#idk the proper tag for it haha

[junjomonstah]

That final event with Rex offering the collar lives rent free in my head 😳😭❤️

[cobaltfluff]

suuuuper late pocky day akeshus ;w;

[taradactyls]

So I could be totally wrong but, I believe it was sort of expected that men/gentlemen lose their virginity before marriage in regency times. But I also there’s some fandom ‘debate’ about whether or not Mr Darcy would’ve had sex before getting married. So I was just curious about what your canon for Mr Darcy in T3W is. Is he a virgin or not?

I knew someone would ask me this eventually, haha. I've actually had really long conversations with my beta reader about this trying to figure it out. It sounds like this might all be stuff that you’ve already seen discussed in the fandom, but I’ve never thought about it deeply before and so these are new thoughts to me.

I keep going over the historical real-world likelihood, the authorial intent, and the text itself but I’m still not 100%. I’ll explain my thinking and what I find most likely, but here’s your warning that it’s not a clear cut yes/no.

Because on one hand, at that time period it was most common for men in his position to have seen sex workers or have casual encounters/mistresses with women from their estates. Though I do absolutely believe not all men did that, no matter how much wealth and power they had. To go back some centuries, William the Conqueror seemed to be famously celibate (no hints of male lovers either according to the biography I read) until his marriage, and there's no evidence of affairs after it either. The best guesses as to why are that it was due to his religious devotion and the problems that had arisen from himself being a bastard and not wanting to recreate that situation. Concerns over religion and illegitimate children would certainly still have been applicable in the regency to men who thought that way. And in modern times I've seen sex workers say that when an 18/21yo is booked in by his family/friends to 'become a man' often they end up just talking and agree to lie about the encounter. After all, it’s not like every man wants casual sex, even if they aren’t demisexual or something in that vein. But, statistically speaking, the precedent of regency gentlemen would make Darcy not a virgin.

On the other hand, just how aware was Jane Austen, the very religious daughter of a country rector, of the commonness of this? There’s a huge difference between knowing affairs and sex workers existed (and no one who had seen a Georgian newspaper could be blind to this) and realising that the majority of wealthy men saw sex workers at some point even if they condemned the more public and profligate affairs. The literature for young ladies at the time paints extramarital sex - including the lust of men outside of marriage - as pretty universally bad and dangerous. This message is seen from 'Pamela' and other gothic fiction to non-fiction conduct books which Jane Austen would have encountered. Here's something I found in 'Letters to a Young Lady' by the reverend John Bennett which I found particularly interesting as it's in direct conversation with other opinions of the era:

"A reformed rake makes the best husband." Does he? It would be very extraordinary, if he should. Besides, are you very certain, that you have power to reform him? It is a matter, that requires some deliberation. This reformation, if it is to be accomplished, must take place before marriage. Then if ever, is the period of your power. But how will you be assured that he is reformed? If he appears so, is he not insidiously concealing his vices, to gain your affections? And when he knows, they are secured, may he not, gradually, throw off the mask, and be dissipated, as before? Profligacy of this kind is seldom eradicated. It resembles some cutaneous disorders, which appear to be healed, and yet are, continually, making themselves visible by fresh eruptions. A man, who has carried on a criminal intercourse with immoral women is not to be trusted, His opinion of all females is an insult to their delicacy. His attachment is to sex alone, under particular modifications.

The definition of a rake is more than a man who has seen a sex worker once, it's about appearance and general conduct too, but again, would that distinction be made to young ladies? Because they seem to simply be continuously taught 'lust when unmarried is bad and beware men who you know engage in extramarital sex.' As a side note, Jane Austen certainly knew at least something about the mechanics of sex: her letters and literature she read alludes to it, and she grew up around farm animals in the countryside which is an education in itself.

We can also see from this exert that the school of thought seems to be 'reformed rake' vs 'never a rake' in contention for the title of best husband, there's no debate over whether a current rake is unsuitable for a young lady. And, from Willoughby to Wickham to Crawford, I think we have a very clear idea of Jane Austen's ideas of how likely it is notably promiscuous men can reform. This does not preclude the possibility that her disparaging commentary around their lust is based more on over-indulgence or the class of women they seduce, but it's undoubtedly a condemnation of such men directly in line with the first part of what John Bennett says so it's no stretch to believe she saw merit in the follow-on conclusions of the second part as well. Whether she would view it with enough merit to consider celibacy the only respectable option for unmarried men is a bit unclearer.

