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This time I'm doing "Dear theodosia" or in German "Oh Theodosia" once again, no Cast recording available yet, so I used a totally "legal" recording from YouTube
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Contextual Translation
"so ein" Letters that are left out while singing
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Oh Theodosia, hey du kleines Ding.
Oh Theodosia, hey you little thing
Du hast meinen Blick,
You have my sight,
You have my eyes
Den Namen deiner Mum
The name your mom
The name of your mom
Ich bekam dich in den Arm,
I got you in the arm
I held you in my arms
Du schliefst und mein Herz war hinüber
You slept and my heart was over
You slept and my heart melted
Ich will mit dir all meine Zeit verbringen.
I want with you all my time spend.
I want to spend all of my time with you.
Dieses Gefühl was du in mir entfachst,
This feeling that you in me ignite
This feeling that you ignite within me
Wenn du lachst
When you laugh
Du haust mich um vom ersten Tag
You punch me over from first day
You amaze me since the first day
Und ich hielte mich für so smart
And I held me for so smart
And I thought I was so smart
Du fängst dich, wie dein Land, gerade an zu regen
You start you, like your country, currently on to stir
You, like your country, are starting to stir
Fangt ihr zu laufen an,
Start you to run on
When you'll start running around
passen wir auf und dann,
pass we on and then
We'll watch out and then
Wird was wir heute in eure Wiegen legen
Will what we today in your cribs lay
What we lay into your cribs today will be
Das was euch weiter trägt, auf eurem weiten Weg
That what you continuously carry on your long way
That which will carry you further on your long way
Oh du haust uns alle um
Oh you hit us all over
Oh you will blow us all away
Schon bald, schon bald.
Already soon, already soon.
Soon already, soon already.
Oh du haust uns alle um
Oh you hit us all over
Oh you will blow us all away
Schon bald, schon bald
Already soon, already soon
Soon already, soon already
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Oh Philipp wie du lachst, der schönste Ton, mein Sohn.
Oh Phillip how you laugh, the prettiest sound, my son.
Oh Phillip your laughter is the most beautiful noise, my son.
Das ist mein Sohn
That is my son
That's my son
Stolz ist nicht das Wort an das ich denke
Pride is not the word at that I think
Pride is not the word I'm thinking of
Du bist ein Geschenk und noch viel mehr
You are one present and still much more
You're a present and so much more
Oh Philipp, das ist wie eine Explosion, mein Sohn.
Oh Phillip, that is how one explosion, my son.
Oh Phillip, it's like an explosion, my son.
Du haust mich um, von dem ersten Tag
You hit me over, from the first day
You've blown me away, since the first day
Und ich hielt mich für so smart
And I held me for so smart
And I thought I was so smart
Mein Vater war niemals da
My father was never there
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Mein Vater war niemals da
My father was never there
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Ich schwöre ich bin immer da für dich
I swear I be always there for you
I swear I'll always be there for you
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Ich lasse dich niemals alleine
I let you never alone
I'll never leave you
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Du musst mir manchmal verzeihen
You must me sometimes forgive
You'll need to forgive me sometimes
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Doch ich mache jeden Traum wahr für dich
But I make every dream true for you
But I'll make every dream come true for you
Du fängst dich, wie dein Land, gerade an zu regen
You start you, like your country, currently on to stir
You, like your country, are starting to stir
Fangt ihr zu laufen an,
Start you to run on
When you'll start running around
passen wir auf und dann,
pass we on and then
We'll watch out and then
Wird was wir heute in eure Wiegen legen
Will what we today in your cribs lay
What we lay into your cribs today will be
Das was euch weiter trägt, auf eurem weiten Weg
That what you continuously carry on your long way
That which will carry you further on your long way
Oh du haust uns alle um
Oh you hit us all over
Oh you will blow us all away
Schon bald, schon bald
Soon already, soon already
Already soon, already soon
Oh du haust uns alle um
Oh you hit us all over
Oh you will blow us all away
Schon bald, schon bald
Soon already, soon already
Already soon, already soon
#Youtube#alexander hamilton#germany#hamilton#lyrics#musical theatre#translation#english#aaron burr#wait for it#language#im honestly too tired to be doing this#but still#i wont stop
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can we talk more about avpd being a (proposed) schizospec disorder? because i almost never see that theory talked about but i wish it was. like…
avpd makes me censor my thoughts because i think someone might hear what i’m thinking and see what a horrible person i am on the inside or judge me for thinking embarrassing things.
