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For the most part I'm very very sleepy for the entirety of recovery, but there are some gems from the two most recent general anesthesia surgeries.
Wisdom teeth out, wake up with gauze in my mouth, think I'm eating chicken, chew on gauze but don't swallow. Gets upset because it has no flavor and there's no sauce to be found.
Later but same surgery, need to get shot for inflammation. Has to be in my ass cheek, still no idea why. Hate shots in my ass cheek, prefer upper arm or thigh where I can see it. Weird ik but the anticipation of the prick makes me jump when it happens more than when I can see exactly when it'll hit skin. Put up the fight of my life, kick nurse in boob, break down crying apologetically.
Sleep entire way home, watch some or other movie talking about how my mouth is a cloud the entire time. Sleep for 14 hours.
Second surgery, wrist surgery because nasty fracture that caused nerve damage. Apparently my heart stopped during this one? Idk the anesthesiologist didn't seem all that concerned about it. Wake up, friend says they couldn't find the chips I asked for pre surgery. I don't remember asking, and apparently now believe that that flavor of chips just does not exist. I'm arguing with said friend about the existence of this flavor of chips and my mom decides it's a good opportunity to shut me up by giving me some tea, except she doesn't want me to choke so she only gives me tiny tiny sips at a time. It was good tea I've never been able to recreate it. I decide I don't want tiny tiny sips anymore and I BITE THE TEACUP so I can tilt it to get more tea in my mouth.
Notice the bat sling my arm is in, tell the nurse very proudly that it's a bat swing. Start waxing poetic about bats playing on swings, before switching to bat fun facts. I know very little about bats. I spoke about them for 14 minutes. There was a video. I'm really sad I lost that it was marvelous.

Nicole Cliffe has a whole twitter thread about funny/horrifying anaesthesia stories that you should read all of, but this is definitely my favourite
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maybe a hot take idk
look I know many people are upset about the pricing/fee situation of the TIT livestream (me included, I was pissed as hell that I got a large surprise fee), and I hope everything gets sorted out. I’m proud of the phandom for being loud and demanding fairness from the platform. you will not get shit past us.
I understand that. however, I completely disagree with some opinions I’ve seen (mainly on twitter but whatever) that charging for the stream at all is greedy, especially for people who have already paid to see the show. this is a weird take imo because this stream is supposed to be an opportunity for people who didn’t get to go to see it with an audience as a communal experience. but if you already spent money and don’t want to spend more, don’t!
and I don’t know anything about anything but based on the very little information dnp have provided about the cost of touring, I really don’t think they have the option to just do the stream for free. this is just my opinion, but based on how dan said he lost money touring WAD, i would not be surprised if the livestream paid for the rights he needed to release it for free on YouTube (and the extremely important rights to play All Star in the credits). just because he wrote and performed it doesn’t mean he owned it. it would not surprise me at all if the profits from the stream don’t go to dnp only.
and also, Things Cost Money, including livestreams. I think the platform has really showed their ass, but if we remove them from the equation for a second - everyone who put on TIT, including Dan and Phil, deserve to be compensated for their work. I don’t expect them to bleed money into this project forever just because it made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I’m sure they’re doing just fine financially, but they are not and never have asked anyone to take food off their table to support them.
I actually find it really disheartening to see just how many people were like, legitimately, personally angry with dnp before they had even had a chance to respond to our concerns. I’ve been around long enough to remember when they announced TABINOF, there was an uproar about how they were sellouts because they were writing a book just like every other youtuber, making a shitty cashgrab when they had nothing to say. in the 2 days before we knew what the book would even be about, the Discourse had never been more annoying or mean spirited.
and it made me wonder, what are yall doing here if you assume the worst like that? have you just been waiting for the masks to slip? are you appalled that they participate in the heinous capitalistic act of selling their labor like everyone else? have your years of support not earned a little bit of grace when there’s a miscommunication?
I’m not saying approach everything like ‘they’ve never done anything wrong once in their whole lives and never will’, but the vitriol that seems to come out at minor fuck ups is alarming. some of yall do not like them and it shows. (I am looking directly at twitter dot com now)
I find that attitude really sad. after the TABINOF drama, I promised myself I’d never lose sleep over phandom nonsense again, so I’m going to bed, just had to get some thoughts out there. 💙
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Hey hey!!!
Not sure if you remember me but I'm the same anon from a whileeeee back who asked about eras Leon with a drunk gf on nights out! I loved it sm and I have been thinking if you had a take on eras Leon when gf gets weepy after a while of being drunk? Kinda like being super happy and fun to just crashing and crying and muttering stuff that doesn't make sense and feeling upset abt feeling upset if that makes sense? Idk, world's your oyster, go nuts.
(I know how this looks I swear I'm not an alcoholic I just like angst and comfort, I swear this is toooootally not self indulgent 😭😭)
Love your works your writing is so good!!
OMGG 🪡 My love I've finally gotten to it!!! I hope you enjoy it! I'm so happy you became one of my regulars omggg
Warnings: Drinking, Drunk!reader, Fluff, Comfort Fem!Reader

RE2:
It was a mistake to even drink whilst you were sad
Life had just hit a stand still, you were progressing in age but never felt like you did anything
When you called Leon to come and pick you up he wasn't expecting you to A) be at a bar and B) be that wasted
It was funny at first, seeing you stumble along side him but then he saw your face.
