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Okay look, I think I'm going insane. We learn here in Double that Orekoto seems to be right handed, right?
Right? He always holds the bat with his right. And when he goes to swing, he swings with his left facing the "pitcher", which is how you swing if you're right handed.
Except.
There, his right is to the pitcher. That's a left-handed swing. You can even tell it doesn't make sense that that's the same swing just looking at the two images.
The bat is on the left. Only the left hand is bloody. And even the backside of the hand is bloody, so it's not like we're not seeing the blood on the right, there just isn't blood there. But notice the first alter isn't holding the bat.
Ends with blood on both hands.
Guys, I think we've gotten something wrong. There may not be just one murderer. Two alters have killed, I think.
#ill come back to this after eating#but im going insane#milgram#mikoto kayano#milgram theory#double mv#cw murder
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Helo mimination on adventures of mimi today i got locked out of my house because my brother thinks im a loser who cant be friends with our neighbour
#.mimiming ❜#i was in my neighbour's house rekimdling friendship 🩷 my brother thought i was out to visit my one other friend who lives in walkable#distance . locked the door and gave the key to the security . also i didnt have my shoes so my friend's mother had to go and get the key#i also made plans to meet with another friend but i feel guilty leaving miku all alone#shes also alone with some guy whos fixing her ac so she cant come ever either#sigh . ill see if we can meet up after my parents come home#we probably can . because we are . well .#we have nothing to do#also helo miu 🥰 🥰 🥰 🥰 🥰 🥰 🥰 im gonna eat lunch and then text you back immediately trust#also i would have texted earlier before socialising but i was sleping (listening to your snork mimimi plalist btw... if you even care)
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thinking about freehoun so bad tonight oughhhhhhhhhhhh
#i wanna draw it so bad but i need to eat and then go to bed#like- just the idea of the rescas. barney sees gordon being dragged away and is forced to leave him#and even though he knows gordon lived- he defeated the nihlanth after all- he's still never going to see him again#the vorts say he's alive- they INSIST he's alive- but he'd still be on xen with no way to get back#and then barney just exists selflessly trying to help the resistance for 20 years#every so often he hears about gordon coming back one day and fuck he wants to believe that but he just *cant*#until he sees him at the train station#holy shit. it's him. and he hasn't aged a damn day.#barney can't even properly reunite because they would get caught and killed#so he calls issac and sends gordon on his way trying so so so hard to pokerface for the rest of his shift#when he gets back he only finds out gordon is on the run and in danger#and he cant do shit to help him#and when gordon gets to black mesa east barney isn't even there#all that- all of half life 2- and they can't properly reunite#and then the citadel explodes#man. he would ABSOLUTELY think gordon was just fucking killed then.#and when he STILL survives... just. imagine this with me.#im ill. i am so very very ill#freehoun#half life#dimond speaks
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I'm experiencing an extreme irony attack (I'm good, yeah, I'm feelin' alright, baby, I'ma have the best fuckin' night of my life playing over the speakers while I'm munching on plain fries in the liminal space airport at time is fake o'clock)
#also known as pulled an all nighter AM.#“how it feels to come back from your holydays”#local French blogger now coming to you from Ireland (again)#Because yeah. I was in France for the past three weeks and it was AWESOME#And now I'm eating fries in an airport at the crack of dawn and and my brain is mush and im drinking Dr pepper and coke#Ill be less weird tonight after I've slept the whole day God willing 🙏
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#personal#it feels like im not allowed to complain about my own life on my own blog#or at least that if im allowed to that it seems very firstworld problem very selfish very not appropriate with all thats going on#that people will and do think less of me for expressing my own sadness and frustrations because theres no way it compares#to a lot of peoples very big and very real problems#but im so fucking sick of being poor and small. all ive had to eat today is 2min noodles roughly 10 hours ago#and all ill get tomorrow is a bowl of 2min noodles but ittl be another 15 or so hours until its the most reasonable to eat that#thats the real girlmath and then thats the last of my noodles. that leaves me with one (1) small tin of tuna#which might end up being tonights intermediary food if i really cant wait 15 nore hours for my next noodles but