#if that's the case -- dont cop out with the personality thing. let him be a bad dad. but its kinda fucked how dc STILL try to paint him

[bruciemilf]

Somebody tell me if this is a bad take, or if my love for Bruce is causing my objective brain to glitch, but-- something about advertising Batman, a hero who's very popular for being good with children, for being NURTURING with children, a bad father kinda defeats the whole purpose of what he's supposed to represent.

Batman is a protector; He protects people the world (and especially law enforcement) does not care about. That's literally the point of him.

Something about marketing " you can be incredibly violent to people you care about! And Its fine, because you care about them even if you abuse them, and that's what matters!" towards people, but especially men and young boys, is REALLY fucked up to me.

[gordon-freeman-phd]

one thing that i dont think people aknowledge enoigh about barneys role as a spy when it comes to his generalize relations with other rebels and regular citizens is the very real chance that some people, even after knowing his reasons for joining up with the cps, are going to dislike him on the basis that he could not retain his role within them without participating in the cruel and unjust actions required by definition

like, he would have had to torture citizens and interrogate them, wr all saw the chair in his "office" even if he didnt participate directly he would have had to allow it regardless to keep his cover, and if he ever had a posting outaide the trainstation? he possibly would have had to co duct raids, and even if he didnt, many people are going to have had more experience at the hads of cps during raids than what barney would be doing at the trainstation,

because really, as we all hopefully know with regards to real cops, there is no good cop, you are either a good cop in that you do your job thereby participating in the inherantly cruel system made to target certain groups of people and the culture that ensures it will always be that way, or allowing it at the very least, making you a bad person in the long run, or a good person who tries to stop that system and therefore a bad cop who ends up bullied or killed at the extreme by other cops to protect thwir own, and the cps are the very extreme of what the militarized body of cops are in the world now are, protecring a fascist status quo, meaning that barney had to conform publiccaly within their ranks for his own safety so he can do his job as a spy

and while spying is a worthy cause to save lives of rebels and to relay important information, it does not erase the harm he has to do or enable directly day to day, and while plenty of people dive into how that effects barneys own psyche, theres less so an interrogation of how it effects others views on him, from unrelated rebels who may not have known him before the uorising to citizens who chose the rebels side, to even the people closest to barney, meaning kleiner, eli, alyx, and gordon,

this is even before we get into how many people know of barneys spy status, i know personally i believe he had to let other rebels believe he was a turn coat for thier and his own safety and cover, something like that doesnt go away easy even when you find out after that he was on your side all along becuz youre going to know that he had to perform to standard anyways, the distrust i imagine is much more when you didnt even know him before and now you have a man in cp garb saying hes on your side in the middle of chaos

and of course, the itch in the back of the main gangs brains, knowing what hes up to when hes not around, seeing a new blood stain on his unigorm if he doesnt have the time to take it off before making his way over, not recognizi g him since you inly see a uniform in the cirner of your eye and panicking begore you realize its only barney but the uneasiness doesnt go away even after he changes becuase you know, maybe more than anyone else except him what hes doing when you arent around, even if you KNOW hes on your side, that hes your friend who may even have known you for most of your life in alyxs case, like, even if you know its for the greater good, the smell of boot shine and blood badly masked by lemon scented cleaning agent sticking to the back of your throat as it wafts off one so close to you is hard to ignore

[coiled-dragon]

I really think Benson fully contemplated killing Randy. I think that while Randy was part of the catalyst for his being pushed over the edge, Benson was ready to kill everyone in that building and then sit at the diner without bothering to clean up the mess in BBB or on himself, and wait for the cops. There was a degree of reason to why he killed everyone, though.

Chris was the last straw on the camels back. Randy's being bullied catalyzed it, but Chris getting right up in Benson's face, touching him, and giving Benson the same attitude Benson wears the rest of the movie ("Dont tell me what I can and cannot do" etc) was what really tipped him over. You can see him think when he smokes, debating if Today is the Day (I also think that it's been a long time coming, a slow burn the way anger and dissatisfaction at ones life can be when you feel locked, trapped, trapped with people, trapped in a town, trapped with trauma) and then he decides it is. Chris gets killed for getting in Bensons face and asserting himself and touching him as much as he gets killed for bullying Randy!

Hardy is killed because while this bullshit happens outside his office, he's in there at 8am watching porn, literally fucking around. Well, thats part of what I Think Bensons animosity is towards Hardy - what he's actually killed for is daring to run.

Jess is killed because she won't fucking stop screaming. She screams and screams and he actively gives her a chance to stop. He shows later on that when he can be given a break from the stimulation of Noise he can stop and think and contemplate - but she doesnt stop. So he has to shut her up and you can HEAR the exasperation in his voice when he kills her. I dont think he really wanted to kill her...

Then there's Randy. He's killed 3 of them, he might not have killed all of them but they gave him no choice (Hardy Ran, Jess Screamed, Chris was the one who was gonna die no matter what) and he has to decide... Is he gonna go all out? Is Randy gonna get it too?

And Randy... Stands there. Terrified. He can't move, he can't make a noise, but it works for him because if he did anything else I do think Benson would've made the impulse choice to kill him, too. Quadruple homicide, glory glory what a wonderful way to die.

But Randy not moving.... it gives him time to think. You can see him sizing up Randy as he reloads his gun, you can see him waiting for Randy to give him a real reason to make him a body... And I think as he does that, he also realizes just how far gone he himself is. That there's no turning back now. Killing one person? Yeah gets you a lot of shit, but you might be able to squirm out of the Worst Case Scenario punishment a la American Justice System... 3 though? Not a chance in hell.

He knows as he stares down Randy with dead eyes that he is a dead man walking - because there's no way in hell he's gonna go to jail and live out a life sentence in there (or be put to death by the State, because Capitol Punishment IS still a thing in Louisiana. But that would be more humiliating to someone like Benson than suicide by cop).

And while I absolutely believe Benson has watched Randy a lot, maybe even grown to resent his passivity, I think the real reason he lets him live is that.

Benson doesn't wanna spend this last day alive on his own.

[pinazee]

Talk Derby to Me

Alright, another Juliet ep, and it’s… fine. It has some good moments. Im trying really hard not to be nitpicky but its only because it had so much potential to be one of their best eps, but instead, it falls a little…flat. BUT this is a great opportunity to finally talk about juliet! So ill do it in two parts: the first, discussing juliet in the ep, and the second, who she is in the show.

So, to be completely honest, part of the reason this episode is kind of meh for me, is that the acting from our supporting players and even a bit from maggie, kind of takes me out of it. The one time i believed juliet was a badass though, was when she was protected shawn, but at that point shes not trying to be a roller derby girl. Shes just being her badass cop self. I think her undercover work gets better as the show progresses so this isn’t necessarily a criticism, but more of an acknowledgment of where she started at.

Juliet is adorable in this ep, though. Plus i like that her and shawn both got to give the chief the wrap-up in the end.

I wish juliet would have gotten an aha! moment and more participation in the solve. Like, sure, have shawn put it together in the end, he is our main character, but i think she could have gotten part of it at least, in her own way. For instance, she could have seen the green lubricant too and put it together that it was wilde, then gave that clue to shawn. Yes, she did find the scanners, but then immediately asks shawn about them instead of taking a second to work it out herself. I think this would’ve helped make them feel like more of a team, since it was mentioned explicitly by the chief. I think this is why it feels too much like a girl power ep and not a roller derby ep for me. That could also be a product of the format though, since the shows focus is shawn (and gus) after all. Plus, again, i think they get better at this (theres a moment coming up this season that ill mention specifically)

I think they could have developed the tension a bit more between juliet and shawn too, since her being “bossy” was part of the drama of the ep. Though, i dont understand why shawn didn’t tell her from the beginning it was a music video and was instead telling her to trust him blindly. I think instead, they should have gone one of two ways with this:

1. shawn tells her its a music video, but juliet cant, as a cop, ignore a lead simply because he “divined” it, then when she gets in trouble we could see shawn feeling guilty that he couldn’t prove it to her without casting doubt on his ability and thats why he takes the blame.

