#if not that's okay too

[your-mothers-wife]

Alright, fellow ocd-suffer-ers. I've had a thought that's been absolutely hammering away at me for a few weeks, and I need some input for people who go through the same thing.

Alright, so I haven't been diagnosed professionally, but I've done MONTHS of research, and OCD just feels, right, for what I'm going through.

I've had absolutely horrible intrusive thoughts that eat away at me and make me feel like a terrible person, I've recently realized I've been doing mental/physical rituals throughout my life, and last year I was genuinely convinced I was a murderer and was on the verge of running away.

My issue is that recently, my intrusive thoughts have been out of commission for a few weeks. I still get them, yes, but they're not as debilitating as they were. I still find myself doing rituals, but when I do them, I feel like I've just been doing them so I can validate my OCD because of the absence of my intrusive thoughts.

I've read more about it and people have said that they feel their OCD "go away" at times, and I'm wondering if that's what's happening.

But I'm not sure if I've been lying about having OCD this whole time, or if because I've felt what rock bottom feels like, and these feelings just aren't close enough to how I felt back then.

Does anyone understand??

[cravensw0rth-a]

"write me starters"

Maybe be around long enough to actually do any scope of writing whatsoever. Leaving your partners hanging when you ask for things isn't cool. You never reply to anything, why should we keep interacting?

i am not gonna pretend i’m blameless for your frustrations anon, i understand i’m not as active as i “should” be, and i know how frustrating it can be to wait for a reply and see your partner post about wanting interaction, and if i left you waiting i’m sorry. my intent isn’t to hurt you or make you feel ignored, however, you have also made two active choices with writing this: 1) not reaching out to voice your frustrations privately first, this would have allowed us to talk and for me to explain why i haven’t been around, and talk about the fact my blog is labeled low activity / to explain more in depth what that means for me to clear up misunderstandings 2) you have continued following me. following me is optional, and roleplaying is a hobby.

you create the space of your dash and if something i have done or do irritates you thank you for letting me know, but i’m not obligated to reply to things fast, or at all. just like no one is obligated to write me starters if they don’t want. if you feel you’re waiting too long for a reply coming to me privately and asking is an option and is encouraged. i will admit i’m not the best at keeping track of threads and it is something i am actively working on, but we are meant to be roleplay partners, and that requires communication, i am sorry for not reaching out to explain why you’ve had to wait for replies, but i am not the only one who didn’t communicate.

[flame-shadow]

hey did you know??? that if you stop stretching and maintaining mobility in your body then it goes away?? things get tight and you can't move the way that you used to??? and when you decide to try getting a stretch routine going that the first week fucking sucks because you keep going 'damn i used to be able to do this no problem' and then you have to switch gears and be kind to yourself and just focus on getting better from here instead of berating yourself for dropping the good habits in the first place??? and your body never stops aging so you gotta keep taking care of it and sometimes you gotta take care of it extra in certain areas because of things that happened when you were younger and it's boring and sometimes hurts but it's so necessary???

i am yelling this at myself right now i am going through An Experience (trying to get into a routine of body maintenance again for my physical and mental health)

[demaparbat-hp]

He's never happy

[bulldog-butch]

i’m gonna say something controversial yet brave: sexuality labels are a convenient tool we use to define something that is undefinable

[kensatou]

(✿◕‿◕) die (ꈍ ꒳ ꈍ✿)

[aesthetic-uni]

It’s that time of the year again

[rebisrot]

MY FAVORITE PART ABOUT GRAVITY FALLS IS THE HAPPY ENDING!! STAN REMEMBERS!! FIDDLEFORD FORGIVES!! PACIFICA HAS FRIENDS!! SOOS BECOMES MR. MYSTERY!! THE TWINS HAVE A BANGING BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!!! DIPPER GETS A MEMENTO FROM WENDY!! MABEL GETS TO KEEP WADDLES!! STAN AND FORD MAKE UP AND SAIL AWAY ON THE STAN O' WAR II!! THE WORLD ALMOST ENDED!! BUT IT DIDN'T!! AND WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD IT IS!!!!

[canonkiller]

but you can't keep holding on like this.

[artkaninchenbau]

Crocodile finds a strange stray cat an 11-year old Nico Robin (AU where they met 13 years earlier. Robin's been on the run from the World Government for 3 years. Crocodile's 27 and has not set up base in Alabasta yet)

It seems like I have become possessed. By some sort of demon.

Bonus:

[tizzymcwizzy]

this is a poster i made for my call to action assignment in humanities! it's a bunch of basic and easy stretches for people who sit and work at a desk all day (me)

the idea is that you'd put the poster up above ur desk and do the stretches every 30 minutes or so,, the whole routine won't take more than about 6 minutes to complete and when done regularly it can prevent wrist, shoulder, neck and back pain! :)

all these stretches can be done while sitting (although i HIGHLY recommend you stand up and move around while taking a break from working)

you can get a free digital copy of this poster here on my gumroad!

and you can order a print/poster here from my inprnt!

[lemongogo]

life of regret

[mroddmod]

everyone be quiet i'm manifesting

[inkskinned]

having good & true friends will literally save and protect you in a million unfathomable ways. like okay we have written so many times about lovers. but the way a platonic friend laughs and cries with you. the way they hold your hand at 14 years old and at 34. the way they keep a little silver tie to you, touching base over and over and over. how you can go years without talking, only to re-meet and discover: oh shit! you're still cool!

there are people who have been in my life for more than half of it, and i have loved every version of them. do you know how fucking beautiful that is. yeah love will save the world. but the way friends love you is gonna save the you.

[ane-doodles]

RISE FROM THE DEAD DEATH

It turns out that when you're tired and English isn't your first language, "death" and "dead" are basically the same thing.

I also wanted to join in with some cotltober prompt, but we'll see what I can do… late is better than never!

List in Spanish here