#idk if it's actually an issue or if it's my autistic brain talking
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bear-cubs-art-things · 9 months ago
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is it healthy to think that everytime my parents summon me downstairs that I'm gonna get in trouble, yelled at, or grounded? Asking for a friend
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saltiecattoz · 2 years ago
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i just realized there’s no way for people to know i’m a “furry” on instagram unless you looked at my carrd which means they read this:
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… bro
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uh oh the cracker conservative snowflakes found me on instagram 🙈 i’m so scared guys 🥺🥺🥺
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awkwardandeccentric · 3 months ago
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I think we need to talk more about how Stolas is figuring out how his actions affect others virtually by himself.
He’s actually great at taking accountability. The two times he hurt Octavia and she acted out, he didn’t get angry, he didn’t bring the gavel down. He hugged her and apologized. When he made Blitz cry, he (after getting black out drunk) rolled up his sleeves and got to work on getting that Asmodeon Crystal. Even when confronting Stella, he said, “I’d feel bad if I hurt you…” Despite everything she’s done to him, he still doesn’t want to hurt her; he just wants her away from him.
I think it’s important to note that Octavia and Blitz never actually told him calmly and pointedly why they were upset. You can argue that’s not Octavia’s job and you’d be right. She’s the child and he’s the parent. It’s on him to figure that out. But Blitz? That’s a lot more of a grey area. Blitz has no issue rebuffing Stolas, snapping at him, denying his advances, calling him names…but actually sitting down and having a serious conversation about the OTT flirting and the microaggressions? He's not there yet. Because if Stolas tells him that his feelings aren’t valid and he’s a walking, talking toy for the upper class (like Blitz fears he would), he couldn’t take that.
And the final thing he has to take accountability for will be the racial bias. Which is gonna take a while, because someone (who is not Blitz at this point, as Blitz took a match and gasoline to whatever bridge he had left with Stolas) is going to have to sit him down when he’s not on edge and explain to him what he’s doing wrong.
And I can relate to this a lot as an autistic person because I cannot tell you how often my social faux pas are chalked up to maliciousness on my part instead of my brain being wired differently. And how often this kinda…wears on me. I get snapped at and talked to like I’m less than a person on an almost daily basis because I ask a clarifying question or repeat instructions back to make sure I got them right or use innocuous phrases like “sounds like a plan” when I agree with something.
I don’t know where I’m going with this. I guess…idk…maybe give the autistic people in your life a little more grace. We’re trying, okay?
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the-eldritch-it-gay · 8 months ago
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The thing with my psych being like “I think it might be trauma instead of psychosis” is like. Yeah, I don’t disagree that trauma has no doubt played a role in my mental state. But like, my biggest trauma was childhood neglect, how lingering trauma from that cause intense hallucinations (audio/visual/tactile) and the firmly held belief that people want to hurt me and are watching me and spying on me and tracking me?
You could try and say “well the social paranoia and isolation can be from being bullied when you were younger, that’s traumatic too!” and sure I don’t doubt that that was traumatic either but the social isolation and beliefs have worsened significantly as an adult whereas during my time being bullied and shortly after leaving school I actually had many friends and talked with people regularly whereas now I’m a complete shut in and have 0 friends face to face or that I speak to regularly.
“You’re too aware of your thinking and issues to be psychotic” idk maybe the fact that I’ve been in psychotherapy for like what more than 13 years straight, including time in year round treatment centers where the only thing I’m being taught is about analyzing my own thinking and feelings and developing coping strategies has something to do with that?
I just think it’s a little frustrating to finally have the courage to talk about how I’ve been struggling with hallucinations and paranoia and have no real relationships and feel like I can’t trust my own brain and that I can’t tell what’s real all the time to the extent that it’s interfering with my ability to work and making me a complete recluse and it’s steadily been getting worse since I was a teenager despite consistent medication and treatment for anxiety and depression and trauma. And people are like “Well you might just be autistic, that can cause people to have weird stuff. Plus you have PTSD and that can cause some hallucinations and hyper vigilance and depression. And you have a job so it can’t be psychosis” like why the fuck am I even trying. I was genuinely trying to actually get help for once in my life because I’m struggling but I guess they’ve deciding that despite my earnest pleas for help that I’m not struggling enough for them to consider idk having me even screened for psychosis?
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hismercytomyjustice · 2 months ago
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Today’s therapy session went a little like this…
Therapist: You have to feel and acknowledge your feelings.
Me: no, 💖
But in all seriousness… Yet again found myself being like “Yay, the OCD spirals have been almost nonexistent lately!”
