#consider this a kinda hiatus but idk

[wovetales]

as   of   now   until   next   week   ,   i'm   gonna   be   pretty   scarce   since   t.hanksgiving   is   coming   up.   i   have   a   queue   running   on   my   main   blog   starting   tomorrow   ,   but   i   have   nothing   here   oops.   if   time   allows   i'll   do   starters   /   drafts   since   i'm   bringing   my   laptop   ,   but   if   i   don't   get   to   it   ,   it's   bc   i'm   with   family.   💚💜

[rat-rosemary]

Honestly I think I burned out on sky pretty hard. And Im sure that this is the worst time for me to burn out because a lot of events are coming and this season's cosmetics are really pretty

[thingswhatareawesome]

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[matan4il]

Buddie 613 meta

We now know that the man who risked himself to get Buck out of the line of fire during the shooting arc is Jeshan, which means ‘clear’ (if you’re interested, you can find more name meanings for 911 characters here). So let me just giggle for a second about the fact that 911 had once again reunited Buddie with a character who can be referred to as Captain Clear Me(h)ta. Coincidence? IDK. But I have to admit, it kinda made me reflect back and feel nostalgic. When I first started watching the show, I had no intention of writing meta for 911, but after going ballistic when 309 aired, I knew I would HAVE to use the s3 hiatus to write down all my thoughts about everything Buddie related so far. That’s what I did, I wrote and shared my baby, my first round of Buddie meta. That’s where it was supposed to end, but then people asked and encouraged me to write meta for the eps in 3b as they would air, too. I figured I could try, and that’s how my Buddie weekly meta posts were born. At the time, there was no one else writing proper weekly meta (I don’t mean a summary/review of the ep, or meta posts that stand on their own, but proper analysis on Buck, Eddie and those who matter to them, organized and serialized for each ep as it aired). And now, I’ve been writing them for almost 3.5 seasons. And I feel like they’ve inspired others to do the same. TBH, I can’t actually remember seeing weekly meta posts in other fandoms (maybe they exist and I just haven’t come across them, IDK). So I got all emotional, thinking about how these posts may be love notes to Buddie and the show, but most of all they’re a love letter to the wonderful people who have been supportive and encouraging, who’ve been reblogging the posts, who’ve been commenting on them and telling me that what I do makes a difference for them. Thank you so much, these posts wouldn’t exist without you. You have a much bigger impact on the fandom than you might have realized! So if Captain Mehta is indeed a nod to the meta, it’s a loving, appreciative nod that belongs to all of you. ~~

When Chim shows up to escort Hen to work, he ends up sitting down for a talk with Denny instead, and I really enjoyed this scene, it was lovely, but it also once again emphasized the difference between the firefam kids’ relationship with their parents’ colleagues and the r/s Buck and Chris have. Chim talks to Hen’s son when he happens to come across the kid, but he only sits down for a proper conversation because Denny implies Hen and Karen are up to something intimate, and Chim shouldn’t interrupt them just yet. Consider how different that is to how Buck intentionally looks to spend time with and dedicated to Chris! And then Chim is impressed by how smart Denny is. It’s cute, but it also reveals just how little they interact that this comes as a surprise to Chim. It’s so different to the intimate familiarity of a parent, which is what we know Buck has with Chris (and that Chris has with Buck, which can even be seen in the kid’s teasing, for example regarding the snoring in 414). ~~

You might have seen that, when the promo came out, I momentarily lost my sanity and posted this. I just couldn’t get over the fact that they actually had Eddie correct the chief on the duration of Buck’s death. It was such a spouse thing to do. It was a declaration about the anguish that each single second represented, when Eddie couldn’t breathe because Buck wasn’t. It was a confession of sorts, on how Eddie felt as he desperately NEEDED his husband to live (I’m not even joking when I ascribe him this title, Eddie said with his whole chest, “THAT IS MY IDIOT HUSBAND THAT I HAD TO WATCH DIE FOR THREE MINUTES AND SEVENTEEN SECONDS AND I WILL NEVER FORGET ANY OF THOSE SECONDS, NOR LET ANYONE ELSE DO THAT”). It was a glimpse into how time must have moved differently for him as each second etched itself forever into Eddie’s mind. And yes, it’s a clear parallel to 413, when we witness time slowing down for Eddie. And I mentioned in my post that in both scenarios, Buck is just out of his reach, so close, but simply not close enough. In one case, this forced Eddie to believe he must now accept his own death. In the other, he couldn’t accept the possibility that Buck would die, so he just fought harder, and if he couldn’t save Buck with one course of action, he tried another, Eddie just had to keep going, 'coz the idea of those three minutes and seventeen seconds turning into an eternity? Unacceptable. ~~

But notice in my unhinged post from that day, I used the word ‘counting.’ Eddie counted the seconds, and this is revealed to us at a poker game where Buck is counting the cards. I already noticed that when we saw the promo, but this connection was reinforced in the ep itself when Chief Williams vocalized what Buck was doing. The thing about counting is that it’s reserved for what matters, what’s crucial. Buck is counting the cards in order to win, and he wants to win because it matters to Eddie. Buck wasn’t the one who initiated the search for a poker game where he could use his newfound skills, Eddie was the one to take that initiative. And he could bring Buck along without telling him where they’re going (I would normally scream for a whole separate paragraph just about Eddie telling Buck to dress nice and there being no need for any further explanation or prompting, but we were so well fed, I’ll have to scream about it into my fist for just one sentence) 'coz Eddie was so sure his husband would go along with whatever crazy scheme he’d come up with. And he was right, even though Buck didn’t think it would end well, he still went along with what his husband wanted. Please let me reiterate: Buck’s counting cards because Eddie is so important to him, and Eddie was counting the seconds because Buck’s his vital sign. ~~

Another thing to keep in mind about the poker game is that the only other time we’ve seen Buck playing poker was in 312. In that ep, Eddie was off to meet Christopher’s school teachers (leading to his eventual lackluster r/s with Ana), so having a free evening, Buck spends it with Maddie, Chim and Josh (and is told he unequivocally sucks at Poker). Jokes were made about setting Josh and Buck up, and it was implied whatever Buck’s sexuality was, that was not the reason why Maddie abstained from making the match. What I find interesting is seeing how far our boys have come! In that ep, they were operating separately, and it led them down the wrong paths.