is supposed to be#the one meal of the day after tomorrow. so if i eat it too soon then i have even more time that i just dont fucking eat#im so sick to death of being in this position. like its literally killing me and theres fuck all i can do to make it better#ive tried. and i try and i try and i try but i can never afford anything#my landagent keeps sending me textx asking when theyll see a patment for my $50 water bill#i have to stop myself from texting back every time. youll see payment when im not spending literally 75% of my pay on rent alone#when i can afford to buy food and bills at the same time. whn i dont feel like kms-ing would be better than paying you my rent every frtnite#i crave a burger so bad i cant make myself do any tasks. i cant start or continue any crafts or chores because all im thinking about#is a burger like a blorbo rotating in my mind alongside the background noise that i wont get a burger and will only get noodles but not for#hours. a whole days worth of hours almost#my shitawful roomate is back and i have to play nice but he gives me the same feelings my abusive mother did. im scared to leave my room#in the safeplace house ive spent the last two years building for myself. this feels awful. things were all going so right and now#all of a sudden theyre all going as wrong as possible and im struggling so much. with no one to help. no one cares enough to help#the few people i do have are wrapped up in their own lives. which i get. but it doesnt take away the hurt of dealing with it all alone again#lot of momma trauma coming up with the end of eclipse season and i thought i was handling it. now i just feel fucking awful all the time#like ik healing isnt linear but the roomate triggers so hard things i thought i had processed and was on top of#would a burger fix that? no but itd atleast give me something to emotionally lean on for strength though it. but all ive got is noodles#24 hour apart one meal per day noodles. and tomorrow is my last pack. my only solace lately is that ive been invited to my first ever rave#or my first real rave anyway ive only been to one other 'edm event' that was not really a rave of any scale it was like 25 people#but its a halloween rave so im hoping for spooky fun dancetimes at least theres that. im out of data and spotifyprem so i havent been able#to take my silly little mental health walks bc theres zero chance im doing that without music and so itll be noce to get outside fr the rave#anyway. im doing very poorly i appreciate you few who reached out while i wasnt active but i expect ill continue to do poorly for some time
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About Judgment: In short, I think RGGS was intending to continue the series. There were indeed rumors at one point that the series would end at Lost Judgment due to a disagreement with Kimura's agency, Johnny & Associates, about porting the games to PC--I'm unclear on why, there was speculation but I don't think it was ever stated. Obviously the PC ports are out now, so either that wasn't the issue or they moved past it. There's also just general disbelief around there being a third entry simply because there's this idea (joke?) that Kimura never does three of anything, which isn't true at this point. It is true RGGS historically hasn't done three of anything in terms of spinoff series (Kurohyou, Mobile+Kizuna, and arguably Kenzan+Ishin), but it's also true that none of their past spinoffs have been as successful as Judgment, and we're seeing a lot of "firsts" from the studio lately. The fact is that Yokoyama himself said something along the lines of "and of course, we won't forget about Judgment" (not literally, just the closest English expression I can think of that can be misinterpreted in the way I'm about to explain) while talking about future works. But for some reason, people took it as if he meant it "in mourning" rather than an obvious confirmation of more to come, I guess? A TV show was also announced, so I really don't get why they'd invest so much into a series they were going to end. I know Kurohyou got a show too, but this seems different. Anyway, that's the most recent information, but it's from some years ago. There is a major new development, however: J&A talents' contracts are being cancelled left and right as of the last couple of months due to the agency's dogshit handling of and response to an investigation into Johnny Kitagawa's serial abuse of allegedly hundreds of his talents. That's been going on since the man died in 2019, basically, but a lot's happened this year.
This has left the talents with the incredibly tough decision of either remaining at an agency that refuses to even change its name and is rapidly breaking down or leaving. It has historically been very difficult to do the latter. On top of what you'd expect, J&A controls their talents to an insane degree and has leveraged their control of the media to suppress the careers of those who leave.