I did consider that perhaps Jane Austen consciously treated this as a grey area where she couldn’t possibly know what young men did (the same reasoning is why we never see the men in the dining room after the ladies retire, etc) and so didn't hold an opinion on men's extramarital encounters with sex workers/lower-class women at all, but I think there actually are enough hints in her works that this isn’t the case. Though, unsurprisingly, given the delicacy of the subject, there’s no direct mention of sex workers or gentlemen having casual lovers from among the lower-classes in her texts.

That also prevents us from definitively knowing whether she thought extramarital sex was so common, and as unremarkable, as most gentlemen treated it. But we do see from her commentary around the consequences of Maria Bertram and Henry Crawford's elopement that she had criticism of the double standards men and women were held to when violating sexual virtue. Another indication that she perhaps expected good men to be capable of waiting until marriage in the way that she very clearly believed women should. At the very least, a man who often indulges in extramarital sex does not seem to be one who would be considered highly by Jane Austen.

She makes a point of saying, in regards to not liking his wife, that Mr Bennet “was not of a disposition to seek comfort for the disappointment which his own imprudence had brought on, in any of those pleasures which too often console the unfortunate for their folly or their vice.” This must include affairs, though cheating on a wife cannot be a 1:1 equivalent of single young men sleeping around before marriage. However, the latter is generally critically accepted to be one of the flaws that Darcy lays at Wickham’s door along with gambling when talking about their youth and his “vicious propensities" and "want of principle." Though this could be argued that it’s more the extent or publicity of it (but remembering that it couldn't be anything uncommon enough that it couldn't be hidden from Darcy Sr. or explained away) rather than the act itself, or maybe seductions instead of paying women offering those services. I also believe Persuasion mentioning Sunday travelling as proof of thoughtless/immoral activity supports the idea that Jane Austen might have been religious enough that she would never create a hero who had extramarital sex.

So, taken all together this would make Darcy potentially a virgin, or, since I couldn't find absolute evidence of her opinions, leave enough room that he isn’t but extramarital sex isn’t a regular (or perhaps recent) thing and he would never have had anything so established as a mistress.

I’ve also been wondering, if Darcy isn’t a virgin, who would he have slept with? I’ve been musing on arguments for and against each option for weeks at this point. No romantasy has ever made me think about a fictional man's sexual habits so much as the question of Darcy's sexual history. What is my life.

Sex workers are an obvious answer, and the visits wouldn’t have raised any eyebrows. Discretion was part of their job, it was a clean transaction with no further responsibilities towards them, and effective (and reusable, ew) condoms existed at this time so there was little risk of children and no ability to exactly determine the paternity even if there was an accident. It was a fairly ‘responsible’ choice if one wanted no strings attached. In opposition to this, syphilis was rampant at the time, and had been known to spread sexually for centuries. Sex workers were at greater risk of it than anyone else and so the more sensible and risk-averse someone is (and I think Mr Darcy would be careful) the less likely they would be to visit sex workers. Contracting something that was known as potentially deadly and capable of making a future wife infertile if it spread to her could make any intelligent and cautious man think twice.

Servants and tenants of the estate are another simple and common answer. Less risk of stds, it can be based on actual attraction more than money (though money might still change hands), and is a bit more intimate. But Wickham’s called wicked for something very similar, when he dallies (whether he only got to serious flirting, kissing, or sleeping with them I don’t think we can conclusively say) with the common women of Meryton: “his intrigues, all honoured with the title of seduction, had been extended into every tradesman's family.” And it isn't as though Wickham had any personal duty towards those people beyond the claims of basic dignity. Darcy, who is shown to have such respect and understanding for his responsibilities towards the people of his estate and duties of a landlord, would keenly feel if any of his actions were leading his servants/tenants astray and down immoral paths. Servants, especially, were considered directly under the protection of the family whose house they worked in. I think it's undoubtable that Mrs Reynolds (whose was responsible for the wellbeing - both physically and spiritually - of the female servants) would not think so well of Mr Darcy if he had experimented with maids in his youth. It would reflect badly on her if a family entrusted their daughter to her care and she 'lost her virtue' under her watch. Daughters/widows of others living on the estate not under the roof of Pemberley House are a little more likely, but still, if he did have an affair with any of them I can only think it possible when he was much younger and did not feel his duties quite so strongly. Of course lots of real men didn't care about any of this, but Darcy is so far from being depicted as careless about his duties that the narrative makes a point of how exceptional his quality of care was. Frankly, it's undeniable that none of Jane Austen's heroes were flippant about their responsibilities towards those under their protection. I cannot serious entertain an interpretation that makes Darcy not, at his current age, at least, cognizant of the contemporary problems inherent in sleeping with servants or others on his estate.

