#idk man. idk. im so tired.
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ik i've gone on abt this A Lot recently but it genuinely is so exhausting to exist as a queer woman in sports fanbases but especially in football recently because i love the highs and lows of emotions i experience when watching my favourite teams and players but seeing ppl you look up to and admire for their work casually embrace generally shitty people but specifically shitty towards women hurts man, and that's not even to Begin taking about the casual sexism and general queerphobia so many fans display
#like sometimes i just want to give up and shut down this blog man#and it's not just about the recent stuff with utd yk first the greenwood business and now with antony#it's the wrestlers' protests in india back in april/may and the fact that the the govt continues to embrace and#support the accused. even if it comes at the cost of our players not being able to play under the indian flag at all#it's abt the fact that every aspect of indian sports is so overrun with religious nationalism its hard to take pride in india's achievement#when it just fills me with grief instead#and i know im not exempt from criticism because i myself like players and drivers etc that do the very same things im#talking abt and continue to like them and post abt them i just.#idk man. idk. im so tired.
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fem sanji + fem zolusan (monster trio)
ive been in a very fem character mood recently and idk what it is but i need to draw her at least 5 more times before it goes away
#zolusan#sanji op#zoro op#luffy op#monster trio#monkey d luffy#roronoa zoro#black leg sanji#zosanlu#sb’s art#digital art#one piece#one piece posting#fem sanji#fem luffy#fem zoro#think i have all my sorting tags in here but idk man im too tired to check#anyways i want sanji so badly guys#so i will project onto zosanlu or whatever#might probably draw fem law at somepoint soon cause ouhggggg
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i’ve been thinking about “sixer, it would eat you alive” since i read it and. man. every layer you peel back makes it worse. im not a bill apologist but. shit
if you (1) take it at face value, it paints bill as an apologetic murderer in his single (and maybe sole) open moment of regret. he doesn’t let his walls down often- only with ford do we even get to see the remnant of his galaxy, see the “actual remorse” ford describes, get just a hint of his origins. but he does it, because he thinks ford should know.
if you (2) take it from ford’s point of view, as something he committed to journal three, like. wow. imagine being so committed to a being that you’d hunt down and kill the monster that destroyed his home, only to (assumably) figure out later that that being was the monster. the small moments of trust, the “good times”, are so key to manipulation. how long did ford hold onto that one shred of vulnerability? no wonder ford stayed for as long as he did. in his eyes, bill was a survivor. ford wanted to survive too.
(slight tw below for unreality- any time i mention our reality, i mean “our reality” as a narrative device used in the book of bill as a proxy for the idea of bill being in our reality, since he can’t actually be in our reality. all of this is a fictional theory about a show/book with fictional contents!)
but if you (3) remember that “even his lies are lies” and absolutely Nothing bill says should be trusted. Whoo boy. if i read tbob right the book itself is being created in the theraprism (even tho it shows up with the ciphertologists at some point? idk that’s a whole other post). it’s meant to show what the reader wants to see; it manifests in our reality as what the collective fandom wants to see. so if we want to see truth, if we want to see where bill ended up and who he actually is, there’s a non-zero chance that the whole interaction was a complete fabrication.
imagine bill, stuck in the actively harmful, probably earth-illegal theraprism, once again being forced to be “fixed” and molded into something more palatable, being forced to conform no matter how much it hurts. (i know natural uncontrollable mutation ≠ just so much murder and destruction and chaos, but. you can’t ignore the similarities. bill has obviously been thinking about those silly straws.)
he looks back on everything that went wrong, back on his relationship with ford, back through every dimension where he wins. would that one moment, that one truth amid centuries of lies, have saved him from purgatory? if he had just been open? shown his damage? maybe he did think of his parents, or his henchmaniacs (especially the oracle). people who he might have once opened up to. maybe he just wanted to open up to someone again.
so in his own weird way, stuck in a cell, he reshaped reality again. in this reality, for this fleeting moment, he had been someone worth believing. and ford had listened, hell, ford had wanted to help. looking back, knowing how he treated ford, knowing how ford ended up because of it, maybe bill would have said the most honest thing he’d ever told ford: i am the monster, i am not worth your time or belief, and i will eat you alive.