Only to, in the middle of talking to her about something, realize “…oh shit, my drive for perfectionism is another OCD spiral isn’t it..?”
My Therapist: ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧
GODDAMMIT.
But I also found out last week (when I finally saw a psychiatrist at my therapist and doctor’s behest) that the typical dose for OCD of my current meds is 2-3x higher than what I’ve been on for the past like two years. Apparently that dose was more suited to “generalized anxiety” and not, in fact, for “OCD brain ghosts.”
So that’s getting bumped up. And my Adderall is probably going to get bumped up too. It hasn’t been doing much for me for a while now and I’m on a really low dose for it.
The psychiatrist also said we need to figure out whether or not I have autism because that’s going to greatly impact what she prescribes. Basically she wants to help me rather than medicate my brain into submission lol. Which I def appreciate!
I also met with the autism specialist my therapist recommended (whaaaat having OCD means you’re more likely to have autism???) who kept asking me things and was just giving me very “uh huh” looks the whole time accompanied by “Yes, that’s an autistic trait. That too. And that.”
But like, she’s asking me questions to sort out stuff like special interests and I’m just like what qualifies as a special interest and not a hyperfixation or a normal amount of interest? What is a normal amount of interest?
Same with questions like “are you a picky eater.” Like, what does that mean? By whose standards? What is the scale we’re working with here?
It does not help that a good chunk of my family and friends bare minimum at least have ADHD. Because I’m sitting there comparing myself to them and I’m pretty sure it’s a bit of a “Spiders Georg” situation.
Like…what is a normal amount of research when it comes to things you’re interested in? Because I don’t know everything about Mount Everest. But for like a month or so there, I was trying to learn everything I could about it. Wouldn’t that be a hyperfixation then? But I only eased up because I wasn’t coming across much in the way of new info, so IDK.
Same for like…what is considered a normal amount of liking a particular piece of media? Doesn’t everyone have stuff they enjoy and want to learn more about? And like…there are plenty of people who know more about POTO than I do. Not among my immediate friends and family, but I’ve seen them out on the internet. I know they exist.
What’s an ADHD level of sensory issues vs an autism level? And what’s an OCD level of liking things to be the same way vs an autism level? (╯°□°)╯
She can’t give me a formal diagnosis, as she does more like…autistic life coaching, but she did say she has someone she recommends for full blown testing if I want to get a second opinion, so that’s something I can consider.
It would just be the bee’s knees if my OCD didn’t keep sending me into spirals over this. I have had multiple qualified people tell me I probably have it now, and the ONE person who I got an actual assessment from (who never met me because she was just the assessor’s supervisor) is the only one who’s like “eh, not enough.”
Which just keeps sending me in “it’s not autism, it’s just the perfect combo of OCD and ADHD to make people think you have autism” loops.
God it’s so fucking annoying being in my brain sometimes.
Most times.
All the time.
But hopefully over the next few weeks I can get a solid answer on that front one way or another so I can stop ruminating on it. Whaaat reassurance seeking behavior??? In this economy?!
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the-grim-and-sanguine · 1 year ago
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Writeblr? Introduction? IDK
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Hi y'all! I'm a dumbass who forgot that if I deleted my main blog that all side blogs connected to it will also be deleted! So blogs I've had since before 2017 are now gone and I'm the only one to blame! I'm not upset at all /sar.
ANYWAY, here's my FRESH and NEW blog! I know a lot of y'all (if anyone reads this) will know that you'll get a different viewing experience depending upon where you read this but the image included above is what my blog looks like on the web!
ANYWAY! Y'all can call me Concerned (cause I'm concerned about everything all of the time) and I've been using Tumblr for...too long. But I've only been on the Writeblr side since 2019? My partner talked me into it. I was never super active but that's cause I'm an anxious person who doesn't know how to do a proper interaction. But I'm working on that! More about me under the cut!
I'm 25, and (unfortunately) unemployed due to the many (many) things wrong with me. Physically wise, I deal with vertigo and some hyper-mobility issues. Mentally, I got the depression (w/ psychotic features), anxiety, and PTSD.
I'm also Autistic! And currently struggling with autistic burnout (going on two years? I think?).
Outside of writing, I like to game (mostly Overwatch and Genshin Impact, but I have other games I like to mess with) and play with my dog, a giant fluff monster with two brain cells.
Bleh
My WIP's that I need to write for more:
Blink City - superheroes x influencers x monsters?
