#im going through something rn lmao
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of all the star wars movies, which of them do y'all 1) enjoy the most 2) consider the best quality and 3) think you've rewatched the most. add your answers in the reblogs or replies, i'm genuinely curious how much of an overlap there is within everyone's three answers. mine don't overlap at all! they're revenge of the sith, empire strikes back, and the force awakens :^)
#len speaks#star wars#revenge of the sith#empire strikes back#the force awakens#not tagging more films than that bc i cant b bothered. incoming tag ramble ahead bc i have sw brainrot rn and im making it everyones prob❤️#i rlly struggled 2 remember if id watched tfa or aotc more. i went w/ tfa bc it was formative to me as a teen and ive seen it probably 6ish#times? whereas aotc was the first sw movie i remember (specifically the scene of obiwan serving c*nt in the bar lmao) but i've only seen it#for sure 4.5 and maybe 5.5 times. the .5 is from when i got bored after obi-wan's scene ended and ran off to go play in the mud or smthn 😭#i'm sure tfa will eventually get surpassed in number of rewatches by aotc and rots bc i don't fw the direction of the ST but that's my#current ballpark estimate of my total number of rewatches#as an adult tho if i just wanna watch a star war i'll go with aotc bc it's fun and ends semihappily and i can turn my brain off for the#spinny lightsabers. it's great background noise or for if you're sick or whatever. rots on the other hand? i won't talk through that unless#i'm quoting it with my brother and i am LOCKED IN 100% entirely entranced by it all#i almost picked rogue one for the best quality answer but i think the character writing is weaker and the facial cgi is creepy. esb beats#it by a hair imho bc of that. the vader hallway scene goes hard tho!!!#also i'm not covering shows or games or books or anything else in this post - simply the films. might ask abt shows later but that might#also give me hives bc so many of the shows suck ass and i don't rlly want ppl extolling the virtues of t.bb in my notes 💀#and yes i do think one's enjoyment and one's opinion of quality are two things that often overlap. but sometimes you just like something#bad and that's awesome. like rots is the best of the prequels by a large margin and i adore the opening and characters and many of the#scenes but that doesn't mean it's the best star wars has to offer ykwim? it's my specialest most favoritest sw movie but that doesn't blind#me to the dialogue lmfaooo
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This photo was life-ruining for me(and @sweatyflytrap ) honestly....
#wanna make a comp of bahrain 2010 for both seb and nando tbh#probably seperate but#there was something in the air that weekend!!!!#i was religiously looking through seb pics from this race the other month to draw statue seb#and was super enamored w him aasjkfkgl but didnt look too much depeer cause i didnt wanna spoil the podium#and then i finally got here and damn nando looked fucking majestic on the podium#like i was absolutely dying making those gifs bcs he just looked so beautiful#<- i actually made a comp of all the close up shots bcs bark bark bark 😵💫😵💫#AND THEN I GO LOOK UP THE PICS AND MY GOD 🫠🫠 LIFE RUINING#this pic is from before race day obviously but like smth was in the air no?????#all the podium pics live in my head rent free. golden and shining and beautiful#but i also downloaded like...100 pics of him from this race so jusy this one seemed pretty baseline to post#but just know. bahrain 2010. haunts me.#as i said im so irritated it wasnt a vett/onso podium bcs my god both of them were slaying that wknd#well yeha. there's my rant. maybe ill make a comp :)#smth also that i find funny is that he was pretty stubbly for the whole wknd but then#shows up for the race itself smooth like a dolphin....HE KNEW!!! HE KNEW HE HAD TO SLAY!!! HE KNEW HE WAS GONNA BE ON THAT TOP STEP#*lmao maybe my comp post would be titled: 'pics from the 2010 bahrain gp that were life changing'#im looking back at the podium pics rn and its just insane how youthful and bright and pretty he looks#also abt this specific pic. his lashes his big cow eyes his pink lips his fluffy hair GODDDDDDDDS#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#we do a little bit of f1#2010 bahrain gp
