#idk this is something that's just been on my mind a lot
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@stargirldrawsx3
Oof, that's a tough thing to answer/explain.. Motivation to draw OCs.. uhhhh..
I guess I sometimes just picture them in my head and think "man that would look really cool if I drew it" And then I.. draw. it. đ
idkkkk-- my apologies, I'm not the best at explaining art stuff. My motivation for drawing/creating OCs just comes and goes. Idk what sparks it or haw to spark it artificially. If I'm not feeling motivated to draw OCs I just draw fanart or other OCs that I do feel like drawing.. sorry i cant be more helpful here! <:(((
Thank you! :DD And I've been drawing for literally as long as I can remember. Some of my earliest memories are drawing stick figured in my school notebook in my back yard.
Of course though I cant really tell you the estimate of years without revealing my age <XD but I can say that its a very long time! :))
YES SIR MR ANON SIR! WILL DO SIR! đ«Ąđ«Ąđ«Ą
He's an interesting character to me. :0 Aside from his voice being a bit annoying at times. (He sounds like Finn the human but more theatrical.)
Something I've noticed is that it seems like a lot of other characters dump a lot of stuff on Gingerbrave and depend on him to help them. I always wonder/feel like he's got a lot on his plate. I'm surprised he doesn't act more stressed or seem tired at all..
This has made me think of angsty scenarios where Brave gets hurt or sick and has to rest for a few days. But he just cant. He's gotten so used to helping people and always being asked for help that he doesn't feel like he can just sit around and do nothing.
I wonder how much of his self worth is pinned on being the helping hand or the hero. I wonder how he would feel if he suddenly became a "burden" to his friends or Pure Vanilla..
Over all I don't mind his character. He's pretty neat! :))
@wolfie-777
Tbh..? I didn't really like them <:(
The characters voices in Indigo park were so theatrical and annoying to me that I could hardly focus on the game. I just kept thinking "pleasestoptalkingpleasestoptalkingSHUPUPLLOYD" Also I wasn't a fan of the characters of indigo park being.. living creatures..? They looked uncanny and unrealistic.. how did they even get there-
I would have liked indigo park more if their voices weren't so theatrical and if they were big animatronics or something instead..
Secondly Finding Frankie. I liked the concept actually. Having this fall guys type gameshow thing with a grand prize was cool! And all the parkour gamplay was really unique and fun!
But then Frankie came along and broke the fourth wall. "I'm here to make the game more interesting and spark fan theories!" It took me right out and made the game feel cheap. Then of course the characters are these big monsters with blood that makes no sense... I would be more immersed if they were just big animatronics that went rogue.
All in all, not the biggest fan of these two games đ
Thank you for all of this <:)) I'm trying my best to get past these bad health days and get back to drawing. Its been really tough but i hope to come back soon.. Just not to the Octonauts fandom <XDD
@vivicantdraw
:000 You like my handwriting?? :DD Why thank you! That's very sweet of you to say! :))
Also, that's a great drawing of Barnacles! :00 And akjwendfjef XD The thieves just on fire in the background XDDDD
I wouldn't count on it <:( I never even finished the show when I was really into it... but hey its always possible I suppose-
Thank you.. I'm trying my best to just move on and keep drawing. But ngl this has really sucked. My health has been weighing me down so much for months, and now all this art theft and blatant disrespect on top of it? I've tried drawing on my own time but this art block has just not let up.
@chromchill
I'm doing my best to draw privately, but I hadn't realized how much I relied on peoples nice comments for motivation. This art block has been killer.
@bred-by-insanity
Awe! Cute dog! :))
And thank you.. I'm doing my best. But man this just sucks.
I will never accept anyone's excuses for disrespecting my, or other artists boundaries.
And yeah, thank you.. I miss people interacting kindly with my Octonauts stuff.. But its not worth all the theft. Same with FNAF. I've decided to just draw those in private.
Well don't get me wrong, my FNAF stuff gets stolen, traced and copied a lot too. The Octonauts ones just happen more frequently. đ
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XD Yeah he got out eventually
I do not, I'm only found on here on Tumblr! (And my YouTube channel that I never post to)
Remember, if you find my artwork anywhere else, it is 100% stolen every time. No exceptions.
@misfortuneandflamingos
AAAA THANYOUU!! :DDDD
<XD Thank you. And yeah the world just be broken like that đ
I've seen fanart of those things, but haven't looked into it myself :00
Also thank you!! :DD
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Thank you! I'm hoping to find ways to post some TADC stuff soon <:)
Also wow- I see the resemblance! But this is the first time I'm seeing this character, its purely a coincidence :0
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Aww!! I love Sylveon đđđ
Thank you, and don't worry- I see what you were getting at <:)
I'm doing my best to move on from this and I'm working on getting my confidence back. I think I just needed a big break from Tumblr to just indulge and games and stuff.. I'm hoping to return soon.
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XDD I'm glad you like it! :DD That one was really fun to draw đ€Łđ€Ł
@smil3y-f4c3
Hmmm... good question.. Well, my favorite is Dusknoir. I can see Bibi liking Sylveon... hmmm.. Jangles probably likes weird or funny looking Pokémon, mayyybe Mr Mime..? I can see Cici liking Mimiku.. as for Gerald I can see him having a surprising interest in pokemon like Xerneous, Dialga and Deoxys. Maybe Xerneous being his favorite.
@smg6-the-memer
I'm hanging in there as best I can <:/ I hope you're well! :))
@neo-metalscottic
Oof, been there buddy! I hope you have a speedy recovery. <:) As for me I haven't been doing so great. Have had some rough health days recently and lost a lot of my confidence about posting my artwork online. It feels like every time I check here someone has sent me yet another stolen piece of art I made. I've spent my time just screwing around on Roblox to get away from it all đ
Now Mario and Luigi: Brothership.. I've heard of it but haven't played it myself. I've been meaning to watch someone do a playthrough of it sometime <XD
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So I absolutely love all your thoughts and ideas about a fem Stan, but what about a fem Ford? I feel like that could also be a really fun dynamic. Stan trying to be the man and protecting fem!Ford from bullies, but is really just entirely wrapped around Fords fingers. And then! The jealousy could come into play in other ways! Like Stan starts dating someone and Ford is pissed about it so she leaves a lipstick mark on his collar or subtly sprays him with perfumes so that Stans partner thinks he was cheating and leaves him. And the obsessionnn. Imagine her stealing Stanâs shirts and sleeping in them just because they smell like him. Or staring at him while he sleeps and sketching him in her personal diary (though letâs be real, canon Ford did that too lol.) Anyways, I also like the idea of all of these pent up feeling finally coming out and her just riding Stan until he canât think straight and her being like âthatâs right, youâll never have it this good with anyone else.â Idk. Thoughts?
Hello new friend! Thank you for enjoying my thoughts and ideas about fem!Stan, and for now kickstarting a conversation about fem!Ford too! I have a lot of thoughts. So many, in fact, that before moving to the shippy part, I need to focus on Ford alone, first. What would differ, was he born a girl. Quite a lot. Iâm gonna be blunt. All things Ford had been oppressed by, in canon, would hit ten times harder, if he was a girl. Take academic ambitions, for example: Iâm not saying that fem!Fordâs extraordinary intelligence wouldnât had earned her praise. I just doubt she would had been encouraged to pursue higher education, and convert her studies into a career. A jewish WOMAN into STEM? Back then? I donât think any of her teachers suggested she shoots for a prestigious university- why give her and her family unrealistic expectations? Ma and Pa would had been happy to have a smart, studious daughter, but Iâm sure the idea to invest into her studies would had been up to debate, if not shot down immediately: to spend that type of money, when her likely future job would be either high school science teacher, or museum curator- would had been a pointless waste, to someone like Filbrick Pines.