Foray - sci-fi fantasy? Think vaguely Nimona? Flying cars mixed with magic and royalty? Focuses on growing up and healing from trauma
Sanguine - it's a mix of paranormal fiction and realistic fiction? Focuses a lot on loss of memory (kinda) and identity, as well as healing from trauma
ALSO ALSO If you have made it this far (thank you if you have) - the DO NOT CLICK button on my fancy page does ACTUALLY WORK and the link will be updated MONTHLY (if and when I remember) so if you want a funny/memey YouTube video please check it out!
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If you can figure out what this photo and my blog have in common you get a sticker ⭐.
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mcclintcock · 7 months ago
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Jonah hcs plz 🤭
he was also a lifeguard and swimmer as a teenager (part of my elaborate athletic rivalry headcanons dont worry abt it,, also just so tall he's probably a 50 free and 100 free state champ tbh)
he is autistic and brain damaged, i thought maybe he had dyscalculia but in helsinki it looks like he's actually pretty good at the math stuff ? idk that ones up in the air for me
the math teacher stepdad was okay but i think his other stepdads were rly shitty, his mom also probably had some mh issues that like caused her to seek out shitty men and all that clearly affected jonah
i feel like he was poor growing up like his mom has decent money now based on her house but i feel like most rich kids would've gotten braces if they had an underbite he clearly didnt? but i also know ppl who are over like 35 now and grew up rich wouldnt have gotten braces anyways sometimes. and the giant weird portrait of him in his moms house is also like a rich kid thing i feel like? i am not well acquainted w 20th century economics or the new hampshire housing market so idk. whatevs
i go back and forth on whether he was popular in school i can see it either way but him being bullied and also him being super popular are both my headcanons i guess
he is not In the manosphere but he in the periphery in like s1 the way he talks about women being eights or whatever makes me think he does. mewing or whatever. he almost gets into bonesmashing but richard dissuades him
he has a stupid fast metabolism in addition to just being really tall and he is literally always eating something like he is rarely seen eating in the show but i feel like 90% of the time he has some food in his hand or in his mouth
before selina knew . his personality. she def had a crush on him (maybe still does kinda sorta) basically canon when she first meets him in the flashback
that's all i can think of right now but i have so many
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nerves-nebula · 7 months ago
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tw for like. Chronically Online nonsense & talk of csa stuff. i have fallen into a rabbithole and wanted to share it with u because it’s fucking insane and i feel like im losing my mind
so holy shit i just stumbled across the “radqueer” tag and that. i don’t. i truly have no idea how to react to whatever’s happening over there aside from complete and total bewilderment?? literally i’ve been making some serious progress in coming to terms with and trying to heal from repressed csa stuff so to open tumblr and see people saying they are ‘transtrauma’ and ‘cistrauma’ along with Everything Else in that tag. i feel like my brain has been turned to soup. maybe i am making it up maybe my dad didn’t actually molest me and im just insane idk but at least im not doing Whatever’s happening over there
i'unno about all that cuz my understanding of radqueer was that it was radical queer acceptance so they get a little wacky (said affectionately). im not really sure what that has to do with trauma but i dont wanna like, be a dick about it just cuz i don't understand it?
like i didnt understand ppl who said they were autism gender at first but i get it now. being autistic can really change how you think about gender since it's a social construct and you might just not Get Gender, to the point that it's inextricably linked with your self identity so its like. yeah your gender is autism. whatever.
i dunno what the trans or cis dichotomy has to do with trauma and my first instinct is to say hmmm that sounds.... not real.... but since i don't know what they're talking about and i don't care to learn i figure i'll just leave 'em to it. what does it matter to me so long as they're not making it my issue. i try not to commit to my knee jerk reactions of "that's stupid" cuz that's how you fall into reactionary thinking and at the end of the day it doesn't really bother me if people are fucking around doing shit i will never understand in parts of the internet i am not a part of.
anyway onto the important stuff:
if you can't tell if your dad molested you or not you've probably got *something* going on so I'd say don't freak out about if it Actually Happened or not and instead focus on attending to the emotions you have about it. to be blunt i don't really think it matters if it happened or not.
if you are "just insane" or you had a traumatic dream as a kid where your dad molested you and it effects you to this day then that's just as serious an issue to work on, at least it is to you personally. like if you had a delusion that your dad molested you that seems pretty traumatic regardless of what actually happened. idk if that makes sense?
ok i need to stop avoiding my homework. byeee.
