#ill be popping in when i can!

[wovetales]

as   of   now   until   next   week   ,   i'm   gonna   be   pretty   scarce   since   t.hanksgiving   is   coming   up.   i   have   a   queue   running   on   my   main   blog   starting   tomorrow   ,   but   i   have   nothing   here   oops.   if   time   allows   i'll   do   starters   /   drafts   since   i'm   bringing   my   laptop   ,   but   if   i   don't   get   to   it   ,   it's   bc   i'm   with   family.   💚💜

[fossette-promenade]

model-san coords are so inspo to me 😭

[sourscratched]

play it by ear s2 scribbling

[enden-k]

DID YOU WATCH THE GENSHIN 5.0 LIVESTREAM? LORD, THEY ACTUALLY LISTENED!!

yall.......i stopped posting gnshn stuff a while ago, i dont bother watching their stupid livestreams aaahhhhh if i could i would kidnap my faves out there and take them somewhere safe smh

anw no i did not watch it bc i dont keep up with gnshn. im out of the loop so idk what youre talking abt

[unexpectedbrickattack]

shenanigans

[edge-oftheworld]

yeah I know Luke’s been running around saying he ‘can be a bit of a pessimist’ but I just wanna give him a little bit more credit than that. he’s been through so much and yet we’ll hear him talking about times that are ‘marred with trauma’ but still he can’t ever regret for getting him to where he is today. this whole year he’s been making an effort to do things that scare him and he even finds hard, he’s been pushing himself out of his comfort zone and doing 1000 solo interviews as well as his shows and last year he went to bogota to film 7 music videos in 2 days and believed he could do it and he did. he talks about mental health related things in such a way that’s filled with acceptance, not complaint or bitterness but dare I say even optimism, dropping horrifying little descriptions to already heartbreaking songs since 2021 and then turning around and saying writing songs is what gets him through it, he ‘wouldn’t have a good relationship with anything’ if he didn’t make them but he’s super proud of himself after and wasn’t put off by how much work it was gonna be even though it did make him apprehensive and he goes and mentions how it wasn’t easy. you look at everything we know of him for the last decade and a half and realise, maybe it was never easy. but someone once described optimism as curiosity + resilience rather than being naively happy all the time in denial of everything going on around. and with that active brain and all the things he figures out while writing all his beautiful songs there’s definitely curiosity there. and with everything he’s been through to keep choosing to be himself and do whatever he needs to do there’s so much resilience. and I’ve seen this spirit in the songs of sounds good feels good and 5sos5, as well as littered through wfttwtaf and boy; every project being a quiet, kinda emo, statement of survival. I’m just one fan with too many opinions but this is something I’ve always loved about the band, and a decent portion of it was always brought to the table by luke and idk I just think we should acknowledge it

[pup-pee]

2 explain the shitty camera work; I DONT POST TRADITIONAL SKETCHES SO B NICE pls :3

i thought it would b cute sparkle 2 post some of my sketches ^^

now u can see y i struggle w/faces lol ((i dont practice))

[scootarooni]

Dude as soon as I'm not swamped I gotta make a Miki acrylic standee or something

I need Miki merch on my figure shelf and y'know what if I gotta make it myself by god I'll do it

[ultfan]

sigh. was watching a let’s player go through komaeda’s FTEs and they said he was using his diagnosis as an excuse for his actions. “oh, i’m dying and insane so everything i do is justified” like — agH stfu!!! i’ll never claim komaeda’s actions to be good, and yeah i joke about his “insane”ness a lot, but at the end of the day you genuinely can’t hold him accountable. he is not in control of his facilities — FTD specifically targets your personality/behaviors — he is not in a right state of mind and is completely unaware he is in the wrong. he CANNOT COMPREHEND that. he’s just genuinely unable to!!! i’ll never claim he isn’t a bad person, or that he isn’t an antagonist, but at the end of the day he is someone who needs not help necessarily, but to be taken care of/looked after. he doesn’t belong in a prison, he belongs in a mental facility. where he can have trained professionals who can keep watch over him and actually work with him and keep him in check. — in any canon related verse he’ll never actually get that, esp given the state of the world, but it’s true that’s what he needs more than anything else.

and people really do tend to overlook just how much bvFTD truly fits komaeda as a diagnosis. especially in ways that aren’t touched upon by the vaaaaast majority of people. a while back i read a research paper about hyper-religiousity in patients with FTD; which could very easily be applied to the way he views hope. first clinging to it as a coping mechanism and that being exaggerated through the deterioration to become a blind faith that he is obsessed over which leads every action he takes.

anyway i just think it’s ridiculous to call a disease like FTD an “excuse.” there are people who use their mental illness as excuses for their actions to justify themselves, yes. but this isn’t a mental illness — it’s a degenerative brain disease. it’s an entirely different category. this isn’t a case of an illness making it difficult to control his actions and act reasonably, it’s a case of a disease making it IMPOSSIBLE to control his actions and act reasonably. it just really upsets me to see people brush that off because that is one of the main things that makes komaeda actually sympathetic.

