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-god I hate western individualism so bad-
This is not the fault of "Western Individualism". This is much bigger than anything like that.
And then I'd also like to go a step further and say that-
People spread that Stranger Danger scare /so hard/ that it's infected /everything/.
This honestly isn't fully why either.
We live in a VERY hyper sexualized world now. And let it be known and understood, I'm not some prude typing this out. I'm an observer. An observer who was abused as a child. (Kinda important for explaining certain things)
So for starters, let's go back to the "Stranger Danger" times. It is true that during that era, the 90's being when it was the worst, the world was beginning to feel a lot smaller. Population sizes were increasing, more immigration was happening as well. But the news has to do what it does best. Scare people. Kids were getting online and meeting strangers on random websites. Parents didn't have much clue what was going on and when the advent of cam sites came about most of them were not for nude cam girls. They were just random people getting on jank webcams with terrible bit rates and bad resolution.
However, this was a bit of new territory for a LOT of people. It was connecting a world full of people, often times unbeknownst to a lot of parents at the time. Hell even online games like Gaia Online, IMVU, and Second Life (all of which came a bit later) were platforms that had a LOT of younger people. But there was a bigger issue at play. Prior to this point, anyone that would have been an active predator didn't just have free reign to find kids. Now they did. Not just that, but lonely and sad people who just wanted a friend often found themselves in the mix. And before anyone tries to say I'm minimizing this, let me get something VERY clear. There are a few different types of people that go after kids/young teens. Pedophiles, who have an attraction to children for a variety of reasons. Opportunists, who just take whatever they can get. And finally the Liability. This person falls under the umbrella of the Opportunist, but unlike them doesn't per se TARGET younger people because they are easier to manipulate. They kind of just go with whatever happens.
Or to put it a more clear way.
Pedophiles: (Target kids because they like kids)
Opportunists: (Target whoever they can get their hands on. If they are younger so be it)
Liabilities: (Doesn't care what age, doesn't target, goes with the flow)
Sadly, a lot of people fell into one or more of these categories. Hell one of my friends actually "fell in love with" one such liability. And the reason I know he was not one of the other two is because he never once asked her age. Nor inquired about it. But she asked him out and he said yes. Wasn't until I started digging that I found out that he was 28. And she was 14 for context. But this is WHY the Stranger Danger movement was SO LOUD for so long. Because parents were not teaching their kids how to be around adults. They also were not teaching them how to be observant, and or how to keep themselves safe.
Now skip to the late 200's early 10's. We was a bulk move away from Christianity (kind of important for this next set of points) and a HUGE boom in marketing of the idea that "Sex Sells". Because honestly, it does. No matter what people tell you it doesn't. I promise it does. Does it always? No. Depends on how you do it. Now we move to the age when porn is less looked down on, Tinder is the hot new thing. Every cool guy in a movie is literally SUAVE and covered in stupidly attractive women. That's our media for years. Now we skip to the last 15 years, and we see a massive explosion in attention grabbing culture where minors and adults alike are making videos and photos of themselves as skimpy as possible on platforms like instagram in order to get clicks and likes. With only ever needing to show more skin and be MORE promiscuous in appearance to get clicks. Mostly due to OnlyFans and Fansly taking the market by storm.
Sex is LITERALLY in our faces almost 24/7 to the point that KIDS are now speaking in Kink terms.
We have literally shot our own selves in the foot on this one.
I grew up around adults. To me, kids being around adults is just normal because it was my childhood. The difference was that my mother was an actual fucking parent and she taught me how to be aware and protect myself. I was also a bit more guarded than most my age due to what happened to me when I was quite young. But rather than saying shit like, "Stranger Danger" to me, my mother and my father and the rest of my family were like, "Look, adults aren't out to hurt you. Yes. Some will be. And some will probably try to take advantage of you. But always make sure to keep your wits about you and if you ever don't feel safe be sure you make that known. If you feel like you can't, find another adult or find law enforcement or scream at the top of your lungs. You find a way that will keep you safe. But realistically you will probably be ok most of the time. Just don't wander to places that are really secluded, and do not follow any strangers home."
Kids NEED to be around adults in order to learn how to be adults. And rather than just being a helicopter parent, teach them HOW to be safe.
However we are more in a bind than ever before, because we have sadly taught a VAST generation of youths that if adults talk to them at all, they just assume ulterior motive. And why shouldn't they? Unfettered access to the internet? An oversexualized society? Sex ads in their faces ALL THE TIME! Kink and BDSM language seeping into culture where it DOES NOT belong. And then not teaching kids what actual pedophiles are. Which is a HUGE issue in and of itself. See pedophiles target kids because they ARE kids. Often the younger they are the better because it's easy to manipulate them. Not only are they innocent but often times they LOOK like they are innocent. Pedophiles often are such because of abuse they went through. Thankfully not everyone continues the cycle, and some people are just attracted to young children that have never dealt with abuse.
Having said all of that, we have somehow convinced kids that they should never grow up. And we no long teach them how to be adults. Hell we only ever bitch about what it's like to be an adult. At which point WHY the fuck would they ever want to grow up. So we have people demanding that we consider 24 y/o's to be kids that can't consent.
Hell, I saw an 18 year old girl who was actually a secretary of business that her father used to own. She managed her money well and actually managed to get a small house, 1 bed one bath. She met a man that started working for the shop that she worked at. He was 26. She made the first move on him. I grew up with her. She was exceedingly mature. I was 19 at the time, and when I met this guy, I didn't much like him. But he was always kind to her. With modern standards, even these two TALKING to one another he would be considered "Pedo". At the time, he was still given weird glances.
All this before he even decided to be ok with them dating. But he wanted to wait until she was 20 or 21 before it was official because he was scared of what the public might think. Sure THIS CASE is one of an older guy dating a younger girl. But they are STILL together to this day. And she was mature and of legal age when she pursued him.
Even stepping away from dating, we've lot purpose as a culture. To a point where we are mostly a people of Hedonism. We seek fame. We seek pleasure. We seek self gratification. And every generation sees it in themselves. And they are so disgusted by it subconsciously, that they have not created whiplash in their own heads in order to imagine that the ONLY thing people can want in today's world is ONLY sex. Is ONLY pleasure. Add to that the media we put out of every single time there is an adult on TV with kids, 8/10 times they are a predator. There's so much that has caused this issue. And we have all collectively helped to make it worse in our own ways. Sure there are ways we can fix it, but it's going to take a number of years to do it. And the first BIG step we need to take is teaching teens how to act like and become adults.
