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slutcore-starships · 9 months ago

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#tw death #ig . nothing personal or specific just . in general #but. its just.#despite not being anything personal. i think im realizing i.#havent actually. like.#wrapped my head around it??#or im just . ridiculously tapped and have no energy for emotional regulation #bc i can barely stumble onto a real reference of it without getting my whole day derailed #and thats . a bad skill to lack right now #i cant see someone slip away without losing the whole night to thought #thought . is generous . its closer to consumption #i . dont know its like . i know i had an . okay relationship with it before #the ability to process and grieve and move on with fond memories #but now . i just . cant get my head around anyone being gone #like . what do you mean theyre not here anymore??#where did they go??#i . knew the answers to that once #i had a way of dealing with it and thats . been lost #and it sounds so childish when i say it out loud #but they cant just be gone #ill never see them again??#ill never meet them??#theres a weight i cant begin to fathom to that #and i dont know if its always been there #and now i cant even get a bug without crying #why . why why why why why why #why is this how things work . why #who said this was okay #i . cant even think about it

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cheesenchalk · 3 months ago

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i never know how to phrase it but something about the way beatles biographers and people in general view paul's reflexive placating persona and determination to smooth things over as manipulative or duplicitous and john's reflexive barbed persona and habit of lashing out as brave and subversive despite both being equally defensive mechanisms to shield themselves from the world that resulted in them saying things that weren't true says more about how we culturally view kindness or friendliness as inherently untrustworthy or flimsy and anger and carelessness as more believable as someone's true nature than it says about either of them in actuality

#the beatles #john lennon #paul mccartney #mclennon #idk if im explaining this well but it always gives me whiplash to read how 'beatles historians' elsewhere view them #bc it seems like for all that theyre able to make the simple connection between johns past and trauma to his behavior #as a protective mechanism to shield him from vulnerability #far fewer people make the equally reasonable connection between pauls past #with parents that never said i love you to each other or told their children about a serious illness #and an adult paul who doesnt examine his own feelings much less speak candidly about them #or stories like mike mccartney talking about being beaten by jim while paul yelled at him to just say that he 'didnt do it' so it would sto #and an adult paul who has clearly internalized the basic cause and effect of the things you say and the consequences that come from them #and how the truth is less relevant in those situations than the obvious path of least resistance that will spare you needless pain #idk i have a lot of thoughts and feelings on how people see paul mccartney #i want to shake some of these biographers and be like this mid-20s kid experiencing a level of scrutiny and pressure #the world had never seen before #was not puppeteering everything to meet his vision #he was trying to protect himself and his friends from the very real danger of public perception!!#my posts

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ash-and-starlight · 1 year ago

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one day, in a thousand years

#I THINK I HAUVE COVID #oh to meet your love after a thousand years at a museum exhibit of your past lives #thinking about them makes me so sick so ILL DISEASED #I AM NOT IMMUNE #spc i’m cursing u forever for this wtf. WTF bro wtf #ouyang’s last thoughts were a desperate plea for esen to wait for him.#he has NEVER called him by first name he has NEVER asked him anything #and his last thought is asking him to wait #and esen does. bc he would have given ouyang anything he asked for #god i hope u get rawed so good it makes up for all the lost lifetimes u earned it #he who drowned the world #she who became the sun #the radiant emperor #general ouyang #esen-temur #(zhu also present in the golden imperial dragon and the golden light of gayness that brought them together again)#my art #not super proud of how it turned out tbh tbh it looks better in my head 😔😔#would’ve stayed in the drafts if not for my need to feed this 4 ppl fandom #and if not for robin motivation nfngdjfb ty kissa you forever #id in alt text

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justaz · 7 months ago

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im not a fan of modern merthur but the idea of them meeting in modern times and introducing themselves to each other and them laughing and bonding over their names being connected to the myth of king arthur and camelot is just so cute

#like i prefer canon fics #magic and royalty and knights and dangerous quests etc etc #but the idea of merlin being teased for sharing a name with the great wizard of legend #which means he has Too Much knowledge on all things camelot #and then meeting arthur pendragon and going #‘no fucking way’ and his first question when arthur introduces himself is ‘as in king arthur of camelot?’#and arthur (never been told that before) is like ‘wtf?? no?? but interesting first response pls tell me more im intrigued’#and merlin introducing himself with a laugh #them bonding over it and making jokes like #‘finally. where have you been?? i’ve been looking for you’#‘wheres my crown’#‘must be destiny’#‘ill turn you into a toad’#etc etc #so cute #so funny #i love them #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #merthur

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starflungwaddledee · 1 year ago

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some rather strong first impressions were made.

required reading for the magical "voice" headcanon and another for starstruck's signature in particular. asked by @trainerbob23 !