In this ep, Buck and Eddie were inseparable both as a couple (even sharing the winnings from Buck’s new talent, because what don’t these two share? And I was particularly chewing glass when Chief Williams asks Buck how he wanted HIS winnings, but instead of answering her, he looks at his husband. THEY ARE SO FREAKING MARRIED), and as a family unit with Chris (which is maybe a good moment to point out that all of the romantic couples were paired off in 613, and so were Buddie! Now, one could argue that Buck and Eddie were paired off because, well... who else is left for them to hang out with? But 312 is a reminder that when the show wants to, it can push the main cast and minor characters into the same orbit, so it still didn’t HAVE to pair Buck and Eddie off here. It chose to. On top of that, by showing them with Chris as well, 911 reminded us they’re far more bonded than just two best bros hanging out together ‘coz none of their other friends are single). In short, during 312, Buck lost and Eddie was about to be lost on a detour in his romantic journey. In 613, they ARE a family, they work as one throughout the ep, not just in parts of it, and they’re both winning. ~~

Something that gets to me is that when I first shared the BTS pic of Buddie at the poker game, it was clear that Eddie was just bursting with self confidence. He looked like he would be the star of that game. But when we got the promo, we discovered that it was actually going to be Buck who would shine that night. So what makes me slightly froth at the mouth is that all of that sexy confidence we picked up on in the photo? It was real. We weren’t wrong. It just wasn’t confidence that Eddie had in himself, it’s confidence he has in Buck. All of his swagger? Is a reflection of how much he believes and enjoys seeing his husband be a star. I am gonna need 3-6 working weeks at least to recover from knowing this. ~~

Speaking of things that destroyed me forever, everything about the Buckley-Diaz family in this ep falls into that category. I mean, not only did we once again have incredibly domestic scenes, we had one that was very reminiscent of the lasagna one in 601 (Eddie with Chris at the table, Buck fussing around them only to join in once he brings along something to be consumed), reinforcing that this is THEIR NORM, we also had Eddie and Chris being so cute and supportive when it comes to Buck’s new ability (Chris calls him a superhero, Eddie goes along with it, and when Buck’s upset he didn’t get a better superpower, naming some he would have liked to have, Eddie comforts him by saying those other options sound horrible). 

And then to top it all off, we had Buck and Chris cooking together. Bobby’s been explicitly acknowledged as basically being Buck’s dad by both of them, and we know Bobby’s been teaching Buck how to cook. Now we get Buck doing the same with Chris, clearly marking them as father and son, especially since this is done with just the two of them, this special time that’s allocated just to their bond together. Eddie is not needed as a middleman. I know that this isn’t news, but every single time the show reinforces this truth, that Buck is Christopher’s other dad, that their bond is that deep, I gain 10 years, so I have to mention it. ~~

For 613, I made my weekly gifset about Buck and answers, but I’d actually like to elaborate on what you see there. In 602, at the happiness center call, we see Buck looking to Lev in search for his own answers on what his happiness looks like. When he still can’t find any, he turns to Hen, because she always has them. Along this season, that’s been his theme. He’s trying to figure out what he wants in order to be happy, which is connected to the couch theme we’ve all been screaming about since 601 (and especially after he fell asleep on Eddie’s in 612). In 613, Buck suddenly finds that he’s the guy with the answers and he likes it. But has he really got them? Buck says these words to Eddie and Chris, and in addition to that, while he utters them, he’s literally captured in the same frame together with Eddie. But it’s also essential that we heard why Chris can’t just be given the answers. It’s in order to learn, Eddie tells him. That’s exactly what Buck has to do, he has to find his answers in order to learn from the search process. He’s not just there yet, but the framing of the whole scene coupled with the ongoing couch theme is very loud. ~~

What gets me maybe most of all in a whole ep of REALLY GOOD BUDDIE CONTENT, is the way the whole thing wraps up. The storyline on Buck’s new abilities doesn’t end with any commentary on those or on his recovery process. His last scene in this ep is the one with Chris. It follows directly the one with Hen and Karen, a scene which reminds us that we’re never surprised at either woman spending solo time with and caring about Denny, even though neither is biologically related to him, because they ARE BOTH his parents. In the same way, it’s only natural that we see Buck spending alone time with Chris, without Eddie around. It is so meaningful that the last shot of Buck in this ep is not about his story line at all, and neither his abilities, nor having died for several minutes is the point. Instead, the last, and therefore most significant shot of Buck in this very Buddie domestic ep, is him smiling at their son. I feel like that says everything about his trajectory.

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[gem-de-lune]

Hi! I think it’s important for briize that we who we’re u against. If you could do a reading on ceo tak Youngjun we can steps in the future we can take regarding seunghan and riize. It seems like he’s the main director of riize who makes all the decisions and probably why seunghan went on hiatus in the first place. It would interesting to what is his stance currently and what it was before.

I will be 100% honest and say I have been avoiding this. Idk what it is abt this guy's mere name but the energy.....it is offputting and borderline nasty.

Up until now it was mild like "meh i kinda don't think so" but now that i seriously considered doing a reading just now I am getting a HELL NO being screamed into my head.

I know a lot of yall are honing in on these individual decision makers, but I will not read on this man, and I also think you should not be honing in on these individuals. There is a strangeness here that I do not want to touch. And the mere vibe of his name is disturbing. I'm sorry 😞

I strongly suggest yall do the same and distance your attention from these men. There is weird stuff latched onto them. Not even Lee Sangmin was this nasty.

