#so that’s that

[juicebox72664]

New year, same Dazai

TW: mentions of wanting to die (nothing in detail), self-loathing (again, nothing in detail), suggestive (again, not detailed, just strongly hinted at), look, it has Dazai in the title, so if you didn’t g expect these warning I don’t know what to tell you.

It was loud, maybe too loud.

Dazai didn’t want to go to this New Year’s party, but there was free food, Chuuya wanted to go; and the rest of the Agency was going so here he was.

Alone, because Chuuya had wondered off and was probably shit faced, and-

When did it get so loud?

Of all the places to hold a New Year’s party with both the Agency and the port mafia, why choose somewhere so small?

Needing fresh air he pushed the doors to the balcony open, and then closed behind him, the cold sharp air of Yokohama hitting his longs as he walks over to lean on the railing.

He considered jumping.

But after a few moments he realized he’d at most break his legs, and he wasn’t a fan of pain, not to mention the fact Chuuya would scold the hell out of him.

He smirks, it’d serve Chuuya right for leaving him all alone.

He hears the door open, and glances over his shoulder to see the familiar red haired man holding a drink.

“You weren’t thinking about jumping, were you?” Chuuya asks, standing beside the taller man.

Dazai shrugs. “Are you gonna hit me if I say yes?” He responds playfully.

Chuuya’s hand of course hits the back of his head.

“Chibi is so mean to his loving, adoring, husband.” Dazai whines, though he wasn’t really upset, Chuuya hadn’t hit him hard enough to hurt.

“You’re such a baby.” Chuuya scoffs.

Dazai leans his head on Chuuya’s shoulder. “How long till midnight?” He asks, bored of the topic at hand.

Chuuya glances at his new watch, which Tachihara had gotten him for Christmas. “Three minutes, why?”

“Just wondering when I’ll get my kiss.” He muses playfully.

“Mh-hm, nothing to do with you wanting to leave?”

Dazai puts a hand on his chest in mock-hurt, lifting his head up. “Me? Want to leave a boring, loud party? Never.”

Chuuya playfully nudges him, taking a sip out of his glass, as he rolls his eyes. “Plans for the new year?”

“You, mostly.” Dazai remarks with a smirk.

“I meant a resolution-and I swear to god if you say to die.” He quips in mock-agitation.

Dazai chuckles. “To fu-owe!” Chuuya had jabbed him in the ribs, knowing damn well where that sentence was going.

“Forget I asked.” He huffs, and Dazai chuckles beside him.

“Well what’s your resolution?” The brunette asks, a hint of genuine curiosity slipping into his tone.

Chuuya blushes, and looks down at his watch. “You know it’s less than two minutes till.”

“You’re dodging the question.” Dazai points out, now really curious.

Chuuya’s blush darkens and he entwines his fingers with Dazai’s. “To give you a reason to live.” He mumbles.

Dazai blushes in return, a small somber smile coming to his face. “I think you’re wasting your time.”

He glares at him. “Shut the hell up, I’ll do it.” He states it with so much conviction that Dazai almost believes him.

Almost.

Dazai presses a kiss to Chuuya’s forehead. “You really are hopeless.” He teases

“Why am I hopeless?” He questions.

“Because only someone who’s hopeless would try so hard to save someone as hopeless as me.”

Inside the building they could hear people chanting-

30.

“Have you considered you’re not as hopeless as you think?” He asks quietly, setting down his drink on a small table that was put out here.

29.

“I think you’re giving yourself false hope.” Dazai remarks, looking down to avoid Chuuya’s unyielding gaze.

28.

“Osamu, look at me.” Chuuya requests, cupping his face.

27.

Dazai turned his face up to look at his husband.

26.

“Nothing you say will make me give up on you.” He states it like a promise, Dazai’s not sure he deserves that.

25.

“So stop trying.” He rests his head against Dazai’s, and the bandaged man can feel tears pricking at the corner of his eyes.

24.

“I don’t deserve you.” Dazai whispers, voice cracking.

23.

“Don’t say that, of course you do.” He kisses his nose.

22.

Dazai musters a small smile. “I love you.”

21.

Chuuya smiles back, bright, and real, and so beautiful. “I love you too, so much.”

20.

“Now stop crying dumbass.” He chastises lightheartedly, wiping his tears with his thumb.

19.

“Okay.” Dazai mumbles, sniffling.

18.

Chuuya presses a kiss to his forehead.

