#idk i’ll sort it out
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genuinely, being manic has completely fucked my brain up, even as i’m mostly recovered. feelings, i’m doubting, not even stuff i knew was probably fake, like actual feelings i thought very much to be true.
#loving someone but you can’t be sure if that love is genuine anymore#seriously doubting if any of it was real#i need confirmation and i know there’s a way to get it but i’m scared#of what i don’t fully know#of it not actually being real?#of having been delusional and thinking it was?#i don’t even know what to think anymore#idk i’m gonna get my head out of my ass at some point#but i’m also thinking about things in my life#and about whether this isn’t something that should be in my life#if it’s better to just move on?#but i also need closure but to get closure i have to do what i keep procrastinating doing bc i’m scared#do you see my problem?#idk i’ll sort it out#just going over everything in my life is causing me to reexamine *everything*#it’s like marie kondo but for people and habits#it sucks basically#but also is needed for my own mental wellbeing#so i need to decide what to do about this problem and actually strive to solve it because it’s not gonna get solved by itself unfortunately#i would just like to be relieved of this situation please and thank you
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redesigning my sillies again kfugjk
(They are still prone to change, I’m not sure if I want to keep some of their personality traits)
#my ocs#AGAIN NOT CUPHEAD OCS#my art#Estelle#dipper#cameo#I might even change their names idk#girlie I needa sort out their lore too#I’ll probably polish it soon or smth#speakin of#I haven’t even shared it with tumblr yet#might do that later
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So, I’m working on it…
Guys…ngl this oneshot is taking too much effort for me to write (I’ve been feeling unwell lately ngl) so unfortunately there won’t be a “Love Me Like A Rockstar” update this week because I really want to finish up this story. I’m sorry and I hope you understand! 🫶🏻
#just bvidzsoo things#i love the plot I have created for this story and i really want to finish it as fast as possible#so i won’t be updating anything else this week…as in the greek series and lmlar…so i hope you can understand#i feel bad for not updating lmlar but i just feel so stressed and tired and like…just mentally exhausted#and i don’t want to lose my creative streak bcz i absolutely love writing and writing with ateez has brought out the best in me#but idk…the stress i felt when i was close to finishing university had returned really BADLY probably bcz i applied to a master’s degree#and idk i just…i need a break but i also need to find a job and life feels a little too much atm#but don’t worry…my interview for the master’s degree is tomorrow so i’ll bounce back once this is over and i’ll be sort of stress free lol#ateez#ateez seonghwa#park seonghwa#seonghwa x reader
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Calling it now, we’re gonna have a parody of [S] Game Over but with Jane and her Crocker death laser as the batterwitch with her laser beams.
#this isn’t a fully fleshed out theory and idk if I’ll get around to actually posting my thoughts from the GC I was in but wanted to put#this out here as a sort of calling dibs on being right about my prediction#after all a good theory crafter sometimes just has to throw darts at a board and see what actually sticks and lands#I’ll write out a more well thought out post later but this is just a prediction#James Roach did say we were getting a flash soon#it’s either this or Dirk finalizing the players for his homebrew SBURB game#and/or kickstarting it; check out my other homestuck theories for info on that#but yeahhhh I’ll make a more detailed post later#if I remember to actually get around to it#mine#op#homestuck spoilers#homestuck beyond canon#hsbc#homestuck
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Forever and ever
#wip!! one direction fools gold came on while I was in the shower and listen… LISTEN#omg not me searching up anatomy references.. not me digging thru my unused anatomy ref folder 🫢🫢#I tried to give macaque straighter posture here on purpose based on the flashback. he seems more serious than Swk so I wanted to convey that#thru body language. although I am torn between one being taller than the other but I like giving them their own features so they stand out#ANDDD .l think I finally figured out how I want to draw their sideburns now sort of!! fuck their hairlines though I’m never gonna learn how#to draw that shit 🗿. I also have another drawing of mk based on one specific frame during his fight with azure. like he’s sort of crouching#crouching on all fours and leaning away from the camera like the Akira bike slide but as a monkey. idk how to describe it but I wanna see#how far I can go with that one. idk if I’ll finish it thought but it looks SO COOL in my mind#my art#myart#doodles#shadowpeach#lego monkie kid#lmk#monkie kid#lmk sun wukong#lmk wukong#lmk swk#lmk six eared macaque#lmk macaque#idk if this counts as#lmk s4 spoilers#Lego monkie kid season 4