2. they could’ve had shawn try more tactics at distracting her with romance, and have her tell him essentially that now was not the time and ask for more support from him in solving the case instead of trying to woo her. Which again, would provide a reason for him to take the fall for the music video debacle.

Also its chivalrous, i guess, for shawn to take the blame but it kind of goes against juliets character not to be honest. I wish they wouldve let her come clean. That being said, it was funny to watch juliet in the background staring at shawns feet and then snickering at lassies expense.

Now, overall, i love juliet as a character! I love that they didn’t try to make her this like super badass and unrealistic woman. Juliet is flawed, and fun, and naive, and tough, and competitive, and feminine, and proud, and sweet. Actually, my favorite thing about her is just how sweet she is because of how that contrasts with her job. She is a full person and not just a love interest or plot foil to shawn. She would still be an important character to the show even if shawn wasn’t in love with her. Plus, how they portray juliet gets better and better as the seasons progress- or at least thats my memory of it, so im curious if thats still the case years later.

Obviously im going to talk about this moment:

I hated it.

Just kidding. It’s cute ☺️ but imo, not entirely earned in the episode, though certainly more earned than their almost kiss in bounty hunters. Personally, i would have preferred this moment to be more of a friends vibe, and have them like laughing together over him falling on his ass or something- but im a sucker for the friends to lovers trope so thats my own bias haha

I randomly heard one of the background ladies roller derby name was Miss-anthropy and its arguably the best one there and its not even a main character.

Lastly, the fact that shawn could take Gus’s test for him and pass, is honestly incredibly impressive and its so funny to me that its played for laughs. Like gus didn’t go how the hell did you pass that test without studying? But is straight up pissed because he had him fret over it all week for no reason. This goes to show though (because i doubt he opened a book) that Shawns been paying attention to gus’ little explanations and studies :)

Heres a random thought, do you think Gus was ever jealous that Shawn could remember stuff so easily? Like, as they were growing up, and gus is fretting over his studies for hours, only to find that his best friend didn’t have to study at all and simply remembered everything the teacher said but didn’t care enough to try- like personally i would be pissed lol. Gus is smart in his own right, but its not without hard work.

P.S

This moment is always a highlight for some reason haha idk why exactly, its barely a joke

[actuallycassidyiambusy]

I fear i may be as jealous as Buggy, but i dont have homicidal tendencies so i just have to deal with it (i’m single so idk why i’m like this)

I get it. I really do. Jealousy and possessiveness is a real fuckin bitch to deal with. Especially when you can't control it.

A little not so fun fact about me is I have an intense case of BPD. Now what I'm about to let you in on I in no way condone of real people and I'm not particularly proud of it. Anyone who has it can testify that it's hell.

I was a violent teen. My BPD made me overly impulsive and insanely possessive. Not just in romantic relationships, but friendships too. I developed fight response due to severe trauma. My dad never got me help because he ignored what happened to me and he liked having a "tough" kid. People around me would glorify it. "oh it's so cool you can beat the shit out of whoever you want" like no it's not fuckin cool. I can't fuckin control it and I feel like a goddamn puppet to my own disorders.

It doesn't help that I have other diagnosis' that I won't address in this post.

So, to the point. I was in the end my junior year of HS when my girlfriend at the time brought me to a bonfire her friends were having to celebrate going into our senior year. Now, this guy that I already didn't fuckin like was there and he had a major crush on my gf. He'd harass her and just tail her like some lost fuckin puppy.

I based Buggy's ex, Mia, in the fic off of this girl I dated bc she loved the attention and she loved when I'd snap. She made it worse by touching this guy and laughing at his shit jokes. I don't remember too much of what happened. Just what people tell me. I had grabbed a bat and took it to the back of this dude's head. Nobody was able to pull me off of him. Personally, I don't think anyone really tried. Apparently, I had dragged him over to the fire and had his hair in my fist. I put his face near the flames. I'm sure I said something to him, but I really can't remember. My blackouts were really bad. That boy avoided me the rest of the time we were in school. I eventually caught in to what my gf was doing and broke it off shortly before senior year ended.

I had an idea of the disorders I was dealing with before I was diagnosed, but because I was denied help, I got worse and worse. The town that I lived in at the time was small, racist and extremely homophobic. We had some shitty house next to this gravel alley. My brother is a few years younger than me and he had come out as gay. Three different boys who used to be his friends were picking on him in that back alley and I was in the back yard at the time. I'll describe what happened in my brother's words.

"you jumped the fence and immediately attacked them. You dragged them into the dirt and just went off on them. One ran off but the other two you beat until they started bleeding. You slammed one of their faces down and literally ground them into the rocks. Dad had to pull you off of them. You had blood on your face and hands."

My knuckles were busted and raw from hitting those guys. Next thing I know, I'm getting questioned by cops. I won't go into all the legal shit that went down, but I'm sure you can imagine. I've seen the inside of a cell. I know what it's like to be caged because of something I had no control over. The charges were dropped though. I embarrassed those boys and their parents even though they should have been embarrassed by their own kid's behavior.

I don't excuse my behavior. In fact, I hated the blackouts I went through because I hurt people. My jealousy and my desire to protect my friends and family spilled over into physical violence. If I hadn't gotten away from that town and my dad, I would have killed someone eventually. I know this and that's why I got help the moment I was old enough to get approved for Medicaid.

I've been on medication for my disorders for almost four years now. I still have violent thoughts and my emotions are written all over my face, but I can control it better. My impulse control has improved drastically. I've improved my relationships and even found a partner who keeps me tame. I own what I am and I know it will never fully go away. I've still gotten into altercations and I'll get in a fuckers face if they get too cocky, but I no longer fear that I'll kill someone.

What I'm saying is, it doesn't hurt to get yourself looked at. If your jealousy and possessiveness is ruining your life and keeping you from maintaining relationships, you should try to look into it. If it is something deeper but you don't like the idea of medicine, there are tons of natural ways to deal with it. Some that even I use from time to time. For me, it was way too late. Even though I hate the idea of being medicated, I know it's not just about me, but the people around me as well. I'm keeping myself and them safe.

You can be jealous of your friend's friendships with other people. You can be jealous of a significant other's friendship with other people and it really sucks. Especially when you feel like there's nothing you can do about it. Just know that no matter how bad it gets, you can talk to me. I will not judge you for a damn thing because I guarantee I have done worse while I was untreated. I'm a safe person to come to and whatever you tell me will stay with me. I'm sorry you feel so stuck and if there's anything I can do, just let me know.

I gave Buggy the same disorder in the fic because not only does it help me cope, it makes for great dark fiction. Some of the things he's done out of jealousy are thoughts that I've had myself that I've never acted on. I would never wish it on real people though. Never.

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

What happenes if/when allura shiro and lance meet in the shrödinger reality au? Theres do many ways this meeting could go wrong..........

