#like you know how physical scars can react to weather or shit? mental can too

[katyspersonal]

Lrb dear god, this reminded me of that time when Alfred-chan got sooooo mad at my post explaining why fans should respect bisexual headcanons for Maria and Malenia instead of pretending like they're canonically lesbians and that they get oppressed and erased by mxf ships with them. They kept vagueing that post for like a MONTH in their blog including in tags under reblogs of Maria fanart, passively-aggressively changed their url to character+sexuality to "spite" me and then even made a sockpuppet account to start shit with me in the comments.

They deactivated when me and Val completely obliterated their "you cultivate lesbiphobic following by telling people why they should respect all sexuality headcanons instead of acting cultish or assuming their experiences and stereotypes equal canon confirmation" garbage with actual facts and logic tho but I screenshotted everything fjthfgfj (I learned to document everything the hard way after they've changed the she/they pronouns to they/they pronouns ONLY to accuse me of misgendering, so thank you for making me wiser I guess 😎). Even more vile, as they, a white person, larped as an Arab in that sockpuppet to hold even MORE "privilege" against me in discussion gjtjfh Because for them race, gender or sexuality are just badges of honor and dishonor, they don't see these as traits of actual human beings. And Dr Eugene X, who worked with them and weaponized her race to accuse everyone who disagreed with her of racism, didn't bat an eye at such a terrible act too?? As usual, rules are not for their friends, lol

It is not even the worst thing Alfred did, and yet all of this just, just, JUST because I wrote a point on why bisexual headcanon people did nothing wrong and there is no ground to claim something is canon when it isn't. 🤦‍♂️ Like, they were soooo convinced that I hated lesbian headcanons and that I'd feel angry if they called Lady Maria a lesbian, when what I was angry at is this exact toxic behavior in the fandom. No matter how much you like a headcanon, don't be a bitch about it. Maria doesn't """belong""" to any gender or sexuality, she belongs to anyone who likes her and is invested in her complexity as a character!!!

Yet, apparently, common Malenia simps / Finlay shippers are no better than common Maria simps / Mariadeline shippers. Just, wild how after shit like this, many people have the guts to claim that it is "sexist redditbros" who are the biggest problem of creators in the fandom. 🤦‍♂️ They'd actually blush if they encountered what such self-proclaimed "feminists" do to their own (!!!) over headcanons. 🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️

[mechmech]

Ok so I know this is like my first post but I’ve been working on it cause a friend did it for their dnd character and I was like this could be fun and give people some insight. Questions wandered as Mecha 1-100

Smell like: oil, sweat, and more recently baby spit-up

Voice: Not many people will understand this fem-V from cyberpunk. Sorta gravely

Motivator: Research mostly. Finding out new things and applying them. More recently though her kid and making a better world for them.

Most embarrassing memory: She doesn’t like to share this story, but when she was younger and moved around with her sister mecha, she was afraid to GO in the woods because she accidentally wandered onto a farmer’s land and was caught pantsless.

How do they react to pain: “ You wanna hit me go ahead, just stay away from the hands and eyes” She can deal with a great deal of physical pain but when it comes to emotions and others she is like a mage named Corren

Wear: Normally throughout the day, she wears her metal armor. Outside of her armor, she wears a simple black dress when relaxing, a work apron while working, and always Always gauntlets and a blindfold

Most positive relationship: THis is difficult because so many of them have done different things, but most probably Corren and her want to be more good like him

The weirdest thing I have ever eaten: Correns cooking

Sleep: “Alister! Corren! Cuddle me!” Yea she will cuddle up with almost any person who trusts and it depends on the person. Alister: Alister is the big spoon and mecha buries herself into his chest and stomach. Corren: Mecha is like a koala to Corren and just hugs onto a single leg.

Favorite food/ kinda food: Vegetables honestly, but also baked goods like bread

Most insecure about: How others see her

Like to wear: adaptable clothing, something that can be used for many different functions and also gotta be able to get dirty and clean when you need it

How do they react to feelings of guilt: Previously they bottled them up, but more and more they are learning to talk to others about that guilt. Ultimately she always feels guilty for something

React to betrayal: Depends on the person buuuttttt, angry, blames themself for part of it, tries to move on quickly

Greatest achievement: MOCHA

Too little sleep: quiet and most likely taking a nap in the skeleton’s arms. That's If she is actually tired. Shel heals fatigue in an instant.

What are they like a drunk: If she drinks and gets drunk and that's a big if she becomes an I love you drunk and we'll just tell everyone what she likes about them before passing out.

Music likes: A lot of Rock and techno music, a little bit of pop only because it fits.

Right or left-handed: She always works with her hammer in her right hand.

Fears: Being completely alone, losing her friends, losing Mocha, destroying the world, the unknown, diseases, being like her mother

Favorite weather: Nice sunny days with a slight breeze

Favorite color: it’s hard because it's between gold and blue

Collect anything: besides random trophies, rocks that she sometimes gives away.

Hot or cold weather: Hot because you can cool down easily.

Eye color: Goldenish/ yellow

Race/ ethnicity: Well Gremlin in Sekrezia, in the real world through it's between Brazilian and Irish

Hair color: Ginger/ red

Happy where they are currently: Nope, not even a little bit. She's upset because she believes she has possibly doomed the world and has actually found someone she can connect with/ has some feeling for and they just keep backsliding her. She also hates that she has to leave her new daughter.

Mounting person: YES!!! Up early to get shit done

Sunrise or sunset: Sunrise is extremely pretty to watch especially when you can but caves are a thing.

Messy or organized: Like myself, it's a chaotic form of organization

Pet peeves: Jumping to conclusions, mistreating machines

Objects of significant importance: Her forge hammer which is like a badge of office saying she is a member of a smithing guild and her evil eye because a really good friend helped her make it.

Least favorite food: The rock she accidentally tried to eat while she was tired delirious one night in a cave.

Least favorite color: Kelly Green. Look it looks like puke, nothing against other greens but this one ugh

Least favorite smell: Decaying flesh

The last time they cried: mhhh a few weeks but it's gonna be soon. Definitely the birth of her child.

Anybody with them: entire party forMochas birth, but other than that Corren and Alistar

The time they got injured: Well getting crushed by a giant cube was bad, the worst injury would probably be getting dragged into lava by her own creation that she loved.

Scars: Nope none so far that are physical. Some mental ones that she's working through.

Mental health issues: Paranoia, Depression, Suicidal thoughts, low self-esteem, PTSD

Bad habits: Shutting everyone else out.

Why might someone dislike her: SHe can be a bit standoffish and definitely hard-headed.

Why might someone love her: He has a big heart for those she cares about, she's smart and also creates a lot of small gifts that aren't for value but personal reasons.

Believe in ghosts: Literally was in a plane of the dead, soooo yes

Anyone they would trust with their life: Corren, Alistar, Torvid, Simple,

Romantically interested in anyone: Spectra, depends on the person. ACE and Demiromantic

Dating/ Married: Complicated is what it is. Yes dating somewhat but it’s not a good relationship

Like surprises: Yes, surprises are nice and add a bit of fun to life. Other than a somewhat surprising pregnancy.

Birthday: I honestly forget but it's their weave day

Celebrate their birthday: Only with those they care about, which is few but some members of the party yes.

Family: Dad is dead, Mom is alive supposedly but she was supposed to be dead, and sister is possibly dead but in a bit of denial about it

Close to their family: Chosen family yes.

MBTI type: ISTP

Zodiac signs: I forget the sekrezian one but in real life Aquarius

Hogwarts house: Ravenclaw

Alignment; Chaotic neutral/ good

Nightmares: Losing the entire party in ways that they caused ore were directly a part of.

View on death: CHanged a lot as their questline has gone on but “Once someone has passed from this world and seen the raven queen and chosen their afterlife that is it, they are at peace and will stay there unless the gods dictate differently. Past a resurrection people should not come back. I have learned this the hard way and watched what happens when you play with death”.

Something they always laugh at: Corren getting flustered and digging himself into holes he can't get out of.

When bored, what do they do: Read a book/ tinker with new experiments

Enjoy the outside: yes, especially new areas where there are unexplored places.

Accent: Somewhat of a german accent but I’m no good at replicating it

Upon seeing a slice of chocolate cake, the first reaction: “Who left this perfectly good piece of cake here?”

If they knew they were going to die what would they do/ say: Alister: Be a good father to Mocha, Corren: Be a good stepfather to Mocha and make sure Alister stays on the right path, Simple Geoff: didn't like you at first but your apart of my family now, Maple: Live your best life and don't let other people tell you what you can be also given up on revenge it's never as sweet as you think, Lautrec: (Opens box) sorry it took a while, Vlog: “you don't like me, I kinda like you, protect your own but never stop learning and exploring.

Feelings about sex: Mecha doesn’t want sex and feels really uncomfortable with it especially around people she doesn’t know, but around friends, she’s willing to talk about it but will also respect preferences.

Sexuality: questioning, but Grey-ace

Squeamish around blood: Nope “ I saved a man that had a lethal arrow through his neck”

Anything they find gross: Living hair/ hair constructs

TV trope: Reclusive nerd with a big heart

Enjoy helping people: Yes she really likes to help those who need it, but if she believes you can help yourself she will leave you to it.

Allergies: Seasonal/ pollen

Pet: Multiple constructs that range from a skeleton to a walking piece of glass

Quick to anger: No, she has somewhat of a calm head that eventually boils over and then causes a big yelling fight/ random actions such as throwing a stick of dynamite in a graveyard.

How patient is she: Rather patient especially when listening, not the greatest responder though

Good at cooking: Hell yea they are, give them a pan and they'll make you a feast

Favorite insult:” I'm coming for your knees” “Don't make me get the fume engine”

How do they act when happy: Huge grin on their face and they start fidgeting.

What do they do when they learn about others’ fears: Tease them slightly in private but keep the information to themselves.

Trustworthy: yes and very loyal to her friends.

Do they try to hide their emotions: Definitely but not always the greatest at hiding them cause everyone has a great sense of motive.

Exercise regularly: We walk and adventure every day while she carries probably over 25lb of mechanical items so yes.

Comfortable with the way they look: Mhh sometimes, but not always. She really doesn't like that she reminds herself of her sister or that she has distinct eyes.

Features they find attractive on others: Not really features, she's more into personality but she does like people’s eyes.

Personalities they find attractive: Protective, Kind, Smart, honest, loyal.

Do they like sweet foods: definitely into the sweeter things in life,

Age: in sekrezia: 204, equivalent age is like 45-55

Tall or short: 3ft pretty short but and on the shorter side of her race

Glasses or contacts: Nope just a cool ass blindfold and no it's not for BDSM

Consider herself attractive: Nope, not at all. SHes surprised if someone likes her in that way.

Sense of humor: Both dark and sexual but at the same time dad jokes as much as possible. Also random improv she comes up with on the spot, which is slightly me

What mood are they in most often: THe mood of trying to figure out how something works

What angers them: Hurting children, hurting the party, destroying art and machines, using others to your own gain, rape, slavery

Outlook on life: “Life is full of twists and turns. There is never bad without good. Take your time and really think about what you do, but don't forget to also just let go and go wild every now and then.

What makes them sad or depressed: THinking of their family/ friends being gone, children with no home, Mocha growing up alone.

Greatest weakness: Turning the mind against them/ lack of belief in herself and that she is not responsible for the world.

Greatest strength: Open mind and somewhat open heart.

Something they regret: not letting them self grieve for pax in a different way than hunting them down and screwing the world.

Biggest accomplishment: Having a kid

Hope for the future: open an orphanage and continue helping the Fucks make the world at least a little brighter.

[cocoapeach1]

Spiritmates (M): chapter 2 (zuko x reader)

Summary: You have a supernatural and rare bond with the Fire nation heir that is beyond anything you’ve ever known... only neither you or he knows it yet. His mission to capture the avatar is the exact opposite to yours - to help them. You’ll do whatever it takes. But so will he.

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3

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The prophecy

It was freezing.

So cold it almost like nature wanted to fight back in the less destructive and therefore limited ways it could.

But it would be to no avail.

Iroh supposed the Water tribe people were used to it - the chilly, bitter weather. He personally couldn’t stand it, much preferring a warm evening to relax in, and would be glad when he and his nephew eventually moved further down south to continue the chase.

Iroh sighed, warming up his quickly cooling cup of tea. He had known from the beginning that this mission was barbaric. Nearly impossible, even.

However there was something else Iroh had had his mind on. A prediction, a prophecy, that had been niggling around the back of his mind ever since it had been uttered to him.

It was almost 3 years ago now that his nephew and his crew were boarding the ship they would take for the perilous quest. People had come to see them off, give encouraging words and parting gifts.

Iroh had been the last to arrive, though only by a few minutes. Most of the small crowd had dissipated anyway, finding better things to do.

But there were two distinct people waiting for him whose presence made him wary.

Lo and Li.

“On the day the skies flow like blood,” one said.

“Our prince’s emotions will start to flood.” Came from the other.

“Time he now has to learn to hate,”

“And he will, until a special date...”

“When he meets his Spiritmate,” they chorused.

Iroh tried to act indifferent on the outside but on the inside, he was shocked to his core. A Spiritmate? That could complicate things. He settled for narrowing his eyes in suspicion at the pair of crazy old bats. He had never liked them and steered away from them whenever it physically possible. But this was his nephew they were talking about. And a potential Spiritmate of his.

“Where will they meet?” he had hissed quietly. The two siblings looked smugly at Iroh before replying. “Before a fight on icy terrain.” “And that is all we are able to say.”

Iroh shook himself out of his flashback and exhaled slowly, mentally preparing himself for the next day. It would be an interesting one, that was for sure. ~ Earlier before...

“The Fire Nation won’t win this fight (y/n).”

Your eyes widened comically at Zuko’s words. It was common knowledge between all nations that opposition of any kind was not tolerated in the Fire Nation by its citizens - the punishment for doing so was long term imprisonment.

“H-how can you tell?” you faltered.

He glanced away from you pensively, looking towards the shadowed alcoves of the courtyard.

“I just have a feeling,” Zuko replied. “Make sure you meet me and my uncle after, he’ll tell us what he knows.” I guess I don’t really have much of choice here... What if his uncle doesn’t know anything about them? What will we do? His amber eyes locked back onto yours, awaiting your response.

“Okay...” you agreed. The quicker you could get this thing removed, the quicker things would go back to being normal. Semi-normal at least. Little did you know how mistaken you were.

You sighed heavily before burying your head into Zuko’s coat for a second time, relishing in the constant warmth that emanated from his body.

Never before had you felt so relaxed than you did now and you had a strong feeling that Zuko felt the same.

For a long time the two of you stood in each other’s arms, savouring the peaceful moment you had found yourselves in, both not wanting to disturb it. But eventually, it had to be done.

“I-i have to go, (y/n)...”

You squeezed your eyes shut, heart clenching painfully.

“Be safe, Zuko,” you murmured into his chest.

Just as you were about to pull away, Zuko’s arm snaked around your waist and before you had time to react, your body was abruptly pulled flush against his.

A gasp escaped from you.

A smirk from him.

And ever so slowly, he began to lean forward, the tip of his nose brushing yours.

Your arms proceeded to slither up and around his neck, connecting at the nape before your lips met his for a passion-filled kiss.

