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I think the men should love you more it's because in general terms women are gonna get the short end of the stick regardless because of how society is structured. but we can think differently about that
umm why are random men insulting Geno tf???
but you see i enjoy heartache \o/ and anyway, i am wired to prefer being alone than to be with someone im not really that into. i mean ideally it would be equal one day, hahaha (in my dreams)
also im pretty sure its jealousy. i mean you see a girl is crushing on someone like geno, it must be hard to feel like you measure up \o/ (literally and figuratively i mean he's so tall)
#up until the geno sculpture i never really posted about like...crushes on my insta#im pretty sure all my friends considered me just dateless and unromantic like a friendly perpetually single blob#anyway cue geno showing up and all the guys who wanted me to crush on them instead now hate hockey#it probably doesnt help that im not interested in any of these guys for one reason or another#if i was going to marry for money and stability i would have done it back in 2011#why is it that every dude who acts as if them showing off their money and houses and cars means you are more likely to date them#not a single one of them compares to te*xan oil wealth btw like#are any of these guys gonna fly me into nyc for valentines day weekend just to eat at my favorite italian restaurant? no.#there is a VERY high bar to impress me with money and i have never seen it since The Ex#a lot of men pretend that money can disguise their lack of personality#id much rather go for the personality
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What Will Make You Financially Abundant?
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This pick-a-card reading is for my Patreon All Tiers. This pick-a-card reading is all about what will bring financial stability and abundance into your life.
This is a general reading, remember to take what resonates and leave what does not. This reading does not supplement your need to seek professional help. Tarot should be used as entertainment and not a for sure answer to your problems but as a guide, a sense of hope, and amusement.
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What will bring you Financial abundance? Tarot: 4 of Pentacles, Knight of Cups, Strength, 4 of Cups, King of Swords, Ace of Swords
Following your truth. I know you are probably looking for a straight answer like me saying your current career, a sugar daddy, or the lottery but pile l you are what will bring financial abundance to you. A lot of you are constantly sleeping on the many ideas that spirit has given you because you are either too scared to take the leap, don't believe you are good enough, your idea isn't good enough, or you believe it's already been done before. Either way, you are the key to bringing in this abundance into your life by acting on the ideas that come to you no matter how ridiculous or "bland" they may seem. You are basically sleeping on your own potential and what you can bring into your life. Some of you are even hold yourself back by having a scarcity mindset, not believing that you can bring in financial stability or abundance. Stand in your power or for a few of you stand in your purpose that keeps knocking at your door that you keep ignoring because of fear. This reminds me of a pile in my previous reading. I believe it was pile 3 from my "What Do You Still Need to Heal From?" Reading. Wake up. Smell the coffee and get to work. Stop putting off your ideas. Stop ignoring your ideas. Stop ignoring the path that keeps popping up in your life for you to take. This reminds me of the scene from Barbie where she didn't want to find out why she was "malfunctioning" but she had to find out because if she doesn't she would end up like weird Barbie. This is you pile l...if you don't walk the path you were meant to walk, listen to your ideas, and release this scarcity mindset...you will continue to struggle. Patreon Post Link
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What will bring you Financial abundance? Tarot: 10 of Pentacles, Ace of Pentacles, 3 of Cups, 4 of Pentacles, 4 of Cups, 2 of Cups, King of Wands
Sugar Daddy by Qveen Herby is playing in my head as I try to listen for your message pile ll. For some of you this is between a wealthy benefactor or you marrying rich. Especially with the 2 of cups being a card mostly related to romance but it can be used for business opportunities. Another song playing in my head is Finer Things by FEYI. This is my materialistic pile that wants the tips and trips to the island - Money Honey by Lady Gaga. You are all about living a luxurious lifestyle one way or another. You may resonate with wanting a soft life than constantly always being in your masculine energy and bossing everyone around. For some of you, you don't want to work because you believe that you were meant to be some CEO, NFL, NBA, or Tech's spoiled Girlfriend, and others, you want to have the option to work. Maybe you want a small side business like most Trophy Wives living in Beverly Hills where they have a side business to keep them busy instead of always shopping. I can already see you sitting at a cafe, or a spa trip, and international trips with your closest friends. You're surrounded by your spoiled girlfriend friends living the good life sipping champagne while receiving just because gifts from your lover and even push presents for those who want to be a stay-at-home wife. A push present is where you get a gift for your hard work in carrying a child. This pile reminds me of the TLC special that used to run called The Secrets of a Trophy Wife with Jennifer Stano and Layla Milani (I love both of them, especially Layla) her husband absolutely adores her and that's what you want pile ll. (Click the show name for the show trailer of what I was talking about). You want that soft life where you are adored, pampered, and living life of luxury filled with beautiful things and love. Patreon Post Link
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What will bring you Financial abundance? Tarot: The Fool, High Priestess, The Sun, 4 of Wands, 10 of Wands, The Hermit (reversed), 2 of Wands (reversed)
This is more my spiritual, philanthropy, and humanitarian pile. What will bring you financial abundance is walking in your purpose where you were meant to help others in some shape or form. This could be you working in the medical field, being a lawyer, a spiritual guru, life or spiritual coach, tarot reader, dietician/herbalist, whatever it is you were meant to make your abundance by being of service to other people. I feel some of you know this but you don't want to answer the call because of fear or because of the amount of hard work that comes along with doing this kind of thing. Yes it is taxing some days on the soul but overall all this is what you were meant to do, help others. Bring awareness to certain things in life that will get people talking. I don't want any of you to think the list of occupations is only it, it can also be a techer or whatever else occupation where you are making a difference for the future and in others lives. But it is something that will be hard work to the point some days you will question if it worth it because of how much you have to do in order to bring in this success but you will always be reminded in some form that it is definitely worth it and to keep going. Patreon Post Link
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What will bring you Financial abundance? Tarot: Ace of Swords, Ace of Cups, 3 of Pentacles, 7 of Pentacles, 6 of Pentacles, 6 of Swords
This pile is a mixture of walking away from your current job for something better, following a business venture, or even just doing freelancing (Etsy, Fiverr, Upwork, etc). I don't know what you are up to pile lv all I know is that you are unsatisfied with where you are currently because of either a toxic workplace or knowing that you can make more money elsewhere but aren't sure where to start. Here is your sign to leave and go where you are meant to go. Again this is a general reading and everyone has a different job. Leaving your job for a better environment and higher pay is one thing but for most of you I feel you want to open your own business, or just freelance your work or maybe even work from home is what I am hearing for a few of you. Either way, this idea you have is completely doable it just involves you leaving where you are currently at. Some of you aren't scared you just aren't too sure about the future and just need a push to get there while others of you are waiting for a sign or a more solid reason to leave because you listen too much to other people who wouldn't understand why you left because of XYZ and I am here to tell you to just do you. You do not need to answer to other people on why you left a job to pursue something better. Not every wave was meant to be chased or followed and this goes for where you are currently especially since you are miserable where you are now. Patreon Post Link
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König x Unhappily Married Reader pt2
I promised there would be more, and here it is! Part 2 of 5⊠Come on, weâre slow burning, you know they canât bang until at least Part 4 or 5!
It had been another shitty morning. You and your husband hadnât argued; you didnât bother to argue anymore, perhaps the final nail in the coffin of your relationship. It wasnât even worth the effort of arguing, of trying to change things⊠But he had been an asshole, and you had simply taken it. He was looking for his favourite blue checked shirt, and had been unable to find it; somehow, this was your fault. The shirt was the one he wore whenever he had some important work thing going on, or if he was planning to go down the pub after work, which was most nights, now. That was why he couldnât find it, of course, he had only worn it two days ago, and it was still in the wash; you had worked late the last couple of days and not had time. Of course, your husband wasnât capable of putting a wash on himself.
This irritated your husband endlessly. Since you had been promoted, and started making more money than him, he was particularly determined to remind you that your ârealâ job was to keep his house clean, to make his dinners, and to make sure the laundry was done every day. Never mind the fact that you worked longer hours, or that he rarely ate the food you cooked, because he had eaten in the pub, or gone for lunch with workmates, and wasnât hungry. And maybe, once upon a time, you would have enjoyed playing housewife for him⊠But that was a long time ago, when he seemed to appreciate all you did for him, and to respond with kindness, with love, with gratitude. Now, there was no gratitude, no kindness, and more and more, you were sure, no love.
You had cried on the way to work. For a long time you had become numb to the misery in your marriage, and resigned yourself to it. Recently though it had begun to hurt again, as you began to realise that not everyoneâs life was like this, and that maybe, just maybe, yours shouldnât be either. Perhaps it was the promotion that had done it, with the realisation that actually, with the money you earned now, you could manage a fairly comfortable life even without your husbandâs income. Thatâs what you told yourself it was, anyway. Deep down, you knew there was something else. It wasnât about the money - though of course financial freedom and stability were important - it was Colonel König.
You wouldnât admit it, not even to yourself. But the handsome Colonel had awakened something long forgotten in you; desire. You desired him, and more than that, you wanted to be desired by him. It had been years since your husband had so much as looked at you with lust in his eyes, let alone touched you, and sometimes, when you caught the Colonelâs eyes on you, there was a brief flicker of something that reminded you of being wanted. You were probably just imagining it, so touch-starved and craving attention that you projected your own feelings onto the hulking giant of a man, who had never been anything but professional with you. Maybe if you spent less time fantasising about him wanting you, you would understand the reality of the situation; he didnât want you. Nobody did. It was just wishful thinking.
And so, you had dried your tears while you sat in the car outside work, and fixed your running mascara, and told yourself you were being stupid. Your life was fine; you had a decent house, enough money to have a comfortable existence, and a great job. You had a husband, and although things werenât great between you, maybe that was all you deserved. This was probably your own fault, dreaming up stupid fairytale scenarios in which Colonel König was the handsome prince rescuing you from the misery of your real life⊠Of course you were miserable, because you were being so unrealistic. You sniffed, shook your head as if trying to physically remove such idiotic thoughts from your mind, and headed in to the office.
On your desk there was a stack of files, always more to do, no matter how hard you worked. You didnât mind, of course, this was what you were paid for after all, and it made you feel a real sense of achievement every time you reached the bottom of a stack, even if it was immediately replaced by another. You pulled down the first one, opened it up, and filled in what needed filling; it only took a minute, but you couldnât complete this one without the Colonelâs signature. You glanced up at his office, and saw the door was open, as it always is these days. König was sat at his desk, looking at his computer screen. For a moment your eyes lingered on him, caressing his broad shoulders, his broken nose, and scarred jaw. You sighed, a soft little sound, gathered both the file and your courage, and walked over to his office.