The second step we need to take is to stop treating 18+ year olds like they are toddlers. They can literally sign up to go DIE for this country. They can vote. Used to, they could smoke. And once upon a time, they could drink. Treating legal adults like children is how we ended up with the generation that says shit like "Unalived" and "Uppies". As mid late 20 somethings. I think in which if you are around long enough, catches on. And it's annoying. Start treating adults like adults, and TEACH teens how to BE adults.
And lastly, for the love of god, help PURGE kink language from normal vernacular. I DO NOT wish to walk in a bookstore and here what looks like a 12 year old talking to his whatever calling her "A good kitten". *twitch* Shit's gross.
saw a tiktok that was making good points except it was like "if you're over 23 you shouldn't even know anyone under 20 unless they're family and it's weird if you do" and I just. have you guys ever had coworkers. students. family friends. clubs. is no one going back to school for their BA/MA/PhD. what kind of isolated world are you living in where as a 23+ year old you never interact w anyone under the age of 20. this idea that even Talking to anyone younger than you is somehow predatory is absolutely insane god I hate western individualism so bad. no your best friend ever probably shouldn't be a teenager when you're a grown ass adult but we do in fact need to be in community w people younger than us
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a/n: Drabble. Not proofread. Forgive any spelling/grammar errors I wrote this… as research I promise I’m not horny hahahahahahahahaha I just needed to get this out of my system. I’m going to go to sleep now.
No tags we fuck around and find out like MEN
You never thought you were that kind of person, but ever since you got with him, you just constantly felt like a cat in heat. Can’t stop nuzzling him, can’t stop grinding on him, can’t stop being so damn horny around him,,,, and it pleases him to no end.
On days where you’re both either working from home or have a day off, you’re clinging to that man like a koala, good thing he’s so strong that you just feel like a breeze to him. He’s working or gaming at his desk and you’re on his lap face nuzzled into his neck as you desperately, pathetically hump his thigh, gasping and mewling at the sensation, or sitting under his desk, lazily sucking him off like you’re sucking on your favourite lollipop, as he pays no heed to you, but doesn’t stop you from getting off on him, or getting him off. He’s going to focus on finishing his work or his video game, and then he will fuck your nice and good like you deserve.
Your adorable cat-like mannerisms don’t get unnoticed by him. He thinks it’s oh, so precious, he thinks that if you could you’d be purring in his arms. So he does the only logical thing a cat-loving man would do: he gets you a cat ear headband, a collar with a leash, and a cat tail plug. They’re high-tech and expensive too, they can read your mood and react accordingly. He thinks it’s so adorable when you walk around the house like that.
The fluffy tail, those cute little ears that flatten against your head even he pats it, or hits that spot deep inside. The tail swishing side to side, which he grips gently as he thrusts languidly into you, while your eyes roll back, and your tongue hangs from your mouth, as he tugs at the leash pulling you back.
He then pushes your head into the pillows and begins thrusting harder, his self control crumbling, how can he hold back, when his little kitty is presenting herself to him so well, face down, ass up, beckoning him, begging for him…
Yes, good kitty he coos. He lets go of the leash, and fists your hair, pulling your head back, making those cat ears flutter and flatten against your head in ecstasy… he can never get enough of how your body reacts to him, and the sounds that you make… the sounds that you make drive him completely insane.
So insane that he doesn’t think twice before dumping his entire load into your warm, wet, gushy insides, as they flutter around his cock too, squeezing him for all he’s worth, and more. You want him to stay like that forever, it feels so good; so warm and so full, you’d never tire of this sensation.
And then he’d pull out, slowly, as he softens inside you, and sees his seed dripping from you so deliciously, he can’t help but collect some and smear it on you, so shiny, so juicy and plump. You look so tempting he can’t even help himself and before either of you can register what’s happening he’s between your legs lapping up both your release, because you taste so good and he takes care of himself he knows damn well he tastes good too. And together, between your legs, it tastes absolutely divine.
He doesn’t even care that you’re shaking and trembling like a leaf in a storm, he holds you down with his strong hands and keeps at it, it’s for his own pleasure at this point, his tongue licking and prodding, savouring your taste as it gushes out again and again, drenching the sheets, as well as his face. And he revels in it. He loves it so fucking much.
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First Place
when you make a bet with your best friend—loser is forced to do what the winner wants—but his demands for you aren't exactly what you expected, but you're fully willing to comply.
Pairing - heeseung x fem!reader
Genre - friends with benefits, friends to ???, smut
Word count - 2k
Warnings - p in v, creampie, cliche, degrading (he calls reader a slut), fingering, mentions of other enha members, Mario kart mention, stripping, lmk if I missed anything!
A/N - I was gonna lowkey abandon writing but here I am.. back again... again, sorry if it's bad, and thank you to the anon in my inbox who gave me writing advice! i dont feel like using capitalization in this one so im not gonna... anyways.. enjoy! also yes im aware its kinda cliche
MDNI 18+
heeseung was always your best friend; he was always there when you needed him and vice versa. meeting him in high school was the best twist of fate ever. those four years would've ended up miserable had it been someone else.
there was a decent amount of girls after him, but that was never a bother. in fact, he was always your wingman, helping you find ways to ask out your crush without looking like a complete ditz. he had a couple of girlfriends throughout high school, but they never really lasted.
he was able to tell when you were upset and was somehow always able to pinpoint the reason. you'd never thought of him in a romantic light, although he was extremely attractive. it was like a forbidden fruit, something you were too scared to explore.
after graduation, applying to the same college as one another seemed scary. what if only one of you got in? what if neither of you got in? those worrying questions quickly disappeared when one day you both opened your results and found out you were both accepted.
he made new friends, and so did you, but one thing was that you never forgot each other. you both still regularly hung out and went to your usual coffee shops or shopping malls.
heeseung and his friends are at his dorm, and he had given you permission to come and go in his dorm without asking whenever you wanted whether he was there or not. his roommate, Jake, was hesitant about this at first, but just agreed to avoid drama, however, he grew to not mind it.
you were bored lying in your dorm room, so you got up to go to his dorm. upon walking in, you find him, his roommate, and his friends all huddled together in the living room, some on the couch, some on the floor, and the rest standing around. through a closer look, it wasn't hard to locate a couple of them, including heeseung, who were equipped with gaming controllers; they were playing video games.
one of his friends who wasn't playing hears the door opening and looks at you. you don't know his friends well, except for his roommate, but you did know their names.
