#idk im probably just. idk. its probably my fault
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Edited: to @holycrapitis i'm going into this with the Idea that Trump is guilty. I am interested in this evidence you say that exists of him not doing these crimes and the evidence of democrat crimes. I will be honest to you, I will fact check it, because of the rampant propaganda everywhere, rMost(I don't think any but I could be wrong. Im being lazy and not reading to make sure) of it directed at you isn't about the charges.
It seems like it's a confusing mess of policies... It seems a felon would need a waiver, not sure how one would get one. But it seems likely a waiver wouldn't work with how many felonies he has, tho I can't say I'm terribly informed on the exact charges to say that with certainty since this was just a quick google.
I would tend to agree with this person but as far as I know people used maruijana could be felons and I don't think those people should be disqualified depending on their other qualites.
Like I think this blank kind of statement does a lot of harm to minorites, which isn't that the kind of thing leftists, even democrats, are trying to avoid?
But it's possible that Trump is legally not allowed for different reasons, I wish it said what ones.
So onto the person I reblogged from.
The majority of people who voted probably aren't Communists, like the cold war propaganda is still very much in effect. And kamala definitely isn't, especially economically, and generally I don't think politicians Democrats are communist and are probably mostly still running on the ideas of the cold war. Theres definitely some outliers who are closer but definitely no elected.
And as the past shows, communists aren't necessarily going to be socially leftist (equality for all, in everything, raise people and lower people to become equal, etc . Because a lot of people who are rich become rich of the exploitation of others. We should give the value back to those who are exploited.) And I'm sure there's people on the social left who think kamala still isnt far enough, which might be.
Hmm there's got to be some words to define socially left other then being equal...
Anyways people know Trump was legally elected, but legal doesnt mean good. As far as I know, which to be fair isn't much, in the echo chambers who want trump to be president the idea was that trump was elected but was illegally changed. But I'm not in those circles so it's possible another narrative was that he would've if Democrats didnt make the votes turn their way, in legal ways.
AFAIK which honestly isn't much again since scrolling down theories on why we lost is psychlogically damaging no matter what side it is or even what it is I think
The theories I have heard say that Republicans gerry mandered the hell out of counties to get the results we got. But idk if that's an actual theory because then leftists are just being hypocrites(which I feel can be a good reaction if you feel like your in danger) about the electoral college since in the situation where its just Gerrymander at fault Trump would have still have the popular vote. So I think a more reasonable theory would be it had an effect, but not to the point where kamala won. The biggest effect was propaganda, in all of its forms. Even from people who don't know they are. If it's content showing a specific opinion, it's propaganda to someone. To educate you need good faith back to back conversation and research between people. At least in my opinion. With that definition intent definitely matters IMO since like an ad is explicit propaganda while a lot of content is implicit propaganda.
TBH I'm not liking this narrative that people who voted for Trump understand the consequences and believe the same things Trump does. Especially if they were like me and tuned out politics when he was elected like I did with biden, which I'm ashamed about. There's too many variables for me to believe that they all hold the same beliefs as trump.
Hold some of them? Believe lies about about both? Both? All the above? Yeah, sure. But I think it's crucial to not stereotype people who think different. It allows for dehumanization I feel which won't help us to grow this nation and have its citizens mature. Not to say the country is immature, in the traditional sense, where I think thats viewed as a bad thing, more that there's more progress to be made and when we think more globally, we realize there's so much more room to grow.
Want to say thanks to @holycrapitis for catching my attention and getting some of my thoughts together. I think when something like this happens, where the candidate you wanted to win doesn't, it activates the same emotions as grief does. So I've kinda been avoiding the topic. I'm sorry to those who were on the other side and got hurt even more by those who won while you were grieving four years ago no matter how much I disagree with you and how much I think these beliefs will hurt this country and my friends and family.
Its a shame I don't see this kind of empathy more. We should always start with this kindness. But it's what tribalism does. It dehumanizes the "them" and says its for the good of all, that it is justified, etc. Its never justified. It only hurts everyone.
