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Got some drawing requests
First one is for @nsstuff , wanted to see Reapermare. They both want to kill each other but in a loving way <33
Second, from anonymous (or anonyme if you want to be French)
Just pretend theyāre in a bar here. Blue takes Lust home safely after this
Iām not taking requests after this!! But thank you to those who sent me some <3
Reaper belongs to renrink
Nightmare belongs to Jokublog
Lust belongs to NSFWshamecave
#art#utmv#sanshipping#reapermare#lustberry#nightmare sans#reaper sans#blue sans#lust sans#idk why but my head hurts#gonna officially close my request box#maybe Iāll open them when I have nothing else to do idk
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I am so sorry, apparently itās 2024 and Iām arguing about dragon age again lmao. How did I get here! Why is this happening!! Time is a flat circle!!!
Anyway. People can feel how they want about the past games not mattering in this game. If youāre cool with it, Iām happy for you. But thereās one particular argument in defence of this choice that is really, really bothering me and I have to rant
The thing I keep seeing is āwell all this other stuff has nothing to do with the main plot or Rook, so it should be cutā and thatās. Not a good way to tell stories in my opinion. Because hereās the thing: itās not about the Big Overall Plot. Itās about the characters that live in this world, big and small
Iām going to use the example of Varric and Hawke cause I think itās the easiest to explain quickly. Varric is a storyteller. Thatās the defining trait of his character. He tells stories, and sometimes theyāre true and sometimes theyāre not and sometimes itās something in between. In DA2 he tells you about his brother. In inquisition, he talks about hawke and thereās banter about several of the companions. Most of these are just little one liners that donāt āserve the overall plotā but they serve Varricās character
And that matters
So if we take this character known for telling stories about people that have been in his life, well, he largely canāt do that now. How can he talk about Hawke, someone who can be a very close friend of his, without even their gender being a choice you can select? Or whether Varric should be saying āisā or āwasā about them? How can he talk about the companions in DA2 or inquisition when a lot of them donāt have to be recruited or can die? Will he limit himself to only characters that are guaranteed to be a part of it and alive? Or is it that he and Rook will have such a shallow relationship that Varric, of all characters, never talks about his life and past exploits?
Or has Varric as a character changed so much that he doesnāt even want to tell stories anymore? That Hawke living or dying means nothing to him? That the friendships he built with people in 2 games mean nothing to him? That heās become literally unrecognizable?
This is where the problem is. Sure, Rook maybe doesnāt care about these people theyāve never met. But do they care about Varric? What about if a companion mentions an old friend of theirs, talks about an experience they had that made them who they are - is that only okay if that experience isnāt from a previous game? Or are all the characters so flat that we never learn anything about their connections to others outside of Rook? Is this story SO focused on this player character and this plot that NOTHING else matters, even within the world, and thereās no depth to be found in any of the characters that feature in it?
Writing characters so that they only ever talk about things that ādirectly serve the plotā is how you get flat, unremarkable, boring, forgettable characters. And thatās not something I would have accused bioware of doing even if some instalments are stronger in this area than others. But it sounds like thatās what theyāre doing here, at least with the past characters. Cause sure, maybe Morrigan is so closed off sheāll never mention her son and partner. Thatās believable, even if iffy given that theyāve said sheās going to be more involved than we think. But Varric? VARRIC??? Never mentioning ANY of the people he used to spend time with and care about except Solas and maybe some of the inquisition characters that canāt die or not be recruited but also carefully skirting around what happened to them in the game? Thatās literally not the same character
And I would expand this to like. A letter mentioning this or a codex mentioning that, or ambient dialogue about so and so - that makes the world feel deep and those random, unimportant NPCs feel richer by connecting them to the larger world. Itās not about āserving the plotā, itās about making your world and characters deep enough that they feel real, lived in, and like something we can actually care about
#I am so mad that Iām mad about this but Iām mad about this lmao#I wasnāt even decided on the game!!! I was cautiously waiting and seeing! and now Iām MAD!!!!! why would they do this!!!#anyway idk I just needed to get this out cause Iām doom scrolling too much and some of the defences of it just donāt make sense with good#storytelling and Iām upset that people donāt see that#again if you donāt care Iām happy for you please continue being unbothered#but god I am so bothered because I want good characters and wold building gdi#the plot is honestly so secondary like if the plot is ass but the characters are amazing Iād pick that ove good plot and shallow characters#every time#okay I need to get ready for bed and my head hurts lmao#I also donāt know how to do a cut in mobile anymore so sorry#long post#dragon age#veilguard#veilguard spoilers#text#shut up nerd#bioware critical
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What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)
#witch hat tag#orufrey#er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this.#wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on#i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head#that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it...#some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself...#maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts.#orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway#i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles#btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20#well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10#and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most#(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era#that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little.#certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye#idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'.#i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle#just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit#let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')
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I hope the bruise on dazaiās forehead stays and that he uses it to guilt chuuya into giving him forehead kisses like the annoying little loser he is
#āāouchieee my head hurts idk why šā ābitch like i gafā¦.come here šā#bsd#bungou stray dogs#dazai osamu#chuuya nakahara#skk#soukoku#trying to force my brain to focus on skk fluff so that I donāt get the urge to kill them for hogging up all the attention#like can we MOVE ON pls#I miss the ada so bad
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Day 6: fankid
Redesign of the only fankid I've ever made for anything.