A servant in a friend’s house would remove some of that personal responsibility, but transfer it to instead be leading his friend’s servants astray and in a manner which he is less able to know about if a child did result. That latter remains a problem even if we move the setting to his college, so not particularly likely for his character as we know it… though it wouldn’t be unusual for someone to be more unthinking and reckless in their teenage years than they are at twenty-eight so I don’t think having sex then can be ruled out. Kissing I can much more easily believe, especially when at Oxford or Cambridge, but every scenario of sleeping with a lower-class woman has some compelling arguments against it especially the closer we get to the time of the novel.

Men did of course also have affairs with women of ranks similar to their own, though given Jane Austen’s well-known feelings towards men who ‘ruined’ the virtue of young ladies we can safely say that Darcy never slept with an unwed middle- or upper-class woman. Any decent man would have married them out of duty if it got so far; but if he was the sort to let it get so far, I think it impossible Jane Austen would consider him respectable. Widows are a possibility, but again, the respectable thing to do would be to marry them. Perhaps a poorer merchant’s widow would be low enough that marriage is off the table but high enough that the ‘leading astray’ aspect loses its master-servant responsibilities (though the male-female ‘protect the gentler sex’ aspect remains) but his social circle didn’t facilitate meeting many ladies like that. Plus, an affair with a woman in society would remove many layers of privacy and anonymity that sex-workers and lower-class lovers provided by simply being unremarkable to the world at large. It carries a far greater risk of scandal and a heavier sense of immorality in the terms of respecting a woman’s purity which classism prevented from applying so heavily to lower-class women.

I think it’s important to note here that something that removes the need to think about duties of landlords towards the lower-classes or gentlemen towards gentlewomen is having affairs with other men of a similar rank. But, aside from the risk of scandal and what could be called the irresponsibility of engaging in illegal acts, it’s almost certain that Jane Austen would never have supported this. For a devout author in this era the way I’m calculating likelihoods makes it not even a possibility. But if you want to write a different fanfiction (and perhaps something like a break-up could explain why Darcy doesn’t seem to have any closer friend than someone whom he must have only met two or so years ago despite being in society for years before that) it does have that advantage over affairs with women of equal- and lower-classes. I support alternate interpretations entirely – it just isn’t how I’m deciding things in this instance.

I keep coming back to the conclusion that, at the very least, Darcy hasn’t had sex recently and it was never a common occurrence. It wouldn’t surprise me if Jane Austen felt he hadn’t done it ever. Kissing, as we can see from all the parlour games at the time, wasn’t viewed as harshly, so I think he’s likely made out with someone before. But in almost every situation it does seem that the responsible and religious thing to do (which Jane Austen values so highly) is for it to never have progressed to sex. I also don’t think it conflicts with his canon characterisation to say that he wouldn’t regard sexual experience as a crucial element of his life thus far, and his personality isn’t driven to pursue pleasure for himself, so it’s entirely possible that he would never go out of his way to seek it. So, I’m inclined to think that the authorial and textual evidence is in favour of Darcy being a virgin even if the real-world contemporary standard is the opposite. (Though both leave enough room for exceptions that I’m not going to argue with anyone who feels differently; and even if you agree with all my points, you might simply weight authorial intent/textual evidence/contemporary likelihoods differently than I do and come to a different conclusion).

Remember that even if Darcy is a virgin this wouldn’t necessarily equate to lack of knowledge, only experience. There were plenty of books and artwork focused on sex, and Darcy, studious man that he is, would no doubt pay attention to what knowledge his friends/male relatives shared. Though some of it (Looking especially at you, 'Fanny Hill, Memoirs of a Woman of Pleasure') should NEVER be an example of appropriate practice for taking a woman's virginity. Darcy would almost certainly have been taught directly or learnt through exposure to other men talking to make sex good for a woman – it was a commonly held misconception (since Elizabethan England, I believe) that women had to orgasm to conceive. It would be in his interests as an empathetic husband, and head of a family, to know how to please his wife.