Also shiro having a brother in this au is such an interesting plot point.. Shiro is slowly descending into madness by his memories halucinations and stuffing severed limbs into potted plants pots and kuro is like 'im so glad my brother has a new hobby:) hes been so passionate about gardening recently! I wonder what fertilizer is he using to make them grow this well.. also why is the floor do slippery nowadays'

and the answer turns out to be maybe-propably-not-real severed body parts

The way i see it (and i am basing this on vibes), that they didnt even notice or remembered. The way Lance's Thing works is that he 1) goes usually unnoticed, like pebbles on a road 2) even if you notice him, or talk to him, or he talks to you as long as you are not the one he's targetting (which rarely ever happens) they dont usually 'recognize' him. It is like how some animals dont recognize their own reflection, maybe some people would feel off about him, some people would be curious about him and some people would be able to notice and remember him (like that one doctor) but ultimately they wont be able to pinpoint what exactly is wrong just a constant feeling of wrongness. 3) they usually wont remember him. They might feel like they are forgetting something, or something is missing but usually they will forget about him.

However again the pebbles on road metaphor applies here. If you dont notice him, you just dont notice him, if you had one passing glance, you'll forget about him instantly, if you noticed him, talked to him, examined him, you are more likely to notice some details meaning you would realize that Something is Wrong, meaning you will remember him for a bit longer.

Which is how i feel Lance's first meeting with Shiro and Allura is going to go. They wont notice him, or recognize him, or remember him. I imagine there's some serial killer case both Allura and Shiro got dragged into with Allura was a witness (she was trying to understand wth us going on and trying to understand this world and oh shit that person just attacked someone) and Shiro kinda being a suspect cause he's being odd according to his friends, and Lance who has decided that he can do a better detective job than the cops (and he's 100% right) and also he thinks said serial killer is the one who 'killed' him. They do meet Lance and because they do remember or have dreamt Lance from their vld timeline, they are able to notice something is off about that guy, but they lose track of him and they kinda forget about him but do keep getting this nagging feeling that they forgot something important

Allura and Shiro do not get along at first. Allura who remembers Everything is like "Shiro? Shiro! Shiro it is you!! It's me Allura!! Oh thank voltron and guardian i found you this world is so strange and a total fake" and Shiro who has been trying to suppress his dreams for past few months is like- "Who tf are you??? I dont know who are you or what this voltron is but please stay away from me" (<=lying). And like Allura who was so desperate to have traces of her old life back, started to pretty much like trying to reach out to him (aka pester him). Eventually Allura is able to convince him that, yeah she indeed is both girl in his dreams but also real and Real af, and while he does Not believe her, he is also just so tired of the paranormal bs he is dealing with and if this Weird stalker lady can help him than on god he's taking that help.

And yep (in my mind his brother is Kuron) and while he doesnt show it, he is Very worried about Shiro. He reasons that he is just coping with his accident and dealing with loss of his arm and dream job and the Trauma™ (and technically he isnt wrong) but he can also tell this is something beyond That. However he has decided that he'll give Shiro space, let him come to him on his own, be supportive and strong and smiley for him. But yeah he's glad that Shiro is getting into a new hobbies, even if he is too into it sometimes.

[ha-youwish]

could you tell me more about the postcanon p5 and p3 wip? 👀

ask game

this au is an excuse to make characters not a fucking cops and also make my own persona 6 (a rite of passage for any persona fic writer)

so basically, i think the phantom thieves polycule should get back together and then be recruited by mitsuru to join the new shadow ops. the shadow ops now are a private investigative agency apart from the police so they can get around some red tape that made it hard to do things like, say, get akira out of being questioned and beat the shit out of by the police.

so yeah now the phantom thieves are adults, akira was able to convince sojiro to let him run the cafe a few days a week. he does online classes and can't resist digging up dirt on shitty authorities and being like hey futaba check this out, mona helps him out with that. futaba is also doing online schooling and gets money from a mysterious source......

ann is doing modeling oversees at the time of the start of this, ryuji is in between track seasons and spends way too much time in leblanc (gayass), yusuke sells his art and also spends too much time in leblanc (gayass pt2), haru and makoto are on their honeymoon doing their thing in sapporo (makoto is becoming disillusioned with police work, haru has opened up her first cafe there and runs it).

basically mitsuru approaches akira and is like hey we want to make things better but laws suck but also we dont want to risk corruption can the PT be on an unofficial team for the shadow ops while also being allowed to do their own thing. by the time they accept a new cognitive world pops up on their radar, and thats where the ocs come in and things get complicated in a way i dont have energy to explain sorry.

so here read this also fuck cops

One day things will get better, has been the mantra that Makoto has been chanting since she was assigned to Sapporo. That, and, these things take time. 

Her goal to become a police commissioner took a bit of a turn the more she went through college. But she was here now, working with the investigations unit at the Sapporo Police Department. 

It… wasn’t what it seemed when she first joined. As the newbie, she’d been mostly shadowing under her boss so far, contributing to maybe one or two cases for a year. But it was fine, these things took time. She could change the system, but she just had to be patient. 

It was a little hard to be patient, though, when her boss treated her like she was his personal servant. 

Makoto filled up the coffee mug for the third time this evening, trying to suppress the scowl on her face. One of her colleagues in the unit, a nice man named Nagaki, walked in the room. 

She remembered the conversation they had the other day, when she intervened with one of the officers in an interrogation room. Makoto had gotten in more trouble than the officer who was about to get violent, and the situation had shaken her. 

Nagaki had kindly come up to her after the incident and told her she did a good thing. “But,” he said quietly, “Good things aren’t appreciated around here. Not without status.”

“Can I be honest with you?” She had said, still reeling from her reprimand. “I joined the police to change things. My dad was an officer, he was kind, and I was hoping to make the system more like him.”

“It’s a good goal to have, but it’s not going to happen if you’re here.” He scoffed, bitter. “Either quit or get fired.”

He’d walked off after that, ending the conversation before she could ask. But his words have been rattling in her head ever since. She couldn’t believe it. He’d been in this line of work far longer than her, but she felt she was different. She had to be different if things were going to change. 

One day things will get better, but why did it feel like things were only getting worse? 

[lord-shitbox]

ok kicks clutter out of the way and sits down with a notebook. i gotta figure out more bite's vampire dad semantics. mutuals very welcome to chime in

vampirism lore notes:

i could see turning someone into a vampire as something you do to a trusted friend or partner.. aw fuck ive gotta outline if people are born as vampires or not. the worldbuilding catches me again. shelving that for later

i do want there to be uneven power dynamics in siring for Bite's case specifically because yada yada young adult vs parent angst we've all been there. maybe something about the origin of vampirism lends it to uneven power dynamics but in modern society its typically looked down on to lord that power over others without good reason? specific laws about it so courts can rule that it's unjust for someone to be doing that if they're abusing the power, like domestic violence cases..

in that case I think a vampire parent would have legal precedent for maintaining sire power over their child but is generally obligated to "free" their dependent by relinquishing the power they hold over them and giving them control over themselves when they're 18 or so.

Bite lore notes:

Bite's birth parents are not part of the relevant picture at all and he's not too torn up about it. he would've been turned & taken in by his vampire father as a child...he's basically his adoptive father but with an extra tangible power difference because of the vampire siring part.

New angle of discussion.