avpd makes me so afraid of someone walking in on me doing something i Shouldn’t Be Doing that my brain twists background noise into the sounds of whispers and footsteps behind me.
avpd makes me so worried about people staring at me that in my peripheral vision, anyone near me looks like they’re already staring at me, and it’s only when i look at them directly that i realize they’ve been looking in a totally different direction the whole time.
avpd makes me so convinced of how much everyone must secretly hate me that i often start thinking everyone secretly wants to hurt me too, to the point where i’ve had panic attacks from a person walking too close behind me because i feel like they’re getting ready to attack me (when i haven’t had any kind of trauma that would create that fear), and the paranoia just serves to reinforce my need to avoid people.
avpd makes me lose my ability to speak or reduces it to nothing more than one word answers only when spoken to, turning the thoughts i wanted to express into a jumble that’s impossible to turn into words or just throwing them away completely and making my mind go blank, so i end up just staring at people silently or even acting like i don’t see them standing there at all (not on purpose but because my brain won’t let me engage with them).
avpd makes me look damn near emotionless around everyone but my safe person (and sometimes even around my safe person) because showing my emotions would be far too vulnerable for its liking, so it completely takes away my ability to express them.
and i could keep going! there are so many things i experience because of avpd that i’ve seen really closely reflected in the experiences of schizospec people. i don’t know how common these kinds of things are in avpd overall, but they’re a really prominent part of my experience with it, so when i found out that some research suggested it could be considered a schizospec disorder itself, that made so much sense to me! and i’d be so curious to see how many other avoidants have dealt with this stuff but haven’t talked about it because it’s never mentioned as being part of avpd.
#this post was brought to you from the Looking Over My Shoulder Frozen In Fear Because Of The Whispers™️ position#which is. quite a common position for me#im honestly kinda nervous to post this bc i feel like somebody’s gonna be like ‘thats not avpd!’ or ‘thats not schizospec stuff!’#but oh well. that’s just how it is on the internet#i also feel a little weird about the wording bc i don’t really see avpd as an outside force that Makes Me do things#but it’s 5am and im too tired to think of a better way to say it#poss.speaks#discussion#avpd#actually avpd#actually avoidant#avoidant pd#avoidant personality disorder#cluster c#schizospec#schizophrenia spectrum#schizo spectrum#schizotaxic
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what kind of underwear do you think Erik and Charles wear (i'm not asking this to see them half naked) ((please believe me)) (((PLEASE)))
My Personal Belief is charles is a briefs guy while erik's a trunks guy. trunks/briefs kinda couple because i can
and idk just a lil bonus or somethin. as i do.
#nsft#probably. again A Promotion Would Be In Order From Me Personally but WHATEVER.#cherik#im too tired to tag everything ok this post'll find its people#snap sketches#not too tired for a tag ramble tho eUUGGHHH#i HAVE to post the second bit now or ill be editing it all night and for what. i will live#and my silly ass said i wouldnt draw that reading idea. well guess what im a LIAR who LIES.#i do wanna revisit that proper tho .. at least draw em by the fireplace someday but anyway#i think the funny thing is i had like. plans to draw charles in purple briefs just cause he wore them once and i chortled Unreasonably#so here we are. youll have to forgive me my friend i have a condition called If I Get An Excuse To Draw I Will#it is a very serious condition cause i need to SLEEEEPP truly and honestly locking in later i HAVE to#leaving all of you with this for the next idk twelve hours thats crazy#all i want to do is draw but i feel my eyes . Getting Weird and i have exams so i guess i should be a responsible person and sleep#i actually have a lot i need to catch up on so like. i prob wont be back on until this weekend when im Hopefully more free#'snap didnt you say that last night' I HAVE TO BE SERIOUS THIS TIME i got a lot. so i will see everyone saturday Hopefully#please give me the strength to focus for once thank you#for now good night everyone !!! please enjoy my doodlings from today. yesterday. i must not make any more for now
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Hello, don't mind me, I just need to vent for a second.
