#im a hypocrite through and through
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watching miller’s girl (2024) what a load of cock
#this film is so fucking pretentious- and i love jenna ortega’s big wet eyes as much if not more than the next person#cairo is so cringe why does she talk like a vampire?#but i KNOW that if that teacher was played by oscar isaac id be all over it#im a hypocrite through and through#also that friend of hers is fucking crazy what’s up with her
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Sometimes I think about Urianger's role in and feelings on the Thancred-Ryne dynamic and I think watching it kills him a bit inside. For several reasons.
Like, to begin with there's the guilt he's been carrying with him since he ushered Minfilia to the first, how he effectively killed the person Thancred cared about the most in the world and who's "death" ended up causing Ryne's entire Situation. He looks at what's happening between them and can only think "I caused this" even though that's not really true. No one person is responsible for this outcome, it's a culmination of several circumstances and the consequences of them. Logically, Urianger knows this. But it doesn't matter, because his guilt is overpowering his logic.
And also, like. What Thancred is doing here, the way he's knowingly letting Ryne be and stay hurt because he literally cannot bring himself to tell her his feelings, is the exact same mistake Urianger made with Moenbryda. Of course, the circumstances are vastly different, and the potential consequences to Thancred telling Ryne the wrong things or her misinterperating it is far greater (being a matter of literal life or death), it's still the same sort of paralysis they are trapped in.
And he knows it. He sees it. But he can't say or do anything about it, he doesn't have the right to. He acknowledges the mistake, but he hasn't really improved upon it yet. He still doesn't voice his thoughts and feelings as he should. He's also non-confrontational by nature, he doesn't argue or try to change peoples minds, he probably doesn't think he has any place to.
So, he tries to help in what little ways he can. Because he doesn't want it to become Monebryda again, he doesn't want to know he stole not one but two people from Thancred. So he does what he can. He tells Ryne little tidbits about Thancred, things that help her understand him but are safe to share. Nothing too deep, nothing too personal. Just small things, things that are purely factual, because he can't afford to give her a false image of who Thancred is. He teacher her fun and interesting things, because Thancred isn't in the mindset to provide her with non-essential skills.
I like to think Urianger has brought it up with Thancred at least once, during one of his stays. But nothing would've come of it. Not really. Unlike Y'shtola, Urianger isn't pushy, he'll bring it up once or twice and when he sees this won't go anywhere, he gives up. He wants to help, but he knows that persistance only does do much, and he is not the person who has the resiliance needed to push and push until Thancred finally budges (because he won't budge, it won't help anything but to sour things further by adding aditional stress to an already strained dynamic).
And like. Urianger gets it. He gets it because he's been the same way- not saying what he should to someone he loves more than anything else because she was meant to figure her life out herself, and 'steering' her in any direction by telling her his feelings (regardless of if the 'steering' is intention or not) will go against that. He gets it. He gets it and it's all the more painful for it. He knows it can't just be fixed by acknowledging it or with encouragement, something needs to happen to break the stasis.
I think this is probably why he stayed behind while they went off to Nabaath Areng. This is the very last chance they have to say what they want to, and he can't afford to be the anchor anymore. This is about them, not him, he can't let their resolution be buffed by his presence, so he stays behind. Which was probably for the best. Ryne got nervous when Urianger said he's staying behind, probably not too excited about being alone with Thancred (well, not alone, but WoL doesn't count) so soon after she had ran away crying. But she needs to be nervous. For anything positive to come out of this Thancred and Ryne both can't afford to be too relaxed. As sad as it is, the stress is necessary for anything to happen. He knows it. Does he like it? Absolutely not, but nor does he like his other plots. At least no one dies this time if it goes right.
#urianger had an integral part in the thancred-ryne situation and i think its very important to remember that#like i think he served as a very important buffer that prevented the dynamic from becoming even more strained than it already was#but also like. ryne NEEDED to have at least someone she can be comfortable around without the stress of her circumstances souring it#urianger is uniquely suited to play that role. even with his guilt regarding minfilia he never showed anything but genuine kindness for her#it helps that she didnt know about his hand in the situation existing to begin with (as shes surprised when he tells her in ahm areang)#THATS ALSO IMPORTANT BTW. like this man had a DIRECT hand in making this happen (even if it isnt fully his fault. minfilia made her choice)#AND LIKE. the parallels between uri-moen and thancred-ryne. they both love these girls so so much but cant bring themselves to say anything#urianger has been through the pain before. he knows. but he hasnt improved much himself. what right does he have to scold thancred?#silent support is all he can give. pushing thancred would make him a hypocrite and risk making it worse. hes not suited for confrontation#y'shtola and uriangers approaches to helping both have their merits but it needs a balance#too much pushing and the dynamic just gets worse but too forgiving and nothing will ever change#and yes i know im just repeating myself but ITS IMPORTANT OK#GOD#urianger augurelt#thancred waters#ryne waters#final fantasy#final fantasy 14#final fantasy xiv#ff14#ffxiv#xander rambles#xander being insane about ryne#urianger actually this time but. its related to ryne so. it gets the tag
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I swear if i see one more mf say izzy has been 'redeemed' or needed a 'redemption arc' im literally going to scream into my pillow until i lose my voice.
