#if i had self esteem

[fazcinatingblog]

hi this is a rant please keep scrolling :)))))

list of things me, dumbass admin struggling through second CPA subject, explains to new guy at work who has a CPA:

telling him that bank charges are always debit because they're an expense

and that rent received should be credit because income

when we're the last two in the office and it's 5pm, telling him to finish up because i want to lock up and get out of here (stupid newbies thinking they should work overtime to "get ahead" lmao not a thing, kiddo, go home) (he's actually two months older than me but shhhh)

drafting tax returns

explaining the accounting when client buys an investment property (I would assume he knew this part but he saw me typing up the returns and he asked about it, so i woman-explained it)

teaching him to do adjusting journal entries for the rental income of a trust

going through reversal entries for accrued expenses (he did eventually correct me and discover the correct invoice to be picked up which was conveniently paid in the year we're doing)

things i want to explain to him:

when the water in the urn gets low, he can use the jug next to it to fill it up (pretty sure it's him using the urn water because he drinks tea, i'm onto him and at the end of the day, i keep finding the urn with dangerously low water level KETTLES AND URNS SHOULD NOT BE EMPTY OF WATER ESP IF THE URN IS TURNED ON)

that he can take lunch at any time

not to go crying to the bookkeeper for help because he doesn't want to bother me while i eat lunch at 1:15pm

[zu-is-here]

During the post dark cream arc where Cross was pregnant with Aim, is it possible for Aim to mive and kick while in the soul…? And if so is it painful for Cross+

continuing @clownyclowns' comic's topic <3

[0vergrowngraveyard]

how i feel rn:

anyway anyone else starting to notice a pattern forming with tails

i know these two situations aren’t comparable in the slightest, but it’s mostly the general sense of tails saying that he can fix a situation that’s already done for (the eggnet is no longer accessible or the ship is going to crash) and him beating himself up when he “fails”

also pointing out that both sonic and amy seem concerned about this behavior

there’s also the whole thing where he stays in the restoration building to help, knowing he could be caught in the explosion (AND HE IS)

“and i’m not going anywhere, not when i can help!”

this is a post forces comic…

again, maybe i’m insane and looking way too much into this but i gotta get this out or im gonna explode

[valdeswan]

Cale says he is a bad person, a selfish, stone cold bastard because he spent at least 10 years believing the words he heard on his team funeral and after it.

And he had nobody to say the opposite, nobody who knew him, who cared about him. To prove them wrong, to insist that they are the actual bastards without heart for saying that to a mourning person.

He was alone, terrified of getting close to people again, and thinking that the deaths of his family was all his fault. Of course he thinks he is a bad person.

For him, people that don't protect their family are trash, so he is the worst human being that ever put a foot on the planet.

[legobiwan]

This is such a telling page for Ford. Not only does he detail his social missteps and admit to being lonely in Gravity Falls, despite the scientific wonder of the place, but he also uses what I call "Fordese 2," a scrambled version of the "Fordese 1" code we were first introduced to in Journal 3 to label himself a "six-fingered freak" and to state that "Stanley would have made her laugh." (Her, being the waitress Ford tries out his nerdy science joke on, which goes down like a lead balloon despite the fact that it is legitimately funny, given the right audience).

It's like Bill says. "Ego of a king. The insecurity of a circus freak. And totally isolated..." (Funny enough, Bill could probably turn those exact words on himself, as well.)

Ford so wanted Gravity Falls to be the place where he'd finally fit in, the puzzle to his misshapen puzzle piece.

And as we see in the missing Journal pages from BoB, that was not to be the case. And worst of all? Ford blames it on his hands at first, but the reality is that he says that "Stanley could make her laugh," meaning Ford's "freakishness" (as he would put it) has less to do with his six fingers and much more to do with Ford's personality and the way he interacts with others.

This is actually worse. Fingers, you can fix, if you want to. By the time you're an adult, most people probably wouldn't care. But to Ford, his fingers seem to be more a manifestation of something internal, something he feels is fundamentally broken about him and that's just the absolute worst hell to be stuck in.

So yeah, it's hardly surprising Ford fell so hard for Bill's shenanigans (and you can define "fell so hard" however you want, although that karaoke page in BoB is especially damning). Here's an interdimensional being who not only can guide you to unlocking the secrets of the universe and propel you towards scientific fame and glory (and thus shoving every taunt, invective, side-eye, and eye roll ever hurled at you over the decades down your tormentors' throats) - but he's (on the surface) completely glib about being a freak himself.

