#im gonna make a new acc

[sakitenma-everyday]

saki didnt come home so shes getting executed

[sabh0]

Little rant and probably a controversial opinion, please don't burn me at the stake for that If i asked you to guess how many dazai anon accounts have i blocked here till now, what number would u think of? Bc i just checked - i currently have 9 of their accounts blocked. 2 from this week alone. And it's not like i go around hunting for them. I just randomly open tumblr to check what silly things did ppl say about my art, and then i see 50 different reblogs, comments or asks from dazai anon alone, being no longer only mean to Chuuya or skk, but bashing my art or telling me to off myself!!! Yay!! And u know, it wasn't a problem in the beginning. The stuff they write is comedic with how stupid it is. I could also interact with em smh (ngl, they left me for a good while after i drew them and chuuya making out that one time). And as i said, before they didn't attack me personally. But then i started getting comments that i shouldn't interact with dazai anon bc something something they're mentally unstable? Like im sorry, but how is this my problem. They come to me and regularly tell me to hurt myself, but i can't even reply to them bc "sab, it's no use, they're sick smth smth smth, just block them"?? Like bruh aight, it's just that sitting silently actually starts to affect me. Bc no matter how many accounts i block, they come back with a new one the moment they realize they're blocked. And the whole carousel of "block, dont interact" starts again. I just think it's not really alright to tell ppl that they can't in any way stand up for themselves? Why do i have to care about personal wellbeing or a sad backstory of someone who doesn't respect mine? Why should i even know about their problems? They're a complete stranger to me and i don't really go around reading random people's biographies on the internet. Like aughhh it's seriously starting to annoy me now,,,, i'm not saying ppl ACCEPT what dazai anon does, but using the excuse that they're not okay mentally just doesn't sit right with me, idk. Mental health problems should never be an excuse for hurting others, imo.

[casinocandy]

*Zac Floats In,,*

"There's No Way This Place Is Legal...."

- Zac Anti-Fairy

*Sammy appears behind the Anti-fairy, floating just above the ground. he was hiding his own wand behind his back* Ohhh yeah you can bet its legal!!~ And not JUST legal, It's a magical place for all ages!!! (we have a children's only area with fake money so they can gamble...)

Wanna roll some dices, little guy???

[sunsetsover]

i hope yall can forgive me but i just need to be sappy for a minute

2024 for has been a really, really difficult year for me personally. tbh, the reason i started watching bls was because i desperately needed an escape from reality and romances always do that for me regardless of format. (and like tbh how was i supposed to resist a live action omegaverse show be so fr) and tbh it was only supposed to be one or two but i really ended up liking them and then i found not me which led me to finding the eclipse bc of first and then there was never any going back.

i contemplated coming this blog for a while before i actually did. i knew my old fandom was dead and i knew i wasn't going to be actually interacting with anyone much bc i was watching shows that were a year old minimum and no one would really be talking abt them anymore. plus i thought i was too old to be in a fandom if im honest. but i ended up doing it anyway partially bc i just had too much shit to say about the untamed and the eclipse and i needed somewhere to say it, but mostly bc i really just needed somewhere to be normal. like everywhere else in my life i felt like i needed to be On all the time or walking on eggshells and i just needed somewhere where i could just be, yknow? where i could just be lauren and have fun and not worry about how it might be perceived or how im supposed to be acting, even if i was just talking to myself

anyway sad as it might sound coming back here has probably been the highlight of my year. actually no watching the eclipse for the first time was probably the highlight of my year but this is a close second. especially since the heart killers has started airing. tbh i was genuinely having fun talking to myself in the tags but interacting with people and having people interacting with me and being able to over analyse this show like i used to and reading other people's analysis posts and tags has been so much fun and reminded me how much fun being an active part of a fandom can be, and for that i am so grateful.