redeem is such a black and white way of looking at his entire character and dismisses everything hes gone through and yall (izzy haters and others) are just so fucking snob nosed and ignorant to sit there and think hes a villain because of how he acted. theyre fucking pirates. theyre not perfect, none of them are. eds a villain, stedes a villain, if youre doing it like that. ed has killed so many people, stede literally left his wife and kids and also had a hand in killing people; it may be easier for them to change because of the perspective the show gives them and they had love but izzy did not. everyone hated him, ed, his own crew, stedes crew.
normalizing peoples reactions to things as something other than villainy and heroism is so god damn important in a show that's trying to accurately involve our perspectives in this day and age. its a tale as old as time, making someone 'completely in the wrong' because their perspective isnt the one you aligned with as much.
like the rest of the crew izzy had his own bad things hes done, he didnt need this 'redemption' everyones blabbering on about. he needed to be fucking heard, to be seen, and acknowledged-- not thrown aside and abandoned because of a whim. you all can ride up blackbeards ass because oh hes so hot, hes so pretty omg wow; but that wont ever change the fact his character is a fucked up person... youre allowed to love him anyways, why not izzy? we didnt see blackbeard before screen but how hes mentioned it shows he was a shit awful person, the only reason no one cares is because on hes fuckin gay for stede or whatever so the main characters get a free ride. ( i agree they all get a free ride, im just tired of this izzy isolation man )
why does he need to be redeemed in your eyes? just because youve seen what hes done? he was literally a product of his environment in season one he was a product of blackbeard's leadership. only with the loyalty and solidarity of the crew did he really begin to find himself, thats fucking hard to do that late in life. instead of calling it some bullshit black and white redemption arc, lets just celebrate izzy being himself and being fucking loved for once in his god damn life.
hes also way more fucking mature and put together than people give him credit for. love you izzy.
edit: thank you all for the reblogs and insights in every single one, i read them i promise i do. im just so mf heartbroken we have to tag things as discourse when its really just about people not being compassionate. (as a couple people have pointed out) i will said id reblog and comment on every single tag but this is my side </3 EVERYONE PLEASE READ THE REBLOGGED TAGS TOO / / theyre so real ! ive also opened up that ask box thingy i havent been on tumblr in yrs and have 0 clue how any of that works if anyone wants my perspective on anything izzy related. *or otherwise ofmd related
#izzy hands#israel hands#our flag means death#our flag means death spoilers#ofmd#ofmd season 2#ofmd spoilers#cont rant#i just got really passionate dude i cant#im tryna sit here and scroll through tiktok and its fkn#redeem this redeem that#he was FINE; he just didnt respond to change the same way you do#normalize every form of expression even if it doesnt fit your mamby pamby shy baby lifestyle#he did nothing wrong#mf hypocrites i say
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Sometimes I get struck with the evil, overwhelming guilt that my comfort character is Dandelion, because I genuinely know in the books he is such a piece of shit and sometimes when I engage in meta and discussions about the Witcher I feel like. A weird imposter syndrome if that makes sense??
Like man I love diving into this world and reading and discussing different interpretations and meta on the series, but however I am unfortunately completely fucking stupid, and sometimes I don't understand stuff as well as I want to, and I can struggle to understand and process more in depth takes on the Witcher books. And then I feel the guilt of a thousand suns because I'm like
"man... All these cool people who's posts I love to read are looking at me and they think I'm stupid and my favorite character is Dandelion and they're gonna think I'm so annoying and don't understand what I'm talking about I have to jump now"
Man has biggest fear of being obnoxious. Please forgive my crimes of having autism and hyperfixating on literally the worst dude in the world /lh
#i dont know if im making sense but like#ggrrrrrrr#i think i dont want to sound like. hypocritical?#because i always talk big about how the witcher is like a dark fantasy#and it annoys me when i see people complain that they went into it (through Netflix usually) thinking it was light and escapist#and then i look down at my hands... and caspian and cassius... my comfort ocs.#my escapism.#and im like. OH GOD IM THE PROBLEM ARENT I#i know I'm probably not but like. SIGH.#I'm insane I'm sorry#the witcher
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Sort of a ramble, sort of me just writing my thoughts out while I'm stuck with writer's block, but I keep thinking about how Fulcrum was in stasis for roughly 3 million years??