Once inside, König smiled up at you, before his expression changed, and he sprang from his seat. He crossed the room to you in a single stride, and surveyed your bloodshot eyes with concern, his own blue eyes narrowing as he examined you. He wasnât stupid, and even with the mascara cleaned from your cheeks, it was obvious to him that you had been crying; how could he not notice, when he spent so much time every day surreptitiously looking at your pretty face? It enraged him to see the evidence of your tears, acid rising in his stomach and his fists clenching. He wanted to shout, to scream, to find who had upset you, and to destroy them; but that wouldnât be professional, would it? And so he squashed down the hatred swirling inside him, and settled instead for simply laying a massive hand on your shoulder, and grunting out a question that he knew the answer to already. He held his hand there a moment, and resisted the urge to cup your soft cheek in his calloused palm.
âEverything okay?â His eyes were glued to yours, staring into you, as if trying to see into your mind, and past whatever excuse you were going to come up with. You shrugged, your eyes dropping from Königâs face, holding the file close to your chest as if using it to hide from him, and looking down at your feet instead. His hand moved from your shoulder, a couple of thick fingers gently placed under your chin, and tilted your face back up to look at him. Königâs expression was a frown of concern, bordering on desperation, as he refused to drop the question. You felt your cheeks heating, the warmth seeming to spread from where his fingertips lay under your chin, through your whole face, even to your ears.
You knew, in that moment, König would not let this go without some explanation, you could see it in his eyes, and realised with shock that maybe you hadnât imagined that look of desire before; he cares about you. For a moment you considered telling him the truth; youâre miserable, you hate your life, your marriage is a sham, and all you want is a man like him to treat you the way you deserve. What would be the point, though? You would look weak, pathetic, and youâd only be embarrassing yourself in front of your superior. Not just your superior, either, a man you actively wanted to see you as more than what you were; no man would desire a snivelling crybaby, whining about her life. You settled for something close to the truth, though without too much detail.
âJust⊠had a disagreement with my husband this morning. Stupid stuff. Itâs nothing.â The taste of the words in your mouth were bitter, and you wished you didnât have to say them, especially âmy husband.â You hated having to claim him, having to admit that he even existed, when he barely seemed to notice that you do. König saw the shame in your face, though you were trying to mask it with a look of nonchalance, shrugging off your sadness with a weak attempt at a smile. The words remind him, though, that you cannot be his, no matter how much he wants you, and his fingers dropped from beneath your chin, as if burned.
âIâm sorry,â he muttered sadly, then tried to lighten the mood with what sounds like a joke, though itâs anything but. âWant me to go and remind him of his manners?â He huffed a laugh, but there was something in his eyes again, almost burning, despite the icy colour of his irises, that made you wonder if he meant it. âNo need,â you smiled with a little huff that was the ghost of a laugh of your own. âItâs not important.â It sounded like you meant the disagreement, but really, itâs your husband that wasnât important. When König was stood in front of you, your husband was nothing. âThe offer is always there, you just have to ask.â König smiled again, a sad little smile, before stepping back from you, and directing his attention to the file in your hand. Still with heated cheeks, you handed it over, waited while he signed it, and with a soft smile of your own, returned to work.
When you had left Königâs office, and returned to your own desk, he sat staring at his screen for a long time, his mind turning the same thought over and over. He would never want to see you hurt, to see you cry⊠but in some sick little way, knowing that your husband had made you unhappy felt like a victory. A little crack in the foundations of your marriage, that offered him the tiniest light of hope. If you were his wife, you would never cry again⊠except maybe with joy, or perhaps, if he could just get the chance, he could bring you to tears with pleasure. His eyes flicked up from the screen, to look over at you at your desk. König grinned when he saw you, holding a pen up to your lips in thought, and staring not at your screen, or down at your paperwork, but across the room and into his office, at him. He grinned even more when you seemed to almost jump in surprise when he caught you staring, and quickly looked down at the file open on your desk.
More than once that day, each of you caught the otherâs eye. At first you were embarrassed, and tried to pretend you hadnât seen him staring, or been caught staring yourself. After the third time though, you stopped being ashamed, and started to find it funny. From that time on, whenever either of you caught one anotherâs glance, you smiled, you even giggled, and König smiled too, at one point winking cheekily with a grin. It was silly, just his way of trying to cheer you up, you were sure⊠It didnât mean anything more. It certainly brightened your work day, and it seemed far too short a time before it was time to leave for the night. When you left, König was still in his office, and you gave him a little wave as you finished packing up. âOffer still stands!â He called from the office, with another wink. You left grinning.
When you went home that night, you didnât even care that your husband was in the pub again. In fact, you were quite glad of it. You spent much of your evening replaying the silly smiles, the glances, the wink, and especially the moment Königâs fingers lingered beneath your chin as he stared down into your eyes. By the time your husband stumbled in later that evening, you were already curled up fast asleep, dreaming of being in your handsome, kind Colonelâs arms.
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Dangerous Stubbornness (Caius Martius Coriolanus x fem! Reader Oneshot)
Summary: Life as wife to Caius Martius Coriolanus has its benefits. You married him for stability, protection, and status- not to mention the delights of his bed. You expect to be no more than his dutiful wife. Yet...it seems perhaps there is something more there then all of that....
From @muddyorbsblr's request of Coriolanus with the trope "he flals first."
Word Count: 2954 (oop, she exploded from a blurb)
Warnings: There is smut, NSFW 18+ please refer to Dick-tionary (rougher sex, dirty talk I stole from Ana Huang's books, doggy style, some light dom/sub, voyeurism), a creepy sexual harasser gets what's coming to him, Caius being a grumpy angy babygirl sharko bite blorbo who actually is soft for his wife and is wrapped around her little finger, Reader uses Caius as scary dog privilege. Attempts at accuracy to Ancient Roman culture and characterization but at the end of the day it's about the wish fulfillment and the vibes. Lots of fluff. Grammar mistakes bc i just want to get. This. Shit. Done after the wild two weeks I've had.
Dick-tionary: Smut starts at "Three little words. That was all he needed." and ends at "You felt his breaths from behind you, his touch gentler against your arm." Use to your discretion.
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You were never afraid of walking through the streets of Rome because your husband walking behind you would scare all who dared to harass you. You would go about the streets, your veil fluttering on your head, smiling bright in the afternoon sunshine. Caius always had a frown and glare in his eyes that dared any fool to try to cross with you.Â
The marriage was purely for status- you were a good woman from a respectable family. Yes, that was probably why it was arranged between your parents! They wanted someone with a good heart and reputation, and Caius only wanted a wife to manage his house and give him children. Why should you say no? Not that you were scared of him at all- for he never once was cruel to you. Perhaps curt and blunt on occasion, proud and stubborn- but he never bullied you. With his famous wealth, you would never go hungry. Heâd be away in battles and you would be alone and be free to do as you wished for months on end. If he died in battle, you figured, the more the better! You would have his money and the freedom of a widow with the respect of his name. Besides, you werenât in love with anyone and never thought any suitors would show interest in you.Â
Such was one walk, early in your betrothal. One fellow had not heard the news or knew who you were and came upon you. Trying to touch you, invite you to dinner or the bathhouses. You kept refusing, he kept insisting.
Then, the braggart leaned over and grabbed your arm.
In about ten seconds flat was Caius, unsheathing his sword, upon the braggart, pulling him by the collar. You shoved him off and ran behind him. The man trembled as if Thanatos stood thundering before him.
âI shall be quick in work and send you to your death-do you understand, villain?â
He nodded, shaking. He already seemed to learn his lesson. You edged forward to your dragon of an intended.
âPlease- donât kill him, there are too many people out watching- just scare him!â you whispered to Caius.
Caius shoved him down. The man shook where he stood and you thought you smelled urine leaking from his bladder.
âIf you ever as much as speak this ladyâs name-I will kill you.â he threatened quietly.
The man, having learned his lesson, mumbled a whimpering âyes, dominaeâ and fled.
Since your marriage, and with your new status as a generalâs wife, such incidents never happened.
As you peered about one stall in the market, admiring the fresh fruits offered, you smiled bright.
âOh, how lovely these berries look! So ripe and fresh! Wouldnât you agree, dear husband?â you asked.
Caius remained frowning, though eyed down the berries. The man selling them looked pale and kept eying the sheathed sword on Caiusâs hip.
âTheyâre fine,â he said. His pride kept him from commenting further on a simple farmerâs wares. But you felt his eyes over your smile seeing them.
Caius lent his coin to buy you some. The trembling farmer scooped up some berries, and popped them into a little bag, and handed it to you. You thanked the farmer and paused to admire them.
You smiled at them, as if they were jewels in your hands. Then you tried a little handful, popping them into your mouth.
âMhm! Theyâre delicious! Thank you, Caius,â you replied.
You leaned up and gave him a peck on the cheek. He blinked, and his shoulders loosened down from the feeling of your lips. You could have sworn a faint pink was on his cheeks as he continued behind you- not that he dared smile or keep his guard down in public.
You thought it would be another ordinary quiet night. But Caius Martius was many things. Quiet and ordinary were neither of them.
At home, you wanted to rest your feet from all the walking today. Your loom was coming along and weaving it felt relaxing. As you sat, you heard footsteps. Turning around, you saw Caius standing there.
You stood up. âHusband? Is something the matter?â
â...noâŠâ he said.
âOhâŠthen, whatâŠwhat brings you here?â you asked.
âI wish only to sit, I haveâŠscrolls to read.â
âThis is, er, not the usual room for a man,â you said, taking note of the loom and embroidery, the flowers from the garden.
âI am going to sit and read. In this room,â he said determinately.
Letting out an exhale, you relented.
âOh- your mother is always right! Your dangerous stubbornness- oh, you are welcome here, Caius, dull as it must be for you compared to a fight with a VolsceâŠâ you teased.
He made no answer. But you sat and weaved. Watching how the lines all came together and became one for the latest project.
Little did you know that his eyes were more on you than on the flimsy scrolls. Seeing your profile and your eyes over the work then the dusty work.
Though as you ate dinner, His eyes were on you, the neckline of your dress, showing your shoulders. Â Your tempa mesa was presented, eaten, and sent away as was the meal. He moved closer, to sit beside you. You felt him move an arm around you. Speaking to you in soft tones.
 As a slave came in to take an empty bowl, you felt him close, he held up a hand. Talking about some silly complaint with the tribunes Brutus and Sicinia. But it was useless- he only wanted to touch your hand, trace it, and bring it to his mouth as his lips ghosted a kiss onto your palm. You took in a sharp breath as he did.
You felt your breaths become shallow and saw his eyes flutter boldly to your chest. He sat beside you, one hand always lying on your thigh.
âWhatâŠis thisâŠ.â
âI only want to enjoy all that is mine- my house, my meal, and my wife.â
With that, he propped you upon his lap as the slave brought more wine. You felt yourself get warm, feeling him on you. SuchâŠintimacy sent your heart aflutter. ThoughâŠafter plates were cleared before he could tighten his arms to hold you, you slid off. He let you, his blue eyes widening.
