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the uniforms in enterprise make 0 sense to me.
through the passage of time in the shows the uniforms lose more and more color. so if we work backwards they gain MORE color :)
ex.
see???? just a little around the neck
then just the shoulders :)
torso! minus the shoulders.
whole shirt! entire shirt! its the whole entire shirt!
so OBVIOUSLY as we work backwards through the timeline you'd expect EVEN MORE COLOR based on this, right?
WRONG
they only have! little shoulder lines!!!! by logic these guys should be wearing full jumpsuits of color! a morph suit to show they're an engineer or something!!! BUT NO! it makes ZERO sense to me to jump from this style of uniform with the itty bitty bit of color to an entire shirt worth!!!!
put them in jump-suits! make them look stupid! make their shoes match their color, even! I want them to look ridiculous.
#i chose kira to be the ds9 uniform bc she is very pretty#thank you for coming to my ted talk#ANYWAYS#i remeber the first time i saw star trek#i was watching it on a channel that showed one episode from each series in order#so tos > tng > ds9 > voyager > enterprise#so i watched the progression of these uniforms in order#and the enterprise ones BLEW ME AWAY#i was not expecting the minimalization of color?#idk i felt very passionate about this#that was like years ago#but i have time now so here i am#screaming into the void#star trek#star trek the original series#tos#ds9#deep space nine#voyager#enterprise#star trek: enterprise#star trek uniforms#star fleet uniforms
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yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.
to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naĂŻve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!
i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.
also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship â one he got into as a child, essentially â and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.
they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.
they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.
i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.
#eve text#elmike#stranger things#byler#only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol#tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS#god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear#i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable#i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts#elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about#even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike#i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up#the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much âhe was a boy she was a girlâ to me#and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing...#the fact that lumax exists â a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy â makes that clear to me#and the âlove confessionâ in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin#also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choiceâŚ#fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK#so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows#i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too???#love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk#tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO...#like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their âgolden coupleâ LMAO#stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest#anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul#i need frivolity#ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show
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i think there's really something to be said about how there has never been a record i've encountered where people wanted justification or excuse to refuse to acknowledge the intention and seriousness of the project itself like danger days by both defenders and haters. i find it so incredibly bizarre and strange and partially fascinating.
#its all wrapped up in what danger days represents for people partially.#like idk ive been trying to verbalize it for yeaarsss but it always feels like people rhetorically discuss it as a side-effect#of whatever neurosis soothes their narrative. its a record of immense mania and tragedy for some people for instance#which i find very laughable but whatever. people want dd to be miserable for so many reasons#which is immediately rendered sort of null when you compare parade. both the touring and the album making process.#like realistically this is a band that every single record is shaded with immense difficulty and uncertainty#but instead of dealing with that fans love to sort of isolate danger days since its this moment of betrayal its the beginning of the end#its not what people wanted#when realisitically the single biggest creative pressure on the band would've been being severely in debt#to the label for scrapping con weap. LMAO. but that never factors. because its about narratives.#like danger days To Me is an incredibly ambitious record. clearly personal. artistically inspired. absolutely rushed job#because they were bleeding money.#but its cool that they took that stand!!! and they had to have felt collectively passionate enough to do that in the first place!#but people want to engage with it on the terms of their disappointment. or the record as a harbinger of doom.#idk i was reading rym reviews (a mistake) and its wild how the critical positive consensus is either#incredibly stupid teenagers thinking mcr want to firebomb a walmart or 'well its not as good but i like fun things!'#am i crazy for thinking it more serious than that? that its pulling sonically from a wide array of inspirations and actually working#in conversation with them???#anyway. synths 4ever.#my posts
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alright, but one of blamore's hobbies is sculpture-making and so he HAS made numerous smaller ones over the years, but the one he's making right now is this statue of artemis (whom is the greek goddess of the hunt, the wilderness, and wild animals which is EXACTLY why it chose to make a sculpture representing her) is something it aims to be a little bit shorter than himself â so i guess you could say it is sort of a big project?Âż yeah LMAO and if blamore isn't gardening, then it'll usually be working on it.
now, so far, he's only got the bust done all the way to the shoulders as of now + it's mixed media so it's made mostly of wood, BUT it's also got some other elements like wire and some random things that you might not normally think of mixing into a sculpture in it. though man's doesn't just show anyone his progress on it because he usually wants thing's to be 'done' before he does... and that is to say that, if it does happen to show this sculpture to you, then you are officially one of its friends (':
#IT WAS PROBABLY NOTHING BUT IT FELT LIKE THE WORLD: musings.#ahh... idk why but this morning i could just picture him making a wood sculpture so vividly in my mind and from there my mind just went-#'oh... wait. wait a minute. what if he wasn't just making ANY kind of sculpture but one of the greek goddess of nature herself?' đ#and i of course was like HELL YEAHHH in response to that so this is how this idea had come to be lolll but yeah.#i have to say that although blamore may not be the world's greatest sculptor (of course) that he has done a rather good job on it in my-#humble opinion judging by how i've imagined it in my head bc there has been a LOT of detail that has gone into this imaginary statue y'all-#NGL haha buttt although i do not approve of everything that blamore does (actually that's probably MOST of what he does đ)#i think that it is very cool whenever people are passionate enough about their craft to work for MONTHS on something and blamore has been-#working on this sculpture for months himself so he is. Kind of funky fresh in this way??? yeah i'd say so though ofc i DO NOT endorse his-#atrocities JSJSJ i just like that he's putting his all into something that isn't bad for once y'know? so yessss
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i think the most tragic thing in the byler fandom is that I have not seen any celebrity secret relationship aus đ
#this is another âwhy don't you people like ausâ post I guess lmao#âwhy is st*ddie so popular?â well you see those people write about a Variety Of Things. we have. fantasy. and spiderman#ok no I'm joking I know there's people writing a lot of aus I know this because they're sitting in my marked for later haunting me#(very sorry to the tumblr user writing the 1930s au and the other one writing the dirty dancing au I'm especially haunted by those 2)#I just have not felt as passionate about byler. in months. and am not reading my marked for later#so anyway I know there's aus. it does feel like we're still lacking some fundamental ones though. LIKE A GODDAMN CELEBRITY AU#do you know how bad I'm craving a good celebrity au rn#someone's probably written one I could probably go find one I just don't know what sort of tags to try#bc it could be like. band au! or actor au! or celebrity au! or twitch streamer au! like idk how someone would tag it#especially since I'm open to a variety of Known By The Public aus#I literally just need an au where they're famous sorry#stranger things#byler
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this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh
#and i might do it again bc its just#a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc#which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow#it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag#people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just#so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what#like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao#and it never ever used to#but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly#or whatever the make believe rules are idk#this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus#bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community#and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit#bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were#i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year#but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad#once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care#ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control#i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile#and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be#a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion#so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao#why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things????#i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just#ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand#so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time#but yeah anyways idk !#be nice its so easy !#tbd
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i get why people would opt to say walter was a terrible person since the beginning, but i think that's like, the most boring takeaway you can get about his character. he was already insecure and prideful from the start, and it's what would hurt him and keep hurting him. but like, being insecure and prideful are regular traits any regular person can have. the actions that he makes because of these traits, which in turn keep fueling his ego more and more, are what makes him an interesting character. and he was already pretty capable of hurting other people, but he wasn't doing it out of malice, but more because of careless selfishness at first. what makes walter terrifying is that the more he does it, the more he becomes aware of what he's doing, and the more he keeps going and keeps being more and more meticulous and deliberate about what he does that hurts people and even to the point when it was specifically to hurt people.