To be honest, I think teen fem!Ford would had rather been encouraged, by her parents, to attend professional classes instead, something like a typewriting course- in order to find a stable secretary job, for example, after high school. Can you imagine, someone with Fordâs potential, being told âWell honey, at least you can put those extra fingers to a practical use, if you learn to type very fastâ? Can you imagine how UTTERLY humiliated fem!Ford must had felt, all the time? Just like Ford, I think sheâd be perfectly aware what a genius she is, and how drastically sheâs been underestimated. And yet, sheâd have to take in consideration the evidence: it doesnât matter how great her mind is. They are right, thereâs no place that would want her. The only person that would root for her, ever the dreamer, would be Stanley. Heâd just take her hands, wipe her tears away, and promise, with naive, granitic certainty, that he will find a way to help her. His plans would range from completely unrealistic and cartoonish (âYa could invent a machine that turns me into a brainiac, and once Pa send me to that tech uni ya like, Iâll sneak you in the classes, and youâll take my place!â), to painfully sweet, albeit still unrealistic (âIf Pa doesnât want to support ya, Iâll take two or three jobs and pay for your studies and stuff myself!â). Stanley would look at his sister with bright eyes, and a huge optimistic grin, stating that sheâs the smartest gal that ever existed, so thereâs NO WAY she wonât become some posh scientist and prove everyone in Glass Shard Beach wrong. Every time Stanley would pull his stupid, naive, adoring Protector Knight acts, fem!Ford would feel so angry at herself for blushing, and for her heart-rate speeding up. Because itâs so intoxicating to be believed in, but she canât afford to fall for Stanleyâs overly-hopeful view of her condition, and she canât afford to fall for him either. And this brings me to yet another point I wanted to make: self-esteem, and societal expectations.
If canon Fordâs hands got him bullied, and classified as freak- for a girl, they would had also been a mark of ugliness and considered remarkably un-feminine. I bet F., as a little girl, suffered a lot for having more in common with the grotesque antagonistic creatures of her favorite books, rather than the princess. And Iâm sure EVERYONE around her didnât fail to make her notice too. In subtle ways, sometimes. Like her mom suggesting she gets ear-rings, for her birthday, rather than bracelets, because it would be best not to concentrate more attention on those, right? Even if teen fem!Ford would act aloof, as if she didnât care anymore, sheâd be so self conscious about her large palms and extra fingers- so unfeminine and gross- sheâd fantasize about chopping them off quite often. If Stanley hadnât happily held her hand throughout their childhood, and âmade funâ of how tiny her hands look in his large ones, as teenagers, maybe she would have, in a fit of self-hate. Thing is, fem!Ford would hold grudges and set secret standards in her head. Itâs not like she thinks sheâd never be able to get a boyfriend, despite her hands: she doesnât look horrible, sheâd be pretty, even, if she cared for her appearance like her moms begs her to do- but F. wouldnât be able to suppress the burning conviction that âNo other man but Stanley deserves meâ. Other men may want her despite her hands, but Stanley was there since the beginning, telling her her hands make her more special than any other girl, like she was magical, like she belong in the fairy tales book she used to read aloud to him. What a stab to the heart, then, that she canât have him. Not only because they are siblings, but because, just like you said, Stanley would date someone else. Carla, and some other stupid bitch that F. would need to get rid of, because they donât deserve Stanley like she does neither! I love all the strategies you listed, to âmark her territoryâ and push other girls away!! I love toxic, jealous girlies!! I donât condone Fordâs yanderism, but fem!Ford has my blessing. She can be a creep, as a treat. As for the part you mentioned, about fem!Ford snapping and riding Stan- YES I also agree, AND Iâd like to add to it. In this AU, Stanley isnât a misogynist in the classic sense: he doesnât consider his sister an inferior at all. But⊠he would not be immune to absorbing the Madonna-whore complex:Girls like Carla- he can fool around with, because they are that kind of girls. Promiscuous, slutty- bad girls. But his sister is different. Sheâs so virtuous, so smart- his pure, innocent little sister. Stanley would NEVER lay a finger on her. Yes, he may admit to himself he is in love with her, which is also horrible, but at least he would never, ever sexualize her. Cue Stanley playing dumb, or finding excuses to weasel away, whenever fem!Ford flirted with him, or even made clear advances- during the entire length of their teenage years. Until fem!Ford just. Decided she couldnât take it anymore, stripped naked, slipped into Stanâs bed, and grinded and kissed his neck until he caved, lmao. I have even more thoughts, but itâs getting late, here. I must cut the yapping short, for now. Please, feel free to come chat again, and throw more ideas of your own at me! Thank you for this one, MMMMWAH, baci baci!
#stancest#fem!Ford#please help me find a girl name for Ford as good as âConstanceâ is for Stanley
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When it comes to love you're just as blinded.
Part Fifteen
Eminem x Musician
Summary: It starts with a drunk embarrassing video, it spirals into something a whole lot more.
Note: Sorry sorry sorry for how long it's taken for me to update!! Had a lot on and then I got real sick. Hope this is an alright update though:) Continues on from the last scene where they were at the cinema!
Enjoy seeing the articles I tried to make too lmao, they're there not too far down after the first couple paragraphs. Idk what I was thinking w that one, but it felt necessary after the long wait!
| Set in 2014, just after the release of LP 2
taglist: @thelastemzy @helloitsme1223 @geekchic48
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It was Saturday, and Saturday typically meant that the weekend had finally come. And both of those things had yet to occur whilst Iâd been staying in Detroit. Which, in truth, wasnât the only thing to throw me completely off my game this morning.
Although honestly, it was a really big change.
Rosie wasnât around yet. Apparently Saturdayâs were sacred days within the Mathers household, seeing as the pre-teen liked to sleep in on the mornings she had off from school, which also meant that Marshall got to finally have a lie-in. Or, at least it seemed that way when Iâd decided to venture from the confines of my room around about nine, after having had a brief breakdown over everything Iâd woken up to.
The media was in meltdown mode.
Every news outlet from here to Beijing was talking about the pictures that had been captured last night in the car park to the theatre, as well as the oneâs Iâd taken with that particular girl outside of the womenâs bathroom. It seemed that other fans had connected all the dots in the time between my head hitting the pillow and now.Â
I had zero idea as to what I was meant to do about it all. My phone was blowing up with notifications from every account that I held, as well as friends and even some family members I hadnât spoken to since Iâd told them where they could shove it the last time theyâd come sniffing round looking for a payout.Â
It was the most nauseating feeling, believing that youâd lost complete control over a situation.