~

He was absolutely revolted. Furious. Scarred for life.

How dare this Fire Nation scum have the nerve to even think about touching her. She was his. No one else’s. She belonged to him. No arguments. She was his and he was hers and that’s how it always would be. He had always loved her.

Ever since she had stood up to his bullies for him once when they were 7, Ali had loved her. She was strong, clever, beautiful and kind. What was there not to love about her?

Admittedly, most of this loving was done from afar but that was irrelevant. He regretted that she didn’t know what his true feelings for her were but that probably didn’t matter. Ali figured she probably felt the same for him and was too shy to say anything - just like he was.

He watched over her, was her protector at all times - just like she was for him once. Even when she slept. But that wasn’t creepy. If anything, it made his love for her grow, witnessing all the cute things she did unconsciously. Like when she would mumble things in her slumber or dribble onto her pillow.

She was the only person who could make him lost for words, make him nervous. She piqued his curiosity.

Despite this, Ali still couldn’t comprehend how his flower, his rose, his love had wound up in this shithead’s arms. Spirits above, she looked like she was enjoying it. No... that wasn’t possible... the son of a bitch keeping her captive probably manipulated her and she was confused. Or she was pretending she liked it so he wouldn’t hurt her. Ali’s lip curled up in disgust.

Poor baby. His poor, poor baby.

But why this bastard was even here in the first place, Ali simply couldn’t work out.

Her beauty was so great, Ali thought, it managed to lure him out... Yes that sounded about right. He sighed inwardly. After they’d get married he’d have to lock her away forever, keep her from people like this vile, wretched, fire nation piece of dirt. It would be cruel but it would be for her own good. He would be keeping her safe. Unlike this slob here - he didn’t even know that they were being watched. He didn’t know how to keep her safe.

Ali’s fists tightened by his sides. He ought to send him running back to his ship with the rest of his coward nation buddies, more like. Too afraid to fight while the moon was bright. Cowards.

Relief flooded through him when the object of his desire began to move away from the slimy thing. But it was not even a second later that the desperate shit had his arms wrapped around her - again - and rather suddenly since his pearl had let out a fearful squeak.

Ali fought the urge to shoot an icicle through his head. Whether the head was his own or the other man’s, he didn’t know. Honestly, he didn’t mind whose it was at this point. Temporarily engrossed in his thoughts, Ali focused onto them again, only to find the pair lip locked for the umpteenth time. His stomach roiled violently, causing bile to rise into his throat and that’s when Ali knew - he was going to murder him.

He had overheard their plans for her to meet him somewhere - where that place was, Ali didn’t know. But he’d follow her. Just like he’d been doing for years.

And with that last thought, Ali shrank further into the courtyard’s dark crevices, eager to plot his plan.

[comeondowntosouthparkrpg-blog]

Kyle Broflovski

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in character info

Full name: Kyle Edom Broflovski Birthday: May 26th, 2001 Sexuality, gender, pronouns: bisexual, out, he/him Age and grade: 17 & senior Face claim: Harry Smith Personality: Kyle’s personality is often all over the place. To say he’s temperamental is an understatement, considering how quick to violence and harsh words he is. Perhaps it has to do with his New Jersey heritage, or the stress from the work he puts in, or maybe something else entirely. But the anger is a defining characteristic. Often this leads Kyle to getting into some various fight, be it with his mother or a peer, his wall or a tree when he escapes to the mountains to get away from the irritating people of South Park and forget about shit. Therapy or a yoga class would likely do him good, though Kyle often prefers to take his rage out on something a little harder. Because of his, his slender fingers are crooked and covered in scars from where the skin and bones broke during a fit of punches at a tree or door or brick wall. Or, if he’s lucky, someone’s face. Though Kyle isn’t angry all the time. There are plenty of times where he’s rather calm, such as focused at his desk writing in his various journals, finishing his school work, or reading. Being alone is cathartic, and peaceful. Though Kyle is often content and relaxed when he’s around those he cares about, he has the capabilities of being sweet, though he isn’t really aware of it. He does try, but often when he tries he falls short and hopefully he’ll learn to go with the natural flow and feel his emotions freely without overthinking it.

Which is another huge part of Kyle, thinking everything into oblivion until he’s lost in his own head and finding himself suffocated by his thoughts. Because of this he’s often insecure and paranoid, and desperate to forget about it. Which recently has gotten him into a bit of a sticky spot with someone else.

As well, if there’s one thing Kyle is that could be considered positive, it’s determined. When he knows what he wants, Kyle stops at nothing until he gets it. Case point for him is Yale, refusing to accept any other school that isn’t Ivy League. His classes are plentiful and filling his lunch breaks and several hours after class, leaving him with more than enough credits to have graduated. His determination has put him in various activities such as Student Council, DARE, Mathletes, Basketball and the debate team.

History: Kyle grew up in a fairly stereotypical Jewish household. Well, it was fairly stereotypical until he was ten and discovered his fathers very concerning internet hobby. But aside from that, it was Passover baskets, separate cooking utensils for meat and dairy. Absolutely no bacon. Or ham. Or mixing cheese and meat, which lead to a lot of envy over the other children who were able to eat cheeseburgers. But it wasn’t bad. The Christmas holidays often fell over Hanukkah, and even when they didn’t it was a few weeks off of school to bum around with his friends.

Everything with middle school was a preparation for high school, which was a preparation for college. Kyle worked to be top of every class, finding a taste for black coffee early on to stay up late and stay caffeinated for the school day. It began with sneaking instant coffee from the jar, to spending his allowance at Tweek Tweaks (by far the superior of the options, too). Cream didn’t agree with him, and he had to carefully monitor his diabetes.

As for family, Kyle’s current closest confidant is Ike, his adopted younger brother from the Great White North. Even though the kid was eleven, going on twelve, Kyle could tell he was going to far superior in intellect than he was. There was always the nagging jealousy over it, because Ike was a natural where Kyle just worked. Although Ike would often argue that it was worse, he felt like he had no passion. Kyle just chalked it up to preteen angst, although he wouldn’t doubt if it turned into strong teenage rebellion in a few years. He wouldn’t put it past his kid brother to dismantle governments before college. Now that Kyle was in high school himself, it was a whole new ball game. Or rather, the same game but what felt like a hundred times more stressful. He had no idea what he wanted to do in the future, no set career goal. Which meant Kyle needed to cover all options. The first semester of ninth grade had simply been used to assimilate him. Since the second semester of his first year, Kyle had worked with the guidance counsellor to get as many class credits as he could. Since then, he opted out of his lunch hour to fill it with more classes, and now in eleventh grade didn’t take the allotted study periods. Most used them to piss off school grounds and fuck around the city, but Kyle filled them with more classes. The workload was obscene, and Kyle spent every waking moment studying, working on projects. After school was used for extracurriculars, basketball, track. Kyle needed to cover all grounds. His goal was Yale, Harvard as a second. For what, he didn’t know, he simply knew he wanted to leave this shitty town and go Ivy League.

Anything less was unacceptable.

Headcanons: { 💥 } • Has clear anger issues, and attempts to manage them as best he can. Gives himself self-ratings from 1-5 in his head about it. One being general pissed offedness, three being angry as hell, five being blinding, inandescent black out rage. { 💥 } • Can forgive incredibly easily, but will rarely get over or forget wrongdoings. { 💥 } • Extra as fuck. This is the boy who went to commit murder, would have burnt down the school, and caused Canada to be nuked, after all. { 💥 } • While often portrayed as the logical one, Kyle’s most likely to react with passion as opposed to ration. He’s quick to violence, quick to make rash decsions, only to use reason after or when it doesn’t affect him. Kyle should practice what he preaches, but he tends to be a person that’s “do as I say, not as I do” type person { 💥 } • Always wanting to be bettering himself, which is a mountain he struggles to climb. But he always tries to go at least two steps forward one step back. { 💥 } • Absolutely hates when people put him into a box. He does not revolve around the fact he’s Jewish, he’s more than that, for instance. { 💥 } • Hates that his name means handsome redhead when he’s only one of those things. { 💥 } • Does not have freckles. At all. Do not even say he does. He does, however, have a strawberry shaped birth mark on his butt. { 💥 } • Started writing his anger down in notebooks in fifth grade when people (Eric) started pissing him off. Eventually it just became a good way to try to organize his life and now keeps them as a way to plan schedules, track lists, keep notes, things he’s learned, etc down. A lot of the ones from September have complex starbucks orders written down { 💥 } • Wears reading glasses. { 💥 } • Doesn’t stand for people blaming their actions on mental health problems. He tries to explain his actions as mistakes or poor judgement or decision making. Hates when people make excuses. Doesn’t blame his anger issues on his life, or his health issues, etc. Blames them on the fact he’s just stupid and makes mistakes. { 💥 } • Loves plants and trees. Is a nature freak. { 💥 } • Likely knows the woods better than anyone else in the town. Will be there most of the summers, and weekends in the warmer weather. Goes there to get away from people, and to calm himself down if upset. Has several favourite places. { 💥 } • Drives a 2017 Toyota Prius (White) { 💥 } • Will live and die eating Nutella { 💥 } • Is a fighter, obviously. Has no qualms throwing punches, and doesn’t intend to stop fighting until he’s physically removed from the situation. Kyle needs to have his eye contact actively broken, because he fights like a damn Rottweiler and sees eye contact as a challenge. { 💥 } • has probably the worst style known to man kind, if it’s ugly, he loves it. Specifically enjoys cable knit sweaters and corduroy pants.

Anything else: Family headcanons:

{ 🔥 } • Gerald has taken Sheila’s name. This is because Grandma Broflovski is Sheila’s mother, which means Gerald would have had to have taken Sheila’s last name. She’s a strong independent woman who needs no man but when she did she made him take her name. { 🔥 } • Got pregnant fairly young, and was unmarried, while living with her mother. Because her pregnancy helped Sheila realize she wanted to leave her jersey life, her and Gerald had a shotgun wedding before moving to South Park. { 🔥 } • Sheila had complications with her pregnancy with Kyle, and was no longer likely to have children after Kyle. { 🔥 } • Spent several years trying for another child with treatments before settling on adoption, ending up with a closed adoption and bringing Ike into the family. { 🔥 } • Gerald was once best friends with Stuart McCormick. Ended up resentful. Gerald moved to Jersey to continue his law degree. Gerald and Sheila chose South Park to move to from New Jersey because it was his hometown. { 🔥 } • Gerald, because of his fights with Stuart, thinks Kenny is a no good street rat and hates Kenny hanging around the house. Sheila, however, adores him. Gerald doesn’t complain about him while she’s around, but he has no issue with saying it around Kyle. { 🔥 } • Kyle, as mentioned, is a daddy’s boy. Because of how similar he is to his mother, they often butt heads. Gerald has dealt with this his whole life, and loves his angry wife and son and can handle them both just fine. { 🔥 } • However, Ike is similar to him in many ways, and this can cause Gerald and Ike to be distant to each other. { 🔥 } • Isn’t affectionate with Ike the same was he is Kyle. Sheila is far more affectionate with Ike, where Kyle pulls away. { 🔥 } • Sheila will believe Ike in every lie he says, without question. A lot of her favouritism of him stems from guilt from things like the Canusa War and forgetting his 13th birthday Photograph:

[clementlenz-blog]

“Ne cherchez plus mon cœur; les bêtes l'ont mangé.”                      — Charles Baudelaire

BASIC INFORMATION

FULL NAME: Clément Lenz, middle names are for chumps. PRONUNCIATION: Clay-muhn or Clehm-ent luhnz NICKNAME(S): Clem, Clé, just straight up call him keys it’d be hilarious BIRTH DATE: 22 May AGE: Twenty-two ZODIAC: Gemini GENDER: (trans) male PRONOUNS: he/him SEXUAL ORIENTATION: who the fuck knows; likely he’s bisexual, but again… who knows. Sexuality is confusing enough without being trans too honestly. Make a betting pool on where he’ll fall lmao NATIONALITY: Luxembourgish TITLE(S): x MAJOR: Religious Studies EXTRACURRICULARS: Journalism club; peer tutoring.

BACKGROUND

HOMETOWN: Esch-sur-Alzette, Luxembourg FATHER: unknown. MOTHER: Claire Lenz; 40 SIBLING(S): None! Could you imagine this petty bich with a younger sibling? Oh my god. OTHER IMPORTANT RELATIVES: Grandparents; Papa Lenz and Gran Lenz ARRESTS?: Gotta get caught to be arrested, and we all know he’s more the type to goad someone else into doing the illegal thing that him doing anything of the sort himself.

OCCUPATION & INCOME

SPENDING HABITS: Very much a “if I want it… why wouldn’t I buy it?” type of person. He’s likely to buy something, use it a few times, and just lose it or trash it or give it away. MOST VALUABLE POSSESSION: His watch; it’s a little big on his wrist, and has had its battery replaced a few times. It’s not even that fancy, but it’s the first thing he bought to make himself feel more masculine. It’s silver with a blue face, and is tightened to its tightest setting in order to fit on his wrist (and even then it moves around a bit when he gestures).

SKILLS & ABILITIES

TALENTS: He’s got a way with words and likes to write, though I wouldn’t say he’s got anything earth-shattering on his google docs account full of little journal snippets. Just the usual 20-something bs. He’s good at faking interest? Good at assessing a situation (though definitely not even close to being perfect at that at all)? SHORTCOMINGS: Clement is a manipulative little garbage man who treats human relationships like a fukin chess game and then wonders why people don’t like him for him. Like, newsflash kid, you have to be honest about your intentions and show your real personality to make genuine connections! Try actual friendliness instead of the underhanded bullshit you usually pull and see where that takes you, y’know? LANGUAGE(S) SPOKEN: Luxembourgish (fluent), German (conversational, can’t read or write), French (fluent), and English (CLOSE ENOUGH TO FLUENT)! He’s got a preference for French though, and will make comments on how English is a stupid language. DRIVE?: He’ll tell you he can but don’t believe him. This little shit is in the camp of ‘the lines and signs on the road are more suggestions than rules’ and it’s terrifying please don’t let him drive anywhere. RIDE A BICYCLE?: He likes to bike in nice weather, and is very much a leisurely biker than hardcore anything. Likes a smooth gentle ride rather than anything bumpy or fast. SWIM?: He’s not the best at it but he’ll not drown. It’s an activity that’s a wee bit hard to participate in before he’s gotten top surgery, because wearing a swim binder isn’t exactly the most comfortable or conductive to movement as, say, no shirt would be. PLAY AN INSTRUMENT?: He’ll tell you that he plays violin but he honestly can’t play shit except for a really slow and deliberate scale that still screeches. PLAY CHESS?: Absolutely! He loves the thinking involved in it. Fun fact: he’s absolutely useless at checkers though — always tries to play the game just like chess and that just makes him lose so horribly he refuses to play anyone. Has a favourite move in chess and it’s castling. TIE A TIE?: YES it’s one of his favourite accessories and it’s an article of clothing he’s very familiar with, because he wore them prior to coming out as well. He loves a good silk tie, and prefers solid matte colours to anything with an obvious texture; prefers small patterns to large ones. Hates paisley; hates shine.