[stephofromcabin12]

Do you have voice claims for the main pjo/hoo characters or any of the Riordanverse character?

[edit] I came up with these while extremely sleep deprived so take them with a grain of salt

So fun fact: I listened to the tlt musical way before reading tlt for the first time so while reading the first five, the main characters’ voices were just— the musical ones lol

(Mr D’s is not — but I don’t have a voice claim for him he just sounds like Mr D in my head I can’t explain it lol)

Others (and this is strictly based on voices, like if we’re casting for an animated show or something idk):

Leo: Camilo from Encanto would be a good bet - they have that same vibe yk

Reyna: I feel like maybe a young Idina Menzel perhaps?

Piper: please do not take this the wrong way I love Piper but Lea Michelle is the one that comes to mind. Girly (I’m gonna need her to be girly so she can overcome Not Like Other Girls syndrome) and she can carry a tune.

Jason: This one is tough. I could see a Peter Parker or perhaps a Barbie animated movie prince kind of voice?? I say it with love but when I read Jason’s lines I kinda just go to Generic Ken lol [Edit: consider Zac Efron in his Troy Bolton era]

Coach Hedge: Danny Devito for coach hedge send tweet. Second pick: The dad whose name I can’t remember from Mitchells vs the Machines. Dad voice.

Apollo/ Lester: In Apollo form I am begging for Ryan Gosling (I know he’s probably considered too old but I think a meta joke about Apollo taking the form after Ryan bc he was such a heartthrob would be funny also he’s Ryan Gosling. ((He is still a heartthrob but he had a bit of a hiatus between the notebook and barbie yk)) In his Lester form: voice only is gonna have to be Noel from Ride The Cyclone. Shout out to whoever voice claimed him for Lester on tt — truly a divine (heh) choice. For fancast I would love to see Dominic Sessa. Case in point: The broken arm scene in The Holdovers.

Meg my beloved: Vanellope from Wreck It Ralph. Rip Meg Mccaffrey you would’ve loved Wreck It Ralph.

I’m out of voiceclaims atm but I’ll end it with this: I’m manifesting Nick Kroll as Tantalus in S2 and if we’re getting HOO as a series I petition Nish Kumar for Bacchus. Thank you for your time.

(I actually have a lot of fancasts for the gods etc so maybe I’ll do a post about that if anyone is interested lol)

[sophaeros]

thoughts on fab,jules,albert as a dynamic?

they're so so cute theyre just three puppies[GUNSHOT] ok obviously everyone knows these photos from when julian injured his knee theyre The albert/fab/julian pictures and i think it sums them up fairly well. julian needs someone to force him to let them take care of him and fab needs to be useful so he can feel like he's earned love. albert is harder to figure out but i think he wants someone to chase the adrenaline of life with maybe, especially when he was younger. someone who understands him. which i think is difficult because he doesnt necessarily understand Himself he Wants to but he can't confront it head on. which is very similar to julian as well. i think. well i say he wants to but he is not so prone to introspection i think lol. this one 2023 interview where the interviewer is like so is melodies on hiatus about events in ur life and albert is like idk i didnt think about it that hard i just wrote about whatever came to mind and stuff like that naturally falls into place

IDK you would think i'd have a better answer considering i have a 2k and counting wip for the three of them but this ask has been sitting half answered since sept 1 bc i can't articulate it 😭 i am not a very good character writer im more of an atmospheric scene kinda guy. but im working on it arm flexing emoji

ok theres just too much nuance for each person for me to sum up like every sentence here requires a footnote in my head

[darkestrellar]

Hello everyone! As you can see (or may already have seen), I changed Svern's url, after at least a year of thinking about doing so.

I've endeavoured to go through and update all links on the blog and information posts, but there's always a chance something slipped through the cracks. If you encounter a broken link, let me know.

Over the past three or so weeks, I have also:

Updated the on-blog muse page (updated page/section formatting, revised and rewrote information, added new stuff, added a trivia and misc section at the bottom of the page);

Updated the on-blog verses page (updated formatting, revised and rewrote verse descriptions, fleshed out some a little better);

Done a Major and quite overdue update to the Carrd. I updated the url to match the new one on the blog; overhauled the rules page to bring it in line with the most recent version on the blog, then did the same with the muse and verses sections, and I updated their formatting/layout, which I had been dissatisfied with for a while. As I threatened hinted earlier, there are a lot more words than there used to be, but it also looks much nicer (imo).

There are still a lot of other things I want to/am considering doing:

New blog avatar because this one is STILL old and outdated

Possibly make a new icon border! If I do do this, it will be a pain, because my icon bases are horribly organised or need remaking due to how I've gone about editing/making them in the past.

Update the many and various other information posts on the blog to do with verses and meta.

Revise Pokémon roster page (idk how much will need changing).

Finally, an update on my life goings-on:

I'm doing better now, although I'm not quite back to my usual self. This month was the first decent month where I didn't have any major anxiety episodes since March-April. I still have not gotten to have counselling like I was supposed to because (gestures in an annoyed manner) the waitlist is taking forever and I regret not taking the doctor's offer months ago to get a different referral but oh well.

I still haven't recovered all my mental stamina and my imagination isn't working as well as I would like either, but it's mending, slowly.

My IRL life is probably going to get busier, but now that I'm no longer so prone to feeling like I'm gonna go crazy or spontaneously die for unknown reasons, I can cope with that and juggle it better too. I'll probably still focus on maintenance (across all of my blogs) over writing for now because of the fact that my creative inspiration is still kinda like fog, but at least I'm not completely on hiatus anymore.

I'll be working on things in the background.

