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#ami's ramblings#i always feel so awkward accepting compliments esp for things i'm self conscious of#in all truth i don't think of myself as pretty and feel utterly guilt-ridden when i do make myself feel that way or to admit it#i really struggle to view myself in that kind of light and i've been trying so hard to not view myself so negatively#but i guess years of being made to feel bad if i receive a compliment kinda fucks me up????#but even if i feel this way i can never deny a person's compliment bc it's their words and thoughts so it feels just#a bit rude for me to deny their thinking and all that#bc ngl i do kinda myself feel like 'oh... okay....' if i compliment a person and they turn it down even with it from the heart#idk man just my way of thinking??? so i'm always at a loss of how to respond and just say thank you even if i personally#don't agree with their perspective but i do appreciate it always#i just struggle so hard with self love and i try to work on it but i still slip up#the fact i've been told by mental health ppl i talk very negatively and abysmally about myself and my life like i'm trying not to???#idk just 2am thoughts
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cannot stop rotating wl!gem in my head after that episode. encouraging pearl and impulse to go after her enemies and then gossiping with scott about them afterwards. insane behaviour. the discussion about impulse. missing secret life. fucking helllll. i'm obsessed with how dedicated she is to the anti pearl and impulse campaign. how dedicated she is to painting them as aggressors, antagonizers, going into her base and looking through her fields, when she's undeniably the one starting shit with them. that one stream clip of her saying she's going to channel breakup coldness dialogue from subnautica against pearl. iconic behaviour. i love divorce
#wild life#geminitay#shiny duo#pearlescentmoon#impulsesv#scott smajor#wild life spoilers#i am 100% going to have more coherent thoughts on this ehen its not 2am#im also kind of obsessed with how shes playing this season socially. Like. she has all these alliances shes msde and it feels like very few#of them actually matter. shes making all of these superficial connections#endearing herself#but its just that. superficial#meanwhile shes proliferating a hate campaign against pearl (with impulse kind of being stray fire) and making a point to place herself#as the innocent#idk. fascinated#obligatory c! not cc!#good shit
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phinktober day 10: sister daniel and father philip 🙏🏻
#i’m pleased w dans arms#i’m NOT pleased w mine they feel like they’re about to fall off#i’m gonna get an early night i think (before 2am)#hopefully yall like this idk it’s probs the piece ive used the least direct reference image for#like i always need refs bc i have total aphantasia#but i drew that hand on his hip just ?? out of my own brain ?? so maybe im not as much of a failure of an artist as i thought#ugh i need a glass of wine a cigarette and a nap#art2 and craft2#dnp#dan and phil#phanart#daniel howell#amazingphil#dan howell#phil lester#sister daniel#father philip#phinktober
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In the least sexy and most sfw way ever:
Can't stop thinking about Tim accidentally becoming the Wayne Family Pack alpha in an omegaverse au
It would be hilarious, Jason would be pissed and Tim would be stressed af
(Ask me about this I have thoughts tm)
#like. idk i just think it would be funny#brlught to you by sleep deprived 2am thoughts#and the “hmmm What if tiny freshly presented alpha timmy robin bullied big grieving omega bruce into taking care of himself ”#like i'm not usually a fan of the whole “alpha voice thing” but i think in this case it would be funny#ithoughtyousaidprinter#dc comics#batman#red hood#tim drake#bruce wayne#omegaverse#alpha tim drake#omega bruce wayne#a/b/o dynamics#sfw omegaverse#sfw interaction only#omegaverse dynamics#dc robin#platonic omegaverse
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fob 4ever
#anyway here’s what i was going 2 post on fob day :]#idk how i thought i could get it finished on time lol#my art#fall out boy#god this was a nightmare to make but at least i’m finally free :3#still working on it at 2am bc i just want this OUT
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So I got one particular kink request that mentions maybe needing an OC. I have an idea for this already, but it occurred to me that I've never told you guys about my actual OC. I'm sure most won't care, but I do, soooo...