[lightbulb-warning]

excuse me, if you don't mind me asking, what is your favorite danganronpa ship? doesn't matter which game!! ^^

i made a ship chart that may be incomprehensible but i tried my best!!! drv3 is the One I Have Brainrot About so any actual ships im emotionally invested in are from there. mind you, im pretty absentminded and indecisive so this ship chart is exclusively accurate to [RIGHT THIS SECOND]™ lmao! (nevermind i already forgot some and want to change the colors of others, RIP!! lol)

poly ships not included because i don't know how to chart them as much as i care em 'OTL

overall, my enjoyment of shipping is akin to shoving characters and dynamics and circumstances in a blender and then playing with the GOOP!! i love potential and exploring shit!! it's fun! to me <3

(the more-than-one card symbols are for the variety of dynamics- as in: i enjoy the ship as A<3B AND/OR A<>B AND/OR A<3<B. not necessarily all at once, nor necessarily exclusively from one another *gestures vaguely* its about the vibes?? sure, yeah!!

yes, it's the homestuck thing. )

here's a blank for personal use!!

[jkpng]

currently thinking abt surprise hidden track Letter. with surprise jungkook background vocals. and how insane i felt abt a tiny shred of bg vocals . and how those tiny background vocals are the only thing in jks solo era to have an emotional impact on me

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Dazai, smiling a little too wide at Charles: Underestimate me. That'll be fun.

[creatediana]

Miley Cyrus is thirty, and I used to think that sounded old but now it just sounds thirty. Hannah Montana was my first pop icon—or obsession. I remember my shoes, my shirts with her teenage face printed on with that flimsy wig—I wanted one just like it, or of my own. Just wanted to be someone different and older. And I'm twenty-four now and I still haven't dyed my hair blonde. Still a redhead, I'm afraid, but that made my dead grandmother very proud. I remember that 3D concert movie in third grade premiering in theaters. You know I wore my favorite shoes to it. I had to. How could I go out to the live Hannah Montana experience without those dirty white sneakers with a cheap gold paint? My prized possessions. And she sang the first song she ever wrote, "I Miss You," for her grandfather, and I just thought: Wow, what a big girl, who can do so much, make her own music, sing it in front of millions, and who has experienced so much. Now it seems like not all that much to me. When Meet Miley Cyrus came out as a double-album with Hannah Montana 2, you know I was blasting it in my bedroom, singing and dancing to those songs like I wrote 'em. Like they were mine. I suppose they still are, and so were Bangerz and Dead Petz for me in high school, and Younger Now when I was eighteen, a legal adult but a little baby, but supposedly not "stuck in East Northumberland High for the rest of my life"— I guess people do change. But did I really? And did Miley really? Surely she did, she has, over and over again. Changed genres, sounds, and looks. Supposedly so have I. I wear bras now, at least when I go out in public, but Miley also taught me what nipple pasties are. You see? She's an icon, a legend and an educator, a role model but never wanted to be one, was never old enough to be one when she was forced to be. Miley Cyrus is thirty, and I'm twenty-four. Now she says we used to be young. Can't deny that that's true. The years go by, though, and we're still in our same skins, with new cells, with changed voices, but still singing.

"Miley Cyrus is Thirty" - an ekphrastic free verse of "Used to be Young" (2023) by Miley Cyrus, written 8/26/2023

[possamble]

^ guy who played too much pathfinder kingmaker and dragon age inquisition and can't stop thinking about laios looking at a project with three cards of marcille, kabru, and yaad respectively to choose from

[clareguilty]

Going from oneshots in popular fandoms to longfics in old fandoms is such a weird shift bc im so used to the constant dopamine from engagement with strangers and the sense of satisfaction from publishing multiple short fics

But now im posting chapter updates for one single fic and i get comments on each chapter from the same few people which is arguably more fulfilling in some ways bc im fostering connection and relationship but the quantitative success feels lacking

I don't think one is better than the other bc i do miss my wide audience days of oneshots, but that requires so much effort to keep up with new shows and games and trying to anticipate trends when old fandom weirdos have been in the same caves drawing on the walls for a decade or two

[skeletons-in-ur-closet]

hearing my coworkers say they missed me is wild bc i forget im an actual person at work and not just an npc husk that does things when you tell it