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Larchpaw
She/her, 8 moons, cis molly
#Larchpaw#beetleclan#apprentice#clangen#warrior cats oc#kiri’s clangen#warrior#kiri's clangen#Wow i wonder who this mini Berrymurk is. Surely it’s not his one and only daughter#surely him and his daughter don’t have nearly identical sprites save for Larch having a slightly yellower tint and an apprentice pose#But to be so forreal the name Larch is actually really fitting becuase of that becuase larch trees are a conifer that isn’t an evergreen.#their needles turn yellow and fall off in the fall which fits because she’s just a little more yellow than her dad#I also made the pointy parts of her fur point down instead of up like the rest of her family just to show she doesn’t look all that much-#-like her grandma Gravelshock#She’s technically half-clan and her other parent is unknown so I like to think her other parent had droopier fur (though I have no one in-#-particular planned)#Anyways she’s sort of friends/rivals with Swallowpaw (who I’m planning on having as the starting POV for beetleclan) so expect to see and-#-read a lot of her whenever I get to the actual story part#I actually love Larch a lot she’s very cute I’m tempted to do her POV at least sometimes#but Idk#Also I’M FUCKING BACK!!!#can’t say how regular posts will be considering the computer I use to add the border afterwords is Wigging The Fuck Out Constantly and I-#-can barely use it but I’ve got one more cat queued after this at least so there’s that!#I can’t wait to get to the actual story I’m gonna do it in fic form with some illustrations scattered throughout instead of a comic (unless#-I feel like a specific moons needs a comic)#and I think I’ll put in on my AO3 which’ll be fun so yeah. I’m excited to finally get through all these designs hopefully over this summer#and I’m done with hs now so I can continue working on it during this next year because I don’t plan on doing college immediately!! So yeah-#-I’ve got a lot of time on my hands now and I’m excited to get back to Projects!!#I’m thinking of doing commissions on my main too (including warriors/clangen designs) so look out for that if you’re interested
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Aka Riders Lullaby from Centaurworld
Lay your head on my chest so I can sing you a lullaby and gently run my fingers through your hair until you slowly drift off to sleep 🥰🫶
#I got some microphones on a super good deal and I wanted to try it out 🥰#also I’m finishing centaurworld and I love it so so so so much#I got an ask recently#and I think it might have been the sweetest ask I’ve received#and that’s saying something#cause all of you guys are sweeties!!!#but basically they were complimenting my voice#and if you don’t know voice compliments are probably top tier for me#obviously love personality compliments and all that but voice compliments hit me fucking deep#I’m going to reply to that ask soon#just whenever I get a super sweet ask that BLOWS me away I need a little bit to recover and find the right words to say!#anywhoodedoodly#I was crying while I was driving and singing my heart out#and remembered my microphones!!#was gonna do some sort of heavy ballad but I’m too much of a perfectionist right now#gotta start small#idk if I’ll keep this up or I’ll remake it#cause I always feel like I could do better ya know??#me#mine#rosicheeks#singing
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spanish class is really making me rethink my pronouns huh. craaaazy things, crazy
#liek. idk. what if i added the he back………… what if i did#i like él in spanish. so. why not in english#my only hesitance is that last time i used he/they almost nobody used the they#and it felt like people just. Ignored the nonbinary of it all#urgh whatevar. whatevar!!#i’ll sort it out
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#idk#if the consensus is yes then i’ll post the announcement on monday#i didn’t wanna do it this week bc we’re all out of sorts
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do you ponder the manner of things? In the dark
the dark, the dark, the dark, the dark
#DHORT FUSE DOODLE!!!! BYIPPEE!!!!1!1!!1!1!!1!!1!1!!1!1!!1!1!#The colours look weird but I’m posting it anyway#if I don’t post stupid things I’ll die actually#tf2#art#short fuse#sort of#idk it’s just them in a drawing. Symbolism failing me here#It was supposed to be all symbolic but we’ll see how that turns out whoops#team fortress 2#tf2 fabart#tf2 demonan#tf2 engineer#because it isn’t a Quotidianish post without demoman tf2.#quotidianish
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ohhh tomorrow is halloween.