Everyone, meet my ghouly guy Jasper!
Jasper is an earth ghoul, but more in a rock direction than a plant direction. He was summoned near the end of Terzo's reign, and lives in the depths of the abbey with the other service ghouls. His assigned tasks mostly revolve around building maintenence, and he usually goes unseen due to a preference for working at night. He's not a fan of crowds anyway, so it all works out. The last thing he needs is a gaggle of siblings ogling him while he repairs cracks in the walls with nothing but a palmful of finely crushed stone and a little burst of magic.
He keeps to himself in the off hours too, preferring to hang in his dorm with something immersive; a good book (preferably horror or mystery), a video game (loves single player RPGs and cozy games like Stardew Valley), doing a puzzle (jigsaw, crossword, or really any sort of word game) or listening to music while staring at the ceiling. His dorm sits beneath one of the band's equipment storage rooms, and it's not uncommon for one or two of the band ghouls to hang out and play something every now and then. He has very sharp ears, and if he closes his eyes he can usually tell who's fucking around (or just fucking, let's be real) in there.
If he does need to participate in group activities, he enjoys the company of his fellow earth ghouls. They aren't a rowdy bunch (except for Pebble, though they still get on well enough), so he'll have no problem meeting Mountain in the orchard for a joint and idle chitchat, or having a quiet lunch with Ivy in the rose garden. He also finds himself drawn to air ghouls - he had a huge crush on Zephyr, but their Whole Thing with Mountain told Jasper to keep his distance. They still made great friends though!
His first roommate was Aether, before he was recruited into the band and moved to Dew's room. They got along very well, and Aether taught him a lot about many, many things. The abbey, the world Above, human-shaped vessels and what they can do...many lessons were taught in that cramped dorm room. Jasper has it to himself now, but still he leaves Aether's side clean and organized. Just in case.
Aether tried to teach him to play guitar as well, but never got the hang of it - coordination was an issue, as was the fact that his finger strength kept breaking the higher strings. He prefers to sing anyway, in a voice that could go straight to your bones. The one exception to his 'no crowds' rule comes when it's time for a celebratory mass, where he will don a ceremonial robes and join the choir in worshipful song. Mostly he just sings in the shower though.
He has an extremely dry sense of humor, always heavy handed with sarcasm, but is also able to pull a pun out at the drop of a hat. Loves to banter and tease in his own way, though it can take other ghouls some time to adjust to his mannerisms. But if something hits him just right, really tickles, then he's cackling like a hyena with tears streaming down his cheeks.
Loves to hunt with Mountain; the pair of them have spent many night tracking everything from rabbits to bucks with nothing but claws and fangs, tearing into their prizes with unabashed, feral pleasure. Jasper will take pieces of their pelts and fashion them into little pouches or decorative pieces to store on his one crowded bookshelf. There are a few hand-carved pieces of antler there too, none of anything identifiable, but at least he'd tried!
He eats normal human food too, as most ghouls do, but he has a guilty pleasure - red clay, harvested from the banks of the stream that cuts through the forest. If anyone finds him gathering it he says he's trying his hand at pottery, but in reality he's squirreling it away to dry so he can have a nice crunchy snack afterwards. Aether walked in on him with his mouth covered in clay dust once, and he has yet to live it down.
Now, some rapid-fire physical traits and preferences!
Jasper is intersex, presents on the masc side of androgynous, and uses he/him pronouns (though they/them is okay too). Demiromantic pansexual, far more willing to share his body than his emotions. Kinky as all hell, but he is a ghoul after all.
He is 6'2" (188cm), narrow and lanky.
He's pale, doesn't particularly enjoy being out in the sun, (Mountain call him a cave dweller), but if he does spend a day tilling in the gardens or the orchard it'll bring out the freckles on his face and arms.