#there’s nothing more pathetic than an ex god writing fix it fic for him and an old man who helped kill him#so much of my tbob theorization operates around reality and truth. probably because i’m a pretentious asshole#but also because that’s the best part imo??? like yesss fuck w the line between real and fake. see what happens#gravity falls#book of bill#bill cipher#the book of bill#book of bill spoilers#the book of bill theory#the book of bill spoilers#gravity falls theory#shutupmac#skullduggery#billford#sort of…….#stanford pines#ford pines#idk how like. legible this is#im so tired yall. im so tired and so stressed#it was write this. thing. or answer at least three uncomfortable texts. so#tw unreality#unreality#edit: fixed the last line because it was cringe#and upon rereading this it lowkey is still an oversimplification of bill and ford’s whole deal#but Fuck It We Ball#gravity falls analysis
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such a faithful husband (unfortunately for reader)
(it likely wouldn't take long for any potential homewreckers to realize that swk isn't one to be swayed from his beloved wife)
#click for quality cause mobile is stupid#bad end wukong#twice as bad au#these are messy and bad but i needed this idea out of my brain#idk man im so tired
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One of my first digital pieces (2010) versus one of my recent ones (2024)
We all start somewhere!
#picked these cause they're in a similar pose lol. i mean not at all. but sort of... more than my other art at least...#oh fuck im so tired im saving this to drafts and coming back later#my anxiety meds wipe me the fuck out so im trying not to take them in the day#and they're like legit borderline a sleeping med for me. i take one and in 30 mins im OUT.#so I'm. i mean i was already only taking 1-2 in the day and then 2-3 at night#anyways it makes me sad when people say they dont have an artistic bone in their body#and especially when they say they could never draw like me :(#dont put yourself down to lift me up! i don't want my art to be used for you to be mean to yourself!!!#lots of experiences of people comparing themselves to me and being mean to themself...#feels bad. it's okay if you're slow it's okay to be learning it's okay!!!#I'm me and you're you and we're here to learn from each other. i just wanna hang out..#y'know what I'm just gonna post without saying anything i WILL forget I made a draft#i have so many things i intend to post and then forget#it's a wonder I post anything#i only do it when i get bored. and run out of stuff to scroll through#like whelp. guess if i want a post I have to make one myself.#also the second one is really good idc that it's a study i still drew it#art growth#this was in 2010 btw#i started highschool in 2011#I've grown a lot and you can too.#also I've never really been one to dislike my old art. like idk I was trying... if it's bad I just won't look at it whatever#like i wouldn't be mean to someone else who made that so i don't get a free pass to be mean just cause it's to me#man my thoughts are bungled. okay sleep time#if my phone made typos you didn't see it
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The Buddy Bingo is the best addition to the series cause some of this information is just ???
• Saeko has 8 different apps on her phone to pay at stores
• Zhao has 20 pairs of the same glasses
• Seonhee cooks gyoza for everyone at the Geomijul pretty much every day
• Tomizawa's favorite food is MOVIE THEATER HOT DOGS
• Seonhee is lowkey an astrology girlie
• Joongi goes fucking nuts renting DVDs (Thank you Seonhee, very cool)
• Zhao is into gacha and a fucking whale to boot
• Nanba fought A FUCKING RACOON
• Tomi wants to run a café and go on a roadtrip with his friends and I think that shit is adorable
• Zhao wants to contact aliens
• Saeko works out lifting an 8 kilos pot
• Adachi's special skill is preparing the shogi board
• Chitose can dance. Saeko can't. Insert something sapphic
• Adachi learned flower language and how to surf to get laid
#like a dragon infinite wealth#yakuza 8#lad infinite wealth#ryu ga gotoku#infinite wealth#eric tomizawa#chitose fujinomiya#koichi adachi#yu nanba#saeko mukoda#seonhee#joongi han#zhao tianyou#i didnt get joongi yet so idk about him#but im already ready for him to get the WEIRDEST SHIT#joongi is the biggest weirdo of the ichigang and im tired of pretending hes normal#like??? he got so SULKY and CUTE when Zhao tagged along with the others and just went#'must be nice 🙄🙄 getting all the fun for yourselves 🙄🙄'#man's gonna pack his bags and book it to hawaii out of spite im calling it
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cunning girl with plans