âIâm going to get ready for bed,â you announced softly.
His hand was still on your skirt. As you walked away, the fabric pulled and then slid lightly off his fingers. His hand is still in the air as if still touching you.
You sat down before the vanity. Making sure your face was washed, you removed the jewelry you had. Smiling at how lovely they were. Gifts he still found to give you even though the wedding was some time ago. Gifts he still would give you.
The slaves were still around. They kept fanned cool air with peacock feathers. Played soft music on harps and little reeds and made sure there was always water for washing and kept about.
The door opened, and your heart beat hard as he got inside. You continued your nightly routine, removing the ring and necklace as well as the belt before you. Getting ready to change- and yetâŠhere he was. A shadow in the corner. He walked up.
âHusband! MyâŠIâm not in trouble?â you asked, slightly teasing.
âNoâŠâ
The servants all shot a look, he gestured at them to stay. To continue their business.
His arms wrapped around you slowly. Then, he laid his head down, looking at you in the mirror.
âButâŠI didnât say I wanted this evening to endâŠâ he breathed, he began to pepper kisses down your neck. His hands running down your arms.
âI said I was going to bedâŠnot to sleepâŠâ you said. Enjoying the teasing and playfulness. How you could still hold this mighty, fearsome warrior like wet clay in your hands.
He whispered into your ear for only you to hear.
âIâm going to burst if I donât have you now.â
You grinned.
âThen have me,â you replied.
Three little words. That was all he needed.
He tore off your veil to where it flew down, fluttering like feathers. He pulled you in and kissed you. You moaned into it. His hands grew bolder, feeling down your sides. You moaned in response as he slid his tongue inside. You pressed yourself next to him, feeling his desire prod against you.
Then he was on you like an animal starved. At once he began to kiss you, cupping your face, keeping a hand on your back to keep you close. You waved a hand through his short, dark blonde hair. His own were going down to feel all over your skin, though his firey kisses never stopped. The man had a craving for you in the bedroom like no other. Not that you complained about it.
You took his hand and led it to your breast to squeeze.
âCaiusâŠyesâŠmoreâŠâ you moaned.
âYou want moreâŠâ he replied.
âYes- give it to meâŠâ you asked.
âAll of itâŠâ
âYesâŠâ
âAnd you will take it?â
You looked into his eyes.
â...yes. I want more. Not like on our wedding night. I want it hard. And rough. I can take it. I will take it.â
At once he threw you upon the bed. Lush with blankets and pillows, rich and comfortable. He walked towards you, eyes filled with lust, his steps slow, his head tilted, but not smiling.
âWhen I take you, I want you to cry out. I want all of Rome, every plebian, every senator, every person, and every animal and god to know you are mine.
He was on you, feeling a hand on your leg and kissing you. You began to grind against him. The servants blushed and looked about, he gestured to them.
âStay,â he ordered them.
They stayed.
âI donât want you dignified. No, wife. Show your loyalty-â he moved his hands through your dress.
âTake off your clothes.â
âIf you want me naked that badly- take them off yourself,â you dared.
He obliged.
You let a sound as he roughly reached into your dress and shoved down the sleeves. You began to let a sound, a gasp as it broke open. It nearly ripped it. Shaking, you helped remove his own clothes still on him. Amazed at though his chest was filled with those dark, bloodied scars, the muscles still on them.Â
He smiled.
âSuch a tongue youâve grown to have on you, delicae,â he said
The music of the slaves continued, as did their fans. Though you could feel their eyes.
 Now you were naked in his room, feeling his hands explore all over you, one squeezing your breast as the other spread around your back, wrapping you in, fingers into your skin as if to mark you.
âThen shouldnât I be punished?â you asked coyly.
He smirked as looked at you. Then he let the last of his clothes fall. Showing his impressive thighs and impressive cock so hard it dripped against his stomach,
âIt was everything in me not to take you at that tableâŠthen weâll make up for itâŠâ
He half threw you to the study part of the room. There sat a desk.
âLean over that desk.â
You obliged, heart beating hard.
âSpead your legs,â he ordered.
You opened your two shaking legs, your wet sex glistening before him.
âPut your hands on the edge,â he ordered in a rasp.
Two shaking hands of yours gripped the edge. He laid your hips up. Then thrust into you at once. You let out a sound. Then roughly, he began to take you. Pounding in, his large cock straining inside you. You let out a sound.
âYes- yes keep that- you are- youâre mine, youâre mine now- now-say it-say. it.â
âIâmâ you cried between his thrusts. âIâm-Iâm-your-yours-you- gods!âÂ
He pounded into you with a fury. His own groaning increasing. It was so filthy, so depraved, and you loved it. You had to grip the edge tightly as he pounded into you. Grunting like an animal.Â
The music from the slaves continued, as did the footsteps from their business. Harps continued on as Caius took you like a whore. You could feel them still watching everything. Wondering if they were frightened, aroused, amazed, disgusted, or all four at once.Â
He began to growl to you between pounding you.
âSo you-âÂ
thrust.
 â-never-âÂ
thrustÂ
â-forget-âÂ
He pulled you up by your shoulder to your ear. His voice right next to it, his cock and his voice overtaking you.
âYou-âÂ
thrustÂ
â-are-âÂ
thrustÂ
â-my-âÂ
thrustÂ
â-wife.â
He reached a hand, finding your opening between your legs. The bud inside you, swollen and needy and overcome. One large finger began to strum it and you let out a whimper feeling it. His large, long fingers could already play it so easily. He let you down, and you were gripping tight to keep from losing it all. You werenât going to last long at this rate.
âCaius! Caius please-please-Caius-â
It was already crawling up, the desk thudded loudly, perhaps breaking if it werenât so thick and sturdy. The slaves would know he was yours and you were his. That only he and you could bring each other this.
âYes- cum, dammit, wife- cum for me, cum- just cum, cum with me-â
âCaius-caius! I- Caius-caiuscaiuscaiuscaius-â you repeated, feeling it break. Your voice gets higher until you let out a noise, as your climax hits you.
Then with a shout from him, the seed shot forth inside you. You moaned as you panted, catching your breath. He steadily pulled out.Â
You felt his breaths from behind you, his touch gentler against your arm. One wrapped around you for protection.Â
âGet her something to drink now!â he barked at the servants.
They nodded their heads and ran off. Caius with one swoop got you into his arms. You felt your breath light, almost dizzy with joy- he hadnât done that since your wedding when he brought you to this house. You could still feel his strong arms supporting you so easily. He carried you over to the bed, settling you amongst the blankets. One slave brought a cup of your drink, and you sipped at it with both hands. He made sure a blanket was draped over you for a bit of modesty.
âWhat kindnessâŠI never would have guessed you would have kindness in youâŠâ you remarked.
âIâŠwant to be honorableâŠâ he said quietly.
He waved a hand, and the flushed slaves left, Granting you privacy at last. You saw Caius look at you, then glance down like a shy maiden.
This wasnât like him.
âWhat is it?â you asked.
âWhat is what?â he asked.
âYou and your dangerous stubborness! Well I have some in me too. You have enjoyed me. And you wish to speak of something, I can feel it. You can tell me. Is there something you want of me? A son? Iâm sure at this rate, youâll have oneâŠâ you urged, a hand consciously at your belly.
Caius tilted his head again, his hand moving you away from yours. But touching it softly.Â
âItâŠisnât that. What I haveâŠyou must think it isnât for a man to say aloud,â he said
âBut you must say it! Is something wrong? Are you ill? Is your mother ill? What did Menenius try to weasel you to do? Where are they sending you now!? Caius, Why not-â
He quickly got up and cupped your face. He spoke quick, plain, and to the point.
âI love you.â
You paused your breath tight and the room spinning
âYouâŠlove me?â
âWhy did I ask my mother to arrange us married?â
It struck you.
âI wasâŠam a virtuous daughter of a respectable family-â
He looked into your eyes.
âIâve loved you the day I met you. I wanted to have you as my wife or no one. I couldnât resist you if Diana herself ordered me to.â
Struck silent, you saw his face soften. The orange glow of the candlelight making him that more beautiful.Â
âWhenâŠwhen did you know for sureâŠdid Eros really strike the moment you saw me â
âIâŠI remember it was- it was the race for the senate. All the crowd gathered to see me speak, to see the consul. I tried to ignore you there, and I could not. I was in denial all that time. But seeing you-when you looked at me, and smiled, I forgot it all. I didnât want the seat. I wanted you. Honestly, I donât know when it happened. But it did. And yet- all at once I-I-â
He paused.
âMaybe it was when we were betrothed. Maybe I walked with you to the markets. Or when I saw you there. Maybe it was every dull dinner and banquet I had to attend, that I still went, hoping to see you. To just see youâŠâ
He caught himself.
âBut noâŠI think most of allâŠit was each time I spoke to you. And you knew of meâŠ.and now âŠâ
He touched your hand and you brought it to your lips, kissing it tenderly. You almost saw a tear drop despite the stillness of his face.
âI know what I am. And I thought you should hate me. Beyond whatever duty you may feel to me as your husband-â
âCaius, I donât hate you. Not at all.â
âThenâŠcould you-â
âI could learn to love you, and choose to love you, Caius.â
You pulled your face to his and kissed him. Then you tucked yourself into him, embracing him as you both lay on the bed. Not just as husband and wife, but as two people deeply in love.
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What do you see happening to Harry when the inevitable divorce happens? The kids will be in the US so he can't really move to the UK. Though he doesn't seem that attached to them considering how much he travels and is away from them. Would he be set up in the UK if he did return? What is there to be done with him? He can't return as an official working royal even if Charles refuses to remove him from the website. He obviously needs someone to babysit him so he can't just be let left alone. Would he just play polo until he's too old? I wonder if the BRF actually have a plan if he was to return because I can't think what they'd do with him.
Ask from August 3rd
There are three and a half options for Harry post-divorce if it should happen.
Option 1: if Meghan gets custody of the kids and keeps them in the US, heâll stay in the US, probably remaining in the LA area or moving up to his corporate BetterUp apartment in San Francisco and commuting down to LA when itâs his custody time. There is a chance he could move to New York since the East Coast is more âold moneyâ and he probably fits in better, society-wise, there (but I think itâs a very low chance). Harry will continue being the BetterUp mascot and travel all over the world playing polo and ârunningâ Invictus Games. Heâll be like a Vince Vaughn/Jon Hamm-type character (perpetual bachelor, kinda dickish but without the charm), still very much living with PTSD, and the kind of weekend dad whoâs all fun and games so Meghan/the nannies will always be the bad guys.
Harry will probably trauma-bond to the first woman that can get her claws in him and itâll probably be another Meghan/Durek-type (holistic, new agey, controlling). I donât think theyâll marry because Meghan will make their lives a living hell being that close. (But good news, Meghan will probably move her target from Kate to the new girlfriend.)
