#idk why but my head hurts
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Got some drawing requests
First one is for @nsstuff , wanted to see Reapermare. They both want to kill each other but in a loving way <33
Second, from anonymous (or anonyme if you want to be French)
Just pretend they’re in a bar here. Blue takes Lust home safely after this
I’m not taking requests after this!! But thank you to those who sent me some <3
Reaper belongs to renrink
Nightmare belongs to Jokublog
Lust belongs to NSFWshamecave
#art#utmv#sanshipping#reapermare#lustberry#nightmare sans#reaper sans#blue sans#lust sans#idk why but my head hurts#gonna officially close my request box#maybe I’ll open them when I have nothing else to do idk
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I am so sorry, apparently it’s 2024 and I’m arguing about dragon age again lmao. How did I get here! Why is this happening!! Time is a flat circle!!!
Anyway. People can feel how they want about the past games not mattering in this game. If you’re cool with it, I’m happy for you. But there’s one particular argument in defence of this choice that is really, really bothering me and I have to rant
The thing I keep seeing is “well all this other stuff has nothing to do with the main plot or Rook, so it should be cut” and that’s. Not a good way to tell stories in my opinion. Because here’s the thing: it’s not about the Big Overall Plot. It’s about the characters that live in this world, big and small
I’m going to use the example of Varric and Hawke cause I think it’s the easiest to explain quickly. Varric is a storyteller. That’s the defining trait of his character. He tells stories, and sometimes they’re true and sometimes they’re not and sometimes it’s something in between. In DA2 he tells you about his brother. In inquisition, he talks about hawke and there’s banter about several of the companions. Most of these are just little one liners that don’t “serve the overall plot” but they serve Varric’s character
And that matters
So if we take this character known for telling stories about people that have been in his life, well, he largely can’t do that now. How can he talk about Hawke, someone who can be a very close friend of his, without even their gender being a choice you can select? Or whether Varric should be saying ‘is’ or ‘was’ about them? How can he talk about the companions in DA2 or inquisition when a lot of them don’t have to be recruited or can die? Will he limit himself to only characters that are guaranteed to be a part of it and alive? Or is it that he and Rook will have such a shallow relationship that Varric, of all characters, never talks about his life and past exploits?
Or has Varric as a character changed so much that he doesn’t even want to tell stories anymore? That Hawke living or dying means nothing to him? That the friendships he built with people in 2 games mean nothing to him? That he’s become literally unrecognizable?
This is where the problem is. Sure, Rook maybe doesn’t care about these people they’ve never met. But do they care about Varric? What about if a companion mentions an old friend of theirs, talks about an experience they had that made them who they are - is that only okay if that experience isn’t from a previous game? Or are all the characters so flat that we never learn anything about their connections to others outside of Rook? Is this story SO focused on this player character and this plot that NOTHING else matters, even within the world, and there’s no depth to be found in any of the characters that feature in it?
Writing characters so that they only ever talk about things that “directly serve the plot” is how you get flat, unremarkable, boring, forgettable characters. And that’s not something I would have accused bioware of doing even if some instalments are stronger in this area than others. But it sounds like that’s what they’re doing here, at least with the past characters. Cause sure, maybe Morrigan is so closed off she’ll never mention her son and partner. That’s believable, even if iffy given that they’ve said she’s going to be more involved than we think. But Varric? VARRIC??? Never mentioning ANY of the people he used to spend time with and care about except Solas and maybe some of the inquisition characters that can’t die or not be recruited but also carefully skirting around what happened to them in the game? That’s literally not the same character
And I would expand this to like. A letter mentioning this or a codex mentioning that, or ambient dialogue about so and so - that makes the world feel deep and those random, unimportant NPCs feel richer by connecting them to the larger world. It’s not about “serving the plot”, it’s about making your world and characters deep enough that they feel real, lived in, and like something we can actually care about
#I am so mad that I’m mad about this but I’m mad about this lmao#I wasn’t even decided on the game!!! I was cautiously waiting and seeing! and now I’m MAD!!!!! why would they do this!!!#anyway idk I just needed to get this out cause I’m doom scrolling too much and some of the defences of it just don’t make sense with good#storytelling and I’m upset that people don’t see that#again if you don’t care I’m happy for you please continue being unbothered#but god I am so bothered because I want good characters and wold building gdi#the plot is honestly so secondary like if the plot is ass but the characters are amazing I’d pick that ove good plot and shallow characters#every time#okay I need to get ready for bed and my head hurts lmao#I also don’t know how to do a cut in mobile anymore so sorry#long post#dragon age#veilguard#veilguard spoilers#text#shut up nerd#bioware critical
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What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)
#witch hat tag#orufrey#er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this.#wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on#i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head#that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it...#some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself...#maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts.#orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway#i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles#btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20#well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10#and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most#(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era#that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little.#certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye#idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'.#i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle#just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit#let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')
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I hope the bruise on dazai’s forehead stays and that he uses it to guilt chuuya into giving him forehead kisses like the annoying little loser he is
#‘ouchieee my head hurts idk why 😔’ ‘bitch like i gaf….come here 😒’#bsd#bungou stray dogs#dazai osamu#chuuya nakahara#skk#soukoku#trying to force my brain to focus on skk fluff so that I don’t get the urge to kill them for hogging up all the attention#like can we MOVE ON pls#I miss the ada so bad
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i gotta sleep
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How the hell did he see outside
#dialtown#fanart#sgt norm allen#norm allen#idk what im doing#Why should I draw in the middle of the night my head hurts
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HEARD OF ACTION DOUGLAS?? GET READY FOR EXECUTIVE DYSTOPIA DOUGLAS !!