the friend who saw you, jay, smirks upon noticing your presence. you didn't know the reason, but you just left it alone with a shrug of your shoulders. jay tapped heeseung—whose attention was occupied by whatever game it is that they're playing—and he replied without even looking away from the tv screen. "what is it? I'm trying to win, dude," he said. jay leaned into heeseung's ear and whispered something that you were unable to hear.
heeseung paused the game, earning him a few groans from his friends who also held controllers before turning his head to the door where you were standing. he smiled at you, "hey y/n! come here, we're all playing video games!" after walking over to him you both quickly realize there's no room on the couch for you to sit, but that problem didn't last very long. he hits his friend sitting next to him, sunghoon, not very hard but so sunghoon will know what heeseung is trying to get him to do.
sunghoon promptly got up, before you even got time to process him getting up, heeseung grabbed your wrist and pulled you to sit down next to him on the couch. it wasn't hard to notice the looks and smirks his friends gave each other once he did this, but you didn't think anything of it.
"why'd you show up to my dorm this time?" he looked at you, the game still paused, but it seemed his friends were more focused on you two rather than the game now. you let out a small laugh at his comment, "i got bored so i came here, but you're already busy i see." he shakes his head, "i'm not busy, we're just playing games, now watch me win," he smirks, he's always been quite cocky but it's part of his charm.
he unpaused it and continued the competitive game with an intense focus. after a bit, the game was over, and well, heeseung didn't win, but that's not important. he throws a playful fit about losing, and after a bit, he turns to you. "hey, lets play the hardest map on mario kart and whoever loses gets to boss the loser around, but it's just us two," he grins at his own idea, hoping you accept.
he almost cheers when he sees you nod, and signals one of his friends to hand you a controller. he selects the map, and as the game starts, he's completely in the zone; he really wants to win, to have power over you.
after crossing the finish line for the final time, heeseung had won, which makes you let out a groan of disapproval. his friends all laugh as heeseung lightly pushes and teases you. "I knew you were a loser!" he teases, making you hit him on the shoulder. "knock it off, i hate you, you have more experience!" you argue back, and he just laughs.
"okay so now I get to tell you what to do," he smirks. you roll your eyes, but he suddenly shooes his friends out of his dorm while they shoot him knowing looks, and mocking kissing gestures. it's like they know something you don't, which makes you nervous. why would they leave that easily?
after they had left, heeseung shifts around in his seat and turns back to you. "so.. now I need to think about what I'm gonna make you do.. maybe me and jakes dishes? the laundry?" he says, basically talking to himself. he just sits there thinking for a moment, occasionally throwing out random ideas until his face changes, finally landing on one. "y/n, we've been friends for a long time, yeah?" you nod, waiting for him to continue. "you know.. you're really pretty, and I think I've made my decision..." your heart flutters for a second at the tone he used; he never really talked to you like this before. he's told you you're pretty, but the way he said it this time was different.
"strip for me," his tone completely serious, lacking any bit of sarcasm or signs that he's joking. your eyes go wide, and you look at him, bewildered at what he chose. "seriously? strip? hee—" he stopped you before you could finish, "I'm serious, I've always felt something towards you, this is my opportunity, I choose for you to strip," his tone lowering, you can see the desire and the hunger written in his eyes.
through your utter shock, you take a moment to think, he is attractive.. you've always thought he was. what's the harm in this? why not just do it?
you started by removing your hoodie. once he realized you were down for his demands, he couldn't look away. then you removed your shirt, followed by your pants, now just leaving you in your bra and underwear. heeseung was just sitting back, manspreading, smirking at you. he'd never seen you so exposed like this before. "so pretty, your body is so sexy," he commented, you could see the growing bulge in his grey sweatpants.
suddenly, he stood up, grabbing your wrist dragging you to his bed before promptly pushing you down onto it. he quickly crawled on top of you and smashed his lips onto yours. it was unexpected but not unwelcome as you kissed him back and moved one of your hands to bury your fingers in his hair. as the kiss continued, your grip on his hair got tighter, earning a groan from him, while one of his hands explored your thighs.
his hand made its way to the wet patch on your panties, touching you over the cotton. this caused you to let out a whine at the feeling; you wanted more, wanted him to touch you more. he clearly noticed this, "beg for it," he demanded. he clearly wasn't going to give it to you that easily even though it was his idea. "please heeseung, touch my pussy, please.." your pleas made his cock twitch in his boxers, he finally took your panties completely off, sliding them down your legs.
he ran his fingers slowly and teasingly through your already wet and slick folds. "all this for me? didn't think you loved the idea of fucking your best friend so much, you're just a slut aren't you?" his degrading words just fueled your desire for his cock even more even though it probably shouldn't.
he slowly inserted one finger into your cunt, the feeling causing a small moan to release itself from your mouth. he then added a second one and started out slowly moving his fingers in and out of your hole, but then he sped up and even curled the slightly making them hit your g-spot at just the right angle. you moaned at the pleasure that took over you as he continued to scissor his fingers inside of you. his thumb started to rub your clit further stimulating your pussy.
"heeseung im s' close—" he removed his fingers without warning, making you whine at the newfound emptiness. before you could even question, he removed his sweatpants and his shirt. you could feel the drool forming at the sight of his chest and physique, but then your eyes landed on something even more exciting, the stain on his boxers due to his leaking cock.
he removed his boxers next, his large cock springing out, the sight of it made your eyes widen. how would he even fit? "it'll fit baby, don't worry, I'll make it fit," he said almost as if he had read your mind. he ran the tip of his cock through your slick folds and gave himself a couple strokes before finally lining himself up with your entrance. "i'm gonna fuck this pussy so good you hear me?"
he was so eager he didn't even go slow this time; he immediately rammed himself into you, enjoying the sight of the slight bulge he created on your stomach. he pulled out almost fully before thrusting back in, he repeated this process, making you a moaning mess. it was hard to tell where one of you started and where the other ended, "seungie- p-please.. keep going," you begged him, and he listened. he wasn't going to stop until you both came. you could feel his tip grazing your cervix, his cock stretching your pussy so good. you'd had sex before, but you could already tell heeseung is the best you'll ever get.