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I’m gonna go work on some more of the ficmas things to hopefully get rid of my stress 💃💃💃I’ll see yall on the other side
#nina rambles~✦#Im gonna mini vent here#so like full warning don’t read if you don’t wanna see my crap lmao#It’s been a shit show from the start !#at work I nearly had a panic attack and had to call my friend to bring me down because a damn episode of kitchen nightmares flared my trauma#I was heavily verbally and physically abused by my ex#and hearing the guy in the episode berate and say shit to his fiancée just brought me back to where I was in her position#and I couldn’t bring myself to stop watching for some god forsaken reason#so my heart just kept sinking and sinking and my anxiety kept growing until it spilled over#so that’s that#and then I have something really important going on tomorrow morning#I just came home from a 9.5 hour soft#shift*#and when I walked through my front door#intense anxiety over this thing suddenly settled in#and so I’m exhausted#haven’t eaten#stressed#and already went through shit#and it’s all culminating together to me just being at a breaking point rn#and ugh#I’m just really not in a good place right now#so im gonna write and see if that helps!!!#fingers crossed!!!
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You guys ever wish you could un-meet someone you've never had issues with
Because like, why do all my fuckin friends get to be loved and fuckin cherished for fucking free by their fucking parents and now they have me jealous!!! I didn't used to know that was how it shoulda been!!! And how come I still fuckin love my parents even when they do stupid shit like scream at or hit or ignore or hate or punch or not love or burn me, meanwhile some of my buddies complain when their parents don't buy them shit?????? I wanna go back to not knowing how bad things are!
#Tumblr therapists help me out#this isn't even about any specific people#I'm really going through it right now#helpless teen angst#lmao#Im too exhausted to cry rn chat#am I cooked#someone answer all this I know you tumblr lurkers (tumblurkers) have solutions for me cuz somehow y'all know everything#tumblurkers#help#:(#how do I unlearn something#emotions are bad and confusing and hard and I'm lost
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hi 👋
#rambling#hi 👋#i know its been a while since i've posted#but i still lurk on here regularly :p#i dont really care to create content or scroll+rb anymore#but i'll keep in touch through dms if anyone wants to <3 or we can exchange discord info💞#i've become more active on twitter? 🤡🤮 but i still feel more comfy typing long rambles here lmao#theres a lot of ateez stuff if u end up looking at it#i been going through stuff the last few months :p#N E WAYS i've decided that i wanna leave my job in a few months 🙈#and the stress of it made me wanna come back here and use this blog like a diary 🙈🙈#i mean. it feels like it's the right time for me to leave#it's just the anxiety of not knowing >.<#also job huntings the worst 🤮🤮🤮🤮#but im ready for a change ^^#and i wanna be optimistic!! so im manifesting that the whole ordeal goes smoothly and im not unemployed for long!!!🙏#if u read all this. i love u and i hope u have an awesome week!! :) 💖💖💖#also reply with something good that happened to u recently!#celebrating u would help cheer me up rn :')#otherwise. have a good night! see u space cowboy
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Hi I'm not sure exactly what I am (not sure of any terms yet but definitely feeling like omega is right) but your blog has been particularly eye opening because now I'm like "holy shit. I'm normal!!!" And excuse me while I go through your blog until I can't stay awake anymore xx
HELLO BELOVED !!!
We are all learning together I'm so glad I could be of help to you !!! Feel free to spam like and interact whenever !!!! I know I'm still learning terms n stuff for the spaces I frequent in, it's no rush to figure yourself out !!!