Basically, I’m convinced Darcy isn’t very experienced, if at all, and will be learning with Elizabeth. But he does have a lot of theoretical knowledge which he’s paid careful attention to and is eager to apply.

[raine-ydays]

teletubbie-I mean Telemachus! Using @gigizetz design of telebby because I LOVE THEIR ART ASHJDJSDM and they inspired me a bunch 👍👍👍👍👍👍yay thumbs ups ig hahahah idk what to write here okay bye time to go cry for no particular reason

(Ft my friend Morgan in the corner :3)

[reineydraws]

doodles for a spiderman yaku au! and a fic based on the first comic :)

[nytgaih]

just wanted to share that stranger/secret forest s1, s2, and dongjae spin-off are 3 dramas i hold super dear to my heart.

these dramas aren't my first exposure to kdramas (and im very grateful they are, bc idt many can match that the standards set). but the way stranger sucked me in right from the start (im a huge thriller fan so. makes sense.) was insane.

the way i binged the whole s1, digested it, and then binged the whole of s2,, i think i was possessed LOL. to think that i only discovered this gem of a universe was through the little ad on tvn on dongjae. (thank you dongjae. my pookie ❤️)

i actually have no idea how to coherently organise my thoughts, bc i think a lot of what i have rn is just feelings. i love this universe so much and really, i can't wait for s3, s4, and even s5. (mr cho seungwoo promised an s5, so i will wait for an s5.)

i ran out of tags.

[solplease]

happy holidays everyone! sorry im late haha

[solomonverum]

✮⋆˙๋࣭ hail, sorcerer . ⭑⚝

☾⊹ ࣪ ˖ Solomon / Mikhail , he/they , witching since 2005 ⚝ autism + ocd + c-ptsd ⚝ transmasc , bisexual ⚝ infj 2w1

☾⊹ ࣪ ˖ greetings ! yes, I've finally decided to make a proper witchcraft blog, after who-knows-how-long . here's to hoping this will help with my impostor syndrome lol . . .

☾⊹ ࣪ ˖ I don't stick to many labels , but I guess I'm what you'd call a chaos witch! my practice is very eclectic and messy , I mix a lot of demonolatry , theistic luciferianism , local folk superstitions , and unorthodox methods if they feel right (without dabbling in any closed or illegal practices of course .)

☾⊹ ࣪ ˖ some fun facts I suppose ; I've been practicing witchcraft alongside my mother for ages . if you count concious practice, I want to say for about seven years , but really , she's been including me in her practice since I was born lol . she's a wonderful woman and teacher , who always taught me to see the magic in things , to love the world around me and to know my own worth . I hope to pass that knowledge on to others!

I'm portuguese , so a lot of my practice also revolves around common folk beliefs and I really want to incorporate more still into my work . I used to work the closest with the sea , but I'm living in the mountainside right now so I've been feeling pretty far from home </3

also , I'm currently (attempting to) write an intro to witchcraft book ! a few friends have come to me for advice , so I decided to write a little something covering all the basic bases I could think of , and if that seems like an interesting project , then follow along!

☾⊹ ࣪ ˖ as of right now , I'm focusing on more formal demonolatry . I've been under Teacher Lucifer's wing for almost 5 years now (five years in June!) and recently began working with Princess Ashtoreth as well . I'll try to keep log of my work here , again , unless my impostor syndrome gets me haha

☾⊹ ࣪ ˖ if any of this seems interesting , by all means , grab a seat and a warm drink , get cosy , and settle down by the fire . it's an absolute pleasure to have you around <3

[recitedemise]

So, to experiment, I did the sacrifice ending for my origin!Gale run, and I never saw the scene explored or, well, even posted before. It offered quite a few things to think about, namely Gale's place in the afterlife and what path should lay before him.

I have so many thoughts surrounding this. Canonically, by being shown love, being shown that people care for him, that this friends hold him in high esteem simply for being the man he is, Gale would never sacrifice himself simply for Mystra's forgiveness. In fact, as I mentioned earlier on this blog and as reflected through my canon interpretation, Gale comes to battle this war within himself, for SELF forgiveness, for redemption, for understanding his value as a person, and makes it out all the better. He DOES not choose the sacrifice ending. He chooses to fight and live.