She's Katherine, daughter of Toddy and Onnie
#fnafhs#toddy fnafhs#onnie fnafhs#fhs week 2024#day 6#fankid#i don't really have like a story for her or anything. and tbh I don't even know why i ever made her. i just know she existed at some point#and i lost the og drawing of her too :(. anyways. this one is also for funsies :d#idk its almost 3 am rn and my head hurts. i have nothing else to add rn. goodbyes :9
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college aged francis wojciechoski and benjamin kondraki, Marrakesh, Morroco, circa the 1840's
#dr clef#dr kondraki#scp fanart#scp#scp foundation#illustration#huevember#!!!#i hate doing backgrounds so fucking much idk why i insisted on this#ships captains pirates#eughhh#pirate au yarrrrr#my head hurts gn
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i have so so so many thoughts and feelings about the way this fandom constantly refers to luke as babygirl without taking one single second to think about why maybe it's a problematic thing to do to luke specifically but i lack the ability to organize those thoughts and feelings into anything coherent and concise. can someone else please read my mind and do it for me.
#i know it's trendy!#but the way it's done with luke in the context of this fandom is...yikes#the way he has historically been perceived and treated#continually infantilized and feminized#and the way it gets applied to him a million times more than the rest of them bc...why exactly?#he's pretty? he wears makeup? likeeeeeee#it's counter to what he's trying to do in terms of subverting gender stereotypes#idk it just doesn't sit right with me#i have 47 different attempts at articulating this in my drafts#it makes my head hurt
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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.
Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.
#my characters#waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit#deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee#and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name#deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c#man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while#he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair#ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so#its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons#but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me#and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not#fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew#and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable#while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts#and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed#so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en#so you know maybe its that idk#and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now#and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it#and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad#that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal#and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it#the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer#anyway story time in the tags again#im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note#its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him#he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times#and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea#and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you
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dentist day
#āā yapping#the dentist is so urgh#some of them are gentle enough that i could probably fall asleep during it#and others actually make my throat sore for daysss#oh it's not good to have a dirty mind#it's just a cleaning today#luckily or else ugh#yk last time i was there#the dentist was like āoh i have a son ur ageā#OK SO SET ME UP???#unbelievable actually#like u can't tell me that and just completely switch the topic#the dentist was good looking for his age so like#that son probably was too#BUT ILL NEVER KNOW URGEHAJEMMA#anyways let's hope i'm not left with an aching jaw#.......don't take that out of context please#YK ITS ALWAYS THE MALE DENTISTS THAT ARE GENTLE???#the female ones hurt#idk why i just realized that but yeah#i'd expect it to be the other way bc#nvm not saying it it sounds wrong in my head
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Look look- it may be 1am but I slept, for like
A normal time for once-
Like seven hours
#my head hurts so much but yay sleep#idk why we talk about my sleep here but thought yāall should know-#dc tumblr#offline thoughts#sillyposing#not camera
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I'm gonna be honest I need someone to explain wtf is the DC timeline.
Cause like. I get everything pre-flashpoint. Then n52 happens and my brain breaks.
I'm specifically asking because I'm trying to piece together Stephanie's timeline.
So like. In the n52 she basically never met the bats before and was spoiler again. That timeline carried to rebirth. And in the Batmen Eternal storyline... Tim like... found/was given tech/brother eye from the pre52 future? Cause like it's from the pre52 timeline just in the future? And it shows Steph and Cass that they used to be batgirls in that timeline?
And then. I don't know. They become batgirls again? And like. Steph's old history is back???
Idk. I'm very confused help please.
#i made the mistake of trying to read a rebirth comic. my bad.#i dont understand anything timeline wise post flashpoint#and dont get me started on the ages in green arrow. oml.#HOW IS SIN 16????#why is connor so young. i mean we dont know his age but he looks young.#is the timeline like what dc just scrapped the n52/rebirth universe and said fuck it we are going back to the pre52 timeline.#but kept some n52 timeline stuff? just like smushed them together?#idk. idk idk idk my head hurts.#dc comics#batfam#stephanie brown
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I have not posted since the hospital I'm probably gonna doodle something up with a new art style and new lamb design after my class
#marurambles#my head hurts so bad i might drop and start doing push ups#why pushups?#idk why pushups#I hate pushups
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I RUSHED SOME THINGS AND I HAVE TIME TO DRAW BUT I DONT HAVE ANY IDEAS... time to turn to my ceaselessly lengthening idea list and find the least shit one
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Currently avoiding Beast like the plague because Iāve heard that itās tragic and Iām afraid.