"come on baby, i know you're close, you like this don't you? like being my little slut," he was right, you did like it, you were close, he knew how to read you like an open book. "gonna cum—" is all you could manage to get out as the pleasure took over you making it almost impossible to form coherent sentences. not long after your words you let go, your release painting his cock forming a white ring at his base as he continued his thrusts chasing his own orgasm. "hold on love, i'm almost there, you can take it," he encouraged. his thrusts started to grow sloppy; he was close. finally, he came, his release painting the inside of your gummy walls. you'd never had anyone cum in you, you'd always had them pull out, but heeseung was different. you wanted him to cum in you.
he rolled off of you, now lying beside you as he brushed a sweaty strand of your hair out of your face. he looked at your bra still covering your tits, he leaned in to your ear and whispered "next time, I'm gonna fuck these pretty tits. I was so caught up with your pussy your poor boobs didn't get any love," he said almost sounding genuinely upset and sympathetic for them.
you wanted to ask what you two were now, but a pang of fear hit you; you were scared of his answer, so you decided to stay silent. you wanted to stay awake, but exhaustion was catching up. no matter how hard you tried to fight it, you couldn't. you finally closed your eyes and fell asleep, heseung followed soon after.
i hope you all liked it!! i'm not too confident about this one but yk.. anyways, this is only like the 4th evber fic ive ever written..... im aware its kinda fast paced, i did rush it oops....
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virtual tracks
max verstappen
tags: smut/pwp, sim racing, oral sex/face sitting (reader receiving), masturbation, dirty talk, sub!max
you knew what you were getting into when you first saw the sim racing set up in his apartment. redline was a big part of his life, just like formula one. even when he wasn't streaming, it still meant a big deal to him.
and you were happy that he had a hobby! after all, it wasn't the worst video game to play. you were fine with him playing his silly little racing games and chit-chatting with friends and fans.
but sometimes, you wanted to break that set up with a hammer and toss it over the balcony.
how was this possible? you were standing there in nothing but blue lace panties and one of his redbull windbreakers, the zipper down enough to show your wonderful cleavage. you were inviting him for sex. and max was not paying an ounce of attention.
you were almost dumbfounded until you crossed your arms and said, "max."
"in a minute, my treasure. one second." he said, his eyes didn't peel away from the screen. he steered the virtual car around the curb on a virtual track. you pinched the bridge of your nose and zipped the windbreaker back up.
you went over and grasped the back of his chair and leaned, "max verstappen. for someone with sharp enough vision to win four championships. you are painfully blind." and placed another hand loosely at his neck.
"just let me finish this race and i swear i'll go down on you until you cum at least three times." he promised as he felt an uptick in his pulse. your engagement ring glimmered in the low light.
"you're picking a video game over me, max?" you leaned in a little closer, "thought i taught you better than that. i dressed up for you and you're too busy with your games." your hand lowered to his shorts where you got your hand under the waistband. you gave his cock a little attention, feeling him grow hard under your touch.
he instantly crashed the sim car into a wall and let out a sweet little moan. there was the max you knew and loved. the man who whimpered.
"please, my love." he shuddered, "i'm sorry."
"i understand, you boys love your silly little games. but, now that you're done with that level. why don't you keep your promise?" and played with his cock until he started to get up from his seat.
you knew that max was smart and to see him put that brain to use was always a good sign. you guided him to the bedroom. he let you lead him then pushed him onto the bed.
he reached for you and tried to grab you, but you swatted his hands away. your tone was stern as you said, "look, don't touch. got it?" he then put his hands back on the bed, but those blue eyes were trained on you as you stripped of your minimal clothes. if he had behaved, he would have been able to undress you like a present. he felt his cock twitch in his shorts.
"look at you, maxie." you purred as you got onto the bed, "aren't you the sweetest thing ever? mister big and tough on the track, but when it's just you and i, well, you're just a cute little kitten." you reached for him and kissed him firmly on the lips, "see you look better on your back than in front of a screen." you laid him out on the bed.
he shifted on the bed and felt his pulse spike once more. he could already feel the heat in his face, you stripped him of his black shirt and his shorts. you ran a finger up his hard cock and he almost came from that, you just giggled.
you licked your lips, "do your little racing friends know that you're such a good boy for me? so sweet and loved? does your teammate know? the other drivers on the grid? i bet everyone can see if on your face." your voice sounded nurturing, but your words were erotic.
it was no secret that you were more assertive, some would consider you a little brash. but max loved it. you were quite the pair. you were unlike anyone else he had ever been with.
"are you going to make me cum with that tongue of yours? you leaned in for a kiss before you got on top of him. when you broke the kiss, you got your knees planted on either side of his head.
he licked his lips and you pressed your wet cunt up against his mouth. he clenched onto the sheets as he rubbed his tongue against your pussy. he shuddered as his cock leaked pre-cum.
he was stupid for not focusing on you. you dressed up so nicely for him. racing should have been the last thing on his mind when he could be devouring your sweet, sweet cunt.
you reached down and held onto his shirt blond hair. you remarked with a small chuckle, "your hair is getting a little long, my dear. it feels nice, a good length to yank on."
he groaned, you weren't going to pull out the strands. but the small tug made him only further aroused.
maybe it was how good he made you feel, but you were feeling generous. you looked at him between your legs as you rocked your hips against him. you said softly, "max, my love. you must be so needy. you can touch yourself."
he mumbled a 'thank you' as he reached for his cock and he stroked himself. he made a blissed out noise as he feverishly pleasure you with his tongue. he swore under his breath as he felt the sexual pleasure grow.
max was so good for you, and you were so good for him. he moaned, as did you. you held onto the headboard and moved your hips further against his face. you clenched your thighs around his head.
he knew how to eat you out so well. he was talented with his tongue. he knew the pace that really got you going, the pressure to make you eager for more. his talent, to make you moan.
you groaned and pulled his hair a little more as you rubbed up against him further. you cursed under your breath.
"master with that tongue, max." you shakily exhaled as you moved further up against him, "look at you, fuck. you look good under me, max. you look better with my thighs crushing your skull." you looked as you felt the pleasure continue to course through you.
his tongue grazed across your clit, his licks were a little more heavy and it made your pulse jump as the heat coursed through you. fire in your blood as the hot blond between your legs made your cunt with sexual want.