A cute little pout but your eyes held all the emotions. Only slightly hidden by the drunken haze
All he did was ask if you were okay and it all came spewing out
The shift in the attitude caught him off guard but then after a big hug and promise of cuddles at home you quietened down
Your silence is unnerving to him and he wants you to say something anything
It's not until you get home and he shuts the door that it spills out. He comforts you and doesn't judge, admitting that he sort of feels the same way.
He will get comfy at his place making sure you relax
He won't mention it in the morning unless you do. He'll go off based on your moods, focusing more on the hangover side of things.
RE4R:
He was away for a while and no one was telling you anything. In frustration you went for the bottle.
In your drunken state you forgot about him arriving back tonight so when he arrives he does not expect to be dealing with a drunk you
It seemed fine at first, besides the smell on your breath and the drunken slurred words you seemed happy
Unless you saw the scraps and bruises along his skin, that's when you remembered why you drank
It takes him a few hours for you to calm down and reassure you that he's perfectly fine
He'll skip out the bit where he got infected for now
Infact he finds the whole thing sweet in a weird way that you were worried that much
He will prompt you to find more suitable coping mechanisms when he is gone though (like he's one to talk)
Infinite Darkness:
He never really thought he would go to these types of galas etc
But at least he managed to convince you to be a plus one. After all the events was to celebrate the success in panamstan
You felt fine until the insecurities began to filter in, Leon's Co workers getting under your skin with their jealous
He should have noticed it faster but when he returned with the next round of drinks you looked at him with the pout that broke his heart
Your words slurred a little bit, perhaps your mood was effected slightly more with this
Thankfully he took it as a ticket to get out of here, guiding you to the car and taking you home
The entire way you put yourself down, hair all messy and touch ups you did to yourself was now running down your face
So he took care of you, helped you into his favorite shirt. Spraying some cologne in the neckline.
He washed your face, brushed your hair
He treated you like a doll, his perfect partner
Damnation:
You chose to come over and drink with him not realizing he needed the stronger stuff
It started with some movies and just general laughing both you and the drink keeping away any of his thoughts
But you could see the sad look on his face when the laughter stopped
And if he was sad you were going to be as well
Leon faltered when he saw you cry at first not really sure what caused it. I can imagine him looking back and forth at the tv like what?
When you spill what's been eating at you he freezes. Like you actually care that much about him?
His care is silent, most of his emotions are in the way he then holds you gently to soothe the tears. Whispers to reassure you that he is okay
You don't know that he's also crying, just a small tear nothing major
He makes sure that you are okay, stopping the drinking for tonight
RE6:
After having to relive his trauma in China he's very much excited to come home. Except he forgot one tiny detail...he faked his death
Of course you would have been greeted with the flag and two soldiers, of course you would be mourning and grieving over his fake loss.
So he shouldn't have been surprised when he walked through the door to see you looking like a mess drunk and scared
It took him a second watching your drunk mind trying to comprehend how the fuck he's standing there
It's not until he touches you that you start to cry
He doesn't care. Nope. After all it is sort of his fault that you are even in this state
He won't explain it, you'll probably forget everything and he'll repeat the whole process again
Instead he holds you, cradling you as you weep and drunkenly speak about your feelings
The whiplash of emotions are intense for him, he's still feeling on edge and dealing with his own troubles as well
But despite your crying you help him and so he'll help you always
Vendetta:
You weren't sure who's idea drunk Jenga was but it was a bad one
The both of you went from being playful taking shots when you pulled out that particular block to silently crying
Leon was crying because he finally felt happy tonight, like a slither of hope wormed it's way in his life when you were both laughing only for it to be stopped when the coats on the door looked too much like a silhouette from his past
He silently cried, trying not to kill the mood but you noticed and when he explained what happened you cried
He finally caved to touch and brought you into his arms like a weighted blanket
Instead of his own head he focused on you, on stopping your tears with promises that he'll be okay
And lots of kisses, forehead, hands everywhere he can reach
Death Island:
Girls night went to shit and Leon was definitely not expecting the call for him to pick you up so early into the night
Your friends were jealous of him, projecting their insecurities onto you in the hopes you'll leave him.
Your drunken mind could compute if he was angry at you, that you interrupted his one peaceful night away from you
So when he pulled up and you started sobbing the word sorry at him. He was confused
He helped you into the car constantly reassuring you he wasn't mad and that's what he was here for
It's not until you get home that the real flood gates happen and again he just patiently listens to you until it stops or you pass out
He'll help you dress down, taking off make up and getting you into sleepwear (which is just his boxers and shirt at this point)
In the morning he'll want you to explain everything again so he can really nail it into your head that youa re the only one for him
(plus morning head is the best cure for a hangover)
#~mads rambles#~mads~mail💌#leon kennedy#leon kennedy x reader#resident evil x reader#leon s kennedy x reader#resident evil#resident evil fanfiction#leon scott kennedy#leon kennedy x you#~🪡 anon
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For those having Byler doubt just remember that during the rink-o-mania fight Will was the one trying to redirect the conversation back to friendship. While Mike was the one perceiving everything Will said as romantic. You don’t write an unrequited love story like that. Plain and simple. If it’s truly one sided you don’t have the other side —Mike— be the one finding all the romantic undertones in everything Will is saying to him and poking and prodding at it to find if there’s maybe (just maybe) something there. You don’t have him getting all defensive and flustered and shutting down something that only got brought to the surface because he brought it there. If it’s truly one sided it would stay that way. Period.
