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bananafishdepression · 1 year

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Ash and Eiji having a son and calling him Aslan Jade Calleneresse Junior but goes by initials AJ so he's named after Ash but uses AJ which sounds dangerously close to Eiji

#idk why i wrote this its stupid #i should just keep some things to myself #banana fish #asheiji #ash lynx #eiji okumura #ash x eiji #gay #lgbt #banana fish the stage #bananafish #anime #manga #bfish #eislan

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writterings · 3 months

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the thing they don't tell you about most mlm romance books is that they fucking suck ass

#thinking about like. rw&rb. anything by that author that wrote boyfriend material. most anything on kdp. only one i fw was ari and dante but #even then the random transphobia at the end gave a real bad taste in my mouth #im just in a hater mood rn ignore this unless youre also a hater #but anyways that boyfriend material and the sequel husband material books fucking suck so bad #couldnt even finish the second one #felt like it was trying to make a comment on the queer community but in the most lame and het conformist way possible #literally having a boring lawyer character being like ' i dont feel represented by this #when hes talking about a rainbow decorated gay bar #like ok whatever man but why do we care? why is the author trying to moralize this? why does teh prose suck and why is so much casual #bigotry against welsh people in these books #like fr they call out british bigotry against the irish and then turn around #and every welsh character is bumbling idiot with no personality besides being an idiot and talking about being welsh #like. hello???#also i keep adding to these tags but anyways the author also tried to like #make the main character out to be the bad guy?? when his ex boyfriend exposed all his secrets to the press??#and the author like. portrayed the mc as the bad guy for being upset?? like that is what the second book is about???#its so stupid and victim blamely and utterly lame like these books are so uninspired and feel like the author was just. idk???#also dont get me started on how much i hated rw&rb and finished it #i think i have a post somwhere on this blog abtout it

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neptunym · 2 years

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ms paint doodles for @post-it-notes7 's fic series, heart and soul. i highly recommend it to anyone that either likes the kirby anime or meta knight bc it's a delight to read :]

#kirby #meta knight #galacta knight #fanart #hoshi no kaabii #krbay #iyd spoilers #IYD #ms paint #arttag #galadoodles #ok most of them are doodles. the strawberry and blueberry drawings started as a ''haha its meta and galacta :)''#but at one point it turned into rendering practice #idk what happened #kirby fanart #id included #i've been wanting to show off those stupid fruits for so long. i spent an entire morning on the strawberry alone #i was literally about to post this when my blog got put in jail #one second my icon was normal. i refresh the page and boom #he's gone #anyway. go read wishful thinking and in your dreams <3333333 #edit: it's almost midnight and i just realised i wrote heavily instead of highly..... this is why we don't make drafts at 3 am #uhm anyway. fun fact. i wanted to draw the thats paint asshole meme but i was tired #so i put the images og GK and MK there as placeholders #but in the end i got too lzy to like. actually draw it lol

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storywestistrash · 3 days

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i am actually so tired of the way westerners treat eastern europeans

