#and now i am physically and mentally ill

[3-aem]

oh always nice to wake up think youre in the process of being twitter suspended for getting a little too hrny with ur last gojo post and like fk u i didn’t wanna do this anyway ;-; (a lie)

[katyspersonal]

To be honest I don't really want mutuals who instantly assume I commented in bad faith to act "condescending" when I was nothing but light-hearted in disagreeing about a point in the post about one of the characters and agreed with everything else. 🤔 Especially not when I apparently pissed them off so much it made them post TWO (passive-aggressive) posts on the topic of disagreement afterwards instead of.... actual discussion? At least if I assume someone is being mean on purpose I ask them about it

[kittylittersmoothie]

I often worry that occasionally writing fanfiction will be my only contribution to society... but then I remember the following quote and at least feel some solace.

"Hence, my board shorts— the international sign for 'I am not a useful member of society.'" —Donnie, "Man vs. Sewer"

some days, we just need our board shorts

unfortunately, however, "some days" is "virtually every day" for me

[ganondoodle]

so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-

but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again

(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)

i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)

weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward

but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.

right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)

[pierrotdoesnteat]

i think i need to go for a drunken walk while poorly dressed and cry in the graveyard

[third-king-of-salmonids]

Are you alive

I THINK SO?? THEY DIDNT BELIEVE ME WHEN I TRIED TO CALL IN DEAD DURING MY LAST SHIFT AT MAROONERS BAY SO

[studentbyday]

This is your weekly reminder that care tasks are morally neutral and there are no rules for how you should complete them.

The care task I probably struggle the most to do is to exercise regularly. But who says your workout routine can't consist of a single exercise? If that's all you can manage right now, then there's no shame in that! You deserve a body you love being in that doesn't ache all the time.

[tamagotchikgs]

i feel like i was actually doing good n felt human for a bit n now ive dramatically fallen so far back

[icewindandboringhorror]

currently at That Point which occurs once every few months where one briefly begins pacing around the house teary eyed contemplating selling their own organs or becoming an online scammer or getting on anxiety meds so you can bear the risk taking required to be a hitman or so on and so forth.... why must everything so Expensive... Surely all would be healed in life if only I had one big plate of lasagna and a simple loan of $40,000 ... auoughhh....

[mossy-paws]

whenever you're playing phighting do you ever just look at the characters the opposite team is playing as and think ''we're gonna lose''

oh all the TIME, I think the worst ones are when I see a all skinned double healer (medkit and vinestaff) combo with skateboard, katana, and hyper,, those rounds are always the most miserable things in existence /silly

[bunnyboy-juice]

im begging people to turn on the post dates for your feed bc sometimes i see ppl rb advice with good intentions but the advice is from 2010-2017 and therefore is WILDLY outdated!!!! and that's not good!!!!!

[crimeronan]

good fucking christ ALIVE. luz is SO FUCKING SAD.

[thekidsarentalright]

i rly do think kintsugi kid hits incredibly different and deeper from the perspective as a chronically ill person than it ever would otherwise. absolutely guts me

[cashmire-writes]

I haven't replied to comments in months (I am so sorry) and now I have over 600 "unread" messages in my inbox that I have 100% read but have not marked as read.

So I'm going to reply to comments now in order to try and escape The Thoughts

[idyllic-affections]

sometimes i forget enjou exists and then someone posts about him and i'm like. I miss you you silly little abyss man

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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