HE IS A COMPUTER TECHNICIAN AT MANDARK'S CORPORATION!! And general technician as well
Douglas is the only one who actually knows how the computers work and is at charge of the power energy of the building. The problem is that he is the ONLY one that is at charge of these tasks, despite how efficient it would be if Mandark actually hired more people for that department to help Douglas out, this is on purpose as putting Dexter's best friend under so much distress feels like indirect misery for Dexter !! And Mandark was never truly fond of Douglas in the first place, boot licking dork.....
Despite the horrific stress and lack of sleep from all the exploitation, Douglas still tries to stay cheerful and positive about the circumstances
Also fun fact! His designated number is 137 as a reference to Tom Kenny's birthday (his VA)
#I HAVE BEEN ATTEMPTING TO DO HIS DESING FOR WEEKSSS#BUT NOW HE IS HERE !!#Someone get him some sleep please#HE ALSO HAS SCARS ON THE SAME ARM THAT HE LOSES LATER ON#This is because his lack of sleep and the poor security conditions that the corp offers make him get hurt very often#Shortly before the action era he loses completely his arm in one of these accidents and gets no compensation for it#No wonder why he didn't think twice to be up against Mandark in action era#ANYWAYS#ENOUGH YAPPING#dexter's laboratory#dexters lab#headcanon#douglas e. mordecai#douglas mordecai#whole au cooking in my head as we speak.....#This is technically an au tho#What should i call it??#Douglas actually gets spotlight au#???#Idk Lmao#Executive dystopia Douglas
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Lrb dear god, this reminded me of that time when Alfred-chan got sooooo mad at my post explaining why fans should respect bisexual headcanons for Maria and Malenia instead of pretending like they're canonically lesbians and that they get oppressed and erased by mxf ships with them. They kept vagueing that post for like a MONTH in their blog including in tags under reblogs of Maria fanart, passively-aggressively changed their url to character+sexuality to "spite" me and then even made a sockpuppet account to start shit with me in the comments.
They deactivated when me and Val completely obliterated their "you cultivate lesbiphobic following by telling people why they should respect all sexuality headcanons instead of acting cultish or assuming their experiences and stereotypes equal canon confirmation" garbage with actual facts and logic tho but I screenshotted everything fjthfgfj (I learned to document everything the hard way after they've changed the she/they pronouns to they/they pronouns ONLY to accuse me of misgendering, so thank you for making me wiser I guess 😎). Even more vile, as they, a white person, larped as an Arab in that sockpuppet to hold even MORE "privilege" against me in discussion gjtjfh Because for them race, gender or sexuality are just badges of honor and dishonor, they don't see these as traits of actual human beings. And Dr Eugene X, who worked with them and weaponized her race to accuse everyone who disagreed with her of racism, didn't bat an eye at such a terrible act too?? As usual, rules are not for their friends, lol
It is not even the worst thing Alfred did, and yet all of this just, just, JUST because I wrote a point on why bisexual headcanon people did nothing wrong and there is no ground to claim something is canon when it isn't. 🤦♂️ Like, they were soooo convinced that I hated lesbian headcanons and that I'd feel angry if they called Lady Maria a lesbian, when what I was angry at is this exact toxic behavior in the fandom. No matter how much you like a headcanon, don't be a bitch about it. Maria doesn't """belong""" to any gender or sexuality, she belongs to anyone who likes her and is invested in her complexity as a character!!!