#fair warning for. a very very long ramble and rant in the tags. apologies #westerner or russian. no other option #westerner because the only thought they ever have is 'but they had universal housing so if you oppose ussr you oppose that'#(which is stupid becuse you can believe in that WITHOUT WANTING LIKE 6 COUNTRIES TO BE FORCED TO BE RULED OVER BY RUSSIA)#(SORRY FOR WANTING TO LIVE IN MY COUNTRY WITH MY HISTORY AND MY CULTURE AND NOT RUSSIA!!) (poland was a sattelite state but GOD)#or russian because they have a victim complex and are convinced that they deserve to rule over the entire damn world #'well you had universal housing so you had it easy' right yeah. okay. forget about like. everything else that happened #to eastern europeans during that time #forget about the things that are STILL issues all these years later not only in poland but like the more eastern countries too #its not about. the fact that the houses 'didnt have 3 bedrooms and a jacuzzi' in them. you DUMB SACK OF SHIT #god sorry. sorry. i also know so very little but like god damn i fucking live here. i didnt sit thru all that modern history #for some dumbfuck to say that 'ohhh only rich and american middle class people are happy the ussr was dissolved'#'oooh the dissolving of the ussr was illegal and the countries within it actually liked being there'#im just so fucking tired man i need to. i need to start killing people #and this is all not to mention that theyll say this stupid shit and then deny eastern europeans the things they actually did that were good #FUCK french people for trying to claim maria skłodowska. fuck americans for trying to claim the witcher as their own fantasy world #fuck the way the west is allowed to claim and destroy eastern european culture without any consequence because we dont matter enough #vaguely related but ill throw this in here since anyone finding it is unlikely and im scared of having this opinion #i think one underappreciated aspect of DE (which might be underappreciated because its not actually there and im stupid)#is that its pro-communist while still also giving some criticism to how it was handled and acknowledging that its still not perfect #which makes the writers much better communists than any self-proclaimed one ive ever met in my life who just worships the idea #perhaps its because the writers of the game were not white upper middle-class americans living in the suburbs. among other things #idk de is a game for people far smarter than me and i only played it once and im sure anyone who played it well can clock me as a bad perso #horrible horrible person even which is why im scared of mentioning it. but its an interesting thing. to me #the main thing is that im just not. im not far left enough i suppose. i agree communism in theory is a great idea. as far as i know it #(which isnt very far)#but chances of implementing it correctly in a way that doesnt take away from peoples happiness in other areas is. low. very low #i wrote a short essay about how utopias are inherently contradictory ideas once it wasnt very deep or good but like #you cant have universal happiness without restricting certain freedoms. and when those freedoms are resticted not everyone #will be happy. and then theyre unhappy they will have to be somehow removed or ignored

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boxwinebaddie · 11 days

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this just in: uncle nina started writing again ( please clap; i thought i was going to sustain permanent brain damage and only be able to read and write at a third grade level like rav--someone we know! <3 )

welcome to my favorite past time ( aka me writing something nonsensical that nobody asked for ) which is hotshot raven of crimson dawn displaying anxious normal stan boy mannerisms and vile kyle ( aka jersey ) experiencing human emotions about it and being both disgusted and frightened animal curious about it.

( idk where this goes? in the #hate chapter i deleted idk )

hyh and enjoy the worst part of your day <3,

no longer metal but still #hardcore uncle nina xx ;)

#nina writes sometimes #iiiii don't know what this is #i am trying to write again help #idk why i am like obsessed with the mental olympics that jk does when his robot brain starts to feel empathy #or like how distressed possibly liking a boy is to him and thinking he is cute and being worried about him #and realizing that everything is not gruesome and hell and war #i love ravenstan being cute and awkward and sensitive and weird and jerseykyle being like why is my heart beating like this #i feel sick this is so horrible i think i am having a stroke #mostly attacc...but sometimes protecc sjdlksajd #get it together broflovski this is a stupid vapid celebpretty ahole except he brought me a plant and is very nice to me #and has pretty eyes and when he smiles i see stars and when he is sad i feel like i want to kill everyone and everything skhdls #bestie...bestie i don't want to be the one to tell u this...but...#YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOURE GAAAAAAY #also wrote this bc i am writing something post date where jk is watching something with rs in it and its...very interesting #characterization wise to me bc jk is hella attentive and picks up on small details but also his thought processes are v telling #anyways...garbage

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masterfuldoodler · 7 months

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If half alive has 1000 fans I am one of them. If half alive has 1 fan, I am that fan

#text #august rambles #this is brought to you by seeing someone's review for them. and saying they didn't like the ep because it was standard #and that now not yet was better but had a bunch of poor songs. some of them bad #they even said still feel wasn't good because it was appealing too much to 'teen angst'#anyway i couldn't read the rest i had to leave #it was too painful i like the music too much we viewed it from different standpoints ack #i see a lot of people saying half alive is knock off twenty one pilots and like i see what they're saying. they are similar but #why does that mean its a knock off. what if they are just similar. half alive is clearly doing they're own thing. they're not copying them #maybe. that is just what that band is good at doing! the same as twenty one pilots. just cuz twenty one pilots came first doesn't mean #they own the scene. (you can argue they're better at they're music but if you're gonna do that make sure you're comparing the early stuff)#anyway rant about this because. i really like half alive and just dsbkncjnvb you don't need to be a fan #you don't need to think they're awesome. you can have an opinion outside of mine #but please be nice. and remember. it's Your opinion it's not Truth. if you don't like the song. you don't like it #if you think the repetition is boring. its not for you. if the 'angst' is stupid. its not for you. if the song doesn't hold weight.#it's not for you. the artist wrote this. and worked with other people to publish it #clearly they cared and other people saw worth in it. and like!! the fact that they're not big name also means they Can't get away with like #stupid filler stuff. they don't have enough of a name they gotta impress #idk i care too much. i see things like this and im just. ugh. it feels pretentious #half alive