Like, that's a long time, even for Cybertronians. Not a really long time, not an entire lifespan. But still, it's a large chunk of a normal lifespan just gone. Poof.
One second you're crawling across the pockmarked terrain of an alien planet, surrounded by the sound of gunfire, and the shouting and screaming before and after each earth shuddering impact of another k-con hitting the ground. And then it's quiet. You're not there anymore. You're drifting somewhere between not alive and just asleep. Preserved somewhere in the background of a doomed body, ignored by time and space, still here, but also not.
And then there's sound. Not gunfire. Not shouting or screaming. Not the sounds that'll haunt you till your dying days, your own death sentence pounding in your head. No. Just voices, talking, standing out against a silent, dead world. Wondering. Joking. Bickering. Familiar. Just, not familiar to you. And you're awake. Pulled back from the nothingness you've been frozen in, consciousness tugged forwards with the yank of a fuel pump and the nearness of life.
These two moments are roughly 3 million years apart, but only minutes, maybe even seconds, to him. From a hectic harrowing battlefield, to an old silent graveyard in one blink.
How long did it take to really sink in? I mean, he seems to just roll with it. He doesn't seem particularly bothered. But like, what happened outside of what we see? How did he really feel?
Also, his body aged without him. While his mind preserved itself, freezing him as he was right then, his body was left to weather Clemency for all those years. No wonder it crumbled to dust when he jumped off the world sweeper. It's probably a miracle of some kind that it didn't just fall apart each time someone leaned on him.
And even after they rebuild him, give him a better, newer body. His spark, it's casing, all the irreplaceable core bits that make up their inner bodies, it aged in the time without him. Does he feel it? Does it make his body even more foreign to him?
Then he's also a technician with information that's 3 million years out of date. Lucky him that the scavengers probably weren't working with top of the line material. But still it's gotta be weird when faced with anything brand new, because a lot can change and progress in 3 million years, and now some of the knowledge he once prided himself in is obsolete.
Besides those things, his view of the galaxy, of the war, of their kind, of other kinds, is one of the few things actually pointed out when it comes to him being stuck in the past. So, how often were his old views challenged? Facts of life he held close proved to no longer true? There's 3 million years worth of new science, new beliefs, new words, new terms, new views.
And sure, some of it can be familiar, because they're an ever evolving kind, and they have patterns, core beliefs, repeating behaviors, but a lot of it's gonna be unfamiliar at the same time, because it's 3 million years worth of catch up, it's not like missing last week's trend.
In a way, it makes him a living relic of a bygone era for Decepticons. It would've been really interesting to have had that explored a little more.
#rq i wanna say i love seeing others thoughts on these if you have them. esp those that have thought about it longer than i lol#like. im still just starting to sink my teeth into the lore and put things together. so your thoughts are much appreciated#sometimes i wish that i could turn these rambles into those really well worded. slightly pretentious. but in a fun way. character metas?#but i dont think i can organize my thoughts that well. so. rambles it is lol#not to say rambling is lesser or smth tho. i love a good ramble. love to read them. i support ramblers#speaking of rambling-#idk why it fascinates me so. but theres just something rlly interesting about fulcrum being somewhat stuck in the past#i think it could've played interestingly into his and kroks dynamic had it been explored more?#like. the past and history play big parts in their lives. krok having studied it. and fulcrum having been fast forwarded thru it#it would've been interesting to see them talk more about it? since logically fulcrum wouldve gone to krok for more of the 3mill year rundow#and its like. krok is shown to be really knowledgeable on not only history. but cultures as well. theres and others.#so certain eras of their own culture would probably be a slight interest of his. esp decepticon ones.#and then theres fulcrum. who pretty much got plucked from the empire era only to land in kroks lap (metaphorically) ((...unless?))#so heres this walking talking piece of history. and a dude that has a sort of passion for history. why not explore it more?