"drive me crazy, honey." you purred, "you know what you do to me, is that why you were so focused on that stupid game because you are such a tease." you clenched your thighs a little tighter, he groaned as you said, "you're such a tease, max."
his thought were swamped, he could only think of you, you were intoxicating. alluring. you made his cock throb, even as he stroked himself. he could feel pre-cum slide down his knuckles. he breathed through his nose as he licked your beautiful cunt.
heaven.
that was all could be said about you. he needed you deeply, carnally. he yearned for you, in a certain way that he could only describe as being heavenly. is sang in his soul. he yearned for you, needed you. he loved you, even when your thighs were squishing his head. to die by them around be a noble death.
you moaned as you felt the pleasure brew in you. the intense feeling soon reached its peak and you held onto his hair tightly and continued to move against his face. it was an intense feeling as the warmth continued to flow through you.
max continued to jerk himself off, he needed his release soon. the pressure of erotic heat was far too much for him. everything in his body ran hot as he stroked himself quickly. his cock ached for you, when you moaned, he knew he was close. his pace was quick, matching with how he gorged himself on your cock. his dedicating to pleasing you.
you panted heavily, "fuck, fuck, yes. fuck, max. that's it." your noises got louder as you felt climax so close, like it was on the tip of your tongue.
as you came on his tongue, he came around his hand. you finished together. you slowed your ace to a stop and relaxed around him. you panted heavily and pushed hair out of your face to get some relief on your heated cheeks. you got off his face, your pussy was soaked.
you laid out next to him and let him catch his breath for a moment.
"fuck, you're so good to me." you said as you wiped your wetness from his mouth before you went in for a hot kiss.
he got the cum off his hand before he pulled you closer to him and kissed your sweaty forehead. he happily accepted your affection.
"this was amazing." he purred as he held you close to him. you felt good in his arms. he kissed you head and relaxed further into the bed.
you took him by the chin and made him look up at you. you said to him, "you said you were going to make me cum three times." then smiled, "time to get to work, max and then maybe you can go back to sim racing."
"yes, please." he said as he got back between your legs,. he was focused the same way he was when he raced.
you chuckled as he gripped your thigh, "good boy." <3
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Mental Diet - use the block button!
This might sound obvious, but some need to hear it more than others. i was someone who needed to hear it for a long time and wouldn't accept it. i got kind of good at it but wasn't going far enough. your mental diet, in my opinion, is very important especially if you're a highly emotional person like myself. not highly emotional as in dramatic, but as in that i feel my feelings very deeply and i used to let them have control of me entirely, which is not a great way to feel. we all have to feel human emotions, and feeling them doesn't derail your manifestation, only when you let your emotions control your assumptions/affirmed knowledge is it a problem to experience natural human feelings.
that being said, the reason i made this post was to remind people that you should actively be tailoring whatever online platforms you use to make sure you're not getting stuck in echo chambers of negative energy. of course we all need to pay attention to the news and what's going on in the world, and those we care about, but don't let your algorithm throw you off your game. if you're trying to manifest an sp and keep liking/engaging with "oh i'll always be alone forever woe is me" content (and therefore sites pushing more of it to you), this is not good for your mental diet. would someone who already has their sp be liking videos about how alone they are or how depressed they are not to have the person they want? no. your mental diet is just like a physical one. sure, it's okay to have some junk food every now and then, we're all human. but you shouldn't spend all day eating candy bars and ice cream.
think about a healthy diet: you need protein, leafy greens, vitamins and minerals, good fats, etc etc etc - it's the same with your mental diet. keep it varied but consistent. just because you need protein in your diet doesn't mean the only food you should eat is steak every meal forever. that's how you get scurvy. eating some carbs isn't going to kill you. it's the same with your mental diet. we cannot live in a sensory deprivation tank where we never see or hear anything in the 3D ever at all. or if that's what you'd manifest, i don't know why. keeping a mental diet isn't about neurotically shutting out ANYTHING that triggers a negative emotion because "oh no my manifestation will go away". the harsh truth is that if your manifestation gets thrown off the rails by the slightest negative emotion, you aren't believing in your manifestation. you aren't in the state of assuming you already have it. you aren't fully knowing it's true in the 4D. since we can't avoid the 3D while we live in human bodies, it's about tailoring your 3D as much as is accessible to you to keep you on track, while also respecting the balance of understanding the 3D is a projection of the 4D and for things to be real in the 3D, they have to be real in the 4D first. even people who have no clue what manifestation is talk about this all the time: don't hang around friends that bring you down, don't put up with a toxic work environment, don't date people who make you feel bad about yourself etc etc - it's the same with the mental diet. don't constantly read depressing stuff all day. don't listen to sad music all day. don't consume media that encourages you to self-deprecate or to have body image issues. it's almost like brainwashing, but consciously for the positive.
literally brainwash yourself (saturate) with content and media that makes you feel safe and secure in your manifestation, or even better, not even really think about it too much at all. don't overly depend on using it to make yourself feel better either. it will end up being another crutch because you're not confronting that you don't actually live in the wish fulfilled if you need any form of crutch. it's a balance. let the movies you watch, music you listen to, subs/sleep tapes you use, spiritual content, manifestation content etc just be regular comforts and interesting hobbies for you. not an end-all-be-all that HAS to keep you on track by being sickeningly positive all day every day, but also vice versa, not what throws you off the rails because you keep engaging with negative content and checking 3D all the time. checking 3D is for another post but it's also bad for your mental diet. checking 3D though in my opinion is like eating a whole box of oreos in one sitting, and refusing to have a mental diet at all is like eating only candy and fast food for your entire life.
even if it just annoys you or puts you in a bad mood, block it. hit the thumbs down. hit "not interested" or "don't recommend" etc etc whatever feature it is on whatever site. don't allow yourself to be swept up in "misery loves company" content that makes you dwell on your OLD STORY! there are SO many content creators out there in every corner of the web who's entire game is keeping you sad, or keeping you hooked on them for answers. negative nancy's that spread extremely depressing and self-deprecating content in general.
this section is a bit of a derail but i can't help myself. this stuff applies to a shitload of the tarot, astrology, and other spiritual creators. and i like those things for myself. but a lot of those people are sus and prey off of sad, worried people, and people with psychosis tbr (bc i've been there when i was young and ik how it works), to make a quick buck or get attention. it's sad. like the types of tarot readers that say EVERY card is about your ex coming back, or your sp coming in, basically any combo they draw they say it means that. i've been reading tarot for 10 years, don't let other people's grifts get to you. this was just another example, but i know the manifestation community (at least to my experience) seems to be split up between those who like other spiritual things and those who really do not. you get what i mean though, hopefully. any type of grifting content where they're preying on your emotional stability and spiritual/personal beliefs. i also really do not like how a lot of manifestation coaches exist that charge hundreds of dollars for "classes" with them. none of us is any more powerful than the other, we are all the creator. we are the creator and we all have the knowledge inside of us already. you don't need to spend hundreds of dollars or even a single dollar learning how to manifest, especially when there's so much out there for free. all you need to do to manifest is to be made aware that this power has existed within you since birth (because of history it has often been a huge lie over millions of people that they don't have this power, another post) and practice applying it. that's it. EIYPO doesn't mean "no one exists except for me", it means we are all the same divine source. and just like our world/universe was created, it was in the 4D awareness and fulfilment first, then burst out into the 3D. that's also for another post.
