#ill be crying in bed now
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I just wanted some hurt/comfort. What better way to achieve that than the Sacrificed Chaos AU.
#foserdraws#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog au#sonic au#silver the hedgehog#sacrificed chaos au#dadow au#hurt/comfort#sonic sings to shadow to calm him after the events of shadow the hedgehog#later on shadow began singing it to silver as a lullaby#reassurance that just because hes a little different from everyone else#hes still loved#shadow will never let silver fall into self loathing like he did#i might have hurt myself emotionally while drawing#ill be crying in bed now#sonadow
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"Good morning, Matt. I'm over here." *proceeds to look around widly like a dog being told a special word like b-a-l-l*
he looks so disgruntled having to locate people he must've been shit at the I SPY books as a kid
media availability | 6.14.24 (x)
#matthew tkachuk#florida panthers#2324#playoffs 24#easily the funniest way to start a presser#hi good morning matthew now you must locate me in the sea of lights and people despite the fact it looks like you just rolled out of bed#making him use his pretty little brain already? absolutely deranged of em#paul had also had trouble with the lights too during the game 3 pressers#like father like son#anyways i cant imagine the sensory issues youd have to experience with bright ass buzzy lights i too would be just as grumpy#and then id cry#sensory issues are not fun ill tell you that much#its matthew ofc im gonna project my own sensory issues on him who do you think i am
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(ID in alt) I literally said I was gonna post this month's ago and then never had the wherewithal to describe it and so I didn't Lmao (said with pain). But since I'm thinking of opening my commissions I figured I should remind ppl that I. Yknow. Can draw.
Lots of Steph here (I had major art block making all of these and my brain worms for her kept me going) + some sprinkles of stephcass for Cass nation to enjoy!
#dc comics#dc#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#jason todd#(yes for the teddy bear. it counts)#batgirl#batgirls#mine#< keep forgetting to tag my art as that I'm terrible 😭#ANYHOW I'm slowly getting back into drawing again after my last ipad got nuked (cant think abt that or ill cry) and i finished uni#oh yeah j finished my first year of uni btw. i went to an Olivia Rodrigo concert like a week or 2 ago. I've been busy lol#but yeah it's looking like I've got a fun summer of bottom feeding ahead of me now that I've officially been told i got passed over for that#-comic job i applied for. lol. lmao even#it's fine honestly it was a pretty daunting prospect i just have to find a way to fill the time by myself now#I've plenty of comics to read so that's nice. got wayyy into mark waids DD run recently (mostly for Chris Samnee's art)#so that's been fun! i have my empowered omnibus (embarrassing and kept under my bed <3) i have TT year 1 i have huntress and WW#uhhh i got flash 1 minute war. lots of good stuff!#so hopefully i don't go. completely feral from lack of stimulation#also hopefully commissions will be a thing i can do#godddd there's many mkre things i want to draw. i got too enamoured w my own bad theory and now I've drawn tim!bats#but unfortunately now i only want to draw tim!bats being laughed at my the batfamily bc seriously tim?? really??#< it's literally probably not going to happen but I've invested myself in this terrible future for some reason#imagine damian trying to robin for tim!bats for 1 (one) night and the next morning he doesn't say anything he just moves to bludhaven#he can't take this shit#oh so many ideas...#ANYWAY. ues. finally art. now if you like it. consider commissioning me (in 2 to 3 business weeks <3)#(no pressure)
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cute date :] i wanted to try some clothes and also experiment on colors since ive been unsatisfied lately... it ended up looking good!! im happy with it
#i am so fucking much dying right now my tummy hurts so much ill just catapult this piece and go in my bed to cry#arknights#stalkiwiart#olivia silence#saria#art#fanart
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people practice w Them <3
#posting this and then shoving my head into a hole Bye#i am! Not Confident!!! in my people scribbling abilities!!#but im trying!!! im fucking trying!!!#i already see improvement#not enough to make me go 'wee the masses are gonna love this'#but enough that i can fathom posting. i can handle it. i can do this#if i dont do it now then i never will!!!!#im still gonna scream into a pillow rip it apart and then eat the stuffing!!!!#ah... the mortification of Existing... of Being Perceived...#it is ever present and inescapable! youd thing id be used to it by now!!!#ill be on my death bed asking people to leave the room so that i can die w/o feeling horribly self conscious and Seen#no seriously every time i think about my potential death and or coma should that happen#i prematurely cringe at the Attention. people potentially crying at my bedside Eugh No Thank You Please Do That Elsewhere#either call me a loser and drop off a single flower or leave me be <3#THIS IS A WELCOME HOME SCRIBBLE POST. IM SORRY I FORGOT#scribble garnish#uh um uh so uh wally and barnaby am i rite fellas-#in my mind they're picking up takeout for dinner <3#yeah no im not tagging it with a fandom tag. i dont want to be perceived As We've Established#im somewhat satisfied with that first wally.... swag <3#& do i have major gender envy for barnaby? yeah#im not used to drawing people but i should be... i need to be...#THERE ARE GUYS I WANNA DRAW! mine and others!!! ngl mostly mine!!!