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE & CHARACTERISTICS

FACE CLAIM: Rhys Pickering GLASSES/CONTACTS?: nah this bastard can see 20/20 DOMINANT HAND: ambidextrous HEIGHT: 5’8.5” TATTOOS: nah PEIRCINGS: nahhh MARKS/SCARS: A thin white scar on his bottom lip that only shows when he’s smiling; a few scattered dark freckles over his arms and torso, though none have graced his face. NOTABLE FEATURES: His dark eyes are what stick out on his face, and he’s got crooked fingers if you look hard enough. Another notable feature would be the dips in his shoulders from (stupidly) wearing too-tight sports bras before he figured out binders were a THING. CLOTHING STYLE: Simple, clean lines made up of dark neutrals (black, charcoal, and navy are his go-tos) with the occasional cool jewel tone (emerald, sapphire) to accent them. It’s rare he wears warm colours, but a maroon isn’t necessarily out of the question as a hard stop. Every so often Clement will wear a slice of ruby or topaz, but it is usually relegated to his hems; in the stitching — where one would be surprised by the flash of it, perhaps thinking they’d seen it merely in a dream — but sometimes he’ll press the colour into a pocket square, or necktie. Just for the fun of it.

PSYCHOLOGY

MBTI TYPE: INTP MORAL ALIGNMENT: Lawful Evil “legally selfish” TEMPERAMENT: Choleric MENTAL HEALTH: Good! Besides being manipulative and insecure, he’s got pretty good mental health. ADDICTION(S): Smoake DRUG USE: Curious, but doesn’t indulge because of not knowing how he’d react to anything. ALCOHOL USE: Social, and is a bit shit at holding his liquor but has yet to end a night with hugging the toilet. PRONE TO VIOLENCE?: Nahhh, not physical violence at least. He’s much more one to use his words to get at people than anything else.

FAVOURITES

ANIMAL: He’s really fascinated with snakes (go figure) and also finds dogfish really adorable. BOOK: René by François-René de Chateaubriand COLOUR: Navy and sapphire blue. FOOD: There isn’t much Clement wouldn’t eat — he’s certainly not picky — but his favourite foods range from a simple mix of fresh fruit and berries in yoghurt with honey, to heavy tartiflette. It all depends on his mood. More often than not, however, he leans toward lighter meals, and prefers them to be on the sweeter side of things. Honey cake would be the dessert for him. MOVIE: Arès (2016) dir. Jean-Patrick Benes MUSICAL ARTIST: Stromae QUOTE/SAYING: “La littérature est l'essentiel, ou n'est rien.” — Georges Bataille SCENT: Cinnamon, clove, citrus, allspice… really all the spices to make mulled wine. SPORT: He likes hockey but literally only watches at the Olympics and doesn’t have a clue what the rules are (doesn’t stop him from pretending to know what the penalty calls are for, however). VACATION DESTINATION: Marseilles, France.

ATTITUDES

GREATEST DREAM: Travel the world with a comfortable network of people he can bounce around with. This would be possible if he wasn’t such an underhanded shitlord, truly. Maybe there’s hope for it yet. GREATEST FEAR: Irrelevancy.   BIGGEST SECRET: Likely that he’s, deep down, just this scared little man who wants desperately to be liked by the people around him. TOP PRIORITIES: Come out on top. Get friends. Get this bread.

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Dragon Age OC Asks: Jace Surana

No one asked for these but I thought I’d give them a shot anyway. Hopefully I haven’t forgotten to answer any.

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1. What do they smell like?

Jace smells of woodsmoke and a bit like lyrium.

2. What is their voice like?

Start of Origins: steady and fairly deep. Very calming.

Around Inquisition: hoarse and rasping. Still calming, but in a different way.

3. What is their biggest motivator?

Jace wants to help people.

4. What is their most embarrassing memory?

In the opening months of Origins he is constantly making a fool of himself due to being a Circle Mage. Lots of ‘stupid questions’, misunderstandings, and more than a couple of stupid physical stunts he maybe shouldn’t have tried without training more.

5. How do they deal with/react to pain?

Jace can heal, so he grits his teeth and uses a healing spell usually. If he can’t he grits his teeth and deals with it until he either passes out or can receive medical attention.

6. What do they like to wear?

Functional robes, or something akin to Inquisitions Warden’s Battlemage armour.

7. Which of their relationships have impacted them most positively?

His relationship with Leliana, I think.They help each other a lot, and are really supportive and understanding. And Sten, because Sten taught Jace how to think effectively with different perspectives.

8. What’s the weirdest thing they’ve ever eaten?

Alistair’s surprise stew probably.

9. Describe the way that they sleep.

Start of Origins: Pretty stationary, very little movement because he’s still used to sleeping in the little cots in the Circle. Usually curled up to reserve warmth. He’s a cuddler and a blanket hog.

Start of Inquisition: Not nearly as stationary. Years of differing sized beds have allowed him to stretch out and move without falling, but he still curls into tight balls. He just shifts around a lot more. Still a cuddler and blanket hog though.

10. What is their favorite food/kind of food?

Pastries and breads, because there’s just so much variety and a lot of flavour that can come with them. Also cheese is beautiful.

11. What do they feel most insecure about?

Origins: Lack of knowledge about how things work in the real world.

Inquisition: His health (or rather his lack of health)

12. How do they like to dress?

When he’s not wearing armour (and even when he is) Jace is wearing a lot of layers. Allow him to be comfortable, or to become easily comfortable, in all climes.

13. How do they react to feelings of guilt?

Not well. If possible he tries to fix things, but if he can’t he tends to dwell off and on.

14. How do they react to/deal with betrayal?

Shock, numbness, anger. He’s quicker to make rash decisions, even when his heart is tearing itself apart.

15. What is their greatest achievement?

Killing the archdemon/marrying Leliana. Honestly they were both as frightening and equally rewarding.

16. What are they like when they’ve gotten too little sleep?

That would require Jace ever getting enough sleep, lol.

In all seriousness he tends to be more forgetful, and he forgets words sometimes. More scatterbrained.

17. What are they like when they’re drunk?

Jace gets more melancholy, also super sleepy.

18. What kind of music do they enjoy?

He really likes anything Leliana sings. Also loves hearing songs in different languages.

19. Are they right or left handed?

Right handed.

20. Fears?

3 Fears: ‘Surface level’: Being useless

‘Repressed’ Tranquility/Under Chantry’s thumb

‘Deep, dark fear’ People finding out the deal he made with Desire for Connor.

21. Favorite kind of weather?

When it’s cool and breezy but not incredibly damp.

22. Favorite color?

Blue

23. Do they collect anything?

Books and misfits.

24. Do they prefer either hot or cold weather more?

Personally he prefers cold, so long as it isn’t damp, but his lungs prefer hot and dry.

25. What is their eye color?

A very pale blue.

26. What is their race/ethnicity?

He’s an elf, and is quite pale.

27. Hair color?

Very near blood red in colour.

28. Are they happy where they are currently?

If he’s off searching for the Calling: No. He wants to be with Leliana, but he has to hope for something.

If he’s inquisitor: Kind of? He doesn’t like the position of power but he likes being near Leliana in such a tumultuous time.

29. Are they a morning person?

Oh sweet Maker no.

30. Sunrise or sunset?

Sunset

31. Are they more messy or more organized?

There may be a mess but it’s an organized mess.

32. Pet peeves?

Nobles being stupid and reckless with other people’s lives. Writers forgetting the ‘e’ at the end of breathe.

33. Do they own any objects of significant personal importance?

He has his Warden’s Oath still. And the Reflection amulet. Has his first Mabari’s ear too. He had it preserved so he could always have something to remind him of Sev.

34. Least favorite food?

Alistair’s surprise stew.

35. Least favorite color?

Yellow plaidweave.

36. Least favorite smell?

The Blight.

37. When was the last time they cried?

When he heard the Calling for the first time.

38. Were they with anybody the last time they cried?

No, he was alone in the tent while he had a bit of a panic attack.

39. Tell us about one of the times they got injured?

When Jace killed the archdemon, and it exploded, he was thrown back. Hit his head hard. By the time the dust cleared and Wynne found him laying face down in one of the many large puddles of archdemon blood that were everywhere.

He didn’t drown, but they couldn’t get all the blood out of his lungs. It’s what’s causing 90% of his health issues.

40. Do they have any scars?

He has a lot. Couple of more prominent ones include:

-The huge scar on his left cheek that runs straight through his tattoo on that side. It was a dagger.

-He has a scar in the center of his left palm from the first time he used blood magic. He hates it. It reminds him of Jowan.

-Manacle scars around his wrists from when he was trapped in Fort Drakon.

41. Do they struggle with any mental health issues?

Depression mostly. A sprinkling of PTSD

42. Do they have any bad habits?

Bites his lips to shit if he’s not careful.

43. Why might someone dislike them?

He comes off as a know-it-all who won’t listen to others sometimes.

He’s pretty stubborn, and is very keen on keeping secrets.

44. Why might someone love them?

He does listen to people, and is in fact pretty knowledgeable about a whole host of things. He’s a good listener, and gives good advice.

45. Do they believe in ghosts?

Not in the traditional sense? He believes spirits/demons are sometimes stuck in the patterns and emotions of people who lived/died in an area, and that if they get powerful enough they can affect the waking world to an extent.

46. Is there anyone they would trust with their lives?

Leliana

47. Are they romantically interested in anyone?

Leliana

48. Are they dating/married to anyone?

Leliana.

49. Do they like surprises?

It depends on the surprise, and what constitutes a ‘surprise’. If he knows something is coming but doesn’t know what he gets nervous. A pleasant surprise out of nowhere is usually welcome though.

50. When is their birthday?

Late fall.

51. How do they usually celebrate their birthday?

If he’s not too busy doing other things, he tries to treat himself to something. A new book, a night at a tavern, a new blanket. Even if it’s pretty barren, maybe he’ll make camp early to cook a proper dinner.

52. Do they have any family?

He has a mother he dimly remembers from before the Circle.

53. Are they close to their family?

After leaving Kinloch he tries to get back in touch but fails.

54. What is their MBTI type?

0 clue.

55. What is their zodiac sign?

Maybe Scorpio if we’re using our calendar.

56. What Hogwarts House would they be in?

Hufflepuff or Slytherin I think.

57. What D&D alignment are they?

Chaotic good, I think.

58. Do they ever have nightmares? If so, what about?

Jace has nightmares often, which is part of why he’s so restless in his sleep.

He dreams of darkspawn and demons mostly. The demons don’t worry him so much, but the darkspawn dreams do.

59. What are their views on death?

He’s not sure what he thinks. He hopes people find peace afterward, he’s seen too much nasty death not to have hope, but he’s still not sure.

60. What is something that they’re sure to laugh at?

Stupid puns and dogs being adorable idiots.

61. When bored, how do they pass time?

Reading, studying, talking to other people.

62. Do they enjoy being outside?

Origins: All the time, even in inclement weather.

Inquisition: Yes, but he has to be more mindful of his health.

63. Do they have an accent?

A Ferelden accent.

64. Upon seeing a slice of chocolate cake, what is their first reaction?

Eat it probably, after making sure it wasn’t poisoned.

65. If they knew they were going to die, what would they do/say?

Try to comfort Leliana, most likely. Make sure she would be okay and safe.

66. How do they feel about sex?

Jace doesn’t seek sex. He only really wants it when Leliana does.

67. What is their sexuality?

Biromantic somewhere-on-the-ace-spectrum.

68. Do they become squeamish at the sight of blood?

No. Gods though, could you imagine a squeamish blood mage?

69. Is there anything that they find really gross?

Vomit. And the flesh bags the darkspawn make.

70. Which TV Trope(s) best describes them?

Tired

71. Do they enjoy helping people?

Yes.

72. Are they allergic to anything?

Not really allergic to things but sand, dust, pollen, and really high humidity really irritate his lungs.

73. Do they have a pet?

Mabari. Loves him some dogs. Also has a soft spot for the Bog Unicorn and the Giant Nug if he’s involved with Inquisition.

74. Are they quick to anger? What are they like when they loose their temper?

Jace isn’t quick to anger at all, honestly. He has a really tight grip on his emotions. When he finally does, he’s vicious and cutting. His magic plays up around his fingers. Fire usually, burning with his passion. Sparking at his fingertips. When he’s angry but not heated the ice pools around his fingertips. 

75. How patient are they?

The man has too much patience.

76. Are they good at cooking?

He’s okay, not the most creative or best cook around. Give him a recipe and it’s usually edible.

77. Favorite insult? Do they insult people often?

No real insult comes to mind. Probably real specific ones if need be. He doesn’t really insult people with his words if he can help it, though he will in his own inner monologue.

78. How do they act when they’re particularly happy?

Jace becomes lighter, if that makes sense. More present and more apt to point nice things out. More likely to take some time to himself too.

79. What do they do when they learn about other people’s fears?

Do their best to assuage them if possible. If not Jace will just file the information in the back of his head in case something happens and he needs to comfort people. Or in case he needs to use the information later.

80. Are they trustworthy?

Yes.

81. Do they try to hide their emotions? Are they good at it?

He tries to be pretty neutral most of the time, it helps him remain impartial when he needs to be. He’s been dabbling in the Game for a decade or so, he got good at politics and manipulation and lying during the Blight. Ten years later he’s a pro.

82. Do they exercise regularly?

He’s wandering around fighting things regardless of what timeline. He doesn’t have much of a choice.

83. Are they comfortable with the way they look?

Origins: Yes. He’s got some mass to him by the end of the Blight, and he’s clearly very healthy and fairly attractive.

Inquisition: Not really. He’s gone grey super early. He looks like a walking skeleton. He doesn’t really see himself as attractive anymore.

84. What are some physical features that they find attractive on people?

Voice is a big indicator. And he won’t admit it but he likes Leliana’s cute nose. Healthy hair is something he notices too.

85. What kind of personalities do they find attractive?

Intelligent, creative, and affectionate when possible. Caring and kind are also big ones. A sense of humour would be nice too.

86. Do they like sweet foods?

Yes, though he tends to have a slight preference for savoury.

87. What is their age?

19 at the start of origins. 29/30ish by Inquisition.

88. Are they tall or short or somewhere in between?

He’s tall for an elf but short for a human. Around 5’4, 5’5.

89. Do they wear glasses or contacts?

I always headcanon him that he should wear glasses. Whether or not he does, due to glasses maybe being a liability on the road and stuff I’m not sure.

90. Do they consider themselves attractive?

By the time of Inquisition, no. He’s too sickly, to worn to really consider himself attractive.

91. What is their sense of humor like?

Puns and watching cute dogs do stupid shit. Also sarcasm. Also the two sisters in Denerim at the time of the Blight was a huge Aesthetic. “The Maker brings ham…”

92. What mood are they most often in?

Fairly ambivalent. He needs to be semi-functional most of the time, so he’s usually pretty ready to slip into his ‘I need to get shit done’ mood.

93. What kinds of things anger them?

The Chantry. Oppression. Needless cruelty. Bureaucracy.

94. Outlook on life?

Jace hopes he lives long enough to create a future that allows the biggest number of people to thrive. He wants to ensure Leliana is safe and provided for.

Other than that, he doesn’t really have an outlook. He figures he’s going to die sooner rather than later, and has long accepted it.