LITERALLYYYY like i find it really interesting that they made him the one confirmed to be in love with mike - this was likely because will seems to act like all he wants is to be best friends with mike no matter what, so it would be hard to determine whether he's in love with mike without clear confirmation from other scenes.
they reallyyyy don't write unrequited love like that, usually with unrequited love, they have the person on the love side (will in this case) be completely hopeful, but in this case, all will wants is to be mike's friend even if that means hiding his feelings and being sad forever.
idk if i worded this correctly haha bc im busy rn woops
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(I put an abridged version of this untagged on my blog but honestly i need to give it a longer tagged write-up)
So Yuta saw this side of my sign before his match against Willie Mack at the Oakland Collision:

while he was looking at the hard cam (which is where I was front row with @sonnykissed) and yelled “he’s DEAD he’s DEAD” right at me to which I think I cursed my head off at him idk I go into automatic when it comes to Bryan and slander and also Yuta being a shit post-murder.
(Watching it back now here’s what the camera caught: here’s the tail-end of him yelling ‘DEAD’ while I point at him and wave the sign and say ‘fuck you!’ I’m pretty sure 🤣)
So I’m randomly waving the sign during the match at times while also trying to update y’all on things

He does I have till 5 which I mostly miss and then once again curse him the fuck out (while apparently Nigel on comm also calls him out for it and also for Bryan ( thanks for that info @shes-a-voodoo-child)
When I listened back Nigel said “people questioned Yuta, I questioned Yuta when Moxley forced him to do what he did to Bryan Danielson” and then “I have till 5 an oft repeated phrase from the American Dragon Bryan Danielson, again Wheeler Yuta reveling on the fact that he was the one that caused the end Bryan Danielson’s career, at least for the time being.” AT LEAST FOR THE TIME BEING. do you miss your dragon Nigel? Do you know something? Are you gonna visit him in Napa while he’s on child and chicken duty before Sacramento and plot a revolution return? (A girl can dream okay)


So then Mox comes. I try to get him to see my sign but he doesn’t. He tries to brainwash Yuta into “finishing the job” and I yell over and over “don’t do it don’t do” (at that point we didn’t know he was telling him to take out cope on weds we thought he just wanted him to take out Mack which also happened) I can definitely hear myself screaming in the clip although none of the words are clear I’m sure I’m sure I’m booing and calling him a piece of shit among other things

But then I watch him in the ring stroke that briefcase, like lovingly stroke it and I see emotion on his face, real emotion and I’m like oh shit, What’s happening here? An Actual Yuta conflicted character arc after so long with legit nothing?
And my first thought as he stroked that briefcase that way was what was inside it. And the last time he ever saw what was inside it. And who was wearing it. And who it belonged to.
And I know for sure he was thinking of it, too. In fact it was pointed out to me by @extracurriculargrief that the last time he ever even touched the belt was this moment:

Was that going through his head?
So he’s leaving the ring and I’m still kinda pissed at him for doing mox’s dirty work even while realizing he could now be Going Through It and I start screaming “THINK ABOUT IT YUTA!!” while waving the still missing Bryan Danielson part of my sign. The same part he dismissed to me earlier.
(Apparently I can be seen on camera yelling at him on the fite feed. I have not been able to find the fite feed yet.)
And he’s standing by the ring post and turns to look at me while I repeat it over and over and he is staring at me, staring at the sign, solemn and serious and I can see his eyes because he moved his hair during that whole emotional moment and he says to me “I will. I will. I will” while nodding and still clutching that briefcase to his chest, still totally and fully in character.
And I nod to him and I think I smile a small sad smile, just completely overcome, and then I collapsed into @sonnykissed because that emotionally drained me and YEAH folks
Never expected to contribute to the death riders storyline (especially when I’d all but given up on them actually continuing the Yuta part of it in terms of Bryan) but here we are
Here we are. I have no idea what will happen here:
I’m going to the sacramento show and I was already planning to bring the same sign (but to update the days) but now I’m pretty sure I’m also going to update it with words coming out of the sad dragon’s mouth. He’ll be saying “think about it Yuta.”
#wheeler Yuta#bryan Danielson#aew#all elite wrestling#death riders#i….contribute to the narrative i Guess?#bryanwheeler
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First off thank you @vhagar-balerion-meraxes and @dr-aegon for tagging me. This one made me think and i enjoyed filling it out. 🌈
What's the origin of your blog title? I’ve always thought mermaids were such fun fantasy beings. And really fun to believe in. Plus they’re my sister’s favorite (I’m a fairy girl…idk why I didn’t pick fairy but it’s who I am now). Labyrinth is a roll over from my old blog name (lost-in-lokis-labyrinth) but was just too much so I just took labyrinth. Plus, I really like Ariadne from the myth.