[icharchivist]

your tags on the yulma post made me so emotional, thank you for sharing ;; it’s honestly disheartening to see their representation either get completely dismissed or met with absolute ignorance,, i do think the fandom has come a long way since then even tho there’s still discourse around how “valid” it is but if people dug more deep, it’s honestly undeniable no matter how u look at it

aaah glad it was a worthwhile read then 🥺

and yeah definitely :( fandom changes and there's been a lot of changes in the last twenty years in the way an audience can accept a queer narrative, and while it's for the better, it does also mean that sometimes there's people who aren't going to see what was the big deal or how it was groundbreaking. They often approach their dynamic by modern standards of queer representation that i think can sometimes be a disservice to how huge it was in 2010 when it came out.

I remember talking about this story with a friend once and they were like "so it's queer because one of them is actually a woman in a man's body. that seems cowardly to me" and it frustrated me a little both on the angle of what it means for Alma to be in this situation to start with (if Alma is in a situation where they can accept the change to their body or not, and how no matter how you look at it Alma is fundamentally genderqueer), but also on how i remember the anger against "Kanda being gay" to start with

And i think about how Hoshino had to work for this to start with, having to set up that Kanda was looking for someone very early on, someone implied to be a lover, and then build the Alma arc in such a way where Alma=Person Kanda Was (Romantically) Looking For became unavoidable and no editor could go back on what she wanted to say. It was huge at the time, and i hope we can remember it like that.

but between the way lots of fans abandonned the manga then, the hiatus following afterward, and the new anime not really being beginner friendly, dgm's legacy in term of queer representation ended up kinda buried under it all and difficult to get new people to see.

and now i sometimes see a lot of scrutiny on the Kanda/Alma storyline on "can we even consider it queer" that makes me sad in the sense of, sometimes it circles back to similar argument i've heard at the time to cut down the ship, which also have people say "but if this argument can be made then it means it wasn't obvious enough", while no, it's obvious, people just were seeing it in bad faith because they were looking for their own confirmation basis, but in the end those specific people ended up leaving because even if they wanted to make up excuse to erase the queerness, it was too late, the queerness was here to stay.

like idk i'm just rambling but i so vividly remember how people reacted then that i can't buy into any "it's not queer enough" complains from the modern perspective. It was groundbreaking at the time and it was the real first popular Shounen i personally read where one of the main character was confirmed to be in a queer love story that is the important focus of a full arc, and tbh i haven't truly seen that much ever since (but i also don't keep a close look at modern Shounen so that's on me)

but yeah and in the end i really come back to the feeling of "if they're not queer enough why did homophobes get this mad about it when it happened" yaknow

anyway thank you for the ask and i'm glad the perspective was a nice read <3

i just hope one day people can really realize just how special dgm was at the time for that.

[melbee]

To Love and Be Loved (PART 1)

pairing: Neteyam x ChiefsDaughter!Reader

summary: You had wished it was a little easier to hate Neteyam, maybe it would've meant you didn't have to fall in love with him, or at worse, live your life without him.

note: Thanks to @lazyfnafvideogamesparty, you requested a chief's daughter one-shot in which the relationship is a lot like Neytiri and Jake's!! I hope you enjoy! Since this is a long one, I've decided to separate them into two parts. Expect the sad shit in part 2 :( Also, I'm kinda back from hiatus? idk if this fandom is dead on tumblr now, but I'll be posting some other avatar characters :)

warnings: Enemies (not really) to Lovers, mentions of sex/mating, fluff, angst & eventually more to come in the next part.

word count: 3117

Being the middle child of the Chief meant the choices in your life would always be outshined by your siblings. Your oldest sister was remarked as the golden child, the future Tsahìk, who would bring the clan to great prosperity. You would have the opposite, as your job solely contained taking care of your younger sibling and trying to step away from the shadow that was your heavenly sister.

It came to no surprise to you then, when your father and its clan greeted the Toruk Makto and his family with open arms, as they sought refuge from war. In any other instance, in any other clan, they would have shunned them away in protection of their own. However, your Father knew of Toruk Makto and his abilities, and how eligible a match his son would be for his own daughter.

Which definitely wasn’t you.

Which is what shocked you to say the least, on that very night of the Sully's arrival, your father made a proposition.

“My children will teach your family our ways.” Your father spoke loudly, the entire clan had centered for dinner, but both families had sectioned out privately to discuss matters. “My eldest will teach your sons.”

“Shouldn’t y/n teach them? She knows the land the best. I am better in our traditions.” Your eldest sister spoke out, her voice the perfect tone disciplined by your mother. In any other circumstance it would’ve been considered rude, but your sister had long been known to be a soft spot in your fathers eyes.

“Shánti knows our traditions well, she will teach you all our clans' voices through Eywa.” Your mother’s voice rang out in the air, silencing your father from speaking who reflected on the words before nodding in agreeableness.

“That’s wonderful.” Jake Sully’s mate Neytiri, spoke out as she looked across her children with careful looks. “They will learn well.”

Jake mumbled something incoherently under his breath, before clearing his voice. “That’s  great, but my kids need a strong foundation. My eldest son here will help wherever he can.” Jake latched an arm over to Neteyam who had stood quietly.

You frowned by his unusual demeanor, and judging from his nonchalant attitude you would grow annoyed. The men in your clan were a lot different, and you weren’t sure if you could handle the challenge.

“Yes, I am sure you will find all the knowledge you seek Toruk Makto, y/n will guide him.” Your father spoke, glancing at you finally for the first time all night. You couldn’t help the outward huff, as your father clucked his tongue. “What do you say, y/n?”

“I say the lands are foreign to nomads. But it’s not something you can teach.” You narrowed your eyes. The last thing you wanted to do was babysit and help refugees who were escaping from a war.

“They Shouldn’t-“ you began to reply, but your mothers hiss stopped you.

“You will do it!” Your mother argued, swatting at your tail in warning as you groaned in frustration.

“You will start at sunrise.” Your father spoke, his words ringing with finality. That was something that made you frustrated above all else. His words rang truer than anyone else’s. 