Sire power: Bite's father can control how quickly he ages, because vampires can just do that for themselves if they have enough blood to feed on (a Lot of it) & could definitely force him to freeze on the spot n shit like that without touching him. Bite hates that shit. he can't control or have a say about what happens to his own body so of course hes balls to the walls touchy about his personal space. like a cornered animal

Bite's vdad wants him to stay small forever & refuses to let him grow old -> bite never gets old enough to legally obtain his own autonomy -> cornered desperate animal mentality

of course. given enough time and legal documentation he could definitely make a legal case that his vfather has been forcing him to stay a child for well over the time hes supposed to have been an adult by now & have his autonomy handed to him by legal means. but that takes Time and Legal Documentation. and if his vdad destroys his birth certificate and all other records of his birth who's going to believe him?

somebody will, Given Enough Time, but trans allegory "holy fuck i dont want to wait several years until i can choose what to do to my own body" hes going fucking crazy.

SO: he kills his dad

except he can't, because of the stupid vampire siring thing. he can't kill his vampire sire. he can get reaaaallllll fucking close but no matter what he does he's going to HAVE to get someone else to finish the job for him.

if he destroys his dad's body thoroughly enough his dad loses his control over him tho! yay! he gets to physically be as old as he should be as long as he remembers to destroy his dad's living corpse every time it starts forming enough to start exerting control over him again

He does this for a good couple years at least & he's better but he's also incredibly Stuck now. if he lets his dad reform he's going to be back to square one and who knows what his dad will do to him in return? he's kept him on the absolute brink of death for several years theres no fucking way he's gonna be happy with him about that. He needs to find someone who's willing to kill his dad & not tell the cops about what he's done because there's no way hes not going to jail or worse.

These are the circumstances he's under when he comes across Bark & this is why he keeps asking Bark if he'd kill someone for him (like would you love me if i was a worm except worse because hes worse). also this is where IM stuck cos i cant decide how to end it

Either Bite's vdad relinquishes control to him or Bite's vdad is killed. there has to be some end to the cycle he's stuck in

His dad relinquishing control feels..incredibly anticlimactic but is also realistic to my experience. could not stand my dad but he gave up on micromanaging me and now we're chilling. i think theres definitely something about parent/child relationships that are extremely combative in teen years but then end up reconciling later when the kid has grown up some more & the parent has realized they're their own person and not some toy

Bark could kill Bite's dad. this is a good quandary for him because he does not want to hurt anyone but also comes to understand Bite's situation and realizes the reason Bite is such an awful individual to deal with is because he's got this shitshow of a cloud hanging over his head all the time. Plus Bark's also like. definitely hurting people because he's refusing to deal with his own shit. even though he doesnt mean to. atp what's one more

third secret option Bite manages to kill his dad himself. this would go extremely awfully for him im sure it would damage him extensively and also would not help his isolationist "im the only one that can save myself" problems in the slightest. but he would have a GREAT cry in Bark's arms about it. i could make him do that anytime though now that i think about it. hehehe (the haver of thoughts)

SO. thats all that. Maybe if I squint at Bark's set of problems and figure out how he gets fixed by the end this half will just knit itself together nicely when im not looking. such is the life. anyone who read and processed all 900 of those words is entitled to compensation ill doodle you something tbh. what do yuou guys think

[rainboq]

RE: the anon who just talked about how ass david is

you are the rightest person on earth. I fucking despise david i hate him he's quite literally an abuser and joyce just LETS IT HAPPEN, and i dont like how they tried to redeem him in lis 2. not to say abusers can't get better but it felt, at least to me, like they were trying to sweep it under the rug and say "nah nah the chloe abuse is fine bcuz he's helping other people now!"

chloe's like, 12, and her dad just died and her bestfriend left and rachel is missing and she's Going Through It, of course she's gonna be a little snippy snarky or whatever. and like they said, david is just a fucking bastard, it doesn't matter if chloe listened or not, he's a powertripping (mildly misogynistic) jackhole who would've hated chloe no matter what.

more david slander 2k22

(and he's shit at fighting too. i mean, what was that "fight" against jeffershit?)

Dontnod really expect you to forgive incredibly shitty guys after they do the bare minimum (or not even that in Nathan's case). I'm so frustrated by media that expects men to be given a pass for bad behaviour after they do one good thing. David gets to play hero by saving Max, and suddenly all is forgiven with him???

There's a pretty deep undercurrent of misogyny in Life is Strange that is thankfully absent in True Colors (Go Alex beating the shit out of Mac!). Women and girls are never really afforded the capacity for violence, rather it is something inflicted on them, or a world they are trespassing into that they regret (see Chloe shooting Frank). Why is Warren the character who beats the shit out of Nathan, rather than Chloe who he drugged? And don't even get me started on Rachel's character and how people treat her.

Meanwhile we're expected to overlook everything David has done, the years of hell he inflicted on her, because he managed to save Max after Max and Chloe literally laid it all out for him. Not only is he hilarious incompetent at being a soldier, it's such a fucking unsatisfying way to resolve that situation. Why the shit can't Max get out under her own power? Why can't Max get help from Victoria if she's there in the first place, thus meaning befriending her and being kind to her is actually rewarded instead of needlessly punished?

If I were in charge, the escape from the dark room would have looked like this:

If Victoria is in the dark room and Kate is alive, Victoria helps Max free one hand with the last of her strength, and from there Max is able to free both of them. Using Max's powers, they overpower Jefferson and Kate arrives with the cavalry because Max sent her all the details before they arrived at the party.

If Victoria is present, but Kate is dead, then the two subdue Jefferson and then are left with the difficult decision of leaving him alive or not. Regardless, Victoria volunteers to stay in the dark room while Max heads out into the storm.

If Victoria is not in the dark room, but Kate is alive, she arrives with cops in tow and rescues Max. There is much rejoicing and Kate is proud to have saved Max in turn.

If neither of those are the case, then Max is able to get a hand free and get some of Jefferson's drugs into a syringe. She's not strong enough to overpower him on her own, so instead she goes back into the chair and pretends to be helpless just long enough for Jefferson to get within reach... then she gives him a taste of his own medicine. Once she's free, David arrives, only to find that Max has freed herself and the rest can play out how it did in the game.

Would that have been a lot more work? Yes. Did they have the budget? Probably not. But it would have been much better than what we got.

[perpetually-sad-but-its-fine]

chicago fire 11x11

11x11

make a wish babbyyyyy

i wish for the people in this episode to be happy

i wish for my babies to live

and just

not be traumatized

that's all

oh goodie

this recap

we already love it

so much trauma

and pain

there are only two things in this recap

and im already scared

aw

the herrmann household

we love this start

they're great

i love them

herrman is grumpy dad

cindy and christopher are truly my otp

ik shes just sick

but my mind automatically goes to the worst case scenario

‘i got the kids’

*crash*

‘do you though?’

‘i'll just drop them all of at juvie on the way to work’

cue grumpy!dad!herrmann

we love it

comedy gold

cindy and herrmann are actually my faves

truly

they deserve the best

that's apart of my 11x11 wish

who is this visitor

ohhhh

evan’s cousin

yippee

so much pain

so so much pain

im not prepared at all for this

violet cleaning out evan’s stuff???

absolutely not

no

im not ready

kellyyyyyyy

stellaaaaa

oh god

immediately

i don't like this

waIT

IT SAID JIMMY NICHOLAS IN THE GUEST STARS THING

IS VIOLET GONNA HAVE SOME SORT OF FLASHBACK THING????