But it was just as Iâd gathered up the courage to go knock on Emâs bedroom door that my phone rang once again. Only this time, it was one of the names Iâd been hoping to see.Â
âElia, you there?â
A shaky breath escaped me as I pressed my phone closer to my ear, hastily turning on my heel to head down the stairs.Â
âMila.â I exhaled, but even I could hear the anxiety that lined my voice and it wasnât because Mila and I had barely spoken since the whole argument weâd had over Lottie. No, this was down to me knowing that things had to be really fucked up because my manager had shared that same wavering tone. âI donât know what to do. Everythingâ itâs all just blown up in my face.â
There was a long pause which followed my clumsy reply, I used it to slip out of the back garden door to escape the sudden confining feel the house had started to give me. Which seemed so stupid in hindsight, what with how big it was, but that thought alone allowed me to take another deep breath.Â
I shivered at the cold that overwhelmed Detroit in the early throes of winter but didnât care enough to head back inside to grab a cardigan or even a pair of shoes. My mind honed in on the way my life seemed to be crumbling piece by piece, first with Lottie and her dad, then that whole back and forth thing with Marshall, and now this.
âItâs not as bad as you think.â
Rolling my eyes at the answer Mila gave, I could only huff out a mirthless laugh, stressed beyond belief.Â
âYeah, itâs not like my face is plastered over every gossip rag across the worldâ oh wait, it is.â I sniped back, âAnd theyâre all painting me out to be Marshallâs next big fling, and if not that, then some fucking groupie. Like Iâm not a nominated artist too, as though all I am is someone to mooch off of his fame.â
Mila sighed softly, even after my heated retort, and I could hear it clearly over the rustle of leaves as well the birds that seemed to be chirping in the distance. I tried to let them ground me. âI didnât mean it like that. It probably does look pretty bad from your endââ
I cut her off with a scoffâ so much for trying for a bit of calm. âBad? Mila, bad would have been me spotted leaving Detroit and people conspiring over why I was here in the first place. Not this.â I dragged a tense hand through my hair, âEm is gonna flip his shit when he sees everything.â
She sighed, again, and I could only rub tiredly at my eyes. âBabe, listen to me. Youâve not ever really had any publicity like this,â Mila started, and before I could think to lash back at that remark, she was already beating me to the punch, âAnd no, before you say anything, not like that. I know that you donât want anything out of this whole fiasco, believe me the amount of times Iâve had to suffer through just because your ego wouldnât let you take anything for free is insufferable. But anyway, I simply meant in the way that youâve not really had many big knocks or hits like this throughout the press. Sure, your family and your backgroundâs been brought up a lot, but babe, those are just conversation starters for you now, it sort of was back then too. This is all just scarier to you because itâs new.â
I had to take a second to really hear Milaâs words, for them to sink and settle before I could analyse them. In a way, she wasnât completely wrong. I could at least admit that. Didn't mean that I hadnât faced my fair share of backlash though, just maybe not on this level? And not over someone I was supposedly dating either, my brain unhelpfully supplied.
I closed my eyes, silently wishing for a cigarette I didnât have, and then unclenched my jaw.
âI donât know what Iâm supposed to do.â I confessed to her quietly, then shivered when another harsh wind blew through the garden. I wrapped an arm around myself, to shelter me from the cold air or how exposed I felt, I didnât know.
Mila stayed silent too, until I heard a large intake of breath and the sound of a door closing on the other side. âHereâs what youâre gonna do. Youâre going to talk to Marshall, youâre going to figure out what it is you want, not just him or his team.â She added as a forethought, knowing me far too well. âThen the pair of you, you and him, can decide how and where you want to take this.â
I exhaled slowly and watched as my breath clouded the air, it made me wonder how cold it might have been over in London. âRight.â
Mila continued on, her familiar lilt taking back the weariness which had homed it minutes earlier, âI mean itâs not like anythingâs actually happened, if you want to you two can just ignore it easy, wait for this all to blow over. Itâs just gossip.â
My eyes widened and I stilled at her words.
But I mustâve been quiet far too long though, because Mila called my name and suddenly I was forcing myself to blink as I attempted to swallow back the memories of that kiss, of him holding my hand with all the care in the world.Â
âRight,â I repeated again, then cursed the way my voice cracked on the vowel.
Mila caught it right away and I felt rather than heard her internalise exactly what that could possibly mean, âYou havenât done anythingâ right?â
My mouth worked over words that wouldnât quite come out and then winced when I heard my manager drop the phone to curse heatedly in Spanish.
It took a long minute before Mila had seemingly calmed herself enough to return to the call, time in which I spent worrying my knuckle between my teeth and wondering if everything that had happened with Em was even worth mentioning. If it mattered enough to him for me to voice it now.Â
âHow long have I been telling you that you need to get back out there, to meet somebody and have some fun? Iâm glad you took my advice, really, but I didnât quite mean wrangle the biggest old-school rapper into your bed whilst holidaying in his mansion!â
I let my head fall into the hand not holding my phone and pinched at the bridge of my nose. I didnât want to regret it, the things that had happened with Marshall, but Mila was sort of right. What had I really expected to happen between the two of us? He was a Dad, more famous than anyone could hope to be, and a tad bit older⊠Okay, a fair bit olderâ a decade, sue me. Hollywood had seen worse.
That wasnât even it though, how had I yet to consider what the media, the press, the fans would think of it all? I supposed Iâd pretty much found out.
âI didnât sleep with him.â
Mila made an odd sort of noise at my admission which sounded tinny through the speaker, âDonât lie to me now! Those photos donât offer much, Iâll give you that, but babe, there was some sort of connection there.â
I fish mouthed again.Â
Mila didnât seem to note the silence, âPeople are in actual awe over the look one picture managed to capture on his face! Thereâs no way you havenât got that man wrapped around your finger.â
Blinking, I tried to recall what image she could possibly be talking about. I hadnât seen anything of the sort. âI wouldnât lie to you, Mils. Nothing like that has happened. It was justââ My mouth felt dry, the sort of dry youâd experience after being lost in a desert for days or just swallowed a spoonful of flour.
âJust what?â Mila prodded.
And I forced myself to finish my sentence, stare caught on the dampness that clung to the soles of my feet, âA kiss.â
â
I had a list now.Â
Of tasks to complete, one of which warned me to stay off all social media for my own good. Milaâs orders, not my own. But still, I couldnât quite part with my phone even as I stepped back through the garden door into the kitchen, shivering at the rapid change in temperature and the sick feeling of anxiety that welled inside of me.Â
Even with that though, I noticed how the house now seemed to buzz, in a way which had me figuring that I was no longer the only occupant awake. So I swallowed back the lump of worry that sat heavy in my throat and made to trail my way further inside, ignoring the slight chill of tile that followed my feet.Â
I found him stood at the very top of the stairs with Rosie hanging off his hip, the silliest of grins plastered across her face which only appeared to brighten upon seeing me. âEl!â She called out in excitement before she turned to fix her father with a âtold you soâ glare, âSee, she is awake!â
Marshall rolled his eyes at the rebuttal, but did evidently blow out a huffed chuckle in turn, choosing to let his daughter slip down his side and out of the captive hold heâd had her in for my supposed sake. He shook his head at her before he then turned to me, the exasperated look heâd gifted her disappeared the moment he saw my face. âYou good?â He asked me, brow furrowing as Z peered between the pair of us.
âWhereâs your phone?â Is all I answered him with.
His expression deepened at the nonanswer, but he scratched his head in thought before he recalled, âCharginâ downstairs, I think. Died when we got home.â
Home, home, home.
I realised, not for the first time, that Iâd taken to thinking of it that way too. Calling it London and not home each time it got brought up.
