#idk im just exhausted man
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it's been kind of tough to strike a balance between being interested in both feminism and girly girl pop culture shit this year. the pinkwashing and commercial feminism are just reaching such a fever pitch that we're swinging back around into a new, more exhausting form of misogyny where women's appearances, attitudes, and actions are turned into political statements and strict gender roles become standards by which to measure someone's dedication to femininity. it's almost becoming like more feminine = more feminist
#i cannot blame barbie for this but it is a big reason that i think trying to turn barbie into a feminist icon in the first place#is a flawed premise#this all feels like an evolution of choice feminism#like women's choices = feminist statements therefore the more women who like something the more feminist it is#it doesn't actually make any sense but it's super marketable which is how choice feminism got so big in the first place#and now we've got people almost unironically believing that hating taylor swift makes u a misogynist#idk im just exhausted man#i liked the barbie movie and i fucking love taylor swift#i just wish i could do those things without quite so much scrutiny and fighting about them#why are we all doing deep literary criticism on this shit can't i just like a movie or a pop song#enough with the marketing and enough with everyone i know buying into it#let's all go struggle to read some judith butler and maybe we'll calm down#bri babbles
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I’m ace, aro and tired
Reblog if you are also LGBT+ and tired
#idk reblog if you’re just tired man#cuz I’d be exhausted even if I wasn’t aro ace#tired#aromantic#asexual#ace#aro#im tired#lgbt#lgbtqia
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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.
except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?
at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.
except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.
about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.
he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.
#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag#writeblr#it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal#fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy#im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind#and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes#2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh#im sure there are people who have this experience normally#but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists#when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful#once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large#but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes#but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes#people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism#but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY#and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in#i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change#was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL
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Btw just want to be clear that Time and Time Again is set to, and will if I don't pause, conclude in May 2025!
Webtoon didn't want to renew or give me any extra episodes so I'm trying to work with what I have. I'm sorry it's ending sooner than I'd like, it's been difficult to come to terms with and challenging to condense my plans.
You deserve a solid conclusion, and I've spent months writing to try and reach that. If there's anything you'd really like to see before it ends, do let me know in case I can (and want to) fit it in.
I'd rather not work with them again, and I hope I won't have to! But coming off of years being overworked and underpaid does not make that easy, to say the least...
I'm doing my best, and I hope you like what I have coming up.
#years of being overworked. underpaid. and literally manipulated and gaslit lmfao#it does not feel good to beg to be treated equally. and then told to be satisfied with less than that#it has been repeatedly demoralizing and insulting#and im not doing it again#i would rather nanny again (most exhausting job ive ever had) than work with them again#but. i would rather not!#I'd rather continue to make comics#but to do it full time i would need like 500 patrons on the $5 tier minimum...#which is SO MANY PEOPLE and incomprehensible to me#ive already proven to myself i can live on 25k a year but obviously its tight (i live in socal)#this. is not what this post is about#it's so hard for me not to complain about them#i feel bad for my current patrons i only share stuff on discord as of right now#well i do the merch packages but like#it's mostly just my discord#just dont have the time or energy to manage my patreon#cause idk if yall know but patreons site is TERRIBLE from the creator side???#it takes like 5 minutes to upload a single post it's ridiculous#so i cant manage it rn. I've thought about hiring someone to help me with it but i cant afford any help#anyways ultimately this is informing people its gonna end#and is turning into a vent around all of the stress surrounding that#like i literally had to take a couple months to just be sad its gonna end and come to terms with that#its hard! it's hard feeling so tossed aside and having your stories controlled even in part by someone else#anyways yeah#i havent finished writing the last arc yet#so theres space for me to fit stuff if theres something people really want#so id like to get in what i could if i can!#text post#sorry i always turn any thoughts about comics into vents about webtoon#theyre so ass man..... it's fine. im gone in may...
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brodinsons AU where they are both acting the entire time the plot occurs. They both know both sides of what is happening at all times.