I DONT WANNA LOOK ANYTHING UP

IM TOO SCARED

wait

is the guy that plays hawkins jimmy nicholas or nichols?

idk

but

idk

im not ready is all i know

‘two for the price of one’

how humorous gallo

lovely time to make a joke

‘thank you ma’am, step aside’

his polite way of saying ‘shut the fuck up and get out of the way’

thE LIEUTENANTS BEING AMAZING LEADERS

THEYRE SO POWERFUL

I LOVE IT

‘this car might be the only holding this up’

of course

why not

lets just have the most unrealistically dangerous scenario ever

lovely

so lovely

so much danger

kidd and carver

actually working together without being at each other’s necks

i love it

god im too nervous

someone’s gonna get hurt

or something

oh wait

they all got out???

excuse me???

that's the most unrealistic part of this

brO?

STELLA AND CARVER BROMANCE

WE LOVE TO SEE IT

‘hey, we’re all in this together, right?’

sound like high school musical

‘i owe you one carver’

CARVER AND KELLY BROMANCE

‘oh god this is a disaster’

‘but the job is exciting and we really help people’

*stern sylvie looking*

violet my love

thank you

you are amazing

of course her paramedicine program thing is in danger

oH WAIT

THIS IS EMMA ISNT IT

WHY DO I GEEL LIKE ITS EMMA

fireboots under the pillow

gallo and ritter

we love it

‘you know that's a one-man job, right?’

*judgmental look*

‘we're multitasking’

‘mhm’

*disappointed carver look*

peak comedy

oh love the conversation of the squad table

poor carver

its going to be a different person that Schafer isn't it

its gonna be someone that boden hates

‘close the door’

‘good to see you too’

what's the point of this???

what is this conversation

pearce

i dont like you

huH????

VAN METER????

CORRUPT???

THE. FUCK. 

i don't like where this is going

i really don't

why van meter?

man’s chill

like really chill

thank you kelly

god i hate this

why do I feel like this isn't gonna end well

kelly playing fire cop

lovely

pearce i fucking hate you

suck a dick

CINDYYYYY

awww

i hate this

i want them to be happy

but i know that somethings gonna happen to cindy

STELLARIDE

mY LOVES

stella being supportive and trying to find the positive of everything

we love it

violet

what're you doing

good god jacobs

fuck off

i despise you

‘thanks vi’

you call her that one more time

ill gouge your eyes out bitch

I FUCKIN KNEW IT

SHES BEHIND IT ISNT SHE

dodging the question huh jacobs???

ill murder you

ill fucking gut you

god everyone looks really fucking good in their uniform

oh mygod

wait

is this the first time we’re seeing herrmann in his uniform???

EEEKKKK

we love

I FUCKIN KNEW IT

ITS SOMEONE DIFFERENT

kylieeeee

my love

who is this guy

good god

i already hate you

i hate him

did i mention that i don't like him

BRO DIDNT EVEN GO INSIDE

‘its always been dc shafer, what happened?’

‘i don't know’

emma happened

i can feel it

she's the reason for this

fire cop!kelly severide

we love to see it

its great

sylvie and violet

my loves

this'll be fun

OH

paramedicine coming in hot

we love to see it

sylvie takin charge

i love her

she's amazing

SHES SO SWEET

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

SHES AMAZING

‘this isn't even my style’

we love it

THAT SCENE WAS SO HEARTFELT

power couple of the entire one chicago franchise

‘looks like we both got our work cut out for us’

‘mhm’

we love

OH MY GOD

THE APPOINTMENT

WHATS HAPPENING WITH CINDY

oh god

im so nervous

im not handling this well

doc

answer the goddamn question

comE ON

I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO HURT HER

‘doctors drive me crazy, have I told you that before?’

‘only like a gabillion times’

sweethearts

my mother and father who raised me

‘but if she calls me mrs. herrmann one more, she’s getting a knuckle sandwich.’

*proud look from christopher*

oh yippee

the writers didn’t forget about mouch and sylvie working paramedicine together

wow

that's a first

sylvie looKS SO GOOD

VIOLET LOOKS SO G O O D

STELLA LOOKS SO G O O D

gallo’s gonna forget, isn't he

pLEASE

RITTER AND VIOLET MAKING FUN OF HIM

my chaotic besties

i love y'all so much

the looks shared b/w violet and ritter are amazing

oh yippee

severide playing fire cop!!!

van meter???

bro that lowkey scared me

whaT IS THIS CONVERSATION

YOURE NOT SUPPOSED TO TELL HIM

ok but van meter has a point

ms. lawyer saw one picture of the two of them together and thought

‘yes, he is corrupt’

and then moved on

OH MY GOD WAIT

VAN METER’S BEING SET UP

bro

come on

jusT ANSWER THE QUESTION

also

this conversation could have gone a lot better

that's for sure

DOMESTIC STELLARIDE

but crappy conversation

we can't ever see them happy, can we???

AW THEY KISSED

im so fuckin giddy

OH MY GOD

SHES GONNA CLEAN OUT HIS APARTMENT

FUCK

im gonna cry

chicago fire writers take a break from hurting me challenge

S T O P

im begging you

please stop

painnnnnn

oh my goD HIS LAPTOP

its gonna have evidence against emma

i can feel it

poor poor violet

im not strong enough

this lawyer lady is probably dirty

or something

lady

do you want his help or not

i don't like you

no wait

is it peerage who’s dirty????

cleaning time

yay

god, my room is so dirty

I FUCKIN KNEW IT

HE MESSED IT UP

mouch is bailing

loving it

‘last man out, remember?’

‘and im the suck up’

yes gallo

you are

because carver and kidd went through something traumatic together

and you

well youre not great at saying no to people

ritter looking out for gallo

lovely

lady

please keep your comments to a minimum

i don't like you

fuck off

leave

I. DO. NOT. LIKE. YOU.

aw violet

my poor child

AWWWW

STOP

HIS DESKTOP SCREEN

OH MY GOD

i knew it

there would be evidence against emma

I FUCKIN KNEW IT 

please get rid of her

HAWKINGS

my baby

that's why jimmy nicholas was in the guest starts thing

PLEASE GET RID OF JACOBS

KILL HER

PLEASE

oh yay

inspection

boden looks like a proud father

we love it

its not dc watts is it??

I FUCKIN KNEW IT

stella’s face after kylie admits to throwing away the liquor

lovely

arE YOU TELLING ME THAT HE ONLY GIVES GOOD REVIEWS IF HE GETS ALCOHOL?????

bodes questioning look

fantastic

boden looks like he wants to punch something

‘are you stealing liquor from molly’s?’

‘sh’

peak comedy

oh goodie

this is gonna be great

‘how goes the witch hunt’

this'll be fun

LADY SHUT THE FUCK UP

NOBODY LIKES YOU

keep your comments to ZE R O

aw

kelly and vanmeter 

the duo we never knew we needed

VIOLET AND BODEN

THE FATHER DAUGHTER DUO WE LOVE

SUCK IT JACOBS

THEYRE GONNA GET RID OF YOU

fucK YEA

YES

geT R I D OF HE R

VIOLET

i love you

youre amazing

FUCKING HELL YESS

YESSSS

YES

no dammit

i wanted to hear her get fired

oh ew

pearce

i hate you

see

van meter and kelly

they are the ultimate father-son duo

fuck off pearce

i despise you

benny was a shit father

and i hate him too

fuck off pearce

don't do this

you don't know the damage that was caused

oh god

WILL WE FIND OUT WHATS WRONG WITH CINDY????

‘what's that rash that i saw on his neck this morning?’

‘those are hickeys, christopher’

‘what?’

‘he was out with Lana last night.’

‘th-that is horrifying’

*cute cindy snort*

‘wait so they’re just out there mauling each other?’