i think the traits were there in walter from the beginningâthe pilot did a pretty good job of establishing how powerless he's felt all his life and just how susceptible he is to letting this newfound perceived power get to his head so easily. he even says this explicitly in 5x06 "Buyout" when he tells jesse "i'm not in the money business, i'm in the empire business". but saying he was this monster from the start kind of implies he didn't undergo through a character arc throughout the show when it's quite literally what he did. he got worse. so much worse. through mostly the fault of his own fragility.
#idk if i put it into words right but i'm just musing#was walter a good person when brba started? up in the air. but his family genuinely adored him. despite feeling like a loser teacher#some of his coworkers actually really liked and respected him. he was just as much of a regular person as anyone else was tbh#you know it's interesting that he and gale basically have the same motivations. why jump to meth of all things. why go from 0 to 100 when#it sounds COMPLETELY ridiculous. but they were both very passionate about chemistry who felt like their potentials were wasted and felt#like they were finally putting their skills to good use again. getting to flex their muscles and shit. whenever they cook better purer meth#than most other people. i think it's a really genius idea to have this premise for the show lol#cz as much as walter is motivated by him feeling like he desperately has to take control of his own life he also is a scientist at heart#who desperately needs to apply his knowledge and skills somewhere where it would feel gratifying#seriously dude you could've tried to get a paper published or two or something. djhdidhd#but the academe has its own Politics and whatnot. so one could only speculate why walt didn't get to pursue that any more#(aside from the whole grey matter industries thing)#anyway uhhh i hope i get the post across lol not to sound cheesy cliche but brba is a corruption slash character deterioration arc#quite literally the whole point is that he Didn't Start Off Like This And He Gets Worse#again. he already had some of his bad tendencies and traits but it's like. we all do that's not necessarily inherently make or break#it's what he DOES and KEEPS DOING. CONSCIOUSLY that turns him into the horrifying man he is by the end of it all#so i just think if your biggest takeaway is Walter Was Always A Monster then you're just missing the whole damn point#op#brbaposting
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today I met a kid who has been smoking since he was 11... I am not sure what to think... Like, he still isn't legally allowed to smoke. I did mention that it's absolutely terrible for his health but I don't think I have the right to say anything more? Should I have? (He is still under 16)
#CSD#pride#transmasc#teenagers#Cigarettes#vaping#smoking#no clue if I did the right thing#BC I truly don't like smoking#And it was mentioned several times that this event was also for disabled people#like#I truly don't think that drugs have a place there#This was explicitly stated#but idk#It isn't my life#but it felt wrong to ignore it#Idk#I've been very passionate specifically about anti smoking since I was a kid#Watched my aunt's lungs collabs BC of it#I have strong feelings about this
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One of these days Iâm gonna be brave enough to share my Sky spreadsheet on the official Discord server for over half a million users to see, but until that day comes, I wish the 6 or 7 of you here that use it a pleasant evening
#tempo tantrums#one time I got to see a similar spreadsheet that someone posted there#it only featured the base constellations#but it was GORGEOUS#photos and icons and they were all laid out to look like the spirit trees and#man it was a SIGHT#I was quite envious at first - always my first and biggest mistake#wow someone did this thing Iâm very passionate about so much better than I did#and I felt that way for a little while#until some users lamented that the sheet was completely unusable on mobile#some friends pointed out that they preferred my spreadsheet because a) it was easy to see and understand#and b) it was actually usable on mobile#and I think about that a lot#dare I say I even cried about that afterward#every sheet a person makes has its role to play in the community#maybe in that respect my spreadsheet will be well received but idk
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maybe im just very hard to please when it comes to media lately but I didnât really like this bsd episode
#im a casual fan so not passionately upset but yea wasnât really a fan đ but idk what couldâve happened since Iâve had concerns all season#I feel a little Ough đ¤ about being negative for bsd+csm+jjk in most of my recent posts ahdhdnsnfj#and it. MIGHT just be me bc it seems like no one has issues w bsd/csm but. idk all of these have felt shakier in their plot and characters#like all of these Iâve been like: oh wow I LOVE this character or scene but overall?? hm#still like all of them but trying to be more detached since I wanna enjoy what I can#im a firm believer of just dropping something if I donât like it but the problem is I still like these enough đ but anyway#going to become a little more casual and just have fun without getting upset lol lol#oh but spoilers for bsd anime and the jjk leaks for chapter: kind of funny how these both came out#and I have VERY similar but different issues w them#and. I guess csm manga spoilers: I was spoiled on Quanxi coming back so thatâs good ig. still waiting for chapters to stack until I read#the stuff wfumiko was :| so Iâm not in the mood to read yet. i feel bad quanxi doesnât have her gfs
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đInner Steel
#do you ever just listen to inner steel and cry?#because i do#sally just really connected with me and something about her hit home#im not even sure why because my life isn't very similar to her situation at all#but i just saw her and felt seen in return#idk#the benefit of grief is absolutely beautiful#i wish we had a little more time to get into zane's poor coping mechanisms but im also so glad they devoted the proper amount of time to#sally#god this song is so good#some songs take a few listens for me to become obsessed but not this one#i literally heard a few lines on sally's radio and knew it was going to take over my brain#Ninjago is just amazing#it's not always perfect but its so full of heart and love and passion that you can feel#it's so tangible in the characters and their relationships#and it's beautiful â¤ď¸#am i getting too emotional over lego ninjas?#maybe#but im not about to stop#ninjago#lego ninjago
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writing down some notes for bellum traits/speculative biology/whatever so here's a couple so far
he's cold blooded but can't die due to extreme temperatures, it just makes it harder for him to function.
amphibious in the sense that he can survive in both water and air, though he doesn't really need to breathe, if anything he mostly interacts with water and air through traversal differences.
he does move like a squid, he can just float around but to move faster he does need to move his tentacles for slight propulsion and steering, and does intake and jet out water or air for some extra speed. he is not literally a squid creature but he is very similar.
he's got little barbs on the undersides of his tentacles (similar to the texture of a cat's tongue) which help with grabbing onto and holding things.
he can pull his main eye down into his body if he wants to use his mouth as... a mouth, or when he creates those little goop things or otherwise to spit out that purple substance.