#did i need to do a 9 page comic for this... well who knows. i had this scene in mind for a long time and wanted to do it justice!#important moment for both of them. you can see starstruck just generating the bandee shaped mental illness in real time.#and bandee resolving to be her point of contact with waddle dees if the others can't handle it #he is after all; the strongest and the bravest and the best of them.#“what is this signature like” it's like meeting something that has a human face but you can tell it is Not Human. think: uncanny valley #it also took her quite some time to pick up her own voice. she could not speak (popstarian) on her own for a while #she does not mimic anymore though if she can help it because it tends to weird others out and she wants to avoid that!!#it's not like a fun or enjoyable impersonation; it's like a perfect recording on a device.#also i guess this is *finally* the reveal of the 'hospital' mentioned previously that folks noticed and also like... her name 😂#anyway.... thank you to everyone who voted for starstruck in that poll and has encouraged this insane self indulgence... wow.#never thought i'd get to draw stuff like this and have others look forward to it. i really hope you'll enjoy this!!!#my art #my comics #starstruck dee #bandana waddle dee #gravitational collapse

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suffarustuffaru · 1 year ago

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so i talked a bit about reinjulisuba on this blog in the past like in this one ask but now ive made a quick and easy diagram summarizing their whole deal <3

#rezero #re:zero #natsuki subaru #reinhard van astrea #julius juukulius #arc 5 spoilers #THE REZERO BOY DRAMA IS INSANE 😭😭 they are so mentally ill knwdjdnd #reinjuli having not one not two but THREE brain chemistry life altering first meetings is fucking insane #julius is always cursed to have the worst first meetings of his life with random twinks #and julisuba being so stuck in astrea drama is so horribly funny 😭 theyre honorary family members at this point #THEN THERES REINSUBA BEING FREUDIAN…..#im never not losing my mind over them #i need to make a diagram with otto included in it also bc it gets EVEN WORSE…#rezero boy drama is crazy as always. theyre all deranged in different directions. i hate these men #reinhard knowing that reid is Like That and never telling/getting the chance to tell julius is the cherry on top 😭😭#i need a 100k slow burn reinjulisuba fic STAT. im begging on my knees #also julisuba being into each other but also reinhard (platonic or romantic) but also admitting OUT LOUD that reinhards a monster. im crying

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necrotic-nephilim · 7 months ago

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If you want to be bothered. Maybe this for dick and Bruce???

i ALWAYS want to be bothered these are always the highlight of my day tbh you're a delight for letting me just yap <3

Dick. For the canon isn't real square I am Specifically talking about the Tom Taylor Nightwing run. Usually I ignore bad runs but given this one is ongoing (though about to end THANK GOD and get replaced by Dan Watters who i have high hopes for since i adored his Sword of Azrael (2022) run but i digress) so I counted it. Especially since it's so debated if that run is bad or not, for some reason. I'm a 90s Nightwing truther. I love Dick so dearly and tbh recently I've been more enamored with him the more I read his Discowing era, I didn't used to be as big of a Dick stan as I am these days.

Bruce. Honestly where do you even start with Bruce. I want to fist fight him and also patch him up. He got me into comics and superheroes as a whole but I roll my eyes whenever he shows up in a story. He's a bastard and usually not a good father but also complex and should be dissected under a magnifying glass. I love him dearly. He's also just the worst. I think that's why I love him. I'm always a fan of unabashedly Complicated Asshole Bruce who's generally not always the best person, particularly not to the Batfamily and that being the driving force of his relationships with them, especially in shipping.