Swallowing once more, I felt another wave of nausea overwhelm me. Rosieâs head tilted in confusion as she quietly made her way down the staircase, hand sliding over the wooden rail. âIââ I tried, but fumbled for the right words to say. If there even were any. I let go of another breath, âYou should go take a look.â
Marshall greeted my words with a look of reservation but did move to step down off the landing, making it to the bottom just as Rosie crowded me, her smaller figure slotting into my side with ease. I allowed a hand to come up and cradle the top of her head, hoping that whatever transpired from this wouldnât sour things enough to send me back to London early.
And why was that my only hope? Instead of the way this could all impact me and my career, or the people around Marshall?
I didnât move to follow Em as he made his way into the kitchen, socked feet padding over the tiled floor, much preferring the warmth that radiated from Z as I fought not to worry at my knuckles once more. I didnât know whether or not I wanted to bear witness to his reaction.Â
âYouâre freezing.âÂ
The words caught me by surprise and so I blinked away from where Iâd just been staring off into the distance, then peered down at the girl whose arms were wound around me. Rosie had her head tilted back, chin resting on the curve of my arm as she waited for an explanation.Â
âSorry, just stepped outside for a minute,â I apologised to her whilst simultaneously answering the unasked question. It was subconscious, the action to rub a gentle hand up and down her arm in hopes to warm the pair of us up a tad, and Z countered her previous words by burrowing in closer.Â
âAre you leaving then?âÂ
That next question immediately had me frowning, wiping away all the previous doubts that had just been running rampant through my mind.Â
âNo, not yet.â I assured her softly, peering down at her once again. Her face was half-hidden, blonde hair mussed by sleep, and in that moment she looked so much younger to me. âWhy you asking, hoping to get rid of me?â I teased sweetly, hoping that the method wouldnât send her skittering into her shell and instead give me something of an honest answer.
The girl shook her head against my arm, then shrugged, âJust, you looked sad.â
A sad smile slowly eased over my features at that and I couldnât help the way I squeezed her tighter. âBusy morning, I think.â I said in comfort, then thought about my next words, âBut even if I was sad, doesnât mean Iâd just pack up and leave. Me and you, weâve bonded, gonna have a hard time getting rid, okay?â
I pinched her side playfully with that, a move that had her squeaking and tripping over her feet to get away from my attack whilst still staying plastered to my side. âDonât! Youâre actually the worst!â
Laughing as she dissolved into giggles too, I relented on the tickling. And it was just as I went to reply that a sound had my head snapping up and over towards the kitchen doorway, heart stilling in my chest at the sight of Marshall stood there, phone in hand, his face void of any emotion.
âWe need to talk.â
Rosie appeared to be all too aware of the sudden tension that dragged between us then, as well as the coil of nerves which straightened my spine, because she let her arms slip from my waist and took her hand in mine, squeezing ever so as she turned to look up at me. Obviously confused, she had no words to offer but the sentiment was clear anyway, she cared enough to stand against her Dad without even knowing what was going on.
It threw me completely.
Marshall seemed to catch on to the silent protest too, his blank expression flickering with evident surprise before he managed to unclench his hand from around his phone and drag it over the top of his head. He slumped, the ridgid stress heâd just been wearing melting ever so slightly. âWe just gone talk, Z. She ainât goinâ nowhere, I swear itâs work stuff. Something happened and now we gotta work out how we gone fix it, baby. Thatâs all.â
Z stared long and hard back at Marshall and the man met her eyes dead on, showing her he only meant the truth. His words seemed to appease some part of her, I deemed, enough to have her tightening her hold on my hand once more before she reluctantly pulled away.Â
I only wished that theyâd had the same effect on me.
âThat mean weâre not having pancakes then?â She wondered as she trailed across the hallway to head towards the kitchen, Emâs shoulders dropped slightly when she approached and he moved to run a hand through her hair.
âPromise is a promise. Jusâ have to wait a little longer, cool?â He answered, gazing down at her before he finally allowed her to slip by after sheâd given him a nod. It was with that in which he turned to face me again and I had no idea what was going to go down, let alone how he was going to react. So when he silently gestured his head off to the side, I could only force my feet into following behind him.
We ended up in a small office just off of the living room, one I hadnât really been in before now and that was decorated sparsely enough to ensure that no one else did either, at least not often.
Marshall took perch at the desk in there, large and mahogany, and leaned across it to start up the computer monitor stationed on its top. I found myself trailing after him, shuffling awkwardly on a dark rug for a second over where to sit before I just rolled my eyes at myself and moved around the desk to sit on its corner, uncaring for the way Marshallâs brows lifted in slight surprise. Because honestly, if we were going to do this then I wanted to see what the fuck the media was rioting over too, and how was I meant to do exactly that from the upholstered cushion sat on the desks opposing side?
He didnât comment on it, though his eyes did trail over me for a split second before the screen flickered through the usual start up and login. I watched him type in his password, noting how he didnât much seem to mind me peeking, before my eyes flitted back down to his face, taking in the way the monitor's light flickered over his skin and how his tongue darted out to wet his lower lip.
I wrung my fingers together in a way that would occupy my mind, mouth pursing at the sight of the slightly reddened knuckles Iâd abused earlier. My stare must have caught Marshallâs attention too because I startled a tad when he reached out to pause my fidgeting, gaze lingering on the raised skin before the pad of his thumb moved to soothe it.Â
Suddenly my tongue felt too big for my mouth and all I could do was stare before his startled gaze flickered up to meet me. It almost appeared as though he hadnât even realised heâd done it.Â
âZâs okay, right?â I found myself asking him as I cleared my throat after heâd withdrawn his hand.
His sniff filled the silence as his arm jumped over to grab the mouse, now focused on the screen. âShe um,â He coughed lightly, the click of the keys filling his tense pause, âShe gets a little weary about shit like that, I guess. People leaving. Had a lot of âem come in and out of her life, figure it fucked with her a bit.â Marshall admitted gruffly, purposely paying attention to the computer now instead of meeting my eye.Â
I continued to watch him though, content to wait. My patience earned me a little more.
âThought sheâd grown outta it though, you know? Used to cry for her mom when sheâd drop her off, or when I took her to school. Shit was always worse when I had to tour. Couple years back, she even got upset when Maria, our cleaning lady, moved States. Didnât come outta her room for days.â He shrugged lightly as he recalled it, acting as though it didnât much bother him anymore, but I could tell that it was eating away at him still, how much he blamed himself for Rosieâs struggle. âFigure she likes you enough that itâs sort ofâ I dunno.â He sighed, then waved it all off, desperate to move on it seemed, âYou know what, donât worry about it. Iâll figure it out.â
I wanted to sigh then too, because how could he think that Iâd allow that to just slide?
âIâm here for her too, you know.â I heard myself say after a second or two had passed and kept myself from looking over at him to garner his reaction to that particular statement. This was meant to be work. I was just here to work. Though, that reminder had long since grown old. âI get it, being scared to attach yourself to new people in fear that they'll hurt you by leaving too. And Rosie, sheâs not messed up for feeling that way, itâs just a coping mechanism. One a lot of kids experienceââ
Em scoffed at that and my eyes instantly snapped over to find him shaking his head at me.