#salty talks#bellum#speculative biology might be too lofty or. deep? a term for this i just wanna figure out what's going on with him yknow#like im not trying to be scientific or anything with this this is like. a personal passion project kinda thing not an assignment#but i lean a little into scientific terminology when it gets weird or awkward to me so whatever#idk if i'll share images or w/e of the final doc or just leave it to be expressed through fics#bc essentially these are notes ofr things that i want to show in fics (primarily the bellum x linebeck one. i need a fucking name for it)#also i like bellum and think hes a funny shape#constantly thinking abt that beak thing he has that seemingly never does anything but if you remember it#in context of him possessing linebeck and how he goes about doing that its like. oh. ...oh#its never addressed in any form but i wonder how the people who like animated that scene and stuff personally thought of it#in general i wonder how the pople who made ph felt abt bellum what ideas did they have that they never got around to sharing yknow#im not gonna act like it'd be a treasure trove he's a very nothing villain but i wonder if there were some sparse opinions and ideas abt hi#anyways DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT THAT. BELLUMS BEAK THING. AND SPECIFICALLY HOW HE ATTACHES ONTO LINEBECK. HUH. HUH.#anyways i dont think bellum is like a squid creature if anything he's more just like some amalgamation of cephalopods as a demon#which is funny bc i am using a lot of irl squid characteristics to inform a lot of this stuff#its like half no hes not a squid he's a demon and half no hes not a squid he doesnt line up with them enough#i can see him as like a monstrous bastardization of a squid but nah hes not a squid hes just squidlike i think#im not too deep into my notes but im not sure how much i'll need considering the god/demon/magical being side of him yknow#i'll do what i need for my purposes#you can probably maybe see me getting awkward with some terminology with the last one but maybe thats just me feeling it lol#this is like half speculative stuff and half just headcanon yknow but whatever we got stuff here
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#having. a good night#iâm gonna. crash but. having. good converstions#feeling warm and fuzzy and comfortable#im.#i feel silly but im like. im falling in love i thinkkjjjjjjjjjj its great its wonderful#i have not felt this good and this pretty in a long time like im just. life is swell#im . tired and i know im doing the classic puppy love just. head over heels stuff thats known for in new and passionate relationships but it#feels so good and i like him so much and i just feel. real#i feel seen and understood and . loved its. huh its. yeah#but brain real fuzzy and warm. im just. i found someone so. just. so perfect for me its like. im :)#he treats me. really well and heâs so amazing and so fucking insanely talented at art and animation and im likeeee all dizzy and feeling#just . safe and comfortable like. i just feel. safe and its. not something i feel a lot#and like. its funny bc like theres a few irls who follow here who know both him and me and its like. haha you guys get the inside scoop on#just how infatuated we are with eachother like. surprise . but yknow.#its like. hhh. its just. im just. its nice#like. we all know im well aware that im pretty as it is but he just makes me feel. so pretty like just. gorgeous#and i mean heâs like . woah. like i know you guys dont know what he looks like besides my paintings but the paintings do not do him justice!#heâs got this like. great smile and heâs always laughing and giggling and this really pretty long hair i love and its like⌠đđđ#like. heâs. very my type. i have a weakness for pretty guys and heâs just. so prettyyyyy and im :)#im sorry to my irls who see me just. gushing about him like. idk. im not sure if anyone saw it coming but i think it. makes sense. it makes#a lot of sense. and weâre. cute together. got that. opposing aesthetics stuff. but itâs. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#im just. oh i think im talking until the tags run out now i think so uh huh#yeah itâs . embarassing honestly to be. this into someone but it just. feels. good and natural and it makes sense like i said#i just. hm . im both so nervous around him and not nervous at all its. nice#and like. i just want to. be with him all of the time ever and itâs. probably whats gonna happen next semester#im just totally infatuated and he is. with me as well and itâs. really cool to be just. mutually losing it#like half of our calls involve us hiding our heads in our hands because its real nervous boy4nervous boy shit like. very much so#i often have to put my phone down and just. close my eyes and lie in the dark and go. oh my god oh my god oh my god#its just surreal to like someone so hard for so long and then a month after classes end and itâs real. its normal its happening
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in omnia paratus
Spencer Reid x fem!reader
Summary: Spencer's been on the fence with his feelings for you. Due to his past traumas heâs decided to keep his feelings hidden. Until youâre caught in a dangerous situation at work
WC: 3.5 k
A/N: I am SO SORRY this took so long. Iâve been sitting on this for two months because I was being a perfectionist and had writer's block. Thank you so much to the person who requested this idea and I hope yaâll like it! beta read by @whats-yesterday00
Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Fluff, Protective!spencer, Friends to lovers, age gap (25 and idk 33 or 34), during season 9 (sadly no post prison Reid, I refuse to watch the show after Derek & Hotch leave), Maeve is impliedÂ
Warnings!: mentions of murder, stalking, gunshot wounds, hostage situation and incorrect info about hostage situation cause Idk I'm not in the FBI
Everyone knew Spencer Reid had a soft spot for you. Well, everyone except for you.Â
Since the moment you met youâve been on his mind.Â
âDo you know how old she is?âÂ
âNo, how old is she?âÂ
â25!â Penelope squeaked before being shushed by Rossi.Â
âWow, sheâs gotta be the youngest person to ever be in the BAU. Well, second to genius over here,â JJ commented while pointing to Reid.Â
âThatâs if she gets the job,â Morgan added.Â
They were all crowded around the desks in front of Hotchâs office. The blinds were cracked and they could just barely make out the woman seated across from their boss for an interview.Â
Due to the increase in caseload after Alex joined, Hotch made the request to add an additional member of the team. After interviewing a few people that didnât pan out, he heard quite a bit about you from your supervisor saying how well youâve done with the FBI and youâd be an exceptional fit for the team.