Option 1B: If by some miracle Harry gets out of California and moves someplace else in the US - like to NYC/northeast, Texas, or Jackson Hole, then he might not be as dickish and might actually level out from all the mental health trauma Meghan put him through. The risk is still high for him to be with a new agey/holistic woman but sheâs probably be more of a Shannon Beador-type (from Real Housewives of Orange County; well-meaning but kinda nutty) than a charlatan grifter-type and I can see her influence being calmer and more stabilizing on Harry, perhaps even to the point that he stops the constant PR blitz and just lives his life. If this is what happens, then thereâs a good chance that Charles and Eugenie could reach out and relations with the BRF thaw out to the point that Harry can see people when he goes to the UK for âworkâ instead of getting the door slammed in his face.
Option 2: If Harry gets custody of the kids or the kids go to a UK boarding school, heâll go back to the UK and be welcomed back in on the family side. No royal work and no public engagements/appearances unless the entire BRF is there (eg, like the Platinum Jubilee service) or itâs exclusively a private family event (like the Easter and Christmas walks). King Charles will throw Harry a bone every once in a while by supporting Invictus Games. His mental health will be addressed and Harry will probably begin healing from all this trauma so he may not be dickish at all, just his usual entitled prince self which someone, probably younger and blonder, will eventually find charming and sheâll âtake overâ Harry for the BRF in return for a cushy paid-for life (allegedly this is what they offered Meghan but Meghan wasnât aware of how bad Harryâs mental health was and kept demanding more and more money to stay).
Since it sounds like Harry is pivoting again to the Spencers, heâll probably settle close to them near Althorp (otherwise King Charles will probably buy a lease for him at/around Highgrove House since William never goes there). Maybe Earl Spencer will take pity and give Harry a small cottage house on the Althorp estate (if there are any).
William might thaw out eventually but their relationship will never be the same and Harry wonât ever be back in the Walesesâ inner circle, and of course, it will depend on whether Harry continues all of his PR. (If Harry continues PR and continues using William for PR, thereâs no thawing but if Harry shuts up and stops talking to press, he has a chance of William acknowledging he exists.)
Option 3: Harry moves to Africa or someplace else in the Commonwealth, regardless of custody rulings. Probably the best option for Harry. He just needs to get far, far away from the press, Meghan, and the BRF as possible, reset, and start over. King Charles will take care of/pay for everything. King William will probably continue supporting Harry in this case since it keeps him away from the UK but again, the issue is PR. If Harry stops talking to the press, then his chances with William are better. If he keeps talking to the press, he keeps running PR stories about olive branches or the good old days or wanting to come back, then nothing will change.
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((So, long awaited life update on why I haven't really been around in the last couple months:
I've been working full time all year when I was only supposed to be doing part time- this is fine, though, because the extra money is good and my sister and I finally booked a trip for next summer that we've been trying to save money for for 8 or 9 years, so that's great! But that does mean that I have a little less time than anticipated, and as a night owl who now has to be used to being up between 5:30 and 6 in the morning to get ready for work, that adjustment hasn't been easy ^^; But it's been made even LESS easy by the fact that about a month ago we took in a tiny kitten who was crying underneath our house. We named him Remy (after the one and only Remy LeBeau <3) and I love him dearly... but kittens are also a lot of work because they get into EVERYTHING. And they're so small that they can fit in small spaces that you didn't expect. On top of that, he's had to be quarantined since we got him because he still hasn't been tested for FIV (he had an appointment for his shots and a check up at the beginning of the month and my sister was supposed to ask them to test for FIV while she was there but she didn't... so now he has to wait until I take him next Tuesday for his second round of shots and see if they can do it while he's there THIS time). Being quarantined has meant we've had to keep him in one room at all times (which is what we would have done, anyway, while he's this little- it also allows for slower meetings of the older cats which will help them possibly get along better when they're finally around one another more). We will also be getting another kitten if he tests negative for FIV because it's not good to have just one kitten under 6 months, even with older cats around (there's something called "Only Kitten Syndrome" and it can lead to a lot of behavioral issues). Anyway- because of watching him, I've been only getting 4 or 5 hours of sleep a night every night for a month and it's running me a bit ragged ^^; Then there's the worse stuff (tw: death, cancer, for those who want to avoid those and stop here): Early last month my grandmother passed away pretty unexpectedly after a week or two in the hospital recovering from a fall. Come to find out she'd had a stroke (and had been having a lot of mini ones that she didn't know were strokes and kept playing off as just "old age") and every time they stabilized her, she got bad again soon after. There was no funeral or anything, which somehow feels worse and has consistently given me this weird feeling of "did this really happen or not?" because I didn't even get a chance to see her in the hospital before she passed. My father also had a bunch of polyps removed from his intestines over the summer and the largest one came back testing positive for cancer. They just this week ran more tests and, thankfully, they cancer hasn't spread to his heart or lungs, but they DO need to do a pretty big surgery to remove a piece of his intestine very near to his colon which is a risky procedure because patients are more likely to bleed out when the surgery is done in that area. After the surgery, he'll be in the hospital for a few days to recover and for them to keep an eye on him, and then he'll have 6 weeks in which he can't really do anything except rest because he'll risk injuring himself and/or internal bleeding. Last week, my aunt's partner (they weren't married, but they had been together for 7 or so years) passed away and, while that didn't have a big impact on me (because I didn't know him well), it was still rough on her and some other family members, so that was also... not great.
But, yeah. It's been a rough couple of months and I'm very, very, tired. I do want to come back because I miss writing Rogue, but it's gonna be a little bit longer, especially with all the things going on with my dad. Thank you all for your patience and understanding in the mean time <3))
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The Space Cowboy and his Ladybug - CHAPTER 1
Javier Peña x reader
Summary: As you return to your hometown of Laredo, Texas after more than a decade away, you can't help but feel a strange mix of excitement and trepidation. You're here with your new husband, Steven, a successful lawyer from Austin, and you're not quite sure how he'll handle the slower pace of life in this small town. You left Laredo as a teenager, fleeing an abusive father and a painful falling out with your childhood best friend. But will this place ever feel like home again? Can the wounds of the past really be healed, or are they just scars that never fully fade away?
Words: 1,3K
Warnings: angst, trust issues, violence, brief mention of past domestic abuse (mentally and physically), insecurity, references to suicide attempt, smut, TRAUMA, not proof read
A/N: hiiii beautiful people! This is my first ever fic. Please tell me what you think and what I should change. Basically just write anything that's going on in that pretty head of yours. Ideas, comments, critic everything is appreciated. Have a nice day and enjoyyyyy
You can feel your heart racing as the car approaches your small hometown of Laredo, Texas, with your new husband Steven by your side. The landscape is beautiful, with lush greenery and rolling hills that are a stark contrast to the concrete jungle you are used to. As you drive through the town, you feel a sense of familiarity wash over you. The small houses and local businesses reminding you of your childhood, and the community feels warm and welcoming. âYou ok, babe?â Steven asked, barely looking at you.Â
You met Steven through a mutual friend at a networking event in the city. He was successful, charming, and swept you off your feet with his lavish lifestyle. You started dating and soon got married after a whirlwind romance. He gave you the stability that lacked in your childhood. The love and support you missed out on and frankly you were done being alone and miserable. He was at the right time at the right place.
But as time went by, you realized that your lifestyles and priorities were vastly different. Steven was always too busy with work, and when you did spend time together, it was usually at high-end restaurants or events that felt superficial and lacked depth. You longed for a deeper connection and more meaningful experiences that were more in line with your values. Austin was great, just not for you.. It never felt like home, in fact your home did not even feel like home and nothing ever felt like home since you left Chuchoâs farm over 10 years ago.
Thatâs why you were here, back in Laredo, a place you swore you would never set a foot on again.Â
Memories flood back to you as you drive past familiar landmarks. âYeah, I think I am okay.â You reply while opening the window feeling the light texan summer breeze.
You close your eyes and take a deep breath, feeling the warmth of the sun on your face and the sweet scent of vanilla wafting from the small corner store. You can hear the sounds of children laughing and playing in the distance, but it's the sound of your best friend's laughter that makes your heart sing. It's your weekly ritual, saving up your allowance money to buy ice cream from the store. As you walk towards the store, your excitement grows with each step. You can't wait to spend the day talking and laughing with your best friend. As you sit on the curb, licking your ice cream cones, you share your dreams and aspirations for the future. You talk about the places you want to travel to and the adventures you want to have.
â I will be the best astronaut in outer space. And everybody will love me because I will catch all the bad guys and bad aliens with my lasso!â your best friends raises his chocolate ice cream cone above his head signalizing his victory. âJavi, so you will be an astronaut and a cowboy? Thats not even possible.â You laugh wiping away a little drop of chocolate ice cream that landed on his forehead. âA space cowboy, dummy! I will be the first one and therefor the best! Donât laugh at me.â âOK OK but lets go home space cowboy or else Chucho Is going to really send you to the moon. Itâs getting dark already. Come on. Last one pays for the ice cream tomorrow!â
â-are you even listening to me?â Steven looks at you with raised eyebrows. âOh no sorry. What were you saying. I was thinking of something.â You havenât even noticed Steven was talking to you, too caught up in your memories. âJust 10 more minutes. And please close the window. You are letting the heat in and the AC is on.â You nod and close the window. You take another deep breath and try to push the memories of Laredo out of your mind. You know that the town holds both good and bad memories for you, but lately, the bad ones seem to be creeping to the forefront of your thoughts. Even the good memories hurt. You've been trying to stay positive since returning to Laredo with your new husband.
You want to make a fresh start and create new memories in the town that holds so much history for you. But it's difficult when every corner seems to hold a reminder of your past. You find yourself walking on eggshells, trying not to trigger any negative memories or emotions. You don't want Steven to see you in a vulnerable state. You trust him, he is your husband you are supposed to, right? But lately he is being more distant and if you really honest with yourself you never let him get to know you the real you. Always too scared to scare him off and share too much of your true self. With Steve always being at work or on business trips you try to keep busy with your own projects and hobbies, but there's only so much distraction you can find. Thats how it always been. You live in a big house in a big, beautiful house in Austin, surrounded by all the material possessions and friends you've accumulated over the years, and yet, you just couldnât shake off the feeling of emptiness inside.