OTP(s) + shipname: Serena/Darien (I don’t think they have a ship name. Sailor Moon; old school dub [Forever sad my tapes got ruined 😭]), Kylux (Kylo Ren & Hux [Star Wars]), Harringrove (Billy Hargrove & Steve Harringston [Stranger Things]), Daemond (Aemond & Daemon [House of the Dragon])
I like how the three people above me are like: Aegond 🥰. And I'm over here like: ...Daemond 😃.
Favourite colour: Lavender
Song stuck in your head: Boss Bitch -Doja Cat (I had to look up the title and who sang it). I may have been watching a video about Daemon I have on my phone with this song.
Weirdest habit/trait: I am very particular where things go in the fridge and freezer. Like only liquids on the top shelf in the fridge. Nice, neat, organized. My mom asked the other day about it when she caught me moving a container to the second shelf. I said “yes, it drives me nuts.” Also my room, I’ll know if something is out of place. Even if it looks like it was haphazardly put there.
Hobbies: Writing, reading, rewatching shows from my younger years, making memes of my HotD OMC for my Pinterest boards, got back into drawing
If you work, what's your profession? I take care of my mother. And help out with my nephews.
If you could have any job you wish, what would it be? Be paid to travel or do nothing.
Something you're good at: Organizing. Cleaning. Set me loose in a home and will make every thing tidy and clean (except the bathtub…idk why but no).
Something you collect: Pins. Mostly Disney, Sailor Moon, cryptid, pride. Monster High Dolls (og) but only if I find them out shopping at thrift stores.
Something you forget: Simple tasks. If I don’t write it down I can get side tracked…
What's your love language? I just like to help or get something for someone.
Favourite movie/show: Ever After, I can watch that at any point in the movie. // Roseanne (88-97 series), season 9 sucked but there were a handful of good episodes in it.
Favourite food: Falafels and naan. With baklava for dessert.
Favourite animal: Elephant. They are the first thing I want to see at the zoo. I know it’s frowned upon now but I am so happy I got to ride one as a child.
What were you like as a child? Odd. Very imaginative. I could easily play by myself. Ornery (my grama called me that a lot, others just called me a brat). I was a spirited child and didn’t back down easily.
Favourite subject at school: English
Least favourite subject: Science tied with math (terrible teachers). Honorable mention: PE
What's your best character trait? I’m willing to listen. I may not give good or any advice, but I will listen to what you have to say.
What's your worst character trait? I can be quite stubborn. In my family we call it the ‘[Grampa’s last name] Gene’. Bc it seemed like everyone related to that side is beyond stubborn.
If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? That I could travel to places I would love to see.
If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? I think it would have been fun to meet my mom when she was in her twenties to early thirties. Like just before she had me. She was such a lively, fun person. The stories I’ve heard, I’d like to see them first hand.
GET TO KNOW YOUR MUTUALS
@lonnson thank you so much for the tag!🫶
What's the origin of your blog title? It's an oxymoron-ish rendition of one of my childhood nicknames (Snow White).
OTP(s) + shipname: Hannigram (Hannibal Lecter and Will Graham, NBC Hannibal); Mary and Matthew Crawley, Downton Abbey (no ship name afaik); Farawyn (Faramir and Eowyn, The Lord of the Rings); Tomgreg (Tom Wambsgans and Greg Hirsch, Succession); Aegond (Aegon II and Aemond Targaryen, Fire&Blood/House of the Dragon)
Favourite colour: green
Song stuck in your head: The Line by Twenty One Pilots
Weirdest habit/trait: refusing to do certain things just on principle, without any kind of rational explanation (it doesn't happen often but some of those principles are very silly)
Hobbies: travelling, reading, writing poems, listening to music, watching movies/TV shows, making collages that I pretty much never post
If you work, what's your profession? I head a division of the Fares and Services department in a public transportation company.
If you could have any job you wish, what would it be? Project management (it's pretty close to my current job, so I'm fine in that regard).
Something you're good at: planning events and mediating conflicts
Something you hate: having to defer to stupid people's judgment
Something you collect: chopsticks
Something you forget: buying salt🤣 For some reason I'm always caught off guard when I run out of it and then go without for a solid week because my brain just can't process the fact that the salt is gone.
What's your love language? Problem solving.
Favourite movie/show: The Lord of the Rings, Love Actually, Inception (movies); Hannibal, Succession (shows)
Favourite food: OMG, I don't even know! I'm such a foodie that I can't really choose.
Favourite animal: cats
What were you like as a child? Very Hermione Granger-like.
Favourite subject at school: English and history
Least favourite subject: PE (mainly because the teacher was an effing tyrant)
What's your best character trait? I'm responsible and dependable.
What's you're worst character trait? I procrastinate way more than I should.
If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? I'd like to be more certain about the future (big freakin' detail, right).