#Iām almost done with stormbringer#26 pages into Dazaiās entrance exam#on chapter one of Dazaiās dark era#and Iāve finished fifteen#idk what this āthe day I picks up Dazaiā thing is but I found what I think might be a fan translation#and Iām reading that too#Iām also reading death masks by Jim Butcher so#ya know#my head hurts#cries in dyslexia#occasionally Iāll take a fanfiction break#where I read this one super long chat fic that Iām on like chapter 16 of#itās one of the nine completed fics tagged with Miyazawa Kenji has an eating disorder#so I started reading it#cause Iām a sucker for making the happy character sad#also he does not have a healthy relationship with food#fight me#Iām so upset that Kenji works at the agency at all#I feel like his ability would be too beefy (he wouldnāt be able to control it as well) if it werenāt for Fukuzawaās ability#so thatās maybe why he works there#but thereās so much wrong with Kenji working there#Iām also looking for Dazai sh fics#I just want a fic where teenage Chuuya takes care of teenage Dazai sh#is that too much to ask for????#bungo stray dogs#bsd#bsd dazai#bsd shitpost#bsd light novel
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HAHAHA I JUST FULLY PASSED OUT IN THE 711. I was minding my own business trying to get my extra large dr pepper and hot dog, and I felt a sudden thing of pre syncope, but thankfully Iāve dealt with this shit long enough to know when Iām about to have an episode, so I quickly went into the candy section (because I knew what was about to happen and didnāt want anyone to call an ambulance on me) and sat my faggot ass down on the floor and then ended up laying on the floor while I kinda went in an out of consciousness for a few seconds. Iām fine, but it was really weird because I took my POTS meds and drank a lot of water today and I havenāt fully passed out like that in like 4 years.
#I wasnāt even experiencing any POTS symptoms before this happened#I went from completely fine to āYOU NEED TO FIND A PLACE TO LAY DOWN RIGHT NOWā#unfortunately this is the one time Iām not wearing my watch so idk what my heart rate was#Iāll take my blood pressure when I get home#Iām fine now btw#Iām in the car with the air conditioner on#my head hurts worse now though :(#why do things always happen to me#chronic illness#pots
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Has Raven/Jersey ever broken a bone?
alright, *cracks knuckles*
this one goes out to sickfic princess ana and whumpwhiz rp.
*blows a kiss to the heavens bc they're angels* MWAH!
but aaaaany-knee-ways:
...it's interesting, actually.
( or at least, it is to me, darling. )
because of how he's written, you'd think probably think, 'oh, but nina! jerseykyle gets in all these fights. he's all big and tough and strong! he prolly breaks bones all the time!" and that's precisely IT, my dear!
jersey breaks bones;
he does not get his bones broken.
EVER.
and i suppose that's because he is a seasoned fighter. ergo, he knows how to throw a wicked punch, where exactly on your body it will hurt or humiliate you the most -- probably a combination of the two if he's feeling particularly pissed that day ( everyday ) -- how many times to do it, where you're vulnerable, sees everyone as a possible adversary and thus, weaponizes the moment he sees you, surveys you, sizes you up, indicates what kind of threat you are andā¦
Promptly Neutralizes You.
he takes all these precautions, runs all these tedious, elaborate tests and intense, premeditated processes of elimination ( literally ), not just because he does not like losing, which he doesn't...but because he literally can't. simply put: he does not know how to lose or get hit.
see, jersey does not cope with pain very well. mentally or physically. that's why he inflicts pain, because he is secretly scared of feeling it.
on the outside, he is a harsh, frightening, impenetrable, menacing thing covered in barbs and wires and armed heavily, because on the inside he is extremely fragile and should even the smallest chink in his armor form, his entire fierce faƧade will shatter into smithereens.
he does not like to get hurt, to feel weak, to feel unpleasant and horrible things, so he does everything in his power to be powerful so that he will never feel powerless. it's why he learned how to fight, it wasn't to hit people, it was to avoid being hit by other people. it was a defense mechanism because of how often he got bullied and how weak he constantly was from swimming out against the current of all his chronic illnesses. a lot of people would just let go of that short stick that life gave them and drown, but not kyle. not my baby. no, his life belongs to him. so he sharpened that stick into the shiv...
stuck it straight through the gut of life,
ā and made god beg for HIS mercy.
but yes, it's all a perfectly placed show. because my boy, scary and frightening as he may be swinging those freckled fists of fury...