Keeps his hair very short, almost shaved, on the sides and back, but shaggier on top. Easy to let flop over his forehead, or to slick back if he needs to look "presentable". It's thick and copper colored, looks redder in the sun, and he's always running his hands through it. If he shaves the sides down, he likes to carve little designs into the remaining fuzz. His horns are stone-like, only a few inches long, starting at his hairline and angled backwards. (When he's unglamoured they become twin rows of stalagmites in all sizes, sharp as anything.)
His face is angular, with sharp cheekbones and a pointed chin. His ears stick out, the left one more than the right. His eyes are steely gray, a touch sunken and perpetually accompanied by dark circles. Has a thin scar that runs down his forehead and through his left eyebrow, from the time he tripped and fell through one of the glass panels of the greenhouse. His nose used to be narrow and straight, but after an evening spent drinking Terra's moonshine his bedroom floor changed that. (He's a clumsy guy, what can I say.) He doesn't mind the crookedness, though he does sometimes wince when he sneezes. Wears glasses for everything except to read.
Piercings: double lobes in both ears, with a helix on the left and a daith on the right. Used to have his septum done before the nose incident, chose not to re-do it after that healed. Nipples (prefers barbells or shields). Bellybutton (blame Aether).
Tattoos: his elemental symbol on the inside of his left wrist. An intricate sigil at the top of his spine, extending down between his shoulder blades. A black and gray snake that wraps around his right calf, it's head on the top of his foot.
Wears a simple silver ring on his right middle finger and a pair of complementary chains around his neck. One holds a cage-style pendant surrounding a piece of raw obsidian, the other small crystalline vial of something that DEFINITELY isn't blood. Enjoys painting his nails, and will keep his claws glamoured just to flash his color of the week. It'll be chipped after two hours, but he doesn't mind.
For clothing, he keeps it simple. Service ghouls all share a uniform - a black tunic, slacks, white-tipped Oxfords and a simple black mask - but in his off time he likes baggy t-shirts and comfy pants. Or no pants, he kinda hates pants. Keeps a few nicer pieces for the rare occasion his uniform isn't formal enough, but they mostly sit unused in the back of his closet.
Finally, he is terrified of spiders. Many spider-related pranks have been, and will continue to be, pulled on him.
Aaaand thats all I've got off the top of my head lmao. I've never written down anything about my weird rock boy, he just lives in my mind and now, maybe, in yours. Will he ever be fully fleshed out? Will he make an appearance in any future fic? Find out next time, on DragonBall Z!
#miasma's work#the band ghost headcanons#the band ghost oc#jasper ghoul#(might as well give him a tag just in case lmao)#i doubt anyone cares about this which is totally fine but if anyone has questions about him im down lmao#its 2am and idk if im even gonna post this lmfao#<- thought about it more and im saying fuck it lmao
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for anyone who criticizes jyl for bringing soup to yiling instead of like, money—
we should first ask: could jyl actually have given wwx money? she must have something, you say. the jins are rich! she could even give him some of her betrothal gifts.
but realistically jyl probably didn't have much money at all! let's think this through. not only did she not marry jzx yet at the time of her yiling visit, but (based on many, many imperial palace tv shows lol) all her worth would be in betrothal gifts of jewelry, fine clothing, or other misc items, which is 1) heavy and difficult to transport without notice, but that doesn't actually matter bc it's ultimately 2) disrespectful to sell and worse to have the gifter find out when they come by for tea and you begin chatting about the event in two days and they say oh where's that one-of-a-kind jade bracelet I gave you wouldn't it match the also one-of-a-kind silk garment that lady jin gave you sooo well oh you will look so lovely in it won't you wear it.
or worse, have it recognized in some random pawn shop on the street by someone who has never really liked you and WILL get you in deep shit for it.