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idk if there's anything you can do about it but someone is using your chappell hot to go art on teepublic & I thought you would want to know if u don't already :(
Nice. love this for me./s
uhhh anyways thank you for bringing this to my attention @hyuckieberry! I’m gonna try to figure out TeePublic’s DMCA takedown request. which is very frustrating since i am from the Philippines. and DMCA is very much bound to just the USA.
for now, if anyone sees this, PLEASE HELP ME REPORT the account.
If anyone is interested in buying the tshirt/design, please consider supporting me, its up on my Redbubble. the only place where i have uploaded the design.
Honestly, simply reblogging and liking this or the original post i made will help immensely.
#narwhal speaks#chappell roan#chappell roan fanart#chappell roan fan merch#I thought i was finally having a good day and i was so proud of myself because i finally managed to get out of bed#after having a fucking relapse#and now this????????#it fucking sucks because the more i look into the DMCA takedown request of TeePublic#which btw very labor intensive and full of legal jargon i am ill equipped to follow#ITS LIKE ONLY FOR THE US????????????#I am currently living breathing in the philippines unfortunately#anyways uuuhhh#i’m gonna go cry and maybe my rage/frustrations can help me figure something out#i’m gonna be sick#hopefully my rage and frustration will keep me from spiralling back into a depressed state lol.#is this what i get for bedrotting for months?#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#fuck me gently with a fucking chainsaw
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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.
#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day#how they're already memories since moments pass so fast#everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever#and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed#it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily#so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day#ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been#the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief#and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately#id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again#like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night#one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys#i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i#hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day
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Having the lost elf theme playing at the end there was absolutely criminal behaviour.
#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age veilguard#veilguard spoilers#datv spoilers#i was waiting for it to come up tbh#and when it did i was gonna bite something#my head hurts ive been crying on and off for like 4 hours#the last time i cried this hard during a game was the end of Mass Effect 3#my roommate can attest to me sobbing at 2am on my bed with the game on#this time its me at 12-3am sobbing on my bed while my dog and cat just sleep#could i have played this in the morning? yeah definitely#but risk someone walking in on me sobbing??? no thank you#im going to replay the final quest again tomorrow maybe . ill be ready this time#but also looking at a sketch i had : how am i supposed to finish this now#sits down head in hands how could this happen to me
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Had a Men.ieres att.ack today. Neat. 👌 istg if it doesnt cool down soon I'm going to lose it. My body literally cannot deal with 30plus heat.
...... I want kylo to snuggle me and give me kisses and run a cool cloth over the entirety of my body and tell me I'm not some weak and useless being. :c
#I've been doing nothing but crying face down in my bed for the last 9 hours. only moving to crawl to the bathroom#thank god its right beside my room and my bed is on the floor...#I hate this. now that the vertigo is tamer I have to deal with a massive headache... I feel so useless and bothersome#tw: chronic illness
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I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?
#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like.#what? am I missing something here?#my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day#but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both#gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a#bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of#being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even#with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like#go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m#afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make#this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s#so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room#and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until#my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and#that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad#anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know.#honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down
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oh always nice to wake up think youre in the process of being twitter suspended for getting a little too hrny with ur last gojo post and like fk u i didn’t wanna do this anyway ;-; (a lie)
#my tweets are loading#its funny how i went: we should go back to bed#but my chronically online brain was like no lets just do a quick glance#and now i am physically and mentally ill#and i want to cry#and it’s chronically online behavior yes#but getting suspended for hrny gojos is genuinely my greatest fear#bc of the sheer levels of irony#where he would simultaneously be the reason for my success and downfall like
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sometimes when shes gone or even sometimes when we're talking i keep thinking how much i love them and it makes me cry bc i love this girl so fucking much and im so lucky to get to love her and to have their love.
its 2 30 am and shes sleeping and im emotional but theyre the best thing thats ever happened to me and i am just so fucking in love with her it overwhelms me
theyre the best thing in my life, my soulmate, the love of my life, the girl of my dreams, and i cant believe how fucking lucky i am to get to love and be loved by her
love isnt a big enough word to describe how i feel about my girl but itll have to suffice.