For Ford, this must have been like finding a shady, sparkling oasis after thirty years of trawling through the desert (especially after Stanley's "betrayal" - Stanley, who along with Fiddleford, being the only person Ford felt like he could be himself around and still be accepted as a human being).

Now, is Bill trying way too hard to show how much he doesn't care? Uhhh, yeah. Bill has almost the same hangups as Ford. Labeled a freak for a genetic mutation and ostracized by his peers. Has a rare gift in that he can see not only into the third dimension but can see even past that, into possible dimensions and futures, which is a wild skill to have. Compare this with Ford's gigantic science brain and academic overachievement. Same deal. And not only this! Bill, in an attempt to prove what he can do with his "freakishness," to prove his worth and place in the universe - he tries to show off something to the denizens of his dimension (we don't know yet what Bill did), only to end up slaughtering his entire dimension. Ford was a hair's breath away from doing the exact same thing with the portal. Because we know from Journal 3 that part of his motivation is to be famous and get accolades for his work, and that maybe "girls will finally talk to me." (Which, Fordsy, let's be real here - I don't think you're actually into these "girls" for real, but you want the acceptance that comes with fitting in with societal standards, and getting a state-sanctioned girlfriend is exactly the type of thing Ford would want to make himself feel "normal.")

Anyway, the point being that if Ford had succeeded with his initial portal attempt, he would have basically wiped out his own dimension. Just. Like. Bill. And it makes you wonder - yeah, yeah, Bill wanted to party, Bill needed out of the Nightmare Realm, Bill's a psychopath who enjoys destruction.

But honestly? I think part it all was that Bill wanted someone like him. His own puzzle piece. Another monster. A being whose collateral damage in the quest to justify their existence in this universe ends in wholesale slaughter.

And Ford had the capacity to easily fit that mould.

[isolophilian]

i think we need to understand the gravity of how quickly Percy blames himself and his disabilities for the way his world is. how he's been made to believe over years and years that he's weird, that there's something wrong with him. Percy saying he should've been paying attention. Percy saying there's something wrong with his brain. Percy calling himself broken.. he's just a kid man

[brainworms-all-night-long]

i haven't drawn anything in a while. whatever, self indulgent crossover doodl go!!

[welcometogrouchland]

my Stephanie Brown hot take is that she should get mad bitches now that she's single in comics. Yes yes shipping BUT the one time she had sex she was punished by the narrative via teen pregnancy. I think she should be allowed to have as much sex as she wants with zero consequences. Could be a lot of sex, could be a little. Point is she should get to do it without getting narratively baby trapped this time. she should get them pregnant, actually.

[unforth]

Been thinking about how Hua Cheng sacrificed his eye. Been thinking about how fandom generally treats that eye and the related sacrifice as him ripping out something about himself he hated. Been thinking about...

It's canon that Hua Cheng's eye caused him social issues, but I can't really recall that we get much on his own attitude toward said. I've been thinking that however he felt about it as a child, his encounter with Xie Lian changed that. Xie Lian made it clear that Hua Cheng deserved none of what he got, that he was worthy of kindness and safety and protection and and and, and Hua Cheng's life trajectory changed as a result. He is fiercely loyal, determined to improve himself, and stubborn as fuck.

And, well. He doesn't gouge his eye out. He keeps it covered. As a kid he seems to keep it covered so people won't be mean to him, but as he gets stronger, does he really need to do that? Idk, I think he hasn't really thought it through at that point.

But by the time he's a Tong'lu? He's had a lot of time to think it through at various stages of his life. His attitudes have clearly already shifted: he keeps it covered with bandages when he's alive, as if considering it a permanent injury, but as Wu Ming he simply wears a mask that covers his whole face: the eye is an integrated part of him, and ALL of him is to be covered (positing explanations why he made THAT choice is outside the scope of this babbling).

So. He's no longer specifically hiding is eye. It's part of him. And I can't help thinking...it's a part that makes me him powerful. From his earliest memories, it inspired people to be terrified of him. When he was little, their terror was a frightening danger to his well-being. But he's not little anymore at Tong'lu, he's a ghost who died having learned the saber, who took rage and love over and over and used them to empower himself and grow. He's well past needing to fear how people will react to him. If they lash out, he can put them in their place - and if he simply shows them his eye, he can inspire terror in them. How badass is that?