is a fucking WUSS.
who has not broken a lot of bones actually! not his anyways! because when he does lose a fight, he is a sore fucking loser indeed because he's suddenly hit with all this pain that he does not know how to endure or deal with and literally is such a baby and a princess, omg.
i /swear/ that WHOLE divorce whumpshot para and the one of him barfighting is him acting really tough and cool, but hes really like hooly shit, this sucks so fkn Bad, i hate this, i want my mOM!! :'(
riiiiiiiiiip, lmaooooo.
spoiler alert: jersey kyle is dainty and spoiled. he is a champion complainer and if gets a papercut...
you will hear about it.
trust.
conversely, however...lead singer ravenstan,
is very Quiet about pain.
ravenstan knows pain like the back of his hands, he, unfortunately, has had hands on him his entire life and where kyle learned to kick and claw and bite, stan just...internalized and endured all that pain.
he isn't brutal or vicious, he is kind and forgiving, he does not hurt things even if they are hurting him and has been hurt so much that being hurt is as easy as breathing to himā¦which is horrible because he has asthma and a lot of smoke-related respiratory damage.
but yeah, i actually ( god, i love you ravenstan ) want to scream because where jersey is hard outside and soft inside, raven is soft outside and hard inside and is extremely good at being hurt, ( a child weaned on pain thinks hurt is a comfort, rip ), will take pretty much anything you throw at him and because he literally does not want to inconvenience you...will not even indicate that he's hurt to you.
like he is very passionate about protecting and taking care of other people, but he does not care at all about himself or what happens to him, so if you're hurt, he is on his hands and knees, comforting you, placating you, doing whatever he can to help you...and he might have three bullets in his back, you wouldn't know until he started bleeding through his clothes and fell over. that man is a fucking TANK, guys.
the universe has tried to kill ravenstan...several tries.
( suicide tw, he has also tried a couple times </3 )
no such luck.
it helps that he actually has a surprising amount of off-hand medical knowledge because sharon transferred a lot of it onto him during stan's childhood when she was patching him up because he was a fkn disaster child who tracked mud and blood into her house 25/8, spent three days in a tree and took a hockey puck to the face.
i genuinely think that a large part of why stan was able to survive and endure a lot of the horrors he had was because sharon scolding him in spanish and teaching him stuff literally saved his fucking life.
but yeah, ravenstan is my selfless, accident prone king. he is such a mess, pilots his body so carelessly that it is legitimately frightening. he is constantly covered in bruises he doesn't remember getting, scratches he didn't even notice, does dumb shit and gets hurt and like literally canāt tell he's hurt until he is like abt to pass out.
tldr: rave gets hurt often and has broken a lot of bones.
usually because he's doing stupid, heroic shit.
for example, i am not sure how it got broken, i like to think it was at a concert or an event and he SAVED SOMEONE from something falling or what have you and broke the fuck out of his arm. so his arm was in a cast ( i need it to be hot pink ) and he was super bummed out and felt hella bad because he had a meet and greet and couldn't sign autographs so he just let everyone else...
give him Their autograph instead.
so no one got a personally signed picture of raven of crimson dawn, but much cooler, imo, was that they all personally signed his cast.
my eyes are leaking, lmao. branch in my eyeeee. ;-;
gods...sweet...sweet angel. uGh.
THIS IS SO LONG, BUT I HOPE THIS ANSWERS YOUR QUESTION! idk why i got so invested in this, omg, but thank you for asking and being curious and thank you all for being so lovely and asking me things. it means a lot to me that you care and know i adore you.
-uncle nina, jerseykyle inflictor of angst pain
( and major wuss ) >.>
#sorry idk why i just decided to go the hell off#i hope this makes sense#can u tell my writer girl brain likes to make u think something#and then do the opposite#or like have my love interests foil each other#and do opposites attract things#idk its very delicious to me i'm sorry i hope it tastes good to you i hope this was the answer that you wanted haha#but no believe it or not baby...jerseykyle do not be getting hurt because he really cant like he is fucking BABY#he is so baby like in my para he is being such a baby like if he gets a splinter he is going to be so annoying about it#but sweet ravenstanley marsh is always hurt and autopilots hurt and so he doesnt fear pain bc he just...is pain idk#and is so clumsy goddamn like oh my god that man is always getting hurt kyle is actually constantly fussing over him#and he is like i am fine i am good like stan u have to take your inhaler and ur meds and you didnt tie ur freaking docs#and u almost ate shit n cracked ur head open on the cabinet#ravenstan vc like BUT DID I DIE!!! BUT DID I DIE THO#smhhhhhhh everyone signing his cast was v cute tho i love him like he really is the peoples punk rock prince hes a qt#idk one day ill figure out sharon's backstory one day but stan did inherit all his gentle healing energies from her ily rm!sharon
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