does jyl have any money from the jiang side? well, jc has been busy at work rebuilding lotus pier and the clan since before wwx's defection, and even if he's not borrowing a shitton of money from the jins (which he almost certainly is), he definitely has the opposite of surplus funds. he's also busy organizing and buying gifts for the wedding too, making him go more in the red because you know the jins aren't going to want cheap-ass things even if you don't have money.
let's say jyl did get a significant bride price (aka given money money)—not only does that go to her family (jc), but it is given during the ceremony (which, again, hasn't happened yet). and, realistically, jc probably will have to use it to offset the costs of the above.
beyond that, let's just take this scene from a storytelling perspective. sometimes it is simply about the emotional resonance. the vibes. let's say jyl did have some funds to give wwx. but imagine if jyl was like here a-xian take all this money 😐 ok sure useful for some period. but is that the gift that wwx would want during the first time he's gotten to see her in months, and likely the last time he will see her in a long, long time (possibly years)? would that be impactful for the story?
meanwhile, the soup she brings represents her love. we hear in the extra, from wwx's own words, the care she put into selecting the ingredients, making sure the lotus root is fresh and perfectly ripe. it also takes hours for her to even make iirc. wwx derives so much comfort from it—that's why it comes up again and again. it is one of his first memories of feeling safe in lotus pier, of home. it provides wwx some semblance of normalcy. he hasn't had any this entire time, and is likely something he aches for whenever he's homesick or sad or questioning his choices. it is simply, given the circumstances, incredibly thoughtful. (and how meaningful was it to see wn treat it with such respect? seeing that is literally the moment in the chapter when wwx realizes—ah. the wens are people I cherish as well.)
and regarding jyl coming in her wedding dress—it is not for herself. it is for wwx. we saw how devastated wwx was just to even hear that jyl was getting married because he had to hear it from someone who wasn't jc or jyl. and to immediately then realize he cannot go? even more heartbreaking. and jyl, who clearly knows wwx extremely well, would know, without having to ask, how upset wwx would be to miss such a huge occasion in their lives that was previously a given. this is what she can do to offset that, even just a little. because jyl came in her dress, wwx gets to experience a piece of her wedding even though he cannot physically be there. not to be a 2000s mastercard ad, but there really are some things that money can't buy.
idk there's also some fist-shaking at the class discrepancy in the scene. and I get it. it sucks! her dress is certainly lavish, and the wens are farming on a corpse mountain and have only just started making a bit of money. yes, it's fine to think that if you were in the character's shoes, maybe you would've found it to be in poor taste—but the story isn't about you. it is about these characters, and what this scene means to them. and I'm of the camp that if there is no indication that wwx is upset by any of this, and in fact moved by it, there really isn't reason for the reader to be righteously indignant about these things on a character's behalf. that's just not the focus or the point of the scene.
plus, jyl is sharp. she is likely more aware of the discrepancy than most people think. she has also been shown in the text to not just be another sheltered, spoiled noble (re jzx soup incident). but if what you want is guilt from jyl—I personally think that guilt is performative, and accomplishes nothing. her guilt would've only made wwx unhappy. instead, here is an action that is meaningful and brings joy to wwx. to share her joy with him is not selfishness, nor is it some lack of awareness of their situation. if in this moment, she shows off her dress, if she revels in her joy, her happiness, it is for wwx, and wwx is incredibly moved by it.
and let's face it—wwx, of all people, would want to see jyl in a wedding dress that cost more than rebuilding lotus pier from the ground up. he wouldn't want anything less.
#cultural context is as always important people!#idk i just see a lot of jyl slander and it rubs me very much the wrong way#anyway this is not the jyl thread I intended to write but it's a subset of my thoughts#get ready for more later o boy#jyl#cultural meta#mdzs#mine#ps I think ppl should question their assumptions and reactions to the most traditionally feminine character in the novel#im writing this at like 2am after being unable to fall back asleep btw if there are mistakes whoopsies#jiang yanli
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I can appreciate angsty fics and things that talk about all the character flaws of the marauders and valkyries and everyone else, and all the canon things.