i know this may seem like such a silly post to make esp considering this blog is tiny and only a handful of people actually interact with me but i need yall to know that the little interactions have honestly meant the world to me over these past few months. like you guys cant possibly know how nice it feels not only to have this space to just exist without having to think about all the other stuff going on in my life, but to have people actually respond? like my posts? leave nice tags? idk i just think i needed that. like dramatic as it sounds it was kinda like ok you do still exist. you're still here. we haven't lost you yet.

anyway the point of this post was to just say thank you for giving me this little bubble and for making me laugh and for being so kind and funny and talented and being a light in the world. because you are. every one of you. and that i love you. even if we've never spoken or interacted with each others posts, i love you. and i want to say that i'm proud of you all. from the bottom of my heart. i know it's hard out here. i know when i suffer i don't suffer alone. i know many of you have your own problems you're likely running away from here just like i am. and so i wanted you to know that i love you and i'm proud of you even if all you manage is to wake up in the morning. i'm proud of you all for getting through it even when it's hard and you feel aimless and pointless and don't know what to do. i know i'm just some random person on the internet, but if i can type words that make you smile and you can type words that make me smile, isn't that enough? to know that we both have so much value here despite how it feels sometimes?

so i pray that whatever has been difficult and heavy this past year can be left in 2024, and that 2025 will be kinder to all of us. i hope that we all find the strength to get through what we can't leave behind yet. and above all, i hope you're safe, and i hope you keep finding happiness where it is, which is often not some far off place but right here and right now.

lots of love, auntie lauren xoxo

[the-great-witch-maddi]

It feels weirdly tranquil, would you say so, Maddi? There hasn't been a new kidnapping, of you or Z, I've practically tamed Midas (don't tell him I said that, hehe.) so there's no real danger anymore. I'm used to danger, its weird.

Anyway, your song! I haven't sung one in so long.

I'll be right behind you No matter where you go I'll be there to surprise you I just want you to know

I'm the monster underneath your bed Im every thought inside your head You can run but you can't hide No not this no not this time I'm the itching underneath your skin You can't stop me from creeping in You can run but you can't hide I am already inside

Deep down you want me to stay You'd get bored if I didn't play that's really why you're so afraid You want me watching night and day

- 🎶

it is indeed :)

[nottsangel]

okay but reading the purge au fic while listening to i wait so long for you by m4x is such a vibe

ok so i just listened to it and yes ur sooo right omg its such a vibe i now encourage everyone to listen to that while reading the purge fic 🙂‍↕️

[dickfuckk]

Fuck offfff Popverse took down the ECCC panel too 😤

Right gonna upload it to Google drive brb

[the-golden-kingdom]

thats it i need to use twitter again. i only just saw the dungeon meshi next episode sneak peak and the golden kingdom part at the end damn near gave my a heart attack

[jessiesjaded]

most interesting popular accounts to me are the ones that just post stuff like gifsets or art or writing but never ever say anything, like no tag rambles, no personal posts, no opinions, no rants. im always like surely.... surely you have something to say....

[todayisafridaynight]

do you have a side account for other doodles or do you just have your yakuza accounts

i have many side accounts and theyre all for different fandoms i like so yes but do i have one central art account. Lol.

[pallases]

incredibly evil brother making me wanna rewatch voltron of all things

[dimehun]

😎🤏😨🕶️🤏

[priestofberath]

Are you telling me my entire life I've been seeing these sick-looking Spore creatures with robot limbs and have never been able to figure out how you unlock them, and it's because the robot parts are from an expansion pack I never had, and that the reason I never had it is because it was exclusively released via promotional code on fucking Doctor Pepper bottles in 2010?

I thought the creatures that had these parts were the coolest things on the planet when I was a kid because they were rare and cool looking and I couldn't make them. I refuse to believe that my family bought 0 bottles of Doctor Pepper in 2010 did we just not have the promotional ones ???? Fuck

[marurumai]

i was thinking that i wanted some kind of blog and remembered that tumblr is a blog site... anyways hello??

[soupspkmncorner]

think im going to restart pokemon x today or soon because i have an idea involving miss miku