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sylsaccount · 1 month ago
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rare ramble post
it is so hard to be like. yes i am a trans woman. yes i believe that i am biologically male. yes i hate males and i am literally kam about everything. yes i do not think of myself as a man but if someone were to ask me "does kam include all male people in general" i would say yes bc its kind of biased for me to say no and i dont think its worth it to spend the resources to figure out the like 0.001% of good ones. not that kam is a thing i realistically believe in just like. theoretically you know. idk.
its weird trying to live mostly separatist but not earnestly being part of the group u wanna separate with you know? and like. i literally dont believe in gender yet i am a gender haver. that is simplifying it for sure, its not like the way i think about things isnt consistent, but on the outside it seems like i dont make any sense. i dont get along with most rad-aligned ppl for obvious reasons, and i dont get along with other trans people for obvious reasons. ive met a lot of detrans folks lately that i get along with, but i am not and i doubt will ever be detrans myself.
ig i should say i dont get along with trans women, not trans people lol. ive known plenty of trans men over the years, some of which have been close friends. the truth is 99% of trans women act "like males", at least in my experience. and like. i just cant deal with that lol
i just made a post saying im the only real gender abolitionist so its kind of funny that i say "like males". i am not a biological essentialist nor do i like calling behaviors "masculine" or "feminine". yet any woman reading this knows exactly what im talking about. even the ones that claim to be the "good ones" that are "actually women" etc. are walking caricatures. if i have to see one more instance of that hsts slaaay yassss motherrrrr i love sabrina carpenter shit i will blow my brains out (you are fortunate if you have not encountered this group. i personally find them just as evil as those knee sock programmer catgirldick types)
i cant help but wonder if someone similar to me from an outside perspective would judge me the same way, u know? a lot of my interests are stereotypically male, i am autistic, i am kind of an asshole. ofc at the end im always like. well i have actual feminist values and i cant stand males and i always prioritize women over everything so like. its just me being anxious over nothing i think.
this is mostly unrelated but ive also been thinking a lot abt the ppl who follow me. ive had an influx of followers as of late, but there r others who have followed me for a long time. its kind of funny looking through... i have ppl that i know for a fact hate trans ppl. me being trans is not something ive ever specifically hidden, but its also not something i bring up a lot. i just realized bc of that weird anon the other day that its the first time ive explicitly mentioned it on my blog in a couple years. i couldnt help but be worried abt it! at the same time, i have some old friends i dont rly talk to anymore... a couple of which, despite knowing that i am respectful towards other individual trans ppl and that i am not truly transphobic, im sure have taken issue with the types of things i reblog and strongly personally disagree. yet as im looking over who im following, it doesnt look like ive lost mutuals from either camp.
id like to talk to more people too. its hard to dm people for me, as i think it is for many people here. i have some mutuals i would love to talk with, but i am kind of an ass, and they are kind of an ass, and thats why we follow each other, so its like... they may not even wanna be bothered like that u know? i know what its like when u have some coworker or acquaintance u like well enough but then they start trying to be buddy buddy with u and they become a nuisance. i dont wanna be that!!! i am extremely misanthropic myself so its easy to imagine being on the other end
my friend group (some irl and some online) has a little discord group chat we use. we just added someone new and its been very nice. i really do love meeting new ppl when i vibe with them...
u could say. sylvia why dont u just go meet people irl. well, unfortunately, i cannot tell people irl that i have extremely regular homicidal fantasies and think 50% of the population should kill themselves. i cant rant abt all the dystopian shit i am subjected to on a regular basis, bc they dont view it as dystopian. i cant even discuss my own life and perspectives on things because SOMEONE is going to have their feelings hurt (despite me being the one who has trauma abt it -_-). on the computer there are lots of intelligent people with interesting lives who r also kind of losers and hate everything. i like those people.
i dont rly have a point on any of this. just thoughts ive been having.