You felt a creeping stare on the side of your face, as you glanced toward the culprit. Neteyam.

His stare wasn’t so much that you hated it, in fact you didn’t mind it at all. But it was the way he guarded his emotions so well, but seemed to unravel every one of yours. That was what made you dislike him.

Later in the evening, as everyone was beginning to go to sleep, you found that same exact feeling wash over you, and his face graced your visions. It was going to be a long night.

The first day of teaching him went semi smoothly. While you helped in between with his other siblings, you actually found you enjoyed his presence a lot more than you realized. 

“Neteyam.” You scolded as you watched him attempt to stealthily climb against the mountainous terrain searching for food to hunt. “You cannot move so carefully as you would in your forest, here we can not let our feet touch firmly or it will scare them away.”

He laid in a crouched position, his eyes scrunching in confusion, looking down at his feet. In any other situation you would find it almost adorable, but you knew this hunt meant a lot for both sides, and you could not let your parents down. 

“I’ll be fine.” He said, narrowing his eyes, his ears flicking upwards as he heard a sound. You let a resounding gasp as he pushed you closer to the floor, making it seem like he was the one teaching you. You pinched at his sides, both of your eyes holding a stare off.

His gaze softened and if it wasn’t for the crunch of the floor, from the nearby hunt, You would’ve stared at him all day.

He grinned, pushing up with all the grace of an antelope, as he pulled out his bow, aiming for the animal. You remained in your spot, letting him carry out his action until you heard the resounding thud of the deer, and you felt yourself get up from the floor.

You watch as his eyes narrowed, all the clumsy nature, and playful banter you once witnessed was masked into an expression of solitude. 

He was a natural. You thought.

You began to realize just how much Neteyam took his role seriously, and the admiration that was once non-existent was beginning to flow from you. He had all the qualities a man born to be Olo’eyktan had. It made your heart swell for not only the Na'vi people, but yourself.

He crouched down toward the animal, reciting a ritual practiced. Before you knew it, it was over, and his eyes tilted up towards yours for approval. You couldn’t help the small smile as you nodded, dropping down toward the hunt as you examined it.

“A clean kill. This is not the first time?” You asked. If before you asked yourself to possibly swell Neteyam’s pride at the slightest, you would have laughed at your own face. But now, you only felt honesty, and curiosity for the Na’vi boy, who you were starting to realize was so easily becoming a man.

“No.” Neteyam shook his head, no pride overtook him whatsoever. He grabbed onto the hunt, looking back up at you. “But none that matters now. We are refugees.” His eyes casted down, as the mood deepened with a tinge of sadness.

You frowned, feeling a sense of longing overtake you, feeling empathy wash over you. His family had to leave everything they had known. Including everything that made them who they are. For any Na’vi person, identity is one of the most valued assets. 

Before you knew it you put a hand faintly on his shoulder. “You are with us now. You will become one with the people.”

“Not until death.” He laughed sarcastically, pushing back as he began the trek back to the village. You rolled your eyes at his humor, the foreboding chill racking your spine.

Why did the mention of death make you so cold? Perhaps Neteyam was beginning to mean more than you realized.

Or Perhaps Ewya was preparing you for the inevitable part of all life.

It Didn’t take long for Neteyam and yourself to flourish in friendship. Once you both got to know each other, you realized how similar you are. When the days spent teaching Neteyam and the rest of his siblings ended, you found yourself sticking out until the later of the evening. 

Evenings such as now as you look over at Neteyam, both of you riding your Ikran’s through the mountain cliffs of your home. Neteyam, turned your way as he felt your stare, before laughing as he willed his Ikran to turn through the sky. He began to call out, as you laughed, following his lead.

There was nothing better, you thought to yourself, dipping down as you followed his Ikran near the crashing waves, feeling the spray of salty water hit your face as your Ikran squawked, turning in its wings to avoid being sprayed in the face. You both tilted upwards almost ninety degrees in the air, which made you feel the need to show off to Neteyam. You smiled, sensing him glance towards you as you pause midair, feeling the familiar rush in your head as you fell into a backward flip. 

You spun your Ikran upwards, laughing as you sped past Neteyam, startling him in the process. 

Everything about the past month had been a blur, so much so you couldn’t remember what had deterred you from Neteyam and his family in the first place. You had found such freedom in letting go, and you suppose you had Eywa to thank for that.

As the sun began to set you realized it was time to head back home, your mind still reeling in the newfound joy with Neteyam. You looked over to him as you both flew through the sky. Neteyam somehow felt your stare, looking back, his eyes scrunching in confusion. You motioned for him to follow you as you yipped. “We must get back. Both of our parents will have our heads otherwise.”

You felt him nod though you couldn’t help but notice the acute mischievousness grace his eyes as he followed you home. It just so happened your adventure led you past your Tree of souls, its cove unlocking brilliantly among the steep rocks into your most sacred place. 

“There’s one more stop before we get back!” Neteyam shouted as you watched his Ikran dip toward the tree, as your eyes widened. You knew he was going to get you both in trouble. You grumbled in annoyance but felt yourself follow him wholeheartedly.

You knew at that moment it did not matter where he went, you would always find yourself right behind him. The past few months had made you realize that.

You had chosen him.

You both landed just as the light faded to dusk, and the sights and sounds of the bioluminescence mixed with the sacred wood sprites created a heavenly hideaway for the both of you.

You got off your Ikran, as you laughed. “You know they were wrong about you.” Neteyam jumped off on his own, as he grinned, shaking his head in confusion.

“How so?”

“You are just as every bit as mischievous as your brother.” You smiled brightly as you neared him, watching as his cheeks reddened, shaking it off with a laugh.

“Now I’m not sure what you mean, y/n” he said, the corners of his eyes crinkling in amusement, nearing you as you felt your breath hold in anticipation. You hated the way he looked at you, you knew that every look could mean a bad decision for the both of you.