Broadly, in terms of how media companies have responded so far, I understand not wanting to associate with J&A and that J&A would likely benefit from the contracts more than the talents, but it still feels like the talents are the ones being punished... I have to imagine at least some of them were victims, so to be victims of the blacklist on top of that... That, and some of these companies kept the truth from coming out for decades.
With J&A losing its foothold in the media, though, there may be no better time than now to leave the agency. I don't know if Kimura will--rumors have been circulating ever since his idol group were forced to break up years and years ago, but while they all went independent, he never has--especially because a lot of seniors like him feel a responsibility to stay and change the agency for the better. As of right now, I'm not aware of Kimura's contracts getting cancelled, so I can't say one way or another if that'd have an effect.
I don't know what happens from here. I'm not sure if RGGS will look at it as collaborating with J&A or with Kimura or both, and how they'll factor in what's going on right now into working with him. Hypothetically, it would be possible to continue the series even without Kimura (any of the other mains do or would make great protagonists), but at the same time, Judgment is hugely reliant on Kimura's charisma. That's why people who play the dub (or people who don't like Kimura) often come away with the impression Yagami's kind of a dick or doesn't stand out much.
So... that's the state of Judgment right now. We won't know until we know, I guess.
OHHHHH OK saucy... sucks about J&A- it'd be cool if yk. they could face the consequences of their actions LMAO but that Could involve displacing hella workers now wouldnt it
#snap chats#well i hope something neat is done with judgement. again i have barely touched it but it does seem like a rad series..#rgg#anyway... unrelated tag ramble time... i feel so ugly LMAO i just havent eaten yet. im makin rice now tho#Insane we had a roommate meeting x days ago and one of the agreed upon things was that we could use each others appliances#and one of my roommates brought a rice cooker but obvi i wanted to ask first but she said no so. gotta use a pot. of which ive never done#it shouldnt be hard tho... lol.. s'just rice..#im technically supposed to be at class rn but im dropping it this week so id feel weird going to a three-hour class im not coming back to#heres to hoping my fuckin emails are answered or ill actually have to be an adult and do it myself LMAO#honestly i will later tonight if my email aint answered i hate waiting on stuff like this#after i Hopefully eat some fried rice balls i might doodle or i might practice some Y7 chapters#im still mad LMAO but im gonna make a ramble post in a sec bout that#ty for sharin the gossip with me thats wild.... agencies annoying as hell And Criminal Sometimes i SWEARR
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HOW DO I INTRODUCE MY OCS!??? EVER????????? PROPERLY?? AUUUUGH!!!
#SCREAMS INTO THE VOID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#im fine. ok no not really#never trust yourself after 4pm during the winter#ok but fr how do i do this???!#im gonna die .#i have so many things and characters I want to share but#the catholic guilt of not wanting to be “egotystical” is eating me#and enjoying me. vore-style#wtf am i saying#no promises im coming back im sorry#things have been up and down in my life and mental stability#its hard to explain nor will i try#but ill be poking in hopefully!#yumyums#mangos ocs
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taylor idk who chappell roan is i think that makes me disqualified from being queer forever (←sapphic girl)
She's a musical artist! She's pretty up-and-coming right now and is seen as a wlw queer icon in the music industry, but I've never been able to get into her music even though tons of other sapphics love it. I probably just haven't given it enough of a chance. Casual is a good song though!