95. What kind of things make them sad/depressed?

Failing to help people. Either by directly saving them or by messing something up that could have helped a number of people.

Also Haven in general was such a buzzkill for him personally. Too many bad memories sort of all stuck in one spot.

96. What is their greatest weakness?

His overly caring nature can get him into real trouble. If people are in trouble he tends to overlook fairly obvious signs of traps and/or ambush.

97. What is the greatest strength?

His willpower and his raw magical talent.

98. Something that they regret?

Making the deal with Desire that led to Connor’s eventual possession. Jace regrets it more than anything, and eventually has ‘Connor’ tracked down and killed.

99. Biggest accomplishment?

Saving the world.

100. Their favourite weapon(s)?

Starfang and Duncan’s Dagger for martial weapons. For a staff he uses Spellfury.

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1. What do they smell like?

Chell smells like hubflower and gun oil.(hubflower smelling an awful lot like Cannabis)

Drake: No matter what he always smells clean.

2. What is their voice like?

Chell’s isn’t very girly to be honest; it has a little bit of a lower end to it (alto at least) which works well when talking to troops or trying to scare Raiders.

Drake’s voice is a high baritone, slightly nasal but flips the tone to his chest when he needs to be more persuasive.

3. What is their biggest motivator?

Chell didn’t really have any motivation at first; she was actually ready and waiting to die for the first 6 months but she just kept going anyway. Eventually she found out her kid was still alive so that pretty much consumed her to the point she amassed an army to burn the Institute to the ground.

Drake’s got a strange motivator really. After the events of his Pre War back story he ends up back home in Boston and works his way into the Institute after finding out about it from Harkness. His goal once he’s there is to take the Directorate himself and bend the surface world to his ideals. Once the Institute blows up, his primary goal is to hunt down and murder Chell for robbing him of his success.

4. Most embarrassing moment?

Chell once experimented with changing the Mentat formula in college (the precursor to Grape Mentats) and accidentally dyed her mouth purple for a week.

Drake’s was the one and only time he tried to express affection and was rejected by the boy in Pre Med.

5. How do they deal with/react to pain?

Chell wont hesitate to slam 3 vials of Med X and bump a line of Buffout to get to the next hospital if she gets hurt. She likes getting into physical fights though and enjoys the adrenaline more than any chem.

Drake….um….he likes it. Too much.

6. What do they like to wear?

Chell wears a few things; green shirt with combat boots, the Disciples wrap with ripped jeans (when she’s out traveling), or the Pack sweater with socks if she’s just at home.

Drake wears the standard SRB Institute uniform while working. Once that becomes too high profile though he opts for a clean labcoat.

7. Which of their relationships have impacted them most positively?

Chell and Hancock are inseparable. They share the same ideals of helping people and liberating people and their relationship is a huge influence on her drive to make the Commonwealth a better place.

Drake has very problematic relationships, nothing that could be considered positive. He is incapable of feeling love or romance but he is exceedingly possessive and co-dependent.  

  8. What’s the weirdest thing they’ve ever eaten?

Chell ate Bloatfly once. She hated it, never again. What the hell is wrong with you people.

Drake once had to eat Cram and nearly hurled cause of the texture.

9. Describe the way that they sleep.

Both have nightmares - Chell dreams about her dead husband guilting her over her lifestyle and choices post war and Drake has nightmares about THAT PLACE (how he got to the year 2260)

10. What is their favorite food/kind of food?

Chell’s favorite food is Razorgrain oatmeal with tarberry

Drake’s is spite Brahmin steak as rare as it can get.

11. What do they feel most insecure about?

Chell feels really insecure about what other people think about her. She often feels the need to please everyone unless they’ve made themselves hostile or stupid to her.

Drake can’t stand to feel like he’s failing in some respect and if he does he tends to get more belligerent and abusive.

12. How do they like to dress?

They both tend to stick with what’s practical, although I think Drake has more of a sense of hygiene so he will be more careful with his clothing and poor traveling conditions. Chell doesn’t give a fuck and will plunk herself head first in Lake Quannapowitt if given half the chance.

13. How do they react to feelings of guilt?

Chell doesn’t cope with guilt. She will binge on chems until she passes out, or get black out drunk instead of actually dealing with it.

Drake never feels guilty about anything. Ever.

14. How do they react to/deal with betrayal?

Chell tends to go quiet and reacts very minimally outwards. Internally though it feels like her brain is on fire. Depending on the type of betrayal, it ranges anywhere from fury to crushing depression.

Drake handles betrayal violently every time, but he will find people who aren’t involved in the issue to take it out on. Not many people survive intact.

15. What is their greatest achievement?

Chell’s greatest achievement would be helping Sturges build that damn Molecular Relay. That boy is a genius; she’s just glad she could help.

Drake’s would be crossing Siberia into the former US and trekking his way halfway across the globe in 10 years.

16. What are they like when they’ve gotten too little sleep?

Chell’s pretty grumpy but she was used to the sleepless nights Prewar when she had Shaun. She functions pretty well considering and can go on about 3 hours of sleep a day if needed.

Drake is such a bitch about it, but likewise doesn’t sleep much. Its hard to tell if hes miserable from that or other things.

17. What are they like when they’re drunk?

Chell loooooves being drunk; life of the party kinda behavior. Prefers Whiskey but will slam a bottle of Bobrov’s if there’s a special occasion

Drake detests being under the influence of anything so he wouldn’t indulge.

  18. What kind of music do they enjoy?

Chell likes Rockabilly, jazz, and swing

Drake prefers Classical

19. Are they right or left handed?

Chell is right, Drake is lefty

20. Fears?

Chell fears being abandoned and left behind

Drake fears failure or being humiliated.

21. Favorite kind of weather?

Chell likes thunderstorms, rain and if she’s in the mood Radstorms are guaranteed to have her rip your clothes off. Hates the heat.

Drake would rather not be outside at all, but if he had to pick it would be overcast and cool.

22. Favorite color?

Chell’s is yellow, Drake’s would be transparent because “what kind of question is that anyway? I don’t care.”

23. Do they collect anything?

Chell likes to collect the little robot model kits and assemble them when she’s really high.

Drake used to collect small animal skulls when he was a kid but he doesn’t have time to waste on collections.

24. Do they prefer either hot or cold weather more?

Both prefer it cooler. Summer just sucks all around.

25. What is their eye color?

Chell has blue eyes; Drake’s is dark brown/almost black

26. What is their race/ethnicity?

Both white. Drake is the whitest, white bread mayo motherfucker ever.

27. Hair color?

Both blonde, although Chell’s is a shade darker

28. Are they happy where they are currently?

Chell is actually pretty well adjusted and content. She’s very much in her element. Drake….not so much.

29. Are they a morning person?

NO.

30. Sunrise or sunset?

Neither one have a preference; Chell appreciates both equally where as Drake doesn’t give a shit about either.

31. Are they more messy or more organized?

Chell’s a mess; her house has paperwork everywhere, empty Jet canisters and beer bottles and dirty clothes on the floor.

Drake has panic attacks if there’s anything too out of place. He will be vocal and obnoxious about it but doesn’t lift a finger to fix it.

32. Pet peeves?

Chell can’t stand smugness despite being cocky herself. She also really dislikes bigoted statements or people who feel superior to others.

I could literally write a master thesis on all of Drake’s pet peeves but I will just include that he cant stand idiocy, kindness, or empathy.

33. Do they own any objects of significant personal importance?

Chell managed to save one baby picture of Shaun so she keeps that close to her, even after the events of the Nuclear Option.

Drake feels that personal objects only weigh a person down and the sentimentality of them is childish and irrelevant.

34. Least favorite food?

Chell - Bloatfly (as answered above)

Drake - Cram or potted meat

35. Least favorite color?

Chell - isn’t real into pink but I guess it would depend on what it is

Drake’s least favorite color is all of them

36. Least favorite smell?

Chell really has a hard time with the smell of death or decay so she is really hesitant to go places where Raiders are holed up.

Drake thinks the whole Commonwealth is just the worst in regards to odor.

37. When was the last time they cried?

Chell cried when she found out that Shaun was the head of the Institute.

Drake cried when ******* ******* **** ***** ****** ****** (you’re never going to know unless you were there.)

38. Were they with anybody the last time they cried?

Chell was alone, Drake was….not….

39. Tell us about one of the times they got injured?

Chell almost died fighting Sinjin; she had been so hopped up on Psycho she didn’t realize she caught a bullet in her hip and she started to bleed out. She flatlined by the time she got back to Goodneighbor and had to be resuscitated.

Drake only has to open his mouth for 3 minutes before the threat of being injured is a very real and present danger. He antagonizes the shit out of his assailant though because he likes getting hurt.

40. Do they have any scars?

Chell was burned by the cryostatis chamber on her right cheek; she also has a sizeable gouge that starts above her left eye and trails down to her lip and chin.

Drake’s a pretty boy with no scars.

41. Do they struggle with any mental health issues?

Chell suffered from PPD after Shaun’s birth and some PTSD from the war when she was in Anchorage. At the moment she has survivors guilt and suffers from addition.

Drake…….Narcissistic Sociopath. *think Ted Bundy*

42. Do they have any bad habits?

Chell’s got every bad habit. She bites her fingers and tears the skin, she drinks and does way too many chems, she forgets to eat, she hates drinking water, she doesn’t sleep, she falls in love too easy.

Drake’s habits are so ingrained into him that if his routine is disrupted he gets irritable. He can’t stand disorder so he will meticulously try to straighten things.

43. Why might someone dislike them?

Chell is cocky and sarcastic with no respect for authority (IM LOOKIN AT YOU MAXSON)

and everyone should hate Drake. That’s not really a question for him haha.

44. Why might someone love them?

Chell wears her heart right on her sleeve and would move heaven and earth to make sure your safe and secure. She loves so deeply and compassionately that its hard not to love her back.

as for Drake go ask Clint cause I have no idea…. he doesn’t deserve any of your love and affection because he will absolutely use that against you to his advantage as soon as he can.

45. Do they believe in ghosts?

Chell absolutely does. She studied the occult when she was a kid and while she doesn’t have a particular religion she believes that there is definitely something beyond the mortal coil.

Drake just rolls his eyes and tells you to stop asking stupid questions

46. Is there anyone they would trust with their lives?

Chell trusts Preston, Hancock, Mac, Deacon, and Nick completely.

Drake literally can’t go anywhere without Clint but at the same time is constantly wondering when Clint is going to kill him.

47. Are they romantically interested in anyone?

Chell: Hancock and Glory

Drake: is incapable of romance (hes aro) but he will fuck any guy he thinks he can manipulate easily.

48. Are they dating/married to anyone?

Chell: Dating Hancock (not sure if she wants to get married again)

Drake….can you call it dating if you’re bound to someone hell bent on murdering you?

49. Do they like surprises?

Chell likes certain kinds of surprises but not major ones (hey I got you flowers! :D \ Hey your kid is the head of the Institute D:)

Drake will hit you if you try to surprise him.

50. When is their birthday?

Chell: February 21st 2045 (32 at time of cryo)

Drake: November 8th 2041

51. How do they usually celebrate their birthday?

Chell makes a big deal out of her birthday and will buy everyone drinks at the Third Rail or at the Dugout for weeks before and after

Drake forgot when his birthday was during the trauma of his backstory

52. Do they have any family?

Chell had a sister who had moved overseas before the bomb fell. She never knew what happened to her but at this point all of her immediate family is dead so she created her own family.

Drake was an only child. No kids.

53. Are they close to their family?

Chell was. She was particularly close to her Oma as a kid.

Drake could’ve cared less. He pretended to be a nice boy but he really felt nothing towards anyone.

54. What is their MBTI type?

I’ll be honest I’m kinda crap at assigning these so I’m gonna skip

55. What is their zodiac sign?

Chell’s Pisces

Drake’s Scorpio

56. What Hogwarts House would they be in?

Meh, not really feeling this question tbh.

57. What D&D alignment are they?

Chell is CG; Drake is NE

58. Do they ever have nightmares? If so, what about?

Answered above already.

59. What are their views on death?

Chell is afraid to die alone. She hates to think about dying and will take steps to end suffering when she can.

Drake can’t WAIT to die. Its all he’s wanted to do since he was a kid.

60. What is something that they’re sure to laugh at?

Chell is easily amused and laughs easily at mostly anything.

Drake only ever looks satisfied when someone else is uncomfortable or in pain

61. When bored, how do they pass time?

Chell plays checkers, draws, or reads comic books or builds models

Drake reads if he can. Old textbooks, history books mostly. He laments the lack of text that survived and misses the Institute archives.

62. Do they enjoy being outside?

Chell does, Drake no

63. Do they have an accent?

Not really

64. Upon seeing a slice of chocolate cake, what is their first reaction?

Chell gets heart eyes motherfucker.

Drake would only eat some if no one was around because he would be that guy who tells everyone he hates cake.

65. If they knew they were going to die, what would they do/say?

f Chell could help it she would want to just spend it at home at Red Rocket. In a perfect post apocalyptic world, dying in bed is a blessing so she’s aiming for that.

Drake would mouth ‘I love you’ to his murderer and die happy.

66. How do they feel about sex?

Chell - yes please. Anytime

Drake - We’re gonna do it and you’re not gonna like it

67. What is their sexuality?

Chell is Bi/Pan

Drake is Gay Aro

68. Do they become squeamish at the sight of blood?

Both went through rigorous biology courses in College and worked in a biochemical research for the US Army. Blood isn’t an issue for either.

69. Is there anything that they find really gross?

Chell hates the giant fucking bugs everywhere like seriously what the fuck?

Drake hates when people try to be affectionate to him.

70. Which TV Trope(s) best describes them?

You assume I watch TV! I cant really think of appropriate answers to this question really.

71. Do they enjoy helping people?

Chell lives for helping people.

Drake serves no one but himself

72. Are they allergic to anything?

No neither one has any allergies

73. Do they have a pet?

Chell has two dogs - Dogmeat and Daisy

Drake should stay away from animals

74. Are they quick to anger? What are they like when they loose their temper?

It takes a lot to get Chell mad but sure fire ways would be being openly bigoted or just unnecessarily cruel. She also hates being taken advantage of so if you pulled a Bobbi No Nose you end up pushing daisies.

Drake is always in some state of discontent; it doesn’t take much to get him to lash out. He talks you in circles first then gaslights you until you doubt what you said. 

75. How patient are they?

Since the bombs fell Chell got a college education in patience and it bent her in a much less rigid direction than she had been Prewar.

Drake is much less patient but can appreciate the need to be if the means justify the ends. Hes only patient when he wants to be.

76. Are they good at cooking?

Chell is very good

Drake could probably cook with a recipe but cant cook beyond boiling an egg without one

77. Favorite insult? Do they insult people often?

Chell only insults BOS to their face if they run their mouth about Ghouls or Synths while she’s around. Otherwise if its a random skirmish she makes kissy faces and calls her opponents endearing terms while she’s clearing them out.

Drake is sassy all the time and cant go more than 5 minutes without telling you he can hear the way you breathe and you should close your mouth. 

78. How do they act when they’re particularly happy?

When she’s genuinely happy shes affectionate af. If you’re traveling she will walk close and bump into you a lot. Shes giggly and bubbly when shes high, she’s highly motivated if she feels loved or happy.