Then of course Penelope looked up everyone who was interviewing with Hotch. You being her most recent victim.Â
âHow long has she been with the FBI?â Alex questioned.Â
âThree years,â Penelope answeredÂ
âWhat? Did she join right after college?âÂ
âNot right away. She graduated early and got experience with law enforcement first.âÂ
Spencer sat at his desk quietly while everyone was peering into Hotchâs office. Not to say he wasnât nosy as well. You were already behind the blinds when he arrived for work.Â
âOh theyâre shaking hands! That has to be a good sign,â Penelope cheered.Â
Morgan turned to the window, âItâs definitely not a bad one.âÂ
Her eyes widened before loudly whispering, âOh no theyâre leaving. Disperse.âÂ
She scurried off in her heels towards Derekâs desk while he followed behind with a grin. JJ, and Rossi averted their eyes from Hotchâs office and found Alexâs desk far more interesting.Â
All while Spencerâs attention was brought to the woman led down the stairs by his boss. It felt like his heart stopped beating when he saw how beautiful you were. He was brought back to earth as Hotch introduced you to the rest of the team.Â
âThis is Dr. Spencer Reid,â he gestured to the man sitting at his desk.Â
You offered him a small wave and a kind smile, âNice to meet you.âÂ
It became quite obvious you two would get along very well. From very early on conversation flowed incredibly well between the two of you. There were very few people that he felt were easy to talk to because of his niche interests and the way he would ramble spitting facts left and right.Â
But he never had to worry about saying the wrong thing or talking too much with you. You often were a content listener or you would even match his passion on certain subjects. Most were topics Spencer already knew about.Â
When you first met Spencer you didnât know the Dr in his name meant he held 3 PhDâs or that he was quite literally a genius.Â
So you were often telling stories or facts you found interesting that he already knew. In fact, almost every âfun factâ you brought up, he knew about already. Â
But he never interrupted you. He always was listening intently to what you had to say. Like he was hearing about it for the first time.Â
At some point you learned of his eidetic memory and how vast his knowledge was. It was during a case where you found out and mentioned it to him.Â
âReid, remember when we were at the harbor and I mentioned that thing about sharks?â You hesitated, âdid you know that already?â
âYes,â he guiltily admitted.Â
You partially deflated suddenly feeling that the whole tangent you went on was pointless. âWhy did you let me go on and on if you already knew?âÂ
His eyes softened, âbecause I wanted to hear you talk about it.âÂ
That was when his feelings started to peek through. As the months went on it only grew and grew. And you were none the wiser.
To the average person, it might not seem like much. Perhaps you were just good friends. But to a team of profilers (and best friends) it was painfully obvious.Â
It was almost painful the way he looked at you with a longing in his eyes. Or when his gaze immediately turned to you to catch your reaction or smile.Â
It was obvious by the way he found any excuse to bring you up in conversation. Or how in conversation with you he would mirror your mannerisms and lean closer to you.Â
As well as the things he remembered about you or the little things he did for you. Like the countless coffee cups he bought for you from his favorite coffee shop before work. And when he saw you struggling to find something or open something he was always right there to help.Â
Spencer Reid had feelings for you. Feelings so deep that he couldnât pull the roots out even if he tried.Â
He didnât know what to do with his feelings exactly. He hadnât felt this strongly for someone since ⌠well for a while. He was terrified of history repeating itself.Â
He couldn't lose you. Heâd seen first hand what this job did to him, what it did to Hotch. Their loved ones ripped away from them too soon.
So for now at least, he kept his feelings to himself.Â
Well, until your last case.Â
The BAU was called in on a case that just turned serial. They found the unsub to be a man named Mark, who started killing because his girlfriend cheated on him. The first two victims reminded him of the man she cheated with. When that didnât satisfy him, he hunted down and killed the other man.Â
Now the team and SWAT was stationed outside a bus that Mark was holding hostage. He stalked his ex-girlfriend and tracked down the new city bus she took.Â
The officers couldnât get a clear shot of him because of where he was standing and he kept using the passengers as shields. Rossi was currently on the phone with him trying to make negotiation terms and get some of the people off the bus. Mark however was incredibly stubborn and didnât want to let his leverage go.Â
So Rossi asked about the children on the bus and if Mark would be willing to let them off. They were met with silence on the other end of the phone, contrary to his previous behavior where he loved to hear himself talk.Â
After a short pause the phone spoke. âIâll only send out the kids if you send in an agent.âÂ
Rossi shifted his weight and crossed his arms. âAre there any other circumstances youâre willing to send out the children for?â he asked.Â
âNope,â he said with a pop at the end of the word.Â
A look of concern was quickly exchanged between Rossi and Hotch. While their faces didnât reveal much, their eyes spoke volumes.Â
âHow about this,â the unsub continued. âIâll send out their moms too.âÂ
Rossiâs eyebrows furrowed slightly at the eagerness to comply from the criminal. âYouâll send out the children and their mothers if we send in one of our agents?âÂ
âI promise.âÂ
Rossi returned his eyes to Hotch who stood rigid and tall with his arms folded. He was met with an approving nod before returning to the call.Â
âAlright, we can agree to those terms.âÂ
âOh and agent Rossi?â Mark perked.Â
âYes?â
âSend in a girl.â
There was a tension that quietly branched out between the agents listening to the phone call.Â
âWhy do you want a woman?â Rossi asked, clearly changing the dialogue used.
âIâm losing too many ladies sending out these moms. I want one back,â he replied with a cockiness to his voice.Â
Ross confirmed they could send in a female agent. Almost immediately after the unsub hung up, you volunteered to be the agent going on the bus. Â
âIâll do it.â
Spencerâs head shot in your direction. âNo you're not.â His voice was laced with concern and a hint of demand. Â
âReid-â
âHe specifically asked for a woman. We donât know what heâs planning, heâs devolving.â
âAnd Iâm willing to take that risk to make sure those kids are safe,â You defended yourself.Â
You turned to your boss waiting for his thoughts. Hotch knew youâd been exposed to enough high tension scenarios to know what you were doing. But just like any member of his team, he silently hesitated, worrying for your safety.Â
He took a breath before meeting your eyes again. âSend her in.âÂ
Right before you were led to the bus, Hotch took off the holster on his ankle and handed it to you. âSome extra protection in case something happens.â You couldnât hear the concern in his voice, but you saw it clear as day in his eyes.Â
You made your way to the bus and saw through the window Mark holding a gun to the driver and telling him to open the door. You stepped on and the doors closed quickly behind you. The unsub took a long look at you, panning up and down.Â
âWell how about that. Arenât you a beauty? He said with a cheeky grin.Â
You tried your hardest not to look disgusted with him. Instead you kept your composure and spoke with courage and a confident demeanor.Â
âYou this flirty with all your hostages?â you asked plainly.