And THAT is what he chooses to sacrifice: knowing he can inspire fear with a look, knowing that his eye is one of his most incredible assets, he then chooses to rip it out and make a weapon.

Ashamed of it? Maybe once upon a time. But at Tong'lu? A calculated sacrifice from a man who knew he'd need to be armed to survive. His eye was fearsome to mortals, but to other ghosts? Inspired fear would only get him so far. So be weaponized that fear: both the lingering fear within himself of how people would treat him if they saw his eye, and the powerful fear he knew his appearance inspired.

He took a powerful part of himself, one he now fully perceived as integrated into his persona (the eye isn't singled out when he's Wu Ming; it's all part of him, all covered by the mask), and tore it out to forge a weapon.

Basically: been thinking about reframing the removal of the eye from him gouging out the part of himself he hated, to instead him purposefully transforming the part of himself he perceived as most powerful. We only know bits and pieces of Hua Cheng's point of view, but the idea that a man like him would choose to make a part of himself he hated into a weapon...that does make sense, but it's never sat right with him. He'd give everything for Xie Lian; offering up the part of himself he perceives as weakness feels like a pretty paltry sacrifice. But what else would make sense? Him taking the part of himself he's come to view as most powerful - one he was once ashamed of, but that has become a source of his uniqueness, his ability to strike fear into others, etc. - if he takes the *strongest* part of himself, and he sacrifices THAT to make a weapon, to gambles to pursue even more power, so that he can once again return to Dianxia's side, maybe finally strong enough to protect him. And if it fails, well. At least he didn't sacrifice some wussy thing, no, he gave it is all. That feels so much more Hua Cheng to me. This is his ace in the hole, the thing he was prepared to sacrifice *last.* only when all other gambits have failed, will he lose this part of himself.

Idk. Yes, there's something compelling in Hua Cheng ripping out a part of him that equals his perceived weakness and turning it into an awe-inspiring, terrifying weapon.

But I've been thinking... there's also something compelling about Hua Cheng ripping out the part of him that represents his strength and uniqueness, that he'd sacrifice *even that*, and in some ways it feels more in character to me, but I've also just never personally seen someone couch it that way when talking about his eye.

So I been thinking about it.

And I really, really like how it fits together. Really, it probably makes most sense if it's both: it's a part of himself he hates but also loves, recognizing it's power while also still traumatized by the harm to caused him. A perfect cocktail to make an ultimate weapon. A last-ditch desperation move to externalize his most powerful element and stake it all on the saber training he's done. If he's strong enough, he'll be able to overcome with this new weapon. If he's not, he'll have nothing left of himself to give. At least he'll know he did everything he possibly could, gave every last bit of himself, in the hopes of fighting at Dianxia's side again.

[starmocha]

You know, it's funny how Sylus is very casual and nonchalant about people robbing him, but he gets highly offended if you think he's poor (spend only $1 million).

[sporesgalaxy]

if my cis mom who is the person im 100% the most nervous to come out to as trans keeps talking about how great and life changing it is taking HRT for menopause & calling it HRT and making it really obvious she's done a ton of research into at least estrogen HRT. I'm going to end up doing something really funny eventually

[fattributes]

Sometimes, being optimistic can be unhelpful. You don't have to feel grateful or thankful that your suffering isn't worse. It can be truly devastating, and you have the right to mourn missed opportunities, isolation, and pain. It's okay to experience emotions that aren't necessarily happy.

[augustedevane]

I want to read other books in the genre(s) I'm writing in, but I'm also afraid that if I do, those books will end up influencing my own writing too much, and I'll end up writing something that's effectively a copy of something else. Does anyone have any thoughts on this? Is my fear well-founded?

[randomfandomss]

WHERE IS THE COMPULSORY BAKE OFF CONCLAVE FIC?????

With these queens in the tent?!?! It would totally fuckkkk!!!!

[knifearo]

everybody! quick! tell me what aro joy means to you <2

[cultofthepigeon]

Pre-hamlet bigby like Help Me Budget

Food: 200 gold

Alchemy Supplies: 150 gold

Housing: 800 gold

Prostitutes and Opium: 3,500 gold

Fancy Boy Pants: 150

someone who is good at economy please help i think ive contracted lycanthropy