Drake doesn’t really feel ‘happiness’ but he does get satisfaction

79. What do they do when they learn about other people’s fears?

Chell can empathize with a good deal of trauma and fear so she will be as supportive as she can. She tries to encourage them to face it and to overcome.

”I must not fear, fear is the mindkiller…”

Don’t let Drake know what you’re afraid of, please. He will try to find out and he will use it against you.

80. Are they trustworthy?

This is an interesting one for Chell because in the grand scheme of things she is, but due to her chem usage she sometimes avoids or deflects responsibility until it becomes overwhelming to deal with.

Drake should never be trusted. Why would anyone do such a thing?

81. Do they try to hide their emotions? Are they good at it?

Chell has no problem expressing most emotion with the exception of her abandonment issues which she over compensates by trying to make herself indisposable.

Drake has like 3 emotions and he doesn’t really want to waste any of them on you.

82. Do they exercise regularly?

Does sex count as exercise? cause then yes for Chell

Drake has a really high metabolism so he always appears thin but its a softer kind of thin, the kind that has no muscle definition.

83. Are they comfortable with the way they look?

Chell is self conscious about the burn on her face but otherwise she’s alright.

Drake takes great pride in his appearance.

84. What are some physical features that they find attractive on people?

Chell likes eyes. They’re the windows to the soul and all that jazz.

Drake likes teeth. If you have a nice set he might be more willing to talk to you.

85. What kind of personalities do they find attractive?

Chell prefers carefree, non judgmental people who can be both sweet and vicious. She needs someone in her life that can make their own decisions and be their own person but still stick with her through the thick of it.

Drake likes easily manipulated people to surround himself with but if hes confronted with a strong personality he panics because he’s rendered much more defenseless.

86. Do they like sweet foods?

Chell gets munchies. All your sugar bombs are belong to her.

Drake is indifferent really.

87. What is their age?

Biologically Chell is 32; Drake is 36.

88. Are they tall or short or somewhere in between?

Chell is about 5′4″ Drake is 5′7″

89. Do they wear glasses or contacts?

Chell wears glasses and is nearly blind without them, Drake has no vision problems.

90. Do they consider themselves attractive?

Chell does not. She wonders what the hell anyone even sees in her.

Drake knows hes is and it comes through loud and clear whenever he speaks to anyone.

91. What is their sense of humor like?

Chell is a sucker for a good pun and makes them often and in inappropriate situations. She doesn’t shy away from dick and fart jokes. She is 85% sarcasm.

Drake will find people getting humiliated amusing.

92. What mood are they most often in?

Chell might never be always happy, but she’s a positive realist.

Drake hides his psychopathy behind a thin veneer of distain for literally everything after the Institute was destroyed.

93. What kinds of things anger them?

Chell hates when people talk down to her, when they try to suppress peoples natural way of life. She hates the idea of coercion and brainwashing. Torture is right the fuck out.

Drake scorns compassion like the plague. If you’re kind in any way it just means you’re weak and who has time for weakness? His possessiveness of Clint also causes him to get extraordinarily hostile.

94. Outlook on life?

”Shit’s good, man.” - Chell

”Why are you bothering me again?” - Drake

95. What kind of things make them sad/depressed?

Chell’s heart is with her love so losing that would crush her.

Drake has difficulties with feeling sadness but there is a definite emptiness if he finally ever finishes what he set out to do. At this point Drake’s only reason for living is to cause harm to everyone.

96. What is their greatest weakness?

Chell’s would be love.

Drake’s is his ego.

97. What is the greatest strength?

Chell’s would be love :)

Drake’s is his ego.

98. Something that they regret?

Chell carries a world of regret from her former life; regrets for joining the Army, regrets for getting married to Nate, regrets for feeling sorry for herself.

Drake regrets allowing himself to get close to anyone but he is and now he’s in it for the rest of his life (which hopefully wont be too long)

99. Biggest accomplishment?

She managed to keep and maintain a peace with 3 out of the 4 major factions and mostly everyone gets to live.

Drake has yet to accomplish what he needs to do, which is to kill Chell.

100. Create your own!

How about I don’t, but if anyone has any HC for either one of them please let me know I would be so freaking happy to have them interact with your ocs.

[petrichorhq]

- ̗̀pet·ri·chor ;

noun

a pleasant smell that frequently accompanies the first rain after a long period of warm, dry weather. “ other than the PETRICHOR emanating from the rapidly drying grass, there was not a t r a c e of evidence that it had rained at all. ” 

- ̗̀general info ̖́-

full name : kimura asuna.

nickname(s) : sunny, blondie. 

gender & pronouns : cisfemale ( she/her ). 

sexual & romantic orientation : homosexual & homoromantic. 

age & dob : twenty & june eleventh. 

birthplace/hometown : california, usa. 

parents/siblings : kimura ikki ( father ) & kimura miyumi ( mother ). 

astrological sign : gemini. 

dominant hand : right. 

handwriting style : very messy -- she’s commonly rushing, wanting to write everything that’s on her mind/being said to her/etc. 

language(s) known/spoken : french, english & korean. 

religion : undecided. 

current living arrangements : on her own, in a one-bedroom apartment. 

occupation/major : veterinary medicine. 

- ̗̀appearances ̖́-

picture reference :

blood type : type b.

nationality : american.

skin tone/color : tan, fair.

birthmarks & scars : a scar on her left cheek from a previous car accident.

height : 178 cm.

build : slim & toned ( healthy ). 

hair color : blonde ( dyed ). 

hair length : long, past her shoulders.

eye color : brown.

eye shape : similar to momo’s -- round & doe-like.

diet : she eats what she wants & when she’s hungry, though has a super big sweet tooth. she also loves pizza & comfort food. 

exercise & level of fitness : she works out every now & again, though maintains her weight by having a very active lifestyle.

how’s their posture ( or lack thereof ) ? : she stands very relaxed most of the time ; though her shoulders are often pulled back rather than slumped forward. she does this partially as an intimidation factor, but it’s mainly because it’s comfortable for her ! whenever she’s standing/stationary, she tends to bend one knee & rest her weight on the other leg.

typical style of dress : plaid, long sleeved shirts & baggy jean shorts ( jeans when it’s colder out & big hooded sweaters ) & sweatpants on lazy days.

body modifications : piercings -- her septum & both ears. tattoos -- a moon on her left ring finger & flower arrangements on her right arm & lower abdomen. 

- ̗̀body language & mannerisms ̖́-

how does your muse walk ? : very lightly when she’s in a good mood ! asuna carries herself very freely ? she walks like she doesn’t have a care in the world ( despite the fact that she’s actually v upset deep down … she just represses everything ). she does have a tendency to stop her feet when she’s angry though. she’ll throw a fit ; she’s a fan of theatrics. 

how does your muse talk ? : she talks very quickly & a LOT ! asuna loves to hold conversation, as long as it’s not with someone only fluent in languages she doesn’t know because she grows frustrated with not being able to understand or keep up. she’s the type of person who needs the last say, & it’s difficult to argue with her because she’ll constantly nag & say the same thing repeatedly with hopes of having the final word. 

what accent/dialect does your muse talk with ? : she has a very american-esque accent & when speaking korean, she sounds quite rusty.

how high (or low) is the tone of their voice? are they loud or quiet ? : their tone’s quite high ! very effeminate. additionally, she’s usually loud & doesn’t really know what an ‘ indoor voice ’ is. 

what is their laugh like ? : very obnoxious, but also contagious. she loves to laugh !

how does your muse typically smell ? : like warm summer nights – like sand, shells & the ocean. growing up in cali, she’s been told in the past that she reminds people of their childhood, when they’d frequent beaches with their families. she also smells very natural ; not like she’s drowning herself in artificial scents ( such as heavy perfumes ). 

what kind of air do they carry ? are they intimidating ? : asuna’s not too intimidating upon a first glance. she’s very welcoming & friendly, though she becomes intimidating when someone crosses her. whenever she’s truly furious she turns into a completely different person altogether ; she’ll kick & scream & pretty well throw a temper tantrum. she also may get physically violent, depending on the situation !

- ̗̀psychology ̖́-

what makes your muse happiest ? : it’s going to sound incredibly corny & cliche, but long walks on the beach. asuna’s very much a nature girl, she loves being by the ocean & spending time pacing the shore. she has memories of walking the shore with her best friend when she was younger ; the two found shells & collected them … she still has them on display in her room, despite the fact that she’s no longer friends with that person anymore. 

what upsets them the most ? : seeing car accidents or being involved in accidents. it brings back memories of her ex & all of the emotions associated with the accident. she has nightmares about it occasionally, which cause her to become mentally exhausted for days on end … it takes a lot out of her. 

does your muse have any quirks ? : she puts her hands in her pockets a LOT. she also likes to whistle to herself & sleeps with a blanket covering her, always. 

what are their hobbies ? how frequent do/can they do them ? : she loves to garden ! she gardens often, tbh. she has potted plants all over her apartment ! she also loves to bake, though does this less.  

do they have any guilty pleasures ? : shitty reality television, oh boy, she’s a sucker 4 that shit.

is your muse an extrovert? an introvert ? neither ? : asuna’s more an extrovert than an introvert ! however, she does have her days where social interaction exhausts her. she normally thrives in social settings though, & loves talking with & meeting new people. 

do they have high or low self-esteem? what about confidence ? : fairly high self-esteem ! and she’s quite confident in herself. asuna’s fortunate enough to have never dealt with low self-esteem/body image.

are they easily stressed? how do they respond to stress ? : they’re hardly ever stressed ! however, when they are, they react very terribly – she ignores the issue until it becomes impossible to do so. she doesn’t like facing problems head on & prefers to live a stress-free lifestyle. she’s still ignoring/repressing the death of her ex. 

what is your muses worst fear ? : aside from remembering her ex, asuna’s also equally afraid of people not accepting her due to her sexuality. her parents were the reason for this insecurity/fear, being that they didn’t like that their daughter was only interested in & wants to be with girls. she’s very open about her sexuality, but internally, she still has this fear – it’s deep, deep down & surfaces every now & again. it surfaces more often when she finds herself getting close with someone. 

what is your muses biggest dream ? : move back to california & settle down. 

is your muse an early riser ? a night owl ? : definitely a night owl ! she finds there’s something incredibly serene about being awake when the majority of the world’s asleep & dormant. she does wake up early however ; she’s able to function on little sleep ( an average of five/six hours )

how intelligent is your muse? do they acknowledge it ? : she’s fairly smart, not overly so, but she’s not lacking in knowledge. she does feign ignorance a lot of the time however, figuring it’s easier to be naive & unknowing because then not only do people expect less from her, but she’s also one step closer to living without troubles, you know ?

what is their sense of humour like ? : she’s the BEES KNEES -- honestly, she’s hilarious & thinks she’s hilarious. if she’s not cracking a joke, something’s wrong. 

- ̗̀relationship tendencies ̖́-

what’s their sexual orientation? what about romantic ? : she’s homosexual & homoromantic !

are they currently in any sexual or romantic relationships ? : none at the moment.

what is their experience with relationships ? : she’s been in one serious relationship & it ended after her ( now ) ex passed away.

how does your muse view the idea of friends with benefits? have they ever had one, or would they ever ? : she doesn’t mind the idea ! but she prefers committed relationships. she craves long-term intimacy & trust & love rather than those of short-term & lust. 

sex, is it important to your muse ? : not overly important, but she has to be physically attracted to someone if she plans on committing herself to them. again, it isn’t the be all end all, but it plays a decently important part for asuna ! 

what are their biggest turn on and turn offs ? : turn ONS ↳ neck kisses, sweet sentiments, a strong emotional connection, soft touches, praise ! & when people play with her hair. turn OFFS ↳ untrue/hollow sentiments, being called names like ‘ slut, whore, bitch, ’ etc. & drunk sex ( it reminds her of her ex ).

does your muse find it easy to make friends ? : yes ! she’s very open & friendly & smiles brightly at people who approach her ( for the most part … unless they’ve given her a reason to be upset ! ) she just doesn’t get overly close with people ; she’ll remain guarded while still becoming friends with people. 

how important is friendship to them ? : pretty important ! asuna thrives when surrounded by her friends ! she finds more comfort in her peers than her parents, honestly. she enjoys making friends, too. however, she doesn’t have many close friends – she’s a bit afraid of becoming overly close with others after what happened with her best friend when they’d entered high school ; she’d come out to her friend & admitted her crush only to have her friend label her as weird & later ignore/shun her. 

quantity or quality of friends ? : quality, all the way for her.

how important is family ? : not very important. she likes to sometimes think that her parents mean well, but she knows they don’t & she’s sure she can live without their judgement & cruel words. she has plans to move back to cali when she’s done with school – she hasn’t told her family, & doesn’t plan on telling them. 

are they close to their family ? why or why not ? : no. her parents don’t accept her sexuality nor the way she acts – they don’t like most of what she does, from her tattoos & the way she dresses, to her attitude regarding certain aspects of life, like school or future careers. she doesn’t live with them anymore, so she doesn’t contact them often – only when it’s a holiday, really. she sees them every now & again ; plays nice because they’re paying for her schooling, but it’s slowly ruining her.

- ̗̀headcanons ̖́-

she’s v soft at times but also she’ll kick ur ass if u cross her ?? she also loves 2 play sports n go hiking !

she has a lot of tattoos n her parents loathe all of them. she started getting them when she’d gotten into her first relationship ! her ex-gf’s best friend was training 2 be a tattoo artist so asuna offered her skin 4 them 2 practice on !! when her parents found out n saw the tattoos they threatened to kick her out,, but like,, she’s a free spirit n kind of just told her parents “ ok kick me out, i’ll still get tattoos either way ” – basically, she’s ruthless af.

she doesn’t talk abt her past much bc she doesn’t want 2 remember,, she also still drinks a lot n smokes some dank weed, but she always makes sure 2 hide her car keys beforehand bc she doesn’t want a repeat of the past whatsoever.

she’s super sarcastic but also giggles like 24/7 so no one takes her sarcasm srsly !

she loves sunflowers n if someone made her a flower crown she’d probably cry.

her aesthetic is basically THIS.

you’ll find THIS & THIS & THIS & THIS on her playlist 4 sure~ n THIS bop.