You've been feeling this way for so long, and it's getting harder to ignore. You've built this life that many would envy, but you canât help but feel alone and disconnected. Of course youâve tried to talk to Steven about it, but every time you bring up the topic, he brushes it off, saying that you're just overthinking things. You know he means well, but his lack of understanding and concern only makes you feel more isolated. So with time you just dropped the topic all together and returned to this persona you created once you left Laredo. This strong, fearless persona who didnât miss her life, who could punch back and was not scared of anybody and who never suffered a heartbreak. She was everything you wished to be and so you suppressed every bad feeling, every longing and just pretended. Deep down, you know that you need to confront your past and deal with the emotions that come with it. But it's scary to face the pain and trauma that you've been trying to forget for so long. You're not sure if you're ready to open that door and relive those memories. You've become a master at pretending to be happy, putting on a smile for the outside world while masking your true feelings. You don't want to burden your friends with your problems, so you keep up the facade of having it all together. But sometimes, it feels like you're suffocating under the weight of your emotions.
You and Steven pull up to your old childhood home in Laredo. As you step out of the car and take in the sight of the old, run-down property, a sense of nostalgia washes over you.
"Well, it's certainly a fixer-upper," Steven remarks, eyeing the peeling paint and sagging roof.
You smile, feeling a sense of excitement and determination. Renovating this old house is a challenge, but it's also a chance to create something beautiful and new.As you settle into the house, you begin to envision the possibilities. Fresh paint, new floors, a modern kitchen, and updated bathrooms. It's going to be a lot of work, but you're ready for it.
Steven suggests calling in some contractors to help with the renovations, but you shake your head. "I want to do this ourselves, to really make it our own."Steven looks at you with a mix of admiration and concern. "Are you sure? It's going to be a lot of work, and we have busy schedules."
You nod, feeling a sense of determination. "I'm sure. We can do this together."
As the conversation turns to the logistics of the renovation, you can't help but feel a sense of excitement for the possibilities that lie ahead. Maybe this project is the first step towards creating a new chapter in your life, one where you can reclaim the parts of yourself that you left behind in Laredo.
Part 2
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Washington D.C. Mayor Muriel Bowser distributed thousands of dollars to low-income moms with no strings attached as part of an "equitable economic recovery strategy" to offset the costs of childcare. In at least one case, the taxpayer dollars were used to fund a lavish trip to Miami.Â
The direct cash payments were part of a pilot program to determine whether the flush of cash could demonstrate "economic improvements among participants." "Additional cash has allowed women to achieve further financial stability, financial security, food security, and health insurance coverage," Bowser's office had claimed.
But an economic policy expert told Fox News Digital the policies were a misdirection of funds that should otherwise be used for public safety and education.Â
All 132 mothers who participated in the program were able to choose whether to receive monthly payments of $900 or to get $10,800 in a lump sum, which was "a unique feature of D.C.âs pilot," according to The Washington Post.Â
"Quite often these handouts actually trap people in a cycle of poverty," Joel Griffith, an economic research fellow at The Heritage Foundation, told Fox News Digital. "This is not helping people build long-term wealth and to have long-term economic prosperity."
One recipient â Canethia Miller â told The Post that she took the money and spent most of it on a lavish trip to Miami.Â
"Some of it I just left alone. The other side is, I wanted to blow it. I wanted to have fun," Miller said. "[My kids] got to experience something I would never have been able to do if I didnât have that money."
Miller blew it on a "five-day, $6,000 trip to Miami," which included "a boat tour [that] exposed them to million-dollar homes and luxury yachts."Â
"In what she called a rare moment of self-indulgence, Miller spent $180 ahead of the vacation to get her own hair and nails done," The Post reported. She also took her kids shopping and got them new outfits and toys for the trip.
Griffith said that the D.C. mayor would have been better off spending money on reducing crime.
"Spending money on what effectively is a lotto for city residents is the wrong thing to be doing. I think what parents want, whether single moms, single dads or married couples, is a safe city," he added. "What the mayor could do is take these resources that they're going to be distributing randomly to single moms. And you could hire, by my calculations, 25 full-time police officers. That would go a long way in some of these neighborhoods where you can't even walk safely at night."Â
In January 2022, Democratic Mayor Bowser allocated $1.5 million to a direct cash transfer pilot program called "Strong Families, Strong Future DC" that was intended "toâŻsupport maternal health and advance economic mobility."Â
"This program is about supporting new and expectant moms with cash so that they can have the autonomy and flexibility to make the best choices for them and their baby," Bowser said.Â
The Strong Families, Strong Future DC pilot was at "the heart of our equitable economic recovery strategy," Bowser added.
But some of the issues arose when the mothers were uncertain about how to spend the cash.
Building generational wealth generally requires a solid educational background, which in D.C. is lackluster, Griffith said.Â
"[As a resident of D.C.], you're likely to graduate with a subpar education. And we're talking about sometimes an inability to do basic math and basic reading comprehension. And those are the core skills that in a work ethic that allow people to succeed in this country, even if they don't come from a wealthy family," he added.Â
Miller seemed to share a similar sentiment when she told The Post, "A lot of communities in my area donât know the financial gain of credit, saving for your kids; thatâs why weâre broke, thatâs why we donât have nothing to pass down or no house to give down. Iâm trying to get to the level where Iâm passing something down that really matters, so I can be set and my kids can be set, and they donât need to push so hard like Iâm doing now."
Altogether, Miller saved $50 from the program.
"She opened up a savings account, aiming to keep at least $50 in it. She used the remaining $4,000 or so from the pilot in a matter of months, mostly on bills and a used car," The Washington Post reported.
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Nat-san (@quiveringdeer) and I were talking about this scenario. So. As requested, I am posting this here. But this is seriously the first time I'm doing something like this, so I do hope I do this justice, and for whoever reads it to find some enjoyment in it.
Afternoon gets a bit boring when your husband wasn't around. But what can you do? You're new to this wife business and as much as you want to spend as much time as possible with him, you can't. How could you when he was a man of particular importance? The war was over, sure, but the army and the military weren't going away which meant that your husbandâ former Vice Chief, now appointed a rank higherâ wasn't all yours for the taking.
Sometimes, you wonder who he was REALLY married to. Was he married to you, or was he married to Marley instead⊠with you being some mistress that he went home to so very late into the night; like you were the secret.
"Aren't you worried that he's spending too much time at the base? What if it's not work? What if someone has him intertwined around their little pinky?" A concerned friend asked you. It's not always that you ask her to drop by. After all, she was not from Marley. You could only ever ask Hitch to visit when she was in town AFTER she's done with her own series of work. You were just so lucky, weren't you? Every one of your friends just had to be from one form of military to the next. Still, you can't help but want the company. There were just some days when you felt a little lonely, a little frustrated even, when you know that Reiner won't be coming home early because Marley comes first.
It's not as if you don't understand why he does what he does either. Keeping Marley safe meant keeping you safe, and with those little details inserted into the equation, your husband was even more eager and zealous about Marley's stability as a nation. He no longer has the Armor, but that doesn't mean that he can no longer protect his homeland. He was a warrior and a soldier. He's equipped with enough knowledge, training, and experiences to make things work.
"That'd be easier to remedy if that's the case." You started, shrugging your shoulders whilst leaning back against the wooden chair. You threw your head back, eyes fixed on the ceiling. A small pout etching itself on your features.
"So, what you're saying is it's fine if he has a lover?" She continued to interrogate, her honeyed tone of voice taunting. A digit pressed itself upon your cheek and all you could do was swat away at Hitch's hand.
"Absolutely not. What I'm saying is, I don't even need to be worrying about others when I'm already losing to his duties as War Chief. And I'm telling you, Hitch, at the rate that Reiner's going, he won't have eyes for any other man or womanâ me included." She could hear the frustration in your voice, and couldn't help but laugh a bit. Who knew that your man of choice would be Mr. Boring. That Reiner guy, the one who wrote Annie the dullest letters.
"He sounds as soul-crushingly boring as ever." She says, this time, taking hold of her cup to take a sip of the tea that you've prepared prior.
"It's not like that, he's just really busy. Besides," You reasoned, pausing a while as you folded your arms over your chest.
"Besides?" The curiosity took over your companion for a bit, mildly eager to hear what you had to say to defend your workaholic partner.
"Besides, it's not like I can strangle his paperwork. And if I shred them, he'll get mad at meâŠ" Again. You noted; Hitch raising a brow at you, a silent way of asking if you've actually done it. Which you have; something that she picked up on when you looked away guilty as a criminal. It took a few seconds for the woman beside you to burst into a healthy fit of laughter. Oh the way she would have paid good money to see his reaction to that.
"It's not funny! He really got mad at me; you know!" And yet, the crimson that painted your cheeks hardly seemed like an indication of what's usually supposed to be disappointment. "Well, if he was really mad, how come you look so flustered, hmn~? Are you skimping out on some juicy tidbit? Come on, you can tell me~"
"I-I'm not. It's just thatâŠ"
And you trail off, murmuring unintelligible words as you try to force the memory back, and failing in the process.
You remembered it so clearly. Your husband's hulking frame before you, looking at you as if you were some sort of miscreant. The War Chief looked like he was waiting for something, an explanation that he couldn't wedge out of you because you were being childish. More or less however, he was aware of your crimes because he caught you red handed.
"Do you know what you've done?" His voice was stern, disappointment dripping from his mouth like venom from a viper's fang.
"I was getting rid of competition." You clicked your tongue then, arms folded, eyes cast to the side and pouting like a brat. You were a little younger than him, but he didn't expect you to act like a child. Granted that on most occasions, he found that charming, but this time was different. There was no reason for you to have ripped his documents to shreds. No matter what reason you had, that was something that you shouldn't have done; and an act that he couldn't exactly condone. Sighing, he pinched the bridge of his nose, one hand massaging his temple. How was he even going to explain this to the brass? "I hope you know that those were logistics reports, maps to supply routes, as well as an analysis for the next mission. I can pretty much draft everything else, but how do you expect me to go to base tomorrow without those maps? You've gone a little too far with this one."
"Tell them your wife ate it." The spite that was seething from your lips made him furrow his brow. Perhaps it was his fault because he's been working nonstop lately, but he's explained this to you time and time again. He knows that you're smart, that you and him have an understanding, but this was just a little too much, even for you. And this bratty answer, you weren't 12 years old to be saying things like this.
"What are you? A dog?" He asked sarcastically, gathering new sheets of paper from his desk in order to draft new reports while there was still time. "With the way that you're being pretty difficult lately, I should eat you instead." A thoughtless remark, for sure.
"Do you even have the time to do that? You're so busy flirting with your work, that I think I prefer you taking whiffs of Historia's letters instead." You said, also rather thoughtlessly. This made him look up from his drafts. The stare he gave you was absolutely indignant. You were really doing this right now, weren't you?
"Hey, I stopped doing that a long while ago. Now, I only do that to your letters." Reiner attempted at a taunt, maybe that would get you to back down.
"You could be doing that to things other than letters, but of course, you don't have the time." Your answer definitely made him believe that this was all his fault. Him always letting this rebellious attitude of yours slide. A part of him found your jealousy for the mundane adorable, and he loved you for it, but sometimes you also really got on his nerves. And when you do, when you're visibly annoyed at him and making that face⊠pouting, it makes him want to forget what he's doing and indulge in you. Maybe play your game, put you in your place. Wreck you a bit.