I narrowed my eyes a tad, but not unkindly or in defence, just a little perplexed.Â
âItâs true. Sure, they might not all have had a childhood like hers or mine, or even yours.â I acquiesced, âBut even the kids who have that apple pie type life and grow up with cookie cut families can still be scared about those they love leaving. Like because their Dad works abroad a lot so they donât see much of him, or how someone forgot to pick them up this one time and made them wait so now theyâre fucked up forever.âÂ
I smiled at the small laugh that escaped from Marshall at that, probably thinking over how normal that had probably been for him as a kid. I got it. âMindâs weird, man. Kids are adaptable, but they get just as scuffed up as the rest of us. Zâs the same, but sheâll figure it out.â
âOr, jusâ do what you did and hold onto it so tight that people have to fight their way into her life.â Em countered easily, earning an audible gasp from me before he was smirking away and reaching out to poke a finger into my knee, assuring me that it was all in jest, âAnd donât call me man, that shitâs weird.â
âWhy not? Whatâs wrong with man?â I protested, grinning now as I started to pester him, âWeâre homies, arenât we? Buddies? Brothers?â
I cackled when he reached up to crowd a hand over my mouth, shaking his head all the while, even as I shimmied to try and escape his onslaught.
âWhat about bud?â I asked him from over the top of his hand the second I could, trying to steer my head away as I swatted him with my foot in retaliation, âOr dude? Hey, how about bro? Broâs a good one!â
âElia.â Marshall warned in a low tone once he finally caught my wrists in his hands, stilling me completely. Though I could see the tiny beginnings of his smile.
My eyes flashed upwards to meet his when he stood up from the deskâs chair, âYeah?â I only continued to push, hoping that it would get me somewhere. Where though? I had no idea.
âYou talk too much.â
My smile was far too smug.
âFirst time I've ever been told that.â I rebuffed, letting myself lean a little further into his hold.
âSomehow I donât believe that.â
Humming, my eyes flickered between his own. âWhat do you want me to call you then?â
Marshall stared back at me unblinkingly for a long second, before his gaze dropped to my mouth then away again. âGuess thatâs jusâ another thing we can go ahead and figure out.â
#eminem#marshall mathers#fic#slim shady#x reader#oc#eminem x reader#humor#imagine#x singer#eminem imagine#famous reader#oc insert#vmas#meet cute#strangers to lovers#slow burn#drama#real slim shady#slim#writer#writers on tumblr#famous people#music#celebs#eminem x#friends to lovers#getting together#when it comes to love#series
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hii sorry to come out of left field but iirc you said you hc chigiri as a sadist in bed... could we get a bit of elaboration even if it's just two lines... been thinking about it for days and it's kinda driving me insane (in a good way)
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idk if i have much to add. idk if sadist is the right word or if relentless is better. some mix of both. it's not physical pain but he gets off on stuff that makes you embarrassed, ashamed, and is generally kind of hard for you to do it. he can get mean about it KJSDJF and it's really hot because he's just got. such a pretty face and he speaks so Nasty to you like KJDSJ
like. a very pretty man holding you by your hair and cupping your jaw and smiling while he tells you call you shameless while you're at his feet KJDSFK. its not all at once
it escalates !! at first like... you tease him a little over something and he tells you not to provoke him and now you're getting pounded out in missonary and it just gradually gets more aggressive. i think chigiri really likes pushing your buttons he's such a freak. a bit of a complex about being pretty his whole life but his personality is rather aggressive and forward
i do think he's a switch but even subbing he's a massive brat and will constantly challenge your authority. but his default is very domineering in my mind in a way that is completely unexpected given how sweet he is in general. once you're dating he teases you a lot about how effected you are. and likes to mess with you in public a lot KJDSJK
idk how to explain but he reminds me a lot of suo in a way
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I'm using ASL here. Sadly I don't know sign language or anyone who speaks it, so all my knowledge comes from the internet.
Tw: mention of past torture, broken bones, mouth whump
Everest was confused, to say the least. As he finally regained consciousness, he felt a soft padding under his back, a blanket covering him, and the familiar contact of his teddy bear tucked in his arms.
Has it all been a nightmare, again ? It all felt so real, the pain of the crowbars breaking his bones, the fear and the tears...
But when he tried to straighten up, sharp jolts of pain coursed through his body, paralysing him for a moment. He was in pain, every joint screaming in agony. Now he could feel the itchy bandages wrapped around his limbs and torso.
The vampire fell back on the soft surface, his nails digging into his palms as he tried to steady his breathing. Something was tugging at the corner of his mouth and he instinctively reached to scratch at it, stopping as he felt the stitches under his skin.
Suddenly, Everest heard a soft click next to him. His mind reeled before identifying the sound as a car door opening. He tensed when he felt a hand run through his hair, but relaxed as he recognized the voice:
- Hey little guy. You slept for a while.
The vampire let out a series of soft chirps, reaching out with a shaky hand toward Raphael. He felt another jolt of pain as the man helped him into a sitting position, his supporting arms the only thing holding him upright.
- You're in my car. I... I decided it would be safer to take a little distance from the city. And, uh, remember what I wanted to tell you about before... You know ?
Everest shook his head, instantly regretting it as the stitches holding his jaw together sent flashes of pain through his face.
Raphael squeezed his shoulder before continuing:
- I did a lot of research about vampires during the past few weeks. There's a lot of, well, hunter's forum, but also some weirder stuff. I found someone's address, they say he's the one we need to speak with. To find the others.
The vampire couldn't understand much, still a bit dazed from the pain and fear, but he did catch the last word. He stared blindly at Raphael, feeling a mix of emotions.
Others. He would meet other vampires. Maybe, just maybe he would find his family? People he knew before being captured?
He knew better than to hope. But he couldn't help it.
- Oh and also... Have you ever heard of sign language?
Taglist : @sausages-things @jumpywhumpywriter @why-not-ask-me-a-better-question @idk-whumpalt
#blind whumpee#vampire whump#vampire whumpee#mute whumpee#nonhuman whumpee#whumpblr#whump writing#whump community#whump
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BANGER POST AGAIN !!!
I both hate and love the ambiguity. Because I'm tryna think back to Bjorn (who lived an incredibly short life omg) but the difference is he was brain dead and couldn't fight back. The retired characters aren't. So he must've found a way to keep them steady??
And omg??? How he'd feel WHEN he dies??? I didn't even think of that. But that is honestly such a good point.
Now everything past this point I'm just assuming things again
Wayne loves life and I believe it's because of the free will he gets. Death would mean the end to all that possibility and fun shit to do. He seems like the kinda person to make his own meaning to life than find one (to me, at least). I don't think he'd think about his mortality too much cause he just lives in the moment. He doesn't think about the future or past, he just goes through time as it is. Wanna add on more to this but my brain's overheating.
First death was blunt. No torture, no build up, no nothing. He was led out and just bled??? He also said help me even though he was in THAT state.
I'm spewing shit here but maybe he was begging cam to save him. (And I think he might've asked Robin to help? I forgot so I won't talk about it until I resetâčïž) I believe Wayne knows Cameron is Wayne is a pussy when it comes to confrontation so when Cam dies from an allergic reaction he caused, I doubt Wayne called for help with the possibility of Cam snitching. Then Cameron just comes back lol and they're back to pranks. Clearly he wants to live. He has a little hope that Cam would bring him back. And he does?? In short, the death was just that so Wayne had faith he'd be resurrected.