If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? My maternal grandfather who died before I was born. He was a remarkable man; plus I've been told time and time again that I resemble him a lot, often in really uncanny ways.
No pressure tags: @vhagar-balerion-meraxes @very-straight-blog @autumnrose11 @heretherebebookdragons
#I had fun doing this#Ever After#Fandoms#Daemon Targaryen certified war criminal#Kylux#Stranger Things#Aemond Targaryen my little war criminal#My HotD OMC#HotD#Sailor Moon#Anime#Happy Moments
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I hate when I really enjoy a DR blog for a long time but then suddenly they post something either regarding Kaz or Fuyu (it’s usually Kaz) that I react so fucking viscerally to that I decide it’s best to forget about and block them so it doesn’t happen again.
But at the same time it makes me so sad. It’s nothing personal to the blog itself it’s me and my ever growing bond with my f/os. It’s slowly becoming more and more difficult for me to ignore things that only slightly offend me. Like for example, there’s only a single blog(if ya try you can probs guess who) I follow that I can tolerate Kuzuhina now. Every other blog about that ship that I’ve come across I’ve blocked and will continue to block.
#idk I just wanted to say that I find it sad#cuz I’m missing out on a lot of laughs and good art#but still#I love my boys and I’m not ashamed of being sensitive when it comes to them#I just can’t STAND it when Kaz is made fun of#he’s the fandom’s funny punching bag and I’m not that kind of person#I don’t personally think it’s enjoyable to mistreat my fav characters at all#I am not the one that will say ‘I wanna put him in a microwave’ or ‘i wanna throw him off a cliff’#not me ok?#I don’t get that#f/o stuff#fuyu💓#kaz✨#vent kinda
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The wrong DNA test
( what if, Sheila wasn't really Jason's mother? The system is already corrupted, then what about the test?).
A huge brawl containing every rogue had started at the time of Halloween, causing the people from downtown to fled there home's as joker had clownized the whole neighborhood with his goon's.
Every bats had taken to groups to take out the three parts of Gotham's as the rogue's had started to make alliances, some had lasted quite long while had conflicts, and causing a big damage to Arkham asylum,
It didn't take long before they captured all of them, none of the bats questions as they observed Jason glowing green eyes starting to flick, they thought it was the pit again, growing wary of the cooperation, but Crime alley was involved and that mean business to Red hood's turf.
Catherine todd love her son as her own even if not biological, Jason knew that. But her thing with drugs couldn't make her stop.
Sometimes after that, they could hear Jason humming a tune,a nice melody from Damian's statement saying that Jason muttered to him “ lullaby” as Jason continued to read his book, maybe it could be from Catherine,
they knew how Jason's past with Catherine todd, his mom even if not related, Catherine loves her son like her own kid but her doing drugs and... overdosing couldn't be stop.
Maybe Jason just remembered his mother maybe reminiscing atleast something familiar...even if it was a bad time.
Jason had constantly have been hearing a woman's? Man's? Voice, singing him a lullaby...it soothing, like as if he known and loved this melody...and that's where the dreams kept coming, there was a person, giving him kisses, Talkin to him stories, singing him lullabies and soothing him, he could dream that he was actually a baby, a baby from a normal couple, well don't count the luxurious baby room.
Jason had took out a conspiracies why he was getting this dreams, ( he swears he's not becoming Tim) and voices, maybe like a misshapen memories from the pits of victims? No it's to peaceful for that, maybe magic? He already contacted Constantine but surely hang up after knowing who it was-
Just how is he getting this dreams? Unless it wasn't.... So he proved again his point, he started a DNA test, again but none had records...of Sheila being his biological mother...that was weird, last time he had a test was from the time as robin..and before his-
So he went to that hospital who had said where Sheila had given birth to him, and most of shock is that no one knows a mother giving birth named Sheila haywood but had a document of a baby, of one Jason jay nightingale, the most believing part was that it's the same day he was born in.
His mother, Daniel F. Nightingale was said to be trans as the doctor who help his mother safely delivered him, And saying that his mother loved him,
one Sheila Haywood had the constant trick to get him and taken him as his own, because his mother's family was a wealthy one they practically sold him to her.
Jason had thought that maybe his mother's family never wanted him to have a son with a man from Gotham's crime alley.
Meanwhile Danny had just been YEETED to the DC universe before the start of Batman's justice thing and had been adopted by a very wealthy fruit loops couple as there kid, so he stayed as the couples daughter even pretending, because he owed ghost writer a favor for the last time, and as DC universe exist so it's story, and one thing for sure the child he had to give birth in this universe has a very complicated fate,
he did the one night stand from his supposed friend Willis Todd? He had to befriend him as Dalia F. nightingale the supposed Wealthy daughter who fell in love with a peasant trope, and gotten pregnant making it a scandal, and reaching to his ‘parents’ circle and getting that drama.
But he never thought he would care for his child, his little jay, his ghost side would purr in delight when they held Jason, he was a very hard sucker especially from his pacifier or his breast, it's so weird being in a women body,
but the way his ‘parents’ sold his son to the women who was supposed to get his son killed and being revived by cheap parody ass of ectoplasm.