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b4kuch1n · 6 months

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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

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secret-side-hetalia-blog · 29 days

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I love having friends that will listen to me ramble about anything else, any other stupid interest.

But just not hetalia, thats the line.

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g0thsoojin · 2 months

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#im like very much having a crisis right now... i mean to most ppl it isnt that serious lmaoooo #but tbh i am a loser and tumblr is 80% of my life and most of my social life #all social interactions i get are on tumblr ._.#so i dont want to keep alienating myself on it because then im just ruining it for myself and removing the only place #and source of social interaction and attention :/#i personally can not for my life comprehend this because i really dont take other peoplës venting personally #but ever since i started using twitter and tumblr i have ruined so many connections .. by venting on my own account.....#and now.. when i lost and fucked it up with the love of my life... just bc i vented and he interpreted it from his pov..#and got hurt when i wrote things abt being lonely and unwanted WHILE talking to him everyday and having him call me beautiful and care abt m #... i understand why he got hurt and i understand his pov bc it looked like i pulled away and distanced myself and only complained and that #he didnt matter to me when in fact he was EVERYTHING to me and i lived off his attention #i hate that i ruined the best thing i could ever have just bc i have this pathological need to share my every thought #like shut the fuck up... i wish i wouldve shut the fuck up and instead gushed abt how much i liked him which was what i wanted to do #my avpd just made me feel stupid bc when i did he didnt interact with those posts and then i felt embarrassed #which like i know how fucking stupid avpd and bpd makes me and i hate it but i cant stop it #god i regret it so much like my dumb ass blog isnt worth losing him over... it just isnt #only an online connection.. makes it so hard to see bc he only saw my diary where i complain he didnt see everything else :(((#so he thought that he wasnt important to me and then slowly started to detach himself from me (understandably) god i wanna die #so yeah ive started to HATE my main account. bc it has ruined so much for me. plus lately ppl have started being mean #and i get it its the internet ppl suck but i AM so fkn sensitive. and i get sad and hurt really easily #and i feel anxious abt venting bc im scared of getting a mean ask after #like... i feel so fucking alone and idk what to do. all i want to do now is vent vent vent but ive started to feel like venting is bad #and harmful and only ruins my friendships and connections and makes ppl be mean to me #i honestly wish i wouldve stopped venting every thought looooong ago #and that i had a more normal blog and had a secret vent blog and that he didnt read all my miserable posts #bc then maybe.... he wouldve actually understood how much i fkn love him and hadnt looked in other places and now i lost him #bc i really dont blame him bc i know what he is struggling with and seeing me who he cares for so much say those things...#i get it 100% and thats why im so pissed with myself for just not stopping!!!! why cant i stop????? whats wrong with me #i just feel so lonely and like no ones listening but he was listening to me i just had to be brave and go to him #plus all my venting made him think that im like in severe emotional distress every second and that i was too fragile to talk to

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lion-buddy · 9 months

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i think the biggest downgrade of yunis human form is how they thinned out her eyebrows and eyelashes

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#why would they do this too her <\3 #i understand the the artstyle is inconsistent throughout the show but i dont believe thats what this is this is just her design </3 #idk its stupid lol i just thought i was crazy until i looked at her official still and yeah they do draw them different ah!!!!#I wrote whole this abt the shape language differences between these designs I should clean that up and share it one day #PC

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soubiapologist · 3 months

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wait okay if yun mentioned mimuro on fanbox then logically speaking that means one of two things;

she read my scary weird fanbox fanletter and has put two and two together that the weirdo requesting mimuro art on skeb is probably also the person who mentioned being a fan of his on fanbox and is thusly subscribed to her fanbox and wants to throw this poor lunatic a treat (or that just based on the skeb request) or

she's really just out there thinking about him and wants to let people know regardless if they're That Weirdo or not

because there's literally zero reason for her to mention him since he's like a tiny bit character and she hasn't even mentioned him in (checks calendar and throws up) over a decade so either she did that for/because of me #MYIMPACT or she's literally thinking about my little freak boy for like. fun.