‘you might be overreacting a bit’

well

herrmann is nothing if not dramatic

clueless herrmann is a national treasure

OH MY GOD

the look on the doctors face

stop

im not ready

oh no

oh noooo

nonononono

shit

what's happening

LUNG CANCER

WHAT????

god fucking dammit

no

‘im the one who’s supposed to get lung cancer’

why must you hurt me like this

goddammit

no

no

herrmann

trying to find a way out

stop

this

cindy’s gentle nodding

STOP HURTING ME

THE TEARS IN HERRMANNS EYES

COME ON

STOP THIS

WHY CANT THEY JUST BE HAPPY

WHY

WHY

WH YYYYYYYY

im hurt

[sw33t-oubliette]

btw i dont rlly know much abt malevolent other than like . the main plot a little bit . can you tell me more abt it

OKAY SO ! cracks my little faggot knuckles (just gonna like summarize the plotline and if you have any further questions send emmm ^_^)

one day an investigator from arkham, arthur lester, wakes up with no memory, no sight, a voice in his head, and his investigation partner's dead body on the floor. arthur and the voice have to work together to figure out why the voice is in arthur's head and where it came from. they piece together that the voice got there after arthur opened a book that had the symbol of shub-niggurath on it. the symbol leads them to the case of amanda cummings, a missing girl.

they go to a library to learn more about shub-niggurath and amanda, and when they get back to the office building, theres police outside. the police are presumably investigating arthur's partner's death. they sneak inside the building, but get in a fight with the janitor and end up strangling him to death, and this is when the voice gains control of arthur's left arm (up to the elbow). they flee the building and go to amanda's house, which shes long since moved out, but someone living there tells them where the cummings family moved.

later on, they accidentally get into the wrong car trying to get to amanda's new house. arthur ends up getting stabbed by the person driving the car, and ends up in a month long coma. they thankfully get to a hospital before this (somehow) and survive. after arthur wakes up, the voice says he wants to be called john doe.

they leave the hospital, and they go to an island. a lot of things happen on this island but all you really need to know is that arthur ends up getting arrested, john and arthur are fighting, and john gains control of arthur's left foot. the cops end up looking around an abandoned ship after arresting them. arthur and john follow them, and one of the cops just like completely loses it. the cop shoots arthur 3 times and he dies, but a wraith that they helped earlier revives him (honestly i dont know what happened there either).

they get away from the island, and arthur falls asleep on the shore. in the morning they find a closed hotel. they break in and find out that its pretty much like a headquarters for the cult of the king in yellow. before this, they only vaguely heard of the cult so this is absolutely huge for them. they pretend to be a member of the cult, and 3 other members lead them down to some test room. they ask them questions that are just exact situations that have happened to them earlier. they basically just figure out that their life is pre-planned through various choices on a piece of paper that one of the members was reading off of.

they take an elevator down and figure out theres a whole cult town under the hotel. they go deeper in the town and get lead to a theatre. they get brought on stage and basically manipulated (by the king's ability to fuck with people's heads) into getting strapped down onto a table. the cult basically shoves the king in yellow into arthur's head, and the king almost takes over arthur's body, but arthur holds on to a memory of faroe too strongly to let go.

this is where its revealed that john is a part of the king in yellow. when the cult of the black goat tried to summon shub-niggurath, the king tried to sneak in, but the portal closed before he could and a part of him got cut off. this part got trapped in a book (the one that arthur read). before arthur read the book, john was stuck in the dark world, basically where everything that dies goes.

they wake up in the dreamlands.

they wake up on a coast. they see a forest in the distance and decide to go there. the forest ends up being some sort of infinitely looping woods, and they have to bite off john's pinky (technically arthur's but its the hand that john has control of) as some sort of sacrifice to feed the forest and to get out. the forest puts a piece of dark wood inside their hand as a replacement pinky.

while theyre in the dreamlands, arthur tells john about faroe. faroe was arthur's daughter who drowned while arthur was busy with something else. throughout the podcast faroe is a sort of figurehead for arthur's grief and symbolizes growth while still remembering your fuck-ups and mistakes.

later on, they end up getting captured by the king in yellow. they get imprisoned for 3 months, where theyre constantly left on the brink of starvation in the king's attempt to wear them down. this is where he cannibalizes that guy. they eventually do escape, and go to a city. this is where they meet kayne.

they find kayne on an empty stage, playing faroe's song. honestly this scene doesnt do much for the plot but i think some of the things he says are interesting so ill just put em here ("stranger" is kayne , he just doesnt have a name til the end of this conversation)

after this, they make their way to a plateau where the barrier between the dreamlands and earth is supposedly thin. on the way, arthur tells john about his parents' deaths. their deaths lead him to get into composing music and poetry.

they make it to the plateau. the king somehow like brings them to his throne room (its not really clear how they get there but theyre there). arthur and the king talk privately (john goes . somewhere else . idk), the king tries to get arthur to give john back. he doesnt.

the king bring john back from wherever he was while they were talking. the king starts breaking arthur's legs to try and manipulate john into willingly going back. this works. john says yes, and arthur slits his throat to try and stop it. he just misses his jugular, john goes back with the king, and arthur gets thrown in the middle of nowhere on earth.

arthur gets thrown in the middle of a snowstorm. he finds a cabin and manages to not die somehow. he makes a deal with kayne (who he summoned by flipping a coin) to get john back, but he wont remember anything, and is essentially just the king again.

he gets john back. evidently, its not the same john though. arthur calls him yellow.

--okay im farther than this (a little into season 3) but ive spent 2 hours on this already and its a good place to end i think . if you have any questions send em in ^_^

[theuniverseawakens347]

The word nigga… comes from niger Africa…( there previous history there I’ll download later) ya racist Americans come to Africa Nelson times make him and ghandi stand differently like Martin and Malcom but say they’re for the same thing …

It’s like parenting .. one has a soft approach the other aggressive “ good cop vs bad cop” SORRY POPOS.. ( poo poo… ya pigs… well take back UR REPUTATION.. ya let it get this far why!? Ya no kno what to do, OKAY I HELP) …

It’s abbreviated ya feel negative and weird hearing it cause YOU HAVE NEGATIVE HISTORY W YA NOT YET HEALED FROM. THERAPY. TRAUMA YA SHUDNT BE HOLDING A GUN… Nelson. ( desk okay good boy … and cauliflower ears … mhmm ya partner* both got things to work on… “issues”)

I digress…

Two different approach fake meet in the middle to seem “unified” … like children THE CITIZENS N PUBLIC PICK UP ON THAT …

YOU ARE A CHILD BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE IN LIFE … and ya go back to roots when ya need protection healing and understanding … requiring rewiring learning.

Sooo niger.. n EYE ger… NEVER HAD A TERM UNTIL RACIST AMERICANS BRAINWASHED CULTURE INTO AMERICA MOSTLY LOUSISANA TEXAS SOUTH STATES THRU “Mexican anex Florida” touching Africa .. FOR SEGREGATION APARTIDE ON TWO LANDS …

So America blacks and Africans mixed TOOK BACK POWER W NIGGA…

A term of endearment.. I see you brother … “this word brought me trauma how can I heel it” … BUT JUST LIKE A RACIST BELITTING SHIT HEAD,

Ya took niggahs and started FIREHOSING ANY BLACK OR DARK SKIN KIN USING THE WORDS TO HARM US …

Again, YA A TERRORIST SLAVE OWNER “oh you’re happy and free I’m still miserable… let me DESTROY ANYTHING THAT MAKES YOU FEEL HAPPY WHICH I THE LACK OF GOOD MORAL THINKING ONE SEES AS YOU BEING POWERFUL AND TRUMPING ME”…

Ya scared hurt lost parent inner child REAPS HAVOC AND NEEDS PARENTING .. ya need healing ..