First off, I just wanna say, as an aroace person on the ace-spectrum, feel free to ship Alastor all you want. Ship him with anyone. Have fun with it. Sex repulsed. Non-sex repulsed. Grey-ace. Demisexual. Pure unadulterated smut. Whatever, have at it. I love that shit.
Just please do it without infantilizing ace-aro people.
The amount of art, fics, and takes I've come across that's so patronizing to Alastor and his sexuality. Thing's like Alastor venting to Rosie about his feelings for a character with the caption "Alastor feeling love for the first time." Or Alastor wanting to have sex with a character and having feelings about that, and someone commenting "That's called a boner, sweetheart. That means you like them 🤭"
Like??? Like do ya'll not see how patronizing that sounds? Being ace-aro doesn't mean you don't know your own body. It doesn't mean you don't understand the functions of your body.
It doesn't mean you've never experienced intense emotions. It doesn't mean you've never experienced love before.
And, look, I know these are meant to be jokes. I know. People are joking. I laughed at the first few I came across, too. It's not meant to be harmful or condescending; no one means it that way. But there's been so much with such...bad takes recently, and I don't know about any other ace-spec people (I don't speak for all ace-specs. Hell, there are probably other ace-spec's who don't mind, enjoy it, or are making content like it themselves. I just speak for myself) but GOD it's getting uncomfortable.
Alastor is in his late 30's-early 40's in human years. That is the established age range we have for him. Do you really think that he'd go that long without ever experiencing "love?" He went through puberty just like everyone else, do you think he doesn't understand his own body???
Being asexual, or sex-repulsed, or touch-repulsed doesn't mean you automatically don't explore these parts of yourself. It doesn't mean he's never, once in his life, touched his own dick, or pussy, or whatever genitalia you're giving him. He can still very well be a "virgin" (which in and of itself is a social construct) while also knowing his body and confidently handling any "sexual needs" he has.
Do you really think he doesn't know what a boner is? That in all the years he's been alive and dead (on Earth and in Hell), he wouldn't have experienced these things once? (And you know what? Maybe he hasn't! Perhaps there are ace's out there like that! But you're telling me he doesn't KNOW what that is??? Really???)
Ah, no, it's all because he just hasn't found the right person yet, right? It's not until Lucifer/Angel Dust/Vox, whoever found him, and they gave him these feelings, and oh no, poor Bambi is feeling twitterpated and horny for the first time, isn't that romantic!
Honestly, not really. It just sounds like the same, stupid shit ace-aro people hear from family, friends, and acquaintances about their sexuality. You know, the tried and true: "Oh, you just haven't found the right person yet. You'll want all that eventually, you'll see😊"
Do you not see how frustrating that is?
Look, I am all down for Alastor exploring parts of himself. I want him to navigate different relationships, feel them out, figure out what kind of relationship he wants and what he's okay and not okay with doing. But there are ways to do that without treating him like a little UwU silly baby boy who doesn't know his own body, or his own emotions, or his own relationships with other characters. Like he needs someone to teach him about himself.
How about instead, he finds someone he feels comfortable exploring these elements with? Instead of them "teaching" him how to fuck, or masturbate, or whatever the hell you want to call it, they're giving him the room and safe-space to explore it at his own pace??!!
It comes across as someone who isn't on the ace-spectrum "teaching" an ace-spec character about their own sexuality which puts such a gross taste in my mouth. Or, at least, that's how it comes across to me.
And the thing is, I know people aren't going to stop. I know they're going to keep infantilizing Alastor and his aro-ace identity, and I wasn't originally going to make this post, because you can't control what people do in fandom.