#ITS JUST FUNNY I EUHFOSUHGKJDHFGJSDHGJHLJDFHG #IT"S NOT THAT DEEP ITS LIKE WHATERV BUT ITS REALLY FUNNY. WHY DID SHE MENTION HIM. HES NOTHING #this is probably weird but i have a lot of anxiety about her reading that letter lfhdkfjhgkjhdfg i don't know why i wrote it really #i cried like. a loooooooooooot while writing it (?????)#it wasn't particularly emotional but it felt really vulnerable idk #it's just like idk. it's weird saying to someone how important something is to you. esp when they made it i guess but it feels so!!!!!!!!#idk vulnerable. like i'm being stabbed in the heart. or like doing confession i can't explain it #i'm not catholic so idk if confession is really the right metaphor but it's just. agh.#it's just like thank you. and please forgive me.#this series has lifted so many of the burdens in my heart in ways that are really hard to explain #like “loveless saved my life” sounds stupid and might not be entirely true #i don't know #it's so hard to explain #there's so much of my life i've lost and continue to lose to things i can only process through recognizing them in this framework i don't.#know.#screams.#sorry for being VULNERABLE ON META i don't know. sorry. i'll be normal now lol #idk loveless is like one extremely few things i can experience actual emotions about............ :(

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deathshallbethelastenemy · 3 months

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Breaking my silence ... sjm SUCKS I just wasted my time reading acotar (read the tags if you want a rant)

#that shit sucked ass #world building? we dont know her here #like what are your magical powers other than whatbis convenient for the plot??????#i hate every character in there except azriel but that's bc he doesnt have personality for me to hate yet #but I'm sure I'll hate him once he gains personality #lucien is the only one im okay with #IM HATING HOW FAE ARE LIKE HUMANS DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO FEAR FROM US.... YOU ENSLAVED THEM!!!!!!!!#their such FUCKING LOSERS #idk why humans hate so much??? LOOK AT THE COMMON DENOMINATOR YOU FUCKING DUMBASSES YOU ARE THE OPPRESSORS #acotar #it sucked ass #WHAT A WASTE OF TIME #nothing is explained #world building is non-existent #ALL THE CHARACTERS KNOW WHAT TO DO IS PISS ME OFF #DUMBER THAN A BAG OF BRICKS #oooh the cauldron gets its power back if we put the books of breathings together!!!! AND THEN THEY PUT THEM TOGETHER #LIKE WTF ARE YOU DOING #KEEP THEM SEPARATE YOU STUPID FUCKS #sjm wrote a fucking braindead series and just made everyone hot #DONT TELL ME TO CRESCENT CITY THAT IS LITERALLY ZOOTOPIA FANFICTION

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sonknuxadow · 2 years

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i think some people are setting their expectations wayyyy too high for what shadow will be written like now. "the mandates are COMPLETELY gone shadow is fixed now guys!!" no theyre not literally all they said is that the rules have changed a little. like dont get me wrong thats good news too but a lot of people are exaggerating and setting themselves up for disappointment in my opinion

#also i dont really like how people talk about The Mandates tm as if theyre this evil force looming over the comics #thats only affecting how shadow is written and literally nothing else so we need to lift all of them now to fix the sonic franchise #when in reality its a set of rules and restrictions that sega has for how people should handle their characters #which isnt inherently unreasonable. especially considering the reason they started getting more strict with this stuff #and why theyre monitoring idw sonic so closely #(hint its because of archie sonic. go read every single issue ken penders wrote #and come back and tell me if you still think its a good idea for sega to allow complete creative freedom with no rules at all)#likes YES some of the rules are stupid especially the ones about shadow but sega having rules for their characters isnt inherently bad #and undoing all of them isnt the perfect solution here.#again pre reboot archie sonic shows perfectly what can happen when people can do whatever they want with the characters #with no input from sega #also some of the rules arent even like. bad?#like the no romance rule is awesome. love that. and the rule that game characters cant be killed off makes perfect sense to me #idk