#big ol' personal opinions disclaimer down here in the tags. also lisia this is soooo unrelated to your question sorry lol#i also kind of hate a very specific subset of chapelle fans and i can't listen to her without thinking of them dkjfsdkjfnkdsf#which is a really stupid reason to not listen to her music and i know it but alas brains work in weird ways#i don't judge her by her fans! but i just have that tainted association. like how sometimes you feel ill after eating something#and even if that didn't cause you to be sick- you still refuse to eat it afterwards? it's like that#it's not her. she did literally nothing wrong. it's just an unfortunate little brain link that i can't get rid of#saw a couple of fans talking about toxic bisexuals and their 'inferiority complex' and that put me off of her music as a whole tbh#in regards to debates about her sexuality#one was talking about how bisexuals 'marry the patriarchy'.#quote-'bisexuals have freddy mercury. that alone is all you need' :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) i'm going to bite someone.#it's like these few specific fans were tailor made to put me off of her#unfortunately i have not gotten past that yet but if i ever can undo that brain association and enjoy her music i will let yall know ksdjks#unfortunately as of right now i am programmed to see her name and think of the (probably very few) jackasses in her fandom#just kinda made me feel unwelcome when i was trying out her music a bit more sadly#it was never her as an artist or a person. just a few idiots but it was enough#idk. i should try again though. chapelle fans. which songs should i try to start again with?#anyways i should probably stop swinging the bat at the biphobia nest lest it come back to bite me but dkjfdksjf yeah tldr she's a musician#a very talented one! just one that i cannot enjoy quite yet. i hope i can kinda defrost about it though
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Strong world is the nami and luffy twins manifesto written by oda this is my one piece.
You see luffy's finishing attack with his giant hammer being fueled by lightning which is nami's main weapon with her clima tact and she even made the guy steer the islands towards the cyclone so even if the lighting isn't produced by her the lighting is provided by her either way so luffy AND her finished that guy and even luffy attacked after nami announced how he will lose which also means nami knew and trusted luffy to end him after that and of course he did and
Oh my god luffy making nami explain herself about the message he left on the tone dial and being pissed that she didn't trust him to save and protect her but he got so mad and didn't hear the whole message and she asked luffy to save her omg....... she knew after all that they will come and win..... I love this ending I am going to walk into the sea now goodbye.
Why are whitebeard and ace on the ending credits I already cried. Watching aces part again cause he looks so good. Hello alive dead wife
#the animation in this one..... hell yes.....#img little luffy i missed you!!!! robin doesnt look like herself in this one and franky doesnt have his voice 😞😞 what a disrespect in his#first movie appearance....... franky i will avenge you. your fit is hard tho. well his voice could be his va with a cold. its weird#why is brook smoking a blunt ajdhsksj and sanji tease......#the 3d is too good here.... and someone wants nami bc of her abilities instead of like well everything else.... i might accept this#sanji going insane ajdksjsk zoro what are you wearing on your head......#love the duck following nami like well a baby duck... omg i thought if the duck electrifies the animals in the water nami is fried too#and indeed he was i didnt expect it to follow logic ajdhsj nami found luffy of course#why is nami on top of luffy ajdhsjs doesnt she trust the bird to fly or what#THE BARTENDER FROM THE PIRAGE RACE MOVIE IS HERE TOO!!!!#nami getting arlong flashbacks but now worse#kinda love the crew being protective over her and not to fall into stereotypes but it goes off every time.... they got her away form arlong#nami and usopp omg...... nami once again sacrificing herself... suffered more than jesus.... also her bracelet... i didnt know that#luffy is so mad.... he gets so mad when people leave.... (he gets sad but ofc he cant be sad so next best thing)#NAMI GOT SICK FROM THE TREES!!!! WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!!!#they got changed and everything..... did robin tell them they had to follow the dress code and they all did?? qjsjaka luffys first cape also#luffy that was such a slay. why are they all carrying fire power. he called them a suicide squad... and well a lot of them actually#wasnt expecting this to turn into a mafia movie. surprised luffy knows how to shoot one of those.#nami isnt gonna sacrifice herself luffy said... while she rigs epxlosives in a place she cant move.... luffy she needs an intervention#oh my god. nojiko telling her to have fun.... every time i remember luffy promised gen san to keep her happy i die a little#luffy is gonna get a stroke he is so fucking mad 'nami ill beat this guy and well go back together' ok 🥺🥺#sanji understands perverted gorilla 😭😭#brook got robin instead of sanji.... sick ennies lobby reference bro#also how come franky didnt get his own movie.... like in this one franky AND brook join. confirming my theory that brook doesnt let franky#get confortable in the crew and be with them as the new one for a while bc brook joins immediately after and he doesnt get time to breathe#nami don't cry omg.... she was ready to never see them again omg#i thot nami was gonna electrocute him..... or make him eat the cyclone or smth.... well she said her peace at least#talking tag#watching one piece#watching one piece movies