"Are you really challenging me right now?" And when he thought about putting you in place, it was to remind you that you were his top priority even if he's showing it through this obsessive means of insuring you a safe future.
"Sir, with all due respect." There wasn't even a shred of respect in your tone. "If the boot fits, lace it up." Your reply was cheeky and defiant. And he didn't have any words for that in that instant. How that attitude of yours made him chew at the inner walls of his cheek. How that made him undo his tie and unbutton his shirt's collar just to give him some room to breathe. Sometimes, putting you in place also meant giving you your just desserts for being so⊠you. Sometimes, he just couldn't hold back the urge to make you bite more than you can chew.
Needless to say, two things happened that night. One, someone ate their words. Second, someone was reminded just what Reiner specialized in as the Armored Titan.
"By way of your silence and that look on your face, I'd say Reiner showed you who the boss was." You were pulled out of your thoughts when Hitch's voice broke the silence. You were going to protest but that grin on her face just made you all the more guilty. See, Hitch was the best and the worst person for these conversations. She was the best because she listened attentively to these little girl talks, was invested in the details and the little gossips⊠but she was also the worst because Hitch was invested in the little details that, when pieced together, gave depth to the entirety of the puzzle. Why was she extra sharp when it comes to things like these?
"P-pretty much." You admitted because the glint in your friend's eye was already an indication that you couldn't lie your way out of this one.
"Well, was it good?" If Hitch could stop hammering you like this⊠but when she starts, she can be pretty relentless. For a moment, you were silent. Unsure if you even wanted to answer this because it was embarrassing. Soon enough, you folded your arms against the table and pressed your face against it. So helpless. Red as a beet, gaze thrown coyly at the interrogator.
"He was amazing." You whined in defeat, unable to hold yourself back from bragging about your husband. It was the truth anyway, so there was nothing wrong with admitting to it, right?
#†.You have to be a Chosen One. â„ Imagines and Reader Inserts#†.To You â 2000 Years From Now. â„ Drabbles#quiveringdeer#Reiner Braun x Reader#AoT imagines#Suggestive? Kind of? Maybe? I don't know.#hitch dreyse#Reiner Braun#Here you go Nat-san~
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For the ask meme, 8, 19, and 23?
Thanks for the ask Elves ^o^ Now let's gooooo!!
8. Common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about
I've answered it here already, but here's another thing that bugs me and I'm going to take the risk: about the games Life is Strange (1 and Before the Storm)
Rachel and Chloe were not a cute couple. In the first game "Life is Strange", it's implied that Rachel was selfish and manipulative and that she took advantage of Chloe and many people to get what she wanted, breaking hearts on her way and leaving the people behind to pick up the pieces after her. In "Before the Storm, there are many clues and foreshadowings telling us that Chloe shouldn't trust Rachel, nor get close to her, but she's just so lonely, desperate and in a vulnerable state of mind that she's tricked. This whole scene is not Rachel confessing her love or "proposing to her" - as some comments like to say - on stage / in public to Chloe while staying in character. Look well at the lines, forget they're acting a Shakespearian play, and you have a true summary of their relationship:
Rachel sent Chloe to wreak havoc for her; Chloé does and is always the one who takes the risks, always in the first line for her, and because of Rachel's influence, Chloe becomes more and more ruthless, self-centred and obsessed with Rachel, which leads Chloe to lose any friend she could make in BtS and we know how bad her relationship with both her mother and step-father is in LiS1.
After Chloe is done with a task, Rachel praises her but then immediately points out "There's more work"; even though Rachel's parents are rich and she's socially way above Chloe, she's relying on others to do everything for her. Rachel is the most desperate to leave Arcadia Bay, but Chloe is the one who has to find a car and the money to leave. What does Rachel do, except give orders and get more and more demanding? What does she concretely do for Chloe, except get her in trouble and give her some crumbs of affection/love? Nothing! She never helped Chloe find a way to go back to school, follow her studies online or anything, or even support her in finding a job! All she does is ask and take, and her pieces of advice are shit, she pushes Chloe to rebel and be unpleasant when it comes to her mother marrying again instead of telling her to talk it out with them or to give her future step-dad a chance before slamming the door shut to his face.
when Chloe reminds Rachel that she made a promise to her, Rachel either doesn't remember or pretends not to
"My liberty." "Nay, this most of all I will not grant." Rachel refuses to let Chloe go. She even has the gall to ask why! Like "Hey, why do you want to be free? Aren't you happy to serve me? Are you not having fun?"
"Yeah, but fun is not happiness!" Chloe even points out that she wants to be loved for who she truly is, not just have fun and adventures, Chloe needs something genuine, she also needs stability. But Rachel still refuses, "I hold you in my grasp" (!!!) and then even points out that seeing Chloe free, happy on her own, and seeing her thrive would make her envious. This plainly shows Rachel is an abuser! She can't stand the idea that Chloe can be happy without her, she needs to be the centre of her world!
And although Chloe reaches out for her, telling her "Then come with me, isn't that possible for you?", Rachel evades the question and basically tells her "Once we leave Arcadia Bay, I will make you so happy that you will forget that you're my prisoner and slave".
THIS IS NOT ROMANTIC! And people in the game PLUS many gamers are falling for it, since someone in the public screams "SAY YES!!" er... NO?! Chloe, run for your life!!?
Chloe was basically the caretaker of Rachel, and when Chloe wasn't enough, she looked for another. Rachel seduced Nathan (rich, abused and vulnerable but mentally ill), then Frank (an independent adult, but he was a drug dealer and not mentally stable) and then she fell for Jefferson, who had ticked all the boxes... Unfortunately for her, he was very much like her but worse!
Another point for LiS1, I don't believe David was an abusive step-father.
Is he kind of a jerk, not the most tactful, and kinda sexist? Yep, all agreed. But people also forget that this guy has fought in a freaking war! Everyone justifies both Chloe and Rachel's actions with their traumas, but no one even thinks about how this guy must be full of traumas too. What he lived explains (not justify!!) that he's a bit paranoid and adamant about following rules and laws. And we tend to forget how he had a very good intuition for many things: he was suspicious about Jefferson very early, but no one took him seriously, for one!
And back to the stepfather thing, I saw many people talking shit bout how Chloe didn't feel safe at home because of him. This is bullcrap. If Chloe didn't feel safe, then why did she take drugs in her room?! Or hid the gun she stole from him under her mattress? Because she knew she would get away with it with, at worst, a slap. A slap she pushed David to give her, which is another abuser tactic btw - one she must have taken from Rachel, as we see how her speech, manners and even clothing mimic Rachel if you take BtS into account. In Life is Strange 2, there is a scene where you meet him, and if you have a saved game with the "Chloe survived ending", we see how she and Max keep in touch with him! They write letters and send him photos, and David calls her "his daughter" and even "Sweetie" as he picks up when Chloe calls him!!! ; and let's not forget the "your old man doesn't fear the heat." So Chloe even came to consider him as her father then! Do you seriously think she would if he had been an abusive piece of shit? I don't. If anything, Chloe must have acted on her realization at the end of the first game, where she told Max that David doesn't deserve to die in the storm and reached out when she felt ready.
19. You're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of likeâŠ
I'm at an age where I stop caring about the internet's opinion most of the time, I just want to chill and enjoy my things in my corner xD BUT I'm quite kind of surprised and embarrassed (sometimes) at some kinks I realised I enjoy more than I thought I should (still quite soft compared to what we can find!) like spanking for example. Or when I start a story and think "URGH this character is SO annoying, I can't stand them" then it changes to either "I love them" or "I want *insert character* to tame them"
23. Ship you've unwillingly come around to
Well, I've ranted about the game series, so I'll keep on it:
I've spoken about Rachel/Chloe, so I'm not going to expand more, but for Pricefield (Chloe/Max)? Well, in summary, I'll say that Chloe did to Max exactly what Rachel did to her.
I'm not the purist kind, if you want to ship a toxic ship, it's totally okay! I can see the appeal! But most fanworks romanticise them way too much! They cut out all the toxic traits or interesting character development and make it all "pure from friend to lover" which isn't... that at all. I'd like them more if it was addressed that the pairings are not the healthiest, or if it was explicitly written under "toxic/abusive relationship"! Or just an "everything is fine/better AU", sure, go ahead! I love these AUs too, it would be fun and heartwarming to read slices of life stories/small comics with the characters without the tragedies awaiting them!
But at the moment, all I see is that Rachel was Chloe's toxic ex, and Chloe became Max's toxic ex-best/girlfriend (in the timeline where Chloe dies).
#ask#saemi answers#life is strange#chloe price#max caulfield#rachel amber#rachel amber critical#rachel was toxic I won't change my mind#anti pricefield#I guess?#tagging to be safe#david madsen#anti rachel/chloe#rachel was abusive to chloe#david wasn't best dad#but not an abusive one either
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i've wavered a lot on how much gay romance/sex experience i can reasonably believe that greg has had but i think i'm settling permanently into the idea that in desperation for approval + need for money he's allowed himself to be the side piece and lowkey sugar baby of a couple closeted/married guys before, and those guys ultimately dropped him bc they couldn't risk being found out anymore and/or chose their wives over him, and it's heavily informed greg's relationship with tom.
like he still almost certainly has this Type but he recognizes (possibly through therapy) that it's probably unhealthy, or it's probably indicative of daddy issues that he needs to work out and also of a bit of a savior complex bc he's helped some guys realize things about themselves which in turn saddles him with all the emotional labor, and most of all it means he's not placing enough value in himself if he gives his whole self to someone who won't give their whole self back. so i'm thinking Current Greg has outright made the decision to not let this happen again, to not play that role anymore bc he needs to respect himself and not settle for just any amount of attention especially not negative attention. maybe he's even internalized a bit of a sense that maybe it's men who are the problem, and/or shame of being the one who is the object of desire bc it emasculates him. and he realizes he's been letting himself be misinterpreted as a more submissive figure than he really is just for the sake of being desired. it feels better to have control, and most men who might be interested just don't want to let him have it, so greg overcompensates by clinging to women as an option too? but just never feels substance there beyond feeling a little better about himself.
and of course tom comes along and greg quickly recognizes some hints of him being closeted, but there's way more plausible deniability than past guys bc tom is just SO deep in there. and dating greg's own cousin no less. and greg is tired of this sort of routine before it starts but still finds himself falling into it, getting dependent on tom's approval specifically because of how it's buffered by bullying, (lowkey being kind of aroused by the bullying and really wishing that he wasn't bc it makes him feel pathetic), learning more about tom and observing him and shiv and seeing how deeply unhappy the guy is and seeing that whole relationship as the source of tom being Like This and thinking maybe there's a chance that he can leave shiv and things would be different? bc it's getting increasingly obvious that his hostility is a front that he wouldn't need to have if he'd just leave her? BUT them tom retreats further into the closet and greg doesn't have time for it, he's resolved to have more respect for himself, he doesn't want to waste his energy on someone who doesn't want to change, he's not going to try to figure out what tom wants, least of all from him, when it doesn't seem like tom himself knows what he wants.......