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vogelmeister · 5 months

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anyways i am feeling kinda brave today so im gonna share a potentially unpopular taylor swift hot take. when i was talking to my friend yesterday about ttpd i realised that i kinda have a similar problem with the anthology as i do with evermore.

like don't get me wrong, both have absolute gems (willow, tolerate it, long story short, gold rush and NBNC from evermore are great and i love the albatross, so high school, the prophecy black dog, manuscript etc) but i think both collections (bc anthology is not an album) suffer because they came out connected to a much superior more cohesive work, and both almost feel like rejects from the body of work that proceeded it.

#actually like i said to my beloved mutual “thanK you aIMee” kinda feels like she woke up one day and went “fuck you kim actually”#which i can kinda relate to in a way bc the amount of times i randomly go “fuck you”#but my mutual said if there were more songs about being screwed over by people that could be a storyline. but theres not. its just there #like its a great song but also i kinda went “we are covering this ground again”#if there were new developments in the relationship i could kinda understand it #like how she wrote innocent and then backtracked that with rep bc things happened #but idk the anthology just feels like scraps she deemed good enough for release but in my opinion needed editing #the stupid ass 1830s lyric highlights this bc i get what shes trying to say but she worded it so badly #that i kinda see why its being clowned on #also imgonnagetyouback... yehahahahah liv did it better. now it feels like a done concept. im shocked she included it #she knew it was coming come on #anyways the anthology while good kinda felt unfinished #she should have given it a few more months and polished it #bc holy hell at least folkmore felt polished #even though evermore is cohesively weaker #my friend who is a folkmore swiftie kinda also feels like this fyi so dont come at me screaming “burn 1989 rep midnights stan!”#burn me idc #and while im at it both are in my bottom three only right above debut #tldr: both collections are tied to another work thats just so much better and cohesive #this is just me saying i cant get into anthology hahaha #and i felt weird bc everyone liked it but when my friend a literal folklore girl said “no im not feeling it” i felt better #bc so many people were saying it was better and those swifties were going 'all of us' and i kinda went... no i prefer standard #i love taylor sm and i love og ttpd its currently no 5 but the anthology has issues and one of them is similar to why i rank evermore lowl #i just went off on a tangent about the issues with the anthology and its songwriting and lack of narrative #i will say so i win you all over i loved the evermore set at eras i thought it was so beautifully done #taylor swift #ttpd: anthology #evermore

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myownprivatcidaho · 6 months

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#just realized i was removed from my work groupme #??????#i do Not have a good feeling about this #ive received no notification of termination and i cant imagine why my supervisor would remove me #without there first being notification of termination #the only other reason i cld imagine is the girl whos been giving me trouble who i reported for lynching denial and offensive accents #is now under investigation and she may have removed me. ???????#if so thatd be retaliation so idk. idk....#but also tmrw makes (business) day 45 of my investigation and they try to keep investigations to 45 days or less so idk. 😬😬#ive drafted an email to my supervisor for tmrw afternoon and if i havent heard any word explaining it then im gna email him #demanding an explanation #jesus christ this is just so much unnecessary headache #i wrote a joke about a sticky note i left on my food in the fridge. this is a one time incident.#theres ample evidence to show it was a joke and that the report was made in bad faith.#god this is just so fucked up this persons been BULLYING me for months and this is just a step up from the usual trouble shes been giving m #god i dont know wgat to do this is just so much anxiety and its fucking stupid. god.#AND IVE LOST $2400 FROM IT

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stellawolfearts · 2 years

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Macaque and Guard having a glare off

tang being an overdramatic bitch: OH! MY POOR NIE-

macaque and the guard: SHUT THE FUCK UP

Tang: well thats just plain rude, isnt is xiaohua?

Xiaohua: *chirp*

Tang: see, she agrees with me.

#idk why i wrote this #its kinda stupid lmao #tangled star #a woven song

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