#I didn’t even noticed. It’s been rough out here.#I thinkkk I’ll post the bunny blog post today then. Yeah.#And maybe open up trick or treating?? It was fun last year. Idk yet. I’d want to stick to a theme of some sort#Also I missed rat anniversary and am sad abt it sorry. I really wanted to do something for it
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idk what these shoobs are talking about but, I only know me, including 9 other people will recognize this cunningham kid lol
#rc9gn#rottmnt#tmnt 2018#jpr sketches#I’m supposed to be resting from pms but I found a few blogs I really like at the moment and idk#I just really feel inspired by that energy ; w ;#I’ll probably draw howard hanging out with leo’s brothers as well once I’m done through that dreadful week but for now#I feel like my 9th grade self would jump for joy seeing this sketch because it’s a struggle trying to edit digital art with an old computer#and now I’ll just take it easy with this sort of sketching process before thinking about putting some money towards an art tablet and etc
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(NOT ATSV) my ideal miguel and miles friendship (bordering on enemies) dynamic is where Miles is sort of a Mean Girls figure where he’ll say the worst things to Miguel, who actually has no problems dishing that shit right back out, is usually too fed up or somewhere else mentally to reply. They fight a lot, more physically than verbally, usually in a slapstick comedy type of way. Miles is banned from Nueva York once a month and got a restraining order against Miguel in his own dimension. His parents fucking hate him and Miguel hates them right back. Rio has tried and failed to poison him via food and Jeff is considering hiring a hitman. Gabriel is beloved by them. Miles takes Miguel’s money at least twice a week to go spend it just because he can. Miguel has tried (and succeeded once) to get Miles sick with a future illness because he figured out the lesbian bar Miguel liked to perform at in drag. Miles has cried at least once in every room of Miguel’s apartment and Miguel has been confused on what to do each time besides an awkward hug and pat on the back. People are rightfully worried for Miles’s safety at least 80% of the time but when they aren’t they’re shaking their heads at the two’s antics. They need to be separated until they have a healthy “this is a grown ass man / this is stupid little girl i don’t like at work” relationship and it’ll take an act of god for either of them to realize their current one isn’t healthy at all and has extremely negative impacts on their mental state.
#i wanna write this so badly bc like . this type of relationship with adults as a kid when you can’t 100% trsut them and place your safety +#in their hands is sooo interesting to write esp considering Miguel’s past and what Miles is used to#which is dangerous fights from adults (his villains) but also the loving ones like his parents his neighbors ripeter and peter b etc#and this miguel (imo) wouldn’t hurt miles on purpose because he knows the pain BUT he also doesn’t realize some shit is pain-causing both+#mentally and physically bc yknow some abused kids grow into adults who subconsciously do similar shit#and for Miles and Miguel to finally realize beating the shit out of each other almost constantly and the negative back and forth (if miguel#feels like talking that day) is just. not a good thing#it’s sort of like the way i write pavitr and miles’s relationship regarding their fighting because it’s genuinely helpful but#can seem borderline awful and physically abusive to each other#peter b is so fucking worried sometimes bc he sees Miguel in a completely different way than other people. like he’s off in lala land#like. he’ll see this 15 year old stickbug of a kid fighting his buddy Miguel who has been known to kill#he’ll say some fights tou just can’t win Miles… and Miles is setting Miguel’s apartment on fire#like they have good moments. okay. trust me. but a toxic friendship like the kind you see that people take too seriously from a show like.#idk bluey. or some kids show like that.#spiderverse fans DNI ‼️‼️‼️🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾‼️‼️‼️‼️#not ship never ship don’t even tag is as such bc i’ll just delete the post#miles morales#spiderman#spider man#gabriel o’hara#rio morales#jefferson morales#miguel o’hara#m&m posts
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So do we think the non water flight version of the text is actually a cipher or nah?