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rosrets · 2 years ago
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what are these shadow ideas you speak of 👀
you have no idea what you've just wrought. sorry in advance but no i’m not
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SHADOW TIMELINE. i catalogue this in my mind when i draw him because i’m fucking crazy but i decided to draw it out because the doctors needed more reasons to lock me the hell up. this is essentially going to be me rambling about all my design notes for whenever i draw him + whatever else the fuck because i like to think about him existing a lot and pray for the day we get an actually good shadow spin-off (this will never happen)
baby shadow - was let out of his tube when he was about 10-12 years developed - lived on the ark for 5-3 years with gerald and maria and whatever other scientists were around. - he was totally nonverbal for a while and took classes to learn how to speak, this was great for the scientists though because the biolizard shockingly failed this . shadow was just autistic - really nervous and did not have a lot of confidence for the first like. year of being alive he hated being alone and always clinged onto whoever was closest to him
ark shadow - much more confident after getting closer with maria still quiet and fairly reserved but was not above playing some pranksandjokes. a bit of a trickster - chest fur, claws and quills maintained by maria. she liked cutting his chest fluff into a heart - rarely wore his air shoes on the arc because the sensation of  metal + metal sucks and he wasn’t supposed to skate in the hallways. sometimes wore socks when his paws got cold (often) sa2 shadow - garbage memory. turns out being frozen for 50 years does wonders for brain function - fur is more unkempt, has stopped maintaining himself - extremely bitter and cynical, not an outright asshole though and is not above friendly rivalry even if he’s trying to kill the guy he’s racing. he is also incredibly trusting and loyal, struggling to see when he’s being used (ref. eggman, rouge to an extent) - considerably more smug, all he really remembers is maria dying and the fact that he’s the ultimate lifeform but he doesn’t brag and still keeps to himself. - development of the autism scowl begins - once he remembers everything he very quickly regains his senses, developing immense respect for sonic as an equal, as well as a strong sense of selflessness. promptly fucking dies. heroes - shth05 shadow - doesn’t remember fucking anything and is almost constantly on the verge of like 4 different identity crisises - quills got burnt off falling from earth, as well as an ear shredded when he fell into a tree or something idk. he was put in stasis before it could heal which permently fucked it up - still not maintaining himself - eyes wide and full of wonder. still extremely gullible and easy to manipulate, very trusting. (ref. eggman, black doom) - hardly speaks (more talkative in shth05 though) 06 - onward shadow - remembers everything and its extremely overwhelming but he’s dealing with it - most reserved he’s ever been, very distrusting, rarely lets himself gets close to others and the only people he allows himself to drop his guard down around and be a bit more playful are rouge and omega. rarely sonic but this is only ever heat of the moment and never intentional - hates physical contact, easy to overwhelm if he isn’t focused, autism scowl in full force - very hygienic but still a bit overgrown - newfound fear of attatchment and loss, tends to avoid it at all costs, tending to push people away. still fiercly loyal to those who do gain his trust even if he’s garbage at showing it and prone to focusing on the wrong things extra - brown eyes. they look red or orange under some light. blame sonic prime - he still has tourettes i wasn’t bluffing on that but i don’t think anyone thought i was. his tics are usually pretty subtle and only team dark knows about it - prefers fingerless because he likes to be able to feel the earth directly when he touches the ground. something about chaos power + sensory issues - paw pads glow green any time he’s using chaos power (chaos control, super shadow, etc) - he motified his shoes a few times just to fit slightly better. this is only a note because i keep changing the way i draw them - almost always some kind of tired but insists he does not need to sleep that often because of how his chaos energy works. thjis is NOT true he’s just stupid and has nightmares that he doesn't like to deal with - lives at the casino rouge had in sonic battle - still has a really bad memory from being repeatedly frozen - really fond of snack foods. will rawdog an entire pack of saltines in under a minute if you don’t stop him - prefers skating even despite the speed because the shock from running is overstimulating - hates loud noises but still thinks guns and motorcycles are really cool. he can handle it if he’s the one making the noise - semiverbal . does not like to talk . there are several reasons for this - have i made it clear enough that he’s autistic?  he’s autistic BONUS - super shadow
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- stripes flare out to look more like stars (this applies when he takes off his inhibitor rings as well) - red gets much brighter, eyes glow red + yellow - unstable in this form, it does not come very naturally to him and exhausts him quickly. not able to  maintain it as long as sonic
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thepinkwool · 1 year ago
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I love how the Bad Batch fandom has collectively agreed that Tech is autistic. But am I the only one who strongly feels like Crosshair is too? Like the fandom is even like Tech and Cross are twins so even more closely related to each other than any other clone brother.
I’ll preface this by saying that I’m not officially diagnosed but am in the waiting process for it but my therapist tells me there is a very strong possibility of me being on the spectrum (with what was formally Asperger’s syndrome but please let’s not debate the usage of that word that’s not what this is about but I think Crosshair is on that side of it too)
I just think they’re on different areas of the spectrum. Maybe it’s just me projecting or reading too much into things. BUT. While I relate to Tech and just the way he is, I just understand Crosshair more. I don’t “get” people. I come off as cold, uncaring, my sarcastic dry humor (that’s usually just an observation but people count it as humor?) doesn’t land well sometimes. Just being more quiet, reserved almost, soft spoken, but definitely opinionated af and will get defensive about said opinions. Dude has some sensory issues for sure (light seems to be a huge one for him. He wears his helmet the most, next to Tech. And maybe it’s just his ✨enhanced sniper eyesight✨ but a lot of light genuinely seems to make him uncomfortable). He also is the least verbal of the group. Again that goes back to mentioning being “the quiet one”.