Mentally we are nesting together 🫶🏾🫶🏾
#𑁍shut up shii𑁍#miscecanis#misceanimalis#𑁍playdate𑁍#srry for the inactivity I'm going through a lot rn#i say this as if im not always going through a lot lmao#i promise i will something out at some point. getting asks like this really encourage me
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omw to play emotional support for my mom disguised as ✨fun family bonding time✨ for the rest of the week <3333 there's something so deeply wrong with me uwu teehee
#and i still havent texted my friend back even tho she texted me a week ago and i told her ill text her back this week when i have the time#and i DO have the time. im just fucked in the head and the prospect of having a conversation with another person where i again#have to pretend im not at the very brink of a serious mental and emotional breakdown. is making me lose my fucking mind#ik she's having a bad time rn and she needs the reassurance and jesus fucking christ i tried i had two long conversations with her#that were allllll about her. only her. not a single word about me. that's fine. this is what people need in such moments right#to just get patted on the head and hugged and told their suffering is real and what happened to them is unfair and just made to feel#that for a moment they're the centre of attention and it is all about them. this is normal. this is why therapy exists.#so i try to give this to her but it is fucking draining. and i NEVER get the same treatment back. like she caught me crying at uni last week#and like yes she'll say some nice things but she'll always find a way to turn the conversation back on the topic of ✨her✨#like we started talking about my therapy and i finally got to actually say a word or two about what im dealing with. but then she goes#'yeah im just trying to figure out what's wrong with me when i listen to you haha like i could never cut myself cause it looks ugly.#ofc it doesnt look ugly on you haha but i could never lol'#like thanks haha good to know ill just shut up then and steer the conversation back onto you why dont i. i mean its not like#i spent over an hour a few days back sitting with you and listening to your talk about your childhood and validating you and not saying#a word a single fucking word about myself even tho i was also going through it myself but who cares right. and now im the bad guy again#because im not texting back.#i feel like im finally fucking snapping cause at this point im properly fucking angry. IM having a bad time too. IM going through it too.#I have bad coping skills and had a fucked up childhood and traumas in my life TOO and im allowed to just not be able to handle it#i really wanna break something lol maybe therapy's working after all lmao#oh also this is why i dont eat breakfast. i do it once and then feel guilty and suicidal lol normal behaviour#pojebie mnie zaraz przysięgam na boga mam dość kurwa BASTA
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Hi hello!!! Sorry for the lack of posts recently, I've just been dealing with some pretty bad depression
And uhhh! I am currently unable to afford meds rn so I'm just gonna...
points at my $5 headshot commissions again
and even link my cashapp. Only $3 extra for a tiny on your shoulder now for my commissions! No charge for having a big hand patting your head or something cause it's actually easier to add than a tiny for me lol
https://ko-fi.com/mocha_latte/commissions
https://cash.app/$Astakoi
So uh.. if any of you want anything/just want to help me out, yeah I'd appreciate it a bunch!
Gonna try to get back into posting more art :> and do a few artfight things before the month ends
#hate to promo commissions or even ask for anything but uh... i am not super good without my meds and will not be paid until august 5th#some irl issues (one being my health lmao) + needing gas has me very broke rn though#commissions#donations#self promo#g/t#giant/tiny#g/t community#<- i still love drawing g/t stuff!#ooo i should draw tiny honkai star rail stuff-#anyway please feel free to commission g/t stuff! idm throwing a hand in the headshot somewhere or something to show size difference#wont get into detail on irl stuff so i understand if you guys dont want to donate anything!! and if you cant commission reblogging helps#not forced though#i do hate guilt trips a lot so im not gonna do that shit#my situation isnt life or death... worst comes to worst ill just get my meds when paid!#oh also going through some gender crisis stuff lol#anyway lol sorry for the tag ramble these posts make me nervous