But honestly, I don't enjoy it.
I can know that it's interesting, and still hate it.
Like yeah, I guess canon is cool, but it's really not for me. This fandom is my escape from reality, my way to forget who I am, what's happening in the world, what is going on around me, all my problems, I don't want to be burdened even more while enjoying it.
it's my place to be free and happy and not have to think. I'm always thinking. I'm always working. I'm always doing something. So my time focusing on this, on these characters, this fandom, I don't want to spent it thinking "realistically" or with a bunch of angst
I already have enough of that, thank you very much
this. is. my. safe. space.
For me, I don't need to be analyzing characters, sobbing over storylines, or thinking about the flaws of a situation when I'm here. It's supposed to be fun!! It's supposed to be a fantasy world where we can mold and shape these characters based on the little information we have of them.
This is a fun light place where I can just play with these characters and we build off of each others ideas, why do we feel the need to make ourselves miserable?
I think it's also that a lot of the angst and sadness that we create in this fandom, is similar to what I deal with at home (the black brothers, having to choose one person, having to watch someone get the love you want, basically all the angst pertaining to sirius, reg, James, and lily, literally any one of them).
So when I hole up in my room, im doing it to forget, not to be reminded of reality.
#anyways so thats kinda why I dont post a lot of black brothers stuff#and/or regulus watching as lily/James gets the love he wants from James/sirius#erm yeah#idk why I thought of this#but I had to get it out#actually I think it was bc I saw something about how Choices is so good bc it's saying what would happen in a canon setting#where the characters act human and have flaws#but thats kinda why I dont ever want to read it#AND NO HATE TO THE FIC ITSELF OR PEOPLE WHO ENJOY IY!!!#I'm just trying to explain why I dont personally enjoy that stuff#:3#wrote this at like 2am last night lmao#the marauders era#marauders era#marauders fandom#harry potter marauders#the marauders
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somewhere in another universe, on the day of the ravens v foxes championship game....
#took wayyyyy to long to make this all yall socmed au writers are so fucking strong#its 2am bruh#aftg#socmed au#<- this isn;t an actual au i have its just a silly post i thought of but idk what to tag this as
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we've all seen the jokes about Raphael and clonefucking but what if we talk about Raphael and Clone. welcome to my TED talk, here's how Raphael can still win-
(don't take it TOO seriously, i'm just offering some info/lore/mechanics and whatnot from d&d that could be interesting to consider, for fics or headcanons or whatever else this might be useful for lol)
anyway onto the post. so while idk if 5e has anything particularly specific or definitive about this (knowing 5e probably not, though I haven't read descent into avernus so idk if they have more fiend lore in there) going off 3.5e cambions are just defined as another name for half-fiends, which the MM says are typically outsiders with the native subtype - meaning they can be "raised, reincarnated, or resurrected just as other living creatures can be". huzzah, this means they have souls (imo). presuming the same holds true for cambions in 5e, since 5e also just defines them as the offspring of a fiend and a humanoid, i don't see why Clone wouldn't be an option for Raphael. it's only 8th level (surely there's a few 15th level wizards out there), the material component cost is only 3000gp (for a diamond and a container for the clone), and once the clone matures it "endures indefinitely" as long as the container does; when the creature dies its soul transfers to the clone with all its memories, abilities, and personality (but none of its gear, so we still snatch his diary) + the body's physical remains don't disappear if they aren't destroyed, so the orb vision we got about Meph munchies still tracks
the only potential issue is that in order to transfer to the clone, the soul of the creature must be "free and willing to return", but idk why anyone would have a claim on Raphael's soul to prevent it from returning. since he clearly deals in other people's souls a lot, he would probably be pretty careful about not letting anyone else get their hands on his! (plus he makes a point of saying he's a devil not a cambion when talking about himself, he wants to act like he doesn't have one at least 😂)