Idk I’m really bad at putting what’s in my brain into actual convey-able thoughts but. I can’t be the only one who thinks this? Just as someone who has always been the quiet one who struggles with almost everything socially I see so much of that in Crosshair. “Good soldiers follow orders” but also having an issue with authority when it seems arbitrary and stupid (the empire, especially after the end of season 1 and going into season 2). Rules and regulations exist for a reason and should be followed except when they don’t make sense is something that I function and live by and seems like Crosshair does too. He struggles to convey his emotions and feelings like tech does, but just a little different. And I get it. It clicks with my brain. He makes sense.
Crosshair being on the spectrum just. Makes sense.
Thank you for coming to my shitty unorganized TED Talk.
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I think. Words like gaslight and lobotomy and neurospicy should never have even made it online at this point. (Hyperbole) One TikTok musician wrote a song. Titled Neurospicy and it's so. Bad.
Im gonna break down why the song is bad. This is for education. Also bc im a little piss baby and I love complaing. Do not go harass her.
Disclaimers:
I am just a Tumblr user.
My opinions are whay they are because :
I am self diagnosed autistic. I did years of research. Many autistic people said "you are definitely autistic" If I don't have autism, I know I am at least neurodivergent. I know a lot about Neurodivergency from loved experience, mine and my (diagnosed ) friends. I read a lot of discourse on disabilities.
I cannot find confirmation if the creator is claiming to be neurodivergent or has a doctor or self diagnosis. I hate this song so much I really don't care if she does to be honest. Don't harass her tho.
This song is very obviously using neurodivergency for slang as adhd and autism. I'll try to use the most accurate language because it's improtsnt that people with NPD BPD and Schizophrenia and other disorders and disabilities are recognized as neurodivergent. Just a reminder that its their word/space too
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[Intro]
One, two, three, four
I might be a little spicy
A little bit neuro spicy
Isn't everyone a little bit spicy?
Spicy is better than bland
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-Oh god. I don't want to be like "oh all these adhd people are just trying to be trendy" bc they aren't. But you either are neurodivergent or not. You can't be a little spicy. If you are questioning, do research. Don't write a song about it for clout?? Again idk if she is but still the phrasing makes me upset.
The second line is literally just "well isn't everyone a little Adhd?" Like. C'mon. That minimizes the struggle of being fucking disabled. And living with that disability. If everyone was a 'little disabled' then it would just be a human limitation not a disability?? That's like basic abelism 101.
Third line, one neurotype is not better than the other. Being neurodivergent means your brain works differently. If we start treating all autistic/adhd people like they are better bc they're cooler and smarter, most adhd/autistic people that have higher support needs will be even more left behind. It feels like those "not a disability a different ability " or "actually autism js a superpower" No. Stop. If your autism makes you smart, goof for you, but I'm not gonna let high and medium support needs people be pushed even father aside. It is ok to be disabled, and we need to accept that.
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[Verse 2]
I have trouble with boundaries
A spicy little ginger man found me
He likes that I'm a little bit rowdy
He holds my sweaty hand
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Line one, I don't like that she says she's "a little spicy" and then immediately goes to "I have trouble with boundaries." If you can't respect boundaries, that's on you. I understand that neurodivergent people sometimes can have issues with boundaries like forgetting them or something, but it isn't a part of being neurodivergent. It's part of being human. Neurodivergent people are capable of respecting boundaries. Even if neurodivergency makes it harder to remember or respect boundaries, that isn't a silly little hehe, thats part of a disability that needs either work or some accommodation. This line doesn't have pure abelism in it, but I don't like the implications of it at all.
Second line, this is me being a hater but I genuinely thought she was talking about ed sheeran there for a second. Or a ginger bread cookie man. The phrasing of that was so odd to me
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Verse 3]
My brain and mouth don’t talk much
They don't usually sync up
So sometimes words I think of
Are louder and faster than I planned
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Nothing bad with this I just really dislike the music
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[Verse 4]
Einstein was a little spicy
Newton was a little spicy
Darwin, Edison, spicy
Imagine if they started a band
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Stop conflating neurodivergency / Adhd + autism with being good at shit. It's not just something that makes you good at things. It is likely that they had some neurodivergency and we should celebrate the accomplishment of disabled people. But this paired with the "spicy is better than bland" line just isn't giving. I can feel the "autism js a superpower" energy. Again I'm bitching on internet for fun but still
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[Outro]
It'd probably sound like
My doc says that I'm spicy
But even she's a little bit spicy
Isn't everyone a little bit spicy?
Spicy is better than bland (Two, three, four)
I might be a little spicy
A little bit neuro spicy
Isn't everyone a little bit spicy?