“Skxawng…” you flicked his sides, as he faked a wounded expression, before grabbing at your tail as you sidestepped in fake annoyance.

You began to notice your surroundings as you found yourself twirling around to face the tree, the wood sprites sensing your bright behavior as they neared you. You smiled, lifting a hand toward one of them, closing your eyes as you felt the gentle caress of its seeds drift across your face. It wasn’t till you felt something warm and gentle touch the same place, as your eyes opened in surprise.

Neteyam had approached you much closer now, his eyes mimicking what you thought were emotions similar to that of unbridled joy. You watched as he scanned your face, his fingers drifting across your cheek, up toward your eyes, and then down to your lips.

You realized once again that all of it was very wrong. You couldn’t get mixed up with Toruk Makto’s son. Not only was he an honored guest, but you were very sure your parents had plans for your sister with the eldest son.

The eldest son who was very much closing in to kiss you. You felt reality hit you, stopping his beautiful lips from touching yours. “Neteyam, we can’t.”

You felt him sigh as he frowned. “Why?”

“Shanti is the next Tsahìk.” You whispered, your voice growing quiet as you felt him entrap you once again. “She is a great singer, and spiritual leader.”

“I don’t want Shanti.” He backed up only a fraction, his eyes tilting in curiosity. “I’ve already chosen.”

“Neteyam…” You smiled softly shaking your head as you stepped, away from him and towards the scared tree’s leaves. You felt him grab your hand, pulling you towards him, the weight feeling like a magnetic force surrounding the both of you.

He held your hand close to him, pulling it past the hardness of his abdomen, and towards his chest, the beating of his heart heard loud enough you almost blushed. “But she must also choose me.”

You smiled, as you looked to the floor then back up. 

Perhaps there was no stopping this anyway. 

“She already has.” You felt your face close in, your nose grazing the top of his upper lip, before you both closed in on the kiss.

Soft. Was all you could think of, as you both shared a soft kiss, Neteyam’s lips felt like a plushy cloud, that was warm and inviting, yet strong and firm. You both stopped as both your eyes stared longingly into each other.

Neteyam smiled, as his finger touched your lips. You found yourself biting it gently in amusement, as his eyes shifted in both amusement and shock. “Forever?”

“Always.” You leaned in, grasping his face with your hand as you closed in unimaginably further. You felt the kiss turn passionate, the curiosity of soft love, turning into one of unbridled heat. You gasped, feeling Neteyam’s hands grab your sides and lifting you into his arms, as your hands found them interlocked in his hair.

Your mouths moved fervently against each other, each twist of your mouth paired coyly with your wandering hands as you felt something soft hit your back, and your gravity shift upwards. 

You watched as Neteyam skimmed the sides of your legs, his mouth moving from yours down the sides of your face and into your neck. You felt his mouth place playful nips as you gasped, your hands grasping onto his bicep and your lower end gravitating towards his own. Grinding fervently on him, you raised your leg so you could straddle him, bringing his lips back to your own.

For a few minutes you both battled for dominance until the tug at your bottoms, made you remember what was at stake if you continued further. Before you knew it, you pushed Neteyam around as you tumbled across the floor until you were on top of him. Out of breath you found yourself placing a gentle finger on his lips. “Wait.”

“Y-Yes...?” Neteyam laughed, looking up at you, his hands wandering towards your backside, as you realized he was still very much enveloped in the passion you two were sharing moments ago.

“Neteyam.” You grabbed his hand, pushing it toward your heart. “If you really want this. Then we must make the bond before Eywa.”

His eyes softened as he nodded his head. “Of course.” He grazed his hand across your heart. “It’s always been you y/n.”

You tried to hide your smile as you laughed feeling elated with happiness, as you looked up at the canopy of the tree enveloping you both. You pushed off of him, sitting with your knees bent to one side. 

You were very nervous. Nothing could’ve prepared you for this moment. Your mother spoke of it briefly and in clan tradition you were supposed to obtain acceptance from the chief leaders.

But everything was different with Neteyam. That was what made you the most nervous. Everything about him defied your very own logic.

Neteyam must’ve sensed your hesitance as he crouched next to you, grabbing your hands, his ears down casted. “Y/n, you made me realize everything about this world I knew was wrong. I thought the only goal in life for a Na’vi like me is to live up to my father’s expectations.”

“Oh, Neteyam.” You cupped his cheek, smiling when he leaned down to kiss it.

“But now I know.” Neteyam grinned leaning forward until your noses touched each other and You could feel his warm breath inches away from yours. “I’m more than my father’s son. I am everything I am…for you.”

You couldn’t believe such words would be emitting from a Na’vi you once disliked. You knew that this was the right choice, and perhaps it was meant to happen. Eywa had brought you both together for a reason.

You closed the space kissing him gently, as you reached for your queue, your eyes opening slightly to watch Neteyam. His eyes focused intently on you as you both broke away from each other for only a moment. Grabbing onto his, you watched as the familiar queue came close to yours. Looking up at him, you nodded your head before finally connecting queues.

At first the familiar sensation arose that you often felt when you connected to one of your creatures. That tingling sensation, the acute sense of awareness in both beings, but always in the back of your mind.

Then everything transformed as you gasped, the sensations causing your eyes to dilate. 

Love. 

That was the emotion you felt the most as you gazed into his eyes, his smile widening as he too felt the connection just as strongly. You felt as if a door had been opened and both of your souls were bare for the other to explore and bask in its sensation.

Your hands traveled to his shoulder as you gasped, the feelings heightened as you could almost sense his own awareness. Feeling more courageous, you pushed his broad shoulders to the floor as you sprawled on top of him. Neteyam laughed as you began to plant loving kisses on his face, before he grabbed yours.

“We are mated for life.” Neteyam sighed, kissing your lips deeply before moving onto to the next stages of the night.