but then tom just keeps doing these things. that no one else has EVER done for him. in between all the corporate climbing and greg trying to get in with his own fucking family and find stability that he's never had, tom keeps staking his foot in greg's life, making it clear he needs him around. wants him around. tom's wife is cheating on him and he's letting her do it and he straight up attacked greg for trying to tell him, but he wants to pretend that that never happened and he doesn't just want greg under him, he wants to hang out. he wants to wine and dine him. he protects him. and it seems so much all the time like tom is gearing up to legitimately try to start an affair with greg but he'll never quite get there, he'll bring his marriage back up like a wall and take 5 steps back into the closet like this constant fucking cycle of emotionally edging the both of them.
i think greg often wants to hate tom but more than anything he's just exhausted with him because he really, truly, very much cares about him. and feels so bad for him. but he knows/believes tom himself is not doing any of the same introspection and would get defensive even if greg tried to do it for him. he probably thinks he's best off trying to get over those feelings until tom comes round and does those things again - touching him, smiling at him in a way that no one else will, praising him, making him feel needed and wanted, providing for him, fucking kissing him - and it feels so undeniable that this is going to be something, and that that something simply could not be found anywhere else, that it always feels worth it to stick around through the next wave of defensiveness.
if/when tom finally does physically act on his feelings i do think greg (in the context of this hc) would feel it's different this time, given that he knew tom even before he got married and he's well acquainted with the exact unsatisfying nature of tom's marriage (or lack thereof). he'd know that he's genuinely not the side piece this time, and that tom actually sees him as he is and likes it, even and perhaps especially everything that's wrong with him.
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Sims 4 Legacy Challenge: Stranger in The Alps by Phoebe Bridgers
Heya! I like to make legacy challenges for the Sims 4 :)
This one here is based off of the album "Stranger in The Alps" by Phoebe Bridgers. I'm not done yet, but the first three gens (Smoke Signals, Motion Sickness, and Funeral) are going to be below.
Once I finish more I'll post them! There will probably be a google doc as well. If you have any pointers or ideas, please message me. I would love to hear other people's opinions.
Hope you enjoy!!
Gen 01: Smoke Signals
Talking through your emotions has always been hard, so instead youâd write about them. You lost your best friend after you got pregnant, now you focus all your attention on music and your baby. You slowly begin to rise in fame through the years, but you still have a missing piece.
Aspiration: Musical Genius
Traits: Music Lover, Loner, Creative
Skills: Two musical skills, Writing
Job(s): Entertainer (Musician Branch), AND a part-time job (Ex.- Barista)
Favorite Color: Deep Blue
Optional:
Bonus Traits: None
Lifestyles: Close-Knit and Indoorsy
Goals/Tasks (Check as Finished)
Complete âMusical Geniusâ Aspiration.
Master Writing and two musical skills of your choosing (Singing, Guitar, Violin, Piano, etc.).
Acquire the Close-Knit and Indoorsy lifestyles.
Have a relationship with your best friend as a young adult (which results in the heir), and lose contact until you are an elder. You can marry your best friend as an elder.
Only get pregnant/get another sim pregnant once.
Only ever have a romantic relationship with your best friend.
Get to the top of your career (Entertainer: Musician branch) while also having a part-time job.
Put all of your part-time money away for your heir. I use this one by Ravasheen.
Become a celebrity. You can quit your part-time job once youâre a three-star celebrity.
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Gen 02: Motion Sickness
As a kid, paychecks barely covered anything your parent needed (until they got famous, of course), so you vowed to not let your kids grow up the same. They deserve a stable income and home. You looked for stability in the wrong person as a young adult, but maybe youâll get a second chance later on in life?
Aspiration: Goal-Oriented (Teen), Big Happy Family (Adult)
Traits: Perfectionist, Family Oriented, Loyal
Skills: Parenting, Logic
Job(s): Doctor
Favorite Color: Moss green
Optional:
Bonus Traits: None
Lifestyles: Hungry for Love
Goals/Tasks (Check as Finished)
Complete âGoal-Orientedâ aspiration as a teen.
Be a straight-A student as a child and a teen.
Go to college with honors.
Get to the top of your career (Doctor)
Complete âSoulmateâ Aspiration.
Master Parenting and Logic skills.
Acquire the Hungry for Love Lifestyle
Have an on-and-off relationship with an adult or elder as a young adult. (Together one season, apart the next, and so on)
You must break up with them once one of you ages up/they die.
Date a new sim afterwards to complete your aspiration for.
Only have children as an old adult and/or elder.
Have at least 3 kids.
Become good friends with your children.
Become best friends with the heir.
Have a movie night with your whole family once a week.
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Gen 03: Funeral
Your parents are your best friends, and you simply cannot imagine life without them, until the inevitable happens.
When you were younger, you were this cheerful, mischievous person who had friends surrounding you, but once your parents died, things turned for the worst. Without them, you feel like you canât speak to anyone- except for your childhood best friend, so you two move far away to live on your own far away from your memories. Writing stories about your parents helps you a lot.
Aspiration: Master Writer
Traits: Bookworm, Loyal, Loner
Skills: Writing, Gardening, Handiness
Job(s): Self-employed (Self-Published Author)
Favorite Color: Plum Purple
Optional:
Bonus Traits: Gloomy
Lifestyles: Single-and-Loving-It, Close-Knit
Goals/Tasks (Check as Finished)
Complete âGoal-Orientedâ aspiration as a teen.
Have at least 5 close friends and 1 best friend as a child and a teen.
Be close friends with all of your family members.
When your parent(s) die, leave home to live with your best friend in a different world.
Once they die, you can only have a relationship with your best friend and your heir.
Never have a real job; only get money from selling books you write. Your best friend cannot have a job either- must sell what they create.
Complete the âMaster Writerâ aspiration.
Master writing, gardening, and handiness.
Grow a garden, and grow the death flower.
You cannot date anyone after your parent(s) die.
You and your best friend must adopt at least 2 children.
Never leave your home- the heir can leave for school and/or work.
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Thats all for now! I'm working on Demi Moore but its kinda difficult because its not my favorite song. I would love some feedback though!!
#sims 4 legacy#sims 4#simblr#sims 4 gameplay#the sims#sims legacy#legacy challenge#sims 4 legacy challenge#ts4#ts4 legacy#the sims 4#sims 4 aesthetic#ts4 simblr#ts4 gameplay#ts4cc#my sims
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Nat I'm so sorry, I have to marry Cass now. Yes I know he could and would kill me, but I see a Byronic, redheaded man and I go a little stupid
OUGHUGHUGH.... we probably have similar tastes anon, unfortunately. the only way i could have carefully curated him to my tastes more is to have him be a blond, but i CONTROLLED myself. the tortured artist archetype is one of my absolute faves and weird fucked up daddy issues artist in a gothic horror house with pre-raphaelite leanings . . . ah. we can All Go A Little Stupid, as a treat!!!
oh and as i am replying on a pc and not my phone have some more picrews of him (i do make art but honestly i am not as good at it, sometimes a picrew captures the vibe better!);
my beloved awful man. how i despise him.
as i love to talk about my little guys. here is some info on cass from his refsheet (that i must get around to doing a little updating of!) cw: child abuse, eye trauma, alcoholism, yandere mentality, A Guy
Cass grew up in an impoverished aristocratic family; the kind of old money old-name whose estate was crumbling to pieces, but preferred to pretend they were still in their halcyon golden days. A latent talent for painting making itself known at the tender age of five and a half meant that his family's connections were very quickly made use of - and after that, money was not so much of an issue. Cassian lost his entire childhood to work and being dragged halfway across the world to be fussed over and paint portraits, a lack of stability that he insists was thrilling but he still feels now right down to his bones. Private tutors, an education that only took art and art history and anything else related seriously, and a father who took great issue to Cass being something of a daydreamer have all played their part in making Cass exactly who (and what) he is today.
After losing his eye, he felt like he lost his entire identity. He'd spent so long thinking his only worth was in what he could make with a paintbrush in hand that it drove him to despair, and to find his solace in the bottom of a bottle - he would have done anything to regain his vision. And eventually he found his solution in a tiny bookshop in Whitechapel; first floor all children's books, second floor books entirely on the occult. A kindly bookseller gave him some assistance, and later on that night Cass found himself performing a ritual that ought to have attracted the attention of a patron deity of artists.
Things are never quite so straightforward.
Cass can see perfectly now, thank you very much. He can also hear the whispering and the chittering of the servants of the demon he made a Faustian bargain with, talking behind the patch he wears because now his eye is . . . rather distressing to look at. He has a boost in speed and strength and endurance, too - but most importantly, he has the knowledge that when he does die, there's an eternity of torture waiting for his immortal soul . . . so why not have fun now?
Cass is on the search, always, for his perfect model. His Lizzie Siddal, if you will; someone who will get in front of the lens of his camera (oil painting takes so much longer, and though he does still paint on rare occasion, his models don't always last long enough for that) and will provide for him the work that will make him immortal. He doesn't care how many models he tears through, breaks and buries in the search for just that.
After all; art is the most important thing in the world, is it not? And Cass intends to leave behind a legacy.
#nat.txt#ocs.txt#beloved little bastard i have FICS for him that i'll get around to posting including a first meeting type thing#that i never got around to posting on the art blog#anon i am kissing you on the mouth thank u for liking my bastard man#yandere for ts
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Falling in love everyday
Note: this post was originally published on /r/DeadBedrooms
Today, I realized I'm falling in love a lot. It might be a waitress, a barista, or someone I see walking by. These women aren't necessarily provocatively dressed, they don't exude sexual energy or some other magical thing.
They just seem nice.
And as I sat here in a coffee shop trying not to follow the nice-seeming barista around the store with my eyes as she went about her duties, it occurred to me just how pathetic this is. I feel like that socially-awkward, hopeless guy that we all knew in high schoolâthe one that you just knew would never get a date, because he'd never have the courage to ask for one.
Only for me it isn't a lack of courage. It's that I'm married to someone whom I love dearly, but from whom I no longer receive any affection.
She'd kill me if she saw me looking at other women. She'd be devastated if she knew how often I find my heart beating a little faster when someone who happens to be female shows me the least big of basic human kindness. A smile, a funny remark. A little cheerful banter.
Why does all of this affect me this way? Because I haven't felt it from or for my wife in... much longer than I care to admit.