#brodinsons trying to plan a way to preserve both of them and it just keeps getting more and more difficult#like Loki tells Thor his arm went blue in the fight and Thor is like. oh. we SHOULD leave. and Loki is like yea u distract i'll get everyon#Thor hand Loki having a mind link of some sort idk like Loki falls and that genuinely wasn't meant to happen but then the link doesn't die#Thor knows Loki is being tortured with Thanos and Loki knows Thor is stuck on Asgard#Loki tells Thor to be Odin's favourite until the man dies and Thor convinces Loki to 'just attack Earth then'#they act out the 2012 movie#Loki goes to prison and is like ugh just leave me here \(´O`)/#and Thor is like okay fine but only until father dies. BUT THEN THE ELVES ATTACK#they get out and pretend to be at odds#Loki dies#Loki wakes and is like hey im alive im going after Odin and Thor is like i'm a LITTLE BUSY FIGHTING FOR THE UNIVERSE!!!#and Loki is like mmmmmmm doing it now#Thor finally wins and is like whew im so exhausted........... loki? you there?#and Loki is like. well yes. im here. in Asgard. you should come back! Odin is gone btw#Thor: where did he... go...#Loki: aged care home#Thor: ........................................... *cackling*#Loki: :D#Thor: got em good
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i said it over on twitter but i‘ll say it here too! it‘s crazy to me that not even smth as little as a bit of banter about meljay can stay exclusively about meljay w/o being co-opted by jayvik or meljayvik at some point? like imagine i‘d go to a jayvik screencap tweet and comment "aww that‘s how he looks at mel"… that would get me ripped to shreds.. like the times i had comments or tags on a meljay post trying to swap her out??? wdym you‘re (figuratively speaking) swapping mel out on the mel post?? at this point if they actually do the pregnancy plot i‘m just gonna call it now and say general fanon will be vik raising mels child while she runs off to be evil woman™
#kds.txt#arcane#meljay#onlymeljay#sorry for ranting but i feel like#no fandom has made it its goal to completely erase the woman that is right there in the picture#and replace it w smth else#im talkinh quite literally about the little spoon screenshot#but honestly that sentence works in a wider general sense too#idk man its just exhausting when youre excited to look a little and read a little about the ship you like#only for people to use it as an opportunity to make it about smth else instead#maybe engaging w fandom was a mistake asdgjhsfk
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some of you guys post on here like.
LOOK at the campaign promises youre being STUPID if you cant understand the clear great option in this usamerican election year:
view of: TRUMP BIDEN
finding atlantis ❌ ✅
UBI** ❌ ✅
genocide ✅ ✅
“trans rights” ❌ ✅
cars 5 movie ❌ ✅
ending gravity ❌ ✅
just LOOK at the list its all right there the obvious right answer because politicians never lie and we have NO term to look back on to showcase whether or not thats true so just VOTE BLUE!!!!
#idk man. im exhausted.#kora.txt#sorry if the formats fucked on desktop im on mobile idk#im not telling you not to vote for what you can stomach. im not telling you its pointless. im telling you#that you are being fed bullshit and youre just spitting it up to feed everyone else too#and its not making a good point when demonstrably bidens campaign promises have not been upheld#try to make a legitimate point at leaaaast.
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Nobody:
My dumbass: crying because my friend just said the dragon from Minecraft is a mom and you gotta kill her
#pix habla#i keep forgetting#idk why I’m even crying the tears just keep dripping out my eyeball help#minecraft#man im exhausted
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my fav genre of men, the type who lose their breaths and stand there in their spot like an idiot for a good minute or two because their woman/the one they’re pining for looks absolutely drop dead GORGEOUS in their armory
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#nobu.nobu.chat#listen; i know the whole ‘man sees his love interest and loses his breath’ has been overdone to exhaustion especially in romance movies#ESPECIALLY when the love interest (most of the time a woman) steps out in full makeup and dresses and frills#which i have nothing against#i too feel gorgeous as a woman when i dress in dresses makeup and frills#but the different thpe of FLAVOR it gives when the man loses his breath because the woman is rocking a full armor#YES PLEASE#it just feels so.. tender in a way#because their love interest has nothing except their heart bared out to the man#and he accepts it and loses his breath and offers his own heart in return#it could also be bc this form of very fewly shown ‘losing breath’ scene is bc it feels like a hit back to the misogynistic undertones#idk or maybe im still salty bc i saw that fucking dumbass do the nazi salute#genuinely what an embarrassment
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hi, if you don't know me, Im Bee, I've got plenty of disorders, but I'm just going to be talking about DID and NPD in this post.
DID and NPD fucking HATE each other, I'm screaming man (hyperbole)
its so... ANGER inducing when i have a vivid memory of one thing and someone tells me that it actually happened completely differently; that my perspective/memory is wrong
NPD immediately gets flared, because how dare you assume that i, ME, the one and only, doesn't know my fucking shit
the issue is,, as a system, THERE IS NO GUARANTEE THAT I DO KNOW MY SHIT
memories get mixed around and so blurry that its often pointless to figure out what actually happened but of course NPD doesn't care, it just wants to be seen as superior, i have to be on top somehow
its just ,,,,,,,
AAAUUUGGGGHHHHHHHHH
yknow?