Second death, he does an oopsie and talks to justin. Then we see him help captive looking half dead and talking about how there's more people. Hear me out, what if Justin saw the retired cast get made into clones? I mean not literally. I don't think the captives would be kept in the same room as the one Justin would be experimenting in. He might've either seen how they struggled or possibly heard something (which also feels unlikely yk Justin might get soundproof walls or like uhh tranquilized them? (Sedated? Chloroform? Put them under anesthesia?What's the word?) idk I have too many thoughts on this).
The way Wayne looks is awful I can't even lie. No one can tell me he wasn't stressed out of his mind. But he's just been kept there? He either died by a bullet or by becoming Justin. But those deaths wouldn't just be quick. They had build up. And he might've lost hope and it didn't matter which way he got out of the situation, he just wanted to get out. So when he dies, he'd feel relief. But I'm still clinging onto the idea he doesn't want to lose his life so I'd think he'd so conflicted.
Then he's just brought back by the guy who saved him the first time. The same guy who killed him. Just brought back to suffer. Bitchy husk as a man I hope you don't come back. ( If he does I'm actually gonna be so pissed even though I love him mwah. Let him rest! )
I hate that I'm so invested in this.
AAAAAAAAA JUSTIN CASE UPDATE??? WHAT THE FUCK WHY DID HE JUST POST RHE SPOILERS TO THE NEXT INSTALLEMENT OF THE STROY RIGHT THERE INSREA DOF BEING LIKE YEAH IM DOING IT IM KILLING CAM RN FUCK ME (ron intended)
anywayssssss
nathaniel is dead, not very skibidi sigma of him at all but iâm not too surprised, camâs been trying to get rid of olâ nathan for a WHILE (besides, look at his last name. it was inevitable)
cam added a mary sue self insert oc thatâs basically a god into the cgcu whoâs summoned by racism and sexual jokes. damn.
i get the ending and itâs alright, but also seems anticlimactic. like cam shows up and tells justin âdude youâre a fictional made up character on the internet youâre already immortal đâ and justinâs like âoh fr then ig iâll stopâ which isnât that satisfying at all. i donât like that ending the discordâs ending (ask me for an invite link if ur interested in the server, weâre all very cool) is much better since yk. it has actual character development.
personally? i donât like this ending much and i am unsatisfied. it might be better if he actually posts it but i still donât like it much. if onlyâŠâŠ.i finished the goddamn animationâŠâŠ..ughhh
alsoâŠâŠâŠ.max? whipping it out? right there? cam you better film this part or else /hj
#trying to remember when justin explained how he made clones.#did he inject something or???#also just read the fic u recommend and lord it has me tweaking i need more case studies (from gus specifically)#cameron gender#idc what anyone says even if it's canon Wayn didn't go through torture#He did in my mind idcc just LOOK AT HIM???#one foot in the grave.#i wish people could look into my brain and see all these cool ideas#i wish i could look into YOUR brain becuase thia is brilliant#like towards his death? he would feel like a weights been lifted off his shoulders but not really get why#he gives me vibes of idk whatâs going on with my feels im just gonna ignore it and hope i feel better#<<<these tags omg you're so smart#like seriously you have so much intelligence#i might've gone a bit off topic somewhere#nothign brings people together like a hostage situation#maybe he talked with the others about their own lives#maybe they tried to find a reason for it all#idk#how long has justin been doing this#I feel like I'm just repeating points omg#give me an 5k word assignment and it's straight bulshit for twice the needed amount#i actually did that with less words and i got good scores for writing a lot#i miss when it was that simple
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I think we should really talk about "Anything you post on the internet stays on the internet forever" in terms of art. Because it does but also it doesn't.
When you post art online, you HAVE to be ready for the fact that other people will see it. I know that sounds obvious, but I cannot stress that enough. People will misinterpret you work. People with Understand your work in ways that are gratifying beyond belief. People can be mean online. People can be annoying online. People can be kind and supportive online. Sometimes something you pour your heart into can go mostly unnoticed. Sometimes something you spent five minutes on can blow up beyond your wildest dreams. If you're posting art PUBLICALLY online, you have to accept that any and all of these scenarios can happen. Not everyone will get famous in a day. Not everyone will get famous full stop. If you just want the attention, you have to be prepared for the fact that you may not get it. Similarly, if you just want to hide in your little OC corner with your 3 mutuals, you have to be prepared for the fact that a person, or many people who you've never met could see it too.
We are our own worst critics. If a fan said to you the same things you say to yourself, it'd be worth reporting. "This is cringe and fail and had no effort put into it" is something "normal" for an artist to say to themself but would be worth a block if said by a stranger. When streaming services make shows permanently unavailable bs reasons, it's a tragedy. Yet when you take your own animations off of YouTube for your own arbitrary reasons, it's fine and justified. Lost media only counts if it's big, polished studio projects obviously.
Some of my favorite videos on YouTube were made by accounts with under 100 subscribers. Some of my favorite animations and art pieces are genuinely gone from the internet, either because the artist took them down or they got a copyright strike from YouTube or something along those lines. I will likely never see them again, and it bothers me to no end. You have NO idea what impact your art has on people. You may never know. But you HAVE to trust your audience when they say they liked something.
Common reasons people delete their art:
"It was old and bad." You will inevitably get better and learn new things as you keep drawing, but that doesn't mean what you did in the past was necessarily terrible. Even if it was, sometimes it can be fun to see an artist's journey! Plus, if you consistently delete your art once it hits a certain age, it can make it hard for your audience to trust you. How are people supposed to enjoy your new art knowing that there's a 50/50 shot they'll never be able to view it again given enough time?
"It's cringe and embarrassing and I didn't put enough effort into it!" If it's really that bad, no one would look at it. There's value in all art, even if it's "objectively bad" or "cringe." One man's trash is another man's treasure and all that. Plus, just because it's "bad" in one regard doesn't mean it's not phenomenal in another. An animation with problems staying on model can still have fantastic timing. An illustration with confusing lighting can still be beautifully composed. All art is flawed, and all art has its merits. If someone is looking at a piece long enough to notice its mistakes, it means they've been staring at it because they already like it. Please, believe your audience when they say they enjoy something.
"People keep reposting my art without my permission." That genuinely sucks, but how does taking down the original copy help matters? If people are stealing credit from you, getting rid of the original copy -- and effectively the evidence that this really is your art, and no one else's -- won't help. If it's already being reposted, it's not like taking down the original will stop the reposting either since people can just do reposts of reposts. I get the frustration, I really really do!! But taking down your original copy won't stop the problem.
"It's nothing like my other art and I don't create things like this anymore." Not every fan of yours has to be a diehard who looks at/enjoys everything you've ever made. If someone wants to come watch your one warrior cats meme from 2011 when everything else on your YouTube channel has nothing to do with that, then let them enjoy that one video and be on their way. You're not a brand, you don't need to be consistent all the time every time.
"I don't want the attention anymore." That's understandable, but there's other ways of taking eyes off of you than nuking your entire gallery. All hype and drama will inevitably fade with time, and the mute button is your best friend.
"It didn't get enough attention." And you think deleting your art will help you get more attention or something? Some posts take a while to really get going, especially here on tumblr. Not to mention social media is NOT a true indicator of skill or emotional impact. There are professional artists who get 10 likes. There are kids drawing in MS Paint who get millions of likes. If you stay online enough, you'll see both examples a million times over. Don't let a flop post discourage you, and don't give up on a post too soon.