#and like. yeah. the ''history'' krok has studied is all mostly shit he lived through. but people study the times they lived through-#-because while they may have lived through it. theirs is only one perspective. a good historian takes into account multiple perspectives#idk where i'm going with this now. smth smth fulcrum relying on krok for future stuff and krok having someone to talk history stuff with#i just. augh. i wanna know what their dynamic is more. what we see in the comics is so back and forth at times#like. they seem to hit it off pretty well. but then fulcrum fucks it up ig by being oblivious and a little too ''i can fix him'' vibey#and his taste in comedy is bad. to say the least. which is apparently grounds for messy divorce#also krok is sometimes cool with selling a whole dude. at least when the dude is their befriended giant killer autobot buddy :/#that is also grounds for divorce. obviously#sorry. this is derailing the more i start thinking about how messy fulkrok could be. like. ough <3#they're a little ''i hate my wife'' coded. but in a greater scav codependent poly way. and it's more krok being annoyed with fulcrum#its like. fulcrum: ''i can fix him bcs i need to feel validated'' vs krok: ''wtf is wrong with this guy?! who does he think he is??''#i think they'd want to pick each other apart intellectually. maybe emotionally. smth smth two officers. both disgraced. and power dynamics#its fun. they're both hypocrites. they'd need couples therapy. its also 4am. shit. ok goodnight
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I think its very telling of the liberal frame of mind that now that Trump has won again, there are multiple creators on tiktok teaching people how to migrate/leave the country. As if that's an option for everyone?? Like who is that advice for. The vast majority of us cannot afford to pick up and leave, find a residency in another country and jobs that can support ourselves/families, work through the citizenship process, and then get nationalized? It's an expensive process, most countries require either a parent born on the land or that you own land and live there for 5+ years, AND again, expensive as all shit??? Like what are we to do. We literally cant all leave. Many of us know people who wouldn't even be eligible to immigrate elsewhere, since some countries have Actual Health parameters you have to meet to migrate (see Australia not allowing diagnosed autistics to immigrate). Not to mention friends and family members who are immigrants working through the process here in the US still. That's not an option for most people. It's just giving white-liberal, one intersectionality per person vibes. Its stupid, and reductive.
#us election#im so sick and tired of being told every election that its the most important election of our lives#but then as soon as it goes the other way suddenly these same libs are ready to abandon ship#so it clearly wasnt the most important election bc youve always had the option to leave and now are#fuckin hypocrites ill be here suffering through the conditions of whatever this administration brings#and ill still be donating to funds in gaza and to the food banks here and helping my neighbors and serving my community bc im not a COWARD#ill still be making calls on behalf of the Innocence Project and giving my Xmas money to the tribal heritage center where I live#so fuck you entitled libs who have the privilege to just up and leave instead of helping the people around you who dont have that privilege
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Thinking about how Kazuki was about to do the exact same thing Misaki did when it comes to Miri which is sending her off to somewhere "safer" before considering what she'd feel until Rei talked him out of it!!! I am devastated
#buddy daddies#kazuki kurusu#misaki unasaka#rei suwa#miri unasaka#REI SUWA CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT IS CRAZYYYY#HE REALLY WENT LIKE#i dont give a shit about the type of world we live in im gonna be her father THROUGH AND THROUGH!!!#fucking love how this show explores the complexity of parenthood like#both kazuki and misaki did it out of concern#with the difference being that misaki doesnt think theres any way out#i feel bad for the woman tbh#at the same time the show doesnt even sugarcoat the mistakes she has done#with her recognizing it at the end so like the hate was uncalled for tbh#full of hypocrisy in this episode and i mean in an interesting turn of characterization way#everyone will be hypocrites indeed
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told my mom i'm developing a widow's peak and she laughed, saying "yeah, it runs in the family among the men."
jesus christ with that and the neckbeard i really am intersex arent i
#slightly terrified#being intersex isn't bad i know that#but it's such a different foundation on which to view myself#that's probably hypocritical coming from a proud tumblr genderfag boydyke kind of person#but i just. idk. it explains everything about what i've been through and what im still going through#i've had other trans men compliment me on how T is treating me#im not on T yet#i've been gendered as female in public yet been told i need to shave my face#and yet i've been gendered as male when wearing makeup#it's so strange#my existence is increasingly becoming foreign to the cis experience even though im not even on hormones yet#and in a way it's always been foreign#both in the trans way and in the 'i have a ton of body hair and acne at age ten' way#im usually all like 'yeah! fuck the gender binary! destroy expectations! down with cis!'#and also like. im a trans guy. i should want this and in a way i really really do#idk why my brain is being like this about it#fucking hell am i ever going to feel comfortable in my own body?