Clone lets you make the clone look like a younger version of the creature as well (nooo dont make your clone look like a younger version of yourself Raphael you're so sexy ahah)
#raphael bg3#raphael#baldur's gate 3#bg3#theorycrafting#bg3 spoilers#well idk if this is theorycrafting as much as “check out this lore i think this is reasonable”#if i gotta cite my sources i can (they're the 3.5e mm and the 5e phb/mm) but it's 2am i don't have page numbers LOL#yeah anyway don't get mad at me or anything i'm just saaaying there's options that don't even need a wish/9th level!#i am still just having Thoughts after patch 5 and i'm like wait i never talked about this on here did i#i probably forgot to mention stuff but that's what randomly drafting a post when one should be asleep will do to ya
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i have never been so obsessed and in love with a man before in my life
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like as a teenager i liked bands and thought some members were kinda cute but NOTHING has prepared me for the teenage girl in my 20’s level infatuation i have for this man
and then he had the AUDACITY to bring another one into the mix
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words cannot explain the amount of gender envy tommy gives me do i want him or do i want to be him?? i look at some pictures of him and go THATS ME THATS HOW I SEE MYSELF
#WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??#IS THIS JUST WHAT YOUR 20S ARE LIKE?#I AM DOWN BAD#i thought i skipped all this#i never understood all the girls that obsessed over celeb men#but now i get it!!#i kinda feel like i’m losing my mind#this 30 year old man is the only reason i smile#like when did that happen??#tommy got me feeling some type of way#i cant quite explain it but he’s changed something in my brain#i am not the person i was before listening to racked#the amount of gender envy he gives me is unmatched#am i even a girl idk anymore#I AM SCREAMING INTO THE VOID#käärijä#tommy cash#fruity thoughts#i made this at 2am last night in a feverish state but i’m still gonna post it
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brief lil fic i wrote bc i was having too many thoughts about landduo hurt/comfort
obvious warnings for mentions of missing eggs and general angst
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foolish walks out of his tower, having just finished organizing his loot from the dungeons he did today, and pointedly not dwelling for too long on anything other than the chests in that room. he still has a bit of time left today, and he's certainly not looking forward to trying to go to sleep and being left alone with his thoughts, so maybe he can finally squeeze some work in on the titan, or he'll go to spawn and run into someone else to goof around with and distract himself.
foolish gets halfway across the path to his warpstone when he finally notices bad on the shore. he's sitting on the ground outside his and dapper's first house, with his arms wrapped around his legs, knees tucked up to his chin, staring off blankly into the water as it waves and ripples against the land.
foolish pauses for a brief moment, and then turns to walk along the shore over to him.
"hey," foolish greets softly. bad turns his head to look up at foolish, but doesn't say a word. foolish notices the bags under his eyes. bad turns back to staring out at the water.
it's not an outright 'go away,' so foolish takes that as invitation enough to sit down next to him on the ground, curled up similarly to bad with his hands resting on his knees. for what feels like the first time all day, foolish lets out a deep breath, the full weight of his thoughts washing over him like the sound of the waves.
he thinks of leo. he thinks about how in the days leading up to the eggs' disappearance he didn't even get to see her, missing her by mere minutes. he thinks of the note she left in the chest in her room, he thinks about the totems left there and how wherever she is now, she doesn't have them. he thinks of vegetta, how he's probably going to come back and find out their daughter is missing. he thinks of all the other eggs. surely they'll all come back, right? the last time they went missing they came back. they have to come back, it's not fair for them to just be taken without any warning, without any explanation, without any closure.
foolish feels tears start to prick at the corners of his eyes, and tries to push the feeling away. bad is still sitting next to him, after all, and foolish can only think however he's feeling, bad must be feeling it worse, he practically took care of all the eggs. he doesn't need to add foolish having a breakdown in front of him on top of all of that.