Ya need dislocate and sit with issues face to face .. bhad bhabbie doctor Phil… but ya want fuck on something or be a complete little shit to ppl who are actually trying to help …

Ya need PSYCHWARD ya got a mental disconnection w neutrons and training for more BAD ONES TO GROW …

And psych wards need to change ya treat ppl like savages and expect them to “get better” but ya don’t really care about that… MOST DOCTORS SHUDNT EVEN BEEN IN THE WARD YA THINK “I’m baby sitting a restarted person no need to do anything but the bare minimum “ .. AGAIN HELLEN KELLER GOLDEN RULE…

Switch shoes. How ya want someone to treat you if you KNEW YOURE NOT CRAZY YA JUST GOT TEMPER YA DONT KNOW HOW TO CONTROL AND LASH OUT MAKES YOU LOOK PSYCHOPATH …

Ya “doctors” and nurses need new case studies on the mental what seems a person mentally ill and WHAT LEVEL ARE THEY…

Charles Manson dahmer to … Harley Quinn, joker , me.

It’s levels in everything, but ya start at child hood assessment to teen years ya get enough knowledge about a person from then on …

But ya issues is … “oh I saw myself in here and COMPLETELY FORGOT IM NOT DIAGNOSING MYSELF ITA MY PATIENT IM HELPING” … which then means ya gon turn ur client into an experiment “I’m too professional to leave my job or scared to ask you questions so I’ll be fickle and get what I want my way w my degree” … instead of saying ya no what..

Like surgeon in ER AND POLICE AND JUDGE .. WHEN LEGAL “ ur family I can’t work so close to ur case”

ITS REASONS FOR THAT HIPPA VIOLATION YA LET YA EMOTIONS GOVERN WHEN YA NOT IN A STEADY PLACE TO DISCIPLINE THEM… Lee

“Fuck if I see myself in these behaviors are the outsiders going to think it’s me I’m talking about when I talk shit about cashay and work soooo damn hard to do dirt in her name… how do I AT ANY MEANS PUSH IT OFF OF ME AND ONTO ANYONE??” …

YOU NEED MENTAL HELP … bc WHY YA COMMITING CRIMES YA NO READY TO DO TIME FOR .. no logic in ur thinking .. ur missing hierarchy of needs… so you murder bc it bring chemical relaxation* and those elements BUT NOT IN A GOOD WAY MISS I KNOW BAD FROM GOOD BUT BAD GETS EASY FIX … ur an addict even if its not drugs … ur creating ur own drug chemicals and imbalacing it as fuck … COW BRAIN WO RAW MEAT …

——

Nothing wrong w excitement FUCK YEAH I THINK LIKE GOD GHANDI BRÜNA .. but are you gloating “such and such would have done … said blah… make me better cause I’m in alignment”

NOT BETTER JUST ON THE RIGHT TRACK TO HELP HEALING GROW UP AND FORWARD AND NOT BACKWARDS … check ya self.

I do my little one two head bob cause I ATE .. meaning I know someone gon like it but ion toot my horn n rub it in ya face … even friendly competition drake ft Chris brown dance …

Okay less twin boys… ya poompoom dance n grey shorts ya sexy Alize by men … no your fault make uncomfortable to dance or be in “less clothes” … especially being telepathic “picking up others thoughts … is this me or someone else”

Ya need vacation alone time sit w you… monks journey ya learn who’s who and what’s what ya twins ya close but share a weird … “grudge” inside might be wrong word but tension ya gotta be alike all the time … Lee industry thinking and Beyoncé “it’ll make you cool but get a little freedom be more you” … but he’s ur filter… filmer.. but phone on ground and dance boys .. girl… spend time alone more often … ya telecommunicate even from far UR ONE PERSON SPLIT … that’s a different topic

[f4y3w00d5]

My ex boyfriend argues like you do . He says something that most people find abhorrent and tries to play devil's advocate because he likes the reaction from people, then acts as though anyone who notices this pattern is some sort of troubled youth who he needs to guide. Just so surprised to see a Tumblr user use the exact same phrasing as him, condescending attitude towards women you haven't met online like it's any better when you do it, why don't you get a lesson in class and do real life charity work instead of playing cyber cop on Tumblr for bad faith groups . You look ugly and you're trying to as well because you're one of those shock jocks who pretends that you can Not See .

Your first point. 'He says something that most people find abhorrent'. I personally do not know your boyfriend, nor do I know whether his points are good or not, but let me tell you this. I have never argued for something that most people find abhorrent. I argue for things that most TERFS, most right wingers most conservatives find abhorrent. Its just your group that does.

And I dont do it for the reaction, I do it because I dont like the injustice. But you of course dont understand this, so I shant waste my time explaining.

also uh. i think im a bit young to be guiding any troubled youths im literally the same age as a troubled youth haha

And i'm the one with a condescending attitude? Someone was telling me during what was both a panic attack and a manic episode on my half that i was an emotional manipulator, and that I should go play minecraft. They, and you, are the ones who come talk to me. They havent met me, yet they accuse me of some really shitty things, i just try and explain to them, although i know its useless.

Cant do a lesson in shit cos lessons cost money and i am. A minor.

List of real life charity work ive done

-Helped the kids at less privileged schools learn to read -Do whats called the 'Eat Up' program where we make food for the less privileged kids who dont have lunch/money to pay for lunch -A program where i plant trees to help bring koalas back

among a few others, and some stuff that i didnt sign up for (helping younger kids adjust to the school/help with homework, same with the interntional students, helping out at the primary school i went to after they got flooded and we were the ones who had to fix the flood damage, blah blah blah), and all of this across the teenage years that have already happened. which uh, is not too much :)

And they arent bad faith groups. They just wanna live their lives without discrimination from people like you.

I know im ugly although i have no clue how youd know, and also. Fuck the societal beauty standards. Also all my friends who insist im pretty ig?

Also. uhm. Your last line

'you're trying to as well because you're one of those shock jocks who pretends that you can Not See .'

What am i trying to? idk what you mean by shock jocks? Why is there random capitilisation? Also i have done proper research to support what i say, which is of course ignored by you lot, so I dont believe i'm the one who cannot see.

In any case, thanks for your message! Not sure why you lot are harrassing a random teen on tumblr who wants everyone to be happy despite it being impossible, but you do you! :)

[ritzcuit]

thinking abt klav dar morality and stuff is so fun to me but it's soooo unsatisfying bc ill NEVER HAVE ANY ANSWER EVER. sigh! and also it's deeply tainted by my own beliefs. SIGH!

i like them being pre-gavinners young and childish and "oh well, clearly, Bad People do Bad Things" a thing they both agree on. very confidently. i like a daryan who like, you'd think he was a delinquent kid, a shitty brat.... but tbh i just don't think it would be the case. i think MAYBE he got in some fights.... but i don't think he was the full blown like, "always in trouble good for nothing no future" esque punk.

i think if he was cool enough to be a delinquent he wouldnt be in the FUCKING GAVINNERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!COUGHS UP BLOOD

i think klavier went into law bc kristoph (obviously) and daryan went into law bc of klavier more or less..