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screaming in the club
time for another vent in tags
#so i was joking and i thought it came through but im also dumb and autistic and my jokes dont always cross. sO#i was joking about one of my roomates not seeing Nightmare Before Christmas before bc i was showing 2 of them my picture vinyl of it and whe#n one of them said they never saw it i said “but you were a loser on tumblr in the 2010s wdym” and their fiance was just rude to me and i th#ought it was clearly a joke but ig not and they lowley attacked me for it? im just?? i tried to clarify that i was joking and they know im a#utistic. hell the one i was joking to is also autistic but idk so now i feel like utter shit especially after all i did today thst juet drai#ned me. ive been trying to fix our 2nd shower. i had a meeting. i had an extremely hard therapy session. and i showered today. its been hell#like i am trying to get thru relapsing on SH and my ED and ofc they dont know but that shit made it worse and i dont want to say anything bc#then ill feel like im guilt tripping? idk but im also super nervous about a HRT appmt i have coming up and i cant afford it and we have no#food in the house i can eat rn and no one has gone shopping. i cant go shopping either bc i cant drive/dont have a car. and its making it#harder to help get back on track with eating when theres nothing for me to eat? so everything is fucking amazing right now.#the only meals i could POSSIBLY have and all claimed by the one roommate i was joking with. it all takes up half our freezer too so thats#fucking awesome. all this food for one person and none that i can eat or the other vegan in the house can eat. i have been hungry for DAYS.#all there has been for me to eat is cup ramen and grilled cheese. AND SOMEONE WHO WASNT FUCKING VEGAN ATE ALL THE VEGAN CHEESE IM GENUINELY#SO PISSED OFF? like dude yall have your own cheese wtf#the thing is its already really hard for me to tell when i am actually hungry bc of years of ignoring it so when i actually feel it and ther#es nothing it really gets to me. im so tired and idek where my EBT card is to get myself something. its all just so much.#i just want to lay in my bed and sleep for days. but i cant. i have too much shit to do. like even just tomorrow i have to clean the#bathroom. mop the kitchen. do dishes. shovel snow. and just generally take.care of shit because since we have 2 roomates MIA right now and#no one else wanted to do shit i had to step up and i am STRUGGLING. i have been for a while. the thing is everyone that didnt sign up for sh#it didnt have much going on besides probable seasonal depression#i relapsed. have debilitating mental health. i can barely get out of bed before 4 pm. and i have to take care of myself and my cat.#im so close to snapping on them at this point#i need the one roommate i actually like to come back or i swear i will lose my shit. hes only been gone for 6 days but HOLY SHIT#everything has gone to shit#vent over ig im going to sleep soon. still hungry if i cant find something.
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mmaster hcief
#personal! ok idk why but i am in such a bad fucking mood after realizing that yet another year has passed where my father hasnt like.#really ??? cared ??? i dont know man my parents are taking me out to eat but i didnt get a text or a call or anything#like man i know im not the one thats ur blood child but come on i remember yours and wish you every year :(#my mom only really remembered when i showed up and jokingly was like “ey next time you see me ill be a whole year older”#this week has sucked so bad brother i hope it wont set the tone for the next year LKHL:D:FLGHK#happy birthday more like KILL YOURSELF INSTANTLY POTION#god only like my friends and two family members remembered im realizing. fuuuuuuuuuck. not even the people i live with minus my fiance#i only exist to these people when its time to talk behind somebodys back brother#maybe i drive my car into a tree tomorrow ^_^ in theory itd be good for me but at the end of the day if these people didnt care when i went#to the fucking mental ward for plotting to kill myself i doubt theyd care if i bled out in a ditch either#they never called or visited they just picked me up and told me to never do that shit again#maybe i should have Not been born...............!#ermmm#personal#vent#i guess. idk. just so if people have those tags blocked itll get filtered or whatever#i probably shouldnt just throw this out into the wild but i dont want to directly bother anybody i know rn idk.