But in this angle, I like to believe, perhaps at first he might have considered sacrifice for Mystra, but in time, he realized very much what she asked of him was simply too much, too unfair, too cruel. Moreover, that choice of self-sacrifice was made as Gale thought it most logical. He looked upon the Netherbrain, saw his friends so weary, the city and the world so under duress, so battered, and thought, what is my life in exchange for everyone else's? Gale battles a lot with self worth issues, and he hides this behind a wall where he rationalizes his death in the context of sparing the heartache of those he cares for most.

This line is an interesting line. Mystra having already plucked Gale's thread from the tapestry of fate... as in, remove his essence altogether? I recall a line where Gale, if romanced and sacrificed, would say something along the lines of lingering there, there in the Weave to watch over them until the last sundering of the stars--or something to that effect. This line from Withers could be literal in that Mystra's ultimatum ultimately led to Gale removing himself from the physical world, but I can't help but to wonder if she, too, would have 'plucked his thread' from the Weave itself as well, ergo erasing the very last parts of him. Mystra doesn't strike me as particularly malicious. Absolutely cold, absolutely toxic, and absolutely callous, yes, but after promising him redemption, to but erase the lest vestiges of his Weave would seem quite the insult to injury. So, I don't believe that's the implication, BUT. It is a thought.

Another interesting line. Gale's life in his death has only just begun. I haven't yet looked into much of the afterlife in Forgotten Realms lore, but this could be something to look into. What could Gale achieve in death?

If anyone could achieve anything, even here, I wager it'd be Gale.

But what could the implication be? While Withers says this, however... the pain on Gale's face. The way he lost everything. Be that as it may, this potential for a different role or not, the idea that death is not the end is one he finds extraordinarily difficult to accept quite yet. Regardless, Gale remains very much like ambition itself, still a man with drive, dreams, desires, even there as he wades in the cold chasm of the afterlife. If there is something to be done, to achieve, to twist and make malleable in his hands, he will find a way. He cares so much for his friends, those he has left behind, those he couldn't properly say goodbye to--Gale, even here, would not content himself to simply lay and have his memory waste to the passing of the seasons. He will ease their path. He will do as best he can to protect them even with this infinite veil between them. He will long to touch them, hear them, laugh with then, but he will have to make peace that that is simply not his domain anymore. Perhaps, if yet intermingled with the Weave, he can feel the pulls of those spellcasters in the party, feel them like song, even all the way beyond. Or, perhaps, as my head likes to twist around, he does dabble more seriously in those pulls of necromancy, some sort of vessel of death, though perhaps a white one, not bitter, not angry, simply the cold touch of it, present and constant and there to lend aid when possible.

Gosh, Gale........... This was painful.

[mawenskiblue]

what ip magta-tagalog nalang ako minsan

volleyboys... haikyuu filo socmed (crack) AUs save me...

[lychniis]

Phew.

Atp I'm not sure what to say or do. But I've had issues tagging my posts for the longest time ( and have had to wait hours for them to appear on tags...only for them to get buried under other posts ). That and I can't even tag my own mutual proper without my mentions unlinking.

Tumblr is being of no help. A lot of my hard work is being wasted and idk...it's just frustrating I guess XD. This has been going on for nearly a year at this point and while I hardly care for the popularity of my posts...The engagement is nice with the work I put into it you know?

This problem is all over my account right now. Switching browsers hasn't helped. Switching my internet does not either. But I don't want to stop writing and shitposting and gawking at fanarts and reading. And I won't let tumblr impede in my fun.

So I'll be moving blogs. Switching mains. Hopefully by the end of the week...who knows really, haha. It's not an easy decision, but the frustration is there ( paired with being shadowbanned twice ).

Will I be telling you where I'm going?

...

I mean...

What if I want to live out my tuxedo mask dream? Cape sweep and all? What if I want the mystery?

If you guys can find me, then I'll be glad to know XD. But till then, to most of my moots...I might drop the url sometime.

Thanks so far! We crossed 1k follows on this blog. Which is pretty neat, I'd say!

[suzukiblu]

Hi! I was wondering if you had any write ups or specific meta about omegaverse and how you like things to work or what you like to explore? You've been kind of my omegaverse idol since way back when you started writing it for the MCU.