He went feral, he had an argument to his ‘parents’ but all fell deaf ears, he couldn't find his son in one of the hotels nearby where that BXtch was.
And that time was where his part of the script was fulfilled, ghost writer already took him, both sides of his, were angry.
He. will. get. his. baby. back.
#dcxdp#Danny phantom#dcxdp crossover#Mom!Danny#Batfam#Jason todd#portraits#When the bats find this they decided to help find Jason's Mom only to find out she went missing#his Jay Nightingale now#yes- im getting of topic#so lets just say that clockwork has also has some things involved with his#dcdp#batfam#and ghostwriter#so if this doesn't go to your timeline aus or smth or cannon idk what to say#when the bats found out about Jason's investigation to find his mother#they gladly help but after finding where jason's grandparents who sold him to Haywood#they meet with them#and the whole revealed was much more depressing because His mother died/missing/suicide#Ghost writer was the one who plan the...The death scene.#so jason is sad#and very much wants his momma#because thats how ghost parents shit is right?#yeah i dont think im educated enough#So the grandparents are like grieving for there son (yes they accepted his trans btw).#and let jason and the rest of the batfam in there manor/castle ( cause there seriously old money) and introduce jason to his mom's things#portraits of danny#telling stories of danny in his youth.#but they avoided the way he ‘died’ for ghost writers plot conveniences but they mention#green...like ectoplasm but they just called it green liquid.
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arrives 15 min late with a latte
......sup
#yosuke hanamura#persona 4#cool now that its done i can ramble in the tags#fellas im surprised hes here and done#did not think that was gonna happen#fuck i forgot smth#eh ill fix it before i make my print#anywho i might make more i might not who knows not i#yukiko is the next one i have half an idea on but also i have some shining nikki designs rattling around with my sole braincell#i also made a shadow alt for the back but idk if i like the mouth so yall arent gonna see him#also i need to find a gold foil guy that does odd sizes and like moq of 1#bc i wanna do this in gold foil#and its tarot card size bc im dumb as hell#but i want a print for my wall and i know sure as shit no one else will want one hence the moq of 1#my heart wants to make the whole major arcana for p4 but my past completed works says °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・ 𝑛𝑜 °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・#so whatever gets done will get done#also im gonna reblog this a lot bc i put in too many hours to get a singular note by me so like if you dont wanna see it block me lmfao#if you have any hot takes for future cards please share with the class bc i only have ideas for yukiko and a full cast she does not make fr#so uh yeah yeehaw#idk what else to ramble about but like cannot believe yosuke fucking hanamura is the first chara to get a completed piece in 5 years#im not fucking kidding#the rest were all quick graphite or abandoned#hes not even my fave in p4- thats naoto protag chan kou and nanako#boys lucky to hit top 5#he just kinda crawled into my affection like some kind of sad pathetic creature idk how it happened either#maybe hes overprocessed now that im looking at it#nope i looked too long this is it this is how he is#ill do better by the women i promise
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Jaiden: Cucurucho, you have a lot of power, right?
Cucurucho: ...I don't know. Maybe.
Roier: Ah... Yes, you know, don't act like a dumbass, you have it. You have it, man. Eh?
Jaiden: Is there a way for us to protect all the Eggs? Do you know? I don't want anything to happen to the Eggs that happened to Bobby.
Cucurucho: Ha ha ha
Roier: WHAT? [Smacks Cucurucho]
Jaiden: [Bops him] Headpats.
Cucurucho: Maybe.
Jaiden: [Continues to bop him] Headpats. C'mon, I can get it out of you! Headpats! Chin scratches! Belly rubs!
Roier: [Joins Jaiden in bopping Cucurucho, chuckling and laughs]
Jaiden: Yeah? He's comin' around!
[Jaiden and Roier both laugh]
#Jaiden Animations#Roier#Cucurucho#QSMP#Jaiden#Animations Family#There is. So much I could say about these three#and so much I could say about their relationship / interactions with Cucurucho and Osito Bimbo#Cards on the table... I really would have loved it if Cucurucho / Osito genuinely cared about Jaiden#I mean I know they DID care about her to some extent that much is clear#But they / the Federation were also ABSOLUTELY using her. I'm not arguing that they weren't#But how could anyone not be charmed by Jaiden? The boba the tea parties the head pats–#The empathy and kindness and everything that made q!Jaiden who she was–#Cucurucho and Osito were tools of the Federation but I do want to believe they cared about Jaiden. Albeit in their own fricked up way#I dunno. I know this sounds like massive copium probably but I watched all of her and Roier's streams interacting with them#and I personally think that conflict and duality makes for a more interesting story#But that's just me and my own personal biases. I dunno how to properly put it into words but I am cradling them all close to my heart#I loved Cucurucho / Osito and I thought they were interesting and I'm SO SAD we'll never know what Jaiden did for them in the past#Anyways. For anyone who's read this far into my rant– you know how Cucurucho saved the Eggs and Jaiden said she died in Purgatory?#I like imagining that she survived the bomb and wound up finding the Eggs in the aftermath#and she helped them survive until Cucurucho found them#I imagine that Jaiden was the reason they were able to escape from the Island / The Watcher / ElQuackity#She stayed behind to slow down their pursuers. And Cucurucho rescuing all the Eggs fulfilled his agreement with Jaiden—#A promise to protect the Eggs#Like I said a lot of this is copium but that's what I like imagining#TLDR: Cucurucho / Osito did care about her in a weird way but that doesn't mean they weren't manipulating her#May 31 2023#Idk man I got a lot of emotions about q!Jaiden#Roier too but I feel like I've done way more analysis posts about him and Cucurucho. Jaiden needs time in the spotlight#Anyways there's my monthly tag rant
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favorite dialogue when one character is dying in front of another
"i think... i think im tired..."