So this is mostly just a post to say: HEY! Hello! Ace-aro person here! I hope you all are having fun and I love that you're exploring Alastor's asexual/aromantic identity! Especially those who may not be in the ace-spectrum themselves, as you're learning about us and our experiences! That's awesome! Can we just do that while also treating Alastor like the adult he is? Can we do that without being infantilizing and patronizing about his sexual identity? Please?"
That's all I really wanted to say. I just needed to get this off my chest instead of letting it fester. This isn't an attack on anyone, this is just the perspective of an Alastor multi-shipper who loves exploring his relationships with other characters (sexually and non-sexually) and deep-diving into the dynamics of the show.
Thanks for reading.
#there are so many different ace-aro's with so many different experiences#im sure they all don't share they same feelings as me#but while I wasnt originally going to post anything cuz i don't want to rock the boat#i came to the realization that HEY! Im ace-aro too! I can't control what people do but I can offer a different perspective#honestly I know the best I can do is block and move on#I just wanted to put this out there#im tired of Alastor being infantalized#I'm tired of asexuality and aromansticm getting infantilized#its grating on me more and more#siigh#thanks for reading anyway#asexual#asexuality#aromantism#aromantic#aroace#acespec#asexual alastor#asexuel#aromanticism#arospec#allastoredeer thoughts#hazbin hotel#alastor#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel alastor#the radio demon
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like half of a frame redraw
#i just wanted a new discord pfp and i love cyn#lighting is not correct but i personally dont care im too tired to do the red lighting#skyns so hard to draw dude i spent like 2 and a half hours trying to get her down#which sucks cause shes such a rad design#blood and gore warning#how do you tag warnings ive never had to do this before#im sO HYPED BUT AT THE SAME TIME LIAM YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME#LIAM PLEASE YOU CANT JUST LEAVE ME ON A SINGLE SEASON I NEED THIS#oh yeah also finale trailer dropped so uhhh spoilers for that i guess idk how i would tag that#art#murder drones#murder drones cyn#murder drones skyn#murder drones flesha#i think those are really funny names honestly
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R u ready to roooock
#freddy is the shortest but do not be mistaken they are all terrifyingly huge#knife's art#doodles#digital art#fnaf#fnaf sb#ill draw the daycare guys and djmm later. im tired#five nights at freddy's#glamrock freddy#glamrock bonnie#glamrock chica#roxanne wolf#montgomery gator#honestly i dont think he can be criticized bc if i was named montgomery i'd probably kill someone too
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Here's my take on Ceroba and Starlo (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)
#I wanna do the entire cast but im... too tired... e-eughh.....#honestly been feeling really down recently#there's so many things I wanna draw but college is getting closer#its torture tbh I have all these ideas i wanna make but#time is of the essence... or smth.... idk im dumb#save me#undertale#undertale yellow#utdr#uty#staroba#uty starlo#starlo#uty ceroba#ceroba#artists on tumblr#LM art#reference sheet
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Listen we need more Killer and Color speaking Arabic plz
#fun fact: Killer is speaking Saudi Arabic while color is speaking Egyption Arabic as they should be <33333#also Nightmare my multilingual beloved <3333#honestly it’s 11pm got work tomorrow and im too tired so too lazy to provide a translation#but if you guys want one /interested then imma do it tomorrow morning#anothers art#something new#something new au#othertale#dreamtale#killer#color#nightmare#killer sans#nightmare sans#color sans#color!sans#killer!sans#nightmare!sans#dreamtale nightmare#color spectrum duo
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CANT SLEEP DREW MARISA INSTEAD
#touhou#touhou project#touhou fanart#東方project#marisa kirisame#far too much confidence to post this#but honestly whats the fun in having a blog all to yourself and not posting spontaneous sketches#i do more embarrassing things every day#im so very tired but maybe what i need is actually tokyo active neets blasting in my eardrums#anyways lesbians#i love my wife
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as climbing class has waned in popularity i've seen (justifiable) criticism of certain fic setups & tropes, and to a extent i agree with a lot of them. but honestly i'll go to bat for josh allowing himself to be helped/cared for.