~ Unsure ~
#npd#trauma#actually npd#narcissistic personality disorder#actually narcissistic#osdd did#did#augh#aughhh#im a mess#idk man im just exhausted#screams#system vent#amnesia#violent anger#rage issues
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#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting#with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy#and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because#your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED#OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered#being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal#anywaysssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and then she was like why are you crying?? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this#can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws#worries#and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please#also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up#in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite#but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying#you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents#but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents#not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up#that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY#you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard#i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation#and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far
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Made another spindle. It's very small. Also very irregular and lumpy due to the wood (I wanted the raised brown lines to stay and erred on the side of caution in how much I cut away...but that did lead to a very irregular spindle).
It also wanted to crumble as I carved, so pretty much all the fine tuning I just did by sanding it, which helps to compress the fibers down as well as remove material without crumbling or splintering.
It really came to life when I oiled it. Probably will be best after a few good coats and some time. My woodburning kit seems to be totally gone, which is a bummer. So I'm not woodburning anymore.
Spins well. Obviously being so tiny and light it was always going to be a fine spinning spindle, but effortless thread from an unprepped piece of fleece is pretty indicative as well. I seem to find myself carving mostly thread spindles at the moment. They're always so small and light in the hand, they remind me of holding baby birds.
#hurt a lot and its the only physical task ive managed today in any capacity#and it exhausted me and im falling over frequently#just from walking the 20 steps to my lawn chair outside the gate and whittling a small spindle#my sister was suggesting activities we could do but they all require holding things really#can barely even hold my phone to type rn#i also cant stop wondering if each spindle is the last i will ever be able to carve because they are so difficult#and take a pretty heavy toll on me. really upsetting to think about because i love whittling#and in an ideal world i would spend a significant amount of time in pursuit of making spindles#but i can't and each one is more difficult and painful#this one i was wondering at what point it becomes unsafe because i lose precision with the knife#when the pain is so bad im dissociating#which i was#switched to sanding instead then#idk man. could i have a shred of certainty about my body ? is that so much to ask for ?#things change and get worse so rapidly i never even have time to adjust to my new norm#there is no norm just rapid decline#i wouldnt have pushed thru the hell that was my teens and childhood if i knew this was what was next#oh well. here i am. whittling spindles thru the blinding pain anyway#what else can you fucking do#spindle making#whittling#supported spindle#vent in tags
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this is a stupid pet peeve but idk. 'Cooking is an art baking is a science ' is bullshit. you can follow a baking recipe step by step mirroring the original cook Exactly and still get a crap end result.
this is because your kitchen is not their kitchen. unless you live very close to them, their ingredients might be Radically different from yours even if they're technically the same thing. and worse of all. even if you're roommates. if they made their thing first the conditions will be different when you make yours.
like. baking is just ratios. ratio of starch to water to binder to leavener to etc etc.
But you have to include things like. ambient humidity and temperature and where the crop your flour is from was grown and what strain of yeast your using and when your starch was harvested and what the cows and chickens who provided the eggs and dairy were fed and what microbes exist in your environment and how thety hurt or aid flavor and rise time. like. You have to know how to account for the messy nature of reality and there is no formula for that. just repetition until you figure out the flow.
#like. idk man#i need recipes to be geo tagged because like.#here in the states our wheat has to be extremely cold hardy right? way more so than europes#it also needs to be able to handle like. tornadoes and other extreme weather you get that far inland on a flat plane#which means that compared to European flour ours has an insanely high glutin content bc glutin is how the plant strengthens itself#You need to account for that when cooking#more leavener more water less binder gentler kneading and longer rise time#so like. im brain dead exhausted but Yeah. baking very much isnt a science and your great grandma did just fine without a hyper accurate#gram scale being shilled by YouTubers.
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idk personally i dont think its incompetent or bad of a team to realise these problems BEFORE the race. they're trying hard to fix them as quickly as possible. y'all would have had a much bigger issue if this had happened DURING the race. i have faith. i trust them.
#also we're at the end of a triple header.#idk man. the exhaustion must be insane.#the way we all jump to the negative so quickly here is what makes us all stress sometimes.#peace and love just go with the flow we move etc#idk maybe im just more chill
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#vent#my art#this also happened (again)#pmatga ocs#peony#i am. so freaking tired#like i'll be fine. its just im mentally and physically exhausted.#i really want to take a break from the internet as a whole and go off the grid for a bit. but I cannot.#my lifestyle is built around being online (Like all my friends are online) so i cant just. get up and take a break.#or at least it feels like I cant.#herrmmmm idk man this feeling is weird. i wanna grow out of it
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The Athena themes coming through in Odysseus were GORGEOUS like hello
#epic the musical#the ithaca saga#idk i see it like Hades#the game#for clarification#and shes like guiding his strikes to make sure they meet their mark#cause bro i love you but Odysseus just got out of fighting Poseidon#and before that he was sailing ALONE through a storm#and fought Charybdis#this man had to be exhausted im surprised he could string the bow#no way was he making every shot accurately
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