thank u so much my darling for letting me love u, and for loving me in return.
i love u so much more than life itself and it isnt enough to say that but itll have to do
ill love u forever
till the world ends, till the sky burns up and the mountains turn to dust and everything is silent ill love u then
ill love u till the oceans dry up and every tree is felled and every star shines its brightest brilliant death ill love u then
ill love u till every manmade thing has collapsed and every living thing is destroyed and the only thing left on this earth is ash ill love u forever
i love u more than anything, little bird
i love u
happy one month anniversary @prettyyyy-girl my most beloved and dearest love, and happy early birthday! i wish u every happiness and joy overflowing!
#im writing this 2 30 am friday the 28 but ill queue it for our anniversary#im like actually crying now lmao god i love her so fucking much#lmao ill prolly be embarrassed when this posts yall be nice im being vulnerable#hopefully ill forget about it till it posts lol#now im going to bed goodnight#see u guys again on the 30th!
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truly incredible gig tn atmosphere was stunning and also I was stood almost just behind maybe The most handsome butch I have ever seen in my life im not even exaggerating and they were also there alone (VERY rare at this show) and we made eye contact like twice bc they turned around a couple times and as I was leaving I realised they were suddenly right next to me and then I lost them in thr crowd!!!!! and im kicking myself so fucking hard bc I so badly wanted to catch them just to tell them I've never seen someone so gorgeous in my entire life im stone cold sober btw just completely losing my mind. And there were prolly a couple thousand ppl it was so so busy coming out of the venue and ive already walked half the way home theres no chance I'll find them now but I still keep scanning people that pass me in case it's them. tearing my hair out coughing up blood I'll never forget u come back to me i need to shoot my shot pls.....
#dont know why im feeling so bonkers abt this i almost never feel this intensely abt anyone on sight i didnt even have anything to say#to them ummmmm im not even the kinda guy to ever want to hit on a total stranger openly but oh my god. maybe they didnt even notice me.#and it wouldve been weird to say that to them so its probably for the best but. puts my head in my hands. no one comment i WILL cry#THIUS IS SO EMBARRASSINGGGGGG. but it was such a specific gig its so hard to find ppl my age who like this kinda music#like the crowd was mostly 50+ so they probably did notice me even if it was just on account of thr fact we were some of the v few#ppl in our twenties there..... AUUUGGHHHH and im also hot + butch and was dressed very butchly tn. so. and we DID make eye contact#lord im delirious. okay im normal. no im not falls to my knees. well maybe ill run into them again someday. 🥹🥹🥹#i hope theyre thinking abt me too. ok its sooooo late and im home now and so tired im gonna get changed and go to BED#GOODNIGHT. SORRY FOR BEING CRAZY#.diaries
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I feel like we don’t acknowledge the level of trauma Remus Lupin went through when he was four and a werewolf came through his window whilst he was sleeping and mauled him. like he would have died rather than be turned if his dad hadn’t shown up throwing spells about. that shit is heavy
#remus lupin#we always talk about Sirius' family and im sorry but werewolf trumps that in my mind#I love my angst factories#hp#marauders#I’ve been reading wolf star fics lately can you tell#surprisingly I find there’s more angst about Sirius’ childhood than about the time someone tried to kill 4yr old Remus in his bedroom#most don’t even touch on it#they just have Remus feeling like a monster and then the full moon every now and again + feeling I’ll#*ill#like bro he was ATTACKED. BY A GROWN MAN. WHILE HE WAS SLEEPING. IN HIS OWN BEDROOM.#that 100% should’ve been a safe place for Remus and he probably never felt safe there again#I certainly don’t think he slept in his room for month. he slept in his parents’ bed.#but also his parents were trying to fix him. and he was a baby werewolf with no real understanding of what was happening to him#and they were scared of him#i’m not crying you are#anyway fuck jkr
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why does she doubt me why won't she believe me god i feel sick
#ajax posts ཋྀ#ajax vents ཋྀ#sigh#ys i jsut threw myself onyo my bed and started crying#lolol i think ill shut the fuck up#what if theybhate me now
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i have to sit with my window open tonight bc i (very responsibly) started painting with oil in my room and now it smells like turpentine and theres turpentine in here so if theres a moth ill be sure to let yall know
#so i can cry to my phone or something#ill og to sleep downstairs again god what will i do when dad comes back#ill sleep on the couch#ok i see this is stupid post moment now its 3am i will go read idw in bed and if i take any cute screenshots ill let yall know
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