#homestuck#aradia megido#my art 🍵#homestuck art#man this took me more tham it should#ughhhhh#and dont ask me why they look like two diff art styles idk#im tired#so fuck it
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the star of the show
#i wanted to redraw this shot so bad you dont even know. it broke me.#this is so goofy honestly but idc#i needed to get it outof my system#clippy#virtual assistants#gijinka#object head#the truman show#doodle#and yes the clouds are from That :)#man the implications here. bro almost fuckin died right before this#could i make this into a full on AU? possibly. but idk#ignore the wonkiness im tired#webcore#digital art#i forgor something but idomt care actually
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Hatchetfield @femslashfortnight Day 6: Protect
#some campfire confessions for yall :)#I had a very draining day today so we’re not doing long tags for this one#I have a drawing im still working on for day 4 so its gonna be a little out of order#but whatever it is what it is#I used the fun brush again for this one :D#fun fact: bears are my favorite animal#look I never said I wouldn’t ever do personal facts#also I’m too tired to go looking for facts#so there’s some Ricky lore#what’s YOUR favorite animal?#let me know in the tags if you feel like it /nf#idk yall#campfire confession#abstinence camp#nerdy prudes must die#hatchetfield femslash fortnight#karen chasity#girl jeri#nightmare time#Starkid#hatchetfield#team starkid#Kim Whalen#hatchetfield axe man#man- Axe Man is such a banger- it’s my favorite hatchetfield song#it’s just too good I love it#that episode has a lot of good songs#my art
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when there’s gardens across our collarbone?? or soemthing??
(fanart of this awesome fic by pittedpeaches and my god this fic keeps me up at night i reread it every day i love it so much puts it in my mouth)
bonus doodle:
#my art#lmk#lego monkie kid#lmk fanart#lego monkie kid fanart#spicynoodles#spicynoodlesshipping#spicynoodles fanart#lmk mk#lmk red son#pittedpeaches fanart#a garden across our collarbone#idk if this scene makes sense out of context? but im tired and this took a week so idc anymore#essentially the fic is a soulmate au where whatever you draw on your body shows up on your soulmate’s#and im not a soulmate au fan but this fic changed the game for me man#TAGGING THE AUTHOR AGAIN BC I’M ANNOYING <3
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its not enough that youre dead
i shouldve been the one to kill you
#limbus company#emil sinclair#sinclair lcb#sinclair limbus company#impending day#impending day ego#doomsday calendar#doomsday calendar limbus#limbus fanart#fanart#sinclair fanart#project moon#project moon fanart#btw caption is totally smthn sinclair would say about kromer#i bet he still isnt over demian being the one to kill her#idk i wouldnt be if i were him#also its that fucking calendar that i hate /aff#this was three gruelling hours of my life i feel like a gutted fish#i fucking hate that calendar it never leaves my brain#i feel like im corroding man. im corroding man#yeah im so tired now ok time to zone out for 6-7hrs
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why is it always my splatoon art being stolen bruhh, just had to deal with an ig account who was getting 5 times the attention off of my stuff
hell even before the game released a random game news site used my first ever deep cut drawing as if it was a game asset, atleast it just took 1 email to make them take it down
#pada speak#yeah i wanna ramble idk man its tiring#im not even a big account and i have to deal with all this#for the love of god asking exists#you can ask#theres so many people who are more than happy to let you share their work#but you need to ASK#not just assume#cause if they dont allow it they have a damn legal case against you
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i've seen figure skater sanji and hockey player zoro before. idk if its been explored but i'd love to put it out there:
hockey player sanji (specifically goalie bc he desperately wants to avoid being checked) and then pairs skater zoro.
pairs skater zoro's long time partner has been nami. though many people ship them together a Lot, they just know each other super well. Well enough to try dating and both of them realized they don't swing that way. in fact, it makes them a really good team. they fought long and hard to claim top spots in competitions because they portray a chemistry that's separate from the rest. plus zoro can carry nami like she weighs fucking nothing. so their lifts are so much more dynamic. they even have a whole next to impossible combination that they're trying to get the ISU to name after them officially.