As he gazed down at your legs his eyebrows furrowed and lips pursed. He bent down and with the gun in his hand, pushed away the bottom of your pants leg. When he saw the gun in the holster, he tsked.Â
âYou always carry this much dead weight on you?âÂ
He stood back up and put his hand out, âhand it over, I told them no weapons.âÂ
You reluctantly took off Hotchâs holster and placed it in the unsubs hand. Your one line of defense was gone.Â
The longer you were on the bus, the more anxious Spencer got. He knew you were an exceptional profiler, and you had enough experience and skill to handle yourself in situations like this.Â
But that couldnât stop the ache in his stomach or the fact that his heart rate could power a car by now.Â
He stood closer to the bus now to get a clearer view of the windows. They managed to successfully get the children and moms off and to safety, but you werenât safe. Spencer figured you were trying to negotiate with the unsub, but that was going nowhere. This was confirmed when Rossi tried calling him again but every call was ignored.Â
This unsub was stubborn as hell. He knows he trapped himself, but didnât want to back down. At least he didnât want to go quietly.Â
Spencer was talking with the rest of the team trying to devise a plan when the gunshots were fired. The team immediately ran back to the cacophony on the bus.Â
More shots were fired, he didnât know where from. He didnât care.Â
He just needed to get to you.Â
When he got a decent view through one of the windows that hadnât shattered he saw you. Your hand over arm in pain but still standing in front of the civilians to protect them. The unsub stalking over to you, gun in hand and smacking you over the head with it. You slammed against the chairs and fell to the floor.Â
Spencer's face paled. He swore he was going to throw up.Â
Through the fog of his mind Spencer saw Morgan escorting Mark off the bus, his hands now behind his back in cuffs.Â
He rushed past them, clambering through the door and up the stairs to get to you, calling your name.Â
âReid?â he heard your small tired voice through the crowd.Â
He followed it to you, laying on the ground struggling to open your eyes and clutching your left arm.Â
He crouched down to your level with a gentle hand on your uninjured arm.Â
âHey, Iâm here. Iâm right here,â he comforted.Â
âMy head hurts,â you mumbled.
His eyes softened, âI know. I think you might have a concussion, you need to go to the hospital.âÂ
You slowly started to fade out of consciousness. Spencerâs heart dropped and his hand moved from your arm to your face.Â
âNo no no no stay with me okay?â he caressed your cheek with his thumb.
âStay with me sweetheart,â he consoled.
Your eyes stopped struggling to stay open and finally made their close. His other hand rushed to your pulse point as he called for a medic.
Time seemed to stand still while Spencer sat next to your hospital bed waiting for you to wake up. He couldnât leave your side. He didnât want to.Â
You were okay. You were laying in the bed in front of him. But of course in his mind he ran through all the possible scenarios of how things couldâve gone worse, how things couldâve gone better. What wouldâve happened if you didnât have your gun taken away, or if the unsub got angry that you tried to bring a gun in. What if he didnât lose his cool and start firing. What if you never went inside in the first place.Â
And with all of those possible scenarios, the same thought plagued him.Â
He was wrong.Â
Before he was too scarred from past traumas to reveal just how much you meant to him. Not wanting to repeat the past and lose yet another person he loved cared for.Â
But now, after seeing you in danger right in front of him, now he was terrified at the thought of you never knowing. He was now more scared you would never know how much he loved the way your nose crinkled when you smiled. How he thought the sound of your voice could cure any ailment he had. How he admired your strength and desire to protect others. How you could light up anyone's mood by just being you. How he could listen to you for hours, even if you were lecturing him on things heâd known like the back of his hand.
To him it was a whole new experience hearing it from you.Â
Spencer was pulled from his thoughts as you stirred awake. He saw your eyes adjust to the bright fluorescent lights ahead. He quickly got up to dim the lights for you.Â
When he returned to his seat you smiled at him, âhi.âÂ
âHi,â he smiled back. Â
âHow are you feeling?âÂ
You sighed. âLike shit,â you complained with a hint of humor.Â
âThe doctor said you have a minor head injury, bruised ribs, and the shot to your arm thankfully didnât break any bones.âÂ
âFun,â you said sarcastically.Â
A moment of silence passes between you two. He doesnât exactly know what to say. How do you casually tell your friend and coworker you have a crush on them?Â
There is no casual way.Â
âYou called me sweetheart,â you broke the silence.Â
He furrowed his eyebrows, âWhat?âÂ
You fidget with the blanket, âearlier, when I passed out on the bus. You called me sweetheart.â
He searches his mind for the memories of the day. When he finds the memory he realizes in the heat of the moment the term of endearment slipped out.Â
He wasnât aware you heard it.Â
âI did,â he confirmed as his ears flushed.
âWhy?â you asked curiously.Â
He didnât know how to tell you that heâs wanted to call you that for weeks now. So instead he settled with-
âIt just ⌠felt right.âÂ
âOh,â you replied quietly.
Spencer tensed up at your response.Â
âIf I crossed the line-âÂ
âNo. Of course not,â you interrupted with a comforting voice.Â
The corners of your mouth lifted and cheeks dusted pink. âI thought it was sweet. You donât normally say stuff like that.â Â
His heart warmed at your confession and a smile spread on his face.Â
âYou thought me calling you sweetheart was sweet?â he lightly teased.
âShut up,â you chuckled, rolling your eyes. âYou know what I mean.âÂ
Your laughter was cut short by a sharp pain in your abdomen. You bit down on your lip and gripped the side of the bed in pain.Â
The reality that you were injured on the job was rushing back to him.Â
He licked his lips, his nervous unconscious habit.Â
âI was really worried about you.â
âI know.â
âNo, you donât,â he interjected.Â
âThe entire time you were on that bus I was sick to my stomach. Terrified that something bad was gonna happen and it did,â he started to ramble.Â
You leaned closer to him. âBut Iâm okay Reid.â
âYou still got hurt. He shot you for christ sake!â his voice raising in pitch and volume.Â
âReid-â
âHe lashed out at you! You couldâve died!âÂ
âSpencer,â you said firmly, pulling his attention towards you.Â
He never heard you say his name before. No matter how many times he said you could call him Spencer, you still called him Reid. Hearing his name fall from your lips was like the consistency of honey.
You placed your hands on his face caressing his cheek. His golden eyes meet yours.Â
âIâm alright. Iâm still here,â you consoled.Â
âBut if-â
âSpencer.â
âPlease,â he pleaded. âItâs important.âÂ
You nodded your head, signaling for him to continue. He gently grabbed your wrists and brought your hands in his. He took a deep breath before he decided to spill the thing that had been eating away at his heart.Â
âI have feelings for you. I have for a long time. Almost as long as youâve been at the BAU,â he started.Â
With your hands in his he started tracing his thumb over your knuckles.Â
âIf we donât have work I count down the days until I can see you again. When I do see you I desperately want to see you smile, see you happy. And if Iâm the one that causes that smile, it makes my whole day. Thatâs why I never interrupted when you talked about something I already knew. The way your face lit up when you talked with such passion was the highlight of my day.âÂ
âFor months I was scared of my feelings and I kept them to myself. I was too scared to admit how much I liked you because I-â his hold on your hands tightened.
âI know what it feels like to lose someone. This job takes so much from us; I never wanted it to take you.âÂ
Spencer let out a breath he didnât know he was holding in.Â
âToday I realized it would be more painful if I went the rest of my life not telling you, than having even a fraction of a moment with you.â
A moment of silence danced between you two. Your head reeling from his confession, heart beating so hard you could feel it in your bones. Your palms sweaty from holding onto Spencers, but still neither of you let go.Â
The silence was deafening, plaguing him.Â
âPlease ⌠say something,â he begged.Â
Your lash line was collecting tears that you simultaneously tried blinking away. Your eyes found his tie less intimidating than his gaze.