i think of them having really confident discussions on like. well why don't evil people just not be evil. right? "oh clearly something would have to be wrong with you to murder someone." esque beliefs. "normal people can't do something so fucked up." stuff like that...dumb self assured kids. esp klavier, who i don't have interesting thoughts on bc i dont care about him LOL

like they get a little older. and get into law. and it's cool. and fucking awesome. and aging makes them a little less tightass about everything. they get independent they make music they get exposed to the wider world etc.... i think daryan stays looser about it overall, about crime and shit. and then daryan moves to a different division and quits working w klav on cases and blah blah

taking the music as a metaphor for their view on crime probably, how klavier freaking over [the missed cue] whereas daryan insists that it's Not A Big Deal... which, like, for the case specifically, it did turn out to be a big deal, but i'll pretend like it's indicative of their views overall, where daryan's willing to let tiny things slide and where klavier pointedly won't. Bc it's about the principle of the thing.

i think klavier goes back to being a tightass. i think when he was 17 and looking like a little lesbian was probably the Coolest he ever was. idk what happened between then and canon that made him regress into being a kristoph 2 but it's fun to me if something did happen... i just don't care. probably not the disbarring? or i guess it could be. i dont CAREEE about him

all this to say, i really like thinking about a klavier looking back on daryan and wondering [what went wrong], because either something went wrong, or he had always been friends with an Evil Person. and for years he's just never noticed that daryan was Evil and capable of Murder and Covering up and Lying. and stuff.

which of course was a question he was already going through with kristoph, or maybe pointedly *not* going through? daryan is close to him but not as close as kristoph and the crimes weren't so fucking premeditated so it's maybe an easier entry point for this whole thought process for him. "your best friend botched a drug smuggling and snuffed a cop who was gonna rat him out" is a hard pill but not as hard a pill as "whatever the fuck kristoph was up to" NELKNDLKNGFD

And it's fun to think about... him trying to get answers from daryan directly. like tell me are you a bad person? are you? or like, what happened? and when did it change? and how long and why? and it's like. there isn't an answer! daryan doesn't have one! and it's just a shitty thing to ask. as if klavier's shattered sense of comfort is the real issue here and not "daryan is in prison for murder"NELKNDFKLN it's just fun... it's just fun... was it always you? or was it like, the system? who changed you? and daryan's so uncomfortable. and it pisses him off so bad.

i just like it. it's so cutie. two boys who thought they had such a sure view of the world realizing in the most simple of ways that Oh, No, it turns out we're all directly capable of crime in various shades of culpability and evilness can't be cleanly prescribed like that. and it was a deeply flawed and stupid way of viewing the world, especially if the person who told you that in the first place was one of the cruelest people either of you knew up to that point LIKEEE. messyyy lol. it's so cute.

Like like like daryan who already always had an aggressive demeanor and kind of rubbed people the wrong way but klavier always insisted he's an upstanding person and one of the people klavier trusted most ... someone who klavier probably had to defend a lot just in conversation. and it wasn't misplaced? like klavier wasn't lying! being an asshole isn't a crime and doesn't make someone evil. but in hindsight oh it's tainted foreverrrr.

also again the daryan who's watching klavier have this like internal crisis of faith and he's like can you do this elsewhere. Like i'm in prison right now i don't need thinLKNFKLDFNGKNDFG HELP

[the-firebird69]

trump is in court now as trump in five casees soon seven. and you dont get news just his blatehr and his making up stupid things tot alk about. and the public is pissed. now too. and want the news and have to go to the courts the last nail is by him in his coffin. and he says we distract. and oh. dont let thm hear it and are gettig the real thing. tiemely and needed it. and work now and it is true he is torturing the jduge andothers is a huge idiot and mean person.

Thor Freya

ew use this take his light cycles and other. and start up factories and now and ues it and trump is at him and bja found it and is at trump telsl brad to shut it sees trups. and then this he tells you and ok good. then this he saw no. and why. and they tried to set him up again. and relentless wiht him. they nee to stop an wont. we hate them gotta be areason like umass and the attack may hv been one of them. and like seano r what. and they say it ok.

and one day in downtown amerst our son left the bank and made ad eposit and yeh sean was after it tried characters to hide it. and saw him coming out and went to the alley he goes threough and to hide himself. and alks in it says oh its you and wont let him by. and im tring to go home what are you doing. and he says robbing you. i dont havae money saw you with it earlier its in there. go get it. so our son said nope. and he said what. i said no. and you die now no. he went in said there is a man asking for his money he put ini and the cops came and arrested him no. our son hit him. and hard. and he was not expecting it. then kickd him in the head. hard and out. no again and tons of times. and then this. he is out now and yeh it was somoeone else. lol true too. and our son went out the front. and yeh his son no. it was someone he did the business wiht and sean thought it true no. knows. it was tommy f. and when our son hits someone they are burned and you are a new thing dave aka dan no not hard and so on. true too wintesses no not hard enough no damage. and he smirks. dead forever and you toy iwth it and die a lot. and they say this he is dangerous and we dont care tons are now dont care. and they fall now hard fully.

trump disguises as brad and tonss saw it and also cheeseman and to do crimes on light scycles and is exposed. and was doing it earlier. a daughter looks like becka. and trump blamed. and they said this. cant stan it you have lines have to use them and at him he says true. they balk. noope y our infighting chcikens saw it knew it and keep at it shit. catn live in fecal matter they did not laugh tears. he leaves. they say this we have to make it r ight he runs it. and tried nope you won it. hired him no. this isit trump a big baby. and then this we see you and you hate us and canthelp it brad cant. and he says it huge on us where. a shield and stelmo and more skilelt. we are under max uress.and ok we see it. damnit he says it is ee you cannot overcome it it is hard and are siinners by trade so...and we see it cant stop. need at them. a buvver is us then spueo empire and tommy f and from tons of ppl and demons and we see.

they alls ay it now

no this is new

Thor Freya

Olympus

[mental-health-advice]

I wish my father was dead. All he does is yell and scream and I don't have the money to move out even with my job because I'm a full time student who works part time and most of the money I make goes toward medical bills. He has verbally abused me ever since I was 2. I am terrified of him. It's worse because he's a cop and thinks he does nothing wrong. I try to tell him how I feel and he just yells more. He has an incurable and rare brain disorder that causes him pain but I dont care. I'm glad he's in pain because he deserves it. I wish the disease would just kill him. He hates that I'm queer and I so far up trump's ass you wouldn't believe it. I'm a transplant patient and he cares more about him comfort than my health. I hate being at home because he's retired now so he's always home ready to yell at me no matter how hard I try to please him. I wish he'd fucking die.

Hey there,

This sounds like a really difficult to be in.

You mentioned that your father has an incurable and rare brain disorder that causes him pain, I am not sure what he has been diagnosed with and nor am I a doctor, but is it possible that part of his brain disorder is him not having full control over his temper? Even if this is the case though, I know that this doesn’t change anything in regards to you feeling terrified of him, but if this is the case (in regards to his brain disorder) then it may help you to put into perspective that he doesn’t really mean what he is saying? Just a thought!

Being a transplant patient and having to live with an abusive father for whatever reason is never easy and especially as you cannot move out due to most of your finances going towards medical bills. But do you have any close friends you could possibly sleep over at or another family member when your father is being particular abusive (more so than he often is) so that you can have some respite from him? Having a break may be really helpful and will also enable you to look after yourself a bit as well and recharge your batteries.

Although I know personally how easy it is to wish for another person’s death, there are more practical things that you can be doing with your time, for example one idea may be to find some things you can do after work and when you are not busy studying to help keep you out of the house for a bit longer – like joining some kind of group perhaps.

I really hope that this has helped a bit and please do let us know if we can help to support you in any other way!

I’m thinking of you and hope that you are going well!

Take care,

Lauren