I initially thought so, it looked like a replacement cipher with missing letters of based on the patterning, (potentially one of those plus sign replacement ciphers, I forget what they are called if they have a name) but now that I’ve seen the corresponding plaintext it’s clear it’s not simple substitution w missing bits at the very least.
Could potentially be looking at a more advanced cipher but idk if the devs would go that far especially since they pretty much gave us the plaintext, so they could’ve just created a cipherlike set of symbols that doesn’t decrypt to anything. If that’s the case they did a good job making something that looked reasonably enough like a cipher that I played around with it for a little bit. But it’s also not entirely impossible they used something a tad more advanced especially given that a simple substitution would get broken quite quickly.
#I might mess around w it some more idk#but if it’s just random symbols I don’t want to waste too much time#though I suppose I could practice my coding and see if I could script something to test if it’s some other common ciphers idk#my wifi is out so I’m not on the fr forums so I’m out of the loop as far as any other decryption attempts are concerned#supposing they exist#there’s got to be at least one other user who goes hog wild when they see potential ciphertext right?#456 words#fr#flightrising#anyway feel free to lemme know your thoughts!#considering we know the plaintext of it’s some sort of cipher that isn’t like. insanely complex we should be able to figure it out#but I got other stuff to do alas#flight rising#fr unfathomable journey#fr anniversary#I’ll see when I get somewhere w wifi lol
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#^farmer’s market goat :)#vent post#I feel bad posting vent posts so I try to have good pictures/screenshots for them skskskd#disclaimer that I’m okay but also this is above tumblr’s pay grade. I just need to yell into the void about it#health stuff is taking a sudden downward turn and I’m stressed about it#I’m fine#but we’re considering getting genetic testing to check for vascular Ehlers Danlos#which is. concerning.#that’s the one you don’t want#‘half of people with this condition will live to at least 48’ reassuring. thanks.#like. I’m FINE right now but kind of having a little existential mortality crisis over having to consider it as a possibility#it might be nothing or something else. we’re just talking possibilities. but I don’t like that we’re seriously discussing vEDS#idk. hopefully in a few months I come back with an update and it’s nothing/something else#I’m not gonna just keel over but it’s not a fun time as you get older#again. I’m fine right now. it’s probably just my anxiety. but I need SOME sort of outlet#and on tumblr nobody’s pressured to respond. I don’t really want a vent discussion or anything#just need to get it out and move on with making appointments and pushing fluids#but everything is okay right now. I’ll make appointments. I’ll discuss medications and testing. I’ll make lifestyle changes where I can.#it’ll be fine
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I applied to college again today I’m so scared but I really wanna finish this damn degree
#I might be a full time student come time next fall??#yikes#I mean I want that so much and I love being in school#but is it going to be ok?#oof#mathematical astrophysics#I’ll have to take some classes over again for credits which is going to be annoying#I audited a bunch of classes when I was a teenager and I’ll have to retake them for credit#which will feel redundant#but after I get through those I can actually take some classes I’m interested in#deep delve into my topology#finish my freaking thesis#which I started sort of like ten years ago#idk man#nervous about it#I’ve been out of school for ten years mate
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