âI never thought you would like me back,â you said with a soft tone.Â
Spencer's cheeks turned red as his heart started melting. âI do.âÂ
You brought your eyes back to his. That precious smile on his face was infectious.Â
âListen,â you squeezed his hands. âIâm not going anywhere. So you have as much time with me as you want.âÂ
Spencer's eyes softened at your words. He raised your hands and placed a loving kiss on your knuckles.Â
The two of you were too lost in eachother to notice the footsteps towards the room.Â
âHey, I found some Jello for her if she-â Alex abruptly stopped once she noticed what she walked into.Â
You both awkwardly pulled your hands away from each other; you fiddling with the hospital blanket, him rubbing his palms on his slacks.Â
âSo, feeling better?â she asked hesitantly.Â
âMuch,â you answered, still a bit flustered.Â
âGood, good to hear,â She tried not to sound too smug, but the small smile on her face said otherwise.Â
She raised and shook the jello container in her hand.Â
âIâm gonna leave this here,â she placed it on the table. âIâll be back in a bit.âÂ
âThanks Blake,â you thanked as she left.Â
Once she was gone you quietly giggled and mumbled âoh my god,â under your breath.Â
âYou know, she kept teasing me asking when I was going to ask you out. And donât even get me started on Morgan,â he chuckled, shaking his head.Â
Your jaw dropped and eyes furrowed. âDid everyone else know but me?âÂ
He pressed his lips in a thin line, âpretty much.âÂ
âI must be a shitty profiler,â you half joked.
âAbsolutely not,â he said in the most comforting voice. He brushed the hair that had fallen in front of your face behind your ear.Â
âYouâre an amazing profiler.âÂ
You smiled that smile he loved so much. The one where you couldnât hide your joy and your nose crinkled.Â
âSo, how do you think youâll spend all those moments with me?â you inquired with a bit of a teasing tone.Â
âDoing anything sweetheart,â he answered seriously. He looked at you with awe written all over your face. âI'm ready for anything with you.âÂ
âin omnia paratusâ - ready for anything
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"She Gets the Job Done!"
Cowgirl Ellie x Fem! Reader
Content: Cowgirl Ellie, Fem! country reader, Ellie is western type of cowgirl, reader is southern, badly written accents(guys I am southern but idk how to write a western accent), smut, clit rubbing(r! recieving), scissoring, making out, biting, some implied homophobia, reader is written as a lesbian, modern AU, reader has female anatomy, very loosely based off of Chappell Roan's unreleased song.
Word Count: 2.4k
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Description: You're a true southern girl who is fed up with these country boys who just can't please you. What you really need is a woman, but that's kind of hard to seek out in a small southern town. When Ellie Williams moves into your town along with Joel Miller, she ends up working at the farm nearby, and you really want her. It's true: only a woman knows how to treat a woman right.
Wow, you really hated living in the south sometimes. You mostly loved the summer heat complimentary with trips to the creek on the weekends. You always loved going to rodeos where you obsessed over the dandies. You loved southern food, the nature, the farms and the small town life.
What you didn't love was the men.
You were always a romantic at heart, reading steamy western novels with a flashlight under your blankets at the age of 14 or writing love letters you'd never send to cowboys in town. However, as you grew up into a woman, you realized you'd slowly started replacing the men with cowgirls. You spent your nights wondering what it'd be like to be actually satisfied in a relationship. You grew up in a traditional-minded town, so you tried to push down those desires. You had a couple boyfriends, but men just weren't it for you. They were too rough, too awkward with you in bed, too greedy. None of them knew how to please a woman, at least not a woman like you. After a while, you gave up on the dream cowgirl you had in mind. The novels became difficult to pick up once you began to believe you'd never get the chance to experience real passion or real pleasure. That was what you'd felt like, at least until Ellie moved into your town.
Ellie Williams wasn't much for the south. She was a western girl at heart, adorned with thick leather boots and messy auburn hair. You'd seen cowgirls before, so that wasn't what surprised you. You just felt a calling to her, you adored her from her freckles that faded out in the sun to her messy hair that had a tint of red when light hit it in the right way. She was strong, that was for sure. Her biceps looked so firm, like they could handle if you sank your teeth down into them. She wasn't an extremely strong-looking girl, but that only enticed you more. Her eyes told a lot about her, said she wasn't looking for anything funny, but you wondered if she was silly under all the bravado.
She moved from the west side of the states with Joel Miller, who wasn't a wealthy man by any means, but grew up in your home town. At first, you couldn't tell if Ellie and Joel were related or not. Joel was more friendly, talked to older folks in town, but Ellie often kept to herself. She'd spend most of her time helping out with the farm next to your father's. It was when you were walking to the farmer's market that you noticed her for the very first time.
Your father was a nice man, well known in town. You were living with him until you had enough money to afford your own small place. He owned a farm and wasn't the most rich man, but he made ends meet. Today was a nice day, which mean he unfortunately encouraged you to walk to the local farmer's market instead of stealing his truck for the errand. Of course, you kept your complaints to yourself. Your dad was a sweet old man, and you should've been thanking him anyways, cause you met the most gorgeous girl the world had to offer.
Poor Ellie was too busy herding in sheep to notice your stare, to even notice you pass the road. It only made you more intrigued, that she was such a hard worker.
After that day, you'd always look out for her presence. You avoided using your dad's truck when you needed to run errands, saying it would be a quick walk. You just liked being able to pass by her as she worked on the farm, get the extra few seconds to admire her. You really felt like a creep, but this was the first time you really felt such adoration for a person. Such attraction.
The first time you spoke to her, she was driving Joel's truck down the dirt road after she had finished up with your neighbor's farm. You at the time were walking, coming home from the market with a bag of peaches for a peach cobbler. Ellie noticed you, and that was really when the two of you clicked.
She was used to pretty girls, the west and south had no shortage of them. However, you were perfection for the cowgirl. You wore a cutesy pair of overalls and a pink t-shirt underneath, and Ellie had a soft spot for feminine girls. She came to a slow stop on the dusty road, putting the transmission in park.
"Hey, you! Need a ride?" She shouted with a smile plastered on her face. Your heart melted. You'd expected her to be more serious or smug, but she seemed almost nervous. It was only making your heart beat faster.
"I only live next to this farm, it's really no problem." You assured, though you really hoped she'd push the matter. Thankfully, she did.
"Really, Joel would kill me if he found out I let you walk home. It's getting late."
You, an utterly hopeless lesbian, couldn't resist. You said fuck it and let her reach over to open the passenger door for you, and your boots reached up into the truck to plop down into the passenger seat. You placed the brown paper bag of peaches in your lap and gave her a quick thanks as she began driving. Small talk felt more like two old friends hitting it off, and you liked her accent. It made you a tad more comfortable.