Yet, apparently, common Malenia simps / Finlay shippers are no better than common Maria simps / Mariadeline shippers. Just, wild how after shit like this, many people have the guts to claim that it is "sexist redditbros" who are the biggest problem of creators in the fandom. 🤦♂️ They'd actually blush if they encountered what such self-proclaimed "feminists" do to their own (!!!) over headcanons. 🤦♂️🤦♂️🤦♂️
#also fuck anna for thinking shit like this and way worse things alfred did is not as evil and toxic as#as me snapping at her for DEFENDING alfred#wiki: I can excuse stalking harassment cultish shunning bullying fantomette lying slander weaponizing identity but-#-I draw the line at katy getting too emotional when I admit as much uwu#granted she did admit that the reason for this is because alfred didnt concern her personally#she is probably the person I'll forgive last in this situation if ever#as much as I hate alfred they clearly have no empathy and compassion and lie for medical reasons#it isn't my assumptions they often reblogged this shit#I know mental illness is not an excuse for so much harassment for variety of reasons but-#-why would someone want to change if they medically can't feel guilt for their actions?#I feel bad for them and they hopefully will get help#as for Eugene idk... they seem to be a typical brainwashed youth#such people either change with age or get strongly bitten in the ass and get reality check#granted people who still follow her did admit she goes head hunting and then plays victim#as well as they only keep in touch because they worry they'll be dragged down if they are not at her good side#rather than because they like her posts (which are so untrue to BB that she can just make OCs anyways)#choir boy is literally just mindless sheep that didnt even have dignity to make it personal#hence is the name#I am sure he is lovely in his own circle it just doesn't concern me or my friend#but anna?#she knew what she was doing and has no excuse#fandomry rambles#it is also funny how they are four cringe failures and us are four based people#best AND worst groups come in four lol#also I know you all are dying to know how I can still hold grudges year later right?#it is hard to explain#I live normally and recover and not think of it but then scar starts to hurt#like you know how physical scars can react to weather or shit? mental can too
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Day 6: fankid
Redesign of the only fankid I've ever made for anything.
She's Katherine, daughter of Toddy and Onnie
#fnafhs#toddy fnafhs#onnie fnafhs#fhs week 2024#day 6#fankid#i don't really have like a story for her or anything. and tbh I don't even know why i ever made her. i just know she existed at some point#and i lost the og drawing of her too :(. anyways. this one is also for funsies :d#idk its almost 3 am rn and my head hurts. i have nothing else to add rn. goodbyes :9
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college aged francis wojciechoski and benjamin kondraki, Marrakesh, Morroco, circa the 1840's
#dr clef#dr kondraki#scp fanart#scp#scp foundation#illustration#huevember#!!!#i hate doing backgrounds so fucking much idk why i insisted on this#ships captains pirates#eughhh#pirate au yarrrrr#my head hurts gn
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... One thing about me is that I am ALWAYS fucking up the handedness on Moe's bracelet arrangement 🧍
#MAN.#it's not even that serious of doodles but like. always frustrating when i Notice it.#I HAVE BEEN PRACTICING IT... SO MUCH....... THE HANDEDNESS.... ON ASYMMETRICAL DESIGNS......#it's never enough.#spikes/cuffs go on the right hand. okay. layered bangles go on the left hand.#when you flip it it's like. in reverse. okay. brain hurting already but I Get It. you flip it. in reverse.#now from the side view over the shoulder.... oh god fucking damnit. i flipped it. but that's not...#head in hands.#idk if i'm like. just uniquely bad at it. but i have ALWAYS struggled at conceptualizing 'my right' vs 'your right'.#as a kid just fucking forget about it. as an adult. honestly if you said that shit to me i think i would bluescreen still.#IT'S SO DIFFICULT. WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT...