Oh that was a WHILE back, yeah, haha, dang, friend. Thank you, it's flattering to hear you've been enjoying my takes for that long! 💛

I definitely do have some old write-ups and meta SOMEWHERE on this blog, unfortunately I really don't know where any of it really is because there is just So Much Stuff on here and I didn't tag it anything specific at the time.

One of these days I should maybe do a proper weigh-in on omegaverse stuff somewhere I can link when people ask me about my thoughts, idk, but honestly at this point omegaverse is just very . . . INVOLVED, I guess, in my brain? Like there's a lot of niggly little details in there that make it write smoothly for me, but a lot of that's because I've written so MUCH of it that it kinda fills itself out, in a sense? Like, mmm, I dunno how to put it, just it's stuff that's already there because I've done takes on it so many times, so I'm drawing on a well of . . . not EXPERIENCE, necessarily, but DEVELOPMENT?

Generally I like leaning into gender roles and any related subversion/not-subversion of those and also pack dynamics and sociological effects, and I find the concept of the biology interesting but I usually keep it a little vague exactly how everyone's junk is set up beyond "alphas are penetrative partners who knot and can impregnate receiving partners" and "omegas are receiving partners who self-lubricate and can be impregnated by penetrative partners" and "betas are biologically pretty similar to baseline humans if you ignore the pheromone/sociological stuff". I kinda find it seems to work better for readers if they can just picture whatever setup they prefer--especially trans readers--so even if I have a "word of God" in my head, I don't tend to get into it unless it's somehow necessary. Also I prefer using words like "dick" or "clit" in relation to a character being male or female and not in relation to their omegaverse gender or whatever their actual physical setup is or isn't, because again, I find that seems to translate better for a lot of readers. At least the ones I hear from, anyway, hah.

Also, leaning into queer or queer-adjacent narratives and making sure the world and society AROUND the story is actually affected in ways that make sense to the internal logic of the narrative always helps make it more interesting, imo, and definitely helps it vibe with more people. Though there is literally no narrative where "commit to the bit" does NOT make said narrative work better, in my opinion, haha.

[justabeewithapen]

Alongside my #Doey's Lost Files AU tag I would be adding the #Lost Files Lore tag to any posts that are particularly text heavy (alongside maybe a #Lost Files Comments tag for posts where I excessively lore dump in the comments, but maybe I should just stop doing that and put it in a proper post XD) Anyway, it might be a bit of an endeavor to make sure everything is tagged right, so I wanna check if anyone would even find it useful before I do it!

I think I am also going to create a blog page for it like my Hidden Horrors AU, but idk haha!

[serenescribe]

author ask game!!

tagged by @allthecastlesonclouds, my beloved! thank you! :D sorry it took me so, so long to get to this oTL

total number of ao3 works: 41 (serenescribe) | 47 (ardentarchivist) — as of 30 april 2025!

total ao3 word count: 665,831

fandoms i've written for: blaseball, cookie run, danganronpa, dimension 20 (mainly fantasy high), eastward, fire emblem: engage, fire emblem: three houses, inside job, night in the woods, persona 5, twisted wonderland, wayward children

top 5 fics by kudos:

Tower of Withering Hearts [Fire Emblem: Three Houses]

A Beginner's Guide To Breaking Your (Apparently Requited) Crush Out Of A Time Loop [Danganronpa]

glaciers melting in the dead of night [Dimension 20]

two for nero [Twisted Wonderland]

i miss the thought of what we were [Inside Job]

(okay that's really pleasing haha i like that all five fics are a diff fandom!)

do i respond to comments? yes! yes! yes! i try my absolute best to! i LOVE comments, i LOVE yapping, and i just LOVE talking to people!!! i think i sometimes don't reply to comments that are just emojis, though; but i do my best to reply to those still.

what has my most angst-ridden ending? pénthos. it's not even close. that's my most angst and grief-riddled fic, with an ending that can stir even me to be wet-eyed.

what has my happiest ending? this is so hard and it's mainly because i keep doing open endings, or having endings that don't really- feel happy enough? but i think the build up and payoff for don't wanna talk, baby (i just wanna dance!) culminates in a pretty happy ending, even if it takes a while to get there!

have i received hate? not that i know of!

do i write smut? and what kind? i have zero confidence in writing and posting smut ;;

do i write crossovers? if we're talking a proper fandom-with-fandom interacting crossover, nope!