Spicy is better than bland (Wah, haha)
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I promise you your doctor did not say you were "spicy" bc that's. Giving mal practice. The line just pisses me off bc it does. Thay isn't how any of this works.
Second line. Stop headcannoning people as neurodivergent. Not everyone js a little bit neurodivergent.
Last couple lines are just the chorus.
Even if the writer has autism or adhd I'm begging them to read one or two disabled theory books or at this point even some Tumblr posts. This creator has a pretty big platform and it's disappointing to see really basic abelist bullshit from someone who could easily find resources on this topic or hire/ask someone for a sensitivity read.
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aliceramblesonnerdity · 1 year ago
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Ok so haul post let's go
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Batman and Robin 1
Batman: Gargoyle of Gotham 1
Batman 1 (reprint)
Robin II 1-4
World's finest (1990) #2
Batman: the Adventure Continues #3
Knight Terrors: Punchline
Ok so, some talk about these comics now. First off: yes. This was definitely the Batman week oh dear god. Thankfully I'm getting the good batman books.
Adventure Continues #3 was because I had the rest of season 3 besides number 3 and that felt wrong.
Batman and Robin I read and it was honestly such a good read. It's beautifully illustrated, funny, exciting, autistic sorry what? I will complain that Damian didn't look like Damian but instead like an AI generated Robin™ who was an averaging of all the male robins? Like I showed him to a friend who thought it was either Tim or Jason and I agree he looks way to homogeneised. idk.
Batman Gargoyle of Gotham, similarly, was amazing. Its a beautiful, exhilarating read that has a really great mystery behind it. The villain is... I don't even know. Is he cool? Is he whatever? Is he a knockoff Joker? I don't know, I'm going to give it a bit longer before I decide and cast judgement. But the book has been a superb read that really does look at Batman as a character, as well as the characters surrounding him, in an interesting way. It also looks at the whole "hey Gotham is kinda fucked with its whole inequality thing" a bit in the first issue, Bruce even saying to Jim that the GCPD are only there to protect the wealthy.
I'm collecting World's finest (1990) every week. I asked my store to add it to my box and to give me an issue per visit I make so I don't burn out reading it. It's a great read, again: running theme here of great art.
The bag you can't see well there due to glare is 1-4 of Robin ii, I actually recently picked up Robin iii: the cry of the huntress thinking it was this book's first issue (uni brain lol) so I was really excited to see this! Tho there is a mystery book inside, as there should only be four books but it came with 5 inside so... if anyone has any clue what that is, please tell me because I don't want to open the packaging.
Also hum Fucking hallelujah knight terrors is over and I don't have to read that shit ever again. The main stuff with Deadman and Sandman was good, and Ravager was interesting. But I really did not enjoy most of that run and I frankly just put Punchline's second issue into the box without reading it fully.
Very fun haul today, really happy with what I got. Cheers!
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fictionkinfessions · 4 months ago
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Canon disabilities... Well, everyone knows canon!Gale is likely autistic, and yeah. I probably was, too. The word and concept didn't really exist but there was a sort of understanding that "most wizards are just weird that way, like how most sorcerers have some form of mommy and/or daddy issues and most paladins have a savior complex of some form or another". I remember Astarion commenting "you really are a typical wizard, aren't you", he wasn't being mean or anything just, well, I'd been info-dumping to him and I think that was the moment he realized "oh, so the stereotype exists for a reason". Genuinely, there was no malice or even sarcasm in what he said, he was actually happy to listen to me for some reason (this was after the Absolute issue, while I was helping him in the Underdark, so perhaps he was just happy to be distracted from being separated from the sun while our companions found a way to settle that issue).
Halsin enjoyed actually engaging with me in discussions on the nature of the Weave and how it functioned, and he recognized when my brain began to kind of... Spin out, for lack of a better term (not entirely sure this is an autism thing, I'm undiagnosed but suspected in this life, too, and my brain does it again now but I've also had ADHD suggested as a possible diagnosis for me by a psychologist in a non-diagnostic but doctor-patient setting so Idk), it would almost be a form of overstimulation, and he'd gently suggest we sit down and have some tea. He always insisted on doing so in silence to "appreciate the music of nature" and tbh I appreciated him doing so. Him enforcing quiet gave my brain time to cool off and reset a little. So yeah. Thanks, Halsin.