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honestly as someone who never really got into lotr but independently also came up with the idea that the most sensible way to handwave everyone in a fictional setting speaking english & using terms that would have no reason to have originated in that setting is to just pretend its all a translation/localization of whatever language theyre actually speaking, it was such a relief to learn that tolkien also did that. like oh ok so im not crazy for wanting to do it that way. or like, maybe i am, but at least in the same way that a wildly successful fantasy author was, so i think im good
#like it just makes sense!! yeah you COULD go through & nitpick english so you take out all the loanwords & words with religious origin etc#anything that wouldnt make sense in the setting youre writing for. words relating to places that dont exist there. you COULD do that#(& iirc there are some authors that HAVE done things like that which is incredible i love that)#but its so much easier to just be like. well these are not the actual exact words they were saying. they were not speaking english#bc why would they be?? why would this fantasy world have english At All. even if u call it by a different name. u know??#why would they come up with the same sounds and the same alphabet and the same grammar and everything#it just makes more sense for it to not actually BE english to begin with!!!#i would love to eventually make up all the conlangs in my various settings but unfortunately i do not have the time & energy for that rn#so im just using real languages as stand-ins. which does mean i will either need to learn them or get someone to translate for me lmAO#but im fine with that. also learning more languages would make it easier to make a conlang anyway bc u have more knowledge of#language structures besides english & u can use that to add more variety..... maybe someday ill get to the point where i can do that#its always been something that interested me tbh i used to make up fake alphabets all the time but never really got much farther#they werent all exact 1:1 w a-z either like some combinations would have their own character or id omit some#god okay anyway i gotta go to work#oopsie i made the wrong word italic. i fixed it tho
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hiya just a small psa, first off--thank you for those who sent in writing asks, I'm going to answer them soon. also I am going to try and update Gibbous on Oct 12 (as a bday treat for myself) but if it doesnt happen, then I'll just post a small teaser on here of what I have so far of it. My mental health is still a work in progress, despite my post after Spoke No More (iykyk in terms of having a mental high followed by an immediate mental low haha) but if I go radio silent on this blog, it doesnt mean anything bad, it just means I need to take time to care for myself
#kat talks#time to ramble in the tags: i think the worst part of going through a negative spiral is when you know youre dealing with irrational though#patterns but they do feel very real in the moment lmao#its so frustrating! anyways i am having a hard time with my bday coming up because due to Events in my life i feel like#i have aged five years in a negative way and I've weirdly been thinking of myself being much older than i actually am#it feels like im dealing with howls moving castle curse irl is the best way i can describe it#so anyways i do want to be able to finish Gibbous chapter so that is something positive i can look forward to for my bday#but im also not going to let my happiness depend on that#because I've placed my happiness in so many things this year only to be let down by it all#i do want to write more and interact in fandom in a more active way but i am going through a lot rn#so if we have talked in the past please know im not intentionally ignoring you! its not anything personal towards you i promise
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got my schedule!!!!!
IT IS INCOMPLETE !!!!!!!
#work logs#snow speaks#your boy is going through it rn lmaooooo#but it was a good morning tho thank goodness i decided to ask a mentor if i could tag along this morning#i wouldve had the rest of the day off to study bc of a class i have to take but#i have to go meet w the director to figure out whats going on w it 😭😭😭#at least if i start w this schedule ill be w the director to figure stuff out 😭😭#i just feel bad bc i do like the other department i was working w so i have to go tell them i moved for now#will be back tho!!!!#oh wait a sec i just realized ill be back in ( )#jdjdjfjdjjdjdjdjd u fr.............#im gonna start gnawing on something hold on lmao#anyways its ok its out of my control (but also i want to Fix Things So I Can Do Stuff)#PLEASE IM.SO BORED AND IDK WHAT TO DO ASIDE STUDY...