sanji plays for the East Blue Straw Hats in the Grand Line Hockey League – a formidable rookie group that took down lots of big names in the preseason. they want to make it all the way to the postseason playoff finals but always seem to fall short. but theyre so determined. they reignited a lot of old sparks that were no longer there for old fans and brought in new and curious fans. sanji is the starter goalie and a damn good one at that. it makes sense bc goalies are often doing splits on the ice just to make a save. he's perfected the technique that utilizes just his legs to make saves that make the crowd go fuckin insane.
we have the usual "i booked the rink to practice before you did" trope but a little more spice. in actuality, sanji loves watching pairs skating competitions. his favorite pair rn is franky and robin (mostly for robin). and he adamantly does not want to admit to anyone that he watches zoro and nami's routines much more frequently. (and if anyone asks, he always says its bc of nami. its never just bc of nami.) and zoro's besties with luffy so he always watches their matches even if he barely understands the rules. and he definitely does not stare at a certain blond starter goalie most of the match thats fucking ridiculous
one day zoro and sanji are invited to do one of those comparison videos between hockey players and figure skaters. both get to laugh at the other even Attempting to do their sport. zoro frankly looks ridiculous in all of sanji's usual goalie get-up. and sanji couldn't land an euler to save his life. the video producer suggests they try a simple pairs skating routine. sanji is like "oh i couldn't do that–hEY WHAT THE FUCK MOSSHEAD PUT ME DOWN" because zoro lifted sanji and had him sat on his shoulder like it was normal.
zoro smirks, "you might be lighter than nami, actually. wanna be my new partner?"
sanji knees him in the stomach before skating away while blushing so hard he could melt the ice beneath him.
#listen#both figure skating (most especially pairs skating and ice dancing) AND hockey were my hyperfixations at one point#and zoro? built like a pairs skating man#sanji? has the ass of a hockey player#iT MAKES SENSE TO ME !#but also the dichotomy of zoro doing a graceful sport and sanji in a fast paced brutal game#idk man im too tired to psychoanalyze why i think pairs skating actually works well with zoro's philosophy on strength and balance#and sanji's phobia of being checked tied to many little league games that led him to become a formidable goalie#i COULD GO ON#But i will sleep instead#one piece#sanji#roronoa zoro#zosan#niki's log: op#niki's fics: checks and balances#dO YOU GET THE PUN IN THE TITLE GOD IM SO ANNOYING !!!!!#lowkey my contribution to zosan week even if it might not fit any promprs#i just wanna feel included
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boom. reverse crowe and sol
#num draws#sol posting#crowe posting#tkatb vn#yandere#digital art#fanart#tkatb_vn#yandere vn#tkatb sol#tkatb crowe#solivan brugmansia#sol brugmansia#jericho crowe ichabod#crowe ichabod#went through the five stages of grief drawing crowe for some reason#idk why i struggled that hard#WHATEVER#its over now#anyway i love love love the reverse au designs theyre so lovely#im going to bed now god im so tired#wanted to finish tho so i did :>#if crowe looks wonky im sorry man i did my best 😭
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I forgot to give shadow legs in the second panel but im tired and idc
#sonic the hedgehog#my art#traditional art#shadow the hedgehog#shadow the ultimate lifeform#sonadow#sonic x shadow#shadow x sonic#shadonic#fucking sick lil buddy#yeah idk#miles tails prower#tails the fox#Based on some quote i found#The one about cats#if you know you know#smooch#mwah <3#idk man#im fucking losing it#im so tired
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And if my dreams come true, I'd be there looking at you. And as you start to undo, I'll hold a mirror to you.
#listening to man or muppet its so bellcore am i right gys am o right#ougheughguoguhufuhg............#i will render this sometime maybe idk i do like it or im too tires ro see its bad anyways#cod cw#cod cold war#bell cod#wip#my art#russel adler#russell adler#did it go with one or two Ls idk#adler cod#cod black ops cold war
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