i've seen this disparagingly called "caretaker chris," and i guess if you think chris is such an asshole that he's incapable of being considerate or caring, then we are on different pages. but i feel like people think that these fics weaken or reduce josh's character. and i'm not saying individual fics aren't capable of mischaracterizing him (i don't even like my own josh characterizations, in my old fics), but i don't agree that this setup inherently does that.
it's different than canon josh, but to me it's an intentional progression. in canon, josh keeps his shit locked down. an obvious example is that he clearly loves and dotes on his sisters but does not want them to know what he's going thru, considering how long it is before hannah finds out. he's also harsh asf to sam if she says that his actions are a cry for help - like i know he's Going Thru It and all, but he just fucking mocks her lmao. at best he wants to shield the people he cares about from these parts of him, and at worst he's just going to bite the hand that reaches out.
........which is exactly why i enjoy allowing him to see that vulnerability isn't weakness, and that it's ok to accept help + care when you need it. this can happen in any universe, in any context, bc i think his desire to close off and/or bite the hand are core character traits that are not dependent on canon events. but my point is, this is growth. or it can be, when done well. bc josh's canon attitude isn't healthy lol. i obviously love an unhealthy guy as much as the next person, but sometimes its satisfying and cathartic to see your fucked up fav take a step forward.
#i feel the need to repeat that this can still be done badly#and honestly ive been in a writing hole so i havent read old climbing class fic in a long time#maybe i wouldnt like them! i mean i dont even like my own#but as a premise. as a concept. i understand this. and i get why everyone wanted to do their own version of josh accepting the hand#also i have more thoughts on the chris side of this too but im tired and this aint about him rn#maybe later#until dawn#josh washington#climbing class#chris hartley#<- again hes not the star here but yknow. im not a multishipper so i can only speak to this in the context of this specific pairing
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*Watch what happens when I cast a spell I don't know!
Merry Krismas! :)
#deltarune#pixel art#my art#noelle deltarune#berdly#...sort of#spamton#...also sort of#utdr fanart#snowgrave#weird route#once again not sure if this needs a blood warning or not#tell me if you think it does#speaking of the blood#i'm of the belief that monsters still don't bleed in deltarune#but it wouldnt have the same effect if i used white dust#so please suspend your disbelief#honestly really happy with how this one came out#wasnt even planning on doing anything for christmas this year#I've been way too tired for a week or so and only just recovered yesterday#but i had energy and a vague idea of something cool#next thing i knew id been doing nothing but working on this for 10 hours straight#(with occasional 10 minute breaks to walk around of course)#yeah i somehow did this in one day#no clue how#anyway im gonna stop rambling and lie down#merry christmas
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forgive me if you've been asked this before or if its annoying, but how did you learn to use colored pencils like that? your art is so special to me.
ty :) I took an art class for a few years where our teacher had us buy prismacolor pencils as one of the art supplies and had us use them kinda like paints, pressing down hard right away and blending the colors together. its not how youre supposed to use them she was just trying to teach us to use color and ig this was more to the point. I picked them up again years after i stopped going to that class just bc they were there and i wanted to play around w them a bit and ended up actually enjoying it when doing it on my own terms lol
#it was a weird class#it was just this russian lady doing private lessons in her house that my mom learned about somehow#I did NOT like those classes all we did was still life and they were hours long which is esp rough when im in high school and busy#and she wanted us to stand while working the whole time bc tradition i guess?#she did allow me to work sitting but thought i was lazy for it. idk dude i dont want to exhaust myself fast for no reason#standing is a lot more tiring than walking#i def did still benefit from those classes just from learning to accurately draw from life#did not like the teacher tho#on one hand shed paid for the art supplies for kids whos families were too poor to (and these are nice expensive supplies)#which is very nice#but on the other she was very homophobic and open about it#like when they legalized gay marriage she went on a rant about how horrible it is that they can adopt kids now#and also kind of racist#she was telling me how she got blocked from a facebook group bc she made a post asking if she could speak to a white person#and she didnt realize she was posting that publicly she thought it was a private message to the group owner#im honestly still not sure i heard/understood her correctly bc it was so bizzare and the only time i ever remember her being racist#she talked abt it like she genuienly was unaware it was racist#she described it as a misunderstanding bc she accidentally posted it publicly instead of privately#like it wouldnt have been racist to ask that at all#also one time she talked about how she saw demons in her home once#also she doesnt vaccinate her kids bc of microchips#she was like a walking russian stereotype lol#anyway heres some ink the artist lore
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HOMESTUCK STAMPS AGAIN
#homestuck#gamzee makara#karkat vantas#nepeta leijon#dave strider#dirk strider#gif#pixels#stamps#badges#gifs#neocities#honestly#tysfm for the love on the homestuck posts i did not expect this at all#i am trying my hardest to keep finding homestuck content cus it feels like the main audience now lololol#i will post other stuff too tho dw#ALSO [shameless self promo here] i do happen to have a main that is LINKED in my intro post that i do post my personal homestuck ART#and i think you should check it out. that would be very cool and you will be my favorite.#sorry im tired#thank you tho..#also can you tell i like gamzee?