He was right and for the first time, you didn’t have a care after that. You both gave each other the inexplicably joyous firsts, as you fell deeply in love.

Nothing could have been better, you thought. If only there was a way to tell your parents what you both had done.

Well, that was never going to be easy. 

With Neteyam you started to realize… it never was.

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[earlgreytea68]

If I may present some more lyrics related thoughts: The line "Last night I dreamt I still knew you" probably haunts me more than any other on SMFS, and I can't help but wonder if Pete had the hiatus in mind when writing them. He and Patrick went from being basically inseparable, to Patrick not knowing his kid, and performing his own music with so much more confidence than the boy who hid his face under a hat onstage all those years ago. Pete must have felt like a ghost in his own life without his musical other half by his side, but now here they are together on the other side, and they're stronger than ever!

okay, okay, so to me Flu Game is SUCH a hiatus-y song that i wonder sometimes if it's not a song with old lyrics stuck in it, or if Pete sent old lyrics to Patrick, Idk, did it finally seem like time to write through the hiatus in this particular way? But the lyrics seem more depressed than the rest of the album. Even given things like "I used to be a real go-getter," there's a brutality to "Oh, God, kinda please would you kill me now?" (I know Genius says this is "kindly please" but I stand firm that I think it's "kinda please.")

Anyway, everything about this song feels like it could come from the hiatus, because it's all about someone you knew so desperately well, someone you carved out space for in the world, just you and him against the world, and now you're so distant that you're just a face in the crowd he's up there performing to, and there you are, left with all this love and no one to give it to, trying to pretend you're getting through each day when it's exhausting, and what are you dreaming about? That you still knew each other (all of my wildest dreams ended up with you and me). That's your wildest dream (I will never ask you for anything except to dream sweet of me).

I can't be who you need me to be is so very what Pete Wentz thought at the beginning of the hiatus, and all he's doing is working flat-out to keep everything going and it's totally not appreciated and he can't even figure out anymore what's real or fake and he worked so hard to carve out that space and you're just going to leave it.

And he knows none of this really matters and nobody will care and it's all pointless but he can't seem to stop wanting to catch all of your ears, he can't stop seeking that attention, none of it is healthy or good but he's stuck in it, what else is he going to, he's got all this love and an empty space next to him.

There are also a lot of themes in these lyrics that strike me as being more common in his pre-hiatus stuff: The idea of faking how hard everything is so that you make it look easy shows up in Alpha Dog (we must make it hard to look so easy doing something so hard) and I'm pretty sure it shows up somewhere else, too, but I'm blanking on it now. The idea of Pete writing as Fall Out Boy the band and its unhealthy relationship with its fans also feels more pre-hiatus than post- (that's in Hum Hallelujah and Our Lawyers...). I might just be forgetting the post-hiatus occurrences of these themes, but they feel older to me. I have long wondered if this song is an old-lyric song. In interviews about the album, it seems clear that Patrick likes this song a lot and that Pete is less enthusiastic about it and considers it one of those "Patrick-y" songs that comes out of his head and his head alone. Which to me also slots into "he pulled these lyrics from God knows where." But, again, I could also see it that maybe Pete found them and finally thought it was time to share them. Who knows?

I haven't even talked yet about my absolute favorite lyric in this song: "Late at night in my room, lie awake and think of you and all your little dooms." First of all, this is another one of Patrick's odd-rhythm specialties, and I love it so much because it highlights so nicely my favorite part of the line: you and all your little dooms. Ugh, I just love that. Genius tells me it's probably a reference to orgasms and I just think that Pete Wentz never talks about sex as much or as straightforwardly as Genius thinks he does lololol. Which isn't to say he doesn't talk about sex, just that this lyric is about so much more than orgasms. It's so brilliantly evocative of that kind of relationship where a million little things seem to condemn it and drag it down. And given how hiatus-y the song feels to me, I think of the way Pete must have felt as it was all falling apart, that talking to Patrick was just an endless series of "little dooms" that Patrick kept flinging at him. What a perfect, beautiful little turn of phrase for the way things can succumb to the quicksand of problems.

Idk, I just love Flu Game.

And it is perhaps important to note that it leads into "Baby Annihilation," Pete's return to the poetry of the pre-hiatus time, but this time polished up to be JUST POETRY, no song it's being tacked to the end of, this standalone moment of Pete Wentz (with Patrick backing orchestration, the truest representation of their partnership we've really ever had, tbh), with it's closing musing of "what is there between us if not a little annihilation?" AND THEN we get "Kintsugi Kid," a song EXPLICITLY about that period of Pete's life where he was self-destructive but titled for how he came out so much better in the end, AND THEN the Patrick Stump special of "What a Time to Be Alive," the song Pete has very fondly called "pure Patrick," and it just seems so fitting to me that at the end, Patrick comes roaring back into this hiatus-y stretch, and we come back into the present.

[youredreamingofroo]

Excuse me 🙋🏼‍♀️ imma hit u with 3 😆

🤍 Do you have a favorite sim created by you?

👜 What in-game career would you choose if you were a sim?

📱 What made you want to start a simblr?

KIARRA!! Thank you :3cc Im super late to responding to this so whoops 😭😭

🤍 : Yes,,, I do :3 The obvious answer would be Roo, but aside from him (considering how incredibly important he is to me), I would say Nirvana or Hero are definitely some of my favs, I also love Onia, All three of them are SUCH cool and deep characters that I never really dwelled on (mainly cuz of my sims 4 hiatus).