The two of you grew really close after that day. She'd be in the local rodeos and you looked forward to the sleepovers that came after. A few months of friendship helped you get to know her in a way that you could confidently call her your best friend. You still liked her though, feelings only growing the more the two of you bonded. You noticed that while she was a bit shy, she came out of her shell when she was around people she knew. She was quite sarcastic to Joel, and you loved the way she made fun of you at times. It made your heart flutter, and you imagined she was saying the opposite of whatever insult she had created for you.
Ellie wasn't much like what you'd imagined, and you partially felt bad for the feelings harbored away for her. She was a cowgirl who loved horses, sure. But she shared some private interests with you that shouldn't have made you want her more, but it did. One night, Ellie and you were sitting outside in her cow field, a blanket laid out beneath the two of you. She turned to you with a genuine smile, the warm look that she only gave very few people, and spoke in a quiet voice.
"You know, I've always wanted to go to space."
You turned to face her with slightly raised eyebrows. "Really? You? In Space?" You couldn't help the surprise in your tone.
She laughed softly at your expression. "Yes, dumbass. I used to listen to the first moon landing recording on repeat. Somethin' about it was really magical, ya know?"
You couldn't help but melt a little at her confession. The thought of Ellie being obsessed with astronauts was really endearing. But you couldn't stop the teasing, either.
"Is that why you have those nerdy space comics on your shelf? You told me those were Joel's!"
Ellie scoffed and swatted your arm playfully, but her hand lingered on your skin. "That's a topic for another time. Be grateful I share my secrets with ya."
You felt the warmth of her fingers, the way they softly traced patterns on your bare arm. Right then and there, you suddenly needed to risk it all.
"Ellie...I..I really need to tell you something." You sounded shaky and uncertain, but you needed to get your feelings out, even if it meant facing a possible rejection. This girl was too perfect to let get away.
"Yeah, what's up?" She sounded curious, unaware. That made you feel uneasy.
"I just..well, when I first saw you, I thought of you as a completely different person. And I really liked you. I liked you in a romantic way. I got to know you, though. The thing is, I think I like you even more. And I'm so sorry if you-" You were suddenly cut off when her plush lips met yours.
You were shocked, but quickly kissed her back, hands grasping at her everywhere, pulling her to lay on her side so you could tangle your legs with hers. It felt so nice to be kissing her. She tasted like fruit and smelled even better, and her tongue felt hypnotizing against yours. It made you crave much more.
Soon, you were rolled onto your back so the cowgirl could lay on top of you. Her hands were trailing from your sides to your stomach, her hand pausing above your shirt, her eyes meeting yours to search for any hesitation. When you nodded, her hands slid up your shirt to massage your tits through the fabric of your cotton bra. You let out a quiet whine, the feeling of her weight pressed on your body, and she leaned in to press her lips against your neck. In response, you tilted your head back, desperately craving more of her. You could feel the shakiness of her breath, and it reminded you that she was just as nervous as you were.
"Do you wanna keep going?" She asked, and you really noticed how different her tone was from when she was usually speaking to people. One of her hands trailed down the button of your jeans, and she didn't continue until you nodded.
Her hand quickly unzipped your jeans, her eyes meeting yours. She thought you were just too beautiful, looking up at her with wide eyes. She adored you. Her fingers slipped into your panties, and she let out a little "fuck" when she felt the damp patch in your panties. You laughed with a tinge of embarrassment.
"Please, Ellie." You sounded so desperate, Ellie quickly leaned up to plant a kiss on your lips. This one was much more confident, more sloppy and hungry than the first. She took your tongue into her mouth, giving it a hard suck which made you buck up into her hand, trying to get her to just fuck you.
"Patience, mkay?" She said softly as she pulled away, a shaky exhale leaving her mouth at the sight of the string of saliva the kiss had pulled from the two of you.
You nodded even though you weren't the most patient person. Ellie kept you at bay by rubbing at your clit with the pad of her finger, swirling moisture around the soft bud. You made one of the most heavenly sounds Ellie had ever heard, your eyes fluttering shut as she touched you. For the first time, someone actually focused on you. She struggled to pull your shirt off with just hand but you helped her out and soon, your bra was quickly unclasped. Ellie continued to rub at your clit as much as she could through your jeans, but she eventually gave up and pulled her hand out of your jeans, eliciting a cute whine from you.
"Off, please?" She requested, her voice so sweet and yet so demanding. Now that she knew you wanted her, she wasn't playing around. You nodded eagerly and lifted your hips as much as possible to pull your jeans and panties over your hips. Soon, you were left naked on the blanket. Ellie sat up to strip off her own clothes and you admired the sight.
Something about watching the girl strip, her pale skin coming into view in contrast to the stars above the two of you, it was perfection. Her body was slim and she was lean but had muscle on her. There they were, those perfect biceps..you couldn't help but sit up with her to plant kisses on them which soon turned into hungry little bites.
She let out a shaky laugh at your biting and joked with you, even in the heat of the moment. "You're gonna take a bite outta my arm, jesus."
You ignored her teasing and instead moved your lips to her pointy tits, smiling slightly as she shuddered. You found her weak spots. You dragged your tongue over both of her tits, feeling her nipples harden against your touch. She was getting impatient now. She pulled you closer so you were sitting with your legs tangled together, moving to slot herself between your legs. You let out countless desperate pleas as her wet cunt came into contact with yours.
You couldn't help but buck your hips into her no matter how much she tried to stabilize you, both of your moans filling the field. Her cunt was so wet against yours and you could feel her clit and lips both rub up and down all over your own clit. The stimulation felt so good but it had you desperate in ways your body knew, your whines getting louder when Ellie would lean in for wet, lazy kisses and trail her lips all over your neck, hands snaking around to squeeze your ass.
"Fuck, Els. Please, I'm gonna cum..I want you, please.." You pleaded with her, your orgasm building up inside you. This would be the first time you actually came from another person's actions.
"Cum with me, mkay? Cmon baby, you can cum for me.."
You'd never heard Ellie speak so filthy before. Sure, she had a sailor's mouth. She'd swear and curse even on her death bed. But just hearing her beg you to cum, it really sent sparks down into your pussy.
You frantically ground against her pussy, words coming out probably incoherent to Ellie's ears. "Fuck, I'm cummin', I love you Els.."
Your orgasm hit you like fireworks, all of the butterflies you'd felt for Ellie over the months released into intense bliss. She came with you, your juices mixing together, wetness coating both of your thighs.
The two of you spent the next few minutes catching your breaths, a comfortable silence exchanged. You were collapsed against her, arms around her as she held you close. She was so warm, and it was now a comfort more than a turn-on.
Soon, she spoke up in a soft, quiet murmur just for you.
"I love you too, by the way.."