foolish takes another few deep breaths, listening to the sound of the waves, letting his thoughts wash away with them, and he thinks he might be somewhere close to feeling normal again. and then he feels bad lean his head against his shoulder.
he looks down to find bad already looking up at him, and they share a brief glance before foolish wraps an arm around bad's back, pulling him in closer, and bad moves to fully wrap his arms around foolish's chest, and then foolish moves his other arm and they're hugging each other so tight foolish worries he might crush him.
and then foolish notices bad is crying- shaking, silent sobs with cold tears landing where bad has tucked his head near foolish's shoulder- and then foolish's carefully put up wall cracks, every last thought and emotion foolish had been bottling in rushing out in the form of tears that trail down his cheeks and fall against bad's back.
they stay hugging even after they've both stopped crying, until finally foolish feels bad push back against his hold and he releases him. bad pulls away, wiping at his face with one hand, still saying nothing. foolish has the impulse to poke fun at him just to regain a sense of normalcy, but quickly pushes it down. he has the feeling bad needed that just as much as he did.
they sit in silence again for a little while longer, staring out at the water and the now mostly set sun just barely dipping below the horizon, before bad stands up.
"uh, i should go… i have stuff i need to work on."
foolish stands up with him, feeling that whatever moment they were having before has now passed.
"yeah, yeah. me too," foolish says. bad turns to leave, and foolish puts out a hand to stop him. "uh. thanks, though."
it's doesn't feel exactly like what foolish really means, but it's close enough.
"oh. thank you too," bad says.
they go their separate ways, and they don't mention it again, aside from the knowing glance they share when they see each other the next morning.
#idk if this is worth putting on ao3 and either way i cant b bothered to fix it up enough for that rn so its just a post#qsmp#qsmp fanfiction#qsmp fanfic#foolish gamers#qsmp foolish#badboyhalo#qsmp badboyhalo#landduo#land duo#foolhalo#vaguely. you can interpret it however u want#i just have many thoughts about them being constants in each others lives and relying on each other for stability#but also never really actually saying or addressing it or even really thinking about it#also i am posting this at 2am if its shit thats my excuse lmao
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#adamandi#ambrose wellington bassford#infer as you will i suppose. wanted to draw a statue ambrose but accidentally painted it because smth smth blending fits him#again. main things taken from lyrics of the actual show ++ this definition i checked with google because i didn't remember it off the top#of my head. but Thoughts indeed#sfgdhhdf ok hello i am back today has been a Day (not very good) (oh well) (small mercies) ...#did not expect the melliot to find this so quickly but since i guess the Official Tumblr has reblogged it i'll just edit this one.#as opposed to reuploading. o//o#i painted it at 2am on impulse and have very little recollection of the whole event -? and then in a fit of pique added words and posted it#it is Very different from the original draft. i'd like to maybe do that one justice someday... anyways something something sometimes#a piece of art you make organically Evolves of its own volition... anyways.#maybe i'm projecting but recently (tuesday?) i found out something Important i had in the works Collapsed in the kiln#kaboom. ah the perils of ceramics. anyway thanks to the messed up 3d of everything i'm working on rn (the pros and cons of visual art subj#is that you get to make art for a grade) and. ceramics and sculpture and classics etcetera. <blinks> wow i really latched on to art aspects.#but nevertheless! ambrose brainrot real. iirc my thoughts were smth like. most strongly. that contrapposto? based on my school art history#was that it evolved from the very neutral rigid ancient greek sculptures of people which were all about Mathematical Symmetry. because#the main thing about contrapposto was that it reflected irl people more... more life-like? so it's very ironic to me#that Alive ambrose went and tried to turn himself into a statue. with part of the draw being contrapposto.. like?????