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WILD to have been feeling like I was overreacting about my roommate for days and feeling like oh I'm just not giving them enough credit I'm sure they do care about me even though I'm usually pretty comfortable expressing hurt or need to friends and I don't feel safe doing that w them I'm sure it's exclusively a me problem. and then. scrolling back through this vent blog and it's just a log of various times they've hurt my feelings LMFAO
#pond.txt#man. we basically broke up today as friends bc theyd sent me this text a few days ago about how i scare them when I'm mad (bc i texted them#in the middle of the night saying hey i really need to be able to get sleep bc im going through x y and z can you corral your cat bc i know#he keeps you guys up too but like he is Your cat. and they decided that was scary mean lmao like i wish i hadn't deleted the text chain bc#like i Have acted up once before when mad and i can understand them feeling uncomfortable after it even tho it was a very odd situation#but usually i'm either rly conflict averse and avoid the subject and vent here OR I'm like mad-mad in a way i can't hide and i send myself#to my room without talking to anyone like idk why they found that message 'scary.' I'm gonna talk about anger management in therapy just in#case bc i don't want to be lashing out if i am and am just not seeing it but it was not a scary message)#anyway they sent a text about it and how i can always come to them and know it's safe and they don't like that they can't with me and they#don't want me to text when angry anymore and i read it and just was like yeah we're done bc i Can't go to you when I'm upset about literally#anything let alone something you've done and I'm well within my rights to be like it's 3 am and your cat is being So noisy put him somewhere#he isn't disruptive. and if you read into that idk that's on you. being tired and frustrated and explaining why I'm frustrated is not the#same as being scary angry i didn't even curse i was just like i already can't sleep bc i have one position I'm medically allowed to sleep in#and it's uncomfortable and they're fitting me for a brace soon and all day every day is physically exhausting rn i need sleep#<- sentences normal people are terrified of#anyway between those things and them taking potshots at me in the message i was like what is the point of being friends w you and i just#ignored and deleted it and soft blocked them and their gf and muted them both on instagram and today they brought the text up and they were#like are we good and i just kind of hesitated and they went it's also totally cool if you don't want to talk about it and i was like yeah i#don't really want to. i can be civil tho and they were like oh yeah same. i just figured you know we've got another year to go.#and i was like ahhhhh you want out of this friendship just as much as me huh lmao. nothing about repairing anything or getting on the same#page just. telling me that you're tracking the time too. and they seemed sort of relieved that i didn't want to discuss it.#so I'm like yeah we're dead to each other we probably have been for some time. we're just gonna get through now lmfao. be polite and distant#and then fully cut ties and never acknowlegde the other's existence ever again#oh no what a loss for me i won't be around to have me talking about having a seizure totally trampled over and interrupted by their gf#talking about her massive shits anymore. however will i survive.#i broke my arm trying to clear the ice for this girl so she could get to a lyft safely btw. worst move ever. a bitch is not worth this#good lesson in like. if people show me they don't care. my response should be okay they can get fucked then. from the start.#and not a bunch of desperate attempts to make them care. like she has been consistently mean and my 'friend' has consistently taken her side#no matter what and i should've just been like whatever happens happens if you do slip and hit your head again and die#well it was just your time 🙏 peace and love on planet earth
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Bitches on here be like "haha! I read this callout about you and i told everyone around me to ostracize you and ignore you and the reason you're alone is divinely orchestrated karma, of course, surely not me and my hand in manipulating people to hate you, surely this is some sort of divine intervention and not a smear campaign that i try to justify my actions with "its gods will" with"
#do yall ever consider the karma *YOU* will acquire for treating me this way over someone elses lies about me?#bc something tells me whatever im going through rn. that you think i shoulda killed myself over... well babe.#i got some bad news for you and how karma works. lmao#and oh baby it hurtsm oh mam am i just suffering so hard.#my body aches all the time. i dissociate constantly.#well. when it happens to you and you're all alone with no support yknow.... hope you figure it out :/#hope the karma doesnt hit you too hard :/#at least im strong enough to not let all of this shit make me go fully insane. doubtful for yall tho lmao#and im going to give just as little fucks about yall writhing in your mental agony as you have for me :)!#oh and uh. dont think karma will be light on you just because 'you didnt know you were being lied to 🥺'#aww.. poor you... but anyways yeah when you fuck w someones life even if you realize you did it over someone elses lie... kinda feel like#you're not gonna get out of hurting someone else so much that easily. kinda feel like thats not gonna happen for you.#kinda feel like the energy is eye for an eye not eye for an acknowledgement of your actions and regretting them.#but who knows. i guess it really depends on who you are. how sorry you actually am. how much you understand what you did and how you hurt#someone. all of that sorta stuff will decide how bad your karma is.#so ig. hopefully its nothing too bad !