Please, if you're an artist on the internet, be kind to yourself. Young or beginner artists on here, this ESPECIALLY applies to you. You have no idea how you can inspire others. Don't let a few jerks on the internet or your harsh inner critic convince you your art isn't worth seeing, because I PROMISE you it is.
#artists on tumblr#rambling#idk this is something that's just been on my mind a lot#artists please stop deleting your art i am Begging you#also im not talking about stuff thats posted for a limited time because of film festivals or contest rules that's a different problem
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Hi!! Your Cherik is so good and gorgeous đ€©đ€© If you don't mind wanna try to draw some Fall of X Cherik please?
thank you so much !!
i have a couple of ideas relating to the fall of x period specifically since theres. A Lot i wanna play with, so i hope this lil thing may be a satisfactory start :]]
and the obligatory bonus:
#xmen#xmen comics#fall of x#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#professor x#magneto#snap sketches#for clarity on of this tag ramble im calling magneto max OK ok#sorry it took me a while to answer- ive been busy this week !#but yah like i said theres a lot of Fall Of X moments i wanna poke at#one i really wanted to doodle around was max's time with the shadow king from Resurrection of Magneto#the third issue is prob my fave in general if im so tbh .... but i wont prattle bout that ill go back to my previous prattle#i dont think i have a comic in mind prob just a doodle with shadow charles....#i mean if im devious enough i can def turn it into a comic but for now i just know i wanna do something with that#honestly even this moment i might revisit when i have more time to draw something. a lil better#i dont hate this its a sound start- but i THINK i wanna draw a smooch. a lil kiss. idk we'll see#cause im cheeky like that. 'will this be the last time i see you' 'girl idk we can kiss about it though' etc etc#god not to get off topic but im so curious what will happen with these two ... but thats for a diff post i guess#honestly if you guys have any runs i should read lemme know !! i just finished way of x and bar that ive just been reading the 60s issues#i have a couple on my list i wanna check out but im always excited to look into recs if yall think theyre worth it !!#but ya. thats all from me for now#my time is so finite this week i hope i can draw these sillies again soon .. i have a lot of ideas i fear#maybe i can sneak in one more doodle tonight ... <- doubtful
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ryoko kui draws her characters like she genuinely loves the human body. like idk how to describe it but you can taste the love in them. which is very fitting for a manga whose story feels like a love letter to the flesh.
#eliot posts#dunme#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#âbeing a lover to balance out me being a hater in my previous post lmao#this is something that's been on my mind for a while tho i just struggled to have words for it#like idk what it is but a lot of her art has this kind of physicality to it that i'd like to channel in my own art
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âYou made yourself a different person than the one I lovedâ â on Kitâs letter, his projections & idea of Ty
aka where i try to make sense of kitâs letter in the context of who ty was to him. basically i think that understanding that kit may not have had an accurate image of ty in his head helps to contextualise why kit believes the things he does, regardless of whether theyâre fair to ty or not. it makes more sense reading lines like:
âin all the world, kit had never met anyone he believed to be so incapable of evilâ
âall his energy had gone into ty, all his devotion and hopes for the futureâ
because you can see so clearly how much kit was projecting onto ty. ty, more than a friendâor whatever you might call itâwas also the personification of this new world and all it meant for kit. kit saw him as this overwhelming force of good, beautiful as an angel, someone who not only wouldnât do evil but was âincapableâ of it.
so you can kind of see why everything was lost for kit once ty went through with the necromancy: because by doing so he was breaking the image kit had of him. of ty as a saviour of sorts from kitâs previous life, the person who convinced him to stay, who made kit feel like he was really a part of something, something magical and exclusive that not everyone got to be.
further evidenced by other lines:
âhe had been too fixated on losing ty to tell him what he needed to hearâ -> kit knows he should have told ty much sooner how he really felt about the situation. kit knows he deflected and in various ways lied to ty about trying to bring livvy back. but kit had wanted to stay by tyâs side, stay included in tyâs plans, more than his desire to tell ty the truth that he hated the idea.
âyou made yourself a different person than the one i lovedâ -> ty as a person being shaped by kitâs projections of all his hopes and dreams, the face of this new world kit was drawn into, the first person he really got close to after he was pulled from one world to another, the person who convinced him to stay.
was the âperson [kit] lovedâ an accurate reflection of who ty really was, flaws and all? unlikely. and the image of ty in kitâs head didnât allow room for the real tyâs complicated, overwhelming grief, either, and the ways he would try to cope with it: and i believe this is part of why kit was so shocked by what happened and why heâs still so angry at ty. because ty proved to him that he wasnât what kit believed him to be, and so all of kitâs hopes for his new life came crumbling down.
do i think itâs fair to ty? no, i donât. but i think both can be true: that kit is upset and had gone through a traumatic situation, and has valid feelings about it while also understanding that he had a very skewed perception of ty that wasnât fair to him.
mostly i think we need more room for understanding tyâs feelings*. how it must have felt to lose his twin sister in a horrifying way, devised a plan that (to him) seemed completely reasonable** only to have his best friend switch up on him last minute, tell ty he loved him mid-ritual, later say he wished heâd never met ty and basically tell ty that he was selfish and then on top of that leave without saying goodbye.
i also stand by my belief that âhow long do you think it will take you to forgive meâ is something both ty and kit could/should be asking each other, not just one way around. i honestly donât understand why both kit and ty would think only kit needs to forgive ty and not both ways. mostly i just donât think the narrative that tyâs the only one who needs forgiving is very fair, or makes much sense with their characterisation + the context + what actually happened.
in sum, when kit says âyou made yourself a different person than the one i lovedâ, the person heâs referring to is an idealised version of ty whom he had projected all his hopes and dreams for the future onto, and by going through with the necromancy ty completely shattered kitâs understanding of him. this is consistent with other lines in his letter: âyou wanted that more than you wanted meâ, âwhen you brought livvy back, you changed yourselfâ (did ty really change? or did he just prove to be different from kitâs idea of him? genuine question), and perhaps most strongly evidenced by this line: âi donât know the person you are now. you took yourself away from me. i canât forgive that.â i donât understand why he canât forgive ty for not being the person kit thought he was, nor how on earth ty was supposed to know this, but i digress.
* i hope this is addressed in TWP because between TDA and now, weâve had FAR more insight into kitâs thought processes than tyâs and as such weâre only really seeing one side of the situation.
** i also think part of the glaring misunderstanding between kit and ty can be understood from their respective backgrounds. obviously for kit, growing up away from the shadowhunter world, something like necromancy is completely out of the question. the way it would be for you or me. but ty grew up in a world where bringing people back to life was something that could and had actually happened. so itâs a far crazier, more impossible idea to kit than it wouldâve been to ty.
