-cat print briefs and some graphic tees that he only ever wears around the dorm, and usually only on laundry days. generally, he likes to keep it professional and keeps his clothes pressed, ironed and folded, so he wears things very well – you’ll never see him with a shirt un-tucked or a tie un-done.

24. is there one subject of study that they excel at? or do they even care about intellectual pursuits at all?

            he’s very good at the sciences but does pretty well in all areas of school.  he studies very, very hard and works his ass off to do his best.  he’s basically the perfect student, which has led to him being something of a strict teacher.

25. how do they see themselves 5 years from today?

answered here.

26. do they have any plans for the future? any contingency plans if things don’t workout?

             his plan for the future kind of went off the rails the night father fujimoto died tbh – he hopes to still accomplish his goals but he’s painfully aware that it might not happen.  as for contingency plans… well, his contingency plan is basically just to keep doing what he’s doing right now – teaching at the academy and working as an exorcist.  he’d like to go to medical school and become an official doctor, but money is tight, and he doesn’t have an abundance of time to worry about that right now with everything that’s going on.

27. what is their biggest regret?

             leaving for the academy early.  he thinks that if he had been home when everything went down, maybe he could have somehow prevented the fight between rin and shiro that led to satan’s possession.  he doesn’t blame rin for their father’s death; he blames himself.

28. who do they see as their best friend? their worst enemy?

             his best friend is probably rin – yukio isn’t particularly social and doesn’t feel he has a lot of time to form new bonds.  he considers the other cram school students his friends – at least, some of them – but he isn’t nearly as close to them as he is to rin.

             his worst enemy… i’m gonna go out on a limb here and say satan.

31. most prized possession?

            a bible, given to him by shiro as a graduation present after he passed the exorcist certification exam.

33. concept of home and family?

            his home will always be the church where he an rin grew up, though true cross academy has certainly weaseled its way into his heart as well.  as for his concept of family, as far as yukio’s concerned, rin is all he has left, and he’s exceedingly important to yukio.

35. what activities do they enjoy, but consider to be a waste of time?

             he doesn’t watch much television for this reason -- while enjoyable (sometimes, depending on the show), it’s a big time waster.  he also really enjoys taking long showers or baths, but he doesn’t very often.

38. what recharges them after feeling drained?

answered here.

39. would you say that they have a superiority-complex? inferiority-complex? neither?

             LAUGHS LOUDLY AT THE SUPERIORITY COMPLEX OPTION NO WAY THIS KID FUCKING HATES HIMSELF.  if anything he has an inferiority complex -- -- -- he’s constantly frustrated with rin’s growing abilities and his own lack of control over anything that happens in his life.  he studies and practices and works incredibly hard in an attempt to compensate for these perceived inadequacies.

41. hobbies?

            reading is a big one, both for pleasure and for research.  he also trains pretty frequently, if that counts?  not just physical exercise, but target practice and other exorcist stuff, like memorizing fatal verses and taming.  he goes on runs.

46. if they were to fall in love, who (or what) is their ideal?

            well, he’s certainly not looking for anyone, but there are a few qualities he would look for in a potential partner: kindness, realism, intelligence, and creativity.  he also likes the idea of being with someone family-oriented. 

47. how do they express love?

            depends on the kind of love to be honest, but mostly through actions.  he’ll go the extra mile for his loved ones, but he’ll also push them to do things for themselves.  he’ll challenge them to better themselves.

48. if this person were to get into a fist fight, what is their fighting style like?

            strategic.  yukio isn’t one to throw himself headlong into anything -- almost all of his majors fights involve a lot of strategy on his part.  he may not have as much raw power as someone like rin, but his power lies in his intelligence.  he knows how to read the situation and how to use his environment to his advantage.