no matter whether its spiritual content, relationship content, body image content, wealth content, etc etc the point is, keep the old story old, and the new story new.
make pinterest boards, youtube playlists, music playlists, blogs, whatever it is you enjoy - with your mental diet in mind. use the internet to your advantage as a tool of knowledge, affirming, and persisting and not as a crutch, or as a place to dwell on the negative/check 3D all the time. xoxo
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Every now and then, I think about The Simpsons RPC and how there's an occasionally a spike of Simpsons muses that inevitably crumbles away and leaves me waiting for the next short lived Simpsons RPC Renaissance
#ooc tag#《 maybe there's still active Simpsons RPers out there and I'm not looking hard enough 》#《 but I'm surprised there's not more of a consistent/active community 》#《 even if the newer seasons are contentious‚ I'd at least expect people to have enough nostalgia for the old seasons to go off of that 》#《 part of me has always wanted to see if i could find an rp partner who could make Homer endearing to me again 》#《 I've been soured on him as a character for so long that finding someone who could make him tolerable is like finding a unicorn 》#《 especially when it seems like no one is interested in writing as him to begin with 》#《 The Simpsons is a big Special Interest of mine 》#《 i had an entire Simpsons RP blog before I gave up and migrated the muses back onto here 》#《 i miss writing my Simpsons muses 》#《 if there's any canon muses that come most naturally to me‚ it'd probably be the Simpsons ones 》#《 that and my Stardew Valley muses 》#《 it's easier to get me to play video games bc that's actively engaging me 》#《 and SDV is a big comfort game for me 》#《 i swear I'll get around to answering some drafts that are in purgatory rn 》#《 some of the replies are mostly done but I've stalled on them for whatever reason 》#《 there's less pressure with my Simpsons muses bc the characters have changed so much that it doesn't feel like i could be ooc 》#《 unless i deliberately tried to make them unlike anything they've ever been like in canon 》#《 and even then‚ there's probably an episode where they acted like that 》
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i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.
#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up#to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart#that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is#everything about it makes me incredibly autistic#from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers#to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players#and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the “post-ruin scifi” tale#it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby#and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance#and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell#SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD#IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO#SPOILER WARNING#i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game#i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m#i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about#fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible#for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say “i helped that! i did that!” was an incredibly good feeling#the story really spoke to me on a deeper level#and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result#so to do absolutely everything that i could#to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail?#and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe?#felt like i got kicked in the stomach#i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN.#which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the “you lost” scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful#but MOTIVATING.#my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself#i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra#and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance
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so if you romance and ascend astarion you can kick him in the balls when he tries to turn you and it’s just very funny, he’s so pissy about it. so much for the most powerful vampire of all time or whatever, he stamps around like a toddler and then leaves forever
#i’m glad i saved before that choice so i can go through all the scenes i wouldn’t have got otherwise#(‘that choice’ meaning ascension)#im Fascinated by a whole bunch of stuff if you ascend him#like if you succeed on the detect thoughts (or maybe insight i forget) before he turns you to see what he think of you#it says something like ‘he will always see you as degrading yourself while you choose to be with him’ which is just BONKERS INSANE#like not confusing or anything. just wild to include. in a good way; like yeah of course that’s how he feels#and then the narrator follows it up with something like ‘but isn’t that what you want?’#like i’m glad they do actually try to impress upon you how fucked this dynamic is. they’re not trying to make you think it’s a good outcome#(i know there’s discourse about this and it’s very annoying)#(people who are like ‘actually it’s romantic and kinky’ uhh 😬)#(but then people who are like ‘how can anyone think this is ok’ and direct that towards anyone who enjoys playing it)#(like no it’s fun and genuinely interesting and i can see the appeal. just not when it comes to analysing the relationship)#(most people are aware that this is a bad dynamic they’re just playing a game chill out)#(like when i said 😬 about it being romantic/kinky i mean that from the perspective of analysing the story not personal enjoyment)#(anyway. moving on)#like i did that specific bit of dialogue probably a month or more ago and only once (because the test was really hard)#and it’s been creeping around in my head ever since. i love it lmao#i saw a video of that kiss where he makes you kneel a while ago and didn’t quite believe it was a real thing#but no it’s one of his actual default kisses. amazing#like i’m definitely gonna do a playthrough where i get everyone to make the power-hungry soul-destroying choices#and i might have to romance astarion again for that one because he definitely seems to have the most bad-decision relationship content#although he has the most relationship content full stop so it’s not surprising#but i think that’s the only one that notably changes your character during the playthrough rather than just the epilogue#personal#ash plays bg3
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something invokes the carnal rage in me when a grown man rages like a two-year old over a video game
#it makes me think of the mothers trying to act like theyre defusing an already blown up bomb and it's literally just#idk#it just gives me the ick im srry the moment i hear one 'me' entitled statement and it's not like#clearly burnt out 'i kinda know im being ironic' ventong#venting LMAO#and just genuine sorrow for urself#over a Digital Game#i just cant srry#maybe it's my youngest to an older brother who everyone gets the ages flipped around Not just from looks but actual Acting#syndrome#and of course context plays a part too like if u have a stressful af job and just wanted to rewind? understandable. id be pissed too#but mfers who just Sit there and continue to stink the whole room up is like. ok. get some air or smthin#i do Not fuck around with throwing or damaging expensive shit ESPECIALLY if u did not pay for it#idk im naturally good at video games i think only bcs i only had access to old one that were way above my age audience#so i had to develop a sense of patterning not just to have competition but to just play the game at all#but still i have gotten frustrated at games bcs everyone gets frustrated at smthing#but usually now. at my grown age. (even tho i Rarely ever game anymore bcs i cant rlly so anything not active in my mind#bcs of Guilt and Constant Dread of Judgement)#when i find myself getting frustrated it's bcs im purposefully either playing a harder level/mode/with better ppl so i can advance#and the advancing is just not happening#i acknowledge that and accept not every difficulty can be passed at one time or at all sometimes in my limited time/care so i just either#Shut it Off. or go back down to a pace i know can just be carefree#i DO have a thing where i Need to end on a win. which is not good bcs i do that with everythin (like sports) in order to justify me quittin#but if i have to get out of the rlly competitive lobby to get my dopamine then i will bcs this is meant to give u that#anyways it's just insane. ted complains abt superfocus while being superfocused himself on the concept of superfocus#the neverending story#DO anything not active** idk it's my fear of death maybe that i disease myself with everything needing a purpose when it comes to gain
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Oc for @tokyoghoulartfight2024 :>
Finally got around to drawing this guy lol :> Not the greatest work of art, but it’ll do ig ;w; He technically wasn’t a tg oc but he started out as being part of a tg au that became so far removed from canon that it became it’s own thing and now he’s circled back around to being a tg oc :>
Details under the cut!