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Look look- it may be 1am but I slept, for like
A normal time for once-
Like seven hours
#my head hurts so much but yay sleep#idk why we talk about my sleep here but thought y’all should know-#dc tumblr#offline thoughts#sillyposing#not camera
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#i won't make it to 2025 i've been crying all day#i don't want anyone to see meeee#and after the party here we'll go to my cousin's house because it's my mom's birthday so they're throwing her a surprise party there#and it's so fucking stupid!!! because idk what they're gonna tell her to take her there#she's gonna feel like her new year's party -which she works hard on every year- is being underappreciated#and that same cousin was going to be here with us! like why 2 partiessss whyyyyyy who's gonna clean all that#meeee because i don't like being around people and i start washing dishes when everyone is gathered doing what people do at parties#but of i say any of this to my siblings they'll think it's just because i don't wanna leave the house which is also true !!!!#i feel so ill so desperate. this is not just not being in the mood. i can't calm down i can't even swallow properly#i haven't eaten anything because i feel my throat is closed and my heart beats so fast and i feel like i'm gonna throw up my own heart#and my stomach and neck and back hurt from how tense i'm am and my head hurts because i can't stop crying#my eyes are so red and so swollen. i'm gonna look disgusting when everyone gets here#📓
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Sonic au where everything's the same except the werehog was feral during unleashed. Nothing else abt the plot changes bc at his core sonic is still himself BUT he's more Creature. Bigger, fluffier, can't talk, overall more animal-isms. Yeah
#ramblings#i remember reading a fic a while ago on ao3 that was literally just this. basically snippets from unleashed but he's feral like this#idk if his design was ever described as different from canon tho. i'm pretty sure it wasn't#i don't use ao3 anymore and i don't remember what it's called so i'm not looking for it#i'm just imagining my own version of the same concept#i'm imagining the scene where he first meets chip. he kinda paws at him gently and growls#and when chip says 'don't eat me! i taste bad!' he gets confused and whines sadly thinking like i wasn't gonna do that...... :[#and the scene where tails almost gets attacked by a bunch of dark gaia monsters#after he beats them up he goes up to him and like sniffs him and looks over him making sure he's not hurt and whimpering#bc that's his best friend!! his little brother!!! he doesn't want him to be hurt!!!!#meanwhile tails is confused as hell. not realizing that's sonic at first until he hesitantly calls his name and sonic looks up at him#with wide eyes and perked up ears. and then it clicks like 'ohhhh it's you.. wait what the heck why do you look like that'#and sonic kinda shrugs and growls like idk man you tell me#later he asks if sonic can talk at all and he shakes his head and growls and kinda scratches at his throat#'oh is your throat sore? maybe some tea would help! not sure if i have any on hand though...'#cut to after they save professor pickle and they're at his lab talking abt the situation at hand or whatever#and sonic has a warm cup of tea in his paws and he's lapping it up not listening to what everyone else is saying bc mmm yummy :]#OH AND THE SCENE WHERE HE SAVES AMY FROM BEING HARRASSED BY PROFESSOR PICKLE'S POSSESSED ASSISTANT#him holding her close growling and hissing at everyone else for bothering her. that's his friend!!!! leave her alone!!!!!!#i should draw something for this actually. i wanna see the creature. big spiky dog hedgehog thing#i already love him#feral werehog au
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i need to just start journaling. my closest friends are sick of hearing me complain all the time and im realizing ive made myself kinda miserable to be around. i posted about this on my finsta story but then the girl i was in love with in high school who during our nearly friendship ending fight after prom SAID EXACTLY THAT ABOUT ME viewed the story (why is she even still on my finsta) and i realized that i need to genuinely like kill myself sorry
#im not actually in danger. im going to go to bed and the feeling will pass.#but man why does it have to suck so much that ive exhausted my avenues for dealing with it#i dont want to bother anyone with it but i DO want to get into a screaming crying fight with someone#idk#maybe im a masochist#it just. ugh#everything hurts#i hate the shortest day of the year#and if i were to actually write out my complaints id probably realize that theyre either fucking stupid or just made up in my head#but then i might feel worse because why does it hurt htis much then!#my heart just keeps getting broken again and again and at some point i need to just realize that it's my own fucking fault
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I think I just got a migraine from a car air freshener thing?
I was tidying my desk, found the thing still in its packaging, cut the plastic to take a look at it. Then the smell hit me (like bubblegum +laundry detergent times a thousand). My face started to burn immediately which always happens with strong scents. Then my tinnitus got really bad and my hearing got weird and my ear felt weird (stuffy? full? Something like that). And I started feeling dizzy and nauseous and my head started to hurt (my head and my face and my skull). It's been over an hour & it's not really much better so I'm going to bed now :(
#I was excited about finally getting my desk fine#*done#now everything is spinning and my face hurts and my head hurts and I want to puke#Its probably just idk a stupid headache and I'm just allergic or whatever but either way it feels not good and I don't like it#haven't had this kind of headache (where you have to lie in the dark & silence and hope you can sleep so ghqt maybe it's over when you wake#up) in a while. This one isn't so bad but it still isn't nice#And yes looking at my phone hurts & makes it worse but I just don't know why this type of thing keeps happening to me and had to complain#about it so II can stop thinking about it#personal#my tinnitus is SO LOUD rn it's driving me crazy
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