17.

And then his left cheek.

16.

The right under his left eye.

15.

Then the same in the right side.

14.

And his cheek there too.

13.

Dazai giggles. “What are you doing?”

12.

“Trying to hear the laugh that I so love, and it’s working.” He whispers.

11.

“We should probably head back inside with everyone else, huh?” Dazai asks, clearly not liking the idea.

10.

“We can stay here.” The ginger states, stroking his husband cheeks.

9.

He presses their foreheads together, and they both count with the crowd, though quieter, just for them to hear.

“8.”

“7.”

“6.”

“5.”

“4.”

“3.”

“2.”

“1.”

Chuuya presses his lips to his husband’s, his arms going around his neck as Dazai’s go around his waist.

Maybe the party wasn’t such a bad idea.

Still, Dazai couldn’t wait to go ho and have his Chibi all to himself.

I mean, it was new years, isn’t it suppose to be a night to remember?

He’d make sure it was one Chuuya would never forget.

[deliriouspanics]

do we all agree that tenrose is the dating phase and tentoorose is the married phase, right?

[ineffabeatlemindpalace]

Something that makes me believe in destiny is that evening in the summer when I went out for a late run and didn’t feel quite so good because I usually go out much earlier in the day. It was already dark and I ran down this street where I saw that someone had a small functioning lighthouse in their front garden, making me stop and be filled with a sudden hope. Shortly after, a new kind of light in form of a pirate show found its way into my life, introducing me to a lot of things which all feel like home.

[gojoest]

i’m supposed to be watching naruto but i miss satoru so i’m rewatching jjk 😔 the things i am doing for him…like, rewatching jjk?? what’s next, rereading it?

[stevenssticks]

just to let y’all know i’ve been sick and exhausted from school so idk how active i’ll be

[torilini]

i haven’t made any art of Kate in a while

[fifizero]

After seeing spider verse I instantly began making csm spider sonas and when I got to Asa I was like ah. She’s venom, isn’t she

[bluepotion-12-cal]

So in other news I been feeling like shit bc I broke up with my now ex 🫠

[whoopsimadeamess]

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[smooth-wood]

The letter from Bones S8:F19 is magnificent. To the person who wrote it: I love you, I hope you’re doing well.

“I love you. I realize now that you make life worth living. You showed me that there are good things in this world and that it would be worth rebuilding after the world’s collapse.”

“Maybe there is more to life than just survival”

Those words coming from your best friend that basically thought that the world will end? That’s the greatest declaration of love that she could have given her. She loves her because she is the only hope for her. She has no one else. She loves her despite knowing that it will end.

And don’t we all? Isn’t that what life is all about? Loving despite the end and loving because it’ll all end. Nothing matters so it all matters. I love you, I think that’s the only thing that matters. We might die tomorrow but I love you today and that’s what matters. I love you and I dare to hope of a future with you. I love you. I love you. I love you.

[jellogram]

On my first day in Germany I got to my hotel and I couldn't get the lights to turn on. And I was like "Eh, fuck it, I'll just take a shower in the dark." And then the shower wouldn't get hot. I waited and waited and it stayed ice cold.

So I go down to the front desk and I'm like "My lights won't turn on and my shower won't get hot" so they send this guy up with me. We get into the room and I flick the switch and nothing happens so I'm like "See?"

And he goes "You must put your card in the slot."

"I... what? I have to put my room card in the light switch?"

"Of course!"

Now I have been in many hotels in the US and never encountered this concept, but apparently it was something most of their guests already knew. So I'm looking like a fool at this point. I feel like an idiot. The dude is fully grinning at me. I put the card in the slot and voila, the light turns on.

Then he's like "Ok, let's see if the shower works. You know you must wait for the hot water?" and I just know he's thinking I'm an idiot who also can't use a shower. This stupid American can't wait for the hot water! She can't even use a light switch or a shower!

And I guess he was distracted by these thoughts of my stupidity, because this dude fully stepped into the shower. In his nice dress shirt and slacks. He just. Gets into the shower.

And turns it on.

Have you ever seen a playing field get leveled instantaneously

[chrismcshell]

northern hemisphere babes we made it to the longest night of the year. we made it. for the next 6 months, every day will give us a little more daylight than the last. let's go. take my hand. climb out of the darkness with me

[gojoest]

i feel the energy come back to me when i spend money on new fits at the end of the workday

[fogmoo]

[tributary]