Name: Mason Leech
Nationality: American
Species: Human
Age: 25
Backstory: Originally grew up in a small town with a very high ghoul population, when he got older he became a butcher and started making a living by selling meat to ghouls who wanted to be more pacifistic or simply couldn’t hunt for themselves. He eventually moved to a larger city but got caught pretty quickly and had to flee. Repeat that cycle a few more times and he eventually made his way over to Japan which is where he’s set up shop by the time of tg.
Personality: Acts very friendly towards everyone he meets (so friendly in fact that most people find him unsettling), though in reality he only really cares about himself and how much of a profit he can turn. If he does end up caring about someone it will be in a very controlling and unhealthy way.
Other Information:
He supplies meat to both the Ghoul Restaurant and to Anteiku when their usual methods aren’t working
He sometimes hand out eyes wrapped like candy to ghoul children who come in
He engages in cannibalism, but he’ll usually only really eat whatever’s left over at the end of the day, since he doesn’t want to waste good meat that he could sell
I’d imagine he’s met Shuu, Touka, Hinami, and Kaneki before. He has a fairly positive relationship with Shuu (he likes having someone else to talk with about food) and Hinami (she reminds him of someone he knew back home), and a fairly negative one with Touka (he gives her the creeps). He’s only met Kaneki once, and finds him interesting
He’s a musical theatre fan
He keeps a poster of Angela Lansbury in his room
He doesn’t just sell human meat, his shop also just functions as a regular butcher’s shop so he sells normal meat too
I’m fine with almost everything, the only thing I’d ask is not to ship him with any minors.
If you have any questions, lmk! I’d be very happy to answer them :>
#my rambles#my art#if I ever get around to making the video game I want to make this guy’ll be the protag#but for now he can be a tg oc :>#mason leech
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Ok, yeah. None of you know what a fem fatale is.
#my posts#my wuwa#just finished A Fleeting Night's Dream and uh.#i know im calling her gooner bait bc that is what she is on marketing face value#but yall really saw big tits/skimpy outfit and went full 'uWu!! she is a fem fatale because she looks like one!'#still never saw her seduce anyone or have that lingerie outfit play any part in her characterization#that woman is one of the softest kindest hearted characters in gacha ever jfc. Yinlin is 10000x more fem fatale than Cantarella#flirting with the MC and then never fucking with the MC doesnt make her a fem fatale either. girlie Lady Fasalia is just flirting#and AND we never see her kill anyone in game (her marketing youtube video is not in game content#if a gotcha is that shes been manipulating the Order - first of all who isnt kinda? lol like lets be for real for a second - and secondly#and secondly WE NEVER GET TO SEE IT IN GAME#not sorry at all - if its not in game in a way that we're playing through it and can experience it then it doesnt count.#show me. dont fucking tell me. thats a failure on Kuro if thats something they want us to believe about her#and its bullshit for gamers to fucking tout around like its gospel. its not even in game yall 😭 yall are so dumb
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i’ve been seeing one or two artists talk about their pkmn aus and i love how we’ve all collectively agreed that kuukou would have a gengar LOL
#this is vee speaking#i haven’t thought about mine in a while lol i should#like i found the post i made about this and even there i was saying i needed to reevaluate some of these#like lol what if took kuukou’s monferno and gave it to ramuda as a nod to him being sun wukong in that fpmtr episode in rhyme anima lol#i set a goal for myself to make a video game this year but the game i had in mind was my own hypdream#thank god hypdream is everything i ever wanted lol#but i’ve been playing around with a bat centric pkmn game for a while trying to get the story right but maybe it’s time to lock in#and rly make it a goal lol#i need to get on my streaming plans tho to help hold my self accountable lol
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I'm so heavily anti-advertising that all pitches sound goofy silly to me/I can never take them seriously, so I have no idea how I'll manage to to advertise my game even if I do finally finish it soon-ish lol...
#Especially how so much modern media advertising is like... getting people excited about random tropes and stuff like#''Do you love enemies to lovers? Do you love sad stories that make you do a heckin CRY? Do you love big stupid dumbo muffin cake#sinnamon roll babies who are too good for this world? Have you ever wanted to read a blah blach blah" whatever stuff and it's like#... i cannot type that... I couldnt do it.. I couldn't even think of how to do it ghbjhbjh#I am such a literal person... Like I love when an advertisement is just like 'This product works well. Look at it. Buy it if you want. Ok'#You know what makes me want to read a book or watch a show or play a game? Reading a detailed plot synopsis or the full wiki page#for it and then deciding 'yeah I wouldnt mind sitting through seeing the events I just read about happen in more detail' lol#OR aesthetics. since I do often watch things JUST for the set/costume design. Sometimes I will watch stuff literally#just because I saw a picture of a costume in it that looked really cool and I want to sketch costume looks whilst watching#But aside from appearance like... little bullet point break downs of things that are in a story just ... do not do anything to me at all.#And i just hate 'selling' things to begin with. I don't want to have to convince people to like something.. they should just... like it...#LOL.. like.. just be born liking it. just like it automatically please. Dont make me beg to you like a weird little freak. So many commerci#als seem weirdly desperate and manipulative. Like those Truck/Car commercials that will have like a freaking dog crying and#a war vet in a wheelchair with the american flag in the background and a family hugging around a christmas tree or some shint and its#just like oh my GODDD... shut UPP.. you could literally not be MORE blantant about just trying to prey on peoples emotions to build#some sort of fabricated positive association with your product/brand.. begone.. Or brands having their own twitters where they post#~~relatable content~~ as a means of shallow audience endearment GGGRR..... ANYWAY.. hhrgh...................#Maybe that's something I can ask playtesters I guess like.. I feel like I don't know my own audience very well because I am not#much of a media person?? ironically.. Like I do enjoy MAKING media. But I've never been in a fandom. I've never read fanfiction. I've never#spent much time in those spaces. I've just never really had the inclination and don't personally derive much joy out of stuff like that#(since I'm already so focused on my OWN world and projects its like.. hard for me to even find the time and mental energy to expend on#others). Even when I finish a movie or game and really like it.. I just kind of like...move on? and don't really dwell on it much? At most#I will get into the worldbuilding of a piece of media and read the wiki for a while or watch Lore info or critical analysis videos. But I#never really care for or attach to the characters or the plot itself very much. So I feel like.. the way my brain works. I'm just not as#good at approaching things from that angle? Kind of like how if you're a lifelong vegetarian whos never eaten meat - you might#struggle to write an ad for fancy brand of steaks bc you'd be like... idk what meat eaters are even looking for? whats the selling point??#Which I'm not saying that I wouldn't play my own game. i AM definitely the audience for it. But it's more like.. I would play it for my own#very niche specific reasons that I think are different from what MOST people might want to play it for. So I need to somehow#tap into the minds of the Majority who play things for Normal Reasons than pure lore collection or whatever lol.