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rsd be hittin hard
#you work 7 days a week yet youve barely texted me#you say youre going on dates and hangouts with luke#i havent texted you because ive thought youve been busy. i didnt know you HAD time#idk#maybe its my fault#but youre asking to call and now i just dont want to#i dont want to call#i dont like calls#idk im probably just. idk. its probably my fault#im blaming you for me not texting you and trying to hang out#i dont wanna call because i know im just being a bitch and youll think im being ridiculous for being upset at you over something thats probs#my own fault#augh#/nay
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#natsume yuujinchou#matoba seiji#natori shuuichi#horrible exorcists#sorry i couldnt think of a caption i literally sat here for like 2 minutes lol#usually i use a quote from the scene or a lyric from a song but in this scene they're just Looking#anyway FUCK architecture#really though this is csp's perspective ruler's fault. i shoulda just done this by hand#but i made it work. since it wasnt super super complicated lol#ummm i feel like natori looks like a baby ceo but that is what he was wearing at least in the anime version of this scene#and midorikawa's kind of vague about clothes so i made it easy on myself#but why are you rolling up to the exorcist meeting in a navy blazer and tan chinos?#his uniform color is tan so ig the pants could be from that but the blazer......#tryna represent the natori clan in front of the other exorcists ig idk#meanwhile matobas just in his gakuran lol#hes not the clan head yet so he can just be there as a kid#he even gets told off by takuma and called seiji-kun.....could you imagine like.#it's weird for him to not be matoba#anyway. um i completely kind of fudged the architecture because its hard to tell where exactly in the building this scene is and#i had a specific composition in mind#i only realized i messed up how the windows work like 3/4 of the way into lineart soooo#but thats the kind of thing only i would notice probably#btw i was originally drawing a different scene of them but i was faced with the reality of foliage.#and i remembered this romeo and juliet ass scene existed so#i chose architecture LOL#okay last thing. i feel like natoris haircut is too polished and nice but fr wtf is his canon hair#im doing my best LOL.........but boy#OKAY im done
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ever since flavio plush arrived ive had terrible sleep and i genuinely dont know how to fix it Guys hes ruining my life
#Its not actually the plush's fault im jesting#but like i fr dont know whats going on 😭 its really annoying#like i keep waking up once or multiple times early in the morning#i probably have to fix my bed or something#the thing is tho my sleeping position is just fine#idk what it is
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A bird just flew into my window and died what the hell I'm gonna actually cry
#idk what it was doing bc it wasn't close to the feeder?? the feeder is on the bottom and it hit the top pane#there was a cardinal on the windowsill and i was watching him and then the other one came out of nowhere#before i put the feeder up i read that if its right up on the window its safe for them#if it's within a few feet of the window it can confuse them and make them fly into it#but i thought mine was ok????#but also it was a titmouse and ive read that they're territorial so maybe it was trying to scare the cardinal away??#oh my god did i kill a bird???????#we went and checked on him to make sure it was dead and not stunned and my dad picked it up to move it and there was blood#like if it was just a random bird .. but it was a titmouse and those come a lot so it was probably the feeders fault right???? oh my god#oh my god i killed a bird#im looking at anti collision tape that makes the glass visible to them or maybe ill just take the feeder down#oh my god i feel so terrible#tw animal death
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Lol totally not planning my post-semester attention grab isolation to make my friends have to Intentionally reach out and show they care and want me around and also to show that I don't need them and would be fine without them
#time is a circle and so are my friendship issues#like damn. im annoying and too rude and talk too much and too loud and all that shit? crazy. lets see if you care if i didappear then#idk. im just pissed.#the biggest thing lately has been like. they have Decided that im just an asshole and ive tried explaining that im usually not trying to be#i just cant control my tone that well and their response has been Well maybe u should control your tone better.#ftr these friends are all also autistic...#and i was complaining to them about an admin being an asshole to me over smth small and they were like well u were probably sounding rude#then the same admin pulled the same shit on them and they were so pissed#like can i not be afforded the tiniest benefit of the doubt. can you maybe for one fucking second stop asserting that im a total dick and#just listen. or care. just something. they always assume shit like that is my fault and then when i get pissed abt it its further evidence#that im an asshole in their eyes. like no!!! i just have to be pissed because its fucking clear nobodys going to be pissed on my behalf#anyway.#npd#actually npd#actually narcissistic#vent tw
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#tbd#i sometimes genuinely feel like a freak for liking this sport so much#like ik everyone who follows it LIKES it#but to me its like. incredibly important and a big part of my life#idk ive never really been good with interests and shame surrounding them#probably has to do with years of bullying#and me being audhd and hyperfixating#but ive always tried to hide my interests from the ppl sround me bc i know many others wont#wont… be as passionate#which isnt their fault i get it. i am a bit unusual#but i just wish i knew some people who share my level of enthusiasm#i feel like there arent many people out there like me#sigh. if you relate pls lmk it would help me feel less alone but no need to lie#im just rlly going through it rn
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One day I will learn, that just because the bottle is low, does not mean I need to finish off the bottle.