And for bonus points, Tim. Because know above all else, I'm a Tim Drake kinnie /deg. He's been my number one for a decade and I've yet to uproot him from my brain. He's literally the Worst half the time and I love him for it. And the canon isn't real refers to Tim Drake: Robin because... that sure was a comic. And that's about all I can say about it. Pre-Flashpoint Tim I miss you so dearly. I think it's fun that I want to put him in a blender and drink the juice but also want Nothing Ever to happen to him.

#necrotic answerings #batcest #bruce wayne #dick grayson #tim drake #fandom tag #anyway the fandom is i guess mean to all of them #but like it's deserving.#everytime i meet a tim anti i'm like you're SO right. he's the worst. pls hate his ass more.#same with bruce. like never met a bruce anti who didn't have endless receipts for hating his ass.#(except for those using the shallow 'he's a billionaire beating up the mentally ill' argument which. i ignore)#(bc why are you. consuming superhero content if you just don't like or understand the genre. it's lazy pseudointellectual nonsense.)#and i don't think ppl are truly mean to dick. i think they just don't understand him.#which extends to the entire batfamily bc well. the state of the fandom and all.#like “everyone else is wrong about them” isn't in a “no one gets them but me” way #(except about tim truly no one gets him but me /j)#it's in a “oh y'all just want to fit them into neat boxes don't you” way #one more person call dick grayson “eldest daughter core” and i'm going to your house and eating the stuffing out all of your pillows.#first of all can we stop calling male characters “female coded” in any way please #women exist in comics too.#second of all it's just not true? and it's not the complex he has with bruce nor his “siblings” if you wish to call them that #and then bruce. where do you even start.#you dare say you think it's in character for bruce to hit his kids and *SOCIETY. society goes wild.*#like ofc it has to be in specific contexts. he's not just swinging.#and sometimes it *is* written very OOC bc bruce is written as a machismo self insert i give you that #but yeah a soldier who views his children as soldiers and has zero healthy emotional regulation or communication skills #is gonna sometimes swing in his worst moments. it is just how the superhero genre works everyone is gonna fist fight to solve problems.#why are you reading comics about ppl who hit other ppl for a living if you don't like it when they hit ppl.#also random hot take about dick's characterization #the young justice tv show did incredible damage to ppl's perception of him and i dislike the take it's the best adaptation of him

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cent-scratchnsniff · 3 months ago

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reread tiphs dialog recently. i love them lots

#lobotomy corporation #lobcorp #lobotomy corp spoilers #lobcorp spoilers #i cant help it. the boxes....#i never know what to tag as spoilers and what not to. so just to be safe #tiphereth #tiphereth lobcorp #chesed #chesed lobcorp #do i do all of them..? some of them are smaller. ahh itll be okay i hope..#netzach #netzach lobcorp #ill stop there. there is gebura yesod and malkuth but its just one drawing for both #just general thoughts of mimicking others and trying to potray what maturity is. the dialog from story 1 when you meet them i think abt tip #talking abt being stern stoic and strict. then netz talking abt yesod and the two behaving similar like that #just thought some others would be cute. trying to get used to how id draw her. ah the gebura tiph one was a loose idea in gebs story to #where the two talk and tiph advises against asking to much and to hold onto that hate iirc. been a bit. then the idea of her able to replac #parts. then the degradation of the soul after being destroyed. maybe tiph might check up on her or peek in to see how shes doing considerin #the idea to hold onto hate was advice She gave. iirc. anyways the concept of having black coffee to look cool and grown #they put the shortest next to the tallets in the same layer. had another idea to have the two tiphs stack atop one another to be as tall as #chesed and gebs but i got too tired. its a cute idea though might do it later. another thing i wanted to do later on was pertaining to #singing a song of homeland and lisa stating she wanted to dance. that and the backdrop from c comand being a giant stage. preformance arts #malkuth is there because the three all do a command team. lots is stuff and responsibility. feel like tiph would have beef w her . also an #iirc moment i recall something abiut the two teams havinf a rivalry or competition of sorts? kind of funny what beef u got w some kids bro #more likely pertaining to the agents inside of the teams itself to be honest. i think id be cute is malkuth would give some help tips thoug

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heroesspirit · 11 months ago

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POV your little brother figure wants a bug so you use your splitting ability to grab it for him.