#kit x ty#kitty#ty blackthorn#kit herondale#tbh â i could write a LOT more on this as itâs something iâve been wrestling over in my mind since the letter came out#but iâll stop there for now!#the more i go back and reread bits from tda coupled with kitâs letter and newer content#the more i think he wasnât really seeing ty as Ty the Real Person with flaws etc. and more of#this dream and a personification of everything good about the shadowhunter world + majorly putting ty on a pedestal#so no wonder kit was so violently shocked by this not being true. but equally idk how it makes sense to be so angry at ty for that? but#maybe that's just me lol#the dark artifices#tda#twp#cassandra clare
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the way i look at supernatural, there's a slight but monumental difference in how sam and dean see themselves. it's the difference between guilt and shame.
sam sees himself as containing something evil, something bad inside of him that is compelling him to do harm. and he literally does have something inside himâthe demon blood that shapes his destiny. sam prays for salvation and redemption and he believes he can be saved because the thing inside of him can be taken out, and if it's taken out he can be good again.
dean sees himself as being something evil, an inherently bad person whose very existence causes harm. dean represses himself and his individuality because he doesn't trust himself to make his own decisions, because those decisions will inevitably be harmful. he resigns himself to a life of killing and harm, and he can't be saved because you can't extricate the evil from his very being.
sam does evil, and dean is evil. and this slight difference is symbolized even in their mythological roles: sam is lucifer's vessel, dean is michael's sword. containing vs being.
#supernatural#sam winchester#dean winchester#it's just something that i'm always keeping in mind when i look at this show and analyze it and especially when i write them#the show supports this interpretation very well and i'm impressed how they do it despite the differences being so subtle#idk i'll bet a lot of people see this too and i'm not saying anything particularly new#but as with most of the things i post: i haven't seen it before so i'm putting it out there lol#also i've just been thinking about this a lot for the past few days. maybe writing it will get it out of my head ffs#spn posting#.txt
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blake lets him keep it. this is a dire lapse in judgement on his part but they're just gonna have to live with it. (ids in alts)
#niksartstuffs#furry hockey league#ocs#furry art#theyre both.... like. ok.#conor is like. nice and soft spoken and awkward and sweet but then every now & then does smth SO serial-killer-esque.#and you just have to stand there like okay my perception of this kid has been irrevocably changed forever. what the fuck man.#and blake is very outwardly offputting and bitchy kind of on purpose which hides a deep insecurity which also hides a belief that he is#in fact better than everyone else which also hides a desperate need for someone to pay special attention to him. tch. typical.#then conor does pay attention to him. a lot. and blake likes conor more and more the weirder and weirder he reveals himself to be. win-win.#that being said i dont think they are getting together until they're like. 10 years into their careers LMAO. i keep making the burn slower#every time i think abt it. a couple yrs and then 10 yrs next thing u know it'll be when they're retired.#wait... coaching a team together........... no no i cant keep doing this to them. whatever actually i can have AUs for my own universe.#conlake baseball au. make that a reality.#idk what their portmanteau ship name should be. in my mind they are the obnoxious main ship that ppl with good taste ignore in favour of#blake/lucas or something. anyway. its fun meta thinking about my own work. these tags have gotten so far away from me.
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Anyone else not able to say 'bless you', either because it feels too personal, embarrassing, slightly erotic or a mixture of all of the above-
Buuuuuut also whenever an event interrupts the conversation, you feel so much more awkward not saying anything/commenting on it at all, and so you wish you could just... say that phrase, or have some other thing that makes sense to say to just- shrug it off???
#waterfalltalks#been thinking about this SO much lately like- thought about it before#but i grew up in a household where no one said it#and none of my friends ever say/said it so it was never really a problem#we all just pretty much ignore them THOUGH lately bc of one friend they've started#mocking... the noises/sounds.... which is a WHOLE ass experience both when it happens to me or when it happens to someone else#buuuuttt i digress- the point is more that lately its been a lot more on my mind bc#it keeps happening in the middle of a conversation/when we're watching videos#and it just.... feels so SILENT afterwards and i know no one else is thinking about it bc#no one else puts the pressure on it that i do (cept my one friend that knows but he doesnt usually mention it)#but like.... idk guys i just feel AWKWARD not SAYING ANYTHING but also i feel even WORSE saying something and is just so eguheugheuhjgshueg#idk just!!! thoughts!!! and seeing if im alone in this bc i know other people feel awkward blessing but#does anyone else feel that?? silence????? maybe im just crazy ToT#if you made it this far im sorry for the rambling and thank you for reading ittttt feel free to tell me what u think bc im out of my mind <#waterfallrambles
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the hand that feeds
#dimension 20#my art#acoc#trw#many thoughts about them that im unable to articulate#just thinking a lot about how they were probably around the same age during the events of trw#and i think a lot about karna as far as i know not knowing any other warlocks of the hungry one besides herself#the scene in the inn when she looks in the mirror at the rot growing hits me so hard#something about being so young and all alone with the dread you feel about your own body#who can you tell who would get it#who can you tell that it wouldnât feel like giving them something to use against you#idk i just think about these two a lot#wonder what it wouldâve been like if they could have met each other#(do i have a fic where they meet that ive been procrastinating on uploading to ao3 for months. Maybe)#(i donât write like Ever and i havenât had the confidence to share it yet. anyway)#this whole post is just me talking to a wall lmao donât mind me everyone#a crown of candy#the ravening war
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horribly short summary of what im trying to accomplish here, but if you were to read a fic featuring character, a soldier honorably discharged and is officially off the battlefield and yet he canât seem to shake off the war from clinging to his body, and heâs basically a bit of a mess and feels incapable of returning to ordinary life and thereâs you, the sweetest thing in the whole world, and he keeps trying to tell you heâs no good and youâre there to help him with everything (and it kills him a bit, to see you wasting your time to help him, and it kills him because he feels like he shouldnât be the type of person who needs help) and !! just slowburn and falling in love and just read the tags for the vibe ok, who would it be for
#i was originally thinking ghost from cod since hello thereâs so much source material to work with#and the fic would suit him nicely but also idk if i have cod readers left on my blog#so any characters are fine like an aot character would also prob fit the bill for this#but ive just been thinking abt everyone whoâs analyzing hozierâs snippet#with how he takes his coffee black and his whiskey neat and how this girl is too sweet FOR HIM#as in⊠not being deserving of something so nice#and feeling that way but also showing how in the healing process - in the process of getting better -#we start to discover that we are allowed to enjoy and indulge in nice things. that we also deserve to live a life full of sweetness#and itâs a bit serious since it will touch on ptsd; on survivors guilt#and the fic is long - spanning from getting together to him having kids w u#& how even after all this time sometimes the war is still fresh as ever on his mind#and just !!! itâs a lot#also that Taylor line thatâs like âis it really your anxiety that keeps you from giving me everything?#âor do you just not want toâ + âyou wouldnât be the first renegade to need somebodyâ
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im just gonna say whats on my mind feel free to ignore this post its kinda petty but i just have to let it out
#i feel like simblr has become very picky and there's very obviously favourites#and while i do feel like this has always been the case ive noticed it a lot more recently#and i think like an example of this is the simblr question of the day and like while i know its just supposed to be a fun little thing#i do feel like its very picky#and i feel like it can make people feel excluded (myself included)#because ofc i understand its unrealistic to send it to everyone#however that still doesnt take away from the fact it excludes a lot of people#i feel like instead of just sending it to a select few people it could be more of an ask chain#like for instance âsend this to 5 other simblrsâ#because then it feels like more of a thing within the community#idk just#something thats been on my mind#anyway this is probably an unpopular opinion and im probably going to get a lot of people mad at me for this but#idk#butter's thoughts#delete later
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