#imma be so fuckin hungover tomorrow#someone should kiss me#and i moght be either asexual or aromantic or both which like woo thats funny to only me for so many trauma reasons#i love#im so drunk#i too drunk#i stated typing thos at 12:30#imma smoke pot after i post this#if your reqding my tags hi i love you. why are you reading this though like im a schizo bipolar depreased trans girl im unhinged in the tags#i need to stop drinking by myself#if think im an alcoholic as well if it wasnt for the fact that i can genuinely stop when ever i want but idkmaybe that changes?#at this point im just typing to annoy myself cause i think its funny to annoy other people and itd be hypothetical to not annoy myself#im ramblimg in the tags and honestly its your fault for still reading this#trans thought time#i wish i was born with a pussy but i do like having a cock and there is a possibility im genderfluid and fuck me that sucks if true#like how do you transition if your genderfluid? like i kinda want a cock and pussy and i know thats an actual option#but is it the right option?#i hate being trans but not knowing what kinda trans maybe ill hit where im at with my gender and just say tranny#cause i already say faggot for my sexuality instead of anything specific maybe i should just say tranny#this is probably what a therapist is for but idk if i can justify paying for this instead of saving money to buy a hoise#america sucks#capitalism sucks#love is such a bullshit thing#how can i be in love with some ane be in love with someone. being in love is nothing but selfish but also you have to be selfish for youryou#like i know that doesn't make sense sense but it makes sense to me and i also know its wrong#maybe i should give up and spend money on a therapist#i love my freinds and would sacrifice myself for them literally#12:51 and i have one more short tag to add#i hope you didnt read this far cause even in a drunk state this tag is embarrassing and im sorry you know me irl im sorry this is rambly+ugh#but if you dead read all the tags <3 i love yoh and would die for you
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I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh
hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]
i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..
#snap chats#//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes#might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍♂️#@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ...#there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams//#recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking#he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ#oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever#first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway#aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO#though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role#daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot#yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does#if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh#and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing#theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line#masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together#if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack#but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral#im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 ....#and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like#'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)'#and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal#they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway.#tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together#like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀#one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid#so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny.#and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/
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#someone im interacting w on isq miiight have me blocked i think?? but i can still interact so im so confused???#like i can still rb posts and even send a reply it just gets hidden immediately and labeled as a blocked reply#genuinely confused and now idk if i should interact if they tried to block me i dont wanna be that dick#ofc ik its partially my fault that their post got attention since i rb'd it to the big boy blog (to agree w them)#girl help idk if i should interact or not. i should probably unfollow tho i guess?#edit: some further info in the replies and begging someone to help me understand the social protocol for this
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Man they just Did Not Know what made that original game scary huh?
#idk if its bloober or konamis fault but probably both#i shouldnt be charging into rooms just to shut my radio up#i shouldnt get an ENEMY RUSH TO HERD ME INTO THE NEXT SET PIECE#i wanted to give it a chance but so far. look how they massacred my boy...#like its FUN but i shouldnt be having fun i should be fear crying#i should be taking breaks because im too stressed out not because its late and i gotta sleep
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I know I'm valid in my feelings but afdbdbdmdbm still trying to tell myself it's nothing (bc what can you do but move on) when I share smth n it gets no reaction from ppl I wanted to hear from TT
#makes me overthink so i have to tell myself its nothing#like. my writing was sfw. it was soft even... Mostly. not the rui fic. the dove was alive and healthy.#so its like. Oh. maybe its my fault for sharing the link to my blog? where i have a big warning on the front ^^; and they dni bc that#maybe they saw the fic links n then clicked the blog itself n saw my pinned?#honestly probably not which is why i have to tell myself im overthinking and its probably nothing#its ok to be sad no one responded to fics u were proud of and thought they would like but dont overthink it#i sent it late and it was immediately buried under art that someone sent right after me#and fic is more time consuming/less easy to react to than art and thats probably thw only reason why#ughhh idk man. im just a little disappointed bc i hyped myself up enough to be brave and that it would be ok to share my fic blog#:') it's ok the tags on my fics make me happy already#thoughts.ddz#ignore me lol
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wish i could relate to other lesbians my age but im borderline arospec and afraid of men
#like no i dont find men hot#sorry i actually am deeply afraid of them they send me into a trayma response 😝#/not my friends but lol#like all i see is like lesbians being like ‘liking men doesn’t invalidate ur lesbianism’ like true!!! i fucking wish i could be attractedo#to men like.#/nbh this is just an in general thing#like cool women r hot yesss 🔥 😍🙏#but i wish i didnt want to die every time i see a guy on the streets or at school#wven when that doesnt happen i feel so genuinely uncomfortable around them#‘its ur fault’ maybe i shouldnt have been fucming well. given trauma lets say that!!!!#like then idk i eant a gf but i also dont#im probably aroflux#AWESOME!!#slash sar#i want a gf but also im so mentally unstavle and i dont want one but i also do. hope this helps !#i just#i cant even relate to people IN MY OWN COMMUNTIY. like what#vent#arospec#bpd#chrissy !