Second page was made by @ryssbelle!

#zelda au #link meets au #hs four #hs picori #the Colors designs are hs canon compliant i realize ive never drawn them i just kinda guided Ricky with their looks!#much to be said but ill only ramble a tiny bit #Four dyed his hair blond when he was in a much more upset headspace so that reflects with Blue #I chose more muted colors for them because his life was not too vibrant right before the events of HS taking place #aight that’s enough rambling in the tags

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moeblob · 4 months ago

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it is almost midnight why am I still drawing art ...

#picrew baby crew #ok i will try to be concise on the explanation lmao #ages ago someone in the discord server im in was like... in the mood to do a couples picrew but asked with whomst #and im like oh oh pick me ! and they did #but the thing is ? they had yet to meet me irl and had never seen me in a picture so like #they just made me look like ferdinand basically #so i have a lot of cute lil picrew of them and my ferdsona as they dubbed it #and it was super fun bc neither of us care to be limited to a gender so in some i was more feminine and in others they were #and so tonight they posted some halloween ones and im like oh man thats so cute #but i asked them in private hi would you be cool if i had a different sona to use ?#bc by now i have actually met them face to face and so they know what i look like irl #and and so i got to describe a new sona and thats the lil blonde buddy #and since i wanted to be a werewolf theme (i had three options) they were like cool ill make myself lil red riding hood then #and it was SUCH A cute lil picrew so i drew the designs #but i have noticed in my games lately if i get character design im like ... various shades of blonde #and i am a freckle addict in games that let me have a freckle option i need freckles in game so #ta da lil blonde fella with freckles !#that was probably not concise but its fine i think ???#anyway shout out to them for being super cool and chill

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xxplastic-cubexx · 1 month ago

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In your professional educated psychology opinion. why is cherik Like That

i cannot give a Professional educated psychological opinion until at least may but as far as i can tell queer people cant be normal bout anything so thats why theyre like that

#snap chats #if i wanted to tbh i prob could do a Genuine Overview of Why Theyre Like That from a character study standpoint #not like the series aint givin me crumbs ...... obligatory 309 mention Do We Get Why Thats My Favorite Issue Now #its literally charles being his own therapist with erik as his mouthpiece. weird ass psychosexual episode like my god #this what i mean when i say queer people cant be normal cause whats that for...#idc if you explained it to me as erik being the embodiment of everything charles hates about himself #see now i wanna reread it but i left the issue at my moms !!!!!! im going back tomorrow for the weekend at least... i can read it then...#im still standing in astoundment...#and when charles said he became obsessive with finding other mutants after meeting erik #oh girl your break up was MESSY messy .... dare i say rebound era ...#charles you cant fill the void like that ......#anyway im gonna be sick now that im thinking of Iconic Cherik Things again i have made myself sick thinking of them #fym your feelings for erik was stronger than falling in love Kill Yourself PLEASE #ok ill stop. ill go now.#ask me this question again like four months idk im not a doctor and i never will be #should i go clinical just so i can pull a lorna and remind everyone of my phd every other day #very funny in theory but too expensive of a joke i fear and while i love a good joke My God.

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luxu-loveskh · 13 days ago

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i need to strangle him

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broareweabouttoviberightnow · 2 months ago

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Can I say something? Steve n Soda

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fire-in-my-woods · 22 days ago

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With tears in my eyes. Daryl Dixon IS a gay man

#listen. stopped watchinf any of the shows when i saw the “flashback of girlfriend we never even got to meet”#literally who was that. if u were going to give daryl a girlfriend why is it some random woman that was there for like 5 minutes of his life #than up and left. what the fuck #no but you dont understand u dont UNDERSTAND how devastated teenage me was #why did they chicken out of making him gay?? the fuckin interviews and shit i really thought wed be getting a confirmation in the show #am i fuckin fool or sum??? this is the one and only time ill ever even say this. i got queerbaited by the walking dead LMAOOO #yeah u know what i AM a fool. what was i thinking? thatd they make a main character gay? not unless they can eventually kill them off 🙄#norman reedus made his character unkillable so they execs made daryl straight what is this cruel world coming to #The Walking Dead #Daryl Dixon #[ RJ ]