have i ever gotten a fic stolen? not that i know of! (again)

have i ever had a fic translated? yeah! i know people have asked me for permission, though idk if they've ever posted them (possible that it could've been posted, but i just didn't know), but one person actually translated garden in the ceiling into spanish, which was posted to wattpad here! (very cool, and thank you again! :D)

have i ever co-written a fic? despite talking about it with people, i actually haven't! oTL but i have collabed with artists before — specifically ohsleepie for the prince and his physician au o7

a wip i'll never finish? oh, a couple. my interest in twst dwindled enough that idk if i'll ever finish my starchild wip, esp since it wasn't really my au to begin with. i have an entire crk espresseleine fic in my vault that i finished and never posted because i burnt out so bad in the process of writing it, which is kinda wild. i wrote a very niche au for fh with the bad kids crossing into a fantasy secondary world before returning to their mundane one — but i think i preferred that premise for another fandom, so i scrapped it and don't think i'll ever finish it.

writing strengths: introspection, introspection, INTROSPECTION!!! and what i lovingly like to call the downwards spiral <3

writing weaknesses: i think my descriptions can be kind of lacking, and i tend to write way more words than strictly necessary... i'm also not very good with starting fics; they always tend to be the weakest part of my fics

do i like foreign language dialogue? i have not written these! i do find them fun though, in a "lemme try to translate this!" way

first fandom i wrote for? god. like, all this is nuked off the internet by now. i can't remember if it was warrior cats (oc stuff) or pokepark 2 (oc insert) for quotev. kinda incredibly unhinged. the first fandom i wrote for for ao3 was danganronpa (also nuked off the internet by now, it was just bad writing. i was thirteen.)

favourite fic i've written? oh. this is hard. i think it's also because like- i'm always gonna have some recency bias, yknow? but the obvious answer aside (because i am very proud of glaciers, tyvm), i think i'm actually very, very fond of something borrowed, something blue. i so rarely get to write descriptions that i actually feel proud of, but i got to do it here.

not very sure who to tag. just throwing a few out there, maybe? @nervestatic @kimium @oddberryshortcake and anyone else who might want to do it! (i know i have some new fh mutuals; please feel free to hop in!)

[workedupovernothing]

i think an interesting part about posting fanart is you really learn where the community for something is and in retrospect it was stupid to not realise that of course the critters were all on tumblr so i come with an offering of a jester

-ramblings under cut-

i could probably and should probably take a better photo but 1. its 2 am i cant sleep and honestly its been a while since ive routinely posted art and i kind of dont know how to make it look nice outside of just. the drawing. ive been having fun with trradtional art its helped a lot with the fact i just kind of started hating my art? traditional art is very sensory and its good sensory to me. alcohol markers have a smell and a sound and are very fun to play with. im aware the piece is messy but also it was SO MUCH fun to doodle and i think it leaves a really colourful and sweet impression

i want to do some less samey but well done portraits particularly of mollymauk because i need some of my own art as a pfp on stuff like instagram and molly is my faveourite and i draw him a lot but i wasnt really proud of the face of the first full proper-y portrait i did also i want to study some other artists particularly what makes their posts look good on a grid because it is also a visual thing i suppose, i dont care about *clicks* i care about having people that care about my art and enjoy it and at least seein smthn nice it always makes my day to see nice tags and comments and stuff anyway idk what im on about i should stop and also go to bed hopefully ill sleep well haha there was a spider on my wall and i think hes lost under my junk piles now but he was kinda a bad climber

[wendylianmartin]

On the note of that persons previous asks, would you be comfortable with other people (with proper content warnings/spoilers in place and ofc only of the of age people, + perhaps credit to you, though idk if you’d want to be tagged in that sort of thing) making nsfw of the castle swimmer characters? I’m aware that that kind of thing being made with or without you being happy with it is kind of unavoidable, but I think it’s good for people who do respect you more to know so that we aren’t unintentionally making something of your characters that you’re not quite comfortable with

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with readers exploring more mature stuff with my characters as long as you’re tagging things appropriately and being mindful of where it’s posted. But I’m also not going to be enforcing ‘rules’ or monitoring what anyone is doing lol.

I decided I would kinda stay out of the fandom space and only look at the occasional fanart I happen to see. I’m happy to be blissfully unaware haha.

Please only tag me in stuff that would be okay for me to share with my whole audience. Also, thank you for asking, I really appreciate you taking my comfort into consideration 💕