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guys what if i.....stopped trying
#its so weird i have like a 61% in geometry aka a failing grade. and i just fucked up a test we did. and i genuinely dont care#or do i care and im just trying not to#i mean its my fault i failed i didnt stify#i have literally never had to before so idfk its hard to adjust maybe??#same with that chem quiz i totally fucked it up#i just. idk. whatever#all i wanna do is stay in my room and eat as much as i can and idkkkk#i probably do care cuz we have a test next week for chem and i might study for it#mm. but maybe not#hh ig i will cuz ik i should i just dont care idk. kinda tired all the time nowadays lol#im pretty sure i dont have depression btw i think this kinda sounds like it?? like the only thing im losing is my ability to care abt#things that would make me nervous or upset. i still get very overly excited over like a.ce a.ttorney or smth#idk but. yeah ive been pretty tired. maybe im just burnt out i think im being dramatic lol all my problems are very self inflicted#yeah. sorry its sad girl hrs ill delete this later#vent#misty muses
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I've been replaying skyrim and- "Uh oh, Aph! Are you getting philosophical about a mid game that you've played 80 billion times now?" Yes, of course I am. Now, my take of the day is Astrid gets a bad rap in the fandom
If you have personal qualms for whatever reason with her (Cicero fan, upset she got everyone killed, her voice, whatever it may be), that's totally fine! However! I just finished the dbh quest line again, and she's honestly not as terrible as we've been painting her, I feel.
When you first join, she's pretty attentive - clearly keeping an eye on you because you're new, but as you prove yourself and she can worry less, she seems to almost losen up. I do think she asks you to do things that she wouldn't ask anyone else because she's testing you or because you're new and she's not as attached yet, but its clear she has some kind if concern for you and your safety. Especially when the Nightmother incident happens, and she thinks Cicero might have attempted to hurt you. Then shit hits the fan (in her eyes)
Now, here's something that might sound strange - I don't think she decides to sell you out until the last possible minute. Why would she ask you to find her husband otherwise? Why would she keep sending you out to further the plot against the emperor and keep rewarding you? These are shows of trust- and while maybe some could be seen as implicating you further as the sole thorn in the side of the emperor, again, why send you to kill Cicero- to help Abjorn? Someone she loves and cares for deeply? Why not send someone more experienced?
I think maybe her paranoia ramps up after the Cicero incident for sure- she gets more flighty and decides right around when you are going to kill the emperor, when things are seriously about to change, does she panic. I mean, imagine you've led a group for years and some stranger you brought into your family like last week, and a jester who brought a sacred corpse with him is claiming the stranger is supposed to be the faction leader and the only one who can hear the dead lady's voice! That's a shit deal! What the fuck!
If something goes wrong, everything will go wrong. She's probably not had a lot of control in her life previously (note: her story about her uncle making "unwanted advances" makes me think maybe it's something that had been happening and she finally decided to kill him after snapping but she definitely glosses over it very quickly in favor of being murder happy which is understandable) and now that control is once again slipping and everyone else can see she's paranoid (multiple members comment on it if you talk to them before hopping in the Nightmothers coffin the first time) so it's not a big surprise that you, the threat to her status quo and control, seem like the one to take out
And it all goes to shit! And she seems so desperately and genuinely sorry on her death bed - everyone she loved and cared for is dead, mind you. This is a woman who has lost everything and is now begging to die for a greater good and a desperate apology to you and to the people she's hurt. The game clearly doesn't want you to forgive her (based on the dialog options it presents), but i wish we could at least say something kind. But I that might just be me
#skyrim#skyrim dbh#dark brotherhood#skyrim astrid#theres worse betrayals in the game that people seem to be more okay with being real#cant imagine why astrid is heavily demonized. who knows.#shes a woman who isnt automatically nice to you and doesnt like a male favorite in the community#so thats probably part of it#the dbh has such clear care for each other though so is hard to imagine her as an outlier#i think she just fucked up and payed the ultimate price#its not her fault shes a faction leader in skyrim and is therefore doomed by the narrative by default#i cant imagine doing what she did but i would probably have been more petty if i was her tbf#abjorn is pretty petty at you until you go out and help him in cure for maddness#then hes like 'heg man you dont suck im just kinda a dick its my bad. thanks for lookinf out for me“ and then he dies like a quest log later#idk maybe im bias because im tired of fandom sexism as a transman who likes when women are people and mean sometimes
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did anyone want this? no? sorry.
#cw blood#my favorite punching bags#this is kind of a mess but about half way through drawing the little irosana i realized i had more thoughts about this that i thought#was supposed to just be iroha going through it but oh well#idk if they end up with mikazuki or not eventually. i wanna say they do but also idk#they probably do. probably. maybe#yea they swapped necklaces. what about it#also uh. the hospital trio are. probably dead. or maybe not. maybe they did something weird and crazy and made a cult again and live somehow#its not actually mitamas fault btw idk maybe like a human kyubey did it or something#magia record#iroha tamaki#sana futaba#can i even tag this as#im gonna anyways i think#irosana#kinda. sorta.#oh yea futaba family is dead and gone btw. died day one. so very tragic
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