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i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms
#do i still list my interests somewhere i dont knowwww#i just stopped rly being into fandom a few years ago combination depression antipathy + bad experiences in fandom spaces#but idk. me listing my interests didnt rly accomplish anything for anyone bc it was just like anddd just so you know i was crazy abt this#video game for a rly long time it probably wont ever come up again but it might maybe one day. yk. ig its just sharing info Which is one#supposes the point of all of this but idk#its not that im cagey abt my interests except that one which i cant talk abt publically bc its a triple a game and im embarassed abt it. no#anything bad im just embarrassed . its not anything any of my oomfies have ever posted abt either so its just for me. and lamp . and when#the third game comes out i might post very very very vaguely abt it ......... possibly.#but ya its like. idk i think you guys have to find out abt my plague tale obsession on your own through lived experience. aka just me seein#like the word king and randomly collapsing to the floor and going KING HUGO 😭😭😭😭😭 oh god hugo guys oh god . please play plague tale#i wish i had finished that tw thing i started making but then i got too focused on the color palette and making it look nice and i stopped.#umm tw child death animal death The plague some gorey stuff theres some cult things in the second game ummm. yeah ..... its rly special to#me tho i love those games PLAY PLAGUE TALE!!! and if u need more indepth tws ill give them to you even if i have to replay both games to#refresh my memory... lamp wont play plaguetale with me (not their speed) so im all alone </3 but i miss it i might replay soon... i wish i#was in like discord servers so i could play it on call w ppl or something <- is in discord servers but is shy and Also i feel like playing#game on call is like a level like 2 friendship thing and i cant even do level 1 friendship things like i feel i need to at least be talking#regularly in a server b4 i like try to do Calls in the server esp for plague tale bc its like a 1p game so wed need a rapport to like have#shit to talk abt and etc ..... i could just infodump abt the game but again i feel doing that to like strangers/oomfies would b weird. ik i#come on here and talk abt whatever i want but its like you guys dont Have to read this and its not like a server where Yeah im not talking#to one person but im still like Oh well ive sent a message and its in the channel and everybody just has to look at it and whatever.#but on here i post i nobody cares and it just gets pushed down and its Fine bc its not like anybody has to feel obliged to respond#which is fine. you know.. i just hate being like a nuisance i hate . idk how to phrase. imposing myself on others ig.. which is dumb bc the#i turn around and whine abt how i have no friends and its like Maybe that is bc you donot talk to anyone bc yr scared they will be annoyed#with you and you dont leave the house and have no interests to bond with ppl and etc. but basically the difference is ive written all this#and you guys can just not read it or you can just read it and ignore it and its different. even tho i am like addressing you and i do have#like. weird parasocial thing with My followers or whatever where i talk directly to you YES YOU! reading this. IDKK im rambling so much i#dont know what im talking abt anymore. i proooooobably need to go to sleep im hungry tho but im not but i am. but i think my sleep is getti#off schedule again i had trouble sleeping yesterday too... ugh
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i dont like talking about when im making something while im making it because i feel like it ends up making me put pressure on myself to then put said thing out into the world as a finished project and for it to be worthy of being put out into the world
but thats stupid because i make it entirely for me and its always so self indulgent and it doesnt matter if its good or not lol
and anyway all this to say im finally writing something again and its so self indulgent and its so fun and it feels great
like instead of dragging my feet and getting distracted im looking up at the clock like 'ah fuck, how has that much time passed? what do you mean i need to get off and sleep?'
its such a relief. i feel like something keeps stopping me from just making things these last few years, so when i finally do, i feel like i can actually breathe. my hands were made to create, and i feel it every time i finally do.
#my post#im so sick of WANTING to make things and just not doing it#a few months back i even told myself 'stop playing games. no more games until i make more stuff'#and it temporarily worked#... and then halloween came around and every game ever was having a tempting halloween event and i had to partake#and now WoW is having its anniversary event and sigh#once november is over im going to try and put that rule back on myself#of course. some games will then have christmas events. but at the very least i doubt ill participate in WoWs xmas event#unless my brother tells me theres some sort of awesome easily obtainable mount or i find theres a cool easily obtainable pet#theres no fucking way im getting sub for december though#this got off track#video games fuel my fire but they are also sucking my soul. do you understand. does that make sense
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conjuration plus alteration is The caster combo in skyrim, i'm sorry, i don't make the rules. dragonhide + daedra lord + summoned bow, your fave (destruction) could never
#voxbox#skyrim#this is one of my oldest and dearest characters OC wise but back during my first run of skyrim i wasn't. good at video games lmao#my 'problem solving' for difficult fights was console commands and turning the difficulty all the way down#now i'm a Better Gamer and hoo boy. this build scorches the earth. first time ever i've had to bump the difficulty UP because it was getting#too easy. boringly easy. i intentionally reverted to weaker summons just to make fights a little bit more competitive#once i get the dremora lord though she goes off the rails. i LOVE the dremora lord so fucking much#my favorite thing is when he kills something in one hit and then - with keen disappointment - goes 'not even a match'#my boy just wants to fight forever but ice wolves are just too weak 😔#oh also lydia is here as damage sponge but the dremora lord has made her sort of obsolete. she's still around for in-game reasons
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