#ah yes you like this sculpture because it's lifelike. and you'd rather be a sculpture than alive huh. the contrasts are !! in my head#also maybe i just.. wanted to paint... idk i had ambrose on the brain yesterday and it was something about sculptural messed up perfection#fun fact!!! the skin and hair i all greyed out to look like marble. fun fact number two: he has no eyes in this. like no pupils :3#fun fact number 3 (irrelevant) marble statues are only common wrt ancient greece bc the romans iirc came along and repurposed the bronzes.#because apparently bronze was a Hot Commodity at the time. and in return to preserve the art they made marble replicas. so most marble#ancient greek statues are apparently copies and the originals had totally different aesthetics#fun fact number 4: the background is a very greyed out image of my broken ceramics.. i wanted something nice to come out of it at least#fun fact number 5: i wanted to make him crack. like shattered ceramic or smth. that was the original idea. but instead it went to the pretty#sculpture route... kinda wanna make the messed up one though!!#fun fact number 6! because of Art Studio i'm covered in white paint and like it doesn't come off so it's been on my fingers and arms and#basically everywhere. so flesh turning into white stuff aes is fascinating i wanna explore... fun fact no.7.. i have accidentally maybe#began using screenshots as drawing practice. idk what to do with this info. if anything nice turns up ig i'll post it maybe
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In fics, Wei Wuxian gets the eating disorder but what if it was Lan Wangji? He was bed bound, depressed, riddled with pain, he probably couldn't eat much that first year while laying on his stomach to heal, maybe even the few years following.
What if, one day, Wei Wuxian notices that Lan Wangji eats less, one bowl of rice or only a few veggies, sometimes he merely sips on tea while watching Wei Wuxian eat. It worries him.
Lan Wangji doesn't even realize he's doing it, because he had gotten into the habit in those first three years, body racked with pain and riddled with a deep sadness he couldn't quite shake, unable to eat through the guilt, regret and overwhelming agony of losing his love.
He had unconsciously started practicing inedia, his stomach had already gotten smaller during that one year bed bound, he barely even noticed his lack of eating.
He does it without even thinking, as soon as hunger hits him, his qi surges up and activates inedia. He can go a full month without eating anything now, it helps a lot during night hunts and sometimes when he just can't find it in himself to eat anything.
The only one who notices the problem is Wei Wuxian.
#idk it's just a thought that suddenly hit me a moment ago#cell rambles#cell's 2am ramblings#tw eating issues#lan wangji#mdzs#cell's plot bunnies
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Went through my 100+ drafts. here are some stupid ones that never made it to the TL for your enjoyment.
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#all real tbh#the rest are just incoherent headcanons I never got around to finishing#kinda wish I remembered where I was going with the law and dean Winchester one#I am mostly unwell clearly#I have no notes about the crack one tho idk my life has been stupid#shitposting#shitpost#drafts#2am thoughts#Trafalgar law#law#dean
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Rewatched the entire descendants trilogy for the memories (and unending cringe apparently 😬) and had an ✨epiphamy✨
Marauders x Descendants AU anyone?
Regulus Dorcas Barty and Evan as Mal Evie Jay and Carlos respectively
James as Ben, Audrey as Lily (but make her better I'm not disrespecting my girl like that)
Uma could be Bellatrix? But we give her a redemption arc?
That could make Harry and Gil Rodolphus and Rabastan Lestrange?
Jane could be Peter? Chad and Doug as Sirius and Remus?
Dizzy and Celia... Marlene and Mary? (idk im trying)
Honestly I kinda see it
Rotten to the core, ways to be wicked and its goin down but with these characters?
Hello?
Sign me the fuck up
#idk im bored#i cant sleep its 2am#i just wanted to post something#jayden's thoughts#marauders era#marauders#the marauders#the marauders era#marauders au#james potter#sirius black#remus lupin#peter pettigrew#regulus black#barty crouch jr#evan rosier#dorcas meadowes#marlene mckinnon#mary macdonald#bellatrix lestrange#rodolphus lestrange#rabastan lestrange#lily evans#jegulus#sunseeker#starchaser#descendants#disney descendants#crossover
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