[telrtot]

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1: name? taylor irl and lacey here cause its cuter2: gender? on the Girly side3: birthday? feburary 5th 20014: age? 165: zodiac sign? aquarius6: sexuality? bisexual with a Strong leaning towards girls7: hobbies? playing d&d and thinking too much about characters i make. i also play a lot of video games and cosplay sometimes8: aesthetic? the night sky, a swirl of purples and blues and shades of grey, bare shoulders, sunsets9: dream home? somewhere in the city, close enough to walk were i need to. rainy weather is prevalent and in a short while i can find myself in the woods.10: OTP? umm not any Main Ones right now but AraSol will always have a special place in my heart11: favorite band/music genre? indie folk and folk rock. ringlefinch is my favorite band but nobody has heard of em. gotye and hozier are also up there in my favorites.12: favorite songs? hell by ringlefinch ; beneath the brine by the family crest ; beekeeper by keaton henson ; heart's a mess by gotye ; third eye by florence and the machine (perfer the demo version tbh)13: do you have a favorite book? if so, what book? mmm, haven't read enough in the last year or so to really make a choice. i used to Love the hunger games books when i was 10 and read Catching Fire 4 times through...if that counts. gosh i need to read more.14: favorite food? chEese. especially in Queso and Fried forms15: favorite TV show? fullmetal alchemist: brotherhood16: favorite character? aradia megido will always be a love of mine. mercy from ow is also a fave of mine.17: favorite animal(s)? foxes, 'cause they remind me of me, and all avians ever, 'cause they are friends.18: favorite color? plum purple and mauve19: favorite beverage? diet dr pepper with cherry20: favorite holiday? new years because every year i watch (bad) anime over at one of my best friends house 21: relationship status? who knows tbh22: last text you've sent? "gotta say, im intrigued to see what you could come up with"23: last text you've received? "as am i"24: last person you told you loved? my mother when she came in to say good night25: last time you felt jealous, and why? probably like an hour ago cause i was looking at selfies of people with nice skin26: are you insecure about anything? my skin, my nose, and my weirdly shapen hips27: where do you want to be right now? 27: where do you want to be right now? playing d&d but alas....28: what are some habits of yours? i bite my nails hardcore, talk really fast when i get excited or nervous, forget to shut cabinets, chew straws, and bite hard candies because i have no self-control29: three turn ons? umm, hm. either sitting in someones lap or having someone sit in mine, nEcK BiTiNG, and when someone wearing plaid or a button up shirt rolls up their sleeves.....30: three turn offs? generally immaturity. if someone - even in a jokin manner - calls me a bitch (especially if its a guy sayin it) not cool not funny please stop talking to me. whEn people can't hold a conversation to save their life (like i might be bad at it but at least i am Tryin, ya feel?)31: do you have kik, skype, or any other social media? i do32: pet peeves? wHen people with a runny nose sniff really loudly and make gross sounds. also when people use their hands or just don't cover their mouths when they sneeze or cough33: what're you wearing? my pjs. why? what r u wearing bbby?34: career goals? medical examiner in the forensic field or someone that travels a lot35: are you a student? yep, in high school36: what country do you live in? america37: do you have any pets? a labradoodle named patrick and a schnauzer named max38: tattoos you have/want? oh boy, that would be its own post. i honestly want quite a few, all in black and white and generally for the Aesthetic39: piercings you have/want? i have regularly lobe piercings and a double helix in my left ear40: morning or night? night41: guilty pleasure band? ninja sex party42: guilty pleasure song? samurai abstinence part by ninja sex party...43: top 5 favorite memes? tag yourself memes ; Gun ; the firefly 'you would not believe you (blank)' one ; maybe the real friends.... ; and those strange animal pictures with Russian captions44: one band you don't get the hype for? i don't know how much hype she has now but i don't really enjoy halsey all that much45: one band you wish more people knew about? rinGLEFINCH46: do you practice any religion? not currently47: do you believe in any form of a God? i believe that there is a God, possibly many, but i cannot say that i believe any doctrine of god is correct48: what do you think happens after we die? i like the idea of reincarnation49: have you ever done alcohol or drugs? i haven't done anything but drugs i have been given by a Doctor and i drank alcohol before....with my parents permission50: what's the worst thing that's ever happened to you? not actually dying when i was born 51: what's the best thing that's ever happened to you? not dying when i was born?52: have you ever had a near death experience? my heart stopped beating when i was a baby, so yeah53: is there someone you can tell anything to? myself....?54: what's the most amount of notes you've ever gotten on a post, and what was the post? it was a fallout meme i made and it got like 200 notes i think (maybe the real shaun was the friends we made along the way)55: are you right or left handed? right handed56: Would you be in a relationship (platonic or otherwise) with the last person you texted? If it's a family member, the last person you aren't related to. we are friends, so yeah57: who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? the gaggle of gurl and ungendered pals of have are p good listeners58: would you want to change anything about yourself? make me less of an asshole and actually use my good brain to do work59: what's the first thing you notice when meeting someone? how they react to different brands of humor60: have you ever been hurt by someone you trusted? Who? ex-best friend of mine, who outted me to my family when i was like 1061: have you ever hurt yourself? yeppers. middle school was a rough time for me62: do you believe in an afterlife? maybe63: do you believe in ghosts? sure do64: what should you be doing right now? finishing my garbage dotters spell list like I said i would65: are you pissed at anyone right now? not really66: do you believe everyone has a soulmate, platonic or otherwise? i do, or i at least think the idea is nice67: when is the last time you were scared to tell the truth? i ate my brothers skittles on accident and oh boy was that rough, also pawned it off on my dad68: when is the last time you screwed up something important? everyday my guy69: is there anyone you were close with and are not anymore? there are two that come to mind. one is the ex friend i mentioned before and the other is my actual ex.70: what's the last promise you made? i think i was not play a suicide game that is popular in texas right now? my mom made me promise not to do it cause she's paranoid and honestly i hadn't even heard about it until she brought it up. 71: what's your outlook on life? we are all on a rock floating through space at thousands of miles per hour72: have you ever loved someone who didn't return your feelings? oh boy howdy yes. 73: if you could change your eye color, what would it be? a shade of hazel-green so i look even more ginger74: Are you dating the last person you talked to? nope, i don't believe me and @neoxnocturne are dating. unless we are and he never sent the email confirmation for it, if that's the case then i need the tax report on my desk by monday (short version: just a pal)75: does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? yeah, me and my gay squad do it every time we are together tbh76: do you think someone has feelings for you? yep77: has anyone ever told you they never wanted to lose you? a few come to mind78: do you replay things that have happened in your head? all the time79: have you ever felt replaced? every day if i am being honest80: last person you cried in front of? my mother, about my Ex81: if your ex asked to date you again, would you? um. maybe. i honesty don't know. 82: if you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral? no mercy by the living tombstoNe83: would you ever be in a long distance relationship? have been in one before, so maybe.84: what can make you upset easily? when people refuse to listen 85: do you have a good relationship with your father? depends on the day86: do you have a good relationship with your mother? i like to think so, she's probably who i am closest to87: do you have a good relationship with your siblings? nope88: have you ever been hurt physically or mentally by a family member? yeah89: are your parents divorced? no, but i think if they had less kids they would be90: what do/did people say about you in school? im the jokester that goes hard in arguments91: what do/did you say about people in school? depends on the person?92: is any mental or physical illness hindering your life? adhd since i was little, general anxiety, depression, and the potential to further develope bipolarism 93: have you ever had to end a friendship or relationship? why? yeah cause shit happened94: are there things you wanted in your childhood but didn't get? a horse and to learn to ride horses95: have you ever kept a journal? i tried when i was little but also bought a new journal and started a new one so they never got far96: do you believe that birthmarks are scars from past lives? sure, i can get behind that97: if so, do you believe there is a story behind your birthmarks? dont have any98: do you look after yourself? not in the slightest99: do you put yourself or others first? i am a selfish kid who happens to care about select people. i tend to put others first more than i think i should, which is already not a lot.100: Ask your own question! No thanks.

[mc-dude]

Central’s Finest 1/??

AKA that one au where they’re both just cops.

note: okay since I don’t have that much time to write i figured i might as well just plop out this chapter here and see if I can make it past chapter 2.. HERE YOU GO.. enjoy this if u wanna..

Chapter 1

It’s the smell that hits him first.

He tugs his jacket tighter around his body. Six in the morning at the Missouri River in the middle of October is never a pleasant experience, even less so when there’s a dead body that’s been sitting in said river for the past two weeks washed up on shore.

It’s not a nice part of town– the railing is covered in rust and pigeon shit, he sees no less than five empty beer bottles scattered on the weed-covered bank, and the smell of garbage permeates the air. Delightful.

A gust of wind rushes over the edge of the railing and slides down the collar of his shirt. He subtly ducks his head further into his standard-issue CCPD coat. God, why did he come to a place where winter is an actual thing again?

John walks into his line of sight, mouth fixed in a grim line and looking way too awake for only getting 5 hours of sleep. Hal narrows his eyes. John’s the reason he’s in this frozen hellscape, not lounging on a sun-warmed beach in California. His partner catches his eye and walks over with– oh god, is that–

“Coffee! Give.”

Hal snatches it out of John’s hand and moans as the smell pushes some of the garbage-particles out of his nostrils. The cheap taste of Folgers instant coffee hits his tongue and he takes back every bad thought he’s ever had about John in his life. John is the best.

“Eloquent.”

“Shut up. It’s, like, four hours before I’m legally allowed to be awake.” He takes a sip of his coffee and shivers as the steam washes over his frozen nose. He bumps his shoulder against John’s with a smile. “I’m a cop, so you can take my word for it.”

John rolls his eyes, but Hal can see the corner of his mouth lift up at the edges as he takes a sip of his own drink. Success.

“Sooo–” he presses the hot cup against his cheek in an attempt to suck some of the warmth into his frozen skin “– all I remember about the text about,” he waves his arm in a vague motion, “all of this was ‘murder’ and ‘be there in 30 minutes or I’ll make sure you never see the sun again’.” He takes another sip of his coffee. “That about sum it up?”

John’s eyebrow quirks up. “Man, you have got to stop hitting on the captain. When you get on her shit list, I get on her shit list. You do remember we’re partners, right?” John downs the rest of his cup and crumples the styrofoam in one hand. “Where you go, or more importantly, when you go– I go.”

Hal purses his lips. “I can’t help it! You know how I get about a nice pair of–” Carol steps out of her vehicle in his peripheral vision “–um, of– hands.” He blinks. “Sorry, what were we talking about?”

John snorts. He can tell because the air from his nose honest-to-god freezes in front of him. Hal shudders. Hellscape.

“You’re just going to have to accept that she’s just not into you.”

Hal finishes the rest of his coffee and crumples up his cup. One of his hands finds John’s shoulder and he adopts his most serious expression.

“John. Those words have literally never been true. About anyone. Ever.”

John shakes his head, opens his mouth to spout more utter nonsense–

“Alright everyone, listen up!”

Carol’s tone is all business. John nudges his shoulder as if to say don’t say a goddamn word. Hal puts on his best offended expression. He takes his sun-time seriously, okay. If he gets another round of night-shifts forced on him he might actually start to lose his tan, which is, frankly, unacceptable. He had to spend six hours on his day off on top of his apartment complex in a speedo to get this tan. Six hours. He follows John to where the other officers are congregating around Carol.

“This is the third body this month. Forensics is looking over it right now, but so far it looks like the same M.O.” Hal perks up.

“So we got a serial killer, Cap?”

Carol looks at him like he’s one of those empty beer bottles on the side of the river. Hal shifts against the pavement. The air suddenly feels ten degrees colder.

“Yes, Detective Jordan. Congratulations on finally learning how to count past two.” Hal narrows his eyes. He sees John smile in his peripheral vision. Traitor. “The investigation has been elevated. Catching this guy is now our number one priority.” Carol gives everyone a once-over. “Spread out, see if there’s any additional evidence. It’s probably clean like the other murders, but we need to be thorough. Meet back at the precinct by nine. Dismissed.”

Carol doesn’t even glance his way as she walks down the steps towards the river bank. Hal watches her navigate the cobblestone in four inch heels without even the slightest wobble.

Sometimes he thinks the Captain might be superhuman.

He turns to John who’s looking at him like he’s one of the guys they regularly arrest for public intoxication; sad and pathetic. Hal doesn’t want another lecture so he decides to change the subject.

“Who’s on forensics?”

John grabs his empty cup and turns towards the overflowing trash can at the edge of the walkway. “Who do you think?”

Hal swivels his head towards the river edge. The lightning is dim, but he’d know that blond head of hair anywhere. Suddenly, his morning seems almost bearable.

The rocks are slippery under his feet as he clamors over the guardrail and onto the algae-covered river bank. He makes no effort to conceal his approach, but still revels in the little jump Barry does when he drops down next to him with a quiet “– so, what brings you here on this fine October morning?”

He looks tired. Barry’s big blue eyes– seriously, so blue– are slightly bloodshot, surprised expression that normally Hal would enjoy marred by dark purple circles under his eyes. He watches as Barry blinks once– slowly, like he forgot how and is trying to remember how his eye muscles work.

“Hm?” He blinks again. “Sorry, what?”

Hal would feel offended by Barry’s blatant disregard for his six A.M. humor, but he knows that Barry was at the precinct even later than he was, running tests or mixing chemicals.. or whatever it was that lab nerds did in their spare time.. and thus got even less sleep than he did.

Also, it’s physically impossible to be offended by anything Barry does or says, because Barry is a saint. And the best guy he knows. Actually, now that he thinks about it.. there might be a correlation there. He nudges Barry’s shoulder and has to physically reach out to stop him from toppling over.

“Nevermind.” He pulls his hand back reluctantly, not missing the way Barry leans into the motion like it was the only thing holding him up. Hal frowns. Why didn’t someone bring him a coffee? He makes a mental note to himself: get Barry caffeine when back at the precinct to stop him from looking so tired and cold. He doesn’t know why, but it’s physically painful to see Barry looking anything other than at, bare-minimum, content. Maybe it’s because he’s the nicest guy in existence and therefore nothing bad should ever happen to him ever.

He reaches for the corner of the tarp covering the body, only to have Barry swat at his hand with a huff.

“Don’t touch that. You’re not wearing gloves.”

Hal scoffs and crosses his arms over his chest. He makes sure to flex a little, for good measure. “What? I just want to look.”

Barry raises an eyebrow. “It’s a bloated body that’s been both a, drained of all its blood, and b, left sitting in the river for the last, at minimum, week.” Hal watches as Barry moves to scratch at the back of his neck only to realise that he has gloves on and awkwardly sort of shuffle his arm back to the tarp. He has to admit, it’s a little unnerving how Barry Allen, patron saint of Central City, possibly the universe, can talk about disgusting corpses like it’s the weather. Hal runs a hand through his hair and puts on his best charming smile.

“Well, I haven’t eaten yet this morning, so.”

Barry grins. “That didn’t stop you on the Channing case.”

“That was that one time.” Hal whines. “I had the flu, okay? I was sick, Barry.” It definitely wasn’t the way Mr. Channing’s body was splattered all over the alleyway like the can of Chef Boyardee sitting at the back of his pantry that he still can’t quite bring himself to eat.

Barry reaches for a sample kit from his case. “Uh huh.” He hesitates before reaching for the tarp corner. “Um, you might want to–” he sounds almost reluctant as he makes a shooing motion with his hands. Hal chooses to believe that it’s from his physical proximity rather than the disgusting body Barry has to chip away at. The tiny blush he spots on Barry’s cheeks while Hal shuffles backwards lends credit to his theory.

“Hold the recorder?”

He’s technically supposed to be searching for more evidence, but he also never acquired the ability to say no to Barry Allen, so he obediently grabs the device and hits the big red button in the middle.

“Alright, let’s see what we have here.” He watches as Barry grabs the corner of the tarp and– hesitates, a whole five seconds of staring at something far away, takes a deep breath in and out– and then flips it backward all at once.

Hal really tries not to react, but he’s only human. A dead body is never a pleasant sight. Or smell, christ. He shifts so that his jacket collar is firmly situated in front of his nose. Even Barry seems a little shaken, and Barry has seen some shit.