My mother was excellent about it, other wizards obviously weren't dicks about it, but outside of that, Tara and the magma mephit were really the only ones who didn't judge me for being the way I was until the nautiloid incident. I will not include Mystra on that list despite her not saying or doing anything about my oddities for obvious reasons. Even Lae'Zel and Shadowheart weren't outright mean about it, they didn't exactly care to hear me prattling on about the Weave but honestly that's just who they were, they barely liked talking to Karlach who they both admired. They both cared far more about my prowess in battle than my social ineptitude and the odd sensory issue that came up, especially since the din of battle didn't affect me (though to be fair, I was never in the thick of it if it could be helped, so swords weren't clanging against each other right by my ears).
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jewlsiverse · 5 months ago
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I saw someone say that autism spectrum doesn’t mean everyone is on it and a little bit autistic; it’s that those of us who are autistic exist on like a color wheel of how traits present and the experience is individualized.
Anyways, so now I’m starting to think I’m autistic. I definitely have ADHD and am getting a diagnosis, but yeah I’m identifying too much with so much shared by autistic women I know and online.
These things were more prominent when I was younger, but I still feel them at times now. I’ve always ALWAYS felt on the outskirts of every social interaction I have and haven’t been able to understand why I don’t feel I’m able to cultivate a natural closeness to people like others can. I’m unpacking in therapy how I’ve just played my life by the rules everyone has told me to follow and it’s made me unhappy or I don’t understand when or why the rules change. I am trying to figure out what are my rules or the ones I want to follow.
Everyone says they want direct communication and then I directly communicate, but I’m either doing it wrong or it’s too much? I get told all the time that I have tonal and volume control issues even though I feel like I’m talking normally.
There’s a naivety I seem to carry in how I perceive other people’s interactions toward me wherein I don’t pick up that they’re interested in me, or like what the assumption is if a guy invites me over to hang out, or when somebody is mad at me or doesn’t like me, or when NT say they want to hang out but don’t actually want to hang out. My special interests as a kid were lowkey intense (idk how no body picked up on that) like I used to be known as the Harry Potter kid cause I could tell you what book and chapter a scene happened; I devoured DC (mostly Teen Titans, Batman, and Young Justice) content to an obsessive degree; I still have unhinged levels of marine biology factoids hidden in my brain. I’m a rocker, a leg bouncer, a snapper, a jewelry messer, a skin picker, knuckle popper. I’ve always just hidden my needs and these parts of myself from everyone, but especially my caregivers (something my therapist and I discuss regularly). Is it possible to have been masking so hard that you masked it from yourself????
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gnarlyeddy · 1 year ago
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ok there are squids where my brain should be so this is going here i guess also tumblr isnt letting me type question marks soo thats. something
i think that Bottom Feeders that all of them are really good friends if theyre being genuine. Tangle and Fin i think would beat each other up in school bc they both had anger issues and now they just think its really funny and play it up for shits and giggles. they all hate each other for show :) maybe theyre also a lil embarrassed about how much they actually care about one another a teensy bit,,
i think that Wet Floor all started out as online friends, but Mizole and Kagi actually went to the same middle school together (Kagi being a few years older than him) and Mizole thought they were the coolest ever,,, it was kindof a new thing for Kagi bc i think maybe they were kinda made fun of for being sorta developmentally stunted D:
^adding onto that, thats why i think Kagi's skin is blue, its just a common disorder where an inkfish wont be able to shift fully from swim to kid form, thus making both forms a bit unstable and their skin being their ink color,,,i think Kagi likes to freak the others out by changing their ink to be a different color and its like "holy shit theyre ourple,,,,,,," or smth idk skfhsd3fjdhsfhjk
Paul and Murch. best friends. forever,,!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
half the time Ikkan is just dry when talking cuz hes just like that, but the other half of the time hes just fucking with people and straight up lying. like "yeah man *the most deranged thing youve ever heard* happened yesterday did you not see. trust me"
for some reason i can see Murch and Harmony having a sortof rivalry or something IDK i think it would be funny when they were a bit younger than in splat3n hehe
Yoko can do a kickflip i know this in my heart
KITAMURA AND NISHIDA ARE BEST FRIENDS!!!! I KNOW THIS!!!! they are found siblings to me :DDDD
one more and the most mediocre one that i think is funny. to me Ichiya is autistic and he has a shit ton of chew necklaces because he constantly shreds them like hes so aggressive for no reason
it still wont let me type question marks where am i
OH MY GOD YESGGAGSGFGFHDHHRY THANK YOU TWIP FOR THE BASED HCS AUUU how is it that u completely read my mind for some of these . Bottom feeders fighting for fun and to let out stress meanwhile wet floor playing squid Roblox. AND AUGHH I need to think more about hte since they're the band I post about less of?? But yeah Nishi and kita practice together aaaall the time
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