"then rest. i'll be right here"
#birdcage rambles#when they say ''i'll be right here'' even tho they both know they wont wake up to see them again#writeblr#writers on tumblr#writing prompts#angst#idk how to tag this i just want fellow angst enjoyers to find this and spin around with me#honey are you okay? youre thinking about sad scenarios with characters dying again
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i haven’t been here much recently, and i’m sorry i’ve only been negative on the off chance i’ve been online, but let me just say one last piece before the end of this month, so that maybe the next might be better….
#or maybe my time here ends w this month…i’m not sure i guess it all depends on how i feel but as of right now#everytime i think i'm fine i open tumblr and immediately am sad again the whole app has become my doomscroll at this point#i got a notification on a random talking post from a while ago and it felt like reading the words of a completely different person#lately i find it difficult to find any joy here at all when it always feels so lonely… a type of loneliness i’ve never experienced before#everyone always has ppl interacting w them who are interested in their stuff or are always sent things that are reminiscent of them....#i’m always praised for remembering stuff abt other ppl but i wonder if anyone remembers anything abt me#what is it about me that is so forgettable am i dull am i uninteresting did i not solidify myself enough do you guys just not like me lolz#but i don't want this to come across as guilt tripping or being ungrateful to what i do have because ik comparison is the death of joy but#it's still hard to watch when it's so in your face and it makes me think if ppl only talk to me because they feel obligated to#because anyone can say empty words.... i wish my perception of things didn't turn bitter i wish i hadn't become so jaded but#over and over i've felt irrelevant cast aside overshadowed and i cannot exist in a place where i feel like i'm a ghost in the corner#idk i've never felt like This before and i'm at least glad it's something i can walk away from by just....leaving...#sad that this used to be somewhere i can run away To but now it's become somewhere i want to run away From#i don't know...even if i get over whatever this is...things will never be the same for me... i just don't think i belong here#if only i had never made this blog then i would have saved myself a world of turmoil
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im sad. extremely sad actually yeah. very sad indeedy.
#i am like so alone and sometimes ppl tell me that im not and theyre there for me but like#idk how to explain it#I don't want to talk to anyone or rely on anyone or be vulnerable with anyone because genuinely everyone is fucking mean#and ik thats some victim mindset shit. like usually im fine about it i can handle myself#but sometimes its just like idk :/ i wish ppl could be fucking normal and comforting and hold me and just not make me deal#with their shittyness. like its ok if ur a mean person or u wanna say mean things to me please just shut up and hold me anyway????#like its fine please godddd#i want human connection so badly but i doubt everyone and i never believe anyone and whenever i do its like im a fucking IDIOT#uvvhhghvhgh#guys its just my period coming i guess. im not actually this sad its just my fuckass bitch fuck stupid hormones#ugghhgnbjbjg#i havent made ny bed either. its just the bare mattress (which i find rly gross i always want the cover on it)#and ny clothes and shower items on it#i might just sleep luke this though using my hoodie and a pillow.
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also not really a vent but ? more personal idk
anyone else ever get sad cuz someone you really liked and thought was your friend blocked you without saying anything (bonus points if you'd previously discussed how shitty / triggering behavior like that is) but they're still friends / partners with some of your mutuals so you have to see them on your dash. and like. you wish them well, because they were your friend and you cared / still care about them, but at the same time you just want to be like DNI cuz this person hurt me and I thought they were my friend (even tho you know that won't fix anything or make you feel better, so you don't + you don't need or want to make it a spectacle ooc)
which, I don't need to disclose this but. I wouldn't make a DNI anyway. at least, not without good reason and proof.
I guess it's also like. I'm worried if I was like hey DNI people would choose them over me ? idk. it just. hurts to see them and wonder what I did wrong I guess. I feel betrayed more than anything; like, no one owes you an explanation for why they block you, it's not always easy to communicate that anyway, but that doesn't mean it hurts less or isn't confusing ? cuz it does hurt, and it is confusing, and it does make you question yourself and your value. which sucks.
but anyway. feeling sad / lonely about this so.