“Um, okay.” Another breath. “Subject is Caucasian female, between the ages of–” Barry leans forward, blue eyes flicking all around the bloated features lightning quick “– 20 and 35. Brunette. Small scar above left eyebrow..”

Hal tunes him out to engage in some quality Barry observation time. He always likes watching him do this. Barry is smart. Like, scary smart. He wouldn’t be surprised if over 80% of the cases they solve end up that way because Barry found some vital piece of evidence that no one else could have. He’s like some sort of super genius.

Barry’s tongue pokes out as he swabs the inside of the victim’s mouth for a DNA sample. Hal smiles against the fist propping his head up. A cute super genius.

Barry reaches to set the sample in his case before hesitating. “Huh. That’s interesting.”

Hal leans forward. “What?”

“See that?” Barry points to two identical cuts on the victim’s arm, about half-way between the shoulder and the elbow. “The incisions are consistent with some kind of needle.” Hal nods.

“Yeah, well we know the guy’s some kinda vampire.”

Barry throws him a look. Hal grins and wiggles his fingers as if to say spooky. Barry shakes his head, but Hal can see the corner of his mouth lift up.

“Yeah, he’s draining the victims, but the only incisions are on this arm–” he leans forward and flips the tarp the rest of the way off the victim’s upper body “– and another pair, on this side.” Hal nods, slower this time.

“And..?”

Barry reaches and gently turns the body’s arm over. “If he wanted to drain the victims, there’s about a thousand better ways to get the blood out. Like use an artery–” Barry points to the pale skin under the victim’s wrist “– or, I don’t know, slash their throats or something.” Hal watches as Barry winces as if imagining it. He leans over to bump against his shoulder with an encouraging smile.

“So he’s.. what? An idiot?” Barry shakes his head.

“No, these incisions are deliberate. He knew what he was doing.” Barry looks at him. The sun’s just coming up over the horizon and it makes the hue of his eyes a particularly dark shade of blue. “He didn’t want them to drain quickly. Where he poked holes in them, I mean it would take–” Barry pauses. Hal can practically see him doing the mental calculations in his head. “Maybe two days. Three, if the punctures weren’t made all at once.”

Hal blinks. “So after he captures them, he keeps them alive. For a while, at least.”

Barry nods. He looks how Hal feels– disgusted with an edge of completely horrified. Something dark is creeping up over Barry’s expression. Uh uh. Nope. that simply will not do.

“Hey–” Hal reaches with his free hand to squeeze Barry’s arm. He waits until Barry catches his gaze and plants what he hopes is an encouraging smile on his face. “We’ll get him.”

Barry’s eyes flick between his own. The pink-tinged sky reflects off his pale skin in a way that’s very distracting. Whatever dark thought Barry had gets smoothed away by upturned lips. Barry leans ever-so-slightly into Hal’s grip. His eyes close for a moment as he makes a quiet humming noise.

“Yeah, I know.”

A feeling settles in his chest that he can’t quite put into words– something heavy and warm– as he watches Barry go back to collecting samples with renewed determination. His hand drops back to his thigh from Barry’s arm. He flexes his fingers against the sudden cold feeling and clears his throat.

“Yep, all it’s gonna take is a few late-night stake-outs.”

Barry glances at him. Hal raises his eyebrows up and down. He’s rewarded with one of Barry’s exasperated snorts.

“I’ll be sure to mention ‘severe aversion to garlic’ when I profile him for everyone.”

Hal slaps a hand on his back with a grin. This is why Barry is his favorite.

“Please. Can you imagine the look on Carol’s face? It would be worth every nightshift she gives me for the next month.”

Barry snaps his sample case closed with a quiet laugh. Blue gloves get peeled back from steady fingers and Hal jumps to his feet, eager to head back to civilization, a.k.a. places with coffee. He offers Barry a hand, his smile only growing wider as Barry immediately loops his fingers around his wrist and tugs himself up.

“I’m pretty sure you’re already on the nightshift for the next month.” Barry swats at a fleck of dirt on his coat and makes for the stairs on the edge of the riverbank. Hal falls into step beside him, hands shoved deep in his pockets. He bumps against Barry’s shoulder.

“All part of my master plan to catch the vampire.”

That warm feeling settles back in his chest as Barry muffles his laugh behind the lapel of his coat.

Okay, maybe Missouri isn’t all that bad.

[elsbels25]

Please like... do every and all of the 100 oc asks (at least the ones you want to) because I love you and want to know more about your characters cough Percy cough

his name is now officially Percy. also I didn’t answer some because idk yet 

1. What do they smell like?

Percy smells like vanilla because his mother likes to bake/ owns a bakery 

6. What do they like to wear?

jeans??? and tshirts??? like a normal teenager 

7. Which of their relationships have impacted them most positively?

His relationship with Wyatt another boy he met while at therapy 

8. What’s the weirdest thing they’ve ever eaten?

fried ants 

9. Describe the way that they sleep.

it takes Percy like 30 seconds to fall asleep during the day. hours during the night but he’s gotten better. 

10. What is their favorite food/kind of food?

anything you can get in a bakery 

12. How do they like to dress?

is this not the same as question 6????

13. How do they react to feelings of guilt?

He beats himself up 

14. How do they react to/deal with betrayal?

Also beats himself up. thinks it’s his fault

15. What is their greatest achievement?

his basketball scholarship 

16. What are they like when they’ve gotten too little sleep?

Cranky and whiny like a baby 

17. What are they like when they’re drunk?

touchy and giggly 

18. What kind of music do they enjoy?

every single one. except screamo, country and heavy metal

19. Are they right or left handed?

both but ya know he normally uses his right hand 

20. Fears?

thunder and lightning 

21. Favorite kind of weather?

hot summer weather 

22. Favorite color?

Green and Yellow 

23. Do they collect anything?

Percy collected sea shells when he and his parents moved to the coast 

24. Do they prefer either hot or cold weather more?

hot weather 

25. 26. 27. 

look man idk what he looks like 

28. Are they happy where they are currently?

yes where he is in my head rn he’s very happy 

29. Are they a morning person?

Yeah 

30. Sunrise or sunset?

Sunrise 

31. Are they more messy or more organized?

organized 

32. Pet peeves?

Doors that squeak 

33. Do they own any objects of significant personal importance?

A baseball cap from his dad’s college 

A sweatshirt that belonged to his sister

One of those keychains that when you squeeze them their eyes pop out (his childhood best friend gave it to him)

34. Least favorite food?

he really hates cucumbers and pickles 

35. Least favorite color?

the color of vomit 

36. Least favorite smell?

vomit

37. When was the last time they cried?

Child cries every night. whoops

38. Were they with anybody the last time they cried?

no, he likes to be alone when he cries tbh 

 39. Tell us about one of the times they got injured?

his bike ran into a tree once and he broke his arm. 

40. Do they have any scars?

a couple. 

41. Do they struggle with any mental health issues?

Yeahhh

42. Do they have any bad habits?

stress eating. Biting his pens/pencils. 

43. Why might someone dislike them?

because they will never have what he has? honestly he is so sweet why would someone dislike him omg. 

44. Why might someone love them?

This boy would lay his life down for anyone. Sunshine child. need any more reasons?

45. Do they believe in ghosts?

not really, he’s usually a see to believe kinda guy,  but they’re open to the idea 

46. Is there anyone they would trust with their lives?

This boy trusts everyone. but his family and his best friend he trusts with his life (with each other’s lives) 

47. Are they romantically interested in anyone?

Yeah his childhood best friend 

48. Are they dating/married to anyone?

he’s dating someone 

49. Do they like surprises?

good ones yeah 

50. When is their birthday?

June 23 I think

51. How do they usually celebrate their birthday?

With his friends  usually at a bowling alley.��

52. Do they have any family?

Yes he does,  a mother a father a dead sister 

53. Are they close to their family?

Yeah very. 

54. What is their MBTI type?

either infp or isfj 

55. What is their zodiac sign?

Cancer 

56. What Hogwarts House would they be in?

Hufflepuff, this child is as sweet as they come

57. What D&D alignment are they?

Lawful Good according to the quiz i took while thinking like Percy 

58. Do they ever have nightmares? If so, what about?

all the time. mostly about his sister but he has them under control....

61. When bored, how do they pass time?

he does about anything and with his slight ADHD he’s always bored so he’s used to it

62. Do they enjoy being outside?

yes

63. Do they have an accent?

no

64. Upon seeing a slice of chocolate cake, what is their first reaction?

he goes to try it. dude lives for baked goods 

65. If they knew they were going to die, what would they do/say?

Tell their loved one he loved them 

66. How do they feel about sex?

like any stereotypical teenage boy. 

67. What is their sexuality?

i dont know. he doesn’t know. maybe he’s bi? 

68. Do they become squeamish at the sight of blood?

a little but he gets over it quickly. especially after the /incident/ he got more squeamish at the sight of blood. 

69. Is there anything that they find really gross?

people throwing up 

71. Do they enjoy helping people?

Yes. He helps old ladies cross the street 

72. Are they allergic to anything?

Yes, strawberries I think. 

73. Do they have a pet?

An old golden retriever named Shelly 

74. Are they quick to anger? What are they like when they loose their temper?

He gets angry, takes a few deep breaths and asses the situation (Shit he learned in therapy). Not fun to be around he yells a lot and punches some walls (or your face) 

75. How patient are they?

very. 

76. Are they good at cooking?

of course, his mother taught him - but he prefers baking. 

77. Favorite insult? Do they insult people often?

*looks up top 10 insults online*

Is your family tree a cactus? Because everyone on it is a prick. 

he doesn’t insult people often 

78. How do they act when they’re particularly happy?

He’s mostly always happy, optimistic lil guy. He’s smiley 

79. What do they do when they learn about other people’s fears?

if they are in a situation where the fear is present he will try to console them.

80. Are they trustworthy?

Yes very 

81. Do they try to hide their emotions? Are they good at it?

He tries most people believe him, but if you know him enough you know the signs 

82. Do they exercise regularly?

Yes 

83. Are they comfortable with the way they look?

Most days he is. 99% of the time 

84. What are some physical features that they find attractive on people?

he likes light freckles the kind that you can’t see unless you look really close and cute smiles. 

85. What kind of personalities do they find attractive?

Slightly angry next door neighbors with cute smiles. 

nice people idk 

86. Do they like sweet foods?

A lot. 

87. What is their age?

idk somewhere around 16-17 

88. Are they tall or short or somewhere in between?

shortest of the tall 

89. Do they wear glasses or contacts?

contacts. 

90. Do they consider themselves attractive?

He does sometimes mostly when his best friend compliments him ❤

92. What mood are they most often in?

Happy 

93. What kinds of things anger them?

false comments about his sister. 

94. Outlook on life?

he has a pretty positive outlook on life, at least he makes it seem that way

95. What kind of things make them sad/depressed?

his sister 

96. What is their greatest weakness?

how easily he trusts people, how much he loves. 

97. What is the greatest strength?

kid can pack a mean punch. 

98. Something that they regret?

not being there for his sister. and running away after his childhood best friend kissed him 

99. Biggest accomplishment?

His basketball scholarship 

100.Create your own!       Does Percy think he’s Fabulous?

No he doesn’t. But it’s okay because everyone thinks he is and reminds him constantly. 

[earthbounddreamers]

Ask meme - Scarlet

Here’s all 100 questions from that ask meme for @atrue-whovian cause he’s insane This one is for Scarlet James is next Have fun I’m on mobile so I can’t put it under a cut rip

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1. What do they smell like? She usually smells of masculine deodorant (that feminine stuff is bullshit and expensive) and/or sweat.

2. What is their voice like? Her voice is somewhat feminine but mostly deep, very intimidating and loud.

3. What is their biggest motivator? She wants to make sure all her friends - who are now family - are safe and happy.

4. What is their most embarrassing memory? When she thought she was flirting with a gay girl but she was actually straight and was suuuper embarrassed when she tried to ask her on a date.

5. How do they deal with/react to pain? Usually she just swears loudly, takes a deep breath, applies pressure for a moment, then controls it with harsh breathing to channel her pain. If it needs treatment she applies first aid while swearing the entire time. If adrenaline is high and she’s in danger she doesn’t consciously react, and though her body might flinch she doesn’t even feel it.

6. What do they like to wear? Baggy masculine clothes most of the time, band merch and sweat pants, sometimes jeans but they’re always torn. Other times she wears tight fitting workout clothes or just a tank top and shorts to show off the guns.

7. Which of their relationships have impacted them most positively? Sam was the first person to make her start exploring herself, give a second thought to the things running through her head. Sam helped start her healing process, even if it was a little slow. While all her relationships have helped in different ways, Sam really started it all.

8. What’s the weirdest thing they’ve ever eaten? Once when she was high someone caught a grasshopper and cooked it over the fire - cooked being a generous word - and she ate it without hesitation. Don’t do drugs kids.

9. Describe the way that they sleep. Sprawled out, snoring loudly, usually with an arm wrapped around Sam.

10. What is their favorite food/kind of food? She loves hamburgers with all the toppings you can fit on it. Five Guys, Burger Factory, that kinda thing is her shit. She loves going to fast food joints and ordering the craziest combinations.

11. What do they feel most insecure about? Her abilities in anything really. She hates herself the moment she can’t do something. Even if it’s something small like playing a stupid Mario Party minigame she needs to be able to do it.

12. How do they like to dress? Masculine and functional, looking good and ready to kick ass.

13. How do they react to feelings of guilt? Beats herself up infinitely, hates herself and never really talks about it until someone convinces her to and then they can hopefully comfort her.

14. How do they react to/deal with betrayal? Initially wants to kill them. Then wants to beat the shit out of them. Eventually like, four years later, gets over it.

15. What is their greatest achievement? Breaking out if the institution and making it home safe, that was badass and awesome.

16. What are they like when they’ve gotten too little sleep? Irritable and cranky. Throws back coffee and energy drinks to help stay awake until she eventually crashes and passes out.

17. What are they like when they’re drunk? Depressed, nostalgic for better times. She cries a lot and apologizes for everything ever. A sad sight to see, really.

18. What kind of music do they enjoy? Hard rock and heavy metal. She wants to feel the bass in her bones and rock the fuck out. Has a soft spot for a few softer bands but usually refuses to admit it.

19. Are they right or left handed? She was born like technically left handed, but due to the missing finger she quickly took to using her right hand.

20. Fears? Scared of losing people. Scared of disappointing her friends. Scared of becoming like her parents. Scared of hurting those she loves.

21. Favorite kind of weather? Windy and somewhat sunny, but not too bright. She loves the rain too.

22. Favorite color? Red, which was probably obvious.

23. Do they collect anything? She tends to keep bottle caps around, accumulating a pile in her room until Sam inevitably recycles them all and she has to start anew.

24. Do they prefer either hot or cold weather more? Cool but not cold weather.

25. What is their eye color? Pale blue like iceberg water.

26. What is their race/ethnicity? White, specifically white trash by birth.

27. Hair color? Dark brown, likes to dye it red.

28. Are they happy where they are currently? Living with Sam and Max in a decent apartment with a decent job, she’s happy.