Sureâwe still exchange "I love yous" every day. I do everything I can to make her life easier. I help around the house. I offer to do school drop-offs and pick-ups. I help with homework. I also work endless hours in the business we've built together and carry far more of the weight than I should, or that's even close to sustainable. For her, we're better off financially than we've been in years. But I'm the one handling all the stress of the money and daily juggling all the pressures to make sure she doesn't have to handle the difficult stuff.
And we have sex once or twice a month. I almost never initiate anymore because it feels to her like I'm pressuring her. We've talked. We've had something similar to "the talk." She's going to work on it, she really is. But things have been hard. Transitions in parenting. Transitions in hormones. Being sick. Being busy. Extra stuff on the plate.
It all adds up. But what it adds up to is, "I don't matter." My feelings don't matter. The fact that I feel unloved doesn't matter. The fact that nothing I've done (including creating more financial stability) makes her want to be affectionate towards meânot to mention have sex with meâtells me that she really is the self-centered person I always told myself she wasn't. I made all the excuses for her. I've listened empathetically as she's told me tales of trauma as a young woman at the hands of guys who were abusiveâverbally and emotionally, at least. I've tried to help nurture her and encourage her through body image issues (she's always been beautiful and desirable to me and she has heard this from me for 20 years now), eating disorders, depression, parenting difficulties... you name it.
I've tried desperately to not be selfish. Don't be "that guy." You knowâthe one that only cares about himself. The one that treats women like shit. The one that doesn't respect the effort and hardships that come with being a woman in today's society, being a Mom, being uniquely female. I respect all of that. I've always treated her right.
Until lately. Oh sure, I still treat her right. But inside I'm dying. I'm looking for love. I'm looking for affection, for attention. I crave basic human contact. Hugs (which I get from her, but not often), kisses, affection, making out. What would it be like to be kissed passionately?
And that's what I wonder when I meet a nice female. Do they know that inside I'm dying? That I want to be with them? Not to use them lustfully or just get off over their physical attributes. But to feel connected. To kiss. To love.
We've got a list of marriage counselors. With no insurance, some of these prices seem staggering. Is it worth it for me to go to sessions with a therapist and pay all the money when I feel like I've lost hope that any of this will ever change?
Should I just accept that we have a business relationship? A domestic arrangement? At least until we're empty nesters and I don't feel the need to keep a stable household like a good father? But by then will I have any desirability left at all for any woman I meet? Old and used up? My best years wasted on someone who just didn't have it in herânot maliciously, but just as a deficiencyâto love me, desire me, make me feel loved?
Do the people sitting here in this coffee shop notice me discreetly wiping a tear from my eye? Do I look like I'm dying inside? I hope not. My facade is all I have left.
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Love Languages - Harrison in a romantic relationship & how to win Harrison's heart
In a relationship
Despite his intimidating appearance, Harrison is a very loving partner when in relationships. In a relationship, he already has a husband mentally since he dates to marry. With his background being in the system, stability is something that Harrison craves therefore relationships with him he's in it for the long haul. Typically after he says I love you he's already planning a June wedding with friends and family. However, he won't outright say that, but he will tell his friends and they usually talk him down from doing anything too crazy.
However, with being so loving and caring, Harrison does indeed get jealous and will often shut down because if he has nothing nice to say, he won't say anything at all. Of course, Harrison would never do or say harmful things to his partner but if someone disrespected his relationship in front of him, then all bets are off and he'll do what he can to make them go away and regret ever approaching his partner. Once again, with his history of being the system, Harrison holds onto things and keeps them close, as much as he hates considering partners his property ( because they're not, they are their own people ), the idea of someone touching, flirting and whatever else to his partner bothers him. He will explain his method to the madness and apologize for his behavior since some people could consider it toxic even though he means it in the best way possible.
Overall, Harrison can be the picture-perfect guy to his partners if they want him to. He's a gentleman, and family man, and he can be an amazing best friend since that is what he looks for in a partner. Someone who can laugh with him, cry with him, smile with him, and everything else that comes with that.
Love Languages - bold for what she does to others, italics to what he wants to be done for him.
Words of affirmation.
Quality time.
Physical touch.
Acts of service.
Receiving gifts.
How to win Harrison's heart
Winning Harrison over isn't really a hard task at all. If anything, out of the boys, Harrison is the easiest to please and court. Being kind, considerate, be able to be attentive, and affectionate as well as being a good communicator, are all ways that can get someone's foot in the door. However, an in-depth way to do it is the following:
Reassuring him when he feels like he is failing, this method can be applied in relationships, his work, or anything that he's doing. Harrison often puts a lot of pressure on himself to strive to do his best. His past makes him believe that he is not worthy of anyone's time or effort and he is constantly proving to others that he is worthy of being around. He won't talk down on himself or fish for compliments, he mainly shows this in body language.
Another way to really win him over is spending time with him. From time to time he does like to work at home and sitting in his office while he's working is a lot better than going to the office within the city. When he's in a relationship and has a partner he's head over heels for, he wants to spend as much time with them as possible. It doesn't have to be activities or anything that requires money, sometimes it can look like sitting in silence while he works or watching TV with him to fill the white noise. As long as he has company and someone shows they want him around? He'll be wrapped around their finger.
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Van can vividly remember the first time Xavier Matthews had stood in front of her.
He'd waited outside the alley entrance of a seedy Los Angeles music venue for a chance to talk to her. At the time Van had been playing for a semi-professional girl punk band named The Heather's with a lead singer who had claimed red hair was "her thing" and had required Van to wear a wig for all performances -- a cheap, blonde bob that had made her look like a reincarnation of Vivian Ward before she'd gotten the Pretty Woman treatment.
At that time in her life music had been her greatest escape, and something that she had only done for herself. She'd been nineteen, married for a year, and working three jobs to support herself and Lee as he spent his days trying to land an agent and go on auditions. If it wasn't for X waiting outside of the bar that night to recruit her into the band Van never would have considered music as a serious career for herself.
And now that same man is standing in front of her over a dozen years later -- with a guitar playing the opening notes of a song she had written for him. Notes that had come to her as she had sat up sleepless in a hospital waiting room while doctors stabilized him after his overdose. Lyrics that had come to her as she'd cried alone in her car after she'd dropped him off at rehab.
And now he's dropping to his knee and in spite how good Van has always been at reading context clues and the fact that she knows exactly what's going on, it still manages a gasp from her.
"Holy shit."
Her hand is over her mouth for most of his speech, her welled-up eyes on his for the entirety.
In spite of the fact that she'd been married before, this was the first time she'd truly been proposed to. ("Maybe we should swing by Vegas and get married on the way to LA." had been all she had gotten the first time around.)
The man had always had a God complex, but she wondered if X would ever understand the miracle he had performed by saving her from a life of 'fine' to a life was she was remarkably loved.
The final question has only been out of his mouth for a single second before Van behaves like their own dog when he's been let off the leash -- unable to be restrained and moving immediately land on her knees on the sand next to him, taking his face in her hands and kissing urgently over every inch of it.
After she had gotten divorced, she'd always told herself that she'd only get married again if one man asked her to be his wife.
And, well, thank god she'd put her money on the right horse.
"Yes," she affirms her answer that she had already decided before a word was out of his mouth, catching his lips and kissing him several times over.
"Yes. Yes. I love you. Yes. Yes to forever. Yes to everything."
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With headlights visible in the distance, X looks like a deer caught in them for a split second. It could have been any car, but what if it wasn't -- what if it was the exact one he was waiting to pull up.
Right on time, right when he needed her to.
( Vanessa Gable had a real knack for that, it made for an easy decision when it came to what he was intending to do. )
It's a flash of red and a sprint in what he knows was heels from watching her get ready for her dinner hours earlier that confirms what he would have known blindfolded and with no hints.
There she was, the best choice he's ever made in a life stacked with plenty of good and bad ones, shoes in hand and not a single care about it.
Running to him is a good sign rather than the alternative and he would take bare feet in the sand over cold feet at what she had to know this was all for any day. Dayne starts plucking guitar strings as Van tugs on X's heartstrings, the melody no stranger to any of them and sounding all too right as it's heard again on the same beach where she had first showed him that very same song she had written for him.
The demo version would always be his favorite, nothing but her vocals and a confirmation of truths he had waited years to hear, but Dayne's take was gunning for a close second as Van rewrites her own lyrics right before him with a statement that has him grinning despite his own nerves.
"You always wanna kiss me, that ain't nothing new."
The threat of a premature answer hushes the small but present part of himself that had him concerned that maybe this sure thing of his might not be quite so sure, that the things he had put her through over the years and all the ways he had broken both their hearts might have crept to the forefront, a nasty past ready and waiting to usurp what he knows will be a good future.
There's none of that as he looks at her and reaches into the pocket of his jacket for the ring box, there's just that face of hers and how the mere sight of it made everything else fall away.
"Ah-ah, you have to let me do it, won't count if you don't and I'm only doing this once, baby."
He means that wholeheartedly, no matter what was in store for them, he would never drop to one knee like he did then in the sand under the setting sun and look up at another person with the same kind of adoration in his eyes as he did then.
Her or nothing -- that's all there was to it.
"Vanessa Gable, for the longest time, as long as I can remember really I've had this idea of myself and who I am and what I am. That I was put here for some higher purpose and that must make me above it all, including falling in love. Then along you came with that Louisiana accent in that ridiculous blonde wig and you knocked me on my ass. Right back to earth with all the rest of them pesky mere mortals, like the first dose of reality I'd had in who knows how long and God, do I love living in reality with you."
They both knew from experience how easy it was to be swept up in the lifestyle they lived, with every detriment that fame brought along with it. He had fallen to both knees for some of those vices more times than he could count, but the only reason he was there on one knee with breath in his lungs still was down to the woman in front of him.
"I knew the first time I saw you that you were going to change my life. I knew after the first time we spoke that if I kept speaking to you, I was going to fall in love with you. I knew that would hurt and I didn't care because it would hurt more to know of you and not know you. And I know you, darlin'. Everything there is to know, and I love all of you. Everything you are, everything you have been and everything I know you will be."
His hands feel as unsteady as they had at his father's funeral as he opens the ring box and reveals the ring he had deliberated on for over a year in his search for perfection. It's a similar shake that had caused her to take the eulogy he had written from them and deliver it for him, but he wouldn't let that happen there.
She had them then, he had them now.
"I'm so fucking in love with you and I tried real hard not to curse in this and I just failed at it but I won't fail at making you happy every day for as long as you'll have me. Because you're the only one who could have me and the way you love me is the way I want to be loved for the rest of my life."
He can just about hear Dayne's playing over the sound of his own heart beat as he finally makes her lyric about getting married in their heads something more than a shared ache.
"Will you do me the kind of honor I'll spend every second of the rest of forever making sure I'm worthy of and marry me?"
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