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Seeing You Naked For The First Time: FS AND NEXT PARTNER
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Pile 1
They may feel a little insecure about themselves after seeing you naked for the first time. They could feel like they are not attractive enough or pretty enough somehow, and it could sow seeds of insecurity in them as well, there is a vibe about feeling inferior to you here as their very first thought because of how attractive you are. After this, their second thought will be related to wanting to pick you up and spin you around, it switches very fast from inferiority to elation, wanting to do anything for you, put the world at your feet and worship you, this is so CUTE I feel giddy as I channel this I feel just free and light and these may be feelings they will be having too, where they feel closer to you and grounded like "wow this is really happening". They would feel like they want a future with you like they will start setting goals I am seeing gowns and tuxes and celebration, possibly thinking about marriage and how beautiful you would look if and when the both of you get married, I am also getting for some of you this could be after you get married, and that is the first time you see each other fully in the nude. They would start feeling protective over you and also very shaken like they could in general be someone who is very rational and structured and in control of themselves but as soon as they see you all of that is going to melt away, they will not know what to do with themselves like they will not know what to do with their hands or how to touch you, for them, you will feel like something that is so out of their world, like your body will be, I am getting pious? idk pious for them, they will not want to touch you because of the fear that they will end up "ruining" or "dirtying" you in some way like they just do not feel like they deserve to touch you almost.
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Pile 2
Oh they are going to be in ruins when they see you naked for the first time, like they will be like putty in your hands I also heard salivating and salvation, so both are applicable here. They will feel like what they feared most has come true, the fear being they will never be able to keep their hands off of you and that they do not want to let you out of their sight for even a second. You will awaken this primal need for touch and skinship within them that they may not be used to, or they may not have felt in the past. They could also additionally feel like you are their ruin, you are their end, and you will be the one who will they will dedicate their life to with all the passion in the world. I am also getting a strong dominant energy here, extremely fiery and passionate. They will probably end up on top of you or caging you in their arms as soon as they see you in the nude like they cannot resist themselves here, they could also want to frame you in that pose/way for forever because they would feel like they will never ever be tired of seeing you in that way. They will instantly feel this strong need to show off in front of you lol, it's cute actually, and it's also related to showing off how strong they are so they would probably start like picking you up and rolling around with you, I heard "manhandle" but like it's not gender based they would just want to show off how easily they can carry both yours and their weight, I also heard "gym". Lastly, they would feel like they need to spend on you, maybe buy you sexy lingerie or wanting to take off your clothes themselves.
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Pile 3
As soon as they see you naked, they will want to court you all over again. Like the only thing going on in their head will be the need to bring you flowers, get on their knees and ask you to be their partner all over again. There are a lot of emotions here, they may find themselves come to tears because of how overwhelmed they may feel. Extra information but they may be the one who would have taken your clothes off, and it would be a very sensual moment where the both of you stare into each other's eyes while they touch you, they may still be clothed in that moment. They will feel a psychic connection with you and a warmth spreading through their abdomen as they see you move. It will make them feel like water, flimsy and unable to do anything because of how mesmerised they will be as they just keep staring at you. They will also feel a sort of pain however, like there is a sense of loss here where they could feel like they will never be able to get the moment back again where they see you naked for the first time which will make them feel a little sad, it's like the thing where you watch a movie, and it is so good that you feel sad that you will never be able to watch it for the first time ever again. They will feel like you are above them, I am getting Knight and Queen energy, they will feel as if they are just there to serve you or help you out, you have healed them just by blessing them with your nude form this is very much in the same lane of like putting you on the pedestal here.
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Pile A
Heavy earth energy here, they will feel like you represent nature or everything natural. When they see you naked for the first time, they will feel a little scared, it will make things very real for them. They may feel like now they will have to take more steps and be better than they were previously, sex for them could be something that is very intimate and spiritual, and because they may be flighty in general, as soon as the clothes come off, so does their mask of flightiness. This moment will make them fully committed to you. They will feel like they need to spoil you with luxury, they will also, and I am also getting that they will instantly feel at home with you and want you to take care of them, they would want to lay their head on your lap and want you to lull you to sleep, you naked form makes them feel safe and warm and comfortable. They would just want to hold you there is not a lot of sexual passion here, where it's like fiery, but it is more grounded, they want to go slow with you and take their time. Furthermore, they will feel like they need to cherish you and savour every moment with you, which is why they will not rush into anything and may seem sluggish initially when they see you naked for the first time. They will feel like they have gotten very lucky to have you and that it was destiny that the two of you even met, maybe it was fated to be, and they may feel this intense connection towards you when they see you for the first time and they may wonder if you were a part of their past life, maybe a soulmate from another time that they have had the fortune to meet again.
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Pile B
Oh, they could be a little judgemental not in a bad way just sizing you up where you may feel small or scrutinised under their gaze, but they would probably just be admiring you or watching you because they will not know what else to do like they will almost be stunned or not know what to do. Even though you will feel trapped under their gaze, they will feel trapped as well because of their inability to move. They will feel a strong need to release and let go, and by release I mean cumming, they will feel a strong need to fuck. They will also feel like their wish has been fulfilled when they see you naked, not only because they will find you stunning and like everything they have ever wished for, but they could also feel like they have been very fortunate they will feel abundant and prosperous, feeling confident that they can provide for you whatever you want and whatever you need. A soon as they get out of their trance, which may feel like years, but I am getting it will only be a few minutes, also a vision is coming through that you will have to break them out of their trance, they may be sitting on a chair, and you will have to go up to them and peer down at them for them to realise they are mobile again. After this they will feel themselves reach a breaking point, as soon as they are out of that they will become greedy for you wanting to consume each part of you with their eyes of course and also go down on you, they want to take all of you in and will not hesitate to pounce you wanting to be subservient both ways.
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Pile C
Fireeee firey energy they will feel triumphant, they will feel like they have won you over and that this has been won of the biggest victories of their life that they are someone you are comfortable enough with. That you are allowing them to see you in such a vulnerable and raw state, they will also feel like cheering you on. I heard "I'm your biggest fan" oh they will probably cheer you on and maybe holler while you get naked, it's very playful and flirty not as serious as the other piles. They will feel this need to please you and praise you, they will be very vocal and praise your body and you and will probably ask you to pose for them like "give me a twirl". This is so cute, they will get this feeling of relief and a release of pain by seeing you naked because they may be aware of your hesitancy when it comes to bearing yourself to others in that way, and they would feel proud of you as well. A lot of suppressed memories they may have had from their past relationships could also resurface, where they could end up, unconsciously comparing you to an ex of theirs who may have hurt them deeply. There is strong Knight and service energy here too I also saw someone getting on their knees to propose which could be relevant, anyways with the Knight energy I am feeling they may want you to ride them while they are fully clothed as well, they will get turned on by the contrast of you being fully vulnerable while they do not need to, however this could also be related to them being a little scared of you maybe scrutinising or judging their appearance because that could have been a point of contention in their previous relationships.
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