29. Are they a morning person? Not in the least. She’s basically a zombie before 11am.

30. Sunrise or sunset? Sunset, she likes knowing darkness is right around the corner.

31. Are they more messy or more organized? Messy, everything has it’s place - wherever it happens to be dropped.

32. Pet peeves? When people follow rules like it’s the law - even when it’s literally the law. See: Refusing to jaywalk Taking off hats in restaurants Never walking on the road even when it’s 2am and nobody else is awake jesus christ live a little dude

33. Do they own any objects of significant personal importance? She still has this little bracelet Sam gave her when they were like 12. It’s made of silver and has a little S engraved in it. She refuses to admit she still has it.

34. Least favorite food? She can’t stand salad. Why would you eat leaves?

35. Least favorite color? Orange. Never did care much for it.

36. Least favorite smell? Like 99% of perfumes, they just smell like chemicals to her.

37. When was the last time they cried? Last week she had a nightmare and some traumatic memories came back and she couldn’t help but cry.

38. Were they with anybody the last time they cried? She woke Sam up without meaning to and they comforted her.

39. Tell us about one of the times they got injured? She and Max were playing chicken, running straight at each other until someone bailed out. Nobody bailed out. She got her forehead cut open and Max got a huge bruise on his cheek.

40. Do they have any scars? Jesus does she ever. Scar across her left cheek, left ear reconstructed from skin grafts, scars up and down her arms and thighs from self harm, leg amputated above right knee, scars on her stomach from when her mother attacked her, burn marks across her back, and she’s missing her left index finger from a birth defect. We call her Scar for a reason.

41. Do they struggle with any mental health issues? Major depression and anger issues, as well as other shit left over from emotional and physical abuse. She’s pretty broken. On antidepressants but they aren’t quite enough, she’s doing her best.

42. Do they have any bad habits? Drinks too much (working on it though), used to smoke weed too much, leaves in the middle of the night without warning and worries everyone to death.

43. Why might someone dislike them? Lots of reasons. Resting bitch face, defensive and rude, she’s very loud and refuses to apologize for who she is

44. Why might someone love them? She has a lot to talk about. She’s intensely loyal and will protect you with her life. Once you realize what she’s working to fight through, she’s trying her hardest to be a good person. She’s a fight worth fighting for.

45. Do they believe in ghosts? She believes that if someone dies in a bullshit way they’ll stick around until they’re satisfied.

46. Is there anyone they would trust with their lives? Any four of her best friends. Sam, Max, James, and Simon alike she’d trust with her life.

47. Are they romantically interested in anyone? She loves Sam.

48. Are they dating/married to anyone? Sam is her gorgeous partner and she loves her very much.

49. Do they like surprises? She would if she could be awake enough to enjoy them. When she stays up for an all nighter she loves watching the sunrise.

50. When is their birthday? August 18th, summer child.

51. How do they usually celebrate their birthday? Used to drink the night away, now gets friends together to eat cake and junk food and watch good-bad movies

52. Do they have any family? Parents are long gone. This gang of misfits is her new family. A bunch of brothers and a beautiful partner.

53. Are they close to their family? Biological family no, she wants nothing to do with them. Her new family definitely.

54. What is their MBTI type? I’d say ISTP, the Virtuoso. I think it suits her well.

55. What is their zodiac sign? She’s a Leo but can literally never remember her sign.

56. What Hogwarts House would they be in? Gryffindor, like the cliche kicking down the door Gryffindor.

57. What D&D alignment are they? Chaotic neutral-good. She wants to be good, but only when it concerns her or her friends.

58. Do they ever have nightmares? If so, what about? The infinite amount of hit that has happened to her still haunts her every week or two, usually waking her up in the middle of the night.

59. What are their views on death? Pretends not to care, actually scared of what might be waiting.

60. What is something that they’re sure to laugh at? Any stupid joke for pun. Like what’s a fish without an eye? Her favourite joke.

61. When bored, how do they pass time? She works out, drinks, gets high, or just sleeps. She’ll also cuddle with Sam then fall asleep.

62. Do they enjoy being outside? Yeah, she loves the outdoors. She’ll get cranky if it’s too hot though.

63. Do they have an accent? She’s got the typical American/Canadian accent that doesn’t sound like an accent when you’re in north america. She has a few words out of the stereotypical Canadian accent but you’re dead if you point it out.

64. Upon seeing a slice of chocolate cake, what is their first reaction? Step one: acquire cake Step two: ingest

65. If they knew they were going to die, what would they do/say? She’d be terrified, crying as she spends every moment she can with all her friends. Telling and hearig stories, terrified that she’ll be forgotten.

66. How do they feel about sex? She enjoys it but doesn’t need it. Really depends on her partner.

67. What is their sexuality? She’s bisexual, leaning towards female and nonbinary people.

68. Do they become squeamish at the sight of blood? No way, blood can’t phase her at this point. She’s stitched and bandaged too many wounds to care about blood anymore.

69. Is there anything that they find really gross? Rotten food, just the sight of it makes her want to puke, and the smell will definitely make her puke.

70. Which TV Trope(s) best describes them? The cold-hearted bully who actually has a Tragic Backstory and can’t cope with it. Just needs someone to understand her.

71. Do they enjoy helping people? Her friends, yes. Sometimes strangers, but usually busy taking care of herself.

72. Are they allergic to anything? Nope, her immune system is chill.

73. Do they have a pet? James has Pequeño and she’s basically his aunt. She also has a rose haired tarantula named Princess she keeps in her room. Sam pretends they aren’t terrified of Princess.

74. Are they quick to anger? What are they like when they lose their temper? She’ll get angry in a heartbeat. She has two possibilities when angry: brooding and internalizing it all, or yelling and screaming until she ends up breaking down crying (usually someone is bleeding at this point).

75. How patient are they? She isn’t.

76. Are they good at cooking? Good enough. Nothing special but it’s pretty good.

77. Favorite insult? Do they insult people often? All the time. Big fan of “go die in a barn fire” and “who’s this clown?”

78. How do they act when they’re particularly happy? She’s grinning, laughing at everything and loud as can be.

79. What do they do when they learn about other people’s fears? She’s super careful to protect them from it and try not to mention that stuff.

80. Are they trustworthy? If you’re established as friends, she will die before she betrays you.

81. Do they try to hide their emotions? Are they good at it? She hides them on instinct, and is good at first but everything quickly overwhelms her and shows through.

82. Do they exercise regularly? All the time.

83. Are they comfortable with the way they look? She’s not terribly confident, but comfortable with her looks. She doesn’t plan on changing.

84. What are some physical features that they find attractive on people? She loves their arms, like muscular or small and dainty she loves the shoulders, biceps, forearms, hands. Can’t get enough.

85. What kind of personalities do they find attractive? Calm, helpful personalities, but still enough energy to go out and have fun. She wants someone to balance her out, but have fun when they can

86. Do they like sweet foods? In small amounts, she usually prefers salty or savory stuff.

87. What is their age? She’s 18.

88. Are they tall or short or somewhere in between? Damn tall, she’s 6’3”.

89. Do they wear glasses or contacts? Nope, her eyes are fine.

90. Do they consider themselves attractive? Somewhat, but not much.

91. What is their sense of humor like? Usually based on stupid puns and morbid jokes.

92. What mood are they most often in? Used to be depressed like 24/7, now is actually happy or at least content for the most part.

93. What kinds of things anger them? Basically anything, but especially people being rude, at least as she perceives.

94. Outlook on life? Kinda shitty but she’s stuck here so she might as well make the best of it.

95. What kind of things make them sad/depressed? Life. Basically anything. Anything had the potential to be sucked into the depressive vortex and made to be depressing.

96. What is their greatest weakness? Being insecure in herself. Also girls.

97. What is the greatest strength? Fighting for what she believes in.

98. Something that they regret? The years spent drunk and high that she could have been enjoying.

99. Biggest accomplishment? Getting out of the institution with James and Simon, alive and well.

100. Create your own! Ask anything you’d like!

[jivingcryingboy]

26 // TWENTY SIX

If there’s anything I’ve learnt about anything on my 26th Birthday, it’s that contradiction is ok. It’s ok to contradict yourself. Just emotion clashing with the physical beasts that we have to attempt to pacify each day. Sunglasses covering what’s there. How the hell are we supposed to deliver same reaction all the time, by a supposedly unmoved set of morals and codes, as we get older through the nature of time? 

Secondly, I remember thinking, like I guess anyone does, mid twenties is old. Or an age where maturity levels should be nearing an all time high. In truth, I don’t feel any different to how I was when I was fifteen. The way I know I’ve changed or how I’ve become different is how I judge my reactions to events now against how I reacted to events when I was younger. Basically meaning, my emotional reactions feel kind of the same in terms of love, anger, happiness (bar a few complex ones that I have felt now I’m older, however that’s probably because I’ve experienced more events and scenes which clash simultaneously, that’s another issue though). But they’re basically the same. The way I thought a scary film was really scary at 10 years old is not going to be as scary as I would find the film now, as now, I’m an adult. I’ve noticed how we interpret these raw, fresh emotions from when we were children and compare them to emotions of how we feel as a more experienced, weathered adult. Memories from a scary film seen in the eyes of a child can still appear daunting to the same person as he or she becomes an adult. Memories must manifest through time in a way that protects us I guess, to help maintain interpretations of life that define the means in which we have experienced life, through happy, euphoric, sad or tragic experiences. 

On positive memories, what underlines that concept for me is that Tom Wait’s Lyric from Time

And the things you can’t remember Tell the things you can’t forget that History puts a saint in every dream

Clarifying materialistic experiences, such as something as seemingly illusive as space perception I would say is slightly different. When you are a kid, I remember several times walking into a building of a grand size, such as a museum, and being overwhelmed by it’s enormity. When I revisited the same building years later, I am then underwhelmed with how much smaller it actually was compared to how big I originally though it was. This is visible though. This you can measure. Even though the memory of this gigantic room is still present in your memory as a child, it can be quashed by your experiences later in life as adult. But only up until you revisit it though, in my view.

I think this differs from emotion though. Emotion, through my perception, is intangible. Like I said before, experiences felt through youthful, unexperienced eyes can be compared to experiences felt now, and can be interpreted by the mind on a shared emotional gauge if you like. And this is why I think people can be scarred by childhood traumas. The rawness of a particular experience from a child can equate to same degree the extent of the emotions felt by the same person as an adult from another experience in adulthood. Even though the incident experienced by the adult could be, technically speaking, so much more grave. A memory of a bully from primary school could still haunt the person when he becomes an adult. The same words and experience probably wouldn’t hurt the adult now, but the emotions evoked from the incident alter the way we decipher our memories and the world we currently live in. Even born from a innocent child. Obviously our parameters of experiencing life change as we get older, but I feel sometimes, the way in which we gauge emotions can be almost impossible to measure as absolute, as our mind is constantly bouncing from one emotion to another. My mate who I adore once told me he wouldn’t settle down in another relationship until he found someone who made him feel the same way in which he felt about his first girlfriend. At the time I remember thinking that that would be almost impossible, as a first-time relationship at eighteen/seventeen is totally different to a relationship at your mid twenties. We have changed as people. We experience life differently to when we were younger. Emotions were new, experiences were new. The way in which our mind deciphers events is never completely consistent, no matter how similar the experiences are. That’s why a first love, a first kiss, a first fight, a first bliss is so hard to forget. We cannot completely, relationally compare emotional experiences from different ages to one another on a consistent, trustworthy tangible level. 

So therefore, after that waffle, what I’m saying is, is that I’ve learnt to analyse my reactions objectively and rationally; to seek out patterns to my behaviour. Instead of gauging the breadth of emotions I feel from a certain incident, I look at what commonplace did my reactions share similar factors. Is this film scary, or really, did I find this film scary because I am remebering it through the eyes of 10 years old version of me? Was your first love something you can never get over, or was it a new experience in which you couldn’t compare it to anything else? Did she get angry because of him, or because of herself? Yeah, you are still doing this through the filter of your wanky emotions, but being aware that emotions are so fluid, does give you a chance to look at things through hindsight.  

I think that’s another lesson I’ve learnt as well. Emotions, reactions you feel aren’t from other people, they come from you. It’s seems like such a simple point to make but I feel it gets overlooked. Quite simply, if you turn up to work pissed off, if someone you don’t get on with makes a joke about you, inside you’re probably shouting all kinds of cusses towards him and may show that through body language on the outside. If you turn up to work skipping down the road happier then ever, you’ll probably ignore the the joke or even laugh at it and move on to whatever you’re doing next. Too many times we blame external stimuli, if you like, for our circumstances. If you are sad or angry, how can you expect to judge a separate situation rationally or even in a way that is true to yourself? Me personally, I don’t think I’m ready for a relationship as I feel I’m still striving for a place I want to be in life, physically and mentally. When I’m there, or get to a place where I’m content, then I feel as though I can be me in that relationship, who judges things in a much truer way. 

I’m sure there’s more shit I’ve learnt but it’s getting late and I’m in up in a few hours. I’m 26. I’ve always wanted to be 26 ever since I was a teenager. Not really sure why, think it looked cool. Looked like a good age. And I’m still young. Just about, but still there.

I’ve decided this year to give it a go. Not that I haven’t been trying before, I really have. I guess I’m throwing away safety nets. I can comfortably stay in my room, release music, gig, repeat, all day long. It’s not a bad way of doing things, I think that’s what most people do. But I need to change. If I want a career in music, I need to change. I need to go meet people. And that’s something I’m really shit at. I’m good when it comes to normal day life, house parties, meeting new people, that socialising thing, but when it comes to promoting me.. I am awful. So that needs to improve. Meeting people is key I think. I’ve gone on before about how I think good and bad music is irrelevant. It’s who you know. Boom. Go do it. Meet people. Working in a cafe. It’s good, don’t get me wrong. It’s given me money to live, for music. This is something where there is a gamble. I’m going to leave my job so initially, and hopefully only initially, there won’t be too much income. But more importantly, my music needs time. I need more time, so the job has to go. I want to get music jobs or jobs that are gonna pay me more for less time. 

So this is it. Well it isn’t like the last crusade, but it’s where I feel I break free from a comfort zone. I hesitated to call it that, because yeah I do feel I work hard. But I guess I need to go deeper, need to do even more. And I think that means taking a leap of faith. Rather than effort, it’s conscious and at the same time blind decision making. Run towards it, be rationally irrational. It might not work, but I don’t wanna coast along acting like it wasn’t going to work in the first place. I want to make that leap of faith knowing that even if it doesn’t work out, I tried. I will be happy if I tried. I might realise I want to do something else along the way, but I want to know that I gave it my all doing it. I do better without a safety net too, that’s what my Dad always told me. It’s so true what they say, the only thing that stops you from doing from something is you.

Go do it sonnn.

*****

I’m gonna keep this blog going even if I’m the only one who knows it’s here. I’m not gonna treat it like the bandpage facebook, soundcloud and all the rest of the social media, this is more a artist diary type thinggg. Keeps me on top of things. And I guess if you are reading this in the future or now, and you are an aspiring musician like me, it could be pretty cool to read about someone who’s trying/tried to do it.

I’m not a believer in fate, wouldn’t say I was a pessimist but I’m not one of those guys who would ever think I was born to do this shit, no matter how bad or good I am. I’m here, I’m healthy again, I can sing, I can write a tune. Let’s see how far this rabbit hole goes. It might be something that I hate after a while. But who knows? Let’s see how far I can take this thing