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LEAK SPOILER BUT BUT UHHHH HORIKOSHI DID IT MERA APPEARS ALARM ALARM MERA APEARERED !!!!!!!VSDHFHJAEHWRGETHJ our prayers have been answered !!!!!!!
!!!! HORI HAD TO DELIVER FOR THE MERA STANS
AFTER 3 AND A HALF YEARS OF NOTHING BUT HINTS, FINALLY, HE RETURNS
I NEVER THOUGHT I'D SEE HIM AGAIN 😭😭 HE'S THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME GOING THROUGH THESE EPILOGUE LEAKS
Btw this is 8 years into the future, Mera was 39 pre-timeskip so now he's 47.. get that man a vacation look at him HE PROBABLY HASN'T HAD TIME OFF IN 10 YEARS
#THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS i was honestly scared to find out if mera was in the epilogue considering everything#but im glad i saw this ask now#HE'S LIKE MY RAY OF MUPPET SUNSHINE IN THIS STUPID CRUEL WORLD#mera looking at chairman hawks: at least its not me anymore#and he got the shorter hair treatment too#or maybe his hair is falling out from the stress#hopefully the former!#hori said fuck everything else. here's mera#THANK YOU HORI YOU UNDERSTAND#actually this reminds me of nagant. will we see whether she's doing her own thing now? or still in jail? i hope so#even just hawks talking about her#hawks tired: lady nagant declined the offer again so now i have to do this myself its exhausting its rewarding but exhausting i guess?? idk#mera: she escaped. good for her. god i wish that were me tho#bnha vol42#bnha volume 42#bnha manga spoilers#bnha spoilers#mera yokumiru#hawks#thank you for the ask!😊#bnha asks#asks with metty#bnha epilogue#bnha leaks#bnha leak#bnha 431
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i love being ace in a way that confuses the shit out of allo people, god bless
#asexual#aroace#ace#asexual positivity#aro too but like yeah#honestly im just tired of pretending to be like ‘grossed out’ or baffled by sex or whatever bc it fits the perception allos have of aces#like i actually am quite interested in sex and know a lot about it … lol#i can read smut and be interested in kink and so many other things and it wouldn’t make me any less ace <3#and i can do all those things whilst also experiencing fluctuating sex repulsion at times#if that confuses u that’s a u problem.
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la balance de la justice.
#art#2023#fanart#been working on this one since saturday lads#mostly as a manifestation ritual bc i didnt have enough pulls to actually get her guaranteed TT#but i got her on soft pity so all is well bwahaha#also forgive any inaccuracies to her designs here i did all the linework and flats before her banner so i couldnt get good refs#esp for her ousia colour scheme#im immensely pleased with this though!!#its technically unfinished. i wanted to emphasise lighting and shadow but honestly im tired of working on it#and im doing comms rn so i shouldnt be too indulgent with personal pieces haha#genshin impact#furina#focalors
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