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Hi guys I got really into the life series and hermitcraft recently uhhhhhhhh have some sketches while I figure out how to draw everyone
#the life series#the life series fanart#life series tango#life series grian#life series martyn#life series scar#life series mumbo#mcytblr#mcyt fanart#idk how to tag this uhhhhh#can you tell that tango is my favorite to draw#something about flame hair#it is peak character design im obsessed with it fr#also can you tell I just watched secret life LMAO#just watched it from scars pov in particular#god what a good season#I’m slowly going through all the winner povs rn#gotta watch double life next#also one last thing#WHY AM I BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN JDKJDVHSJSM#I CANT ESCAPE MCYT GUYS HELPPPP#EVERYTIME I THINK ITS RELEASED ME FROM ITS CLUTCHES SOMETHING ELSE IS BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION AND I GO INSANE#FIRST IT WAS DSMP THEN QSMP AND NOW IM HERE ?????#PLEASEEEE FREE ME#anyways I’m feeling extremely normal mhm mhm mhm#just finished catching up with Joel’s hermitcraft season#so expect some smallish sketches fr ;)#okok I’m done now bye
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looking at old photos like my GOD i do not want to be back in high school and i don't talk to 90% of the people in these pics but also...what if i bought a new pair of docs...what if everything was the same again
#rant#of course it's never the same and that's the point#im going through something rn#family stuff#and it's finally affecting me i think lmao
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5 years or less...
That's the most time I have left to scramble everything together despite also struggling w my own health & everything I already struggle with. & That's assuming nothing happens in the time span before then that accelerates everything at a rate faster than I can maybe handle
Bc with the unpredictability I seem to live in constantly, with how common it is for me to have shit strike out of nowhere? When I've never even known stability in the first place so I can't even trust that that 5 years won't suddenly be accelerated to less than 2 years or far less than that? Esp when last year was the start of sudden "yeah so we are becoming rly unstable & idk how well we're going to be able to live here for the next x months/years" that was dropped on me out of nowhere?
...I don't know.
#there's just a ton more pressure i feel compounded onto me now if im to want to get away from here before i get shoved into.#the role of the new head of the family & having to be everyone's stability IN FULL. not just emotionally anymore but in every way possible.#i cant. handle that. im sorry but i cant.#i NEED to get away from both parents.#i cannot. be saddled w the responsibility that theyre trying to shove onto me. not when im trying to get away so i can heal.#ig the only other way i can possibly think. of escaping. is through heading back to uni or applying to a uni that ain't in my city.#bc then i can live far away from home. & even if its w debt id still be working towards goals i have anyway & also just. be. away.#from them. id ontknow. obvs not the smartest move so i just.#need to sit down & think what my own plan of action has to be.#i need to start setting up an emergency backup plan.#preferrably one that isn't me doing something drastic or running away w/o a second thought & then shit just getting worse.#i wanna kinda set up a gofundme thing or just have ko-fi links promoted more so i can have some sort of just.#safety net in case of anything. idk. but i dont know how to feel abt that & usually it doesnt rly work for me i guess. idk.#im rn just focused on trying to get things w pharmacy tech stuff dealt with. but. yeah.#im sorry im so venty lately btw. im just.#i dont know what to think or feel anymore.#im going through a lot constantly & it just i cant find it in me to directly reach out constantly to ppl anyway i hate it.#this is def gonna be deleted later bc i hate leaving my mess for anyone to see & i hate anyone seeing im not fine lmao.#but i dont really know where else to really just go off ig idk
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