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springcatalyst · 3 months ago

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you totally should do an oc relationship web!! id love to see that i find your ocs fascinating :] also it's a good way to quickly introduce newcomers to oc dynamics hehe

hello. i am psychologically unwell and so i want to remind you that you ASKED for this

if some of the text is too small to read IM SORRY. it should be ok if u click to see it bigger. i also had to design nadia for this and she actually turned out spot on. and i decided shes missing an arm

i am thinking of them all crazy style always. anyone wants me to elaborate shoot me an ask or a fuckin dm idc. i will always talk about my fucking guys <3

#oc #ocs #ask #I AM UNWELL ABOUT THEM #u can call this 1: the sisters kil (+ diana). 2: the siren's song (hatred and malice). 3: the serpent's tail (messy bitches)#did not connect diana/heiti or julian/nadia because. they dont rlly know each other #diana and heiti never meet and julian only meets nadia like. once. and it does not last long!#also nadia and heiti. they never meet #but the rest of them. oh boy. they have GOT to get normaller #fucking. julian and warren is so funny. BITE EACH OTHERS DICKS OFF #also also. kinda of paragraphs for julian and naomi. they have. a complicated relationship to say the least #also also ALSO. nadias arm is literally nothing. i might change it in the future if i think of something cool but for now like.#it's literally just a birth defect. when i drew her i didn't draw the rest of her arm and then it looked like it was on purpose and i was.#well. no reason for her to NOT be missing an arm. missing an arm be upon ye #ONE MROE THING AND THEN ILL BE DONE. the reason julian and diana's change is bcause the one with the sisters is more early on/in ereform #it's pre-plot. or like. most of it at least.#after (messy bitches) is more later on and then. haha well. unhappy reunion be upon ye #ALSO THANKS FOR SENDING ME THIS. I LOVE BEING ENABLED MWAH MWAH MWAH

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pkmoth · 6 months ago

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having swap au thoughts. *slaps roof of claus* there's so much mental illness in this guy. im gonna blow up everyone in the room and then myself

#what if you felt unbearable guilt because your brother went missing in the two seconds you were separated #and you feel like there mustve been Something you couldve done to prevent it #if only you had stuck together. if only you hadnt let him tag along on your basically-a-suicide-mission in the first place #but none of those things happened so you go through three years blaming yourself #continuing to search for him because maybe hes still out there. and maybe exhausting yourself on an aimless search is a way you can atone #and then you're pulled into this big destiny adventure so your searching is put on the back burner #you're so busy doing important things and meeting new friends and there are points in your adventure where your heart feels lighter #and maybe you open up just a little about the crushing guilt you feel. and your new friends say it wasnt your fault #maybe you start accepting that your brother is really gone but you have to keep living your life #saving your brother was a far out dream but saving the world is something you have the power to do #so you try your best. so you dont fuck up this time #your guilt becomes the fuel keeping you going #and then at the end of your journey #you find out one of the biggest obstacles on your journey #the human chimera that you felt kinda horrified at and a little bad for even as you fought them #is your brother you've been mourning and agonizing over not being able to save #so um. The Guilt is even worse now #now he doesnt just feel responsible for his death. he Now feels responsible for him becoming this Creature Thing under porkys control #and in a lucas dies scenario. hoogh i cant imagine how claus would feel after that.......#however the thing that spurred this post was thinking about the lucas lives postgame scenario (it just got a bit out of hand lol) so.#your brother is alive and back home again and youre so unbelievably glad #but the guilt still creeps up every time you see how much hes Changed. physically and mentally #you had just started to accept the fact youd have to live without your brother but somehow having him back is almost just as painful #things cant just go back to how they were before. youll never be the exact same happy family as you used to be #its strange adjusting to having lucas back and its strange trying not to step on each others toes with their trauma #you cant help but be clingy because you couldnt bear it if he disappeared again under your watch #but nobody wants to be watched all the time especially when youre recovering from your brainwashed identity as an army commander #FUCK I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT I WANTED TO RAMBLE MORE AUGH. THEY MAKE ME SO ILL. i swear its not all angst theres some lightheartedness in it #mother 3 swap au #mothfics

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