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Genuine question, does anyone want to hear about naruto from the prospective of a Liberian person grappling with the generational trauma of a brutal civil war or is that too heavy??
Like there's, I like sasuke cause he's a cool dude, very wholesome do tell, and then there's, I like sasuke cause the government also tried to eradicate my people group that one time and holding empathy for that dumbass kid teaches me to examine a my own experiences with compassion, honestly what a downer like who cares.
I don't know thoughts???
#do i even wanna speak on it#maybe i should just rewatch pray the devil back to hell give my dad a hug and tell him how proud i am of him#on second thought#maybe we should go the naruto route#like i promise their are a lot of wacky connections between the warfare in naruto and the liberian civil war#general butt naked eating hearts kakuzu also eating hearts#Samuel doe ( may he rest in pieces in someones digestive track while his soul burns in hell) and danzo#the thing i like about connecting fandom to my life is that it teaches me thing that provide empathy in spaces where it did not naturally#exist but the thing is i dont want to have empathy for a lot of those hos and i think thats valid actually#i think its important to bring our personal live into fandom though cause its all we really have#idek i think it would be best to keep the real world seperate from fandom in this case but#my dad just completed a trip to Liberia for the first time in 30 years (round of applause pls) for the first time since the war has ended#a confilct that started when he was my age (younger actually) and ended a month after my birth and has left so much instability who knows#if its ever really over#were all struggling to come to terms with the Liberia left behind by those events the family and friends we leave behind#and i feel like it would be easier to talk project it all onto stupid lil alien ninja wars instead of talking about it irl#i love sasuke cause i deeply relate to his struggle even though im a generation removed#but i feel like this fandom would not be receptive to the way i would disscuss his character if i made that connection in an analysis#so maybe ill just stew in my emotions a little longer and when i go back to Liberia this summer wth the fam ill decide weather to make#that post or not onece and for all#no that'll be perfect actually cause then i'll be able to make it a post for liberian independence day#ughhh like i don't be wanna talk about it irl but i don't feel this would be a good outlet either#naruto commentary in relation to the liberian civil war sounds like a dope essa but should i write it???#probably not but we'll just have to see#thoughts feelings opinions?? any other Liberian naruto fans on here??? pleas siblings put some sense in me#naruto#not naruto#god i don't even wanna make this post lets see how long she stays up#im writing too many naruto analysies rn anyways lemme worry about that first
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apparently someone in my fucking gsa is a racist cunt who keeps creeping on my little sister. this is the final straw i think
#im gonna talk to the teacher who supervises our group for advice bc the creep talks to her constantly#but if nothing comes out of that im gonna fucking go after her myself. she has no fucking right to do the shit she does.#if im the only one who's gonna call her out then so be it#nobody wants to call her out bc she's neurodivergent and everyone wants to use that as an excuse for her dogshit behavior#nobody fucking cares!! im neurodivergent too and im still completely capable of not creeping on a 15yr old!!! what the fuck!!!#also it's bc she's a trans girl so i guess she's incapable of bad shit in their eyes?? news flash!! she's not fucking immune!!!#she can be JUST as much of a creep as cis people!! my trans ass will beat her trans ass into the ground if she doesn't stop this shit!!!#sorry. im so fucking angry. ive been angry all day bc some bitch tried to beat me up earlier and his friends started going after me too -#- so ive got a target on my back and then i hear about THIS bullshit and now i need to fucking hit something or im going to die#i have nothing to hit though and pacing isn't helping. so im going to force myself to sit down and watch something stupid and eat junk -#- food until im distracted enough to not feel like my nerves are on fire. then ill spend the rest of my night high off my ass so ill be -#- able to sleep without feeling like i need to fight someone.