#《 ° puffin.exe 》 im a puffin ! i dont do much#° mobile post !#° personal !#also i find it sad that this applies to multplie people currently for me. which. no hate to them tbh. i genuinely do wish them the best ♡#but it certainly doesnt help cuz now im wondering if im just generally unlikelable / problematic / the problem and thats why people block.#which. if i i knew i would try to change ! i want to be better ; ; so im just. left wondering. worrying.#also edit to say / add that these ARE people i talked to and plotted / interacted with. so i think my perception of friendship is reasonable#especially cuz we were having conversations about more than just our characters#idk why im defending myself i just feel like i have to akaisjsjs
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just got a dm abt one of my posts and y'all please don't try and show the hermits (or any minecraft youtuber or content creator for that matter) my posts, i'm uncomfortable with it and don't want any of my posts shown to a cc. if they stumble upon it naturally that's unfortunate but i can live with it since i do maintag a lot (something i REALLY need to stop doing tbh i already know i need to make a tagging system just for my blog that wont clog results) but going out of ur way to show a cc is entirely different and something i am not comfortable with.
no hate to the person at all but even if i wasn't a little silly and weird with it sometimes i wouldn't be comfortable with it, i want my blog to be a purely fandom only space with none of the creators involved <3 please respect this
#which is imo how a fandom space should be#i'm old fashioned and it breaks the fandom etiquette rules i stand by#i ship and stuff and absolutely NO cc needs to be subjected to that please and thank you even if it's a non-ship post#not saying hermits and others cant hang out and interact if they wish hell no but like....#if you as any person with a following willingly go into a fandom space you have to expect to see some things you find weird#doesn't even necessarily mean ship just stuff the cc finds weird :v idk im not phrasing this right but like#the rule with shipping around any sort of media has been to keep it away and not show the creators anything !!! and thats fallen out#of practice the past few years with ppl getting more and more comfortable demanding boundaries and personal info from creators#which isn't right imo bc its like you're trying to see how much you can get away with. u want a guide on how to interact and social skills#which is... huh??? just be polite and keep anything weird away from them like what we were doing#some folks nowadays need “permission” to ship stuff even from SHOWS and shit with no real people and its like wow... huh....#u need it to be canon?? u need everything told to u by the show?? wheres the imagination. the spirit.#the making of everything so far removed from what it once was#like that guy that played nick from heartstopper that had to be outed to play a gay guy. like#idk im so sick of the boundary fandom ppl in mcyt 'what if they saw and made it uncomfortable!! im going to show them!!!!'#you are making them MUCH more uncomfortable than i am by GOING INTO THEIR FACE AND DEMANDING THEY LOOK AT IT!!#AND DEMANDING BOUNDARIES N SHIT... CRAZY.... idk the hermits especially its weird to me bc clearly they understand fandom etiquette#and the dynamic im talking about. most of them understand that by going into fandom spaces they will see things they dont like#which is why a lot of them only like fanart and answer questions asked by fans. even on tumblr !!! where the weird ppl are!!!#they also all seem to understand they are playing characters (citing joel cleo and grian as examples) for their audiences#which is. smth the audience itself doesnt understand most of the time anymore. oh my god they all died in real life in hermitcraft season 8#idk hermitblr used to be a lot more okay with hermitshipping n then a bunch of ppl from other fandoms moved in and its all more negative#and makes me sad. idk...#i never meant for this blog to gain almost 500 followers i just wanted to make silly little ship posts and now im scared to#bc ive gotten hate and its.... bwugh.... tempted to remake blogs and make one thats very clearly just for me and a few weirdos#whatever i went off on a tangent in the tags as usual just pls dont show creators my posts even non-ship ones for this reason#jamies bad posts#talking in tags#serious posts#<- ig??? idk
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thinking about the person i could have been if i tried a little harder to find my own way
#probably the thing i am resenting my parents for right now is how good they were at convincing me#not to pursue any career paths other than the ones they laid out#every time i was like hey this seems interesting should i check it out? they would be so quick with the#do you care enough about it to stake your livelihood on it? to do it for your whole working life?#and obviously 8 yo 12 yo 14 yo 17 yo 18 yo me would get terrified and go no sorry and just not look into anything further#supposedly this is the safe option but everything i do feels meaningless#all of the jobs in this field seem meaningless#the job market in this field right now is dog shit and I'm fighting like hell for positions that just make me sad to think about#but every time i think hey what if i tried another thing#now my brain shuts me down with the do you care enough about it to stake your livelihood on it#your whole life on it#and the answer is no and it's gonna be no for a long time i bet#don't know if I'll ever find my way out of it#told my roommate's boyfriend about my general dispassion for pretty much everything in life#he asked me if I'm even a person#which feels very true#i feel like this path I've followed if i keep following it#I'm not going to be a person i can be proud of#i know it's really early in my life to say but#idk if it's nature or nurture or my own damn fault but all the ambition has been weaned out of me and I've been getting just surviving#i just wish i got told more you can be whatever you want to be :)#instead of whatever you'll do you'll be good at so do what makes money and push your hobbies to the side you can do them after you retire#your mom likes this and you're good at it so you'll like it too it'll make you money this is the best thing#the other thing is harder and doesn't make as much money don't do that you won't like it that much i bet#when i was younger#maybe I'd be struggling more but I'd be really happy and fulfilled#or maybe this is genuinely the best timeline and eggs who tried to pursue art hates it now#maybe I'd be really stupid at all the other things i gave a passing glance at#eggsistential speaks#tag rant
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