👜 : Honestly, I'm not sure! It might be a cheesy answer, but idk I love the painter career, it's a classic :)

📱 : OO I love this question!! I remember watching a couple of Oshin's videos on youtube and that got me into actually checking out tumblr and really getting into simblr, but I vividly remember shifting my tumblr account (which I had already made prior to joining simblr for like fanart and stuff) because of @/minimooberry!!! I consider her to be one of my first and original inspirations for joining simblr and I still remember being so giddy when she replied to a post that she reblogged + also replied to, and when she followed me back 😭 I never really joined simblr with the intent to share specifically story or specifically cas/sims, I just kinda made my simblr to make it and be apart of the community considering how much I loved the sims and how much I wanted to share what I was doing

[shdwtouch]

semi-hiatus update: I'm back to my usual shitposting but my energy is still flaky. I've been dealing with a lot of RSD related anxiety / insecurity, on top of seasonal + holiday depression, on top of the usual suspects. plus I'm still in class and have been struggling majorly to get things done for it. I'm doing my best. I think the new anxiety meds are helping, at least. I feel a little clearer in the head, and I've actually been able to work on lore and development.

no word on what comes next. remaking or staying or changing urls or moving muses around, idk. I'm leaning towards remaking for steady enough reasons. new url, new tags (I've kinda let the tags on this blog fall to the wayside orz), fresh start. and, of course, hesitant for the usual reasons: lose my badges, have to refollow folks and deal with the anxiety of losing mutuals, lose all my asks, have to transfer drafts. I don't know. :/

gonna be working on answering asks I think. may attempt drafts as well. plus there is plenty of new lore and development I can post about. so I'm here. just struggling a bit and not always consistent in terms of activity or energy. consider me still on semi-hiatus ? just cuz I do feel like my headspace / mood is unpredictable rn.

anywho. thank yall for your patience and support ! I really am doing my best, its just a rough time of year so I'm a bit slower and more fickle than I'd like. I think a lot of people are rn tbh but anyway ♡ ilu all, sending positive vibes

[thesettinghorizon]

Tldr; mental illness, might go on hiatus till I'm better mentally again I do not feel stable enough to be on platforms rn (even tho i just post and fade away)

I'm unsure if this will go away any time soon but basically tonight especially I basically don't feel well and I'm considering a more full-time hiatus and going inactive for the time being. But it also may just be tonight thing (idk I keep having relapses every time I think I'm getting a hold of it) so a hiatus would be unnecessary and things will be better tomorrow and I'll no longer feel like I need to, but I'm just not doing well and it's kinda hard to "make content" at all, and post when I'm like this.

I've technically already been on a semi-hiatus mostly on Instagram though because I kinda hate Instagram and prefer here more

Basically I might go on a brief full-time hiatus till I get better and feel like I have more stability than right now.

Other than that, goodnight, or day and take care! Love y'all and ty for enjoying my art + fan art and characters!! It means a lot ❤️/p

I do apologize for a sudden post like this (no idea if making this post really is even a good idea but it feels wrong to go inactive w/o context)

[leejenowrld]

Hi!!! Just wanted to ask what's been going on! Are there any projects you have in the works that you're excited about and willing to talk about?

hi! not sure if you’re asking about my life in general or my works (which i wouldn’t be surprised aboht lol) but yeah i’ll answer both

my life is going well :) i recently started a graduate job and i’m learning loads, loving how chill it is, i go on my phone so much lmao and it’s a work from home job. i’m really happy, in a good place mentally, loving family life and having good times with my boyfriend :) i’m having a quiet life atm tbh like not much going on, but i’m happy!! next step is me and my bf are trying to move out together into a new place so !! exciting. but london is soooo expensive

and as for projects? honestly nope. idk if you guys realise but it takes a lot of energy and time to write big projects and series, like in your eyes took me so long, i was writing for multiple hours a day for like a few weeks. so atm i have no plans for bigger projects as i don’t have the time/mental capacity to even think of what to do next or even write it out. so sorry but yeah there’s nothing i’m willing to talk about as i have no plans atm. rn i’m just happy writing smaller one shots,

i mean, i’ve had this mark lee fic planned out for so long. some scenes are even written but i kinda put it on a hiatus as it’s difficult for me to engage with and find interest in. it’s a best friends to lovers and idk, it’s hard to write. i considered changing it to jaemin as i felt like he fit it more but even after that, it still didn’t feel right

jeno has me in a chokehold… i can literally only write him

but tbh i have always wanted to write for mark. he is one of my fav members, i just need to get into the mark mindset which i can’t do rn. have you guys watched the tv show nobody wants this? yeah… that’s giving me mark lee, i’d be interested in writing something like that for him, that kinda trope - church mark x reader but yeah atm i don’t have the time to get engrossed in that so please don’t ask! but it’s in my head, it might happen. honestly it takes a lot of effort to fully commit to writing a full long piece one shot so yeahhh it’s whenever i wanna take that commitment

[kalmeria]

HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT TATSUMI HALLOWEEN

OH MY GOD I JUST SAW. I AM SO!!!!!!! AAAAAAGHHHHHGHHH

was kind of hoping for some kind of frankenstein type thing and you know what!! the fucked up nurse/doctor thing does kind scratch that itch!!

ive set very high expectations when we found out this was coming and this preview did not disappoint! but theres not a lot of detail yet and, well, considering the theme. hospital related horror i think tends to be about. standards for bodies and brains and the way i don’t like it executed is when it is about “wow these people are not normal isn’t it creepy” BUT what i very much LOVE is when the horror is about how those standards are being forced on you. now that is scary and fucked up!!

anyways i started out yelling and ended up contemplative.. i have so many thoughts, i am excited.! lets just say i have very high expectations again! happyele better not mess this one up.

(side note i wasn’t expecting this to have a possibility of involving kaname but like. he Is hospitalized as of rn and replaced by another person and idk. the theme kinda fits. this could be when tatsumi finds out.

but my main prediction is that the story might somehow involve tatsumi’s condition significantly worsening and the whole thing leads to him opening up more to the whole unit about his past.

and AND I WANT FLASHBACK SCENES TO HIS HIATUS PRE !! MAIN STORY PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

ok im yelling again