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i would prefer it if my dog didnt try and come help me when im throwing up like jay, this is lovely support and all but i dont want to near this, trust me, you dont either
#kai rambles#personal#delete later#tw vomit#this is mostly a vent post because i hate throwing up#like im consistently ill but vomiting is not a common symptom for me#and thank god for that because this is the actual worst#i also havent been able to take any of my 19 daily medications for two days because the only thing ive kept down is small pots of jelly/o#like i very much need to take these medications#this is my not going blind medication#the one good thing about not being able to keep things down is that i can very clearly tell because if you put food next to me#i can smell the ah ill throw up if i eat this#so at least it doesnt come back up#so its mostly liquid and something that i hope isnt blood but i dont know why theres something red in there#im having a great day can you tell#tbf i slept for like six hours early after like a 13 hour sleep#also like nhs 111 stop asking me if my chest feels cold#i cant reliably answer this i have nerve damage and cant detect cold#do it feel cold? i dont fucking know
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God I fucking miss hand rearing
#redd rambles#one of our pups took very ill today#they're 6 weeks so on food and water but they need syringe feeding and constant warmth and round the clock care#my work friend took her but because i was on her block and friend wasn't she couldn't touch her (kennel cough)#so ive been nursing her today and taking care of her and it just brought back this specific feeling#one ive not had since i was hand rearing Az#idk the care that comes from caring for this being thats so fragile#its something so wonderful#like just over the course of the day watching her build her strength up#she was being syringe fed water and by the end she was lapping it herself#shes still not eating solids but feeding her the puppy soup until she was full#then the content cuddles after eating where she went into a blissful food coma#god thats something i really miss#id love to hand rear again but i cant right now until Az settles some#but today was just so nice and reignited my want to foster
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forgot.
#guy learns that neglecting himself causes physical problems.#anyway. ive remembered that eating breakfast is good and nice.#if that doesnt feel like enough think about the horrid shit youll have after dinner =w=bb#anyway.#sillyposting#eat breakfast yall. and lunch. and dinner. and many many snacks. and drink water.#actually i should drink water. ill get a glass.#YOU TOO. water =w=bb#anyway i want to talk about it but yk. eating stuff below. beware.#ive only started having somewhat regular breakfast (some frozen fruit + some fruit-yogurt smoothi. about 700 ml idk) forr three months now.#after maybe. 3+ years of not having breakfasts. i mean i had a brief cereal habit for maybe 2 months but =w=#after i realized that the. diarrhea i had daily after dinner wasnt bc i was drinking too much (not even 1L of liquid :) )#but it instead was because i was. eating too little.#i have a good healthy lunch habit of 14+ months which is a wrap+lettuce+cucumber+pickles.#and its very good! but sometimes i doubt the nutritional value.#i know i shouldnt bc if i didnt have my trusty saladwrap i. would not have regular lunch. which is way worse#but anyway yeah the wrap itself probably doesnt fulfill the body needs that well which means that once i had dinner....#.... (which is still prepared by my parents thank god) it would be a BOMB on my intestines. bc theyve had nothing all day every day.#and. your body gets in a custom of not being prepared for a. normal amount of food.#which means it cant process the food. which means the half-processed food has to leave. which means daily explosive shits.#like genuinely i was fighting daily on the toilet. stomachcramps like menstrual cramps so painful.#anyway due to circumstances ive missed a few breakfast or lunches in the last week or so.#and guess who has come back =w=bb lovely old no-good shit. yay.#but i do feel better today!! aside from the horror the general depression has dimmed so =w=bb were hopefull for the future#and. will keep eating breakfast and lunch. which are harder than dinner bc im forced to join my family (lovingly and thankfully ofc)#=w=bb#let us get a glass of water!!!!
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