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#damn . if i like. ever did something wrong i wonder why they dont just talk to me about it#like idk i thought when they like. vagued about *someone* i had to convince myself that it wasnt me#like i literally went through our messages to make sure i didnt say anything wrong#but apparently it was me after all? i just wish they wouldve. idk. talked to me about it#it feels so hypocritical? why are you allowed to say what you think and im not#unless i actually did what you claimed but i cant remember this happening nor can i find messages where it happens#and even then instead of vaguing about me when you know im not doing well you can just approach me#or is there a whole different reason? do you avoid me because of something else? am i just not on your level after all?#if it was any other person i wouldnt have cared so much but they were one of the first friends i made there#we worked out so well in the beginning and now you realised im not who you thought i was and instantly replaced me#why does this shit ALWAYS happen to me? is there something wrong with me or is it everyone around me?#this is why i dont approach people. this is why im so intimidated by others. it doesnt work. ill always end up being less.#everyone always ends up being better and more and i am the replacable one. idk. just sucks
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every time someone calls morgana annoying an angel dies. im the angel btw
#Maybe im a little hypocritical as a teddie hater but like even if the localization did teddie dirty i still had to play through that and it#did damage to my BODY & MIND. you can see the damage probably. on my liver at the very least#mona isnt even translated badly people are just MEANNNNNNN
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I overshare online because I need constant validation that every thought and action of mine is Good and Okay and Normal. Surely this is a healthy coping mechanism
#something I'm trying to work through#comes from a hard mixture of autism (not knowing if what im doing is Normal behavior)#OCD (guilt loops that last for days weeks months on end)#ADHD (rejection sensitive dysphoria)#being raised christian (always being reminded that bad thoughts and actions will send you to hell)#and trauma from being heavily monitored as a teenager (very used to having every thought & action over-analyzed)#i have a constant craving for validation because of all of those things#which leads me to being a very self-absorbed person#i feel like if people aren't consistently telling me that im a good person then i must be horrible#im putting my emotional work onto others when i do that#making it THEIR responsibility to make me love myself#it's not healthy for you or anyone around you#you can't truly improve yourself if you're always relying on other people to verify whether or not you're okay#especially since everyone has different opinions & biases#if you never learn how to validate yourself you become completely reliant on others#and if you lose that outside validation everything will fall apart#even though i know these things i still haven't broken out of the habit#but that's another thing you have to give yourself grace for#you can't expect yourself to instantly adhere to new expectations#so you're gonna be hypocritical at times#you can't hate youself for that either it takes time to break habits#you need to find the line between self criticism and self hatred#love yourself Or Else. literally.#.bdo
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sanji vs absalom...... oda im in your walls
#boo. hiss. tomato tomato#i knew it was going to be bad but. PHEW#alas i fear oda frequently sacrifices story and character on the altar of The Goof#is a sexist joke really worth making one of your main cast just like. an utter hypocrite who should be on a watchlist#much to consider. in the meanwhile im chewing through oda's drywall like an efficient roach
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sometimes im like I want to start making new mutuals again and like using tumblr socially. and then i get scared. so i dont
#im such a hypocrite bc ill rb posts like You have to push through fears to experience new things!#and im like so true fr.... and then i see a promo hour post and inget scared abd have to leave the app for 5 hours so i dont start crying.#<- slight exaggeration
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its the way that i was judging people who bought bg3 only bc of astarion but i just now realized that i have on 2 separate occasions, had some guy that bewitched me be a main driving factor in me wanting to play a game
#the guys in question being daeran pwotr and reth palia.... 🤒#i only realized this bc im still looking through old posts and saw the daeran one earlier and just now stumbled across the reth one#never said i was not a hypocrite!!!#.txt
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Death note is a must for emo anime. Black butler, vampire knight, monster, tokyo ghoul, madoka magika all great darker themed anime 🖤🖤
i actually got halfway through deathnote last month! it was getting a lil too um…. dated for me but i’ll get back to it because it was very charming
#misa…. i love her look but damn . its ok we’ll pull through#and L actually explains so much of ppl i knew growing up like oh that was ur role model !!#i liked the potatoes chip scene tho. v fun#btw im being a hypocrite ! i put up with utena’s weird shit so deathnote is not at fault i just needed a break#ask#anon
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sometimes i forget i only feel alive when im working on a sewing project. and then i pick up a new project.
#like u feel like youre all fine and good and then you start thinking about things and your brain starts going and its like#oh... THIS is what living is#the rest is just surviving#i feel joy i feel happiness im exited! wow#nyxtalks#i am typing this instead of working on it. yes. i serve hypocrite always#listen listen. the planning and the sewing are the bits i loveeeeeew#i simply suffer through fitting and cutting. slowly#i will finish today n tomorrow. there will be like 1/2 a dress bc im vibing
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